why am i thinking about this so early in the morning

╰(✧∇✧╰) domestic sugamon ╰(✧∇✧╰)

  • they live in an apartment a little bit away from seoul (but close enough to the other 5 losers)
  • they have separate studios in their house 
  • COLLABORATIVE MIXTAPES
  • when yoongi refuses to get up early in the morning, namjoon groans and drags him off the bed by his feet
  • yoongi is grumbling as he walks/slumps into the bathroom
  • why the fuck did i marry a morning person..
  • PETS
  • they think they’re not that suited for children yet so they buy pets
  • they buy a goldfish as a test-run
  • yoongi feeds the fish regularly and even buys a castle for the fishbowl
  • but one day namjoon accidentally overfeeds it when yoongi’s off for a gig in america 
  • yoongi berates him about it for two weeks
  • “that fish was the only thing i cared about”
  • “ yoongi ????? im your husband ?? you voluntarily married me ?????”
  • “and you killed our fish!!! namjoon you murdered our somewhat-child”
  • it takes a while for yoongi to move on from the fish murder
  • they decide to get a dog after the horror of the goldfish
  • they get a white shepherd and namjoon names it “rapmon” and yoongi rolls his eyes
  • whenever namjoon breaks something in the house he blames it on the dog
  • “namjoon you’re telling me that rapmon broke the bathroom door handle”
  • “yes that’s exactly what im telling you”
  • “that’s impossible”
  • “no listen im telling you okay he did this..”
  • namjoon lying through his teeth and yoongi knowing this but acting like he believes him anyway because his husband is cute
  • they spend most of their time cuddling with rapmon lying on top of namjoon’s legs
  • (rapmon also sleeps on the foot of their bed)
  • yoongi’s saved as ‘hubby’ on namjoon’s phone
  • namjoon saved as ‘min namjoon
  • “i told you i will never take your last name min namjoon sounds weird”
  • “well it’s never going to be kim yoongi-”
  • “-well actually now that i think about it that sounds really nice-”
  • dOn’t you dare
  • namjoon changes it to ‘hubby kim yoongi
  • “why am i allowing myself to call you my husband”
  • namjoon buys a lot of house plants bc ‘yoongi it adds to my aesthetic feel pls
  • whenever he goes away for gigs and shows he nags yoongi to water them
  • one of them accidentally dies because yoongi forgets to water it
  • “namjoon it was a Fukcin g plant”
  • “it was mY AESTHETIC
  • namjoon always puts yoongi’s favorite cereals and snacks on the highest shelf
  • yoongi screams at him
  • “why did i marry a tall idiot honestly yoongi what were you thinking
  • namjoon does the laundry most of the time 
  • mostly because he actually cares about his clothes and yoongi doesn’t care if the whites turn pink
  • on their days off they lounge on the couch and watch re-runs of old tv shows
  • yoongi sleeps on namjoon’s chest and likes the way he can feel namjoon chuckle underneath his cheek
  • namjoon’s runs his hand through yoongi’s hair and occasionally pecks him on the forehead and tilts his head to kiss him properly
  • just 
  • sugamon
  • doMEsTIC SUGAMON
  • !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Good Boys Gone Bad

Summary: Shy!Dan has been dating bad boy! Phil for awhile now but he can’t help but think he isn’t good enough for the boy who stays out all night partying and drinking. So Dan decides to change that.

Genre: Fluff/Angst

Warnings: Swearing, underage drinking, parties, etc. 

Word Count: 5530 

A/N: This fic has been sitting in my google drive for months jfc. Also, I know virtually nothing about the British school system so pls forgive me if there are mistakes. But other than that yeah, thanks for reading and I hope you guys like it. Enjoy!! x

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my psychologist told me
to take deep breaths when i feel unsettled
in through the nose and out through the mouth
and it is not even 8am
but i am already breathing deeply
in through the nose and out through the mouth
and i already feel unsettled
because i just woke from a dream
where you touched everyone but me
and it was far too close to reality
and it got me thinking about you
so early in the morning
and how much i want you
and how close i am to having you
yet how far,
half a metre of space between us in my bed
multiplying metaphorically
sending you spiraling away from me
and i can’t pretend
that i don’t want you
in that kind of way
in the romantic kind of way
in the sexual kind of way
in the everything kind of way
and i’m sick of all things unrequited
i’m so sick
i want to stick my fingers down my throat
and puke it all up
get out
get out
get out
why do i always have to torture myself
by wanting things
why do i always have to want things
why do i have to want you
i know why i want you
i know why.
and it’s 8am
and i’m watching myself cry
in my bedroom mirror
breathing deeply
in through the nose and out through the mouth
pretending that i’m not going crazy
pretending that my tongue isn’t all tied up
with everything i want to say to you
everything i want to do to you
everything i want you to do to me
if only you would touch me
if only
if only
if only.
My blog as it pertains to Sam/Cait and Outlander

I hope whatever this is about to say makes any sense. I’m running on an hour of sleep, a lot of caffeine, and happiness about my favorite team and three people I consider friends winning a race last night/early this morning. 

But here it is:

I am a shipper. I ship Sam and Cait together. I don’t know what a “super shipper” is. I’m not sure why “anti shipping” is a thing. I think “truthers” are absolutely bananas which I will discuss further down. For me, I am a shipper. What does that mean? It means I look at Sam and Cait together and go, “Damn, I hope they’re together because could two people be any cuter together? I think fucking not.” Do I think they’re ACTUALLY together? I don’t know. I’m about 75% sure on that. Some days, I’m 90% sure. Other days, I think, “Nope, not together.” But mostly, I think maybe they are. But mostly, as a shipper, it means I hope they are. It means I find them cute together. It means I think they should get married and have babies because their children would be hella beautiful. It means I think they have chemistry outside of what’s normal for two costars. It means I squee whenever they have banter on social media.  All shipping means is that you hope two people are in a relationship. 

Shipping is not exclusive to real life people. It’s also not exclusive to fandom. If you can honestly look me in the eye and tell me you’ve never tried to set up your coworker Gary with your neighbor Anne then you’re an exception, not the rule. If you’ve never watched two of your friends together and thought, “OMG, they would be so cute together. Why can’t they just figure out they’re perfect for each other?”, then again, you’re the exception, not the rule. In real life, we call it matchmaking. Except that’s a lame term and I prefer shipping now.

Why would anyone be against shipping? How does it hurt you? Seriously. How the fuck does it hurt you whether or not people hope two people are together? If you’re an “anti shipper” and then turn around and go, “Oh, but Sam and Abbie are PERFECT together”, then you’re a shipper. End of story. You’re just not a shipper of Sam and Cait. That’s cool. That’s like people liking Frank over Jamie. They’re wrong and they’re potentially stupid, but it’s cool. To each his own. But don’t call yourself an “anti shipper” if you’ve ever shipped Sam with anyone.

Oh, and hey, if you don’t want to ship either of them with anyone, if you want to stay out of their private lives, that’s cool, too. Just don’t be a dick about it. Don’t be mean. Don’t attack. Don’t be an asshole. It doesn’t hurt you. It doesn’t change your life.

Which brings me to the “truthers”. As much as I sometimes think the shipper camp goes too far (Audi Q5-gate), there will never be a day where I think the shippers are crazier than the truthers. You know the truth? Really? Sam sat down and told you his life story and told you that he’s a giant manwhore? Told you that he’s been having a fuckbuddy relationship with some blonde girl who goes to the gym with him? Told you about his sad and tragic love story with Abbie? SAM told you that? Cait must have told you about Tony, too. She came over, you guys opened a bottle of wine, and she talked about boys with you. She told you that Tony is the love of her life and she just hates when people ship her with Sam? She told you that she’s playing all of us when she calls him hubby and compliments his ass? CAIT told you that? 

I didn’t think so. A delusional woman who claims to have “sources” who have been wrong about 10005 times is not Sam or Cait. A woman who has been blocked from Twitter numerous times is not Sam or Cait. If you want to follow her, that’s up to you, bro. I think it’s a stupid idea, but fuck, what do I know? If you really want to believe her pile of attention-seeking shit, then by all means, believe it. But don’t call yourself “truthers” because until Sam and Cait give you that information, you don’t know any more than shippers do. And stop being assholes.

I’m a shipper. I really hope Sam and Cait are together. I’m not always sure of it, but in the end…it’s not the highest thing on my list of priorities. My health, my dog, my personal life, racing…those things are pretty damn high up on my priorities. Whether or not two celebrities are together and about to get married? Somewhere near the bottom. But let me explain something…it’s a nice distraction from the other stuff. Shipping is supposed to be fun. It’s supposed to be sexy. As long as there aren’t spouses or children involved, have at it. Because it’s a nice distraction from the day to day shittiness. So stop shitting on the people who do it. There’s no point.

Isn’t there enough cruelty in the world without you hiding behind your keyboard or phone and attacking people who are just trying to have a good time?

Dr. Dean Winchester MD: Some Thoughts on Dean's Profession(s) If He Hadn't Become A Hunter...

I think I may have rambled about this before, but I am not sure. So forgive me if I have and cannot remember when exactly at 6am in the morning (God knows why I wake up at this time on a Saturday, sigh). ;)

That said, somehow this morning I had to think about Dean and what he may have grown up to become if the supernatural had never invaded his life, but if he would have gotten the chance to just go to school and college and had a normal family without him being forced to take on responsibility for things no child should need to feel responsible for and least from age 4 onwards.

And while I think Dean working as a mechanic as many fanfictions depict him based on his love for Baby on the show and his knowledge about fixing her (and with that also mending the broken pieces of himself as Baby is basically an extension/symbol of Dean’s psyche/soul) makes sense, I personally think that Dean may have gone a very different route when choosing his profession.

The show has given us small moments over eleven season in which Dean is out into different scenarios. In 4x17 “A Terrible Life” he’s a marketing manager and seems to be doing by all means very well in the field and of course we have seen him pretend to be a cop/FBI agent so much that even when he is just himself and asking for info people think he may be a cop (for example when Dean goes out to investigate and drink in 7x04 “Defending Your Life” he goes with the cop option and Mia, the barkeeper instantly believes him or in 9x03 “I’m No Angel” when him and Sam ask around a homeless camp for Castiel they both are being treated with suspicion at first as they come off as being cops to them and not just someone looking for them).

And while I think Dean may have felt it interesting to become a cop in a world without the supernatural as Dean is equipped with a very strong sense of justice and finding the bad guys and locking them up, it is still not the profession I personally think would be most fitting to Dean and his character and his strengths (which are unrelated to the life he had to lead after his mother died).

I personally could have seen Dean become these three options most:

1) Firefighter: Granted, this is slightly based in what Dean says in 1x21 “Salvation” when they look for John and is of course tied to a wish he probably had harbored from 4 years of age onwards (as firefighter is a very popular profession when being a kid, or maybe it just was in my childhood, I don’t know) as this directly connects to preventing the death of his mother and with that also preventing much of the life he and his family were forced to live after the tragic event. What to me is most relevant about this though is that Dean’s wish to help and save people I think is inherent to his character. Dean cares no matter in which AU in which life he is put, imo that is a constant. Dean cares. Cares about people. Cares about helping them. Cares about saving them. On the show I’d say this aspect is sadly twisted together with Dean thinking that for him it is too late anyway and that nothing could ever save him (he expresses it more than once in 11 seasons and probably most memorable in 11x07 “Girls Girls Girls” in his talk with Cole) but that therefore he wants to try twice as hard to have someone else experience the same. As a firefighter Dean would work on protecting not just people’s homes (something he lost so early himself but something he considers something almost “sacred” - and I think the importance of home and family wouldn’t change for Dean either if he never once had to salt and burn someone’s bones), but of course mainly people too. And that just goes very well with “the saving things” of the family business-mantra.

2) Doctor/Paramedic: A similar field of profession I can see Dean working in is the medical field. In the show he’s being ridiculed for watching and loving “Dr. Sexy MD”. But I truly think Dean would make an excellent doctor. Over the course of the life he lead he proved more than once that he has knowledge of the human body and can stitch someone back together - not pretty but enough so it would get the person better until in professional care. And in general I personally think as a doctor Dean would be able to also work on what is obviously something very important to him: helping people/saving people. Without a doubt losing a patient would weigh heavy on Dean, but ultimately I think Dean would be an amazing doctor who’d give his all for his patients.

3) Psychological Therapist: This profession also in a similar field as the two above. Of course the show likes to tell that Dean doesn’t like talking about his own feelings a whole lot or doesn’t like to hear about someone else’s a whole lot, which stands in complete opposition to what is shown on screen. Dean constantly makes sure that people are okay and urges people to open up and unload on him. And while him carrying not just in own sorrows with him but those of others too is something weighing heavy on Dean, in an alternate life I can see Dean work as a therapist and helping people through hard times, but with the difference that he would have learnt strategies to be able to leave these things behind at the end of the day and in his office (mostly). In this case again, Dean would be able to still work on “the saving people” of the family business-mantra. And I think Dean could be a good listener as he is quite selfless. He is able to analyze and get an idea of people fast and rather well. He has a good gut feeling he can trust and I think all these character traits could come in handy in this line of work.

What’s in any case important in this regard is that all of these jobs the focus would never be in himself but on helping others get better (something I wish Dean did more for himself too on the show, focus on himself and letting himself heal and take time for himself and not just not thinking he is worth caring about anyway - ugh this will forever make me sad and angry, because Dean deserves so so much!). What I think would be an important difference in these scenarios however would be that I’d imagine Dean to be in amore emotionally stable place himself. Aside from that particularly doctor/paramedic and therapist would require long and demanding studying. Something Dean imo would be more than capable of and would enjoy and success in. The show and sometimes the fandom too puts Dean in the “brawn” category, see him as the more practical one. Frankly, I think that’s bullshit. Dean’s plenty smart, he’s so quick to pick up on things and is a very natural learner and observer. It’s just that on the show Dean himself think of himself as less and not as intelligent (*shakes Dean to make him see himself for the amazing person he is*) though he constantly proves he is.

So if there ever was an episode again played as an AU I would love it to show Dean working in any of the fields above and with that making Dean maybe see that he is one hell of an amazing, smart and all around wonderful person.

[TRANS] 150405 LOVE LETTER from Baekho

Please read || The reason why I am writing this post at such a time is today was the day for the 2nd concert performance in Japan. So, from early in the morning after I woke up, we had rehearsal and other preparations like what is needed for a performance. However I got woken up by 4 calls. It’s one of our ㄴㅇㅅㅌs and it’s not a korean but a foreign one.

Well I like it (T/N: communicating with fans ) until you know my phone number. I know that you must like me when sending me text msgs and calling me. I guess I might think too much about this. You’re really going to like us in the wrong way. Now at this time I woke up to hear the sound of the phone. This feeling (T/N: when waking up by a phone call) is nice but today happened too much besides this already. Now I can’t go back to sleep and I don’t want you to like me/us in the wrong way. Please just stop!

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This is what I have been doing for about an hour early this evening. This little girl was born this morning 10:03 am.

But I think I haven’t been posting anything about my cats for some time now, so maybe I’ll start a bit earlier.

Cini had her accident 9 weeks ago tomorrow. I had planned to have her neutered back then. Due to the surgery that had been postponed. After her leg had healed her belly already was a b it round. I knew then why she hadn’t been paying attention to the traffic ^^

This morning 9:20 my husband called me at work to tell me Cini had started to give birth. Shortly after I got home the first kitten, a black girl, was born (10:03 am). No problems with the afterbirth, the kitten looked healthy. I had been a bit concerned because of the several X-rays and the painkillers Cini had after her accident. But so far, so good. The next wave of contractions started – and stopped. After that nothing…

Two hours later I started to be really concerend. 4:00 pm and still no change. I called the vet. He told me to come 5:30. Cini got some oxytocin, which brought nothing. The vet took a X-ray which showed there were two kittens left to be born, but they had entangled. Cini had to have a Cesarean.

I took the first kitten with me back home to keep her warm. We could fetch Cini back home immediately after the surgery. The vet gave her something to neutralize at least part of the anaesthetics. She’s not really fit yet, but she’ll make it and the other two kittens seem to be healthy, too. Those two are little grey striped boys. Expect more pictures :D