why am i back !!

anonymous asked:

I stayed with a dom for eight years who was abusing me (lying to me, not respecting safe words etc).. I am afraid that I am how you warn these littles they will become if they don't leave their abusers; all broken in a heap on the floor with a dead soul. Except there was no one to help me put me back together after him, I put myself together but I'm not sure I did a good job. I still miss him and sometimes I miss the things he did to me and I just don't know what to think of that.

Just stay right here.. and keep up with my posts. We can build you back up together. Its why I exist. I am proud of you for getting out. Keep working. Keep growing… keep getting better. You deserve the best, and now you know how to get it. 

You keep moving forward.. and I will keep doing my best to help you.

I"m tired of feeling like I’m too much. Like I care too much. Like I drink too much. Like I love too much. Like I’m sad too much. Like I break too much. Like I push people away too much. Like I question everything too much. Like I fuck up too much. Like I fall in love too much. Like I blame myself too much. Like I eat too much. Like I feel alone too much. I just want someone to tell me, “You’re not too much for me to handle. You’re not too little. You’re perfect for me.” I wanna stop overflowing, I wanna just be. I want to feel wanted. I want to stop choosing people that try to fill their holes with pieces of me, because I’ll never fit right. I want someone who just wants me to be me.
—  I’m tired of collapsing
I go to bed Every. Single. Fucking. Night. wondering why having me wasn’t enough for you.

You’re a little judgy. You’re a lot judgy. You’re like Judge Reinhold.

I’m afraid to tell you that I miss you because I know you won’t say it back.
—  💜

5 hours into my spring break and im already spending it drawing cute girls smh

when gentle sweet girl falls in love with even sweeter shy girl 🌺❤️🌼

I never thought that I’d be the girl lying on the floor at 12:40am crying over you…