where's walla

I mean.

What, pray tell, THE FUCK?

OK, so like, here’s the thing. Fuck this scene but also FUCK, THIS SCENE! Because like THIS IS WHAT FIGHTS LOOK LIKE?

Like we all know what Killian’s struggling with THE SMOL DUMB ASSHOLE WHO I LOVE.  And this was possibly the WORST WAY to handle this but here we are and like EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS SLAYS ME IN THE BEST WAY? I AM A SUCKER FOR WELL WRITTEN ANGST OK?

LOOK AT HER BODY LANGUAGE THO. THE STEPS BACK, THE RAISED HANDS. LIKE, AT THIS POINT SHE’S FEELING BETRAYED AF AND CONCERNED ABOUT HOW HE MIGHT NOT TRUST HER WITH HIS PAIN BUT ALSO, BECAUSE THIS IS EMMA SWAN, SHE’S NOT ABLE TO SORT OF ANALYSE IT?

SHE IMMEDIATELY GOES WALLS UP EMMA SWAN. CALLING HIM ‘HOOK’ AND NOT MEETING HIS EYES. LIKE THIS IS ABOUT PROTECTING HERSELF FOR HER WHERE SHE BELIEVES THAT HE’S HIDING THINGS FROM HER AND THAT HE DOESN’T TRUST HER.

WHEREAS HE’S JUST STUCK ON SORT OF, I DID THIS HORRIBLE THING IN THE PAST AND EVERYONE WILL HATE ME.

AND REMEMBER HOW SHE’S THINKING HOW HE COULD HIDE THIS FROM HER AND SO SHE ASKS HIM.

AND HE IS SO ON THE WRONG PAGE. LIKE BOTH THEIR CONCERNS ARE SO FUCKING VALID BASED ON THEIR OWN PERSONAL STORIES AND PERSONALITIES BUT THEY’RE NOT CONVEYING THEM CORRECTLY BECAUSE EMOTIONAL AND FUCK IF THAT ISN’T EVERY FIGHT I HAVE EVER HAD.

AND SHE’S LIKE I DON’T FUCKING CARE ABOUT THAT AND SHE’S TRYING TO TELL HIM HOW HE’S HURT HER BUT INSTEAD OF SAYING THAT NOW SHE ASKS HIM ABOUT WHY HE WOULD BURN AWAY HIS MEMORIES RIGHT?

AND THEY’RE STILL ON DIFFERENT PAGES ABOUT THIS OMG UGH THIS IS GREAT OK SO

AND HERE’S WHERE IT HURTS ME SO MUCH BECAUSE KILLIAN’S THINKING THAT THIS IS ABOUT HIS PAST SINS AND REPENTANCE AND HIM BEING A VILLAIN, HE THINKS OF IT AS A SOLITARY THING? LIKE THE WHOLE SITUATION SHOULD BE HIS TO DEAL WITH BECAUSE IT’S HIS PAST? HIS MISTAKES? WHY SHOULD EMMA HAVE TO DEAL WITH THEM? 

IN HIS MIND, EMMA’S STILL ON THE OTHER SIDE SORT OF? LIKE SHE WOULD JUDGE HIM OR LEAVE HIM FOR WHAT HE’S DONE? AND THAT’S WRONG AND EMMA TELLS HIM SO BUT FUCK I UNDERSTAND WHY HE SOULD HAVE TROUBLE BELIEVING IT POOR KILLIAN SELF LOATHING JONES THAT HE IS

NOW SHE TELLS HIM RIGHT, THAT YOU KNOW THEM BUT THEY’RE STILL NOT ON THE SAME FUCKING PAGE BUT SHE’S GETTING MADDER AND MADDER THAT HE’S NOT UNDERSTANDING HOW HE’S HURT HER BY NOT COMING TO HER

AND HE’S LIKE THINKING THAT SHE HATES HIM FOR WHAT HE DID AND THAT THIS IS STILL ABOUT HIS PAST AND HIM NOT BEING ABLE TO FORGIVE HIMSELF WHICH HE STILL THINKS IS A SOLITARY PUNISHMENT FOR HIM TO BEAR. THIS IS SO FUCKED BUT LIKE IN MY EXPERIENCE MOST FIGHTS HAPPEN LIKE THIS? IN THE MIDST OF EMOTION AND ANGER AND NOT BEING ABLE TO COMMUNICATE BECAUSE OF THOSE THINGS?

AND THEN SHE’S HIT HER BOILING POINT AND SHE IS LIKE YOU LEAN ON ME!

HOOK SHE CALLS HIM UGH AND I DIED WHILE ALSO CHEERING FOR HER BECAUSE YES BUTTHEAD, YOU LEAN ON HER.

BUT SEE KILLIAN JONES HAS WALLS OK? WALLS AF. AND I FEEL LIKE WE HAVE HANDLED SO MANY OF EMMA’S DEMONS. HER FEARS OF BETRAYAL AND ABANDONMENT SO MUCH, THAT WE SOMETIMES MISS THE FACT THAT KILLIAN DOESN’T REALLY LEAN ON ANYONE BECAUSE HE’S ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT THIS BURDEN OF HIS PAST WAS HIS TO BEAR BECAUSE IT WAS ALL HIS FAULT AND

WHO WOULD EVER WANT TO BEAR THOSE BURDENS WITH HIM? THIS RINGS SO TRUE FOR ME? EMMA’S NOT THE ONLY ONE WITH WALLS YK? LIKE HE’S ALWAYS BEEN SO OPEN WITH HIS FEELINGS FOR HER BUT HE’S ALWAYS STRUGGLED WITH THOSE FEELINGS ABOUT DESERVING HER AND I AM JUST SO SAD RN

LIKE EMMA’S REACTION IS ALSO SO TYPICAL OF HER AND HER OWN WALLA WHERE HER IMMEDIATE REACTION IS TO TAKE A STEP BACK BECAUSE SHE FEELS INCREDIBLY SAD ABOUT THIS WHOLE THING. AND IT’S NOT THAT SHE WANTS TO BREAK UP WITH HIM SO MUCH AS SHE WANTS TO SEE IF HE WILL FIGURE IT OUT AND COME BACK. SHE’S NOT JUDGING HIM OR PASSING A SENTENCE, SHE’S GIVING HIM A CHANCE TO FIGURE HIMSELF OUT LIKE SHE DID IN THE UNDERWORLD BUT FAR LESS ARTICULATELY.

BUT THERE’S ANOTHER COMMUNICATION THING HERE BECAUSE KILLIAN FUCKING JONES IS LIKE FUCK MY WORST FEARS HAVE COME TRUE

HE HAS BEEN IMAGINING THIS NIGHTMARE FOR SO LONG NOW THAT ONCE IT HAPPENS, HE CANNOT THINK THAT SHE MIGHT WANT HIM BACK

HE CANNOT THINK OF THE SENSIBLE MATURE THING BECAUSE THE NIGHTMARE THAT LIVED IN HIS HEAD AND HAD BECOME REALITY THEREFORE ALL THINGS THAT HE HAD THOUGHT ABOUT HIMSELF NOT DESERVING HER MUST BE TRUE RIGHT?

WHICH IS WHY HE GOES TO THE FUCKING NAUTILUS LIKE THE FUCK YOU IDIOT.

THIS IS GREAT AND I LOVED IT. 

[breathes]

it just felt real you know? like half finished sentences and tangents that go off to weird places and hyperbole and extrapolation. people do this shit when they fight and because it felt so real, I am so fucking hurt ugh kill me dead.

but also pls send me hugs, I need them.

anonymous asked:

hiya! not the anon from before but also new to the texturing thing and had some questions as well if that was alright? I have all the maps extracted in photoshop and stuff, its just confusing on how exactly to edit them? like, where do i find nice textures and how do i add them onto the diffuse map? do i just find a texture and use the pen tool to cut it out for it and walla? and where do i find resrouces of pretty embellishments n details n stuff? idk just a bit confused sry T-T

Heh, same anon or not Im happy to offer some advice. Though I’m pretty noobish myself as I’ve only did retexes of one outfit in Inquisition. Obviously I don’t know too much but I’ll share what I did to get my Outerwear looking like it is. (please note I may be wrong on some things so I’m just going to relay my findings)

You have 4 maps for the outfit - diffuse (_d), normal (_n), spec (_s) and tint (_t).

If you want to simply recolor a piece or put some symbol on it you just need to edit the diffuse map. If you want to add an actual pattern, change how it looks in 3d and change say a leather to a cloth (or add metal bits or metal corset a-la @shomods dresses, then you will need normal and spec too.

Diffuse (_d) - is basically your color plus basic patterns, or this - the colorful patched pieces on the vest and the scarf

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Normal (_n) - is your 3d map - if you want an embossed leather like this for example so it will not look flat, but actually look like your pattern stands out.

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Spec (_s) - is your material - Im not 100% sure of its full properties, but for example it can make your cloth piece more or less shiny. Less shiny plus subsequent edit to the normal map would make it cloth-looking, more shiny plus leather pattern on the normal map would make it more leather-looking. It also determines your metal pieces - without edits to spec map your metal pieces will not shine as they supposed to.

Tint (_t) - determines whether its tintable. If you don’t want it tintable it should be all black.

Now on to your questions:

-  where do i find nice textures and how do i add them onto the diffuse map? 

Just google them. :) I googled mine, typed embossed leather and took the patterns from the internet. This is how a pattern for my outerwear vest looked

Or for the pattern on the shirt I’ve searched for “linen cloth pattern” and used this one (I think)

And for the pants something like this

You could also go to DeviantArt.com, but I just found it easier to look for stuff online. Your search can go something like, I dunno like “Embossed leather pattern”, “linen cloth pattern”, “cloth pattern” or other such things.

- do i just find a texture and use the pen tool to cut it out for it and walla? 

Pretty much. At least thats what I did. However I first used Quick Mask and painted the pieces of the outfit I needed to put the pattern on. Quick mask makes selection much easier. In my case those were the boots, vest and gloves. I then put this pattern over them as a layer, cut off the parts that I did not need (keeping the selection, you could also click Select -> Inverse if it selects the wrong thing), and then I went to Layer -> Layer style -> Blending options. There you could select how well your layer blends into the outfit. You NEED to blend it otherwise it will look flat and you will lose all those nice folds. I usually used Overlay and then selected Opacity to what I needed, I dunno 75% for example.

You will see that your leather(or cloth) parts become too saturated, you could always desaturate them or use Levels or Curves to make them the color you need.

After you are done with the diffuse you could also edit the normal map. Without editing the normal map your outfit will still have folds, but it will not have 3d flowers and curves that your pattern has. 

So in order to do that you need to first save your normal map via Compressonator or other such tool as a tga so you could work with it in Photoshop. (Papercrow’s tutorial may help if you haven’t seen it). 

You then have to convert your diffuse map with the pattern on it into the Normal map with NVidia plugin. Put this converted map onto your outfit normal map. You will then need to erase the parts you dont need leaving only the pattern. HOWEVER, before doing that go to Layer -> Layer Mask -> Reveal all. It will let you edit your normal map layer properly.

Notice you will not have folds, so you will have to blend it as well by selecting either opacity of the layer or changing it to overlay. Just don’t make it stand out too much or it will not look nice in game.

You could also edit the spec map if you, say want your pants to become cloth instead of leather. Darkening the parts takes off their shine, lightening gives them more shine. Be sure to edit all channels on the map. Im not entirely certain what Alpha channel does in this case, but I have edited it as well. I just looked at what parts constituted leather and what constituted cloth, and then I repainted the pant parts that I was changing to cloth.

- and where do i find resrouces of pretty embellishments n details n stuff? 

Again Google is your best friend in this. All embellishments, resources and stuff could be found online. You can put pretty much anything on a texture and blend it in, then use Hue/Saturation values, Curves and Levels to change it to the color you want. You could find something like this for example

and place it over the texture, blending it and changing colors to make it, I dunno, a pattern at the back, and it will NOT look out of place if you do correct adjustments. You are only really limited by your imagination.

I’m not sure if this explains it well but I hope it helps.

And of course if you have any further questions I will be happy to answer. :)

“For years I would take pictures of this baba from the back sheesha of our car while stopping for chai in an area called Gharo. He would always be walking around in the most creative costumes featuring his beautiful bottle collection; styled and customized with no less creativity and finesse then our very own high couture designers. I swear, it was an excitement on its own looking for him and capturing his new additions. Occasionally, there would be times where he would be hiding (as I concluded). I would ask the chaiwalla and the pan walla (where I would spot him regularly) where "the Bottle Seller of Gharo” or “bottlle bhejne waale baba” was. They pointed in a direction and I could hear the beat of plastic bottles clanking growing nearer.

One day I decided to gather up the courage to speak to him. This was one expereince I will never forget. “innnnnnnn mehhhhhh hhh pa nnnni llloooooggo hhhhh k o o pilllll lllllla aaaataaaaaa hoo ooooon.” he stuttered. (I fill water in these and give water to people.) I learned that he would change the position of these bottles not out of creativity or artistic expression but out of necessity. The bottles weight would be a burden on his shoulders so he would tie them around his neck and change as required.


SubhanAllah. 


The chaiwalla and paanwalla in Gharo along with many others were convinced he was crazy and a “mental case” as they called him. How quick are we to judge those who we have no damn idea about. Let us really be the vehicles of good conduct and lead by excellent example, whether that means speaking up for injustice or carrying the burden of bottles of water to give to thirsty people.


If you ever pass by Gharo now and look for him, make sure to also ask for the “pagal photographer” who visits him often :)“ 

Credit: karachichaiwalla