which means life is good

TOMORROW IS MY LAST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL AND EVEN THOUGH I’M LOWKEY SAD THAT IT’S ALL COMING TO AN END, I’M ALSO REALLY PUMPED TO FINALLY BE DONE! AHH 

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52 Facts about Jason and Bruce:

1) Jason was Bruce’s first adopted son and the only one for a long time. 
2) Bruce met Jason on the anniversary of his parents’ death and at the place where they died. 
3) Jason manged to make Bruce laugh.
4) Pre-crisis Bruce was extremely overprotective of Jason (which Jason wasn’t happy about). 
5) Bruce was pretty strict when it comes to Jason’s education and even forbidden Jason from going out with him in school nights. 
6) In their first meeting in Rebirth, Bruce bought a hamburger for Jason and had a talk with him about giving people a chance while the two were eating on the Batmobile. 
7) Bruce called Jason “Jay”, “lad” and “champ”, but mostly “Jay”. 
8) Pre-crisis Bruce didn’t want to Jason to become his partner because he wanted him to have a normal life. He also tried to find a suitable woman to be a mother to Jason (lol).
9) Jason saved Bruce’s life from the joker in their first meeting in Arkhamverse. 
10) Bruce took Jason to a baseball game once and played a game with him too. 
11) In RHATO Annual 2, young Jason called Bruce “dad’. 
12) Bruce once missed a date with Vickie to take Jason to the cinema. 
13) Pre-crisis Jason was jealous of Selina for spending a lot of time with Batman. While Selina was pretty amused by this, Bruce was upset that Jason was keeping his distance away from him and tried to make the two get along by setting them up in a mission (the GPD even helped out!). The two eventually get along and shared a hug at the end.
14) Bruce done two things for Jason he never done them for anyone before. He ignored a bat signal because getting Jason back after he was taken from him by the court was more important. And he missed a patrol to spend time with sick Jason. 
15) Jason slapped Bruce once to wake he up after he was brain washed in THE CULT. 
16) Bruce declared once to his lawyers that he is willing to give up all of his fortune to get Jason back. 
17) Jason most precious memory was the one where Bruce spent time and watched a movie with him when he was sick. Jason has given up this memory to Saru though and told him to keep it. 
18) Bruce thought to himself once while he was hugging Jason that “For the first time it seems true: A son is not always born of his father” (awww..). 
19) Jason once had a nightmare of Bruce being killed which got him up screaming and Bruce and Alfred running to his room. 
20) Bruce has a picture of Jason on his bed stand after Jason died and he carries another in his Batman’s belt. 
21) Jason last words and thoughts before he died was an apology and thank you to Bruce. 
22) Bruce always wondered if Jason waited for him to save him and whether Jason hated him when he realized he will not arrive at time (ouch).
23) Jason was calling and crying for Bruce despite the fact he didn’t remember anything when he was brought back to life in his grave (double ouch). 
24) Bruce was planning to kill the joker after he murdered Jason, but having supes there for him stopped him from doing that.
25) Jason was mad at Bruce for not avenging him and was absolutely sure that he was never loved by him while Bruce was sure that his love was quite obvious by declaring that “Jason knew how much I loved him” to clayface.
26) In Superman/Batman, Bruce admitted that he would have done ANYTHING to get Jason back. In Hush arc, he revealed that he was planning to put Jason in the pit to bring him back, but didn’t do it because he was worried that Jason wouldn’t return right due to his brain injury.
27) Bruce gives Jason a piggyback ride once.
28) Despite the fact that Jason was completely unresponsive when Talia found him, he still reacted by tearing up when Talia mentioned Bruce to him.
29) Bruce broke down in tears when an investigator asked him about what happened to Jason (those two seriously).
30) In Final Crisis, Bruce had a break down where he wished that he could change the biggest two events in his life. His parents’ death and Jason’s death.
31) Jason planned to kill Bruce after he returned, but he couldn’t bring himself to do it when he got the chance.
32) Alfred once revealed that Jason’s death affected Bruce more than his parents did because he had the power to stop it.
33) Jason thought that Bruce was died after the event of Endgame and he was really upset about that, but he pretended that he didn’t care. Later on, he discovered that Bruce wasn’t died (he just lost his memories) and he hugged him and thanked him for everything he done for him.
34) When Bruce lost contact with Jason (who was in dangerous mission with the Outlaws), Bruce pretty much freaked out and started yelling at someone to call Superman to save Jason (awww).
35) Jason punched a guy for insulting Batman.
36) When Jason’s face was burned down by the joker, Bruce spent his whole time sitting by his bedside.
37) Jason revealed once that he isn’t much of a sleeper because when he was a kid, he spent his nights worrying that his mother will choke in her own vomit and his father will snap and kill him and his mother. When he became Robin, Jason couldn’t sleep because he preferred to spend his nights patrolling and when he wasn’t, he spent them waiting for Bruce and making sure he return home alive and well (triple ouch).
38) Bruce once asked Jason to come home.
39) Superman told Jason once that Bruce vouched for him which was the reason why the justice league never went after Jason and his team.
40) In alt-universe, Bruce snapped and killed the joker after he murdered Jason.
41) Miller'Bruce retired the Batman mantle after Jason was killed.
42) Despite how crazy Jason acted sometimes, Bruce still didn’t have the heart to hunt him down and it was Dick who captured Jason and put him in Arkham Asylum.
43) Bruce hold back against Jason whenever the two of them fight (and Jason know that). In Arkham knight (where Batman is extremely brutal in the game), it was noted that Bruce didn’t go all out against Jason and couldn’t even bring himself to punch him in the end.
44) When Jason was Robin, Bruce told him that he will always protect him and be there for him till the end.
45) In a world where Bruce died when he was a kid, Jason become a priest and had a good life. Which means he would have been better off if he never meet Bruce (ok, this one really hurts).
46) When he was hit by Scarecrow gas in Pre-crisis, it was revealed that Bruce’s biggest fear was Jason getting hurt and him being unable to protect him. In PC, the worst fear Batman can imagine was Jason’s death. After Jason died, Bruce’s biggest fear was witnessing Jason’s death at the Joker’s hands which made him go crazy and beat the joker brutally while screaming Jason’s name like a maniac. After the event of Hush, Bruce biggest fear was Jason coming back angry at him and telling him that he can’t stop because he loves him too much. In arkham knight, his worst fear was witnessing Jason’s torture and him being helpless to do anything.
47) Bruce smiled a lot around Jason before he died and hardly after he did which showed that Jason’s death changed and affected him deeply (even the cold hearted Owlman was saddened over Jason’s death).
48) Bruce once described Dick as the laugh that grow up and move on while he described Jason as the love and caring that was stolen from him (yup, I’m totally fine).
49) Bruce forbid Jason from joining the teen titans.
50) Jason was supposed to be the next Batman after Bruce retires in The Dark Knight Returns, but he died before he could take the mantle.
51) Bruce lost Jason in every universe (seriously, what the heck batsy?).
52) Bruce said once that he could never forget Jason.

Well, that was tiring and there still many more facts! But I felt that ending this post with number 52 was fitting :-)

#SMOL AND TOL (AND AWESOME-WARRIOR-FABULOUS-MAMA-DIS)

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About the Urie cover art of :re vol 10

Quick thought. If the Urie cover for vol 10 of:rei s legit I really like what Ishida did with it. Not only is Urie’s taped mouth a nod to how Urie holds his tongue and does not speak out loud what he thinks, the tapes also seem to make an X shape, which is roman numeral for number 10. 

Also, this is a stretch but I guess one could it see as a nod to the Wheels of Fortune (10/X) tarot card too, which have these meanings:

“Upright: Good luck, karma, life cycles, destiny, a turning point

Reversed: Bad luck, negative external forces, out of control.”

Kinda wonder whether what Mary wants is hunting or family, because don’t get me wrong I’m all for both, both is good, and it can work for Sam and Dean and hopefully Cas but I don’t think it’s what Mary actually wants..
I mean, I’ve been buying the ‘kill all the monsters to give sons a normal life’ thing but now I think.. if she really wanted family, she wouldn’t have had the urge to hunt when Dean was a kid and all? Maybe she’s really kidding herself? Or is this also still the messed up cupid/resurrection thing affecting her?

I also wonder if John would’ve been able to/wanted to stop after Azazel’s death if he’d still been alive back then..

What I’d also like them do with this character story is the boys not ‘because mom’-ing everything about her, because that way they can never develop an honest relationship with her. I’d like them to temporarily(!) break with her so she can earn her place in the family by herself and not based on expectations. 

anonymous asked:

Yknow instant hotness is pretty easy for guys, you's just need to lift. Like you don't even need to lose weight or anything just lift.. and be tall.

I mean I’m already 6'5" I don’t know how much taller I can really be before it starts to really become an inconvenience for walking through doorways, plus I’ve been lifting heavy things for a few months now and I’m still a lil ugly.

Today was such a good day!!!! I had glitter on my face all morning (my fidgeting and face touching basically wiped it all off my midday) and I got to cook and had some FREAkING awesome steak and I love my new job. Bless.

Chloe:

hi!! so my name is Chloe! i’m 16, born 19th jan and i’m a proud citizen of the UK. A couple of words to describe me would be sarcastic, can be a bitch if you hurt those I love but generally friendly person and a little ott. My favourite characters in the hp fandom mainly consist of minor character but i also love a few main ones too. in particular I love Tonks, Fleur Delacour, Regulus Black, Pansy Parksinson, Ginny Weasley, the Black sisters and almost everyone from the next generation. My otps are dramione, lucissa, linny, wolfstar and scorose.  If any of you guys need some advice or just someone to vent and rant too then i’m always here to listen, you can message me via my main blog@nympcdora or send me an ask on this blog! Hope you all have a great day and don’t forget to look after yourselves :)

Bri:

Hi everyone, my name is Bri! I’m 16 years old and my birthday is October 21st. I live in the U.S., which up till the last couple of years was amazing most of the time. Now I’m constantly living in angst because of a certain SOMEONE. I’m a junior in high school, which basically means my life is hectic because I’m trying to get good grades and SAT scores so colleges can notice me, but adding Trump on top of that equation really doesn’t help. I’m normally really chill and nice, but my badger claws come out whenever someone insults my friends or family, or says something offensive or sexist or racist. I’m especially protective of my little brother, who just got his Hogwarts letter a month ago!! I’m a fierce feminist and an advocate for equality for all and letting people live their lives they way they want to live it. I don’t have one favorite hp character, but an entire list of them, and McGonagall, Cedric Diggory, Fred Weasley, and Hermione Granger are on the top of that list. I love anything jily, wolfstar, or linny. I’m always active on my main, @bowtrnkle, and on my side, @expectoimagines, so feel free to message me or shoot me an ask for anything, to ask for advice or just have a nice conversation! I’m really looking forward to being an admin of this blog! Make sure to drink lots of water and get enough sleep, and enjoy the rest of your day/night!

Gianella:

Hi, my name is Gianella I’m one of the admins on this awesome blog. I’m a 15 year old girl from the US, I’m a proud Hufflepuff and pukwudgie. I’m bilingual fluently speaking Spanish and English. Im latina , my family is mainly from Argentina . Im a major mom friend. I’m super protective of my friends and family, I go full mama badger on people who hurt them A few words people have used to describe me are. Smart,mom friend, smol bean, clumsy, has mastered the mom glare and responsible I love Remus lupin he’s my favorite Harry Potter character along with Hagrid, Fleur and the twins. I have too many ships to name, honestly so this is it for now, I hope you have a great day

The arkenstone and the acorn

Okay guys, we can all do some pretty symbolic stuff with the Arkenstone. I mean, Bilbo literally steals the Heart of the Mountain.

But there’s that whole arc about Thorin trying to figure out which he is and which is better: Thorin, son of Thrain, son of Thror, King Under the Mountain or Thorin Oakenshield.

Bilbo steals the Arkenstone but he doesn’t even want it; he literally gives it away. Of course he doesn’t want the Arkenstone; that’s Thorin, son of Thrain, King Under the Mountain’s heart. It’s stone-cold, quite literally.

But you know what he does have? He already had? The acorn. Because that’s Thorin’s Oakenshield’s heart. It’s alive, and will grow.

I picked it up in Beorn’s garden.

Which means he picked it up right after he first saved Thorin’s life.

Good morning, and welcome to Bagginshield Hell.

All of You [Lafayette x Reader]

Length: 1402+ words

Genre: Angst –> Fluff

AU: Modern Time

TW: Abuse / Rape / Yelling / Horrible people being horrible / Etc. 

A/N: I made a part 2 of this that was more angsty, and I was going to put that as a bonus scene, but I decided against it. I might post that later on still, but we’ll see. I’m so tired guise- someone put me out of my misery pls. 

 Gilbert came home a little miffed by the fact that your brunch date had been cancelled that day. You had asked for Gilbert to reschedule because your ex-boyfriend, Derek, had something to ask of you, and you find it more than reasonable for your current boyfriend to have been annoyed by that fact.   

“Mon amour, I’ve been more than patient, but you need to tell me the truth. Do you still love Derek?” Gilbert asked. His voice was stern, and cold, making your heartbeat race with anxiousness.   

“N-No. I don’t love him.” I never did, you thought to yourself. 

He frowned. "Then why do you hang out with him so often?"   

You bit your lip, not being able to tell your boyfriend about how your ex-boyfriend still threatens to hurt you and blackmails you even after ending that abusive relationship. You tried to calm your erratic heartbeat, but you knew it was impossible as long as you were talking about this. You had met your ex-boyfriend Derek in one of your classes, hitting it off right away. The both of you were in the same program, and upon knowing this, your relationship got closer, and soon enough you started dating him. The first time he hurt you, you brushed it off, blaming yourself, and once became twice, and soon he was hitting you on the daily.   

You need to tell Gilbert the truth- he at least deserves that much, you tried convincing yourself to speak up, but nothing would come out. "I-I do-don’t know?"   

His frown got deeper, if that was even possible. "That’s not good enough, mon amour." 

You nodded, agreeing with him. Your conversation was interrupted when Gibert got a notification from his phone. He pulled his phone out of his pocket, quickly checking the message when his eyes widened with fury.   

"Y/N, what is the meaning of this?!” he shouted, showing you the picture on the screen. It was a picture of you and Derek, your head buried in his shoulder, but anyone could definitely still tell it was you. He had a big smile, one arm wrapped around your bare shoulder. You remembered that moment very clearly. You were half dazed when he had taken a picture, trying to hide your face and the bruises that he had left. It was an old picture, it was the day you knew you had to get out of that relationship. “You cheated on me?!”   

You couldn’t do anything, but shake your head. “N-No. I-I would never. Th-That’s not-” You backed away from Gilbert, your back hitting the wall behind you. Panic engulfing your senses, making your body feel like it was on fire. Your eyesight started to blur with tears, your breath getting dangerously uneven, and your body would not stop shaking.   

“Then how do you explain this, Y/N? Because-" 

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jiemba  asked:

Congrats on the new job! Where will you be working? : )

in London!!! first time I’ll be living in a proper city, which is super exciting. I just have to sort out money first, which is a small issue since rent is expensive and I won’t get my first paycheck until after I’ve payed rent.

I feel like an a dult now :D

oh my god i think finally having sex with him has cured me of this ridiculous four year long withstanding monster crush.

Tsubasa 57.5! Omake #1

Don’t worry, I didn’t forget! Volume 8 ends with the first Omake of the series, which has been patiently waiting for me to finally turn the page, so let’s look at that now. 

It’s only a few pages long so we’ll put it all in one place. Because recycling.

Or something. 

(?)

Anyway, Omake!

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Bruce Banner (Hulk): Heartbreak (Part II of II)

Y/N’s POV

“Shit! Shit!” I mumbled to myself glancing down at my leg, he shot my leg. This was not going to be pretty. I ran into the forest until my leg needed a break. Why did I accept this mission? I wondered as I slid down a tree truck to rest my leg.

I closed my eyes and counted two minutes out because that was the longest I could sit here without probably being captured. I stood up from the ground wincing. This was the second time I got shot in the last three months and this time I was on my own. I winced as I put pressure back on to my leg I should have went with my guy and passed, but no I had to be an idiot and take the mission just to get away from Bruce. I studied my surroundings for a moment before glancing down at my leg it wasn’t fatal, not close enough to a vein, it was just going to hurt like a son of bitch.
I took a deep breath and began walking without limping as much as possible. I needed to get off the grid now before they found me and killed me or worse tortured me. I began make my way back to my emergency stash I hid five days ago. It was going to take me a while to get stateside undiscovered. I sighed and headed three clicks to my right to where my stash was hidden. As I approached my bag I looked around to make sure I had time to clean up my wounds. I closed my eyes listening for any disrupting noise but heard nothing but forest life, which was a good sign it means they only detected me.

I bend at the waist and pull my duffle bag out of hiding and quickly unzip it. Pulling out the medical supplies I toss them on the ground next to the bag. I lean to my left and reach out with both hands and gently bring myself to the ground. I extended my leg and inspected it the bullet was luckily lodge still so I could pull it out and stitch myself up. I reach in my bag and grab my knife kit and make work of cutting off my pants. I opened up the medical kit and pull out a suture kit. I used my knife to pull out the bullet quickly and then user the alcohol bottle from my bag to clean out my wound before beginning to stitch myself up as neatly as possible. After ten minutes I was completely stitched up. I sighed and reached into the duffle bag and grabbed my cargo pants out. I unbuttoned the pants I was wearing and stripped them off before standing up to slip the clean pants on. I carefully stripped off my shirt and inspected my torso. I winced it was black and blue already from being beaten up before I could escape. Definitely have a broken rib along with a bunch of deep cuts that wouldn’t need stitches. I sighed and bent down and picked up my clean shirt and put it on. Taking a deep breath I grabbed the back pack that was inside of the duffle bag and slipped it onto my back. I retrieved the matched and lighter fluid and quickly stuffed everything back into the bag before dosing it the lighter fluid and striking a match. I watched as the flames engulfed the bag. I headed off in the direction of town. I was going to hotwire a car and get the hell out of Germany. I sighed it was going to take me a long time to get back stateside, considering that HYDRA was after me. “Just how I wanted to spend the next week,” I grumble out to myself.

Bruce POV

A Week Later
I watched as Director Coulson stepped off the elevator into the lab. That was odd he hasn’t been back since Y/N was here. I looked around half expecting to see her glaring at me to see that Coulson was actually alone, which was also odd.

“Where’s Stark?” Coulson said looking around.

I shrugged. “Not really sure.”

“Look Dr. Banner I need to talk to him.” He says urgently.

I turned back to my work station. “You should have called him.”

“Banner, I need his help it is an emergency.”

“Lose someone?” I said swiveling around in my chair to face him.

He gave me a sharp look. “Not exactly Banner. Mission went sour a week ago and we have no word from our agent. Our intel points at the fact the agent might be dead. So if you wouldn’t mind Banner I need Stark to help.

I nodded. The agent must be pretty special if Coulson was desperate enough to need Stark. “JARVIS call Tony.”

“Yes sir.”

“Banner did you have another episode?” Tony snickered through the system.

I rolled my eyes. “Coulson needs you to locate someone using your system.”

“S.H.I.E.L.D still needs assistance from the Stark family?” Tony says as the elevator doors open.

“As funny as that was Stark I really don’t have time for jokes. I have an agent I need to locate. I have the last coordinates.” Coulson says hurriedly.

I exchanged a look with Tony. Who was this agent? Why were they so important to Coulson?

Tony grabbed the coordinates from Coulson’s outstretched arm and headed to the computer next to me.

“How long ago?”

Coulson looked between us uneasily, “Have not heard from them in a week.”

“Maybe they do not want to be found.” Tony suggested as he typed in the coordinates before lowering his voice. “Do you know who?”

I shook my head and stared at Coulson.

“Unlikely my agent is either dead or on the run.” Coulson says crossing his arms across his chest.

“When did they get there?”

“Agent has been missing for a week but arrived five days prior to that. However there was a body found two days ago matching the agents description. I need to know if there’s a chance the agent is alive.” Coulson said.

I narrowed my eyes at him. Why was he hiding the gender of the agent? Did we know them? I swallowed dear god do not let it be Y/N.

Tony glanced at me and was unconvinced by Coulson’s story as well.

“Why is the agent so important?” I questioned crossing my own arms over my chest.

“That’s not someth-”

“You either let us know all of what’s going on or I clear the search and you find them the good ol’ fashion way.” Tony says turning around to face Coulson.

Coulson shook his head and ran his hands through his hair. “I’m not sure that is a good idea Stark.”

I glanced at the screen which should Tony was searching Germany. “What the hell is he hiding?”

“I know.” Tony says to me before projecting his voice so Coulson could hear him. “Then I am not sure that I can help.”

Coulson took a deep breath. “The agent is Y/N.” Coulson announced cautiously.

I jerked away from staring at the screen to look at Coulson. “Are you shi-“

“She volunteered for the mission. It was supposed to be difficult but nothing she was not qualified to handle. Like I said before I need to know if there is a possibility that she lived.”

I felt my whole body freeze. After everything, me leaving her numerous times, she may have died half way around the world. “How could you allow her t-“

“Like I said Dr. Banner she volunteered. She knew the risks and possibility of not coming back.” Coulson said cutting me off.

I took a considerable amount of deep breaths. I could not afford to change and let him come out at this point. She knew the possibility rang in my head over and over again. I turned back to the computer screen as it dinged. I narrowed my eyes it was no longer in Germany but in Brooklyn.

“Well good thing I know her specific heat signature. She’s alive, and in Brooklyn.” Tony says jotting down the coordinates before looking at me. “You good?”

I nodded I was going to have words with her.

Coulson snatched the coordinates out of Tony’s hands and headed for the elevator.

“Bring her here when you find her.” Tony says worriedly.

I’m not sure who he was worried for more Y/N’s safety or everyone else if she wasn’t okay.

“I’m coming with you” I said picking up my medical bag from under my desk and striding towards the elevator door.

“Dr. Banner th-“

“You’ll need a doctor.” I said climbing into the elevator with him.

Coulson nods. “If she shoots you then it is on you.”

Half an hour later we arrived at an abandoned warehouse outside Brooklyn. I stayed behind Coulson in case it was a trap. Please dear god let her live so I can yell at her.

I heard her voice, she sounded exhausted.

“About time.” She said.

“Well you could have called.”

She let out a breathy laugh. “I had to make sure I had no tail.”

I still couldn’t see her.

“You good?” Coulson asked her.

“I’m fine. Just in need of a shower.” She says staying to the shadows.

“Whose body did we find then?” Coulson asked.

“Honestly I don’t know. I incinerated my clothes and I don’t think that I was followed.”

“You hurt?”

“I got shot but I’m fine. I bruised rib, a few scratches here and there.” She said emerging from the shadows. I watched as her eyes widened upon seeing me. “What the hell are you doing here?”

Coulson shrugged. “You need a medical evaluation, he’s a doctor.”

“I don’t recall asking for one.”

“Procedure.” Coulson said.

“I’m not getting one from him. I’ll-“

“You’re not getting a choice agent. We are going to Stark Tower and Dr. Banner here is going to evaluate you.” Coulson said turning to head back to the car.

“You can’t be serious.” She said as she glared at me.

“I am and sense it is an order you will not be able to object.” Coulson said continuing his way out.

“Fine I’ll do the evaluation but with another doctor.”

“Not enough time. I need a debrief and he’s not going to ask to many questions.” Coulson said exiting the warehouse.

She let out a dark laugh. “Obviously we know two different versions of Dr. Banner.”

I swallowed not saying a word in case I yelled at her. She looked like hell. She looked worse than when I saw her months ago in the hospital.

We drove back to the tower in silence. Y/N refused to acknowledge me anymore. As we entered the medical floor I stopped only allowing Y/N to enter the floor.

“I think it would be best if I did this alone. You can debrief her later.” I say pushing the lobby button on the elevator. Coulson looked like he was going to protest but decided it was best not to.

I watched as she sat down on one of the beds. She looked so worn.

“Are you just going to stare at me or can we get this over with?” She asked.

I sighed. “Y/N…”

“Just hurry up I have to get back to work.” She mumbles under her breath.

I grabbed a pair of gloves and retrieved a stethoscope. “You might not be able to.”

“Well then I guess I just won’t turn in the note then.” She says.

I walk up to her after putting the gloves on. “I’ll tell Coulson myself then.”

She sighed. “Just hurry up.”

“Remove your shirt.” I said walking up to her.

“The hell I will. This isn’t some kinky lets play doctor time Banner.” She says crossing her arms around her torso and then wincing.

“As much fun as that sounds that’s not why you need to.”

She closes her eyes. “Don’t. Just don’t.”

I step up to her and put my hands on her thighs before she screams in pain. “Shit.”

“If this is pay back from the last time I saw you then please tell me your done.”

I lowered my eyes. “Clothes now.”

“Bruce…”

“Now, or I’ll do it myself.”

She nods reluctantly and winces as she pulls of her shirt. I inspect her she had a lot of bruises that were still ugly purple and also a severely bruised rib. I cocked my head to the side and noticed she had a bunch of scabbed over cuts that were deep.

“How are you still functioning?” I asked stepping towards her to better inspect her wounds.

“I’m used to it.” She says staring straight ahead at the wall.

“You have a bruised rib and a lot of cuts.”

“No shit.”

I sighed. This was what I deserved for trying to get her out of my life. “I don’t see were you got sh-“ I stopped talking recalling her recoil when I touched her leg. “Pants Y/N.”

The confidence that she had once had on her face was gone. “Don’t. Please Bruce just let it go.”

“I can’t honey. Show me.” I said stepping away so she could take them off.

She closes her eyes and shakes her head but still does what I asked. As they slid down he thigh I noticed a neat set of stitches. I inwardly winced. That must have hurt a hell of a lot to do to herself.

“That looks pretty clean. Not a bad job.”

She shrugged. “I’m used to it. It’s a part of my job.”

I nodded as I heard the elevator doors open to reveal Tony. Great, I was already walking on fragile ground now I had to deal with Mr. Insensitive on top of that.

Tony rushed towards Y/N and I waited for the dirty joke about catching her in her underwear. However Tony didn’t speak and just walked to Y/N and wrapped her in a hug. I closed my eyes. Tony, the pervert, could touch her but I couldn’t? I took deep breaths to keep the jealousy at bay.

Tony pulled away to inspect her. “Jesus Y/N. You should have called me I would’ve came and got you.”

She smiled at him. “I know Tony.”

He shook his head and turned to me. “You take care of her Banner or I’ll kick your ass.” He says before striding out just as fast as he came in.

I glared down at my hands.

I heard shuffling and looked up to see Y/N getting dressed. “So am I cleared Doc?”

I glared at the back of her head. “No.”

She sighed. “I really have no energy to do this with you today Bruce.” She says turning to look at me.

I shrugged. “I didn’t know you and Tony had gotten so close.”

She scoffed. “Kind of hard not to when I saw him every day when I was with you.”

“Are you sure it wa-“

“Don’t even imply that. You know better. You wanted to be done you now have no rights on the jealousy card.” She says standing up wincing.

I pinched the bridge of my nose. “It isn’t like I want to feel this way.” I say to her.

She stops moving. “I’m sorry, for the things I said the last time I saw you and for what I just said now. It was out of line.” She says tiredly.

I shake my head. “Doesn’t loving you still count for something?” I beg for her to understand it was out of love. God she had to understand I made a mistake.

But my announcement of loving her only seemed to piss her off.

“No! Not when you through it around like it’s nothing! You don’t get to feel sorry for yourself! You wanted to leave me well congrats you left.” Y/Nsaid harshly. “But, hate to break it to youBanner you do not get to come back!”

“I-“

I watched as tears fell from her eyes. “You don’t get to walk back into my life! You wanted out! You wanted this!”

I shook my head and stepped towards her, “Not like this.” I was not going to let her walk I realized that I needed her. I would find another way to protect her.

She let out a dark laugh “Yes like this!”

“No dammit! I messed up okay? I wanted to protect you but I can’t I get that.” Please dear god understand. It shouldn’t have overreacted.

She shook her head, “Today you might but what about tomorrow? Or after you have an ‘episode’? I’m not a yo-yo Banner. The feeling of whiplash has lost its appeal.”

I shake my head at what happened and stared at her. “I still meant what I said.”

She sits back down and puts her face in her hands. “That does not matter.” She says tiredly.

“It does Y/N. Because seeing you like this and knowing it is because of me sucks. I can’t protect you I understand that now. I just want you to be okay.”

“It was my choice I knew the risks.” She says without acknowledging anything else that I said.

“Because you wanted to escape me.”

She shakes her head and stares at me. “This isn’t on you. I made my own choice, it was a stupid choice, but it was mine.”

I nodded. “Y/N…”

I watch her carefully.

“I hate you.” She says as she stares at her hands.

“I know. “ I said waiting to hear what else she had to say.

She laughs bitterly. “It sucks. Because hating you still means that I love you.”

I nodded in understanding. “Well I feel like that is a good thing.”

She shakes her head. “It isn’t because we aren’t together.”

I walk up to her and grab her chin forcing her to stare up at me. “I made a mistake.”

“Bru-“

“I know whiplash, but it is the truth. I messed up because I was afraid of you being terrified of me. I know it is irrational. I can’t lose you because of me.”

She stared back at me. “But I did didn’t I?”

I moved my hands to the back of her head to place them on the nape of her neck. “I want to fix all of it Y/N. No more whiplash, I promise.”

She closes her eyes and leans her forehead against mine. “Please don’t do this to me.”

“I love you.” I said staring at her closed eyes.

I watch her visibly swallow. “I love you too but-“

“That’s enough I can work with that for now.” I said leaning to press a kiss on her forehead.

She opened her eyes to stare back at me. “Bruce…”

“We’re going to be all right.” I said pulling her into a hug. Everything was gong to be okay.

Let’s talk about Nick Miller.  Let’s talk about him and Jess and this new way I’ve been thinking about their breakup, realizing the genius, twisted irony of it.

While I was writing about broken-up Nick and Jess last week, I spent a lot of time thinking about the two sides of their relationship: the things that work and the things that don’t and why. 

The Mars Landing fight focused on both the past (their relationship so far, arguing all the time, biting things back) and the future, ostensibly about their attitudes toward planning, their worldviews and belief systems.  But there’s another hugely important unspoken layer to that conversation.

When Jess was asking if he imagined a kid they’d have together, talking about a house by the lake and Christmas morning, she was at the same time saying: I’m ready for this; I’m ready for this with you.  Or at least ready to let you know that someday I will be. A future where things are a lot more grown-up; a post-loft world where they’re still together.

And poor Nick Miller, so afraid he’d screw it up from day one, missed the ball coming across the plate.  Didn’t even realize he was up at bat.  

She was saying: I think all the time about spending my whole life with you.  (Even if some of that thinking is with trepidation.)  And he was so afraid of rocking the boat of the universe, afraid of taking a different approach to life and thinking about the future, believing things maybe *will* work out, even if you have to force yourself out of your comfort zone and into something like adulthood — that he said no.  He backed down.  He derailed.  He said, without realizing he was saying it: I won’t imagine with you a real future where we’re together.  Because he doesn’t believe in a world where things work out that way.  Doesn’t really dare to let himself hope beyond what he has now.  Messed up from Caroline and Julia and his family and always always from Walt.

The way his face fell on the roof in Winston’s Birthday when he thought she was slipping away before he even really had her.  The way he forced her to admit she worried he was too messed up, at Cece’s wedding, and then turned tail when faced with things being that real, that potential bad.  Called the whole thing off.  So afraid of how he was going to mess things up.  How bad it was going to hurt.

“I realized something … I’d do anything for ya’, Jess,” he tells her in the bank.  But what he has to do now is even bigger and scarier: he has to do something for himself and for both of them.  It’s being able to say: yes, I see a future with you — which means being brave enough to imagine a future where life is good; where things are okay for ol’ lemonade-into-lemons Nick Miller.  I think that’s the long game for him.

He’s a little broken: that’s what he said when he told her people don’t change.  He didn’t think his dad would; he doesn’t think he can.

Here’s what I want to give Nick: a year like Pam Beesly’s season 3.  Being forced to change and forcing herself.  Signing up for art classes and living alone and running across coals and saying what she means, brave, in front of everyone.  Watch out world, old Pammy is getting what she wants.

I want fancy new Miller like we got fancy new Beesly.  Not some unrecognizable guy in a scarf and Brylcreamed hair; Pam didn’t turn into Karen or Jan, after all.  I want a Nick who’s *himself*, but who’s figured out that he can fight his way forward, through the hedgemaze of insecurity, away from the world that’s pessimistic but safe — and who’s realizing he can be happier for it.

I doubt that’s what we’ll get this season, really, but I think it’s coming.  Maybe in season 5?

But I want to see the look on his face when he realizes: this girl he loves, this girl who’s changed every part of his life, she was telling him, in her own roundabout and mixed up way, that he was it for her.  Wanted to have kids and a house and the whole daydreamed expanse of the future *together*.  Wanted to marry him.

I want him to realize that and then figure out he can make that happen.  She’s the kind of girl a guy would come back for.  

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