why am i the only one that seems to care

how to tell if you are fetishizing lgbt+ characters: a quick guide by tumblr user isakvaltrsens

chapter one: why am i a fan of this content?

  • only because i find it hot when the lgbt+ characters make out
  • only because i find it hot when the lgbt+ characters have sex
  • because i want to seem like i care about lgbt+ issues
  • if you answered yes then you are fetishizing lgbt+ characters!

chapter two: can i be part of the lgbt+ community and still fetishize other members of the community itself?

  • yes!!!
  • refer to chapter one if you have doubts!

chapter three: how can i check to make sure i’m not fetishizing this content?

  • make sure that you actually value the lgbt+ characters 
  • make sure you actually care about the plot
  • do not leave comments on the actors/writers social media about how you want the two lgbt+ characters to have sex/kiss/etc.

chapter four: can i still write fanfiction about these two characters?

  • yes!
  • literally, i love a smut fic just as much as the next person!
  • be sure your works don’t rely heavily on stereotypes!
  • refer to chapter one

blue night radio ♡ 170208
translation: fantaemsie

listener (message): when i was a teenager i was a really gloomy child. it seemed like the whole world had turned it’s back on me. i believed i was the only one in the world. back then someone uttered these words to me: “everyone lives like that. you’re not the only one having a hard time. everyone lives in difficulty, and diligently, as much as you do.” at that time, rather than getting hurt by these words i thought: “that’s right so i’ve behaving like a child.” that’s why, from then on, i lived really diligently, only looking straight head. even though, because of my family’s circumstances, i got into college a bit late compared to other people, i pushed my own self with a rod of iron and i refused to face my own wounds since i trusted that, other than me, there are other people who are having a tough time and that everyone is living working hard as much as i do. i live diligently. then i thought: i could be even better, an even more of a good person. however, after i ran and ran diligently like that, now that i’m going to graduate i turned out to be someone who gets angry and annoyed at everything. i get angry at the words the other opponent would throw in without any meaning. i’d get angry with a: “what do you know?”. little by little i hated meeting other people and i’m just preparing to find a job while only looking straight ahead. however …, i suddenly got this thought: why am i comparing my own pain with other people’s suffering? why did i make other people’s misfortune the basis to my happiness? all of a sudden these words i heard years ago occurred to me again: “everyone lives like that. you’re not the only one having a hard time.” it seemed like i’d fall behind if i didn’t do anything, that i’d really become someone who’s oblivious to everything - casting a spell that everyone lives like that, that i’m not the only one having a tough time. i pressured and harassed myself. i couldn’t be caring to myself. i was only too strict to myself. i couldn’t love myself, the one that needed love the most. at last, i want to say this to myself: “you lived diligently. more than anybody else you lived fiercely. it’s alright. you can rest now.” today, my status message: “it’s alright even if you don’t do anything.

jonghyun: “everyone lives like that, you’re not the only one having a hard time.” these words …, i think it’s the most wrong way of consolation in the world. the comparing with the other opponent, with different people. you know how there are these words? “live with the courage to die”; well …, these words? i think it’s the worst way of consolation. comfort …, to someone who’s having a hard time, someone who’s gloomy / depressed, to an exhausted person, to say: “when you get these thoughts, think of …, when you get those thoughts, courageously, do something different …, ya, right now, since you’re having a hard time like that: you’re exhausted, tired and having negative thoughts. i think it’d be good to quickly put that energy on the move and quickly take care of the work you need to get done.” to be honest, that person was aware of this too. they already know it’ll be solved by quickly moving on. they really immensely wish for it to be that way. however, it’s not working that way. there’s another thing other than the body’s wounds that you can see with your own eyes: it’s the heart’s wounds and, because of that, when comforting someone, i think one should think of how there’s certainly another existence, something that my eyes can’t see. of course, me too, while talking about this, since there are certainly words i gave to someone and wounds i’ve received from someone, i wanted to complain and talk a bit about this to our dear listeners. when comforting someone, rather than consoling them by comparing, whether comparing them to yourself or another person’s situation, i think it’d be nice to just have a talk about that person, them solely.

Vanguard

(also on ao3)

inspired by @drisrt‘s amazing art (check it - and all their other stuff - out friends, pure amaze)


“It is not because Zarkon suspects anything?” Ulaz asks.

He gets right to the point. The hallway they have sequestered themselves in will only be empty for so long, another patrol unit is set to pass through there in a few minutes.

“Doubtful,” Thace says. “I have been careful.”

“Then why send you to the frontlines of Haneer?”

Thace does not like the idea either. It seems counterproductive to the Blade of Marmora’s goal to take down the Galra empire by helping them to expand it. He would much rather continue cautiously collecting what information he can from the databases on the ship as he has been.

“You act as if I am the only one going.”

“You are the only one that matters.”

“Do not worry. If I should fall another of the blades will take my place. You will not be alone in your mission.”

“That is not what I mean.”

Ulaz takes a step forward and reaches up, trails his fingers along Thace’s jaw and up his cheek. It is an intimacy they have not allowed themselves since they came aboard Zarkon’s ship.

“Ulaz,” Thace cautions.

They are running out of time.

“Give me this,” Ulaz pleads.

Thace hesitates only a moment before his resolve weakens and he grabs Ulaz’s hand, presses their foreheads together. He allows them a moment where they only have each other to worry about. A short-lived moment, gone as both of their ears perk at the sound of mechanical footsteps in the distance.

“Knowledge or death,” Thace says, pulling away.

“Knowledge or death,” Ulaz repeats. “Please. Be safe.”

Thace nods, gives him a ghost of a smile before backpedaling away and disappearing down the next hall.

Chicken Soup

‘what happened after the three days in the infirmary’ shit I suddenly want to write.

also, ignore the title.

“Well, this is a surprise. Who would have thought that of all people to catch the flu, it’s you”

Will Solace sneezed and blew his nose before dropping the tissue on the trash can near his bed. Because of course, being sick doesn’t excuse him being unsanitary and messy with his surroundings. 

Another sneeze.

A sly smile curved up at the edge of Nico’s lips. “What a sight”

“Shut up, di Angelo. Go ahead, laugh at me why don’t you” The son of Apollo’s voice sounded groggy and tired.

“What do you really want me to do? Shut up or laugh?” The son of Hades spoke with sarcasm and stepped closer earning him a glare from the son of Apollo.

“Stay right there, di Angelo! Don’t you dare get any closer” Okay, that sounded a bit louder considering the fact that he was sick.

“Okay wow, never would have thought that you mind personal space that much” Nico stopped and lowered his face down a little, staring at the infirmary’s floor. Will looked at the demigod and maybe, it was the effect of him being sick and on medication that had him feeling the sadness and rejection from Nico more than he might have on a normal basis but nevertheless, it made him feel rather guilty. 

“Sorry, that sounded a bit harsh” Will spoke, his voice considerably lower “I just don’t want you to get sick, Nico”

“A little flu won’t hurt me, Solace”

“It would. I’m your doctor, di Angelo. Listen to me, I would know what’s best or you” Nico rolled his eyes at those words but didn’t say anything  to contradict “You’re whole body, including your immune system is still at risk. Just because you’re out of the infirmary, doesn’t mean you’re fully recovered. Please don’t act all stupid and irrational” 

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Y’know a lot of people are talking about how much they’re looking forward to seeing Odin’s family but honestly I think his family might actually be abusive towards him.

I mean first of all there’s something fishy with his mission to get Maggie. If he was sent to get her because of Tuls, why the fuck did nobody warn him that she might have supernatural powers that could fuck up his mission. If they DIDN’T want her because of Tuls, why the fuck did they send him after this random girl? Either way it sounds like he was set up to fail from the start.

The fact that Crow and Raven were able to find him literally less than a day after he crashed is suspicious. 

Not only that but the first thing they do is steal something that’s clearly important to him, tamper with it and replacing what I can only assume is a precious stone with a tracking device. That’s theft and destruction of personal property ON TOP of invasion of privacy rolled into one. This is like putting a tracking device on someone’s phone, there’s no way this isn’t anything BUT creepy.

On top of THAT why didn’t they immediately confront him when they found him? Like seriously they had literally no reason to wait so long. They could have jumped down, told him they were here to get him because his ship crashed, and they would’ve been home a lot sooner. They literally waited until the moment they could snatch him away without Ava’s notice, they’re intentionally trying to isolate him from anybody who could want to help him.

Going back to the mission being fishy, it’s not like Odin was pulling a Leeroy Jenkins and doing this all by himself. He begged and pleaded with Olai to give him this mission. I could understand the tracking device if Odin had done this all by himself, (even if tampering with a clearly treasured item is still really shitty), that wouldn’t be so much an invasion of privacy as it would be trying to make sure he doesn’t do something stupid and dangerous by himself again.

Also, if Maggie was so important, how come they don’t seem to care about where she is or getting her. They seemed pretty focused on just getting Odin back, I mean if they’re really supposed to be fixing his mess then why aren’t they trying to find Maggie? 

Am I the only one disturbed by the fact they’re treating their own brother like a freaking criminal? They threaten to shoot him, force him to put on handcuffs, and then send a picture of him in handcuffs to presumably everyone who knows him. They’re actively trying to humiliate him, and don’t give me any bullshit about it being playful sibling banter. I’ve got a younger sibling and he’d never do something to try and humiliate me like these girls are trying their brother.

The fact that they ditched Odin the moment something went wrong also doesn’t reassure me. Yeah they’re twelve so I’m not blaming them for not wanting to stick around. But they didn’t even try to get Odin to come with them. They ditched him the moment danger started coming near, like wouldn’t most siblings be like “COME ON SOMETHING BAD’S HAPPENING WE NEED TO LEAVE”. But nope they ditch him without hesitation, and from their perspective THEY COULD BE LEAVING HIM TO FUCKING DIE.

Maybe I’m jumping to conclusions. Like, maybe Crow and Raven are exceptionally bratty and selfish and I’m reading too much into it. And for all we know the moment we do get to Odin’s planet we’re going to walk in on Olai reading the twins the riot act for their behavior and for leaving Odin to seemingly die. 

But I don’t know there’s something not quite right with Odin’s family. And considering the themes we’ve been dealing with so far, would it really be that surprising for familial abuse to come into play? 

he said,
“if he lays a finger on you, he won’t see daylight.”
and i told him that
i didn’t know what to say because
it seems like no one cares nowadays.

you said you care.
you said you’ve felt that way for a while.
but if you do care,
why do you shove me away like that?

“i love you”
“the only girl i need”
my favourite two lies
that lie within my heart
and crawl through my veins to cut them up.

because the only time you love me
is when you think i look pretty
and the only time you speak to me
is when i am vulnerable
but my dear lover
i have been through these things before
my dad ripped my heart out before you could even add to the score
my mother has never heard of you
my brother will never speak of you
and still my heart beats for you, you, you.

i have aced the tests that love has put me through
i have aced the things you thought you were good at too
but yet you’re still a frequent character in my sorry head
yet you’re still the monster that keeps these demons fed
not even pills could rid the thought of you
and it’s the truth, baby.
i tried to care for you.

you wouldn’t let me.

—  i went crazy when i was with you. I can’t let that happen again
save you || Theo Raeken Imagine

Request:Hey can you do a Theo x reader fic where the reader is very timid and he’s super soft for her and she’s like the brains of the pack?? and one day she is in battle with them and she gets taken by whoever lol and he saves her and it’s just protective/soft/concerned/sweet Theo ilysm your writing is the best

word count:1183

A/N:LETS JUST ACT LIKE THEO WAS THERE IN SEASON FOUR OKAY and also I hope you like this cause I don’t know about this one cause it’s late and I am stressed af but I wanted to post something :)

MASTERLIST

„Hey baby“, Theo whispered behind you in your ear and put his hands around your waist. He always came over to you without telling you , to make it a suprise, so it did not shock you when he was there. And also you heard him come in anyway. You turned and smiled slightly before he put his lips on yours. It was a soft and gentle kiss , even though Theo seemed more like a bad boy to everyone, he has shown you his soft side ; you were the only one who was seeing this side of him. „Haven’t seen you today in school, why is that?“, he asked you when you broke the kiss.

„I was not feeling too well, and now I am making chicken cutlet but because of you being here it’ll probably burn“, you chuckled and took care of your chicken cutlet in the pan. „Smells delicious babe“, he whispered and started to kiss you on your neck.

„Seriously Theo, stop not now or do you want to eat burnt chicken cutlet?“,you giggled and then he finally stopped.“Thank you“

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Am I the only one who seems to think that Tony is in love with Clay like it may just be my over-the-top-gay-shipping here but I mean the way he sorta is always there and like cares so much even though Clay has given him shit so many times like it’s hard to believe that he might not have feeling for him

Update: okay I wasn’t that far into the show when I made the post but now that I’ve finished it and all I realized why tony stuck around so much (but I do sorta ship it on accident 😬)

Confessions - Peter Hale

Characters: Derek Hale, Peter Hale, Reader.

*REQUESTED FROM PROMPTS LIST*

Originally posted by imcrystalmreed

You hated Peter. He was mean, cold-hearted, and quite possibly an evil mastermind. He always teased you, he made you feel small.

“You’re doing great. I’m surprised that you’ve come so far.” Derek smiled. He’d been training you for a couple months.

“Thanks. I learn from the best.” You laugh.

“I didn’t know Derek was the best. Peter smirks. “I thought I’d earned that title.”

You roll your eyes. “Sure.”

“I’m serious, Y/N. I’m actually offended that you feel this way.”

You and Derek exchange an annoyed look. “Old men can’t earn the title of the best. Sorry.” You shrug and he smirks.

“And Derek can? Feels a little biased to me.”

“Biased how?” You cross your arms.

“Well he’s already your teacher. I’m just a simple handsome man that’s ready to show you what you need to know.”

“You’ve got the simple part right.” You scoff and wave goodbye to Derek before heading out the door.

You hear Peter come out behind you. “Y/N, wait!”

You turn and look at him. “What?”

“Do you think you’d want to go out tonight?”

Your jaw hits the floor. “Seriously?”

He smiles, “Yeah.”

“No. I don’t. You’re mean and I’m not into mean.” You shrug and get into your car.

Did he really just ask you on a date?

The next few days go like this. He asks you out, you say no and leave. Actually, the next few months go like this.

“Y/N!” Peters calls.

“No I won’t go out with you tonight.” You’d actually fallen for him in these past few weeks. He’d become sweet and seemed to care a lot.

“Why?”

“Because. I don’t have to have a reason I just don’t want to.”

He sighs and rubs his head. “Will you just accept the fact that I am hopelessly in love with you and there is nothing you can do that will change that?”

"You’re in love with me?” You smile.

“You forgot the hopelessly part.” He laughs.

“Okay. I’ll reconsider that date.”

He smiles. “Tonight? At eight?”

“Only if you’re still hopelessly in love with me then.”

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9 & Isaac Lahey :-)

Isaac Lahey - “I know it doesn’t seem like it, but I’m going to take care of you.”

“No!” You shook your head and stared at the creature in front of you. Your heart was racing in your chest and while you stopped breathing you heard a voice in the back of your mind screaming that you had to run. “No, you’re not Isaac…” You shook your head again and all of a sudden the adrenaline rushed through your veins.

“Wait! I can explain!” The monster tried to speak as softly as possible, but you didn’t want to listen.

You just wanted to get away from here. You just wanted to get away from him.

“Seriously…” The monster turned back into the boy you knew. “Why does Scott never have this? Why am I always the one falling in love with someone freaking out when I tell them that I’m a werewolf?”

You took a deep breath before you turned around and started running. You ignored your protesting muscles. You ignored your hurting feet. You didn’t care about the pain in your side and your burning lungs. You only cared about getting away from him, it, whatever.

“Come on, (Y/N)!” Isaac wasn’t too far behind you though and no matter how fast you were it seemed impossible to outrun him. “I’m a good guy! I promise!” Isaac screamed and eventually he placed a hand on your shoulder and forced you to stop.

“You didn’t look like one of the good guys…” You tripped over your own feet and ended on your back in the mud. “You looked like a monster.”

Isaac rolled his eyes and he pressed his hands in his sides while he was towering over you. “I know that my werewolf form isn’t the prettiest version of me, but I promise I don’t hurt anyone who doesn’t deserve it.” He shook his head and then he seemed to realise that you were still on the ground. He stretched out his hand and a little reluctantly you grabbed it.

“And how do you determine who deserves it?” You were out of breath and you could feel your heart beating in your chest. “What makes you one of the good guys and those you hurt the bad guys?”

“That’s a long story…” Isaac took a deep breath. “But…” He paused for a moment, his hand still holding onto yours. “There are quite some scary things in this life, actually.” He took a deep breath. “And maybe it’s better if I don’t tell you about all of them right now, because I’m pretty sure that you won’t be able to sleep at night anymore.” He licked his lips. “I sometimes don’t even sleep at night anymore and I actually have claws to defend myself.”

You couldn’t help curling your lips up into a little smile. “I think the upcoming nights you’ll be the main character in my nightmares, Lahey.” You shook your head.

“Sorry…” Isaac swallowed. “Look, I know it doesn’t seem like it, but I’m going to take care of you.” He stared at you and he pulled you a little closer towards him. “I’m sorry I scared you. I didn’t mean to.”

“I’ll need a couple of days to get over the shock, I think…” You pulled your hand back and tucked a strand of hair behind your ear. “In the meantime you can think about a way to make up for this.”

“Yeah, I understand. Sorry, really. I’ll figure something out. I don’t wanna lose you.”

backstreet boys sentence starters
  • “loneliness has always been a friend of mine”
  • “i’m leaving my life in your hands”
  • “people say i’m crazy”
  • “i can’t get you out of my head”
  • “i dont care who you are, where you’re from, or what you did. as long as you love me”
  • “it seems like we’re meant to be”
  • “backstreets back, alright!”
  • “am i original?”
  • “am i the only one?”
  • “i’m breaking”
  • “show me the meaning of being lonely”
  • “tell me why i can’t be there where you are”
  • “life goes on”
  • “we never said forever”
  • “your every wish will be done”
  • “there’s something missing in my heart”
  • “i have no place to go”
  • “i surrender my heart, body and soul”
  • “you were missing in my heart”
  • “please try to forgive me”
  • “stay here”
  • “hold me”
  • “you can save me from the person i’ve become”
  • “loneliness is tragic”
  • “help me”
  • “i’m here with my confession”
  • “i have nothing to hide”
  • “i’m looking back on the things i’ve done”
  • “quit playing games with my heart”
  • “nothing’s like it used to be”
  • “sometimes i wish i could turn back time”
  • “i should have known”
  • “everything i do is for you”
  • “love is all i have to give”
  • “i’ll never break your heart”
  • “i don’t have a fancy car”
  • “does it seem like he’s not listening to a word we say?”
  • “i wish i could give the world to you”
  • “i’ve got it going on”
  • “i want it that way”
  • “we’re two worlds apart”
  • “tell me why”
  • “ain’t nothin’ but a heartache”
  • “it’s too late”
Oath | Ch.23.2 | Jungkook

Genre: Angst | Mafia!AU

Members: Jungkook | You/Reader | Yoongi | Taehyung | Namjoon | Hoseok | Jin | Jimin |

Summary: What if one day everything you ever wanted is taken away and your whole world comes crushing down? If you were to forget today, who would you be tomorrow?

Originally posted by berry852

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Word count: 4,644

A/N: I am so pleased with how this one turned out. Although I am not so sure about the ending, I might not like it in a day or two, but I really wanted to post it so I had to go with this. As always, thank you for reading my story, I hope you enjoy this part as well, and have a great day/ evening! ^^

D-DAY

“So you’re finally showing your real face…” Jimin’s low voice scared the life out of you. “Traitor,” the disgust in his voice was triggering you somehow.

“I’m not…” you were too panicked to even make a sentence.

It was as if ever since Jungkook showed up everything turned upside down for you within the group. Everyone kept pushing you away from him, accusing you of stuff you did not do, doubting your loyalty, and always keeping you under their radar. It was exhausting.

“You’re not what? So you want to tell me you weren’t thinking of running away just now?” he was taking slow steps towards you, crushing the grass under his boots. “I’m not Taehyung, Y/N, you can’t fool me with your pretty eyes and sweet words. I can see right through your bullshit.”

“It’s not bullshit!” you raised your voice.

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     so   —  i’ve  been  here  less  than  a  year  ?   um  gosh  i’m  bad  @  this  but  like  i  never  expected  for  so  many  of  you  to  like  this  blog  ?   this  number  may  not  seem  like  much  to  some,   but  each  and  every  one  of  you  is  special  to  me    ( except  porn  blogs  you  can  fuck  off  k  thanks   —   blocked )    this  is  rly   late   i  know   —  meant  to  do  it  once  i  got  100  tbh,  &   also  hence  why  the  number  is  so  off  but  —  anyway.  gosh  i’m  so  off track  n  am  lit  tearing  up  rn  …  right.  giveaway.

    all  o’  those  standard  rules :    have  to  be  following  me   ( shit  i  honestly  don’t  care  if  you  follow  me just  for  this  tbqh  )  ,    reblogs only ,   um  i  think  that’s  it ????  fifth place  —  100  unedited  icons.  fourth  place  —  300  unedited  icons,  a header.   third place —  header  &  background  or  promo  &  theme background .   second  place  —  theme  code  +  300  unedited  icons  or  theme  background  +  300  unedited icons.   first  place  —  theme  background  ,  100  icons  edited  to  your  preference ,   theme  code  (  not  original  theme  but  edited  from  someone  else’s  )  ,  and  header  . 

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finding neverland (musical) sentence starters

feel free to change pronouns, etc to better fit!

  • “there’s a moment you’ve been waiting all your life for, when you find the very reason you’re alive for”
  • “i ignored the beat inside my heart for too long”
  • “anyone who’s anyone is here!”
  • “tonight they’re here to celebrate your name”
  • “have i given this all i can give?”
  • “is this the life i’m meant to live?”
  • “if you’re not with us, then you’re one of them”
  • “we’re gonna stay ‘till the sun goes away”
  • “we shouldn’t be inside on such a beautiful day”
  • “a shame to waste the sun, go out and have some fun!”
  • “it’s so frustrating when no one else sees everything you see”
  • “when you look, tell me, what do you see?”
  • “you act like you really don’t care”
  • “everything my eyes see is nothing like it should be”
  • “everything my eyes see is only like it should be”
  • “our life’s calling was never meant to be boring”
  • “let’s wake up the others!”
  • “we’ll have a party in a secret location”
  • “permission to be naughty is our god given right!”
  • “good heavens, what are we doing?”
  • “that truly sounds like madness!”
  • “i’m sure there’ll be a price to pay”
  • “there are days when i feel so afraid, i can hardly remember to breathe”
  • “what’s the point in planning for a future when it all can be stolen away?”
  • “it’s all i can do to hold on a survive”
  • “he makes sense of all of my chaos”
  • “i know that some may not understand..”
  • “every wish is our command”
  • “picture a land that you never have seen”
  • “i’ve heard enough, you’re losing your mind!”
  • “you say i will adore it, but i’m paying for it”
  • “it’s over, i’m leaving you behind”
  • “there has been nothing but trouble and strife ever since you came into this family’s life!”
  • “spare us your crocodile tears”
  • “we’re doing everything we can to get through to you”
  • “i should turn back while there’s still time”
  • “i don’t need their sympathy”
  • “i’ve got to be stronger”
  • “you’ll see in time. you will survive”
  • “i hope you’ll forgive mistakes and errors”
  • “i have to live and breathe my part”
  • “is he lost in an emotional purgatory?”
  • “do you have experience being lost?”
  • “i won’t lie, i’m a little bit frightened”
  • “you’re my inspiration”
  • “nothing can explain just what you mean to me”
  • “now i really know just what you mean to me”
  • “you’ve forgotten how to play!”
  • “the world is so mysterious and wild”
  • “i used to dream i was a ballerina”
  • “you can be anything you wanna be”
  • “faith will get you through it”
  • “the answers are all inside yourself”
  • “if i could write every single day, i’d write all my cares away”
  • “when did life become so complicated?”
  • “why am i the only one not getting stronger?”
  • “running around pretending life’s a play, it doesn’t make the pain go away”
  • “a lot of this seems rather familiar”
  • “you just close your eyes and count to ten”
  • “you made her proud to be alive”
  • “she’ll always be there by your side”
Betsy the Doll

Like most people these days, I had a fucked up childhood. Who doesn’t, right? My father took off before I was born and my mother was left to care for me on her own, a skill she was sorely lacking.  My mother slipped right back into the drug-addled, party lifestyle she’d enjoyed before I was born and had soon turned our two-bedroom apartment into an opium den.

For the first five years of my life, I walked around in a confused, terrifying mist. The smoky air would flood down the hallway from our living room and slip under my bedroom door. It always seemed to linger for days.

I know now that my mother wasn’t a bad person, just a victim of her addictions. When she did have spare money, she would put food in the house or buy me clothes from Goodwill. The only pieces of furniture I had in my bedroom was a mattress set and a little blue and white toy chest. Not that I had a lot of toys to put in it, of course, just the three I had gotten for birthdays: one was an art kit, one was a red wagon, and the last, my pride and joy, was a doll named Betsy.

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Natsume the Baby Sitting HCs

A bit of a continuation to the townsfolk post I wrote a while back.

  • Natsume does not dislike children he just does not think they will like him due to past experience.
  • Most of the kids he was with growing up react negatively to hints of his ability so he assumes that’s how all children will react
  • He has had to deal with younger cousins and such when he moved around and throughout his life. The younger the child is the better he can handle them.
  • babies/ toddlers: he’s great!
  • Middle Schoolers: fears for his health and feels mentally drained. Butdontweall?
  • One day he’s visiting the manju shop and chatting with one of the servers. she seems pretty stressed and complaining about how she never has time for just her and her husband to hang out together. Its not like they are workaholics it just sometimes their off days don’t coincide. and when they do they have no one to watch their 7 year old daughter.
  • or don’t they?
  • “Natsume-kun~ you don’t have any after school responsibilities right? no clubs and no job yes?”
  • Natsume get’s that feeling he usually gets when youkai try to ask him a favor that he is not trained for in the slightest. He confirms her questions anyway. She’s human and this can’t go too horribly wrong. right?
  • “would you watch my kid for me this Saturday evening?”
  • oh no. abort  abORT ABORT
  • Ah I don’t think you should leave me to-”
  • “PLEASE NATSUME! You’re so sweet and honest! a good role model and it will only be for a few hours! i’ll pay you! and you can even bring your cat. I’ll leave some manju buns for you three too!”
  • cue Nyanko-sensei’s insistent mews and the server’s pleading eyes and well Natsume can’t say no
  • fast forward to the weekend Natsume has read a child care book, asked advice from friends on how they treat their younger siblings/ cousins and grilled his foster parents on things they recommend. 
  • Nyanko-sensei suggest locking her in her room so they can enjoy the manju but no sensei she did nothing wrong we cant DO THAT!
  • They arrive and the 7-year old is pretty nervous to be around him and is very shy
  • Natsume is also very nervous but he swallows it down and power through like he always does.
  • He was only really given emergency numbers and a bed time so he decides to just?? do??? whatever she wants to????
  • she wants to play with Nyanko-sensei but alas Natsume brought no toys
  • “lets make them!”
  • so they wander around the house picking up things Natsume hopes will not be missed and spend time crafting toys
  • Natsume at it turns out is very resoursful and the little girl is full of ideas so combine the two and they actually make some pretty good toys
  • Nyanko was muttering about how he wouldn’t play with them at all but then a puff ball made out of old rags fling in front of his face and he cannot resist the power to pounce
  • The entire time Natsume is talking with the girl and going along with all the weird twist and turns their conversations gets into.
  • Natsume spends so much time with youkai the imagination of a 7-year old is very easy to handle
  • she’s talking about odd things that have happened in the forest and telling him his theories
  • Natsume decides to add his own taking experience from his encounters with Youkai 
  • “there was this little frog I saw one day! It looked lost so i put him back in the forest” “ah that’s good he has a really big and powerful master he’ll be grateful you helped the underlying out and might owe you a favor” “how big is he???” “bigger than this entire house!” “:0 woah”
  • overall he has a good night and when he’s tucking her in to bed she says: “Natsume-nii I hope mommy and daddy go on a date again soon so you and kitty can come over again!”
  • Natsume is generally shocked she had such a good time she’d even say that. he smiles gently at her and tells her good night. She’s happy so that’s all he could ever ask for and hey it wasn’t so bad he could do this again
  • Nyanko-sensei huffs but doesn’t directly say anything against which basically means he wants to come again too
  • Natsume tells the parents if they ever need one he’s free to babysit and the tears of joy that he sees streaming down his eyes mean that yes this will be a reoccurring thing. and he even finds himself looking forward to it a bit.

anonymous asked:

It's making me somewhat sad how much this season is about Noora. I like her, but beginning with the first clip it's been: William might have a new girlfriend, oh she seems kinda down; let's find her a new guy; let's have a group chat without her to set her up with one of Elias' friends and to discuss her life; she meets Yousef and likes him; and now it's all about why she really left London. It's making me slowly dislike her. It should be about Sana :-((

I never cared much about Noora (even though I feel that she deserved better: I wish her season had been more about her eating disorder and dumping Willhelm for a girlfriend but hey). I am a bit “meh” that she seems to be taking so much space but you have to remember this is from Sana’s POV and we are only one episode and some in.

I feel that the emphasis put on Noora is more to show that the girl squad notices her drama more than Sana’s and how Sana view her: the white girl who gets all the attention and all the boys.

Like I said today, several times, I don’t think Noora likes Yousef romantically. I think she was just talking to him at the party and not flirting. I think she was mentioning him to Sana because she might have noticed that Sana liked him and wanted to see if it was true. When she’s talking about Yousef, she’s only looking at Sana. She seems to be trying to get a reaction. “Yousef is quite CHARMING isn’t he Sana? uh? uh? *nudge nudge wink wink*”
But Sana is feeling hurt, she’s feeling invisible, alienated by her friends and society. Sana misinterprets Noora’s intentions and instead of talking about herself, admitting her crush, she’s defensive and redirect the topic onto Noora.
I feel that this was the first time one of the girl squad, in this season, actually showed and expressed genuine interest in Sana’s life but Sana, not being used to it and afraid, dodged the attention.

I agree that this season should be about Sana. But so far, in SKAM, we always got to know the mains through their relationships. It’s a show that’s very character-driven. We learn about the characters (and see them grow) through their relationships with others more than through plot.
So I don’t think this season, so far, has been less about Sana. But maybe I’m wrong.

To me, episode one was the exposition: we set the stage, introduce the comedians, distribute some props. We see where every character is at: Noora still has problems with Willhelm, Chris is not with Kasper anymore, Vilde is with Magnus and “has a lot of great sex” *coughs*, Eva doesn’t seem to be with P. Chris anymore, Sana is interested in Yousef.
At the end of episode 1, we have the tipping point: Sana sees Yousef and Noora interact and interpret it as flirting. She’s hurt. She might end up feeling like she “missed her chance” because she was praying instead of mingling (that’s a personal theory of mine about what might end up happening).

So like, yeah, I’m getting a bit off topic here. Point is: I understand your worry. I don’t want this season to be about Noora either. Willhelm can rot in hell.
But I think it’s very early to realise exactly what role Noora will have and how much space she will take this season.
We can all share theories and headcanons: hell I churn out ten metas per clip. But let’s remember that SKAM is about biased POV and has surprised us in the past by not going where everyone has gone before.

A Universal Truth (AU: L/J)

A/N: In which James and Lily are huge nerds together, and there are a lot of Pride and Prejudice references (one of which is technically from the 2005 movie and not the book because the phrasing worked better), because that’s just the sort of mood I was in.

Lily looks up from her worn copy of Pride and Prejudice, scanning the café for her friend and roommate Marlene for the third time. Once again failing to spot the blonde, she returns to her reading with a little sigh. She knows it shouldn’t surprise her that Marlene is late—Lily had known her long enough to realize this was a virtual certainty—but nagging thoughts of the amount of homework awaiting her back in her dorm makes Lily impatient.

Distracted as she is with wondering when Marlene might arrive, Lily jumps when someone else slides unannounced into the seat across from her. The person in question is a young man about her age with unruly black hair and a pair of spectacles perched crookedly on his nose.

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ORYX AND CRAKE - sentence starters

(trigger warnings apply. some are nsfw. modify as you like to fit your needs!)

PART ONE

  • “It is the strict adherence to daily routine that tends towards the maintenance of good morale and the preservation of sanity.”
  • “These are things from before.”
  • “Piss off? Piss off?”
  • “Now I’m alone. All, all alone.”
  • “Don’t even think about it.”
  • “Sex is like drink, and it’s bad to start brooding about it too early in the day.”
  • “Say anything.”
  • “What can I do?”
  • “Honey, just lie back.”
  • “Asshole! Shit-for-brains!”
  • “You did this!”
  • “Get a life.”

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