when will they public their relationship

You may not like seeing the clip of 2008 Liam on the X factor with Cheryl or the fact the media repeatedly calls attention to it but what you can’t do is use that dislike whatever its source to accuse Cheryl of being predatory or another word beginning with “p” which I would not dream of linking with her name on a public website.

There is NO evidence to suggest any such thing happened. She did NOT misuse the position she had at the time.  Liam and Cheryl started a relationship when they were both adults.

anonymous asked:

hello!! can you do soulmate! au, especially for seungkwan. I don't see a lot of seungkwan scenarios. thank you!

same, its sad. boo deserves more love;;; ok so:

  • when 2 people are born at the same time, they can sometimes hear what the other can hear
  • it gets more frequent the closer it gets to them meeting for the first time
  • recently seungkwan, ur soulmate, seems to be constantly listening to a lot of emotional ballad music at full volume post-breakup which reaLLY does not help when ur trying to get to sleep
  • so u listen to hardcore music at full volume when he’s trying to sleep bc ur as petty as each other
  • u guys learn to communicate by talking aloud which can get pretty weird in public
  • ^especially as u end up getting in lots of arguments over each other’s music tastes
  • “well its not my fault ur musically incompetent”
  • in all honesty u kinda have a love/hate relationship but its more of the latter
  • .. until u notice he sings like an actual angel when in the shower
  • he realises u lowkey adore his voice and consequently begins to tease u about being besotted over him so that u end up randomly grinning like an idiot over (seemingly) nothing
  • u kind of begin to like love other more than u hate each other ??
  • sometimes when u have a bad day he’ll sing u ur favourite songs as u drift to sleep but will deny it in the morning
  • his voice suddenly becomes ur favourite sound
  • u hear it so often that u know u guys must be meeting soon but it never seems to happen so u get depressed about it
  • and he realises youve been getting sadder recently so he learns to play piano for u
  • every day at the same time he’ll practice the same song and sing along just to brighten ur day
  • ^and it works
  • then one day u go to pick up one of ur siblings from music school and u hear a familiar tune coming from one of the practice rooms
  • u dont even think twice and burst in
  • u find a boy sitting at the piano performing the song seungkwan always sings to you
  • he stops playing and looks up
  • u both stare at each other
  • and u just know

anonymous asked:

Can you give some insight on Swallowtail and Hawkfrost's relationship (I love smoky Swallowtail) and maybe some info for their kits in your redesign (small details are fine since we only ever stare at ThunderClan).

I’m glad you like her RE-design hehe~ ;w; 

Ahem, I don’t have a whole lot of info on them, when this was all established we had a very tight schedule timeline-wise to follow, considering Hawkfrost doesn’t live very long lol. 

So like, there isn’t much romance to be found here. Swallowtail is young, a new warrior, impressionable and very receptive to Hawk’s advances when he pinpoints them on her. Of course she senses there’s something wrong with their relationship, because Hawk doesn’t much care for her in public, and she can feel a sort of haste in how he wants her to bear kittens, almost as if he cares more for the statement than the furballs themselves. Swallow really dislikes listening to Hawk boast about their “promising” union to Leopardstar, and feels more and more trapped in this scenario. Their “relationship” doesn’t last more than a moon, and ends abruptly when Hawkfrost dies. Swallow is left widowed for all intents and purposes, and even though she’s secretly relieved, she lets the Clan, and Leopardstar, baby her a little about it. 

Their litter is actually born almost a moon after Hawkfrost’s death, so Duskkit(fur), Greykit(mist) and Rainkit(storm) never knows him. Swallowtail names them by herself, giving them all names that sound as RiverClan as possible, almost as if she wants to deny their roguexThunderClan mixed parentage. She supervises how much the Clan is allowed to tell them of their father, and kinda like Goldenflower, she hopes to keep it vague, so they never come to realize their father wasn’t so much a father as he was a jerk. Thankfully Mothwing encourages the habit, and the medicine cat being Hawk’s blood sibling helps a lot, because the kittens, by natural curiosity, often come to her with their dad-related questions instead, therefore bypassing anyone who could tell them unpleasant things, or has a skewered view of their father. 

Considering Brambleclaw and Hawkfrost’s “falling-out” in Sunset, when Bramble hears about his half-bro’s kids, he ain’t all that interested for a change; so they grow up RiverClan through and through, because whatever relatives exist in other Clans, are happy to mind their own. 

Kitten designs: 
Duskfur: black tabby w. white locket and paws, hazel eyes
Mentor: Blackclaw
Personality: Eldest-born, the most mature daughter, with a very adult outlook from the start. Most resembling Hawkfrost in looks, but being a pacifist, she rejects his war-mongering blood so to speak. 

Greymist: blue silver tabby with green eyes
Mentor: Beechfur
Personality: Youngest daughter, hard-working, rather a sweetheart, but a bit naive and ignorant of how the world truly works. 

Rainstorm: blue silver tabby with hazel eyes
Mentor: Rippletail
Personality: Fiery and a bit of a proud streak, impatient but loyal to no end, and he has set it as his goal to sit outside in rainstorms to better understand his own name lol. 

That’s what I got for now, hehe. >w<

candyreader-blog  asked:

Who is the most extra person in the relationship, Connor or Evan? Who goes all out, and who would rather stay in their pjs and watch a movie?

Connor 100%. Evan just wants to snuggle with his boyfriend but Connor is like “WE HAVE TO GO OUT SO I CAN FLAUNT THE FACT THAT WE’RE TOGETHER”

It embarrasses Evan but Connor is prone to spontaneous public displays of affection  especially when he feels like anyone is checking out Evan. 

Tove Submission

just some random thoughts as i’m tired of the wanda/sherlocked narrative by now. if the whole shamshow is reality, there are no children and bc is not in a real relationship since three years.. do you believe he is single all the time? i just can’t imagine this for obvious reasons. it’s strange that for  a public person with stalker fans there was no gossip/sightings about him and other women in three years. and what about his dream of children and a family? when is this going to happen, in 5 years? i am not trying to prove a point here, just thinking out loud. 

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Hi Tove and welcome  :o)

I personally don’t think Ben has remained celibate for the past three years.  Actually, he was still flirting and getting photographed with blondes back during the summer of 2014 (when he’d presumably already found love in the face of Weirdo and was considering settling down with her).  LINK

Anyway, that was back when Ben wasn’t engaged, married or a father to two imaginary children.

Benedict Cumberbatch, CBE may be many things, but he’s not a fool.  

The fact of the matter is he’s very capable of keeping his private life extremely private when he wants to (which makes the pap walk extravaganzas with Weirdo that much more obvious) and I’m sure that includes having fun with women he actually enjoys the company of.  After all, he’s proven he can be invisible for long periods of time.  Just as long as he doesn’t feel pressured to push the happy family man image to divert attention from other not so favourable publicity centered around his name.

What he gets to do with those women in his spare time is entirely up to him as far as I’m concerned, and I’m not gonna judge it.  I don’t believe he has anything to answer to anyone to be honest with you…  No wife, no children.  Just himself.

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Second Chance at a First Impression - Kateera - The 100 (TV) [Archive of Our Own]
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
By Organization for Transformative Works

Chapters: 17/17
Fandom: The 100 (TV)
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Abby Griffin/Marcus Kane, Thelonious Jaha/Original Character(s)
Characters: Abby Griffin, Marcus Kane, Thelonious Jaha, Bellamy Blake, Octavia Blake, Indra (The 100), Vera Kane
Additional Tags: Political AU
Summary:

When Thelonious Jaha chooses Marcus Kane as his new running mate in the up coming presidential election, Abby Griffin is at her wits end trying to make the public accept the stern no nonsense former judge. With each battle pushing each other closer to the edge, these two stubborn souls have to figure out how to work together before someone explodes.

the signs in a relationship
  • Aries: will make their s/o go out everywhere with them all the time
  • Taurus: 24/7 hugs, ice cream and pizza and naps
  • Gemini: brags about you to everyone
  • Cancer: wants to be with you all the time, gets worried when you don't text back, is your best friend too
  • Leo: buys you gifts all the time, full of surprises
  • Virgo: will fight your battles for you and make collages and scrapbooks of your memories together
  • Libra: looooves PDA, constant love and affection and cuteness, especially in public
  • Scorpio: writes poetry/songs about you, freaks out when they hear about you, cannot contain their love for you
  • Sagittarius: the kind of person to run away with, is dreamy, will fight your battles for you
  • Capricorn: will tuck you in and take care of you, worries about you 24/7, will likely lock you in their basement
  • Aquarius: will stay up with you till 3am talking about crazy dreams and ideas, is an absolute rollercoaster
  • Pisces: will dream about you forever and ever and is your little pet
Sun in the Astrological Houses

Your sense of identity & purpose is directly related to: 

 ☼ Sun in the 1st House: Your behavior, personal concerns, interests and style. Your Self-image is a main theme in your life, so you’re very careful and/or self-conscious when it comes to projecting yourself. 
☼ Sun in the 2nd House:  What you’re able to maintain, build or achieve (esp. materially). Security is a main theme in your life, so you may be overly possessive, materialistic or eternally unsatisfied.
☼ Sun in the 3rd House: Your communication skills and your ability to understand concepts, ideas and people’s behaviors. Your mental abilities and intelligence are part of who you fundamentally are.
☼ Sun in the 4th House: Your private life, home (literal or not) and your roots. Personal fulfillment comes as you lay foundations and form bonds. You feel complete when you know where you belong.
☼ Sun in the 5th House: Your unique qualities and ability to demonstrate them. You need an outlet for your personal potential and thus strive to express yourself creatively and freely.
☼ Sun in the 6th House: Your daily work, to being busy and productive, organizing and fixing things, and not wasting your time. Being useful and efficient is part of who you are, just like helping others.
☼ Sun in the 7th House: Your partnerships and relationships, so you may care too much about how others feel about you. You dislike being alone, and you enjoy life better when you’re with other people. 
☼ Sun in the 8th House: Your experiences, discoveries and the fulfillment of your deepest desires, but also to the grasp you have on your inner hidden self. You’re anything but superficial.
☼ Sun in the 9th House: Your thirst for learning as your desire to get in touch with the different, the foreign and unknown helps you attaining higher consciousness, the truth and pure knowledge.
☼ Sun in the 10th House: Your public image, your social position and recognition. You seek personal fulfillment above all, and achieving your goals is of the utmost importance.
☼ Sun in the 11th House: Your connections and groups you fit in, but also to your hopes for this world and personal dreams. You feel complete among like-minded people in terms of interests/goals/ideals, but you praise diversity and tend to avoid bias.
☼ Sun in the 12th House: Your inner world, but you fear expressing it, so you hide. You’re highly introspective and your will is directed inwards making you feel isolated and passive. You daydream away your life.
-crystal melbourne | within the zodiac | “where’s my sun?”

anonymous asked:

I am also a sucker for your top 10 worldbuilding posts so here's another one: top 10 times the media got some TMI on Victor and Yuuri's relationship (and does it include Victor drunkenly revealing they switch to tabloids and Chris' speech at the wedding about where they've done the nasty?)

The wedding was strictly family and friends only so Chris’ speech never got made public (Yuuri would have died if it did!) but there have been several incidents where the media learned a lot more about Viktor and Yuuri than they ever expected.

Top 10 Times The Media Got Some TMI On Victor and Yuuri’s Relationship:

10) Once - when Yuuri was competing in the Four Continents and Viktor was on the side-lines to cheer him on - during the warm up Yuuri was practicing his quad flip over and over to make sure he got it right while Viktor was doing an interview at the side of the rink and the reporter sort of offhandedly mentioned ‘oh, Katsuki has been doing jumps for a while now and he doesn’t even look tired, I guess it must be true that he has really good stamina’ and Viktor just went really dreamy eyed and said ‘yes’ while completely ignoring the interviewer and gazing at Yuuri. And the reporter and the camera man just ended up looking at each other like ‘should we finish the interview or just let him keep daydreaming about his sex life?’

9) During the season after the end of chapter 14 Viktor’s exhibition skate was the Stay Close To Me duet and afterwards one of the reporters asked Yuuri ‘were you ever concerned about doing the lifts during the routine? Were you sure Nikiforov was going to be able to hold your weight or were you worried he might drop you?’. And Yuuri was just like ‘No, I had faith in him and we already knew he could lift me up pretty easily anyway’ which he probably would have gotten away with if he hadn’t proceeded to go bright red afterwards when he realised what he’d said and everyone who watched it was like ‘we kind of really want to know but at the same time we probably really don’t.’

8) After Viktor finally retired he was doing a joint interview with Yuuri and one of the reporters asked him if he was concerned about maintaining his physical condition now that he wasn’t competing anymore because lots of athletes have a hard time adjusting once they stop such vigorous training regimes. And Viktor was just like, ‘I’m sure it won’t be a problem, I’ll still be getting some pretty intense regular exercise even if I’m not training anymore’ and winked at Yuuri and Yuuri started blushing really badly while all the reporters went into minor meltdowns

7) Once they ended up being caught by reporters a few days after Viktor’s birthday when they were out taking the dogs for a walk and it was mostly fine but one of the reporters asked Yuuri what he had given Viktor as a birthday present and they both went bright red and Yuuri sort of mumbled a hurried and fake sounding answer that probably wasn’t even in English and practically sprinted off. No-one ever found out exactly what Viktor’s ‘present’ was but there was a lot of speculation and the general consensus became that Yuuri Katsuki was probably a lot kinkier than anyone ever expected and Viktor Nikiforov was a very lucky guy.  

6) This one came in a series of tweets from a fan who was in an upmarket hotel bar which basically consisted of, ‘oh my god Viktor Nikiforov is in the same bar as I am what should I do?’ ‘He’s sitting alone do you think I should go and talk to him? Would it be weird to ask for his autograph?’ ‘I wonder why Katsuki isn’t with him, it’s the off season I thought they’d be together’ ‘Oh my god I just noticed he isn’t wearing his ring what does this mean?’ ‘He just started to talk to a guy who sat down next to him and he’s being really flirty oh my god.’ ‘Is Viktor Nikiforov having an affair????’ ‘Help, red alert I’ve just seen Viktor Nikiforov in a bar chatting up some random guy without his ring on what do I do?’ ‘Oh wait a minute the guy he was talking to just turned around and it turns out it was actually Katsuki after all. Panic over.’ ‘Wait a minute Katsuki isn’t wearing his ring either, they can’t have both lost them at the same time can they?’ ‘They’re acting really weirdly though and they’re dressed differently too I’m confused but I don’t want to interrupt’ *several minutes pause* ‘Well something I definitely didn’t expect to happen tonight was finding out that Katsuki and Nikiforov are apparently into role play but you learn something new every day.’

5) After being apart for a long time during the skating season they finally reunited at an airport and it was all very dramatic and Viktor ended up kissing Yuuri really passionately for a really long time. And when they broke away Yuuri was like ‘that reminded me of our first kiss, after the competition in Saitama.’ And Viktor was like ‘I did a lot more than just kiss you then solnyshko’ being all sly and flirty and then they both sort of froze as they realised that A) they were in a very public airport which is not a good place to be heavily flirting even if you have been apart for several months and B ) Several people were not so discreetly filming them. And that was how the world learned exactly when and where Viktor and Yuuri got it on for the first time.

4) During the four continents after they first got together Viktor ended up doing the thing in he did in the anime where he tied Yuuri’s laces and kissed his skates while being there to support him. And at that point their public relationship was still only a few months old so while the reaction was mainly positive there were still some assholes who were salty about the whole thing including one trashy tabloid reporter who cornered Yuuri after his skate who was obviously a die-hard Viktor fan and didn’t like him or their relationship at all. And while Yuuri is usually quiet and shy and likes to keep as much about their relationship private as he can because he doesn’t want the world butting in, he also is absolutely savage when he wants to be and after going through so much to finally get together with Viktor he is not willing to take any shit from anyone. So the reporter was being really bitchy and asking questions like ‘don’t you think it’s a bit degrading to make Viktor Nikiforov get down on his knees for you?’ and Yuuri just really calmly said ‘not really, he likes it too much’, smiled and walked away. The video clip of it happening has several million views.

3) At one point Viktor and Yuuri were on the beach at Hasetsu and Viktor took a picture of Yuuri in his boxers (they had forgotten their swimming stuff but got too hot and went to cool off in the sea) and nothing else while laughing on the beach. And while 99.9% of the comments were all along the lines of ‘goddamn’, ‘please step on me’ and ‘Yuuri Katsuki with his shirt off is a gift to humanity’ there were a couple off assholes who were commenting on the stretch marks on Yuuri’s thighs. Because he was a naturally chubby kid with a lot of puppy fat and went from that to a lean athletic teenager in a very short space of time so he has them although they’re not that noticeable. And Viktor doesn’t usually care when people are rude to him online because there are always a few shitty people out there but it really pisses him off when someone insults Yuuri. So when someone tweeted him like ‘you’re really hot, why do you bother with someone with ugly stretch marks like Katsuki?’ he responds with ‘I love every part of my boyfriend including his marks. I especially like to kiss them every night when his thighs are wrapped round my head.’ which pretty much shut all the haters up there and then. Yuuri hit him with a pillow for it afterwards but he was secretly kind of pleased.

2) The day after one of the major competitions Yuuri was giving an interview and the interviewer asked ‘now that the competition is over has the tiredness set in yet and are you ready to go home or are you still riding high on the adrenaline from last night?’ and Chris, who happened to be walking past at that moment, was just like ‘well he was certainly riding something last night but it wasn’t the adrenaline.’ Yuuri’s expression after he said it became a popular reaction picture for when someone looks like they physically want to die of embarrassment.

1) The incident I mentioned in a previous ask where a tipsy Viktor ends up getting interviewed by a tabloid reporter when his tongue is looser than usual so when she asks ‘are you the top or the bottom in your relationship’ aka the question everyone else wanted to ask but was way too polite and respectful to, he just winked and said ‘why pick just one.’ And that was how the world found out that Viktor and Yuuri switch.

“Are you ready to go?” Jack asks, waiting by the front door and Bitty comes out of their bedroom. 

“Yep,” Bitty replies, smiling happily as he holds up their grocery list. “I was just adding a few more things to the list,”

Jack can’t stop himself, smiling teasingly as he says, “What, we don’t have enough butter already?”

Bitty rolls his eyes, shaking his head with a grin. “You’re not as funny as you think you are,” Bitty tells him, reaching up to give him a light flick on the nose. 

“You know I’m hilarious,” Jack says, his nose scrunched up adorably and Bitty doesn’t think it’s possible to love the man more than he does now. 

“Sure thing, Rock-lord,” Bitty replies, gigging at the loud groan that Jack always gave when that name happened to pop up. 

The apartment door is locked and the two of them make their way down to the front entrance of the building. As soon as they’re outside, Jack suddenly stops and Bitty turns to look at him, confused and a bit concerned. 

“Jack, are you okay?” Bitty asks, and Jack stays quiet for a moment before reaching out. Bitty doesn’t stop him when Jack entwines their fingers together, in fact, he squeezes back when Jack’s grip tightens ever so slightly. 

“We can hold hands in public now,” Jack says, sounding a little in awe, and Bitty immediately remembers two nights ago, when they revealed their relationship to the whole world. 

Around them, no one even gives them a second glance as people go about their daily lives and it feels so incredibly good. It feels so amazing and so goddamn freeing that Bitty releases a few pearls of laughter, his smile so wide that his cheeks begin to hurt. 

Jack’s grin is the same, his cheeks flushed with happiness as he gazes down at Bitty. 

“We can hold hands in public now,” Bitty repeats, and Jack’s grin turns into a warm smile as he leans down and presses a light but sweet kiss onto Bitty’s lips. 

They can hold hands in public now.

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            The love interests through the mains’ phones

            SKAM is a multimedia/cross platform show, so it only make sense that how characters interact with their friends through social media is important.

            I think we’re getting important information through how the mains have been naming their love interest in their phone (I’m skipping Eva because she was already dating Jonas and therefore had him as…Jonas).

            Noora had Dickhelm as “Willhelm”, the name she used to neg him. The name she kept in her phone as a way to “neg” the feelings she had for him. During a big part of the season, Noora lied to herself about her feelings for him, refusing to call him by his given name (which I understand…I couldn’t even make myself call him by his name in this meta).

            Isak had Even as “Even Kosegruppa” showing how he didn’t know his family name past. He didn’t know where he came from.
            Even when he finally learned his last names, he still couldn’t find him on social media. He still only met him at kosegruppa. Even didn’t seem to exist before.
            Isak was still missing an important information about him. And he still wasn’t sure about him and Even’s feelings for him. 
            “Even Kosegruppa” is as neutral as you can get. It’s not just “Even” because that would be too sentimental. That would mean he’s the first Even his mind goes to when he thinks about the name Even. “Even Kosegruppa” is casual.

            Which brings us to Sana.
            Yousef is hiding his phone number.
            Getting someone’s number feels much more personal than getting someone’s Facebook. It’s a next step in a relationship. First we add each other on Facebook. Then we get each other’s phone numbers…and then we date (because, lbh, we’ll never share our tumblrs to each other).
            She’s only been chatting casually with him, through his social media. His social appearance. This public image she had of him. The assumptions she made based on appearances.
            The real Yousef is still unknown. We got a glimpse of him at the end of episode 4 but that was still only breaking the surface. She likes him. A lot. But she’s conflicted.
            She liked him so much without even realising he didn’t believe in Allah. Which seems like a big part of someone’s identity. It’s certainly a big part of Sana’s.

            So yeah.
            Unknown.

            [The original meta assumed that Sana didn’t have Yousef’s phone number and that it was why it was displayed as “unknown”. I made most of my conclusion around this misconception. Since then a lot of people have explained to me that a number shows as “unknown” if it’s been made private/hidden by the caller. Which only made my point better: we went from Yousef being “unknown/unsure” a character to Yousef outright hiding shit. So I edited the Sana/Yousef part of this meta quickly to reflect this updated information.]

            Sun thru the Houses

            1H: the first house is the house of the self, and because the sun is representative of the self as well, this is a very healthy position for the sun to be in. this shows the type of person that is meant to put themselves out into the world, and to have a lasting impact on others. the sense of self is most likely pretty strong and associated with the aries archetype, since this is the natural ruler of the 1st house, and mars. this can give the chart holder a warrior like personality, one that must always be more forceful, assertive and able to stand up for themselves. they usually approach life with much vitality, strength and enthusiasm. these people must be appreciated, noticed and acknowledged for who they are. there is a strong desire to feel important and wanted as well, it is important to not let yourself become a tyrannical figure though, as that can be something common and associated with this placement of the sun. 

            2H: the second house is the house of worth and value, also security and possessions - physical possessions. with the planet of one’s vitality, self expression and ego coming in here, it lights up the part of us that needs to develop outer security and what one values. it is important for these people to learn what gives them a sense of security and fulfillment and not have to be dependent to find it through others, like their opposing 8th house represents. security would typically come through strengthening the ego and self, because that is what the sun itself represents. the individual with this placement must feel secure with themselves, so even if outer security is missing, they will feel an overall safety with life. 

            3H: the third house is the house of communications, knowledge, speech, and siblings. with the ego and self lighting up this house, the sense of self is derived from what this person knows. they must feel honorable about their own thoughts to feel a sense of purpose in life. they also must feel like they have been heard by others, nothing could be more sad than a third house sun person that is constantly ignored or feels ignored (perhaps if mercury is in the 12th house). these people are hardly ever satisfied with what they know, and are always looking to learn more, their hunger for knowledge is insatiable. there is always a need for this person to get their point or words across to others; through verbal speaking or the written word as well. there could be a talent or mastery of language. 

            4H: the fourth house is the house of where we came from, our roots, home, family, mother/parents, the deeper part of the psyche, what makes us feel safe, secure and at home. with the planet of the ego and vitality here, the person must feel honorable in the home environment; there is a need for the home to stable in order for this person to shine. imbalances in this environment can severely hurt or impact the chart holder, never to be forgotten. there can be a tendency to over identify with the family and not give yourself the chance to branch off and create a separate identity in your own life. it’s common for this person to have been an only child - the center of the parents’ universe, worshiped by the parents even. creative energy may be mustered up in the home environment. 

            5H: the fifth house is the natural ruler of leo and is ruled by the sun, so this is seen as a very healthy place for the sun to be in and shine to it’s fullest extent. the fifth house rules leisure, pleasure, romance, casual sex, gambling, risk taking, the general sense of fun, although that is something very subjective and personal to everyone. with the sun here, the person must feel honorable in what gives them a sense of pleasure and leisure. these two things are what the chart holder holds very highly and strongly values. there may be a strong creative force in the individual. the involvement of romance, fun or any theme falling in the fifth house enhances the chance of this person being a participant. however, there can be a need to always be the center of attention as well, especially when endeavoring these “fun” activities. 

            6H: the sixth house is the house of labor, daily routine and health. with the planet of the ego and vitality, there is a tendency for the overall sense of self to derive from work/service and one’s own general health. there is a need and constant motivational factor of improving the self and finding ways to be better at what ever it is they do. self imperfections or insecurities are always heightened here, because the ruling sign of this house, virgo, is highly critical and picky, especially of themselves. there is always room for improvement and fixing everything to it’s best ability, virgo believes. since this house rules one’s general health, with the sun here the individual must have a respectable relationship & honor their own body. there can be self-neglect because of the primary focus being of service to everything else but themselves. the sun here must learn to efficiently balance out their daily life and the self, realizing there can be nothing without their self anyway. 

            7H: the seventh house is the house of others, partnerships, marriage, open enemies. with the sense of self, ego and vitality coming to light up this house, the person must feel honorable in their relationships with others. however there is a common tendency to have a poor sense of self and vitality because the ego is so closely associated with others, rather than the self. they find themselves through others. relationships and partnerships or social interaction of any kind give them subtle clues to who they are more so than when they are on their own. this can be the type of person that does not ever want to be alone by choice, because of this fear of feeling completely lost within the self. it is true though, that they do need to be involved with people or others in some way. 

            8H: the eighth house is the house of privacy, intimacy, transformation and the occult. the sun represents the self, vitality and ego, so naturally when this comes into the eighth house, the ego and self seek personal transformation through acts of intimacy, occult studies or pushing themselves extremely hard to test their limits in life, and possibly find a sense of rebirth through doing so. this person pretty much yearns to feel emotionally connected to and bonded with something, there is an extremely intimate outlook on life. everything is profound in the eighth house, this person can be extremely wise and insightful because of their deep, complex dynamic make up, mostly because of their fascination with all things that are hidden from the public’s eye, their investigation of the inner workings of the self and others, as well as rather taboo subjects, can pay off rather well. 

            9H: the ninth house is the house of beliefs, higher knowledge, travel, foreign lands, and philosophy. with the sun, ruler of the personality, ego and one’s own vitality, there is usually an experimental nature towards one’s own belief systems - the individual can usually try out many throughout their life, until one fits their personal moral system the best, and which they must find honorable enough to expand and grow from. the individual with the sun here may view life as a voyage, a soul search or some type of pilgrimage. this person can be very concerned with the bigger picture and tend to neglect the finer details to their life. there can be an eternal wanderlust and desire to constantly grow internally and mentally; these are very acquisitive people. this is a common placement indicating visionaries, gurus, religious figures, spiritual practitioners. the self is designed to find inspiration through growing and developing the self more, and passing this inspiration on to others through their own beliefs and knowledge, as well as life experience.  

            10H: the tenth house is the house of one’s reputation, how one is perceived through the public eye, the persona, the career and one’s achievements. when the planet of one’s ego and personality, also vitality comes in the 10th house, there is a strong desire to be admired by others and recognized as someone. the sign of the sun specifically will give more clues to what it is exactly the person wants to be admired for. there must be an honorable relationship with one’s professional achievements and reputation. there can be a dependence on a parental figure for acknowledgment, or an inheritance to enhance the chances of acknowledgment. the person with sun in the tenth may over identify with tenth house matters and have a hard time forming a separate identity with any other part of themselves. 

            11H: the eleventh house is the house of social groups/dynamics, organizations, clubs, society, humanitarianism. when the planet of one’s identity and self comes in this house, there is a direct association of the self with whatever they are associated with. there can be direct association between the self and friend group, this is who they are. or what cause they believe strongly in. this person may be vastly involved in many different groups or organizations, and an interest in spreading their knowledge. the identity here is strongly linked to a higher cause than themselves. the self worth, worst case scenario, is derived from groups or friendships. relationships with friends, groups and organizations must be felt as honorable and secure through the individual with this placement. 

            12H: the twelfth house is the hardest house to describe because we do not truly know what is in there…generally it’s the house of the subconscious mind, the “back of the brain” where things are not commonly thought about or acknowledged, or seen. its the house of dreams, mysteries, escapism, illusions, sensitivity, spirituality…everything. it’s where things go to dissipate. it represents the things that are hidden from us, as opposed to the things we hide from others - it’s entirely unconscious in it’s workings, and extremely hard to describe or pin down accurately. with the planet of the ego, personality and vitality coming into neptune’s domain, the ego is washed away and dissolved. the boundaries between the self and outer world are extremely thin, these people are very sensitive to energy. the conflicting aspect of this placement is that the twelfth house is the furthest house from the conscious mind, and the sun itself is an extremely conscious energy. the individual with sun in the twelfth must learn to properly blend the workings of the spiritual realm and the things that cannot be seen, with the outer, more tangible realm. the ego is comfortable in spiritual practice, solitude and being of service to others. there is a fear of others not accepting them for who they are, so its more often than not that the individual with the sun here hides themselves from others and only comes out when alone. the sun here is easily tainted and colored by other energies and is felt the strongest when alone or secluded from others or things that may drain its energy. the sense of self is fogged and blurred by neptune. the ego must feel honorable in it’s spiritual views, acts of service and time alone. the uncertainty of the self that these people feel is what causes them to fall into the depths of depression or sadness. they can feel overwhelming guilt just for being who they are and expressing themselves, because there is some obligation they have to be there for others, and avoid ever being seen or felt as selfish. 

            **afflictions of the sun must be taken into consideration as well, as that can severely alter some of these characteristics. 

            4

            When you’re in the public eye, it’s hard to negotiate your relationship with your body, but the way I look at it is: if I can run 26 miles in under four hours, then there’s nothing wrong with my body. Sometimes younger girls see things and maybe they’ve been Photoshopped or whatever, and they take it to heart. There’s all this angst, and it’s just not necessary.

            anonymous asked:

            The LI's watching a drunken Warden/Hawke/Inquisitor talk endlessly to the other tavern-goers about how much they absolutely adore their lover; how wonderful and perfect they are, how incredibly blessed they are to have them. When a patron gets annoyed/bored and walks away, they just start all over with another patron.

            Alistair: He’s extremely uncomfortable with the whole thing. He lets them run through two people before he drags them off to bed. “No, no. You’re embarrassing me! And you’re drunk. Just get some rest. It’s fine.”

            Zevran: He’s sitting right next to the Warden the whole time, talking over them about how wonderful they are. He thinks it’s a great joke and tries to say increasingly outrageous things, hoping that the Warden will rise to the challenge, just to see the patrons’ faces.

            Leliana: She thinks it’s sweet, and she’s just drunk enough to watch it all play out with a dreamy smile. For hours. Until the Warden passes out midsentence. That’s okay, though. It was lovely.

            Morrigan: She claps her hand over the Warden’s mouth the moment it becomes clear that they have no intention of stopping. She’s not going to allow that. Random people in a tavern don’t deserve the Warden’s attention. And she really doesn’t want every random person in a tavern to know all that.

            Fenris: He freezes up for a while, unable to figure out what to do as Hawke just babbles away to anyone who will listen about how amazing he is and how much they love him. When Hawke moves on to a fourth patron to slur at he finally manages to go over to them and get them into bed. “I love you, too, Hawke,” he says softly once they’re snoring away in bed. He wouldn’t admit it, but it was actually really nice to hear all that.

            Isabela: She laughs and creates a stage out of a table and a couple of chairs and sits Hawke in the center of attention. “Yes, love, tell everyone how great I am!” She’s watching the whole thing with a grin. She loves it.

            Anders: He’s pretty uncomfortable with it, but it takes him a little while to figure out what to do. In the end, Hawke rambles away to two people before he collects them and takes them home. “I love you, too, Hawke, but the tavern really isn’t the place for that.”

            Merrill: She’s vibrating with both anxiety and happiness as Hawke tells anyone who will listen how much they love her. She bounces up and down in place, hands pressed to her mouth and eyes wide as she listens. Finally, she throws her arms around Hawke. “Oh, Hawke, I love you, too!” she tell them, her face buried in their shoulder. No one has ever cherished her the way Hawke does, and she loves it.

            Cullen: The second he hears that the Inquisitor is in the Herald’s Rest talking about their relationship, he goes to collect them. He’s the Commander and they’re the Inquisitor, and that sort of behavior really should be allowed in public. His entire upper body is beet red when he collects his drunken lover, but he keeps his spine straight as he send them to bed.

            Josephine: She’s blushing and lets it go on just a little longer than she really should just so she can hear it, then takes her lover to bed. With a glass of water right beside them, she tucks them in and kisses them goodnight, secretly pleased with what happened.

            Cassandra: She smacks the Inquisitor to get them to stop, then takes them someplace quiet and private and lets them ramble about how much they love her. She wants to hear it, but she doesn’t want anyone else to hear it.

            Iron Bull: He thinks it’s great fun! He keeps the Inquisitor’s cup full and lets them talk until they’re hoarse. The Chargers tease him mercilessly, but it’s all worth it!

            Blackwall: “Now, my lady, that’s really improper,” he tries to say, but the Inquisitor just talks louder. After a while, he just scoops them up and sends them to bed. It’s sweet, but he’s not comfortable with it.

            Sera: It’s great! Well, she knew it all already, but to hear Inky just keep talking is great! She’ll correct them sometimes or add things. And she makes sure the drinks keep coming!

            Solas: He wasn’t in the tavern when it was happening, but hears the next morning that his vhenan was drunk and talking non-stop about how much they love him. He says nothing about it, not to anyone. When he sees the Inquisitor, hungover and sheepish, he kisses them lightly and makes a hangover cure, but otherwise doesn’t comment. He can’t deny, privately to himself, that he finds it oddly compelling.

            Dorian: He’s right next to his amatus, and just drunk enough to let it go on without comment, his chest bowed out with pride. They laugh about it the next morning, both hungover with their limbs tangled together in the sheets.

            Drarry headcanons
            •  Harry loves to embarrass Draco by flaunting their relationship in public with massive amounts of little kisses and petting
            • Draco is self conscious because Harry is slightly taller than him and Harry never stops teasing him about it
            • Even though they’re dating they still are incredibly competitive when it comes to quidditch and whenever Slytherin and Gryffindor have a match the trash talk gets intense. 
            • Draco and Harry have hooked up in the locker room multiple times
            • Once for a date Harry took Draco to the great lake for a swim
            • Draco wouldn’t get in the water because it was mid autumn and freezing cold
            • Harry tried to show off for his boyfriend by doing tricks
            • Draco just laughed as Harry tried (and failed) to do flips and kissed him when he finally got out
            • The next morning was filled with many “I told you so”s from Draco when Harry woke up with a bad cold
            • But of course he took care of him
            • The hardest thing about their relationship was being in different houses because they couldn’t see each other as much as they wanted
            • Their relationship inspired the younger kids at hogwarts because it showed that it was ok to be openly gay and that it was ok for slytherins and gryffindors to be close
            • veeeeeery close
            • It even inspired pansy and ginny to go public with their relationship. 
            • drarry and pinny were the two power couples at hogwarts and if anyone ever talked shit about their friends the four of them would let loose their wrath
            • And no one shipped them more than dumbledore and mcgonagall 
            Bangtan ships:
            • Namjin: The pillars of bangtan. Parents. Can they be more obvious? Even my dog ships them. Hard.
            • Jikook: Popular as fuck. hate-love relationship. no words needed. please stop touching each other’s diddly dong in public omg.
            • Yoonmin: Tsundere yoongi–angel jimin. Yoongi gulping whenever jimin do something. Them being different only when with each other; in a good way iykwim.
            • 95z/Vmin: Same age, thus comfortable. Picks on each other a lot. Keep each other’s secrets. By secrets i mean nudes.  
            • Vkook: Beautiful. Ships themselves. Everyone’s relationship goals. The amount of eye-fuck is–someone get them a room.
            • Minjoon: Compliments. Namjoon is so soft for jimin. Is the most similar personality-wise. Understands each other deeply. Height difference tho.
            • Namkook: jk’s idol crush: gd, iu, justin bieber sunbaenim, rap monster. Leader x youngest, respects each other. Tall and Taller.
            • Kookwhirt: Looks exceptionally good with each other. Cannot be separated. “jk pls avoid bringing white shirt” “o_O”
            • Horehead: hoseok x forehead. Everyone ships them. Except themselves apparently. Been too long since last time seen in public. Need to comeback asap.
            • Jinstick: Not lipstick. jin x his chopstick. “there are 7 million chopsticks in the world but i choose u” Aiming to taste millions of cuisine together. Nobody knows about them before they make it public on a tvshow.
            • Mintan: Jimin: /does anything/; bangtan: fffuckkckK so. fuckinG. cuTE. “JIMINNN” “OoooO, JiMiinNN”. Hugs & Cuddles.
            • Bangmi: Supports and love each other. Real. The amount of belief and trust. Bangmi vs the world. My longest army ever. “ARRMMYYYYYYYYYY”
            BTS’s reaction to their s/o having a PDA addiction:

            💌 requested by @pastelxxwitch (your English isn’t bad at all, sweetie!)

            A/N: As I mentioned before, I don’t write NSFW, but hopefully I was able to do this request justice. I made it super fluffy. Hope you enjoy it, loves~ 💖


            Jin: You have a problem, you know you do. It’s too much - you always go too far. But when you get the urge to cuddle your boyfriend over a respectable family dinner, it’s not something you can easily dismiss. He’s looking so handsome, serving stew to his mother, sleeves rolled up, shirt damp with sweat and kitchen steam - less like a boyfriend, more like a husband. A husband that needs a barrage of hugging and kissing as punishment for being so drop-dead gorgeous.

            As he sits down opposite, you give him a look – the look – to let him know what’s up. He doesn’t get the hint at first, so you inch your toes across the wooden flood until you find his shape under the table, and give his leg a nudge with your foot.

            His eyes flicker to yours, brows raised in amusement. You’ve been together long enough to understand what his silent signals mean. Translation: “So, playing footsie is a thing we do now?”

            You rub your foot up and down the inside of his calf, smiling at him through half-lidded eyes. Translation: “Yes, it’s a thing we do. Starting now.”

            Jin looks you up and down, totally distracted now. You’re winning. Just a little more, and he’ll bend to your will. With one last brush of your toe against his trouser leg he stands up, displacing his glass of water, so that a few drops spot the table. “I just remembered that there’s a bottle of wine I forgot to open. Y/N, come and help me get the wine glasses.”

            That’s your cue to leave, following him to the kitchen for an emergency make-out session:

            “Was there a reason you desperately needed to disrupt our family dinner?”

            “You were looking unfairly handsome,” you reply, “You needed to be punished.”

            “With kisses?”

            “The worst type of punishment.” You kiss him to prove you mean it.

            Originally posted by jinmini


            Yoongi: Well, this is new.

            Normally, you have to beg Yoongi for hugs in public – pulling on his sweater sleeves, pulling on his hair, pulling on his ragged ends with pleas of “Please, Yoongi. Please.” Then he’d roll his eyes, shuffle closer and drape you in his warmth, with an arm around your shoulder while he mumbled about how embarrassing you are.

            But today - today is different. And you certainly aren’t complaining.

            Pressing his nose into your neck, pulling you closer, his hands fall around your waist, reaching down until they find leverage in the back pockets of your jeans. Without you asking; without him kicking and screaming and making a fuss about it.

            You have to pull back a fraction to check his cheeks, which burn pink, just to make sure this is definitely your boyfriend and not some weird, alien replacement.

            “What?” he demands.

            You shake your head, and curl your arms around his neck. “Nothing… I just though you didn’t like cuddling in public.”

            “I don’t.”

            “Then what do you call this?”

            He burrows deeper, pressing his face into the fabric of your shirt. “I call this an emergency.”

            “Emergency?”

            He nods. “I was running low on hugs.”

            Originally posted by leojuseyo


            Hoseok: You fidget anxiously. It’s been three hours, fifteen minutes and nine seconds since your last cuddle with Hoseok, and you’re beginning to feel cold already – what you need right now is a hug, or a hand in your hand, anything really, you’re not picky. But in the middle of the supermarket, mid weekly shop, isn’t the best place or time to tackle your boyfriend. Still, his back is looking exceptionally inviting underneath that tight-fitting t-shirt, just asking for you to snatch him up as he stretches up to reach a cereal box on the highest shelf.

            As he turns back to toss the box in the shopping trolley, he pauses, eyeing you up and down, and that’s when you realise you’ve been biting your lip all this time, making heart-eyes his way. Not so subtle.

            “What?” he asks, although he knows exactly ‘what’.

            You press your palms onto the trolley’s handle and push it in his direction so the metal frame bumps against him. “Don’t ‘what?’ me.”

            His response is a chuckle. “Is it that bad? You need me that much?”

            You nod, and he licks his lips, before glancing up and down the aisle. There’s no one about. A motion of his hand is all the invitation you need to dive into his arms, and drown him in kisses, hidden by the shelves of biscuits and crisps.

            Originally posted by itsrapmonster


            Namjoon: “Namjoon, I need a hug.” You hold your arms out to your boyfriend.

            “What why? Are you feeling okay?” As usual, Namjoon’s brain is spinning with possible reasons for this sudden request. Are you down? Depressed? Feeling lonely or anxious? Whatever it is, Namjoon’s ready to hug it away, even if you are in the middle of the main street.

            You just shake your head at his concern, your smile stretching fondly. “Nothing’s wrong. I just love you. And I want a hug.”

            That’s all you need to say. Namjoon’s face relaxes, his shoulders sag, and he breathes a sigh of relief. A hug for love’s sake. Of course. In one step, he’s by your side, wrapping his arms around your waist – not because it’s raining in your heart, or the sky above you is crumbling down, or the very fabric of the Earth is fraying. But just because you wanted it.

            And you also – “Was that the first time you said that you love me?” he asks.

            “I think it was.”

            “Well. I love you too.”

            “Good.”

            “Good.”

            Originally posted by bangthebae


            Jimin: You have a new hobby: embarrassing your boyfriend in front of his friends.

            Jimin, who’s normally more snuggly than your bed on a rainy Monday morning, forgets all about your habitual cuddling when he’s with his group, keeping his distance instead, and getting jumpy when you brush against him.

            Now that you’ve figured out how much power you possess – with him pleading “please – not so much PDA while I’m around my friends, I need to keep some semblance of my masculinity”, and you cooing back “sure thing, my squishy mochi” – it’s time to wreak some havoc.

            The next time you’re at Taehyung’s house, you decide to put your plan in motion, pouncing on Jimin and tackling him to the couch. This should be fun.

            “What are you doing?” His cheeks rise a couple of shades of red.

            “Just cuddling like we normally do, mochi-wochi,” you purr, settling yourself in his lap.

            The other boys burst out laughing at your actions, while Jimin squirms underneath you, trying to wriggle free. But it’s no use. Cuddling is serious business to you, and there’s no way you’re letting him go.

            Sighing, he surrenders, and with his masculinity in shreds, he kisses your cheek as a form of peace-keeping. “Alright you win,” he mumbles, “Just, please, no more ‘mochi-wochi’.”

            Originally posted by minblush


            Taehyung: You and Taehyung are tied together by the heartstrings. You have a connection that you can’t quite explain, and somehow, you both seem to know exactly when the other’s craving touch - feelings so in sync, Taehyung needs you exactly when you need him.

            Today is no exception. You’re sitting in a café with Taehyung, smiling stupidly-in-love over ice-cream sundaes, when all of a sudden you need – need – to cuddle with him, or your heart might seize up.

            Without a word, without warning, you slip out of your seat, and rounding the table to Taehyung’s side, wrap your arms around his shoulders.

            He twists his neck to gaze up at you, brown eyes blinking. “You alright?”

            “Yeah. I just really needed a hug, all of a sudden.”

            “Good, me too.” He grins, and you duck your head down for a kiss on his unsuspecting lips.

            With a smooth motion, he slides his chair back, making room for you to sit on his lap, which you’re more than happy to accept, and from this perch you have easy access to his triple-chocolate knickerbocker glory.

            “Oh, I see how it is,” Taehyung scoffs, as you lick chocolate sauce off his spoon, “You only like me for my desserts?”

            “Opps. Exposed,” you laugh, and Taehyung leans in to peck a stray speck of chocolate from your chin.

            When you kiss back again, he shivers below you, body responding before he can control it. Forgetting the café around you, the hustle and bustle of baristas and customers, you and Taehyung melt into each other like the ice-cream in your bowl.

            Originally posted by buisually-appealing


            Jungkook: Jungkook doesn’t like cuddling in public. It’s something you learnt about him a long time ago, on your first date in fact, sharing secrets with a game of ’20 questions’ - when he said ‘I’m embarrassed to touch in public’ you had almost ended the relationship then and there. How were you – one of the clingiest, touchy-feeliest people on the planet – going to cope with a guy who melted into a blushing pile of mush any time you so much as brushed fingers in public. Even when you got him to hold your hand, murmuring ‘Look, see? No one minds, no one’s looking,’ he’d still stay as stiff as steel, and snap your fingers apart when anyone so much as glanced in your general direction.

            Thankfully, you had discovered a way to combat the problem, crafting the perfect date for you and your boyfriend – a public place where you could touch to your heart’s content, without Jungkook shying away from the eyes of disapproving grannies and curious children: a magical place called the cinema.

            Seated in the back row, you can share a bag of popcorn and as many kisses as you want, without fear of being watched. With everyone else transfixed on the film, you and Jungkook can devote yourselves to each other. As the movie heroes strike out on quests to discover new lands, you explore new parts of Jungkook, acquainting yourself with every centimetre of exposed skin: cheeks, neck, knuckles, the inside of his wrists, any part he gives. He relaxes in your arms, and watching him unfurl for you is better than any film – he is your masterpiece, better directed that Steven Spielberg. In the dark of the cinema, you fall in love.

            Originally posted by aestheticvbts


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            BTS X READER [COLLEGE!AU | THRILLER!AU]

            WORD COUNT: 4,967

            series warnings: mature themes, violence, blood and gore, murder, emotional manipulation, bullying, mental health deterioration, eventual smut and substance abuse. this chapter contains strong language. 

            Originally posted by cuteguk

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            Admired, beautiful, sophisticated and elite. Undeniably the most popular girl at university, girls wanted to be you and guys wanted to be with you. There was no doubt that being at the top of the social hierarchy came with it’s premium advantages; you were always dressed head-to-toe in the most luxurious designer fabrics, you had enough money in the bank to buy yourself a small country and your family were one of the richest in Maplebank; an affluent suburb of Princeton, New Jersey; situated a short forty minute drive from Princeton University, the Ivy League school you and your high society friends attended.

            As an aspiring columnist you were in your final year of your English degree, working two days a week at the local and somewhat infamous magazine and online gossip forum, The Exhibit. Friends joked about you being twenty-one and living with your parents, but you couldn’t bare the thought of staying in those filthy dorms again, during your first year you had to share a room with Kim Taehyung, a lowly scholar student who always had his head buried in a textbook. Admittedly he wasn’t the problem, Taehyung was such a kind and considerate person, but the thick limescale build up inside the plumbing and the cracked windows deterred you from returning the following school year.

            Living with your parents didn’t bother you as they spent most of their time away from home on business; often travelling to different countries for long periods of time, leaving you and your older brother Yoongi alone inside the modern Georgian house that they had purchased six years ago. Yoongi was rarely in the house as he owned a music production company and the AGUSTD recording studios were a few miles out so you were mostly home alone. Both you and your brother drove Range Rover Sport Evoque’s; his being matte black and yours brilliant white as they patiently sat on the driveway until your next commute.

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