why are you destroying the quality

re: artists working themselves to death and why the HECK is this the standard

the entire thing about the death of an animator in japan due to overwork is exactly why i am completing chapter 1 of 1989nk in months, not weeks.

this has been one of my biggest fears getting this project off the ground. the standard for work output by artists is set so fucking high nowadays. we’re ALL expected to perform at the level of the outlier. (This was apparent to me as early as in Art School, when we were all treated like we were absolutely fucking useless for not being able to do an entire 5 minute 3D animated film all by ourselves like that one guy in our program.) Artists who overwork themselves and overachieve (whether by perceived necessity or choice) unfortunately create an illusion to consumers and employers that their level of performance should be the standard. It creates a nasty cycle, because more artists start trying to adhere to that standard and it gets passed on and on and on.

i’m honestly fully expecting my deadline for chapter one to be too long of a wait for some people. “This other artist got their 30-40 page comic done in 6-8 weeks, why is yours going to take 6-8 months?”

listen, its because i don’t want to not be able to draw for the rest of my life at 30. I dont want to destroy my wrist and make myself ill and make the quality of the comic suffer because i have to live up to the vicious overwork cycle that’s completely blanketed the digital art/media/comics scene. If another artist takes only a few weeks to do their comic? Fine, but you know, theyre most likely suffering BADLY for it, and even THEY shouldn’t have to do that. They really, really shouldn’t. Overwork and over achievement frankly needs to stop being praised and heralded, because its not only extremely damaging to the artist themselves, but it also creates that cycle i mentioned.

Trying to keep up with the immense production quantity and speed that other artists seem to be doing has never, ever been possible for me and I’ve occasionally tried, only to seriously break myself. Even the amount of work I do is considered a lot by some, so then how is it that to me, it always feels like chicken scratch? It feels like i’m STILL not doing enough, ever. Even with the amount of work I do, I still feel like a lazy sack of shit and feel crippling guilt when I’m taking a break to do anything else but draw. I constantly feel like I’m losing the race. That isn’t right. That isn’t fair.

i just really, really hope that people don’t see my production time for 1989nk and go “that’s too long, artists don’t take THAT long to do work” because. well. honestly, they should.

how i organize
  •  one-subject notebooks. 
    • These saved my life. I know everyone’s always saying to keep your stuff in one place and keep track of it all at once, and the way to do that is (apparently) thick, 5-subject looseleaf notebooks and 3″ binders. These have never worked for me, and here’s why: the larger the notebook, the more it catches and rips and doesn’t close right. 
    • Plus, the larger the notebook, the longer you use it, and the longer it has to survive that wear and tear! (Bonus: without having to worry about the notebook being destroyed, I also don’t have to buy the more expensive and durable brands; now I only pay for quality of paper and pretty colours!)  
    • So, I use one-subject notebooks for each class and go through multiple (I’ve never noticed a significant cost difference). A single one-subject notebook lasts me 4-6 units, or about one quarter/half a semester. When I complete a notebook, I simply begin the next, and carry only the newest one with me places. The previous notebooks are kept in my study space so I can always reference them as though it’s one large book, and I rarely need the previous chapters for in-class work. 
    • I start with one notebook per class plus one notebook purely for scribbles or rip-out looseleaf paper, and keep a supply of empty notebooks at my permanent study space.
  • central grade collection. 
    • I do this because it’s easy to reference back to. Soooo many terrible teachers who simply don’t trust their students. Feels nice to whip out a test to prove you were right (and aced it!). Calculating the grade myself makes me more aware of what’s going on with my academics. My biggest downfall this year was not paying attention to my grades!
    • I used to use an accordion folder for this, but this year I’m going to try combining that with a digital file.
    • Whenever I receive a grade back, the paper copy goes in a physical folder and the percentage/grade itself goes onto a file on my computer.
    • The physical folder is organized by classes. As I receive grades back, the newest goes in the front, so each class is naturally ordered chronologically. I tried organizing it further by putting flags to tell apart tests, quizzes, essays, etc. It worked well but eventually I just didn’t bother.
    • The computer file is actually multiple files (again, one for each class). An excel spreadsheet or a simple word doc works well. I specify the material as much as possible (for example, “Unit 1: Trig. Quiz 1: Identities. Date: 7-4-2015″ using both words and numbers) so I can easily search for it later. Next to it goes the numerical and letter grade. I’m thinking of incorporating a note-taking system as well, listing what went wrong and such.
    • This sounds like a lot of work, but it takes very little time and is well worth it. Logging the grades take about 5 minutes, tops. I often find myself putting off work by organizing grades. Obviously it’s hard to log things instantly, so I keep a stack of “to be graded” on my desk until I get around to it.
    • Oh, and keep the physical folder safe in your room/dorm. Carrying it around for spiteful moments is not worth the risk of losing all your grades!
  • separate days.
    • I don’t know about you, but my school has something similar to a block schedule. Monday, Wednesday, Fridays all have the same classes. Tuesdays and Thursdays have the same classes as well. My method works for real block scheduling, too, for even/odd or on/off days. I once had a chronic problem of bringing in the wrong day’s homework. Not anymore!!
    • Basically, just keep the two workpiles separate.
    • I have two cabinets on my desk: one for MWF classes, one for TTh classes. On my desk at all times are my “daily” tools: laptop, charger, planner, pencil pouch, water bottle, etc.
    • In the morning, I always put my dailies in first so I don’t forget, then I check the calendar. Tuesday? Shove in the TTh stack. It’s as simple as that.
    • When actually doing my homework, obviously, prioritize. There isn’t a hardfast “do your homework the day you get it” rule, especially since studying is a process! But when nothing’s especially urgent and I don’t have a favourite assignment, I literally flip a coin.
  • computer files have to be neat.
    • I have so many subfolders I don’t know what to do with them.
    • Separate everything, again, and again, and again. And label it all to hell and back. You can never have a file title that’s too long.
  • You know how you can make multiple accounts on your computer? Admin vs user? Yeah, do that.
    • Make your admin account your free-time, slacker account.
    • Make your user account your work account.
    • Make all the settings admin-only accessible. Don’t get distracted by downloading random crap while doing your homework. Put restrictions on internet usage, gameplay, etc. To get distracted, you have to make the effort to enter an admin password every time you get off task.
    • Bonus: during presentations, you never have to worry about accidentally opening something embarrassing. Everything embarrassing should be in your personal account!
  • Lastly: don’t stress! 
    • When I stress, everything gets disorganized. My mind gets cluttered and so does the rest of my life. I used to stress so hard about grades.
    • If you don’t think you can make the deadline, don’t. One grade is not worth a night of sleep and mental health.
    • If the grade is super important (not all grades are like this: prioritize!) work on it as hard as you can. Don’t stress; put all that stressful energy into the work. Focus your ass off. If you can’t do that, it’s time to stop.
    • Talk to the teacher the next day. Take responsibility for your mistake. Apologize, and do not give excuses. Show to your teacher that you care more about the learning than the grade; it will pay off in the long run.
    • The day after missing a huge assignment is rough. Don’t let it get to you! Dwelling on this assignment only sets you up for failure on any other assignments you have that day. Focus on those and not on what you did wrong. Have yourself a good break, snack, jog, and get back in there. The world isn’t over!

(A/N): Haaaaa, I didn’t know how to start this or title it so please bare with me 

Request:  How about a Nat x female reader imagine where the reader has hobby of making plushie version of the Avengers and she sleeps while cuddling with a Nat plushie but Tony finds out and everyone except Nat teases her, which causes the reader to become self-conscious and stops cuddling with it until one night she had to share a room with Nat during an undercover mission and the reader has a hard time sleeping until she timidly asks Nat if she can cuddle with her?

Warnings: none

Tags: @mcuimxgine, @ifoundlove-x0vanessa0x, @saradi1018, @holland-toms, @superwholockian309, @fly-f0rever, @capbuckthor, @sxph-t

Originally posted by sjohanssonsource

   You had a hobby for…well you had a hobby for making stuffed versions of all the avengers. It had started out as a gag, something to make everyone smile but you soon realized that you loved to do it, you liked to sew and expel your creativity and if making stuffed versions of your teammates is what did it then so be it. After that you realized that you could make a little profit of your work and you decided to start selling some of your plushies? Why the hell not? They were great quality and there was hardly any avengers themed stuff out there. So you opened up a small online shop and sold nearly all your plushies in one day, from then on out it became a sort of business for you, a job beside your Shield work. Unfortunately for you someone just had to find out, destroying all your creativity in one sitting. 

   “So uh (Y/N)?” Tony asked one morning, a mouthful of yogurt as you prepared breakfast for yourself. “I noticed all your fabric and thread in your room? What’s up with that?” You tense a bit, praying Tony hadn’t seen anything more. 

   “I just do some sewing as a side project,’ You mutter, sipping on some coffee as you do. 

   “And does making stuffed versions of your teammates count as a ‘side project’?” You nearly choke on your hot coffee, the liquid burning your throat as it travels down your throat wrong. 

   “W-What?” You ask, your face beet red. 

   “I looked in your room, saw the patterns and fabric colors…I also happened to glance at the Natasha one you had on your bed,” Tony smirks, leaning forward onto his elbows as he stared at you. “You uh- you sleep with that thing or what?” You blush madly, wishing nothing more than to bury your face and hide away. 

   “I sell them, I have an online shop and-” 

   “But you’re sleeping with one?” Tony asks, his smirk ever growing. 


   “Oh my god you are,” Tony nearly cackles, throwing his head back as he laughs heartily. “Oh my god that’s so ridiculous,” You bite your lip as embarrassment floods through your veins, leaving you feeling insecure and drained. “You’re a grown ass woman (Y/N), what the hell are you still sleeping with stuffed animals for?” You shrug your shoulders, staring down at your cup of coffee. “Oh my god, that’s comedy gold right there,” Tony wipes at his eyes, snorting once again. 

   “I’m-” You blush, your insecurities getting the better of you. “I’m gonna go eat breakfast in my room,” You whisper quickly, grabbing your toast before walking out of the kitchen as quickly as possible, not wishing to receive more of Tony’s insults. 

   “Oh come on (Y/N),’ Tony chuckles, wiping at his eyes again. “It was just a joke-” You don’t hear the rest as you slam your door shut, placing your food on your side table before falling back onto your bed, sighing heavily as you do. Your eyes land on your sewing machine and all your materials, that shame and insecurity returning once again. 

   Welup, Tony had officially drained any creativity and confidence you had. You turn your head away from your supplies, your eyes catching on the red fabric of Nat’s hair. Even more shame bubbles within you and you can’t help yourself when you pick up the toy and chuck it to the other side of the room, your insecurities getting the better of you. Well, if Tony was going to make fun of you then why should you give him reason to? If you just stopped making the things and sleeping with them then surely his ridicule would have to stop, right? Your spirits only brightened slightly knowing that you were going to have to give up your favorite hobby wasn’t an easy thing to stomach but you could manage…or at least you hoped you could. 

   The not crafting part had been easy, it was the sleeping part that was hard. Without something to hold in your sleep you simply couldn’t fall asleep, it was useless and impossible. You could toss and turn all night and you’d still never get a lick of sleep. In turn your lack of sleep was affecting your training, your missions, and your paperwork. It wasn’t easy to train with Steve Rogers when you were running on quite literally 0 hours of sleep. It was hard to fight everyday criminals when you barely could keep your eyes open, and it was hard to write a 3 page paper on your unsuccessful mission when you were nearly in pain from how tired you were. 

   Despite all your obvious problems everyone thought that you’d be okay to go ahead on some mission, one dealing with a few undercover agents trying to steal some artifacts. It was you and Nat on the mission, the two of you posing as a couple to get close to the thieves but it was hard to focus on the mission when you could barely keep your eyes open. 

   “(Y/N),” Nat nudges you gently, her elbow digging into your ribs. “Are you good? You look kinda tired?” 

   “Oh-” You mutter, yawning a bit as you wipe at your eyes. “I’m good, just a little hungry is all,” You lie. Truth be told you hadn’t been eating much, your lack of sleep also eliminating your appetite. Nat stares at you skeptically, her hand reaching out to grasp yours gently. 

   “How much sleep did you get last night?” She asks, her tone soft and caring. 

   “Hmm, I’m not sure, maybe an hour or two?” You lie again, hoping Nat wouldn’t see through your lie. Nat looks down to her watch, checking the time before looking back up to you. 

   “It’s nearly 8, I think you need to go to bed,” 

   “No,’ You shake your head, attempting to clear the permanent fog that had collected there. “No, You need my help and-” 

   “You’re going to bed (Y/N),” Nat mutters, standing from her seat as she grabs your hand. “And you’re not gonna argue,” You try to pull your hand back but you were so exhausted you could barely move, much less rip your grip from one of the strongest women you know, so rather than put up a weak fight you follow her along, trudging along as you attempted not to trip on your own two feet. Nat lets go of your hand for a moment to get the key to your room, opening the door quickly to pull you inside. You did have to admit the bed looked so soft and so tempting but without something to hold you knew it was going to be pointless. 

   “Shoes off,” Nat demands, pointing to your feet. You tiredly kick your shoes off, closing your eyes once again. “Get in bed,” She whispers, her tone demanding but light. 


    “Bed. Now.” With a sigh you flop back against the mattress, nearly whimpering at the coziness of it. Even with how soft and warm it was you knew you wouldn’t be able to fall asleep, not without something to- Your thoughts cut short when the bed dips beside you and Nat’s slender arms wrap around your waist, pulling you to her body. She was warm and smelled like all things heavenly. Her skin was soft to the touch and you immediately relaxed against her embrace. 

   “It’s been hard sleeping, hasn’t it?” Nat asks, her warm voice washing over you in waves, slowly calming and soothing you. 

   “Yeah,” You whispers, not even noticing when you nuzzle into her neck. “I haven’t gotten any sleep for the last few days,” 

  “Shit (Y/N),” Nat curses, her hand reaching up to play with your hair. “Why the hell not?” 

   “Can I-” You yawn, snuggling against Nat more. “Can I tell you when I wake up?” Nat smiles softly although her worry was still present. 

  “Yeah, yeah you can,” You smile softly, sleepily, as you hum against Nat’s neck. For once in the past week you’d be able to sleep well and you didn’t even need your stuffed animal to do it. 

   “Sleep well (Y/N),” Nat whispers, her lips pressing a tender kiss to your forehead. You hum weakly, your body already half asleep by the time her lips pressed to your skin. “This is better than some stuffed animal, right?” But Nat received no response, you were already too far gone to answer. With a smile Nat presses another kiss to your forehead, letting her lips linger on your skin only a moment before she turned her head, resting her cheek against you. But you’d have to agree, this was far better than any stuffed animal. 

anonymous asked:

Can you explain to me why itachi is problematic? I always disliked the character and I can't really give a deep analysis to explain to my friends on why I do. I understand what he did was wrong and I understand that his character was rushed and handled really badly but I can't put it into words.

Itachi Uchiha is a problematic character because :

  • His actions and motivations don’t make sense
  • Many concepts surround his “heroism” are morally misguided, simplistic and extreme. Yet, the narrative relentlessly shows him in a heroic light, it destroys the morality in the series
  • His other supposedly positive personal qualities like intelligence or wisdom are badly written too

I’ll quote from another anti post cos I don’t see the point of paraphrasing:

“a lot of his actions didn’t make sense if he’s always supposed to a good guy and a loving brother. There’re many ways he could’ve prevented Sasuke from witnessing the massacre, and made it less traumatizing to him. Instead he made him see that shit over and over again through genjutsu. yeah I know he wanted him to hate him and get revenge, but why? As a loving brother, why would he try so hard to put the burden of revenge on his brother? yeah I know he wanted Sasuke to be the hero who avenged his clan, but it’s worth the pain he went through when he killed his own brother? Sasuke never wanted to be a hero. yeah I know Itachi wanted to be judged by an uchiha, but he still thought he’s in a position to choose how he died? and he’d prioritise his own preference of how to die over the well being of his brother? He went back to Konoha after Sarutobi’s death cos he wanted to warn Danzo not to harm Sasuke. Then why did he expect sasuke to go back to Konoha after his death? go back to a place completely unaware of the danger that one of the top officials wanted to kill him? why did Itachi genjutsu Sasuke into a persistent coma? how was he supposed to get his revenge if he spent his life in a vegetative state? Kishimoto just made no sense.” - anti-endings

I’d also like to add it’s Itachi who revealed to Sasuke there’s another mangekyo sharingan user involved in the massacre and his name was “Madara”. If Itachi always suspected Tobi knew the truth about the massacre and him, and was keen on keeping Tobi away from sasuke, why did Itachi tell Sasuke Tobi’s name? it only made it easier for Sasuke to trust Tobi. It also added another name on his revenge target list. And Tobi was someone Itachi was afraid to go up against himself, he wanted sasuke to risk his life killing someone he couldn’t himself??

Many concepts surround his “heroism” are morally misguided, simplistic and extreme. Yet, the narrative relentlessly shows him in a heroic light, it destroys the morality in the series

Self sacrifice

He sacrificed OTHER PEOPLE"S LIVES, not his own. He took other people’s lives including children for his own ideals and beliefs. What did he sacrifice of himself? People said he had to leave Konoha and became a criminal and had a miserable life. He’s an ANBU before the massacre, a career as an undercover spying on enemies would’ve been highly likely for him even if the massacre never happened. He’s a trained assassin, he’s never gonna join Médecins Sans Frontières and do something meaningful in the first place.

“Greater good”

The idea that “greater number = greater good” is stupid, it completely disregards minority’s rights. If you’re attracted to the idea of “greater good” moral absolutism or “greater good” heroism, watch Psycho Pass and Fate/Zero. The moral dilemmas are much better written than Naruto. Kishimoto used “there’d be a civil war and other villages would attack them” to justify the massacre. He tried to justify genocide with one of the possible eventualities of the possible scenario of a failed coup.  A possible eventuality of a possible outcome of a coup that was yet to materialize….

Heroism is saving the ones you can, not playing god and deciding who should be killed so that others could live. Heroism is NOT the ability to count and deciding which group is the greater number. Heroism is NOT preemptively killing everyone based on personal speculations of possible bad consequences of actions or crime which were yet to be committed. This is crazier than Minority report.

Nationalism as heroism.

Itachi is a spokesperson for Will of Fire which is a form of inward looking nationalism. I think he said “as Itachi of konoha, I will save my homeland once more” (gross self glorification) when he defeated kabuto. He didn’t care if kabuto was threatening the whole ninja world, he’s just concerned with his own village. He only cared about konoha cos that’s his identity. He saw one’s village’s collective interest as the only thing worth protecting and fighting for, that’s not heroism, that’s just nationalism.  

Mistaking forced peace and oppression as Pacifism

The writing tried to present Itachi as a sensitive pacifist. He’s no pacifist, he believed in pre-emptive killing to maintain stability. He’s a “peace “at all cost extremist. Itachi and Danzo believed the way to achieve peace was to kill everyone who might possibly become a threat to the government due to dissatisfaction with their policy. Even kids had to be killed cos they might resent the government for killing their parents. This is not pacifism, this is purge of dissidents and rebels, this is forced peace maintained by violence and oppression.

His other supposedly positive personal qualities like intelligence or wisdom are badly written too

He’s not intelligent. The numerous holes listed above in his supposedly “all according to plan” revenge journey he planned for Sasuke are enough evidence of that.

He’s not wise. As discussed above, his worldviews and ideals are simplistic and extremist. His character really is just a naive nationalist.

He doesn’t respect free will, he once tried to forcibly genjutsu Sasuke into being loyal to Konoha. He just couldn’t deal with people not bowing to his precious village’s bullshit, he either killed everyone or he tried to brainwash them into a Konoha slave like himself.

He doesn’t respect truths, government transparency or history. He asked Naruto not to let the truths about the massacre come out. He thought superficial shit like “reputation” was more important than truths and justice. Kishimoto tried to make him look intelligent but humble. In fact, he’s arrogant, he thought he got to decide if the truths should come out, he’s one of the perpetrators of the massacre, yet he considered himself of all people had the right to bury the truths. That nerves and lack of self awareness.

Itachi is not some long suffering loving brother or unsung hero, he’s just a over wanked character who represents many of the series’ fucked up political views. He’s a self righteous, manipulative and cruel extremist.

I Want to Care About Your Protagonist

The number one reason I stop reading a story is because I just don’t care. I don’t care if your protagonist lives or dies. I don’t care about the stakes. I don’t even really understand who they are. I’m sure a lot of readers are like me in that way. They want to feel emotionally connected to the characters in some way. They want a reason to keep reading.

If you’re finding your protagonist isn’t that interesting or you don’t know how to improve the way you’re writing them, try these tips:

Start Right Away

Don’t make your readers wait to find something to care about. Get your message across as quickly as possible. Who is your protagonist? What do they want? What’s threatening what they want? There are subtle ways to let readers in on your protagonist’s life without giving away everything at once, so don’t info-dump. Most people will stop reading if there’s nothing something interesting happening within the first chapter. This doesn’t mean there needs to be tons of explosions and death—we just need to understand what the deal is.

Make the Stakes Reasonable

The stakes can’t be too low or too high. I know this sounds confusing, but it needs to be something the reader can fully grasp. The stakes should directly impact the protagonist in some way. In other words, readers aren’t going to care too much about your protagonist being 5 minutes late to work. They’re also going to have trouble caring about a fictional planet light-years away being destroyed. You need to give us a reason to care and have the stakes match the tone of the story.

Give us a Reason to Like Them

Protagonists need to be likeable in some way. I’m sure some writers would argue with me on that, but I need a reason to root for the main character. Sure, there’s such thing as an anti-hero, but they usually have some redeeming qualities. Let your readers know why your protagonist is a decent person. Do they have family they care about? Are they protecting something? Why should we like them? Take some time to focus on these questions.

But Don’t Make Them Too Good

Flaws are very important if you want readers to care about your protagonist. A “too perfect” protagonist is very annoying and won’t feel real. Give them some flaws that explain their sometimes less-than-perfect reactions to situations. Are they too quick to act? Are they sometimes a little selfish? Do they crave power in some way? No one in this world is flawless, so your characters shouldn’t be either.

-Kris Noel

anonymous asked:

Since I`m a kid,I wake up in the middle of the night every day. I told my parents but they said it`s nothing. What`s wrong with me?

Hi there lovely anon :)

I can understand where you’re coming from. As a child, I would have major issues sleeping (I still do). I’ve got some tips for you on sleep in general and some different ways you can help yourself fall and stay asleep plus some links :)

How to improve sleep:

  1. Listen to calming music- Having music in the background is helpful because it allows your mind to flow into the music while you drift off to sleep.
  2. Sleep medication- Talk to your doctor about prescribing you a natural sleep medication if you are having severe instability to sleep.
  3. Calming scents- Having calming scents in your room such as lavender or vanilla are helpful because those scents ease the mind and are very nice to smell.
  4. Comfortable temperature- If your room is too hot or cold, it can be hard to sleep and find that just right stop. I suggest having a fan in the summer time that can blow cool breeze at you, and in the winter have a heater or have a plan to wear more blankets.
  5. Limit distractions- When you’re trying to fall asleep, having things around you that can be distracting, its best to move those things out of the room or turn them off. You could put your cell phone on the counter instead of your nightstand so you are not woken up each time you get a text.
  6. Comfort items- Having stuffed animals or blankets can help improve your sleep because when you have those items, you feel comfortable and in a safe place which is a must for a good nights sleep.

Helpful Links:

Sleep issues;

Dealing with insomnia/sleep deprivation

I have some general advice on how you can cope with having nightmares and some more links for you:

  • Create a playlist of music that relaxes you.  Keep your music player on your night stand so that it is available when you wake up.
  • Keep a journal by your bed.  When you wake up, write down everything you remember about the nightmare.  This will help to focus you on a task and distract you, plus you may start to notice trends.  Writing things down can be highly therapeutic.
  • As with most sleep disorders, try to keep a regular sleep-wake cycle. Get up at the same time every day, go to sleep at the same time every night.  Having a routine before bed is important as well, as it prepares your brain for sleep.  
  • Reserve your bed for sleep only: no watching TV, texting, or using your laptop.Regular exercise reduces stress and releases endorphins, and can reduce your night terrors.

Helpful Links:

Why do we need to sleep well?

How to do it?

How about an actual good morning?

Once you’ve looked over those links (I know there are tons, but I like to go above and beyond)

Anyways, below are some general tips on how you can fall asleep faster and stay asleep longer:

  • Get the number of hours of sleep each night you need to function optimally. Although it varies, most individuals need between seven and eight hours of sleep every night.  When sleep-deprived, you are less efficient and focused during the day, and may be leaving yourself open for health risks as well. Research has shown sleep deprivation can affect appetite, weight gain, diabetes risk, the strength of your immune system and even your chance of developing depression. If you have been trying to get by on less sleep, try backing up bedtime by 15 minutes each week, until you are getting the amount of sleep that leaves you feeling refreshed in the morning.
  • Create a calming atmosphere in your bedroom. If your room is cluttered with work, books that have not been read, papers to attend to, and dirty laundry, it will be a constant reminder of all you need to do.  Take 15 minutes each day and begin clearing the clutter and making your room one you will look forward to relaxing in at the end of each day.
  • Make your bed in the morning. A straightened bed is so much more appealing to go to at night then one that is a jumble of sheets and blankets.
  • Reserve your bed for sleep and sex only. This will allow your mind to associate your bed with rest and relaxation only. Watch TV, use your computer, talk on the phone, and eat somewhere else.
  • Create a calming nighttime ritual.Turn off your computer, shut the TV, and do not answer your phone for an hour before you want to go to sleep. Choose activities you find calming.  Take a warm bath, read a magazine or novel, have some decaffeinated tea or cookies and milk.  
  • Keep your bedroom cool at night. For most individuals, 65 to 67 degrees Fahrenheit will allow the dip in core body temperature you need to induce sleep.
  • Avoid caffeine in the later afternoon and evening. Caffeinated coffee, tea, soft drinks, chocolate and sugar-laden snacks can all keep you too wired to fall asleep at bedtime.
  • Avoid late night workouts.  Exercise is a great sleep aid, but a vigorous workout too late in the day may keep you up at night. However, a leisurely walk after dinner could be just the thing to calm your body and mind.
  • Avoid alcohol and spicy foods in the late evenings. Although a nightcap may help you fall asleep, you will probably experience fragmented sleep, and find yourself wide-awake within a few hours. Steer clear of spicy foods or anything you know causes you heartburn or gastric distress.
  • If an evening party or celebration finds you consuming wine or cocktails, drink plenty of water throughout the evening, and keep a water bottle by your bedside. This way, if you do wake up dehydrated, you will not need to get out of bed.
  • Spend a few minutes creating your “to do list” and preparing for the next day.  This will allow your mind to know everything is ready and your morning will be calmer as well.
  • Keep a pad and pen by your bedside. If you wake in the middle of the night, and your mind is racing with thoughts of things you neglected to do, or need to get done, writing them down will release your mind from worrying about forgetting in the morning, allowing you to drift back to sleep.
  • If you have not fallen asleep after 20 minutes, get out of bed and find a relaxing spot to read. Do not use your technology or watch TV, do anything that requires brain work, or look at a clock.  Any of these will stimulate you and increase your anxiety.  As soon as you feel sleepy, return to bed.
  • Eliminate or reduce afternoon naps to a maximum of 30 minutes, regardless of how little you slept the night before. Napping too late in the day or for too long can set you up for another sleepless night and a vicious cycle.
  • Go to bed and get up at the same time every day no matter how much sleep you had the night before. The closer you can keep to a routine, the more your body will recognize and respond appropriately to your bedtime and wake up hours.  Don’t attempt to make up for lost sleep during the week by sleeping in all weekend.


Hope this helps! Keep me updated? I’d love to hear back from you and see if my advice has helped :) Take care and don’t forget to smile :) xx

Here’s the thing though that he doesn’t seem to understand. There is a very clear difference between actually taking inspiration and actually ripping off of a game. The Persona series isn’t dissimulation nor is it a game that involves killing other students and faculty members. I can understand why he would feel influenced by Persona 5 in particular. And persona in General. It has some of the best simulations of a Japanese high school that you can find in a jrpg game. But here’s the thing. Persona is developed IN Japan. It’s fine to be influenced by a game that you enjoy but it’s another thing to rip off of it. It destroys whatever quality YanSim had. This makes me kind of annoyed because I grew up on the Persona series. He is disrespecting the series itself and the creators by stealing ideas from their latest game. At this point his game will be a Frankenstein of other games that he ripped off of.

Alex. Fuck. Off.

Hell In High Heels: Curse to Crush Your Enemies

Items Needed:

  • High Heels
  • Something small that you can crush (ex. a chip? a piece of candy? idk something like that)
  • A sharpie (black)

Step 1) Take your small item, draw a face on it. This face represents the enemy you’re going to crush.

Step 2) Hold the item in your hands, close your eyes. Get a mental image of the person you’re wanting to “crush.” Think about all of the qualities in them that you hate. Think about what they’ve done to you. Think about why you want to cast a curse on them.
Now, imagine the energy from those thoughts flowing into the object and filling it. Now the object is representative of them AND why you dislike them.

Step 3) Put on your high heels. Put the object on the floor. Say the following to it:
For all you’ve done to me,
I will crush you into the ground
And destroy you, just as you’ve tried to destroy me.


Step 5) Sweep that up and throw it out the door, as far away as possible. Wash your hands. You’re done.


Originally posted by jinful

Genre: angst, some fluff

Word Count: 339

Summary: In which the most painful memory of yours is to watch his last.

author note:

My blog is rather new and this is my first proper fanfiction i’ve written so i hope you enjoy it, and feel free to message me critiques so i can improve on my next ones :)

The world seemed dark and gloomy as you lay stiff on the bed with nothing but the faint beeping in the background accompanying your string of thoughts and memories, images of his bright smile flashed to your mind once more, along with the constant “I love you”s that accompanied his loving kisses and giggles.

Some of the fondest memories you had, were of visiting him during dance practice bringing his favourite foods with you. You loved seeing him in the middle of his work as he danced so passionately that he had barely noticed your presence until he saw your figure admiring him through the mirror.

It was peaceful.

It was peaceful when you both sat in silence in the practice room because he was too exhausted to speak. It was peaceful when you both lay in bed, cuddling, after a long day of being apart. It was peaceful when you sat on the couch, quietly watching him work so passionately on his music.

It was also calming.

Calming to feel his hands wrapped around you when the stress of work/school became too much. It was calming to listen to his laugh, his wonderful laugh, the laugh that could brighten your day as soon as you heard it. It was calming to see him spending quality time with his fans, making them happy with a simple smile.

But now,
It was neither peaceful nor calming.

Not when you lay in bed helpless…

Knowing that you will never see any of those wonderful things he did once more.

As you watch friends, family and friends, 
Slowly fall apart, weeping their eyes out.

Not understanding why you couldn’t seem to do the same on the hospital bed.

Knowing the man you so dearly loved,
would never again see the sunshine that he so much resembled.

Your last memory of his, in the now destroyed and dismantled car, with such a peaceful look on his face as he fell into the deep sleep.

He didn’t know he would never wake up from.

I hope this isn’t too much. please feel free to send me feedback and/or requests, it really does make my day!

                                                   -bangtan angels-

Reasons why this scene is gold

  • Ava’s reaction to Chirithy (”It’s so cuutteee!!”) KILL ME NOW I CANNOT HANDLE THIS SWEET CINNAMON ROLL OF A MASTER
  • Then defends them when Aced said they should be destroyed if they turn dark
  • Gula’s sass: “You’re scary”
  • Aced completely taken aback by this
  • Invi tries to be sensible too but inside she’s like AYY LMAO
  • MoM joining in on Gula’s quality banter
  • I’d watch another cinematic on these 7 (including Luxu) on their training and forming an unlikely family together. Make it happen Nomura.

This is precisely what makes Akoya so dangerous

Akoya is not trying to dismantle the Defense Club because he knows they are his enemy, because he isn’t even aware of that. He’s not even doing it because of his hate boner for Ryuu. He honestly wants the destruction of an entire club just because he doesn’t like it. His reason is so petty, but the fact that it alone is enough to drive him to tearing them apart is alarming enough. What will happen when he’s given more justification for his actions later down the road? 

That and let’s talk about his tactics here. Akoya first presents that the Defense Club needs to meet or exceed score averages to remain a club. It’s a sound, reasonable test and a realistic expectation on their part from him, and thus, makes a great first attack strategy concealing his abuse of his power as Student Council member. He could have stopped there, but he pressed on. 

This shows that despite all his vanity and narcissism, Akoya has enough humility and sense to know that he shouldn’t under estimate the intelligence of his prey. So, he targets Io who he couldn’t care less about, but manipulates to his advantage. If he attains Io, he not only gets someone capable on the Council, but also the destruction of the Defense Club, which is his real goal. 

And Akoya does it all with a smile. He’s calm, collected, and his ego is not so inflated that he can’t see potential in someone when he could take advantage of them. If you can be honest with yourself and see both the negative and positive qualities of someone and be able to twist them thoroughly, then you’d make a great manipulator. The fact that he can do all this so calmly makes you wonder if he’s had experience closing clubs through Kusatsu. 

It takes a certain combination of intelligence, patience, perseverance, and strength to accomplish this as effectively as Akoya did. If Io hadn’t turned the Student Council down, Akoya would have single-handedly destroyed the Defense Club, and that’s without even knowing who they really are. That’s why I hope the Chevaliers, and hell, even the Battle Lovers, start breaking apart from their unity as groups and allow themselves to flourish as the interesting individuals they are. 

I’ll finish this saying that the way Akoya was handled in this episode exceeded all my expectations and was everything I could ask from him as a character and more. I’ve said this before, but, I do hope one day that Akoya is able to see that he is more than a just beautiful face. It is then that Akoya will really blossom into the flower he so wants to be. 

so. i have a lot of questions about the Pillar Men after Battle Tendency.

  1. why was Santana left behind (i know there’s some loose canon reference to him not being strong enough compared to the other pillar men, but like….how sad for him??)?
  2. speaking of Santana, what ever happened to him? they show him under those uv lights still partly alive and the germans are all like “it’s cool, he’s contained. these lights are totally foolproof!”, but like….what if the power goes out? then you got a pillar man who can reform and is probably pissed off beyond belief and will destroy literally anything probably.
  3. if all four pillar men were companions were for like 10,000 years, they probably would have been pretty close, right? give me more of Esidisi and Kars telling jokes. give me flashbacks of Esidisi and Kars raising Santana and Wamuu. that is the quality content i desperately need.
  4. after killing all the hamon users, why did they not just…conquer the world and get the red stone of aja then? why did they just sleep in their stone form for 2000 years?
  5. was Santana left behind before or after the hamon users were killed? how did he know when to turn himself into his stone state (assuming thats something they can do themselves and wasn’t something done to them) with the other three presumably on the otherside of the world?
  6. i feel like kars being sent into space is going to haunt the people of earth some day. especially if santana ever gets loose (or like…he gets loose when space travel is a thing and goes to retrieve him?), but even without that, like kars could smash into a comet and get blown off course and eventually smash back to earth or something, idk.

i have so many more questions, but those are the most appropriate, lol. i haven’t been this intrigued in  a long time–it may make me write a goofy fanfiction, tbh!

Fire Walk With Me and the Value of Laura Palmer as a Person

Fire Walk With Me is not remembered fondly by the general public, or even by many diehard Twin Peaks fans. It was booed at its Cannes. It was nigh-universally panned by critics. And it flopped so hard at the box office that it killed David Lynch’s plans for further Twin Peaks films that would have resolved the show’s horrifying cliffhanger ending. And I sort of understand why, especially in the context of its 1992 release. It has almost none of the show’s trademark humor, it doesn’t answer any of the lingering questions, and it has Lynch crossing new thresholds of surrealism and dream logic, with moments that feel even more obtuse than Eraserhead. And that’s to say nothing of the fresh wounds audiences were still feeling after season two’s shockingly sharp decline in quality. But, like any Lynch project, Fire Walk With Me is destroyed by looking for what you want instead of letting yourself find what’s really there. It’s an achingly beautiful film and an absolutely essential piece of Twin Peaks–not necessarily as a puzzle, but as an artistic statement. An entire book could be written about all the symbolism and mysteries contained in its 135 minutes, but the thing that gives it value is the simple act of making Laura Palmer a person.

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