I've always thought there was a good chance that pike's secret crush was actually scanlan. But that it was the embarrassed, 'ugh, why self why' sort of crush, because it's embarrassing to like someone who can't seem to distinguish flirting from skeeve, regularly goes off to screw other people in front of you, and also tends to shit on things, no matter that he's also caring and funny and Extra and there's genuine love as friends.
Like my theory as to why they weren’t together was that it’s not that she liked someone else, she just had too much self-respect. It added an extra layer of ouch to some of their conversations, particularly the one where she was like ‘let’s just sleep with each other and see what happens,’ and the ones where he promised to back off and just be friends. I also think he tended to idealize her before (though he’s not alone in that), he may even have said so/apologized? It’s just. All gut punches.
ohhhhhh man I hadn’t even thought of that. yeah it would make sense with Ashley’s “someone you know is all wrong for you” explanation too heck