“Can you tell me a bit about yourself?” is the most daunting question for a borderline.

Honestly, today I could tell you I prefer dark colours, I’m quiet and I don’t have a lot of friends but tomorrow I could literally walk in wearing all white and pastel colours, be chatty enough for you to tell me to keep it down while also texting away in my 3 group chats.

I don’t know how to answer that question and I probably never will because I have no idea who I am and there are so many versions of me, I just can’t keep up.

I want to be asked about the thoughts that keep me up at night. For someone to wonder what goes on in my head. To ask what the song is I put on when I want to cry or the one that immediately puts me in a better mood. The things that make me miss home. To wonder how I take my coffee. I want for someone sit and wonder about all the things, big or small, that make me who I am.

Victor is so open and transparent with affection toward Yuuri in public and I feel like Yuuri is really quiet and discreet but super sly about it when others are around 

(The entire skating fam has come over for a Victor’s birthday/Chritmas dinner)

Victor: and then the girl ringing us up at the market goes “are you Vict- *stops dead in his tracks and opens his eyes REAL big* 

Yuuri: *has placed his hand directly on Victor’s crotch under the table, but continues eating without skipping a beat* 

Victor: OH. MMHKAY.. sh-she goes ”aa-are you Victor Nikiforov and Yuuri Katsuki!?“ ..anD.. d’ya WANNA tell them the r-rrest honey??? 

Yuuri: *calm and collected* oh no, it’s way funnier how you tell it. Go on.

Victor: allLLRIght THEN!! th-the girl was scanning…eggs wh- *Yuuri adjusts his hand’s position* WHEN I ANSwered “yes actually, nice to meet yoo-O-ou” and then Yuu- *under his breath* fuck Yuuri

Yuuri: *has a small smile on his face but carries on normally*

Victor: OOOKay hEy UM Yuuri, c-could you help me.. check THe.. check on the f-ffish.. the baby fish, yeAH ,,, see if they’re eating enough *gets up and all but sprints to their bedroom*

Yuuri: *smirking and shaking his head* we’ll be back in a few minutes… The baby fish and all *goes after him*

Yurio: wait a fucking minute….. they don’t have any damn fish