when your musical past comes back to haunt you

Why We Broke Up (angst, fluff)

Anonymous: hello! can i request for a jaebum scenario where his ex (Y/N) and him met again after few months disappearing and their feeling started growing again. sorry for bad english!

Title: Why We Broke Up (Jaebum)
Genre: Angst, Fluff
A/N: Asfghj! Jaebum is just so hot and cute and beautiful! He bias wrecks my list on a daily basis! Enjoy!

p.s. I’m using photos instead of gifs for now because I’m away from home and the internet here isn’t all too well. 

i said i’d be using photos but look at this! credits to the owner, please message me so that i can put your username.

Backspace. You click it again. Type something up then repeatedly press it. Backspace. You do this for a good thirty minutes, staring at the big white screen then at the empty mug beside it.

You remember the past months where your fingers used to rapidly type on the keyboard, words and stories would flow out of it and your friends and teachers would nod in awe and appreciation. You remembered when he used to fill the empty mug beside your laptop. When he used to massage your back. When he used to cover your face with tiny kisses, whining for you to go to sleep.

Tears escape your eyes, slowly trickling down from your cheek to your shirt. You don’t bother to wipe it. You’re alone anyway. You remember that night. Jaebum had come home late and he had also forgotten the date he had promised you. The date that had you ordering water over and over again, annoying the staff. The date that had given you time to reflect on things. And when Jaebum came home, you exploded. You couldn’t help it. He couldn’t either.

You called him irresponsible. He called you a nagging clingy girl. You called him shit. He called you bitch. It was a tennis match of insults and anger. Both of you knew the words spewing from your lips were words to regret. Both of you knew but none of you stopped until he said, “Why did I even have to date you in the first place?”

It sent a metallic taste in your mouth as anger, hurt and sadness boiled inside you. You threw the nearest thing–a picture frame–beside you, “Get out, Im Jaebum! Get out!”

He huffed at you, holding back the tears and pleas, and slammed the door shut.

Your sobs have increased, drawing in sharp breaths from you as you failed to compose yourself. Your fist wipes your tears as you mutter stupid over and over again. It’s been months but you haven’t really gotten over him. Backspace. Backspace.

Jaebum hums as he looks down at the list of groceries he had to buy for the dorm. He contemplates whether avoiding meat for a week would do good for them or not. Without looking he reaches for the nearby carton of milk when he feels fingers graze his. Jaebum turns to look up and sees you. Suddenly, all of his worries had disappeared, replaced with the pacing of his heart. Even after five months, you still made his heart go jumbled along with his thoughts.

“Sorry,” Jaebum speaks up first, giving the word a double meaning. You only shake your head and give a small smile, “It’s okay.”

I want you back. I miss you, you wanted to say.

Both of you just stop and stare at each other, the past replaying in each other’s eyes. The two years filled with good and bad memories. The relationship both of you missed so much.

“I, uh, have to go,” you nervously bite your lip as you slowly steered your cart away, hoping that he would do something to make you stop.

“Y/N,” Jaebum speaks out and you try to make it less obvious that you were more than happy to turn back to him.


“Can we…can we be friends?” Jaebum spits out and your heart doesn’t know whether to crash or to leap with joy.

You sceptically looked at him. You missed him. You missed the sound of his laughter. You missed the forehead kisses he gives you. You missed every inch of him. Still, can you and him be friends?

You shrug, trying to look casual when you’re actually excited and all, “I guess so.”

“Cool.” Jaebum hides his excitement too, biting his cheeks to manage his face muscles that were threatening to stretch his lips into a grin.


“Well, uh, see you around, friend…buddy!” Jaebum awkwardly says and raises his fist, passer-bys looking strangely at him. You laugh at Jaebum’s loss of composure and his heart flutters just by seeing you smile and hearing your laugh.

“See you, sometime,” you smile, leaving with your cart, forgetting the carton of milk. It didn’t matter anyway, you could buy someday and maybe bump into him again.

Jaebum waits until you’re clearly out of sight before jumping and raising his fist, “Yes!” He couldn’t help but think it was two years ago again.

It’s been a month since both of you started becoming friends, surprising a number of friends. Your writer’s block has melted already sending your fingers flying across the keyboard again. Jaebum and you would spend a lot of walks outside and movie nights on Fridays. Life felt much easier with him around. Both of you were learning ever part of each other like they’ve never heard of it. Each information was sacred. Your favourite colour, his favourite book, favourite music…It was like two years ago when both of you barely knew each other, awkward spaces filling in the gaps.

Still, even with all the positive outcomes with your friendship, one couldn’t help but accidentally recall the past. One of you might actually blurt out that time when they were on a date at the amusement park or when you the place where you both had your first kiss…first ‘I Love You’s. It was inevitable and left you to the uncertainty of being together again. The fear of why you both broke up, coming back to haunt the two of you.

“Where are you going?” Jaebum says as he lies down your bed while you stare at your figure on the mirror. You were wearing a light blue dress and smelled like lavenders when Jaebum arrived. He quizzically looked at you and arched an eyebrow.

You sigh as you reapplied and erased a lipstick, “My friend set me up for a blind date, Jaebum. Try new things and see other people, she said. And…well, he sounded, um, ideal.”

Jaebum fell silent. Was he too late? Have you actually moved on? His heart clenched at the thought of you in another man’s arms. Your smile dedicated to someone who’s not him. Another guy doing the things he used to.

Jaebum couldn’t let you go, he was too selfish to do so.

Don’t go,” Jaebum sat up and stared at your reflection, your lipstick goes up, marring your cheek.

“What?” you wipe the lipstick with the back of your hand.

“I said don’t go, Y/N.” Jaebum stands up and you feel your heart go wild at the serious Jaebum.


“I like you too much, Y/N. I love you and I miss you and now you’re going to leave me,” he says. “And life’s so difficult without you, you know. No more laughter, no more smiles, no more sounds of the keyboard. No more you. And all I want to do is just hold you and just kiss you. I don’t want you to disappear. I didn’t…didn’t mean what I said a while back.”

You felt like that too. Empty without Jaebum. He seemed to bring colours into your life. And you missed him so so much. You still loved him, your heart aching at the thought of him. You drew in a sharp breath, “I know.”

“Y/N, don’t go.” Jaebum holds your wrist and you sink into his touch.

You closed your eyes and sighed, kicking off your heels to the side, surprising Jaebum, “Fine. What do I tell him? That I’m sick?”

“Yeah…” Jaebum grins at you. “…with chicken pox?”

“Perfect.” you smile and Jaebum immediately envelopes you into a hug, burying his head into your hair, inhaling the lavenders.

His forehead meets yours, both of your breathing intensifying, “I’m so sorry, Y/N. I mean it. It’s shitty without you. I don’t want to ever let you go again.”

“Me either.“

RFA guys react to MC playing Mimi Marquez in Rent the musical

I really love Rent the musical and wondered how the RFA guys would react if they saw MC playing Mimi :)) If you’re not familiar with the musical or the character, see below:

Originally posted by justintaylor

Light My Candle ^

Originally posted by justintaylor

Mimi performing Out Tonight in the movie adaptation of Rent ^

Enjoy! :))


  • Not into theater performances so he asks Zen to watch with him in case he doesn’t understand something
  • Immediately regrets this when you come up on stage in that mini skirt and knee-high boots
  • Is red as a tomato in his seat when he sees you performing Out Tonight
  • “Zen close your eyes!”
  • “Wtf Yoosung get your hands outta my face!”
  • Gets angry when the guy playing Roger pushes you away like why is he pushing away this beautiful woman wtf is wrong with him??
  • Makes a note to google everything in La Vie Boheme, he’s so lost
  • Passionate kissing scene between you and Roger — he totally didn’t know there were kissing scenes in musicals!!!
  • Congrats MC you have unlocked yandare Yoosung
  • Totally cries when you sing Without You
  • Cries harder in I’ll Cover You Reprise 
  • He gasps loudly when your character dies, nearly getting up from his seat because he’s so into it
  • Is relieved when you come back to life and wipes his tears during the closing number
  • Later, he and Zen go backstage to congratulate you with a bouquet of roses but you’re still in your costume and he practically shoves Zen out of the dressing room, not wanting the handsome actor in the same room as his gorgeous girlfriend
  • Kisses you and hands you the flowers and you blush, asking him if he liked it
  • “I loved it! You’re amazing, MC! But I’m kind of relieved that it’s over”
  • You tell him the show’s supposed to run for a month


  • He heard you singing a few lines in the shower but you wouldn’t practice with him, saying you wanted to surprise him
  • Super excited to see you up on stage but also curious because his shy and sweet princess was going to play the part of a prostitute?
  • Invites Jaehee to watch with him, since he knows she’s a big fan of musicals too
  • Light My Candle — oh my God his eyes are glued to you
  • Out Tonight“Is she trying to provoke the beast?” and then “Holy shit there are a lot of men watching”
  • The souvenir program falls to his lap ;)
  • “MC is quite good” Jaehee says; even she’s surprised to see you playing Mimi
  • Too good” Zen mumbles, uncomfortable that all these people are watching you roll your hips with those skimpy clothes
  • Thinks Christmas Bells is so cool; so many voices and all of you are singing different things; will totally want to sing duets with you
  • And then you’re kissing Roger and he realizes how you must feel when you watch him kissing his co-stars on set
  • Shit is this how she feels when she watches my plays?
  • Contact — he’s having a hard time breathing and there goes the souvenir program on his lap again
  • Without You — super impressed with your delivery and are those real tears?
  • Is in awe for the rest of the show; he never knew you were this good and he feels a sense of pride that the woman performing up on that stage is his girlfriend
  • At the end of the show, whistles and claps loudly, he’s super proud of you
  • Goes backstage and gives you a huge hug and a long kiss before handing you the bouquet of roses he bought
  • “What did you think?” you ask him nervously, because he’s a veteran and you really want him to like it
  • “Babe, I have no words to describe how great and wonderful you were up there. You shone. I fell in-love with you all over again.”
  • You’re super happy but then he steps closer to you and says in a low voice, “But is it too late now to ask for a costume change?”
  • You laugh because yeah, it’s too late to change your costumes
  • Zen groans and reminds you that “All men are wolves”
  • “Including yourself?”
  • He leans closer to you, a dark look in his eyes, “Babe, haven’t I told you? Don’t provoke the beast.”
  • And after a ~ehem~ make-out sesh in your dressing room, he asks if you’re allowed to bring your costume home


  • He’s more accustomed to watching orchestra concerts and ballet performances than rock musicals but he wouldn’t miss seeing your performance for anything
  • Buys the front row seats for the RFA members
  • When he sees you come up on stage he inhales sharply and his heart stops
  • Jumin does not approve.
  • Considers going up on stage and taking you home immediately but everybody stops him
  • Out Tonight — dying inside but keeps a calm facade outside; isn’t moving though and Seven swears he saw smoke coming out of Jumin’s ears (“The robot has short-circuited!”)
  • But when your eyes meet his during your dance and you give him a mischievous smile, his heart immediately starts beating furiously and and you see the look in his eyes; you know you’re in trouble when you get home
  • Gets scandalized by the whole musical when the cast sings La Vie Boheme
  • Everybody turns to him when you start kissing Roger but Jumin is like a statue; doesn’t even bat an eye
  • Seven pokes his cheek and a chill passes through his body when Jumin gives him the scariest glare ever looks at him
  • It’s better in the second half and he has to admit, he’s enjoying your performance very much and thank God you have more clothes now than in the first act
  • Except when Roger has his hands around you
  • He can see how passionate you are with acting and really wants to see you perform more
  • His heart melts when you cry in Without You and he just wants to protect you from everything
  • Contact — are you seriously trying to give him a heart attack MC NO stop dancing and push that guy away from you and WTF are those noises you are making NO
  • But in the last scene, he sees himself holding you in his arms as you’re dying and this breaks his heart
  • He can’t imagine life without you and after your very convincing death scene, he realizes that for the first time, he’s terrified of losing someone
  • Yoosung would later swear he saw a tear in the corner of Jumin’s eye, which Jumin would deny
  • When you return backstage, your dressing room is full of flowers; your co-stars would tease you endlessly and some even get jealous
  • When the rest of the RFA appear backstage, they all congratulate you but Jumin is very quiet and you’re worried that he hated it or he got bored
  • When you’re alone, you ask him what he thinks and he looks at you
  • “MC…you were beautiful. You took my breath away.” He takes your hands in his and kisses them. “That last scene…You were very convincing.”
  • “And it made me realize that I don’t ever want to live in a world without you by my side.”
  • He hugs you tight and you’re happy because he actually loved your performance but then—
  • “I’m afraid I can’t let anybody else see you dancing that way though.”
  • You knew this was coming but too late, the show’s fully booked until the end of the month
  • He’s not happy about the thought of other men watching you perform, but puts up with it because you love it so much and he loves seeing you happy
  • You also experience his inner Christian Grey once you get home
  • Makes Jaehee submit reports to him about your next roles and makes sure he goes to your rehearsals and to his relief, you don’t take similar roles anymore
  • For now ;)


  • You forbid him to research on the musical, saying you want to surprise him
  • Gets balcony seats because he can’t risk being seen much and asks one of the ushers if he was allowed to eat Honey Buddha Chips during the show, to which the answer is no
  • The rest of the RFA are there too, since he’s excited to show off his girlfriend and he wants you to see how much they support you
  • When you finally step out onto the stage and start singing, he’s hooked.
  • Cannot stop looking at you
  • Totally agrees that you have the best ass below 14th street
  • Kind of wishes he could hack into people’s brains so he could wipe their memory of you dancing and singing Out Tonight
  • La Vie Boheme is his new anthem
  • Suddenly Roger is kissing you and touching you everywhere and omg he thought you two weren’t going to end up together why is this guy kissing you
  • Stop kissing my girlfriend
  • Wait they’re playing lovers
  • It’s just a play it’s just a play it’s just a play!!!!
  • But after the first act, you hear someone cheering loudly and screaming your name and you blush, knowing who it is
  • When the second act starts and the scenes get darker, he grows quiet and watches you intently
  • His heart swells with pride and joy as he watches you bare your heart out on stage and give the performance your all
  • His heart broke when you sang Without You and he will ask you to sing it for him more often
  • And then he panics and covers Yoosung’s and Zen’s eyes when you perform Contact and why does he only have two hands????
  • Is as red as his hair
  • Seriously considers asking you to find something else you’re passionate about but of course he doesn’t
  • When Roger sings/screams at you in one scene, he has to remind himself that this is just a musical and that he shouldn’t track the guy and make his life a living hell
  • Those last words as you were dying gave him chills. Being a secret agent, he’s constantly afraid that his past would come back to haunt him and take you away from him and seeing you die –even though it’s fake and he knows nobody sings before dying –makes him tense up and want to hide you from the world where nobody can hurt you
  • But when you take your bow, he cheers the loudest and claps the hardest, he’s so proud of you
  • Runs to you backstage and hugs you tight and doesn’t let you go
  • Partially because he doesn’t want the rest of the guys seeing you in your costume
  • You don’t need to ask what he thinks, he doesn’t stop talking about it and asking questions and praising you the entire ride home and you’re so happy that he likes it
  • Bonus: you’re on the couch in his apartment one day and then he walks out of his room. Wearing your costume.

Oh my God I’m so sorry this is so long, I was listening to the Rent soundtrack and really got into it so ;;; Hope you enjoy though! :)