who cares i do it again

Happy 24th birthday, Thea.

I’m sitting and looking through old pictures of you and us, and know more about missing you than I think I can handle. I miss you so insanely much.

I didn’t know before that missing someone could be felt physically, but I know that now. I know it in my chest. It hurts. A bit like when you can’t breathe properly.

I hope i’ll see you again soon.

I will make up for all the others who do not seem to care about you. I promise you that.

Liv

anonymous asked:

😊, 💯, 💑, 💘

sex+romance headcanons

😊 - Would my muse ever ask someone on a date?

Probably, he just needs to be very determined, and very interested.

💑 - What are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner?

Intelligence is key. Other than that, keep him intrigued, generally don’t be aggressive. He really likes the feeling of being loved or cherished by someone, and he looks up to people who are ambitious and hard-working to reach their goal. Then again, in other occasions, simply being very sweet and caring with him can do the trick. (It’s a weakness of his)

💘 - What are the ways my muse says ‘I love you’ without actually saying it?

It’s a thing he doesn’t say without meaning it in general - it leaves him vulnerable, so first of all if he does say it, then he’s just undeniably gone. But before getting to that point, he does attempt to show it with certain subtle acts, however he’s rather clueless when it comes to romance, and there’s a chance he’s just simply failing to get the message through, so he often doesn’t even try at all. If we’re talking about a scenario when he’s already in a relationship, and they’ve established they love each other already, then he just conveys it with gentle touches and warm smiles, trying to make them something now and then/surprise them with something small. (But to be honest when he is in a relationship, he likes to say it verbally a lot, too)

💁🏻‍♂️Lost and Damned🤦🏼‍♂️

So

Here I am again

Singing

My songs

For the

Lost and the damned

I refuse to care

For people

Who stop and stare

To check

If I am still there

Although after

My event of the season

All your love

Is one of the reasons

I still play this game

This game of shame

Forced by society

To come back to doing my duty

Now

As I get ready

To get back

On the road again

I have no essence of life

No more thirst to win

This brain has been

Rewired and Reprogrammed

Just to become

Another of the

Lost and the damned


-a.K

Originally posted by duke-of-bretagne

JIMIN BIRTHDAY VLIVE HIGHLIGHTS:
  • Jimin said that he never felt the need to stand out but wanted to show a better him. and through serendipity, he was able to
  • Thanks to BTS and ARMY supporting him, whenever he’s filming or recording a song by himself he’s able to enjoy it
  • He is happy because he was able to see his face everywhere (meaning many people celebrated his birthday) and mentioned that his parents in Busan did too (He is talking about the ads and events made for him by the fans). So he thanked everyone because this birthday was so joyful to him
  • He mentioned that the flowers given to him on his birthday were from his father and he thanked his dad.
  • He showed a photo of the dome they will be performing at in Japan (It has been a dream of theirs to be there) and he said that “this is Taehyung and jin hyung but you can’t see them because of how big the dome is. It’s unbelievable”. He also added, “I’m so happy we get to perform at the dome tomorrow I will let you guys know how I feel tomorrow”. 
  • Chimchim, of course, will not go on Vlive without exposing BTS he said: “whenever we see us in the monitor coming up onto the stage during or concerts we look really ugly but we pretend to look cool
  • While thanking the fans “thanks to you guys we are able to perform at a dome” He read a fan saying “jimin’s gonna cry again” and replied “who is that?! I’m gonna say your name out loud”
  • Jimin kept thanking repeatedly during the Vlive: “today is a day full of touching events. thank you for wishing me happy birthday, letting us perform at a dome and giving us triple crown”
  • Jimin was barefaced so he told us “am I too barefaced right now? get used to it you guys have seen it a lot”
  • Fans kept asking him to stay healthy and eat well to which he replied “I say this many times but I eat a lot better than you think. so you don’t need to worry so much. I’m taking care of my health” (He also ate some chocolates)
  • When a fan stated that Jin picked his birthday cake. he was surprised as he didn’t know (he didn’t see the tweet).
  • Mochi is so pleased with Serendipity. Jimin said: “which song do you guys like the best? I cold heartedly will admit that I like serendipity the best”. he also added that he wants Suga to record serendipity and how he will change it.
  • He tried many filters (bunny, cherry flowers …). He also turned the image by mistake (clumsy Jimin ofc)
  • He went there adding more lies saying that he can’t wink and that he just end up blinking with both eyes
  • He ended the Vlive by saying that he will go wash up and that the fans to need to brush their teeth and go to bed.

Find the VLIVE HERE | Cr vantaekim

Success is the best revenge.

So I work professionally as a living statue in a fairly busy venue. I know, weird, but it’s a living.

Anyhow, last year, this new girl on the scene with a different act decided to get really territorial with me. The spot I’ve been using for five years is prime turf and she wanted it. At first, I tried to be nice. I would let her know when I was going on break and tried to be a team player. Unfortunately, this performer had different ideas. Whenever I was in “her spot” she would climb on top of me, like ten feet away and try to bully me off. She would even set up in front of me and use her costumes wings to block my sight lines.

Now, if you’ve never busked before in a contracted atmosphere, this is a BIG no no. We are usually really respectful of each other and maintain a distance. We try to create an entertaining environment not a competition. This bitch decided she was the only one who mattered and didn’t care if she gave me anxiety attacks with her nonsense.

Anyway, skip forward a year. It’s a whole new season and I’m desperately trying to not let my anxiety over this chick wreck my attitude. So I got the best revenge I could. I worked my ass off. Never left that spot alllllll day long. She kept walking by but there was no way to get in front of me without causing a scene.
Nine hours later, I’m exhausted, hungry, and dehydrated but I’m $500 richer and she’s stewing in frustration somewhere. Take that! Maybe I’ll do it again tomorrow.

The terrible life of Lena Luthor

And why I love her so much and she deserves the world.

First, let’s keep in mind that canonically Lena’s only 24 years old, according to the show’s timeline.

Now, in season 2 Lena was in 12 episodes. During those episodes, she was in danger/manipulated/hurt (physically and emotionally) 37 times.  Specifically, she almost died 8 times and in 5 of those times she was the target. She was hit once and knocked down and kidnapped twice.

Her own bother was the one behind the attempts against her life at the beginning . She was also constantly manipulated and lied to by her mother and later by her new mother figure/mentor. So it’s usually people close to her and people that she cares about  who end up hurting her.

Let’s also remember that the events of season two happened in less than a year! I wonder how she seems so unfazed by all of her trauma. You would think she would at least have some kind of PTSD by now. Then again, this show hasn’t been great at tackling this subject.

Also, from what we’ve seen of season three this trend of her almost dying and getting hurt isn’t going to stop. What does she have to do to get a break?! I think it’s fair to say that Lena seriously needs a therapist and a bodyguard. Also all the love.

Let’s break down everything she’s been through (that we know) and who she is despite all of that. With gifs! 


Before National City. 

- Her biological mother died when she was four.

- Lionel lied to her and never told her he was her biological father.

- Was given the cold shoulder by Lillian and was constantly manipulated and reminded that she wasn’t a real Luthor.

- The brother she loved turned out to be evil.

- After her brother went to jail and she took over Luthor Corp her boyfriend at the time made her choose between him and her family’s company.


Now, during the show:

2x01

1. She was supposed to be on the Venture.

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“Does it hurt anymore?” A tribute to Cody Christian’s character Theo Raeken.

Plenty of people were convinced that Theo Raeken would not make an appearance in the final episode of Teen Wolf. Plenty of them thought that Theo Raeken was going to die in episode 19. However, he was neither in episode 19 nor died whilst taking a bullet for Malia with Stiles shouting her name, as so many spoilers indicated. This merely proves that we should not be too keen on believing what we read on the Internet.

We see Theo in his truck, talking to Scott on his phone. The Alpha asked the chimera for help. That’s why he is on his way to the hospital. Old Theo would not have done so. Old Theo would have long been gone, selfishly only saving his own ass. However, Old Theo literally is gone. We will learn what that means later on, once Theo has arrived at Beacon Hills Hospital.

Liam is there, confronted by several hunters with guns aimed at him. His situation seems hopeless, but the elevator doors fling open and Theo pulls the beta inside. The doors close before the hunters’ bullets can do any harm. This certainly brings the Thiam scene in 6x09 to mind where Theo pushed Liam into the elevator and became the bait himself, ready to risk his life lest the beta was taken.

This time, however, they are both in the elevator, staring at each other.

What are you doing here?”  Liam asks.
“I was just asking myself the same thing,”

 Theo simply replies. The chimera wants to help. He is ready to fight the hunters, to keep Scott’s pack safe. He is ready to keep Scott’s beta safe. We can literally feel the tension between Theo and Liam in these few seconds inside the confinement of the elevator.

A heads up for Thiam-fans: Jeff Davis actually was wondering himself why they did not kiss in the end. Khylin Rhambo mentioned that during the screening, everyone thought that “they were gonna do it”. Cody and Dylan obviously enjoyed working together and their chemistry is amazing, no matter if you would like to see Theo and Liam as an actual couple or friends. They were definitely bonding. Cody and Dylan loved the fans’ response to their bromance. Dylan is like a little brother to Cody and the only thing we could possibly regret is that Theo and Liam did not have the chance to develop their friendship a tiny bit sooner.

I’m not dying for you.

–– I’m not dying for you either. But I will… fight with you.

Okay. That’s fine.

 Although they do not say so, we just know that they care about each other. They would probably not even admit that they do. They are a team and respect one another. The doors open and we finally see these two in action again. Their eyes glow, razor sharp fangs and claws emerge. THIAM are ready to fight. And they fight in unison.

Their fighting scene is yet another highlight of the finale. As I said in one of my previous articles, Theo and Liam are strong alone, but lethal when they join forces.

These two, who were so reluctant to even be in the same room together at the beginning (just think about their scenes in front of the hospital and Liam wanting to use Theo as bait), slowly began to trust each other. Everyone needs someone they can count on, someone who does not question anything they do.

However, both are injured in the fight. One of the teenage hunters, Gabe, takes several bullets by mistake. He is in excruciating pain, moribund. The teenager is bleeding to death. 

And here comes Theo’s triumphant scene. Theo approaches Gabe, who’s lying in a puddle of his own blood. “It hurts,” he says. His voice is brittle.

Theo takes Gabe’s arm. “You can’t take the pain if you don’t care,” Mason told him in episode 18. This time, however, Theo shows kindness. Dark veins emerge on Gabe’s arm, drawn to Theo’s hand. He takes Gabe’s pain away. He knows what it is like to care. 

Does it hurt anymore?
-       No.
Good.
 

The chimera’s redemption arc is completed. He proved how altruistic he has become. Theo does not only care about himself anymore. Theo has a heart. Cody Christian shows that he does.

Now I am not surprised that this was Cody’s favourite scene. It was emotional, sad but also an act of kindness. Theo hardly knew Gabe at all. Gabe was one of the hunters. Yet, he proved that he cares.

Now we have allies that used to be enemies. We have protectors, we have friends willing to fight for us.

Theo has proven himself. He is an ally the pack can count on. It is a bit sad that quite a few questions remain unanswered. I would have loved to find out more about Theo’s childhood. How he ended up with the dread doctors. How he became the first chimera, why he stopped caring. I would have loved to see Liam offer him a place to stay since he can’t stay in his truck forever. Or Theo helping Liam handle his anger issues. 

Nevertheless, Theo Raeken is fine. He is out there, safe and sound. Driving around in his truck. Maybe he even joins Liam, Mason and Corey to play some video games from time to time. He’s still a teenager after all. Sometimes you just need to have some fun, right?

Thank you, Cody, for bringing Theo Raeken to life. It was you who assured with your outstanding performance that this character was not killed off, as originally intended. I cannot wait to see what’s next for Cody. He is destined for greatness and people just need to realize it. He, as so many others out there, inspires people every day. He creates something we can indulge in. Something we will never forget. It is not only the story that made us adore Teen Wolf, but the actors behind it all. People who make you feel better when you have a bad day. Thank you for all these amazing years.

[TRANS] LOVE YOURSELF 承: Her - Jimin Thanks To

To Bighit staff, including Bang Shihyuk PD-nim.
There are so many more staff now that I don’t know all of you.
But still, those who came with us since we first started, needless to say, I know that you’re always working hard and doing so much for us in the back without getting to sleep, and even those whom I don’t know are working hard for us in the back as well. You always take care of so many things for us that I don’t know where I should start from or how I should thank you. Thank you for creating us and creating every opportunities we get. As much as you have worked hard for us, we will rise higher. Please keep an eye on us.

Our manager hyungs.
You must have had a hard time right? You can’t even tell us and always work so hard. You have it tougher than us and sleep less than us, but even though I know that, I feel like I should know more, I’m sorry. Anyway, I’m always grateful to our hyungs. I wouldn’t be able to understand everything but I understand that you’ve had it tough and I want to tell you to cheer up. Thank you.

To our staff who always stay by our side.
Now that there are staff younger than me, I can’t refer to everyone as hyungs and noonas anymore. But for real, we’re together 340 days out of 365 days a year. Thank you. Even though you’re always with us, I have never seen you guys saying that it’s tiring. I’m sorry that we always whine but we can’t do more for you compared to the amount of time you stay with us. Thank you to all the make-up artists and hair stylists for always making us look beautiful and caring about us. Let’s keep working together in the future as well.

To Director Lumpens and Director Nam Hyunwoo who always create wonderful works for us and go through a lot to do so.
It’s actually not an overstatement to say that most parts of us are made by you guys. I’m always grateful. Counting on you guys to make us come out great in the future as well. Thank you. And to Chief Heejun and Photographer Mugunghwasonyeo whom we just worked with for the first time, thank you for taking beautiful photos. They are so beautiful that I’d love to work with you again if there’s a chance. Thank you for your hard work.

To our family.
Our family who just silently stay by side and become my source of strength, always be healthy and don’t get hurt.
Thank you.

To our members.
I had this thought often, “they really care a lot about me”.
Thank you so much. Sincerely. Let everything we want to do come true in the future as well.

To Taeminie-hyung, Moonkyu-hyung, Kwonho-hyung, Jonginie-hyung, Sungwoonie-hyung.
Thank you, really. Thanks to you guys I’m having fun everyday ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

To our ARMYs.
I don’t want to make you guys wait, but I always end up leaving you waiting. I heard that you have waited long for us as we went abroad for a long time. That’s why I worked really hard to do well during the recording for this album and also during the time I went on tour, because I wanted to bring you guys better songs. Hope you’ll enjoy it. Things will continue to change in the future, so thank you from the bottom of my heart for waiting for us. I love you.

Things Bruce has said to the Batgirls

Not all the bat girls are Bruce’s actual kids, but he is a mentor to them never less(and they spend a lot of time with the great batman, so some parenting from him is bound to come flying their way)

Barbara

“Dick is an ass to me too.”

“Yes Batgirl, I give you full permission to call any one of my sons Insecure Turd Waffles, cause they are.”

“Did Jason pee the bed?  Yes, many times actually.”

“You’re over here so often, do you just want your own room?  I know you sleep on Dick’s couch, but are you okay with the fact that you might contract rabies?”

Cassandra

“For your own safety, don’t go into any of your brothers rooms.  They’re rooms smell like death incarnate.”

“Don’t touch Jason’s bread or he’ll bite your hand off.”

“Is it unfair that I’m only allowing you to do this?  Yes, but you’re not an idiotic male.”

“Can you watch your brothers?  I’m going away for a few days for a meeting, Alfred is joining me, and I can already see the house burnt to the ground when I get back.”

Stephanie

“Quiet is not taking out your phone and silently snickering at Kermit memes.”

“You aren’t even my child and you make a bigger mess in my house than all five of my kids put together.”

“Damian stuck gum in your hair?  I give you full permission to go punch him.”

“Is Tim is giving you a hard time? Go spike his coffee with salt and tell him his father is watching him.”

Harper

“Please don’t go full goth on me. I already have to deal with a twenty three year old lump who can’t make decisions on his own, a twenty year old man-child who thinks it’s okay to run around and shoot random people with squirt guns, a seventeen year old who stares at me like Chucky the doll because he refuses to go to bed, and a moody thirteen year old who acts like a victimized old man. You would actually kill me Harper, do you want that?”

“Stop selling slurpies out Stephanie’s apartment window. …  I don’t care if Dick offered you a hundred bucks in partnership with his growing business.  I’m shutting him down too.”

“No, you can never, by any means, work with Jason again. I honestly never thought two people could damage so much property in an hour.”

“Either it’s you or Tim, because no one else would hack a digital billboard company to display an image of Jason with a Hello Kitty helmet.”

thegrumpiestunicorn  asked:

I don't normally do these prompt things, but “I don’t mean to sound paranoid but I’m pretty sure you’re a serial killer" sounds really interesting. No pressure!

Bucky watches from his window as the guy who lives in C107 climbs up the fire escape in about five steps. He pauses when he sees Bucky and gives him a little smile and a salute. Bucky forces a smile back.

Because, despite the guy from C107’s blond hair, charming smile, and generally pleasant demeanor, Bucky’s pretty sure that he’s a serial killer.

— —

C107 moved in three weeks ago during the middle of the night, because that’s what serial killers do. They come in the middle of the night, murder everyone on their floor, and leave before anyone can find their bodies. It doesn’t matter that C107 smiles shyly at him in the mailroom or helps the old lady in E202 with her groceries; Bucky knows what’s up. He knows that C107 sneaks out almost every night and doesn’t come back until morning, and never through the front door. Once or twice, Bucky’s seen him covered with blood.

So the guy’s a serial killer, and Bucky’s not sure what to do about that.

— —

There’s a knock on Bucky’s door.

Bucky texts Darcy: It’s the serial killer and I’m going to die.

Darcy texts back: have fun!

It’s not a helpful answer.

Bucky takes a deep breath and walks towards the door. It’s better that he just opens it up and accepts his fate. It’ll be hard enough for the landlord to rent out his apartment again after everyone finds out that a murder took place; he may as well not make any messy clean-up bills by having the serial killer knock down the door or something like that. Makes things simpler in the long run.

He opens it.

C107 is standing there, shirt covered in blood. “Hi,” he says with a bit of a sheepish smile.

“Oh,” Bucky says, then promptly passes out, because if there’s one thing that Bucky isn’t good with, it’s blood.

— —

He wakes up on his couch, underneath a blanket, and with the fluffiest pillow in his apartment beneath his bed. He does not wake up in Heaven (or Hell, if all of those fire and brimstone ‘homosexuals are killing America’ preachers are to be believed) because C107 killed him.

Bucky blinks a few times, then hears C107 on the phone. “No, that’s not… I don’t care if he knows who I am! That’s the point!”

Bucky closes his eyes again. It’s not worth it. He’s going to die.

“Well, what was I supposed to do, Tony? March into his apartment in my Cap uniform and commandeer his laundry machine?”

That’s… kinky.

“No, no, I’ll… I don’t want to wake him up! I’ll talk to you later, Tony.”

Bucky opens his eyes again, just to be a little sneaky, but of course C107 is already looking at him. “Hi there!” he says, far too perky for someone with a shirt covered in blood.

“Uh, hey,” Bucky says, pushing himself up.

“Easy now,” C107 says, rushing over to the couch. “Don’t force yourself,” he says.

“Why would you care?” Bucky asks, a bit hysterical as C107 reaches out to touch Bucky’s forehead with the back of his hand. “Since you’re here to murder me, and all.”

C107 drops his hand. “What?” he asks, incredulous.

“I’ve seen you! Crawling through the window at night! You’re going to kill me and honestly? I’m not prepared for it. I have… four things to live for. At least. Maybe five.”

C107 just stares.

“Six?” Bucky offers. “I’m not sure I can list more than six, to tell the truth.”

“I’m… I’m not going to kill you,” he says.

Bucky raises an eyebrow. “I have a hard time believing that.”

“No, no! I’m… I needed to borrow someone’s laundry machine and I saw you were up. That’s all.”

Bucky blinks. “You have your own in your unit.”

“It’s busted,” C107 says.

“Because you put bloody things in it all the time?” Bucky asks.

C107 snorts. “No, because the last resident and their partner had relations on it and busted it.”

“Go Kevin,” Bucky says.

C107 laughs. “Anyhow,” he says when he’s done, “I’m not here to kill you.”

“That’s a relief.”

“I mean, I have killed people before,” Bucky’s eyes go wide then C107 says in a rush, “but most of them were Nazis.”

“I’m not following here,” Bucky says, throat dry.

C107 sighs. “Okay, it’s. I’m. Captain America?” he says, wincing. “And I was just wondering if I could borrow your washing machine.”

Bucky nods. “Alright, okay, that’s…”

And it’s a good thing he’s already on the couch, because he passes out again.

a meta about one of the best yet most underappreciated character development scenes in the bnha manga.

this is very long, but i also think it’s very important. please take the time to read, and enjoy this long piece o’ work

ok, here we go.

i’ve been re-reading the manga and this scene is so emotionally charged and so underrated. i’m going to be salty for a bit but stick with me here.

ok, first of all, let’s talk about the details: the baku(rescue)squad’s expressions.

todoroki looks alarmed, shocked to an extent, but mostly confused. the question that todoroki should ask in this situation is “why midoriya?” because technically it’s todoroki’s fault along with kirishima. even though it’s understandable why he’s upset at midoriya, being upset to the point of punching him (despite the fact that midoriya isn’t responsible for the initiation of the mission) is placing too much of the responsibility on midoriya’s shoulders, and it’s unfair. but, we don’t see any of that in todoroki’s expression. todoroki and iida went through so much together and so did iida and midoriya, which is why it’s uncharacteristic for him to just punch him out of the blue. not to mention that midoriya just got out of the hospital, and everyone was worried, so why would he do that? do we see that in todoroki’s face? the answer is no. his expression isn’t accusing at the slightest.

todoroki is alarmed but he’s waiting. he’s waiting for the explanation. todoroki gets his own panel so we can focus on his reaction, but there isn’t much to it, and that’s exactly the point. todoroki is the only one that gives iida the benefit of the doubt, and that’s a good way of showing how much their relationship progressed without touching on the subject at all.

on to yaomomo, who looks shocked to her core. she looks terrified, and i feel so sorry for her in this situation, especially because she’s the one they’re going thanks to. she just wants everyone to be okay. she’s helping with this because she wants bakugou to come back safe, and she’s accompanying them because she can’t send them off somewhere dangerous without knowing what might happen to them. she wants kirishima to be safe and also todoroki and midoriya and iida, and she’s willing to break the rules to do so. seeing iida acting this way and injuring midoriya must be horrible (especially with her kind of thinking… in the todoroki/aizawa fight she was thinking about her every move, regardless if it was her losing confidence or executing the final plan. she had to ask herself and todoroki if what she’s doing is okay).

now, and this is the interesting one: kirishima. the other two’s expressions can be explained in a way that ties them to the act: momo looks shocked because she has no idea why iida would act up when midoriya has nothing to do with the decision (and because she’s subconsciously taking the blame for herself), todoroki looks alarmed– because why would iida take out his anger on midoriya? (but is waiting for the rest, because he knows him too well), but kirishima has no idea who iida is beneath the initial impression of a strict class president, and would have no clue as to what’s iida’s reason for punching someone (and especially when that someone is his best friend).

kirishima, bless his soul, looks disgusted. he looks confused but his brows are pinched in a way that tells us that he’s not okay with this. and why would he be? he wouldn’t, because kirishima is all around a boy that has a strong sense of justice. kirishima is definitely blaming himself for having to rescue bakugou in the first place, and is going against the rules because he feels guilty and thinks he can do something. he wouldn’t endanger his classmates, ask momo for a favor and secrecy, go against the police and the pro’s orders and spend money on this ordeal if he didn’t think he has a shot at succeeding.

from his point of view, i can only imagine that he thinks iida is being dramatic and violent. kirishima wouldn’t suggest an idea like that without having confidence that they can fix this (he had all of that confidence even when it was just him and todoroki), and he knows that (as a person that was there when it happened) it bugs midoriya the most. so he asks midoriya from the good of his heart  if he wants to come along. kirishima doesn’t know iida that well at all (well momo doesn’t either but kiri is mentally stronger than her, so he thinks about the wrong in the situation instead of overthinking what he did wrong) and it makes all of the sense in the world for him to be mad. iida is supposed to be a role model, and that’s why it’s so alarming to see him randomly punching his best friend, but kirishima is the only one that shows clear disapproval for his actions. idk i just think it’s neat.

ok, getting to the point now: iida.

iida is a very underrated character, and his development is especially underrated and looked down upon, but this scene is where he grabbed our attention again ever since he lost it after the stain arc. you see, if you don’t stan iida, i doubt you pay attention to him. people appreciate his extremely well-written character only when the focus shifts to him, which is not often at all.

now that i’m done being salty, think about the betrayal you’d feel if your best friend went under your nose to do something you specifically asked them not to go do. think about how hurt you’d feel when your friend ignores people who cares about him completely to do something reckless that might get him killed. midoriya didn’t take iida’s emotions into consideration at all.

in the stain arc, iida feels bad for midoriya and todoroki’s involvement. they got hurt for him, and almost died for him. not only that, but he caused major trouble to the pro hero he was working with at the time by doing something on his own accord. he knows better than anyone how acting on your feelings can affect everyone else. you’d think that midoriya learned that as well, right? but here he goes again, going under the pro’s noses to do something extremely dangerous. not only that, but thanks to yaomomo the police had a lead and the pro heroes had the situation under control for once lmao. the students shouldn’t have gotten involved because the police already planned out how to approach the situation–it wasn’t being ignored and they had a plan. kirishima and todoroki’s decision to save bakugou was selfish, and it was selfish of them to ask midoriya to join especially because he’s injured (even though midoriya did want to help), and it was selfish of them to ask for yaomomo’s help (and also keep that information from the pros. just to recap: they asked her to give them the location of the villains so they can do something dangerous and reckless when the police had a way to solve the situation, they asked her to not tell anyone and then they asked her to stay put. that’s the worst position a person could be in; knowing they’re out there, getting hurt, while not being able to say or do anything about it–that’s so difficult. todo and kiri are my faves but they were asking for so much, and it was so unfair to momo. no wonder that she joined them). it was selfish of them to do all of that, and tsuyu (+plus uraraka) made that very clear when she confronted them about it later on. 

but to iida, the most selfish thing that happened was midoriya actually going with them. he was going to get himself and other people in trouble. he was going to risk his life doing something pointless. iida knows how much that hurts people. he experienced it first-hand.

iida knows midoriya is frustrated, and he knows how it feels better than anyone else. the difference between the stain arc and the hideout raid arc is that the outside forces could do something about it, which is exactly why he has the right to get mad. he knows frustration; it drove him to do something reckless and selfish too. he risked his classmates’ life too, he ran off on his own too. he felt like he was cornered, he had no one to turn to, he was angry and endangered someone else selfishly, and he acted in the most non-heroic way an aspiring hero could act as. after all of that wrong he did, he realized his mistakes after seeing the damage his actions bared with them, and dealt with the consequences the best he could– by changing his attitude and learning from his mistakes.

iida moved on. midoriya was present for all of that; which is why iida is frustrated with him. midoriya acted selfishly too, and caused trouble for others too, and iida thought they learned that lesson together. midoriya said it himself: we were both wrong. let’s make up for it together.

… yet. even though he said all of that, he still repeats the same mistake iida did. the way midoriya planned to go with kirishima and todoroki despite what iida told him is a stab in the back. midoriya didn’t consider iida’s emotions at all. ever since the stain incident passed, iida made sure the class got their act together. he made safer choices and took other people into consideration, and he continued being the best class president a class could ask for. he was trying to make up for his mistakes. he grew and fixed his wrong doings, and midoriya was supposed to do the same. here he clearly goes against what he said to iida in the panels above. what he said back then changed so much for iida, but it seems like he’s throwing all of that away to go after bakugou in the hideout raid arc. that’s so unfair. that hurts. midoriya went back on his own word (the same words that changed so so much) to do something irresponsible again. in the first panel i showed you, iida says that he worries over everyone, not just bakugou. bakugou didn’t do anything outstanding/likable/rescue worthy, and yet iida worries about him. of course he would. iida cares for everyone in class a1, but he didn’t plan to do something reckless (and technically, illegal) for one of them, because it’s not his place. but midoriya did. iida still worried and cared and wanted to do something but didn’t. by totally ignoring iida’s request to step down (and the warning from the other classmates) he disrespected iida’s emotions and incredible self-restraint. iida and the rest of a1 made it clear that it was a bad and selfish idea, but the group still planned to go. that’s so cruel to the rest of the students who worried but restrained themselves. that’s so cruel to iida. midoriya’s supposed to be iida’s best friend but he can’t even understand that.

midoriya, as the person who encouraged iida’s new path when he lost his way, did something very wrong and heartless. midoriya was so selfish in this arc, it’s honestly amazing. the hideout raid arc is so well-written, and it gives midoriya such a flaw that made me like him so much more as a protagonist. it shows us that despite all of the things he went through, he has so much place to develop. iida is being completely fair in this scene, and midoriya kinda deserves the punch he got. i don’t think he realized how much he hurt iida by sneaking out of the hospital that night.

regardless of  that, iida still joined the group so he can keep an eye on them.

that only shows how much he developed. this conflict is truly one of the best in the entire manga.

PDA || Bucky Barnes

Relationship: Bucky Barnes x reader

Summary: a view of Bucky and his struggle with PDA.

Warnings: fluffy fluff !!

Word Count: 1.3k

A/N: thank you to whoever requested this and y’all i uploaded this in front of people yikes yikes


Bucky had never been big on public display’s of affection, preferring to keep himself to himself. Not only that, but he never got a chance to see why people around him seemed to constantly rub their PDA in his face as he jogged in central park or grabbed a coffee from his coffee shop down the street. 

That was, until he met you. 

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What Lovers Do: Part 4

Fandom: Marvel

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: You have a friend with benefits relationship with the Winter Soldier himself: Bucky Barnes. You two have gotten the routine down: wake up, train, mission, come home, have sex, then act like nothing happened. It’s worked for you for a while now. But now that Bucky’s starting to see someone seriously, you don’t know what to do with yourself.

Warnings: angst and light smut, nothing too graphic

A/N: I am sooooo sorry.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Originally posted by oreo-wonderbatch


Bucky ended up staying the night in your room. He was going to leave you be, but wanted to make sure you were okay throughout the night. He stayed awake longer than he should have just watching you. You looked at peace. The complete contrast of what you displayed every time you were near him. He had to admit it that it hurt the way you were treating him. He didn’t understand it. You both ended the arrangement in an amiable manner. So what was going on?

Bucky’s phone started ringing and he silently cursed. He scrambled through his pockets looking for the disturbing device. His eyes widened when you groaned. He quickly answered the call button and waited. You didn’t wake up and he gave a breath of relief. 

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“The skirt is supposed to be this short” + “Take. It. Off” + “I said get rid of it” + Jungkook

“Jealous kookie 1,14,60”

words: 860

Originally posted by kookmint

— thanks for requesting anon <3 here you go I hope it’s good haha —


You were getting ready for you and Jungkook’s date night. It had been a while since you two last went on a date, so you planned to look extra good today. You finish styling your hair, walking over to the mirror to check yourself. Your outfit was simple but cute. Smiling, you open your room door and head to where Jungkook was waiting. He sat on a chair, looking at his phone. Clearing your throat, his attention went to you. He didn’t gasp, he didn’t compliment you. No, he didn’t say anything at all. His jaw clenches and his eyebrows furrow. You could see a tint of anger in his brown hues. “What’s with the skirt? Why is it so short?” You look down at your skirt, not really getting why he was mad. “What do you mean? The skirt is supposed to be this short.” Jungkook stands up and a grin of mockery spreads on his lips. “Are you serious? You are not going out like this. Every guy’s going to be staring!” You raise an eyebrow and lean forward, “so?” Your boyfriend glowers at you, grabbing your arm. He sets you in your room, a black look on his face. “We shouldn’t be fighting about this! Take. It. Off.” Your eyes widen at his sudden attitude.

“Are you seriously commanding me?” you ask. Jungkook rolls his eyes at you, making you even more mad. “No, Jungkook. I’m not going to take it off! I try to look nice for you and you just bash at me for nothing!” His face gets closer to yours, hands grabbing your waist. You hated how hot he looked mad. It didn’t help in this situation. “You try to look nice for me? Babe, you’re trying to look nice for all the perverts who are going to look at you.” You push him off you, shaking your head at his unnecessary behavior. His hand grabs you again but you shake it off. “It’s ridiculous how you’re getting mad at me. You wear tight shirts that damn well show your figure but do I say anything? No. Girls look at you all the time regardless of what you’re wearing and I don’t complain, I don’t say anything! I don’t care what you say, Kook, I’m going like this to our date.” You walk towards the door, grabbing the knob and turning towards him. “Are you coming or not?” you ask him. Jungkook walks towards you and you sigh, thinking he realized his childish actions but no, he hadn’t given up. He picks you up, making you yelp, and carries you to your room. You fall on the soft mattress of your bed, Jungkook scavenging through your clothes. He comes to you with a pair of jeans in hand, still looking mad. “Take that skirt off.” he demands. You glare at him. “No.” He throws the jeans besides you, “I said get rid of it.

“I said no! Stop being ridiculous and let’s just go!” Jungkook shakes his head, pacing around your room. “You don’t get it Y/N, I don’t want you to go out like that! Other guys are going to be looking at you in a specific way. I’m the only one who should look at you like that! Some guy’s going to hit on you and knowing me, I’d probably end up punching the asshole! You’re mine, Y/N, mine. I can’t just let you go out looking like that, it makes me mad. I can’t bare the thought of some other guy with you.” Jungkook’s eyes went from anger to worry. He was frowning. Your anger faded away too and you smile at his words. A blush creeps onto your face. You reach for his hand and rub the back of it with the pad of your thumb. “Kookie..are you jealous?” His gaze drifts away from you. He wasn’t responding. “Just tell me.” you softly say. “Yes, I’m jealous. But can you blame me? I have a beautiful girlfriend. I don’t want to loose you,” He goes to sit down next to you, his head going to your shoulder. You hold him, leaning your head against his. Warmth passed through both of you. “I’m sorry I got mad..I just got jealous.” You sigh and smile. “I’m sorry too, I never took into consideration how you’d feel about it.” Your free hand plays with the hem of your skirt, willing to remove it if it meant you and Jungkook would have a nice night out. “You really do look good, though. You always do.” Laughing, you thank him.

“We should just leave, we spent too much time fighting about a skirt.” You agree with Jungkook and you two get up. You grab the jeans, but Jungkook takes them from you. “Don’t. Let everyone see how beautiful my baby looks.” You grin and stand on your toes, holding his cheeks in your hands. Your lips dance against each other, a sign of apology and love towards the other. Pulling away, you giggle at yourself. “You look hot when you’re mad.” Jungkook rolls his eyes playfully and holds your waist. “Okay okay, let’s just go.”

Orange Zest

College!Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: Wanda and Reader cast a love spell.

Word Count:1,357

Warnings: Witchcraft, Fluff

A/N: This one shot is for my hoe’s - @marvelous-fvcks - birthday, I hope you had an amazing day and an even better evening! Love you lots 

Originally posted by spdrparker

The air smelled like burnt lavender and a heavy cloud of smoke began to fill the tiny dorm room. You sat cross-legged on the carpeted floor and flapped your hand in front of your face as the sting of smoke sent you into a coughing fit. 

Wanda’s hair had become a tussled mess. She rubbed her eyes, smearing mascara around them.

“Okay, my bad.” She raised her hands defensively. “I didn’t know these two ingredients could cause an explosion.”

“I thought you said you were a witch.”

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BTS Reaction: Finding an old suicide note

Anonymous said: Is it okay to request angst? If it is could I request a reaction to bts finding a suicide note their s/o wrote in the past but never used but they think they are going to use it? (Sorry if it’s confusing)

Warning: ⚠️ this might be triggering for some people ⚠️ 

Context:

He was cleaning up your room, wanting to do something nice for you. You were at work, trying to earn the money you deserved.

While sweeping under your bed, he found a box. Letting his curiosity get to him, he sat down on the floor, opening the box.

The first thing he saw was pictures. Some of him, some of your friends, some of your family. At the bottom of the box, there was an envelope. He picked it up and opened it, revealing a note that had your handwriting on it.

A suicide note.

Kim Namjoon:

After he read the letter, his eyes would widen. The first thing he would do is call you. “Namjoon, I’m at work, what do you want?” You asked him. “Why is there a suicide note under your bed?” He asks. “Are you planning to use it?”

You sighed. “It’s old, Namjoon. I never threw it away.”

Hearing that, we would be kind of relieved, but also kind of upset. “If you ever want to do something bad to yourself, please don’t. If you have bad thoughts, just come talk to me. You know I’ll always listen to you.”

Originally posted by yoonseok

Kim Seokjin:

As Jin read the letter, several thoughts were going through his head. When did you write it? Was this note recent?

He called you immediately. When he heard you pick up the phone, he didn’t give you any chance to speak first. “A suicide note, y/n? Are you planning on leaving me? I won’t let you do that. I won’t. Where are you? I’m coming to get you.” Jin explains.

“Jin, I’m at work.” You tell him. “That note is old. I promise, I’m not planning to do anything bad. I just forgot to throw it away.”

“Oh, okay. Have fun at work, but we’re going to talk about this when you get home.”

Originally posted by seokjins-wings

Min Yoongi:

Yoongi read the whole note, almost immediately understanding your feelings. But that didn’t mean that he was okay with you doing something like this.

He called your phone, wanting an explanation. You told him that it was old, and he just said, “okay,” but when you got home that night, Yoongi had a long talk with you.

“Y/n, I promise that life is worth living. So many people care about you. Your family, your friends. Me. We all care about you. I know how you feel, I really do, but suicide is never the answer. If you ever feel depressed or anything, you know you can talk to me, right?”

Originally posted by yoongiyi

Jung Hoseok:

By the end of the note, Hoseok would be crying. He never knew that you were so stressed and depressed. He had no idea if this note was recent or not, but it still made him sad.

He called you, crying. “Hobi, why are you crying? Are you okay?” You asked him. “No. Are you okay?” He asks. You were confused, but after he explained what he found, you understood. You told him that it was old, but that didn’t stop him from speaking about it when you got home.

Like Yoongi, he would give you a long lecture. “Suicide is never the answer, y/n. And I’m not just saying this because you’re my girlfriend. I would say this to everyone in the world if I could. Suicide isn’t going to solve all the problems in your life, it just makes life harder for other people. The people who care about you. Please don’t ever scare me with a letter like this ever again.”

“Hobi, I wrote that letter two years ago.”

“I don’t care. It still made me sad that you were thinking like that.”

Originally posted by wonhobe

Park Jimin:

As soon as he finished reading the letter, Jimin called your phone, afraid that you had lied to him when you said that you were going to work. Since he read the letter, he thought that you were going to do something else.

When you answered the phone, Jimin felt kind of relieved. “Y/n, please tell me you’re not doing anything stupid.” He says. “Well, my job is pretty boring but I wouldn’t call it stupid.” You answered. Jimin explained to you that he had found the letter and you just sighed.

“Remind me to throw that stupid thing away when I get home. It’s so old. I don’t know why I kept it.” You tell him. “I’ll throw it away myself. I’m glad you haven’t done anything stupid to yourself. I love you, y/n.”

Originally posted by kimthehyung

Kim Taehyung:

Reading the letter, Taehyung would be upset. He would immediately call you, wanting to know why in the world you would ever do something like this. “Y/n y/l/n, you’re going to have to fight me when you get home.” He says into the phone. “Why?” You asked, confused.

“I found a suicide letter under your bed. A suicide letter? Really, y/n? I’m sorry, but you’re not getting away from me that easily.” He explains.

“Oh, that stupid letter. Tae, that thing is old. I forgot to throw it away. I promise I’m not doing anything like that.” You explained to him. “You better not be. I never knew you used to be so stressed and sad. I’m so sorry. Please talk to me if you ever feel like that again.”

Originally posted by toughchim

Jeon Jungkook:

After reading the letter, Jungkook would just sit there for a few minutes, not believing what he just read. Were you really planning to hurt yourself? When Jungkook finally got a grip, he grabbed his phone and called you. When you answered the phone, he spoke immediately. “Why did you write a suicide note? Y/n, please don’t tell me you’re going to do that. Please don’t. Please.” He begged you.

“Jungkook, what are you talking about?”

“There was a suicide note in the box under your bed. I read it and—” You didn’t give him time to finish his sentence. “Please throw that away. It’s old. I’m not doing anything like that, I promise. Please, just throw it away. Burn it or something.” You tell him.

Jungkook sighed a sigh of relief. “I love you, really. You know that?”

Originally posted by jjeonguk

Highschool!AU Haechan

find college!nct (here) & more hs!dream kids will be coming soon!!

  • favorite subject: piano & creative writing 
  • least favorite subject: chemistry 
  • voted most likely to: become a famous game show host
  • haechan is described by his homeroom teacher as ‘popular’, with pretty high grades in all subjects - even the ones he despises, and a personality that’s loud an vibrant it’s only natural that people want to be his friend
  • although he does have a streak of giving back cheeky answers to teachers, never insulting or rude just a bit too sarcastic 
  • but that just makes him even more popular, because everyone thinks he’s hilarious 
  • his parents are both musically inclined so haechan took every music extracurricular class that was available, the piano teacher basically lets him live in the music room
  • some older kids had tried to make snarky comments involving haechan’s talent, but he had confidently told them to buzz off with their low college entrance exam scores and well,,,,they never bothered him again
  • doesn’t skip class often, but when he does it’s totally with jisung and chenle to cause some no good pranks on their friends jeno and renjun
  • and/or to get snacks down at the corner store, the owner is like “hey shouldnt you be in school??” and haechan is like “oh, it’s national government day so no school!” and the person is always like uh,,,sounds legit and haechan just grins
  • has he used his cuteness to get free food from the lunch ladies? yeah,,,he has,,,,much to the look of regret on jisung’s face
  • his other favorite class is creative writing because haechan is imaginative, it’s hard to not notice both his personality and his creativity
  • and he likes storytelling and songwriting, so even if everyone else is writing cheesy romance hs love plots like haechan’s gonna write his dragon slayer robot apocalypse piano playing hero trilogy - just you watch him
  • (what im saying is popular boy haechan probably lowkey loves reading magical books and stuff,,, like he might hate science but do i think haechan loves scifi novels??? yeah,,,,look at him)
  • and you actually have creative writing with haechan this semester, which is funny because ofc you know him
  • your friends are friends with his friends yada yada, but you’ve like never really given him a thought
  • one of your friends had a brief crush on him when you were all freshmen, and you’d agreed - something about him was charming
  • was it the clear, glowing skin? the long eyelashes? the smile that made the room light up? the way you’d made eye contact across the lunchroom and haechan’s eyes , an earthy brown, had sparkled - 
  • ok yeah you totally just thought that “something” about him was charming not like you’d thought about him twice
  • but being in the same room with him for a whole semester changed that
  • and it changed it really,,,, really fast
  • and you weren’t expecting it, coming into class - trying your hardest to listen to other people read their stories, make comments, ask questions
  • but all you could do was sneak peeks at haechan
  • who sat at the desk beside yours, closest to the windows
  • and when a gust of wind would past buy, his hair would ruffle slightly and he’d tap the end of his pencil gently against his lips
  • whenever the teacher called on him, he’d have something so interesting to say and the chance amount of times he’d look your way
  • you had to pretend to be scribbling something against your own notes
  • because what,,,what was happening
  • you had never thought your crush would end up being haechan and not because he was the school sweetheart or the most athletic kid on the soccer team or any of that stuff from the movies
  • you just got,,,,entranced,,,, “he’s a wizard, right?” you once rationalized to yourself in bed but what - no c’mon,,,that couldn’t be it
  • and it wasn’t like haechan didn’t notice,,,,,,
  • he’d always wondered - when you were both freshman and you’d met eyes in the lunchroom during the first couple of weeks of school
  • why had you never,,,looked at him again?
  • it had bugged him, he had even asked mark about it who had graduated and mark just said something about “why do you care? oh,,,,do you like them?”
  • haechan had gritted his teeth “what are you talking about?”
  • mark’s cheery laughter came on the other end “only people ask a questions like ‘oh why aren’t they looking at me?’ when they have a crush.”
  • “you know what mark, i called you for some REAL advice and you’re giving me this baloney. this was dumb, college is making you dumber bye”
  • mark hadn’t been hurt when haechan hung up the phone, he was too busy chuckling over the fact that haechan 100% was interested in you - and just refused to admit it 
  • or maybe haechan was just as confused as you, he would act like you didn’t phase him at all in creative writing
  • most of the time he’d concentrate extra hard on staring out the window, or asking questions about other peoples work
  • because one slip up and he’d have his head down on the desk, hearts floating above his head looking at the way your hair falls over your eyes sometimes, the pretty birthmark on your arm, the cute animals you doodled in your pages when you weren’t listening
  • haechan did NOT want to fall into that hole - he had seen jisung have crushes before and it was never pretty he acted like a total fOOL 
  • but it was hard,,,you were so cute,,, he’d thought that when he first saw you but high school life had got in the way
  • now you sat beside each other????? what the heCK was he supposed to do???
  • you hadn’t told anyone about your feelings, and it was easy to hide you literally never saw haechan in the halls or at lunch - the only period you had with him was creative writing
  • so no one suspected a thing,,,,not until it was haechan’s turn to read aloud his writing
  • and you were secretly dreading it, but it did give you an excuse to finally look at him without seeming weird
  • yet the gnawing idea in your head was just: what if it’s a love poem about someone ,,,,, or some kind of allegory ,,, 
  • it was a dumb thought - but you’re a teenager in love these things always bubble up
  • so on the day off, you briefly considered cutting class but ended up at your desk, watching haechan walk to the center of the board 
  • his story was set in the future, something about a hero who played the piano while simultaneously defeating monster robots - it reminded you slightly of a comic book story line
  • someone had snorted at the idea, but haechan wrote it really well
  • to the point that halfway through the class, and even the teacher were on the edge of their seats
  • and then ,,,, came that part
  • haechans main character, who played piano in a well known orchestra was sitting beside his love interest
  • haechan read,

    “i would sit with them, completely alone in the grand hall. i would read music and they would practice at the other end of the room. the tune they played almost religiously, was one of my favorite. yet, there was never a moment where i could feel their gaze on me. almost as if i did not exist.

    i could clearly remember the first time we met, the canteen had been full of other musicians and orchestra staff. it was bustling, but like in any special moment time had slowed when we saw each other. it was like looking at someone who embodied spring. bright, just as curious and nervous as i. their eyes were a color i could see myself falling in love with effortlessly. but like spring breeze, the moment dwindled for a second and was gone. since then, they have not dared to spare me a glance.”

  • for a second you felt something familiar in the scene, then you realized haechan was describing a memory you had
  • the memory of the two of you in the lunchroom during freshman year
  • subconsciously, you were arguing that it was just a coincidence. he didn’t remember that, why would he?
  • but your heart was flipping in your chest, your grip on your pen had tightened
  • you almost didn’t hear the teacher call your name and ask for your opinion
  • haechan’s eyes landed on you and your face felt like it was on fire
  • “i,,,,,,,,,,i really like the scene between the protagonist and his ,,,,,, crush.”
  • you weren’t even thinking straight, but it came out
  • you hide your eyes back onto your paper, too concentrated on hiding your blush to see haechan’s lips turn upward ever so slightly
  • he had thought to himself,,,you remembered this moment too?
  • as class came to an end, you couldn’t get up out of your seat. your legs had turned to jello and you were still overthinking the whole situation
  • when the room had emptied out, even the teacher gone you finally put your hands on the desk and pushed yourself up
  • haechan had been waiting outside the room, he didn’t really konw what to say to you but the look on your face in class had meant something
  • and really, this itching feeling to look at you,,,,,to hold your hand,,,,,to even kiss you was starting to overwhelm him
  • and he wasn’t a patient person, i mean when his thoughts had crossed over to ‘why wont they look at me?’ to ‘they look really cute, kissing them would be nice’ he had decided to write that scene in his story
  • he wanted to know - he needed to konw
  • if what happened that day meant something and if that something was happening now, now in this one period class you had together
  • you didn’t see haechan when you opened the door, your eyes were on the floor and you were muttering to yourself
  • when you heard someone clear their throat and you looked up
  • “h-haechan?”
  • he looked at you and that sparkle from back in freshman year was still there
  • “i dont want to guess, but i need to know. you remember what happened a while ago,,,,,,,,,,what i based the scene off of right?”
  • you could feel the lump in your throat grow, you were late to last period calculus but you couldn’t even use that as an excuse
  • “i ,,, i do. but -”
  • “but, i want you to know that i started feeling it again. what i felt in that moment. i have a,,,,,,,,,,,mark used this word so ill use it too even though,,,it’s,,,corny but whatever - i have a crush on you.”
  • you stand there, backpack slung over one shoulder and your eyes wider than ever before
  • ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,haechan likes you?,,,,,,,,
  • “y-you like me?”
  • “yes, im sorry for saying crush it’s corny but i guess,,, i dont know,,,,it fits the situation?”
  • haechan gives a small shrug, but a smile starts forming on his face
  • the cute, shy one you’ve never seen before
  • “i - i like you too,,,,,,, i just got kind of confused because well i just,,,,, it’s never really,,,,something,,,”
  • haechan nods “something you thought about before?”
  • it’s not like this is middle school or anything, but even as high schoolers neither you or haechan ever had much of a mind when it came to crushes
  • haechan had always found distractions in good friends and music - you had found it in your pasions
  • so it was only normal that liking each other kind of sent you bothi nto mini panics
  • but haechan, has never been embarrassed by telling the truth so it was just a matter of time till he confessed
  • and standing there, alone in the hallway with the muffled sounds of other classes going on , you were happy he did
  • your first date starts that afternoon, you both are too late for your last classes so you sneak off and go into the city
  • neither of you has much allowance, so you scrap up what you’ve got and buy snacks to eat, dropping what change you have into the pal of your hand
  • “it’s not much, but we can go see what it’ll get us at the thrift store?”
  • you nod and follow haechan into a small, underground store that is stuffed to the brim with second-hand items and vintage clothing hanging off the ceilings
  • aside from the trendy adults in the store, you and haechan stick out like sore thumbs in your school uniforms
  • but you completely forget because haechan puts on a large, round straw hat with flowers on it and does an impression of one of your favorite actresses
  • you two giggle over trying on outrageous clothes, digging through old records and books, until haechan pulls an old puppy toy from the depths of some stack and goes 
  • “doesn’t he look like me?”
  • you laugh because the puppy is a slightly washed out red color, but the adorable face with big eyes does sort of remind you of him
  • on he flip side of the dogs ear is a worn out tag, the name ‘cherry’ spelled out in cursive
  • “should we spend our change on this guy?” haechan asks
  • you take him and hold him up “well it’s either him or we share cup ramen in the subway,,,,”
  • haechan and you agree, cherry is worth it
  • and as you walk around till late, the city lights illuminating you two in a soft glow, you hold cherry 
  • and the people walking by flash smiles at you two, a young couple in love
  • when it’s time to go, haechan has to catch the train but you’re getting on the bus
  • he fusses with you over waiting till you get on safely, longenough for your bus to actually get there
  • watching you climb on, you turn over your shoulder and tell haechan to be safe
  • he points to cherry and raises an eyebrow “you two be safe as well.”
  • you nod, and haechan seems to stutter for a moment
  • “see you tomorrow.”
  • you call before the door shuts and the bus stars on its way, haechan watches your figure through a window as the bus pulls away
  • softly, with a smile he answers “see you tomorrow”
  • on the bus ride you stare out the window, holding cherry tightly in your arms
  • who knew haechan’s story would be the reason you two,,,,finally understood each others hearts
  • haechan gets home,,,,,and immediately calls mark
  • “i have a stupid crush. you were right. college is making you smarter.”
  • mark just laughs, he saw this coming and asks haechan to tell him all about you 
  • when you end up in class the ext time, you try hard not to smile like an idiot when haechan comes in
  • but to your surprise, he doesn’t hide it all
  • he smiles, sliding into his desk and moving it just an inch closer to yours
  • “how’s cherry?”
  • “fine, did you get home late?”
  • the entire class seems to shift their gazes on to you and the weight of their stares makes you nervous 
  • but haechan doesn’t seem to mind, he just looks at you and says everything was good. clumsily he adds in,,,,if you want,,,,,i gotta show you something after class
  • the thing he shows you is the piano in the schools music room, you never knew it before = but haechan is a skilled player
  • and when he sits down behind it, you think he looks handsome - like some kind of young prodigy - like the character in his story
  • the more you get to know him, the more you see a side of him that you’re sure he hides from others
  • the little that you knew from other people was his popular, sarcasti image
  • but there’s a lot more - there’s someone that wholeheartedly loves music and his friends 
  • it makes you fall for him even harder,,,,,,,
  • haechan isn’t sure how to tell jisung and the others, so he approaches jeno first since he knows he’ll deal with it the calmest
  • “you’re dating,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,what how did we not EVEN KNOW?”
  • haechan shrugs “you guys are kind of oblivious.”
  • jeno frowns at haechan’s joke, but congratulates him nonetheless
  • now when isung, renjun and chenle find out ,,,, it’s a whole different ball game. there’s a lot of shouting. renjun even goes “haechan, you have a heart? you never told us!”
  • when you meet them, they all have some story to tell you about haechan
  • and haechan just ends up chasing half of them around, threatening to reveal their own secrets to their parent if anything
  • jeno, who stands beside you watching this unfold leans over and goes “he says he’s really happy these days thanks to you.”
  • you even get to know jaemin, haechan’s close friend whose on a break from school 
  • haechan is a half-decent cook, you find out when you try to have a picnic and your homemade lunch is nothing like his
  • you end up discarding your pitiful sandwich for whatever haechan has in his fancy lunch box
  • dates with him are always a surprise and goofy
  • the amount of times you two use the ‘cute highschoolers with no money’ charm is uncountable - free popcorn at the movies? check. extra fries at burger king? check compliments from people on how you two will only get better looking from here on out? weird, but check
  • you don’t even need money to be happy, honestly you and haechan can make it fun no matter what
  • from running by the sea, backpacks discarded in the sand and the early fall wind blowing the waves up close as you yell when haechan pretends to jump in
  • to taking cute pics of the puppies in the puppy cafe windows
  • heck, once haechan gave you some flowers before first period and you were like how’d you get these,,
  • and he had told you that he just “got them” when in reality he part-timed for a friends cafe on the weekend to get some money for a gift
  • you and him meet up at the public library to try and study, but get distracted because you text each other even though you’re a foot apart
  • ‘hey, chemistry sucks’
  • ‘you know what doesn’t suck? my cute face’
  • ‘agreed’
  • haechan sends you memes he made of jisung himself
  • you keep asking to meet mark because, most of the dating advice haechan gets is fro him but haechan is just like ‘mark’s a loser,,,,,,,,,,but he’s my big brother and he’d say something to embarrass me.’
  • you do meet mark when he comes back on college break and he does tell you something embarrassing. it’s that haechan doesn’t shuttup about you. 
  • haechan teaches you some songs on the piano, you two stay late after school and the music teacher entrusts you with the keys to the room
  • but it’s nice, to be there with him in the soft evening glow of the sunet - no noisy kids in the halls, just you
  • your first kiss is outside of the music room, with haechan’s hand on your waist and his nervous laughter afterwords, because he’s confident but ,,,,,,a first kiss is really something else
  • but you reassure him, when you kiss him a second time before getting on your bus home and haechan walks to the subway, dizzy with glee
  • haechan doesn’t do pda persay, but he does do little things that are cute
  • he’ll lay his hand flat on your desk, looking at his textbook like he didn’t just do that and you’ll giggle and hold his hand or play with his fingers
  • one time you kissed them and haechan blushed deeper red than you thought was humanly possible, but he likes it,,,
  • other cute quirks; calls you nicknames that have to do with your clumsiness, compliments you when you least expect it, sends you his favorite instrumentals when you say you can’t fall asleep because he knows they can calm you down, has your favorite snacks memorized so he know what to get you without asking, haechan would probably read your horoscope to you everyday if you were into horoscopes like he’s that kind of boy
  • also if you’re ever upset by something or someone, haechan has the kind of skills that will uplift you in ways you never thought possible. with possible jabs at what made you upset here and there
  • he might be ‘sarcastic’ to some people, but with you he is nothing but truthful and gentle. he can make jokes and be playful, but his love is real and strong and if anyone hurts it - he goes after them like bad blood
  • always ends his texts with “stay safe” if you’re going anywhere
  • and totally leaves his cardigan on purpose on the back of your chair in class if he sees that you’re cold
  • mark: can’t believe you’re soft for someone haechan
  • haechan: im not,,,soft
  • mark: their name in your phone has three heart emojis next to it  
  • haechan:,,,,,,,,,and yours has three poop emojis now goodbye
  • (he is soft for you tho, fyi ^^)