where you feel the need to use words

when you're autistic but you still wanna be cool online

- when ur reblogging a post about your special interest and ur trying to decide whether or not infodumping and screaming in all caps in the tags would be annoying

- “am i close enough with this person to use u instead of you? do i even need to wait? can i use “u” with strangers??”

- “you’ll have to forgive me for this…” no that sounds way too formal what’s the Normal way to phrase it?

-“is this a situation where proper grammar and spelling is necessary?”

- “i’m feeling an emotion ?? what do people do when they feel an emotion? swear??? yeah i can do that what’s the right swear word to use in this context?”

- when you’re re-reading a post before you post it and find words like “therefore” and u gotta rewrite the whole thing

- when your grammar is both too formal and too casual and ur not sure if what u said was phrased awkwardly

- when you run out of words to say so you respond to everything with ‘aaaaaa’

- “was that a nice thing to say???? did that seem blunt or rude? how do i tell?? i don’t want them to think i hate them. best to be overly positive just to be sure”

- typin how you talk in real life…… so there are fuckin ellipses everywhere……… cause you pause a lot. and then you feel weird about it.

- “is this person being rude or am i misinterpreting it? best to just not respond at all”

like, i get that some people are not comfortable with the word queer. i fluctuate on how comfortable i am with using the word queer! i am from a small town in the south of the u.s. with a high population of people 65+ where using the word queer in a derogatory manner is still live and well. when i got to college and heard the phrase “queer theory” for the first time i was like…what the fuck

but like…u don’t need to add a reminder that some people don’t like to be called queer every time someone makes a post about self-identifying as queer. like, do you know how many posts i see where OP is like “haha yeah i ID as queer because it’s easier than saying i’m an aromantic pansexual” and some pancake feels the need to come out of the woodwork like “I GUESS THAT’S FINE OR WHATEVER BUT DON’T CALL MEEEEEE QUEER” ????? like ??? they weren’t ???? chill out ??????????

by all means if someone calls you queer n you’re not comfy with that tell them to stop…but damn….don’t act like all queer identifying people are running around with a handheld label maker trying to put QUEER stickers on the foreheads of unsuspecting LGBT youth

How to Learn a Language Naturally: Back to the Basics

        Lately as I’ve been gradually getting back into independent language learning I’ve found myself struggling with where to begin. Every textbook I would take out would leave me bored and frustrated with either the simplicity or the level it was placed at relative to where I was at that time; yet without some sort of direction, I felt lost. Already battling against lack of motivation, creating a self-study program from scratch seemed like an incredibly daunting task. However, after taking a step back I’ve begun to see other approaches that I can take to learn the language in a more natural way – turning away from standard study that leaves me unmotivated, and focusing instead on fun and entertaining ways of language application. Here is what I’ve come up with.


Starting off as a beginner:

        My greatest and first word of advice for starting off as a beginner in your target language would be to start looking around websites such as Memrise and Quizlet for lists of most commonly used words. The “Learn [Language] in 200/300 words” posts on Tumblr by @funwithlanguages are also a great place to start. Start working on pronouns, general sentence structure or basic phrases, and learning the overall conjugation patterns for the most basic verbs. Flashcards and index cards are incredibly useful here. This will give you a good foundation off of which you can build further.

        In addition, having some sort of structured course, such as the Teach Yourself series or many available courses on Memrise that teach vocabulary connected with dialogues, is extremely helpful. It has been scientifically proven that a person learns vocabulary much faster when they have some sort of emotional connection formed, and by learning words in context, it is much easier to remember what something means and how it is used.

Reading/Speaking:

Find some good, easy, dual-language books to start off with. Go through them chapter by chapter, making sure to read each paragraph in only the target language before going back and looking up/checking unknown words. Read each section multiple times as to ensure comprehension, and, even better, read it to yourself out loud while working on pronunciation. Later, as you become more advanced, you can move on to books entirely in your target language, and try to write your own definitions of unknown words using the given context before checking them yourself.

Search for different news sources from countries where your target language is spoken. Read through the article and write your own summaries of events.

Try changing the language settings on your phone or social media accounts to your target language, and make note of any new vocabulary – don’t allow yourself to go on autopilot.

Challenge yourself to make short vlogs or general videos in your target language. If needed, feel free to write a script to read off of; otherwise, challenge yourself to speak purely off the top of your head – using as much as you know, even if your sentences start off broken.

Set up Skype sessions with native speakers and practice communicating using whatever knowledge of your target language you possess. If you are unsure of a word, try to use others to describe it instead of resorting to your native language (or even just ask how you would say something using your target language).

Look up the lyrics to different songs in your target language and practice translating. Similarly, try translating other songs into your target language.

Writing:

Find native speakers who would be willing to communicate with and correct you, and practice conversing using only your target language (no matter how often you need to use a dictionary – but make sure you take note of any new vocabulary or concepts you come across!).

Practice writing status updates (whether on a private account or not), journal entries, essays, or fictional pieces in your target language. If able, see if you can find a native speaker who would be willing to give you corrections, or simply post your text on Lang8!

Listening:

Youtube is a great resource for all levels of language learning. Try searching for content creators that make videos in a genre you enjoy, and utilize their channels to practice your listening skills and inferring from context while immersing yourself. Write down any words you are unsure of to look up later.

Music in your target language – listen for words you recognize, and look up those you don’t. Things like lyrics are much more likely to stick in your memory, so use that to your advantage!

Look around for an online radio that broadcasts news in your target language, or even an online news source that posts or broadcasts video.

Watch films in your target language, even if it’s content that was originally in English. Many DVDs come with dubs in other languages depending on where you’re from, and Netflix (especially Netflix Original Series) also offers many different dub and subtitle options depending on the content. Even YouTube occasionally has films or TV episodes uploaded in other languages, so long as you look hard enough.

Grammar:

When it comes to grammar, it is important to have a good, solid grammar book that breaks down all basic ideas into something that is comprehensible. Don’t start off with learning grammar right away, however; give yourself some time to really soak up the language itself and get used to basic concepts first. Once you’re at a higher level, being able to properly break down your target language and put it back together will substantially help your progression to fluency.

Incorporate practice sentences into your writing, utilizing each concept. By forcing yourself to physically use each grammatical structure in a context you’ve come up with yourself, it will be much easier for you to master each idea, as well as help it to become more natural.

Hopefully this was helpful in some way! Good luck, and happy language learning!

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Ghost, I see you standing there,
Don’t turn away, I want you to stay,
Ghost, what’s your name?

Why so surprised? I’m interested…
You’re just a soul that blends into the crowd,
I hear you so loud no one else hears a sound,
You reach out your hand no one else feels a thing,
And I’m just a stranger who could be a friend…

You could have been so great,
I won’t let you slip away,
Is there any hope for us left,
Even a Ghost needs a friend…
You could have been someone,
But you let them into your head,
I want you to know this instead,
That I see the light in your chest…


Ghost, Where you from?
I can take you away, so far away,
Ghost, I’ll make sure they all see,
The kind of man, that you can be…
Open your lungs & inhale my words,
I see in your eyes a reflection of hurt,
The book in your mind hasn’t come to an end,
There’s always a page, that hasn’t been read…


Your heart, it beats, forever, forever, we see,
I will believe, that there’s a Ghost in me…

Your lungs they breathe, forever, forever, we see,
I will believe…

Jacob Lee - Ghost

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A really fast Marco. I can´t draw the backside of people, even with reference :( But I have want to can do that! ~_~ Practice practice practice… AAAND practice :O~

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Originally posted by osyub

pairing: jung hoseok x reader
genre/warnings: smut, fluff, slight angst (this is low-key cute and sad at the same time, my heart)
words: 5,959
summary: you’ve been in a long-distance friendship with Hoseok for a couple of years, hiding feelings that you think he may also reciprocate. What happens when you finally cross paths with him again…
note. based on a request. Named after this song here. Also, periods of italics indicate the characters are speaking English!

a/n: by the way, who’s shocked I managed to write something under 6k…Has this ever happened before?! Also, this is really different for me because I don’t usually like writing so close to reality, but I loved the idea so much, I had to write it!

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hey so I feel like I need to make a post about this bc I’ve seen a lot of discourse on the matter, but please be mindful how you use the word q*eer. If you’ve reclaimed for yourself and identify that way, great! I’m happy for you. But please don’t criticize people who find the word uncomfortable. It is not a dead slur exclusively used 20-30 years ago and is still very much in use especially where I’m from in the Deep South, and just because someone hasn’t reclaimed it doesn’t make them any less deserving of your respect.

☆☾ Starset Sentence Starters ☽☆

                                                     First Light



  • Events we think to be inconsequential can affect the future unintentionally.
  • ❝ What if you had the power to affect monumental change?
  • Would you let fear consume or would you overcome?
  • We sent a message into the past; a warning!
  • We can change our fate.
  • We can change the future.
  • We can change the past.

                                        Down with the Fallen


  • I have seen an empire falling.
  • Hopeless, can you hear me calling?
  • Light the way and I’ll follow where you go
  • Can you tell me what is real? Cause I’ve lost my way again.
  • Can you tell me how to feel?
  • ‘Cause I don’t feel anything now that I’m down here again.
  • I’m down with the fallen again.

                                                          Halo


  • I can see you running every night from the same darkness–!
  • If you just say the word I’ll be there at your side. 
  • ❝ You make me superhuman. If you need me to, I’ll save you.
  • If it means the death of me, I won’t let go.
  • If I’m lost in the world’s shadows, I’ll use the light that comes to me from your halo.
  • When you’re backed against the wall I could be the one who’s always there to break your fall.
  • You’re not alone.❞
  • You’re the sun, you’re the day.

                                                    Carnivore


  • All my life they’ve let me know how far I could not go.
  • Inside the beast still grows, waiting, chewing through the ropes.
  • Who are you to change this world?
  • No one needs to hear your words.
  • Won’t you come digest me?
  • Take away everything I am–bring it to an END!
  • Could you come and change me?
  • Make me fall–make me BLEED!
  • Take away everything I am!
  • I will hide myself below–I’ll be what you wanted–!
  • Kept inside, I won’t let go–’til I burn beyond control!

                                                     Telescope


  • I hear you calling from behind the star fields.
  • I feel you radiating energy like eternal northern lights. 
  • I will travel the distance in your eyes.
  • I will find you..

                                                It Has Begun


  • Even a well-lit place can hide salvation. 
  • It’s a map to a one-man maze that never sees the sun.  
  • That’s where the lost are the heroes and the thieves are left to drown.
  • But everyone knows by now that fairy-tales are not found.
  • But nothing could ever stop us from stealing our place in the sun.
  • We will face the odds against us and run into the fear we run from.
  • It has begun.

                                                    My Demons


  • Mayday, Mayday, Our ship is slowly sinking.
  • They think I’m crazy, but they don’t know the feeling.
  • They’re all around me, circling like vultures.
  • They want to break me and wash away my colors.
  • Take me high–and I’ll sing–!
  • You make everything okay–!
  • We are one in the same–you take all my pain away!
  • ❝Save me if I become my demons.
  • I cannot stop this sickness from taking over–it takes control and drags me into nowhere.
  • ❝ I need your help, I can’t fight this forever.
  • I know you’re watching–I can feel you out there.
  • Take me over the walls below–fly forever.
  • Don’t let me go.
  • I need a savior to heal my pain.

                                             Point of No Return


  • There’s a memory of how we used to be–I can see it through the flames.
  • Forget the lies and pain–I can’t go back now.
  • The ashes call my name!
  • Pouring the fuel–fanning the flames–making the past an unreachable place–!
  • Break your habit and melt your chains!!!
  • Embrace the fear, chase the fight–the glow of this fire will light up the night.
  • The bridges are burning, the heat’s on my face–it makes my past an unreachable place!
  • I know this is the point of no return.
  • It’s uncomfortable, but such a beautiful desire.❞
  • There’s something sinister about the way it hurts when I watch it burn–but I can’t go back.
Be brave. Even if you’re not, pretend to be. No one can tell the difference. Don’t allow the phone to interrupt important moments. It’s there for your convenience, not the callers. Don’t be afraid to go out on a limb. That’s where the fruit is. Don’t burn bridges. You’ll be surprised how many times you have to cross the same river. Don’t forget, a person’s greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated. Don’t major in minor things. Don’t say you don’t have enough time. You have exactly the same number of hours per day that were given to Pasteur, Michaelangelo, Mother Teresa, Helen Keller, Leonardo Da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, and Albert Einstein. Don’t spread yourself too thin. Learn to say no politely and quickly. Don’t use time or words carelessly. Neither can be retrieved. Don’t waste time grieving over past mistakes Learn from them and move on. Every person needs to have their moment in the sun, when they raise their arms in victory, knowing that on this day, at his hour, they were at their very best. Get your priorities straight. No one ever said on his death bed, ‘Gee, if I’d only spent more time at the office’. Give people a second chance, but not a third. Judge your success by the degree that you’re enjoying peace, health and love. Learn to listen. Opportunity sometimes knocks very softly. Leave everything a little better than you found it. Live your life as an exclamation, not an explanation. Loosen up. Relax. Except for rare life and death matters, nothing is as important as it first seems. Never cut what can be untied. Never overestimate your power to change others. Never underestimate your power to change yourself. Remember that overnight success usually takes about fifteen years. Remember that winners do what losers don’t want to do. Seek opportunity, not security. A boat in harbor is safe, but in time its bottom will rot out. Spend less time worrying who’s right, more time deciding what’s right. Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life. Success is getting what you want. Happiness is liking what you get. The importance of winning is not what we get from it, but what we become because of it. When facing a difficult task, act as though it’s impossible to fail.
—  Jackson Brown Jr.

anonymous asked:

I find the word lesbian so uncomfortable and idk why? I just use gay which is absolutely fine but i think the only reason I feel the need to use the term gay is bc i feel like people will judge me less? I think that I think people will stereotype me more if I use lesbian instead of gay. I'm sorry this is ridiculous I'm just so weirdly uncomfortable with it -it feels like some sort of bad word. Idk where I'm going with this - do you have any thoughts? Thanks!

I feel like you should use whatever word is most comfortable for you. As long as that internalized negative bias against that word doesn’t carry over to other people (other women who identify as lesbians), then I don’t think it’s a huge deal.

I think it is something worth meditating on, bc I don’t think your feelings about that word come from a very healthy place– especially if your asking for advice about it.

I’m really not the authority on you or your emotions, so take what I say with a grain of salt (I don’t truly know why you feel what you feel), but I’d wager that your feelings about the word “lesbian” are in part, the unfortunate result of living in a society predominantly run by straight men.

- WHERE LOVE AND VIOLENCE ARE ONE IN THE SAME
1.) Although you blush in pink , your knuckles are flushed in the same color , raw. How could something so soft and slow take the same hue as the most cold and careless part of you?
2.) The ocean curls and tumbles, the same way your spine crumbles ,as you both are bent over aching for breath ,until the sun rests , and your tides recede and you finally breathe. How could the violent crashing of waves ,resemble you, doubled over with your hands covering your face?
3.) The force and motion one would use to leave lovers carvings ,on the sheet of skin that conceals where the heart is, is the same amount of force and motion that needs to be issued, to bite down your quivering lip when you realize your body has been misused. How could an act of love ,feel so innocent in your heart and skin a mile above , yet a mile beneath, seep so deep , below the skin , where you swore you wouldn’t let anyone in?
yoongi; i will still love you tomorrow

❝as long as you don’t give up on yoongi, he won’t give up on you.
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Yoongi finds himself waking up to the noises in bed than the ones outside of the apartment. The night hasn’t even had the chance to die out yet, still basking in the sky with darkness and it makes the moon glow twice as bright with the stars scattered like glitter for such a beautiful masterpiece but… Yoongi can’t appreciate that now.

He turns his head to his side, cheek pressed to the pillow as his eyes stare at the back of your head. His thoughts are formulating past the haze of coming to wake, blinking past sleepiness and pushing down his needs of catching up on rest to focus on how you refuse to look at him. Remaining unmoving and with staggered breathing, Yoongi uses his voice and calls out for you. It sounds weird, almost foreign because he would’ve never expected to speak at this hour but with the blaring numbers of 3:21 blinking by the side, it’s a reminder he’s awake and yes, his mouth works.

Your name is being dissolved into the air and rattling gently against your eardrums. From one call after another, growing louder in desperation and falling pin drop quiet in the next, it makes your body flinch when cold fingertips slide underneath your nightshirt and over your hipbones. 

“I know you’re awake,”

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Gunshot (a sneak peek)

So… This was written way back in January (yikes), when I first started to write the mafia au fic 8 Days a Week and only @kawaiilo-ren and a couple other people have seen it. You might think you’ve seen it before, because Kait is a babe and she’s been drawing the amazing comic of this scene (and murdering me along the way). 

My plan was to keep this private until it was time to publish it on Ao3 but life is short and I actually like this. People will probably forget by the time it’s published there anyway, oops. 

Under the cut because it’s long. 



Hospital hall is looking cold and bleak under the fluorescent lights, like it did many hours ago. Yuri doesn’t remember how long it’s been since he left the building but coming back feels like returning from war, maybe. He doesn’t know what war feels like. It must be exhausting, if it resembles this even slightly. 

Ignoring his shaking hands is easy, as is turning a blind eye to his pulsating head ache. His body is crashing after riding through the adrenaline waves and he would kill for a nap; but that would make the list of things worth killing for longer and he isn’t sure if he is ready to deal with the paperwork. He isn’t ready to deal with anything yet, he just wants to return the weapon to its true owner and fall into a lifelong slumber.

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how can I forget you?

how can I forget your words?

your spoken desire to feel my skin and my presence transformed into a rejection of my acknowledgment and I still need to know why.

because I still can’t forget the smiles.
I still can’t forget the laughs and the touches and the “I love you’s” between kisses and I’m stuck here drowning in the love I never got from you.

and I can’t forget what it was like to feel your skin and your lips and your arms and just you. where your beautiful and perfect words came from and, somehow, evaporated in the air between us after each time we stopped to catch our breath.

I’m drowning in the broken hope for what never came.

I’m drowning in the memory of your lips and the feeling of your body against mine, and your soul connected with mine.

and you wonder how I can’t forget.

—  6.5.17 , 12:53am

honestly, i’m getting so tired of the impatience in the bellarke fandom. you guys know that this ship is a slow burn and if you’re going to keep getting disappointed by the material that we get every week and filled the tag with endless pessimism, then maybe you shouldn’t be shipping it. 

i understand that it sucks to have expectations that aren’t met, but you need to realize that it has to happen at the right time, at a time where it doesn’t feel forced or unnatural.

bellamy and clarke have been on separate journeys for most of the season, which is necessary because they’ve both been through a lot and they need to heal properly before they can start a healthy relationship. furthermore, this season has shown ~ over and over again ~ how much bellamy and clarke love each other. 

  • the list scene literally showed how they won’t live without one another
  • “clarke, if i don’t see you again…”
  • “she’ll see how special you are,” - ‘special’ is a word that’s been used frequently in this show with romantic context.
  • roan using bellamy against clarke and her not being able to sacrifice his life to save her people 
  • bellamy freaking out when he couldn’t connect get in contact with clarke on the radio and him being so relieved to find out that she wasn’t dead 
  • clarke choosing bellamy’s life over the entire human race 

let that sink in, people. bellamy and clarke don’t want to live without one another, they simply can’t. and if that isn’t something that screams romantic development, i don’t know what does. 

BPD Awareness Month

After a month of ramen noodle memes, it’s finally May…which is also BPD awareness month! And I’m here as your local diagnosed Borderline to break some of the stigma associated with this personality disorder, offering up 15 fun facts, stigma myths, and helping you better understand any Borderlines in your life ☺

1. BPD most commonly develops from severe trauma and is often a product of other diagnoses such as depression, anxiety, PTSD, eating disorders, and bipolar disorder. So there is a lot of stuff going on in our heads, all of the time.

2. BPD and Bipolar disorder are NOT the same thing. Bipolar is characterized by extreme highs and lows that last for a few days or more, sometimes without a discernable trigger. BPD mood swings occur much more rapidly, are more noticeably triggered, and typically only last between a few minutes and a few hours.

3. Borderlines all experience their symptoms in different ways, and not all Borderlines experience the same symptoms. A common misconception is that all Borderlines are manipulative- this is false. Manipulation is a symptom of BPD, but not of all Borderlines.

4. Borderlines experience emotions at TEN TIMES the intensity that normal people do. So if it seems like we’re overreacting or are falling too fast…believe me, we know, but we can’t help it. Please be patient with us and communicate in a straight forward manner. We wish we knew how to turn it off, because it actually becomes physically painful.

5. Because we experience emotions at such a high intensity, Borderlines are some of the most caring, loyal, and generous friends/partners. You will never feel unloved if you are close to a Borderline.

6. Also, we cry a lot. Like…a LOT. We cry over everything whether we’re happy or sad or scared or excited. We cry a lot. There’s nothing you can do. Just let it happen.

7. Borderlines often close themselves off about things that are bothering them, and don’t ask for the things they need because they don’t want to be a burden. If you notice a Borderline bottling up, it’s important to assure them that you are there, without pushing them. Extra affection never hurts either (we love affection).

8. If a Borderline Splits*** on you, it is important to express how their words and actions made you feel, but also important to word it in a constructive way rather than aggressive (see: item #6). Most Borderlines are extremely self-aware and will get over whatever made them Split quickly and realize what they’ve done and apologize. In most cases, this isn’t an act of manipulation, but a frantic effort to make up for an episode they couldn’t control. Again, we require a lot of patience. Know that we are trying.

9. Borderlines dissociate frequently. In most cases we appreciate a lot of attention and affection when that happens to bring us back down to earth.

11. Borderlines love attention in general but are too anxious to ask for it. Attention is to Borderlines as the sun is to sunflowers. We perk right up and turn into happy beans. WE WANT IT ALL.

12. If a Borderline asks for space, give us space. But be reassuring that you’re not going to leave.

13. Borderlines are terrified of abandonment, and will often leave before they can get left. If they use the phrase “it’s not you, it’s me.” I promise you, it is not you. It is them. We’re waiting to find the right person who doesn’t let us self-sabotage everything. But we also hate feeling trapped so honestly idfk, good luck trying to figure out where your Borderline is at.

14. PATIENCE. PATIENCE IS KEY. But also, you can’t be nice all the time. Borderlines like to pick fights, and sometimes we need you to fight us over stupid little stuff. I guarantee you we’ll get over it within 10 minutes, but sometimes you just have to let us get the fighting mood out of our system since we’re actually wimpy crybabies who couldn’t hurt a fly.

15. If we’re talking about things that are going on in our head, we don’t always need a response or want words of encouragement or need you to try to fix everything. Chances are we are already working it out in our heads, and we just need you to listen so it’s not just rumbling around up there. Validation is appreciated. However, just saying “your feelings are valid” can be taken more as insensitive than reassuring if not followed up with an interpretation of your understanding.

I hope these were informative and/or helpful to those who took the time to read through entirely; just by reading you’re helping to #endthestigma

***Splitting: a term in the BPD community to reference the black-and-white thinking used as a defense mechanism with Borderlines. Usually referencing the flip from the idealization of an FP** to devaluation.

**FP: “Favorite Person”, term used to reference the person a Borderline seeks the most attention and validation from.

Ushijima Wakatoshi may be an antagonist, but he is not a malicious person

@shiratorizawa-headcanons’ recent post reignited the fervour and indignation I feel about popular fanon mischaracterisations of Ushijima, so here we go.

First thing’s first. Ushijima is an antagonist. That much is clear. He is clearly intended to provide opposition to the main characters of the series, pushing them to grow. Their goal has to be accomplished through defeating him.

However, antagonist is not synonymous with evil, or “bad person”. L from Death Note is the antagonist to Light Yagami, but I’m sure everyone knows who poses more of a danger to society between the pair of them.

More importantly, I feel the need to clarify and debunk popular fanon interpretations of Ushijima.

“You should have gone to Shiratorizawa” is a joke that probably everyone who watches Haikyuu!! knows. It’s gone from a slightly funny meme to a stale, overused, tasteless joke. While I do not condemn the use of it as a joke, it has affected the way people view Ushijima’s character.

And is it really accurate or relevant? Name one instance where Ushijima has actually physically said the words “You should have gone to Shiratorizawa.” to Oikawa. When? Yes, he has said that “He should have gone to Shiratorizawa”. To Hinata and Kageyama. And his reason? A powerhouse team like Shiratorizawa that actually makes it to nationals and has a chance of winning would be more beneficial to a setter of Oikawa’s calibre. There is nowhere in canon where he has stalked, harassed and haggled Oikawa, begging or forcing him to go to Shiratorizawa. All that is baseless fanon bullshit. There’s literally no canon evidence suggesting that Ushijima even thinks about Oikawa outside of volleyball competitions.

I’ll admit that Ushijima did tell Oikawa, “You chose the wrong path.” and that did cross the line. That does not, however, automatically make him a creepy, overbearing, obsessive stalker. People are allowed to interpret fiction differently (as a literature student I’m more than aware of that). But Ushijima’s words were an act of concern, rather than coercion or violence.

What people need to understand is that Ushijima, while a talented player, is terrible at predicting and understanding the effects his words and actions might have on people. He is a blunt, straightforward and honest person who says what is on his mind. The reason he feels that Oikawa should have gone to Shiratorizawa is because he respects Oikawa’s abilities as a player and sees Oikawa’s potential. His way of showing it might be odd, but it is precisely because he respects Oikawa as an opponent that he questions Oikawa’s choice. To Ushijima, being at Shiratorizawa would allow for Oikawa to fulfil more of his potential (of course, the validity of that belief is questionable considering the treatment of Semi Eita, but that is another argument to consider) He honestly just wanted to warn Oikawa not to “make the same mistake” again without realising that he was basically rubbing salt on Oikawa’s wound + being offensive by telling Oikawa that the decision he’s based the past three years of his life around is wrong, because he genuinely wants to see Oikawa fulfil his potential as a player.

Ushijima’s intentions are not malicious. He respects his opponents despite his thoughts on their abilities (or lack thereof), and when he realises that he’s offended someone he’s quick to apologise (i.e. when Hinata questioned Ushijima calling Seijoh “infertile soil”. Ushijima sweated nervously and apologised for causing offence.) Even Oikawa and Iwaizumi, the two characters who dislike Ushijima the most, acknowledge that “he’s genuinely being sincere” when Ushijima wishes them good luck in their final high school tournament.

Ushijima isn’t the type to deliberately rile up his opponents. He doesn’t look down on them either. Up until Hinata’s appearance in his life, he’s competed against no one but himself mentally. And when Ushijima questions Hinata on being an unskilled and short player? He’s not insulting Hinata for that either! His first impression of Hinata gave him high expectations - a challenge he looked forward to facing, and when he realised Hinata’s abilities were much lower than what he expected, he was genuinely curious, because Hinata had spoken so boldly (about beating HIM, a top 3 ace, and going to nationals) before!

Ushijima states that “baseless self-confidence is something I dislike”, so he certainly does not exhibit that himself. He obviously doesn’t expect someone he acknowledges (Hinata, in case I’m not being clear here) to be arrogant, because in his eyes, an opponent he acknowledges and respects should have a “good” attitude just like his. He does not dislike Hinata himself, but is nonetheless infuriated by Hinata’s “arrogance”, because Ushijima works hard. Yes. Here’s the thing. Contrary to popular belief, Ushijima did not get his accomplishments handed to him on a silver platter. He works hard to become a strong volleyball player. Shiratorizawa’s image of him is “The Super Volleyball Maniac”. He wasn’t just naturally good at it. He spent time and effort practising and improving his skills, just like all the other hardworking characters (Oikawa Tooru) you worship.

Remember that Ushijima does not have the luxury of viewing the events of the manga (or anime) from an outsider’s perspective. He does not know of Hinata Shouyou and his struggles. All Ushijima knows about Hinata is that 1) The boy showed him up at Shiratorizawa and proclaimed that Karasuno would defeat Shiratorizawa and go to nationals and 2) Hinata Shouyou does not exhibit the skills necessarily to back up that statement. Ushijima literally has no idea that Hinata had no proper volleyball team or training up until last year, so it’s entirely within his rights to be annoyed that someone with such crappy skills (which Ushijima would attribute to slacking off/not working hard enough) would claim that winning against Shiratorizawa was so easy. He could’ve been nicer about it, but hey, he wasn’t that hostile to Hinata off the court, as you can see with the training camp arc. At the end of the match he acknowledged Hinata’s abilities as a player. Then in the manga, he (and Tendou) was shocked that his coach did not see Hinata as a worthy player to invite to the Miyagi First Year Training Camp, and he encouraged Hinata to keep working hard, “What are you doing standing there?”

Obviously, people are allowed to dislike characters, and Ushijima has done/said things to grate on people’s nerves (as a Seijoh stan and Iwaizumi lover, his “infertile soil” comments do irk me at times). Nonetheless, your personal feelings towards him do not indicate that he is as bad person (especially not a stalker or a rapist, gosh) canonically.

Bonjour! We all know language learning is fun, but it’s still studying, and sometimes you just get really tired of studying. And if you’re like me and you’re intermediate in a language, it gets to the point where you want to start using the language instead of just endlessly reading textbooks and doing the same practice questions over and over. So I’ve compiled a list of things you could do where you’re learning a language without it feeling like you’re studying!

- ̗̀ Reading ̖́- 

  • Books. Pick up a book in your target language and just read it, with no need to analyze it or answer end-of-chapter questions. Don’t worry about every single foreign word you come across, try to get the general idea of it from the context. But if a word shows up a lot and you still don’t get it, you can look it up! Children’s books are great, too.
  • Comics. Basically just dialogue with pictures to help you understand what the characters are talking about. Need I say more.
  • Blogs. Follow a blog in your target language which posts about something you’re interested in. Blogs usually have less formal language than novels, are of course a lot shorter, and have lots of pictures.
  • Wikipedia. Whenever you’re curious about something and want to casually look it up, switch to the page in your target language. If you want to, you can always read the article in your native language first to understand the topic.

- ̗̀ Listening ̖́-

  • Films and tv. Some have more complex dialogue than others, some have simpler, so there are films and tv shows for almost every level of language learning. If you can’t find a movie originally in your target language, find a dubbed version, it’s better than nothing!
  • Cartoons. Or live-action movies/shows aimed at children. These usually have dialogue that’s easier to understand than those aimed at older viewers. Also they’re fun!
  • Youtube. If you can find vloggers who upload videos in your target language, then go ahead and watch them. Kind of the same thing as with blogs, where the language is more “everyday”!
  • Music. Listen to songs in your target language. It’s okay if you don’t understand everything or even anything, the most important thing is to get used to how the language sounds!

- ̗̀ Writing ̖́-

  • Keeping a diary. This is by far my favourite thing to do when it comes to language learning. The point of this isn’t to write a flawless essay with no mistakes, no one has to read your private diary anyway. The point is to get used to producing a text and expressing yourself in your target language. Start with writing about your day in the present tense. Go on to write about something that happened yesterday. Write about your feelings and what you think will happen in the future. If you want to express something but don’t know the word, look it up. Woo, new vocab word! 
  • Short stories. Similar as above, but experiment with verb tenses and sentence structure. Use the fanciest words you know to make that description extra descriptive. Learn to use idioms and similes and metaphors. Your story can be as complex or as simple as you want it to be. And this time, get someone to correct it!
  • Letters and texts. Get a pen pal who speaks your target language, if you can! Or even just an internet friend you can text with. You can even practice speaking with them via Skype or maybe even in person if that’s possible. What better thing to do with a language than do what it’s meant for: communication!
  • Anything else. When writing down your daily to-dos in your planner, write them in your target language. Jot down that reminder on a post-it note but do it in your target language. Anything.

That’s all I have for now, I hope this was helpful and that it has given you some extra motivation to learn that language. Good luck! 

Writing Sexual Content

Anonymous asked: What are some ways to write sexual content?

Good question. I wouldn’t say there’s a simple answer either, because much of what will be expected will depend on your genre. There is a big difference in expectations for literature, YA, romance, erotica, and so on. The important thing is to consider these expectations along with the relationship between the characters involved and style or tone you intend to convey.

First, what genre are your writing in? 

This sounds like a simple question, but I get that for a lot of writer’s it’s not. If you do not know your genre, pick the one (or two) you think it is closest to.  Now, my go-to answer to almost everything writing-related is to read and here is no different. Try to think of books in your genre that include scenes like the one you’re working on. Never jump to the conclusion that here are no books that can help because especially when writing sexual content, that’s definitely going to be something. 

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anonymous asked:

Pls do an sequel to the omo head cannon please like where they go home and dan wets himself and then maybe they go in the shower and have sex. Thx ur hc are so amazing btw

warning; gross. i am disgusted with myself. but enjoy. (ps. pls don’t give me hate for this, don’t read it if you don’t like this stuff it’s real kinky) 

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The taxi drive home was awful, horrible torture for Dan. He couldn’t even speak, all he could do was focus on squeezing his thighs together and biting his lip until he was sure it was bleeding. Phil was no help, he kept massaging Dan’s thigh and whenever the driver spoke to him he somehow managed to steer the conversation to Dan. 

Dan would answer, just to spare himself the awkwardness, but it would come out sounding strained and whenever he tried to speak Phil would press down on his abdomen, making Dan cut off or quietly gasp and once, moan. Dan would glare at him, but he’d only smirk evilly, and shrug. 

When the car finally stopped Phil helped Dan out, holding onto his arm tightly and muttering sweet nothings in his ear. “It’s okay, baby, you’re doing such a good job. We’re almost there.” And then- “God, I’m gonna fucking ruin you as soon as we get inside.” Which makes Dan whimper, and almost crumble, but Phil holds him up.

Dan got all the way to the door before he collapsed, falling to his knees with a whimper. 

“Phil…” He choked out, grabbing his shirt. “Fuck, oh god.” 

Phil couldn’t help but smile sadistically; he hadn’t known he would enjoy this so much but he was. He loved seeing Dan like this, weak, helpless and begging like he almost never was. It gave Phil a feeling of power over him, and turned him on beyond belief. 

“Hm? What’s that baby?” Phil kneeled down next to him, rubbing his back slowly. “Did you need something?” His voice was silky and deceivingly loving, but it sent shivers up Dan’s spine. 

“Phil,” Dan gasped, reaching out to grasp at his shirt, squeezing his eyes shut. “Please, Phil, I can’t I can’t, fuck.” 

“You can’t hold it any longer?” Phil asked, finishing his sentence for him, leaning forward and whispering so the words tickled Dan’s neck. 

Dan shook his head. 

“Well, angel, you can either wait to get to the bathroom, or you can go right here.” Phil drew his finger under Dan’s chin, bringing his face up. “What will it be? I can imagine it would be pretty embarrassing for you to piss yourself, right here, in front of me, and the neighbors could come out of that door any second, but if you really can’t hold it…” 

Dan whined, biting his lip and clutching Phil’s shirt in his hand tightly. 

“Phil…” Dan let out, the word sounding like a mix of a moan and a whimper, and it made Phil’s cock twitch in his pants. 

Phil couldn’t take it anymore, he slowly but firmly pushed Dan back so that he was lying on the carpet, and pressed down on his lower stomach. 

Dan let out a desperate noise, trying to pry Phil’s wrist away, but Phil was too strong and Dan too weak. He arched his back, trying desperately not to let go although that was the only thing he wanted right then. But then Phil leaned over him, biting gently on his ear lobe, pressing soft kisses down his neck. 

“It’s alright, baby,” he whispered, and now his voice didn’t seem to sadistically evil, if only for a moment. “It’s okay angel. Let go. I’m right here, it’s fine. Just let go, you don’t have to fight it. I love you so, so much, you’re doing so good.” Phil slowly rubbed circles on his stomach, not even pressing down anymore, and Dan gave up. 

“Ah-” he gasped, his eyes shut tightly, grabbing Phil’s wrist and squeezing tightly as piss soaked through his jeans and ran down his leg. 

Phil watched his face in awe, the pure pleasure of release on his features and the noises escaping him enough to make Phil’s jeans feel even more uncomfortable. 

“Fuck,” he breathed as Dan went completely limp, letting go of his wrist, his stomach no longer tensed. “I love you, god, I love you.” Dan moaned. 

“Oh Jesus, that was…” Dan trailed off when he could speak, laughing softly. “You kinky motherfucker.”

Phil laughed too. “Oh, you think I’m done with you?” 

Dan frowned just slightly, clearly exhausted, and Phil laughed again. He took Dan’s hand, placing it right over his obvious bulge and holding in a moan. “Yeah, I’m not done with you until you fix that.” 

Dan’s eyes widened, and he nodded. “Yes s-sir.” 

Phil carefully helped him up, leading him inside and to the bathroom as quick as possible. He pushed Dan inside, kissing him deeply before he did so. 

“I’ll be right back,” he muttered, “get in the shower, I’ll join you in a second.”

Dan smiled, somewhat sleepily, and nodded. “Yes sir. Thank you.” 

Dan stripped himself quickly, setting the piss stained clothes in a pile in the corner of the room. Dan turned on the warm water, stepping in and letting it sooth him and clean him off. His eyelids drifted shut a few times, but he tried to keep them open. 

The thought of what Phil would do to him once he got there kept floating into Dan’s mind, keeping him awake; plus the thoughts of what he had already done. God, his voice had been… 

Dan shivered, sliding his hand down his stomach and wrapping it around his cock, jerking gently and trying to keep back a moan. 

“What are you doing?” Phil asked from right next to him, and Dan jumped, his eyes shooting open. 

“N-Nothing, sorry,” he stuttered, letting Phil back him into the wall.

“Mhm,” Phil muttered, clearly not believing him. 

He attached his mouth to Dan’s neck, sucking hard and running his fingertips down Dan’s sides. Dan shivered. 

“I said I was going to ruin you, and I meant it,” Phil whispered, bringing Dan’s face up with two fingers under his chin and kissing him softly. 

“You kind of already did,” Dan breathed, pulling him closer instinctively by the waist, loving the feeling of their bodies pressed together. Phil chuckled.

“No, not the way I was thinking. I was thinking ruin ruin, the kind where you can’t stand properly for a week.” To emphasize his words he lifted Dan up, pressing him against the wall and kissing him messily. 

Dan moaned against his mouth, his eyes rolling back in his head as Phil grinded on him, the word ‘please’ slipping from his lips. 

“Please what, baby, use your words,” Phil muttered, biting down on Dan’s collarbone and kneading his ass in his hands. 

“Please, ruin me.” 

That was all Phil needed to have Dan flipped over, his hands on the wall and Phil’s fingers pushing inside of him, trailing kisses down the nape of his neck as he pumped in and out. 

“I’m not going to stretch you much, okay?” He asked softly, smoothing his hand over Dan’s bum. “I want it to burn a bit, but tell me to stop if you need me to.”

Dan nodded frantically, pushing back on him, and Phil laughed. 

“Be patient, angel.”

Phil had obviously known this was going to happen so he had brought lube into the bathroom; and it only took him a moment to slather his hand in it and slowly rub himself, moaning from the friction. 

“Okay baby,” he breathed, leaning over Dan’s body to kiss the side of his neck. “Ready?”

“Yes,” Dan choked out, letting his chin fall to his chest. “Fuck, just hurry up.”

Phil pushed in slowly, moaning and throwing his head back, gripping Dan’s hips tightly and thrusting. Dan let out a whine, pushing back on him, desperate for more, god, he just wanted to be fucked up. 

“Desperate whore,” Phil breathed, smacking Dan’s ass and making Dan jump, moaning as Phil snapped his hips, hitting Dan at just the right angle. 

 Phil kneaded Dan’s ass with his hand as he fucked into him, and he wished he had a camera before remembering that they were in the shower. He dug his nails in, suddenly thrusting hard, drawing a loud whine out of Dan. 

He kept trying to focus on going slowly and then suddenly hard, to tease Dan as much as possible, but his mind kept wandering to how Dan’s face had looked when he had finally let go, his little whimpers when Phil pressed down on his stomach… Phil moaned, cursing under his breath and speeding up his thrusts.

Dan was doing the same, no matter how much he tried not to. He had felt Phil’s authority and and control just oozing from his voice, and just the fact that Phil had made him piss himself in their hallway was enough to get Dan practically screaming and pushing back on Phil’s cock. 

Dan came with a loud string of moans and curses, the wall and his stomach both streaked with white. Phil groaned at his noises, tangling his fingers in Dan’s hair and tugging roughly, pounding into him hard. Dan whimpered, squirming away, but Phil pulled him back by the hair and his hip, digging his nails in until Dan held still. 

“Fuck,” Phil breathed as he let go inside of his boyfriend, his hips twitching instinctively. 

He let go of Dan who instantly fell to his knees, his legs weak and his head fuzzy. 

Phil sat down next to him, wordlessly beginning to wash him off with the water from the shower head, holding him gently while he cleaned him. 

“Beautiful,” he muttered, cupping Dan’s cheek and kissing him gently. “You’re so fucking beautiful, did such a good job. Such a good boy for me.” 

Dan smiled sleepily, letting his head fall on to Dan’s shoulder. “I love you.”

“I love you too, angel.” 

There was a pause where all they could hear was the water hitting the wall, and Dan’s ragged breathing. And then-

“Fuck, I think I have a pissing kink.” 


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Phil avoided the neighbors eyes as he silently scrubbed at the carpet outside his door. He had agreed wholeheartedly to clean it; Dan was exhausted and like Phil had promised, could hardly stand on his own. It had been worth it, anyways. But the lady who lived next door was just standing there, watching him with a frown on her face. Phil found it a bit creepy, but didn’t say anything. 

Finally he finished, standing up and brushing himself off, picking up his bucket and rag and carpet cleaner. 

“We just got a dog,” he muttered to the lady, and blush tinting his face, before he rushed back inside; still avoiding her gaze. 

“Uh, Dan?” he called, dropping the supplies and rushing to his room. Dan looked up from his laptop.

“Yeah?”

“We might have to get a dog.”