i feel like lesbian love is always a dance…i’ve been thinking about how i view love lately and it is so much to think about. the idea of loving someone who is not viewed by culture as a complete person and of meeting them when you yourself aren’t a complete person either…i think people who aren’t lesbians don’t understand the trauma of having to constantly make a case for a life without men. and then beyond that even just of knowing a woman, that’s a beautiful thing and the most intense feeling on earth i think? women carry so much pain literally all of the time…i found a notebook the other day from forever ago where i wrote “loving you is heavy, girl, but not because you are too heavy” and i think that kinda sums up the constant exchange of comforting someone who is viewed as Less and giving yourself what you need and also accepting someone else’s life into your own…yeah. it is 9am and being a lesbian is a lot.
i'm trans* non-binary and i like girls but when people ask me i don't wanna say that i'm a lesbian, bc i'm not a girl and yeah... i hope you know what i mean so, what am i?