why am i wasting my time on this

Final ace (negative) related post:

I am a WITCHCRAFT blog. It is not my job to justify why I think aro/ace folks belong in the LGBT+ community.

As an ace person myself, it’s really exhausting to see that stuff on my dash so I’m going to stop answering all the asks.

Clicking the “unfollow” button is a lot faster than typing a rude ask I’ll ignore! (Anon will remain on for those who need it for comfort 😗💕)

once my private instructor actually said to me “don’t let poor students play oboe or bassoon. They’ll never be any good because they won’t be able to afford reeds, lessons, or good instruments, and you’ll be wasting your time even if they can pay you for lessons.”

so I’ve made a point to give my students handmade reeds for free and I loan them books that I buy and I will never call a poor student a waste of my time because they are not.

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Do you see any difference between these two gifs, other than the colors and the pixels ? Well, one is made with Flipnote Studio on my Nintendo DSi, and the other one is made with TVPaint.

 I just wanted to post the same animation but with two different programs, to show you guys that an idea can be expressed and understandable through many mediums ! I could draw this in traditional too if I wanted. But why am I posting this ?

 A few days ago, I received a message from a professional animator, telling me that I was wasting my time animating on “that sh*tty program” and that I will “never find a job or earn money” if I continued working like this. It was brutal, and awfully judgemental, especially coming from someone who shares (or is supposed to, at least) the same passion for animation as me. 

 He also told me that he will never follow me or like any of my animations because of the program I use. So, well … I just replied that his behavior was beyond childish, and absolutely unprofessional. I said, “You don’t see the potential of the animations I share there with many people, I put all of my love on them, I work hard and I enjoy making them. Yeah I’m not gaining any money from that hard work, so what? Do you think everybody on the internet shares their work only for profit?”

 I took some time to think about it. It hurt me a little but then I remembered that so many of you follow me, give me great feedback, and heartwarming comments, even if I don’t draw on the BEST programs ever! I mean, just because someone draws on Paint Tool SAI instead of Photoshop, it doesn’t mean that their art sucks!  

 I learned a lot with Flipnote Studio and thats why I still use it to animate, and you can see that I can animate with many colors too (I wanted to show you later as a surprise but well, now you know) and I will be able to teach you things about TVPaint if you want now. Remember, my friends: an artist is someone who has the capacity to share emotions and messages through the art they are creating; no matter what medium or program you use for it, if it’s understandable you’re doing it right! 

 I hope this will help some of you who are working on less well-known programs and had some jerk telling them that it was bad. I’m glad to see that young animators, artists & people who are not creators at all saw the hard work in my animations, and pushed me up ! I love you all, and I will continue to work hard for you, to share my huge passion of animation with you and make you smile as always ! Merci tout le monde !

I want someone who knows for a fact that they want me. If you have to even think ab wether you want me or someone else, choose them then. Why am I going to sit here and waste my time when you don’t even know if you want me?

Why am I single?
Am I stopping myself from falling in love? Or am I truly just not falling for anyone? I don’t know which option I fear more. If the first is true, then I may be dooming myself to a life alone. If it’s the second, well, that wouldn’t be my fault, would it? But it’s no less discouraging to think that no one in my world could ever interest me.

I get crushes sometimes, yes, but (and this sounds weird) I can’t even tell how serious they are. I second-guess my own feelings constantly. Do I really like this person, or am I just fooling myself? All too often, it feels like I’m imagining I like them just because I like the idea of being madly in love. It’s more about the idea than the actual person.

I can create an image around a person that obscures who they really are, and pretty soon I’m in love with the image, but all the while in my gut I know that the image is not accurate and what I’m actually in love with is an illusion. That’s not true love. I know that. So I don’t allow myself to actually engage with the person, because I know it’s not what I think it is. In that sense, I guess you could say I do keep myself from falling in love… but not without reason.

You see, in every case, I see red flags. Even beyond the smokescreen of the fantasy image I create around a person, these red flags are always visible to my deeper instinct. And when I say “red flags,” I mean intrinsic qualities or ingrained habits that I do not want in a romantic partner. Things that the person obviously either could not or would not change. Things that I am ultimately just not okay with. They stand out to my subconscious mind, flashing cold warning lights, spelling doom for any hope of a relationship with that person.

If I didn’t see these kinds of red flags, I like to think that I would do it. I would move forward. I would give the person a chance. But when I see these kinds of things beforehand, plain as day… I mean, am I supposed to ignore them? So far, I have not been able to do that. I know what I want, and I know what I do not want. Why should I walk straight into a situation that I know is not what I want? Won’t I be kicking myself later for making such a stupid move, eyes wide open?

At the end of the day, I wonder:

Will there ever be someone who doesn’t strike me as full of warning signs, someone I won’t have to invent a mostly false image around so that I can pretend to have a crush on them?

Will I just end up caving in and dating someone who is below my standards?

Am I keeping myself from happiness, or sparing myself genuine heartache and wasted time?

As always, the standard answer to all my life’s questions resurfaces: I don’t know.

—  Submitted by @angelwithashatteredheart
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I can’t change who I am, not this time
I won’t lie to keep you near me
And in this short life there’s no time to waste on giving up
My love wasn’t enough 

The last dance

( EDIT: sth was missing on Hanzo’s face :P sorry )

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snapchat filters feat. my one good angle and my baby face

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Ain’s Teaser Image, edited with proper translation that doesn’t suck

Hear me, O creations of Ishmael:
I was nothing but a single mass of light,
before the will of God had reached me.

Divine were the words that granted my form,
and sacred was the mission my eyes opened to:
“Thou shalt bestow energy on the weakened El.”

To be born in the realm of God is to live by the words of God;
I shall heed the call and accept the mission,
to fulfill my purpose and return to the heavenly realm.

I say again,
By the sacred mission I have descended upon this land;
My will is God’s will, and my existence is God’s wish.

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HAPPY STAR WARS DAY EVERYONE.
So yes it’s over since more than an hour, for me at least. And yes this pic is not even especially related. But I asked what I should draw for may the 4th and had a massive amount of asks for more Xarel and Shatti xD
So enjoy this pic of these two in kind of modern clothing for absolutely no reason at all.

Queen || Draco Malfoy x Reader

{summary: sometimes, you fall in love with the person you least expect to be with.}

I’ve been working on the peter parker request for days now, yet still can’t find the muse to finish it and post it. So here, have this draco malfoy story instead.

this isn’t my best work like at all. I just wanted to do something to challenge myself because it’s been a rough day for me, and I find that writing always helps with making me happier.

warnings: language, and draco is going to be an annoying cunt for the first few parts of this story before turning sweet with age. draco malfoy (from what I remember with the books) is spoiled and likes to believe that the whole world is meant to be handed to him on a silver platter.

Love won’t come so easily between him and the reader, and if the subject of bullying triggers you, then please, do not read this story.

also, if you hate the enemies to lovers trope, this is definitely not the story for you.

ps house of gold is a MASTERPIECE.

word count: 4,100+

**dont repost/plagiarize this story**

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GIVE US THE TRUTH

Apologies (Spencer Reid x Reader)

A/N: Hey guys! I really like this imagine I kind of crying writing it so… oops 😂 anyways enjoy!
Warnings: none
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Reader
Prompt: you’re pregnant and babysit henry and Spencer comes to pick him up instead of jj after you guys have broken up and you’re very pregnant and that’s how he finds out.
Request: ✅
Upcoming Imagine: Reader gets kidnapped…
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“Your mom is going to be here in about 10 minutes so lets gather up your Legos.” You said slowly sitting next to Henry on the floor.
The large baby bump make it harder to do everyday activities, but you have managed throughout the 7 months on your own.
You helped Henry put all of his Legos in the little box he brought and then there was a knock on the door.
“That’s mommy.” You said slowly standing up as Henry bolted to the door.
He opened your apartment door and heard him call, “Uncle Spencer!”
You froze at his name.
Why was he here?
“Hey Henry!” He said back.
You didn’t dare turn around but you instinctively did.
“I told JJ I would pick Henry up. I hope…”
He froze as his eyes met your bulging stomach.
“H-Henry… will you go wait in the car? I’ll be out in a sec okay?” Spencer said putting a fake smile on his face as tears filled his eyes.
“Okay.” Henry said complying as he walked down the apartment stairs.
“Is… is it…” he stuttered.
You nodded already knowing the answer to his question.
“Spencer just go please? I want to be alone.” You said crossing your arms over your chest, as if it would hide the 7 month old baby in your stomach.
“Wh-why didn’t you tell me?” He said walking closer to you as a tear fell from his face to the hardwood floor.
“Spencer please just go.” You said avoiding him as much as possible.
His hand reached out but he slowly retracted it as he noticed your struggle to get away from him.
“I-I’m sorry Y/N. I really am. I messed up I know-I know I messed up but… that… that’s my child?” He questioned walking a little closer.
The reason why you and Spencer broke up was because he was never around due to work, which was okay with you.
But then, you found out that when he claimed he was stuck at work he was actually staying on purpose to avoid you.
He slowly lost interest in you, but you were still had a flaming passion for him.
He claimed you were boring and a waste of his time during a big argument, and that’s when you packed your bags.
“Spencer you left me. I still loved you and you pushed me away. We could have talked. We could have taken a break… but when you said I was a waste of your time I knew that was how you felt. I don’t want to waste anymore of your time.” You said turning around and walking to your bedroom, but you were stopped by a hand on your arm.
“Please… give me another chance. I made a huge mistake and let you walk out that door. I never stopped loving you Y/N, I was stressed. My-my mom wasn’t doing so well and I took it out on you. I’m so sorry Y/N please let me take care of you and our child.” He said holding both of your hands as he begged you for forgiveness.
You stayed silent, recalling the sleepless nights where you wound up crying against the door until you had no more tears to cry.
You looked up into Spencer’s eyes for the first time in months and saw complete and udder sorrow, guilt, and love.
“Please…” he asked again. “I’m not just doing this because of the baby, I’m doing this because I love you.”
“Why didn’t you tell me about your mom? Why didn’t you tell me you needed space?” You asked.
You were fully willing to forgive him, but you had so many unanswered questions.
“I bottled it up. I think bottling up my emotions will make them go away but it doesn’t. I couldn’t handle knowing the medicine my mom was taking for the past 6 months wasn’t working so, I held it in. And during that argument, that stupid argument, I exploded. I didn’t mean what I said. You aren’t a waste of my time. In fact your probably one of the best things that ever happened to me Y/N.” he said as tears rolled down his cheeks.
“Did you plan on apologizing before you knew I was pregnant?” You asked with a small smile.
“I told JJ I would pick Henry up just so I could.” He said sniffling and holding your hands a little tighter.
“Well then of course I forgive you.” You said pulling his head down and kissing his soft lips that you have missed.
He melted into your arms as he hugged you gently, like you were made of porcelain.
“I’m also sorry for not being here. Your one of the strongest woman I know to be going through pregnancy all by yourself.” He said stroking your hair.
“I forgive you for that too. And I’m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier, you had the right to know.” You said wiping a tear from his cheek.
“God I’ve missed you.” He said hugging you again.
“I’ve missed you too.”

of monsters & men || starters

❛  just grab a hold of my hand .   
❛  somewhere deep in the dark a howling beast hears us talk .
❛  i dare you to close your eyes .
❛  you love love love when you know i can’t love you   
❛  after every sunny day , comes a stormy night  
❛  you’re my king & i’m your lionheart  
❛  breathe in , breathe out . let the human in .   
❛  my head is an animal .   
❛  all the trouble i have caused with my two hands .
& we’re far , far home but we’re so happy .   
❛  we used to play outside when you were young and full of life and full of love .   
 i watched you disappear .   
  it’s best we both forget before we dwell on it .  
❛  as i looked around i began to notice we are nothing like the rest .   
  there’s an old voice in my head that’s holding me back .   
❛  are you really going to love me when i’m gone ?   
 i’m shaking like a leaf .   
❛  can you chase this fire away ?  
❛  but i tried , oh , i tried .   
❛  just let me go & we’ll meet again soon .   
❛  we won’t run .   
❛  it’s killing me to see you this way .   
 i’m a crook for not caring for it . ❜   
❛  the stairs creak as you sleep , it’s keeping me / you awake . it’s the house telling me / you to close your eyes .  
❛  don’t listen to a word i say  
❛  as the world comes to an end i’ll be here to hold your hand .    
❛  please hang around .  
❛  i can see through you .   
❛  it’s perfectly strange .   
❛  hungry for the kill , but this hunger , it isn’t you  
❛  we are the same .    
 some days i don’t know if i am wrong or right  
❛  you can follow me .    
❛  some days I can’t even dress myself .   
❛  why are you shaking your head ?   
❛  i’m all out of breath .
❛  your mind is playing tricks on you , my dear . 
     
❛  i am a killer .  
❛  i take off my face because it reminds me how it all went wrong .  
❛  darker days are raining over me .  
❛  my blood runs red but my body feels so cold .    
❛  i am the storm .  
❛  please look away , don’t look at me .  
❛  i heard them calling in the distance .  
❛  i am sorry for the trouble , i suppose .  
❛  i need nothing .   
❛  i know that it’s a waste of time , chasing in the dark .  
❛  you’re cold against the skin .  
❛  & i run , i run , i run .  
❛  the way you held me so tight … all through the night …  
❛  you & i will not be shaken !  
❛  stop , i will take control .  
❛  you scream , you scratch , you bite .  
❛  the books that i keep by my bed are full of your stories .  
❛  i’ll meet your eyes for the very first time , for the very last .  
❛  let go , lay to rest .  
❛  maybe i’m a bad , bad , bad , bad person . well , baby , i know .  
❛  these fingertips will never run through your skin .  
 i will lead you through this wonderland .
❛  water up to my knees , but sharks are swimming in the sea .
❛  ignore all those big warning signs .
❛  you have scars & some scratches . it makes me wonder about your past .
❛  the light is blinding my eyes .
❛  i push you away , although I wish you could stay .
❛  i’m never ready .
❛  time won’t let me show what i want to show .
❛  all eyes on me .
❛  i spend my night dancing with my own shadow .
❛  i packed my things & ran .