when things don't work out

This isn’t what I planned.
—  Ravenclaw, with no plan and no intended plan either

anonymous asked:

Hi, 7goodangel. I am here to ask you about PaperJam as a shy, smol and innocent being (mainly thegreatrouge made him be). There has been some conflicts regarding his trait. Some said his canonical personality is a jerk, like what you wrote in his bio / info and some said that is severely wrong and being shy, (which made him shipped with Fresh), is his canonical personality. What are your thoughts about this? I mean, it is your character and people are taking control of it. Don't you disagree?

Well… I have talked to people and seen public conversations and this has happened several times to me over months. I guess I’ve gotten a little numb to it now… or maybe it’s due to school that I haven’t given it the attention that it deserves. Probably due to school. 

I just can’t update constantly like others - even though some others in school were and are able to update constantly. I can’t keep going around and holding up my bio of PJ and police people. It’s exhausting to me… it really takes up the small bit of free time I have. 

I think after I get a solid job that I’ll be able to go around better… but anyway - back to your question. 


While I love seeing interpretations and do not want people to be limited by something and have their imaginations go forth… it’s proving that a huge con comes with that mentality - which you have pointed out. A lot of people swear that PJ is the cute, innocent interpretation that really, did get PJ popular in the first place. While I did have him as a jerk from the beginning - I kinda kept that info to my RP blog - so you could say it is my fault this is all happening and I do think that. I could of done something to make it not as bad as it is now… 

It’s just like the NSFW stuff… people just assume the first thing and run with it. And it really does make me feel like I really am not needed for my own character at points. 

It’s a struggle - I don’t want to have people stop interpreting PJ within AUs… but I also don’t want people to just see him as an innocent child to ship with Fresh. 

And I’m still trying to find the best solution to it. 

But… I feel like the damage is already done. It’s too late for me to talk to all of these people going around swearing on their life that PJ is canoncally like Rouge’s interpretation/AUs. It feels like an hopeless battle to me. 

And I guess I needed someone to ask me this question so then I can fully say my thoughts on this. 

So in short, while I love creativity and don’t want to snuff it out (considering some people would probably think I’m doing that already with saying “No Sin”), I still don’t like it. It irritates me, irks me, frustrates me, and I feel like even as the person who thought of PJ in the first place, my voice isn’t enough. Communities seem like they don’t care about artists unless they reach a ‘certain goal of popularity’ or seem like they have a more professional style of art. I know I do not reach either of those titles. 

People misspell my username all the time - I actually claimed ‘7goodangle’ on tumblr for that reason.

People still say “I’m too lazy to find who made PJ” when they clearly mentioned they looked at the bio on the wiki. 

People still go around arguing others on the canon ship of OmniPJ and swearing that FreshPaper is the true canon ship, when all people are pointing out is that they need to keep the canon ship in mind when going around with information.

Even just basic personality traits… and these things are happening on sites that I do not nor want an account for. 

I still want others to have fun - to be happy; but I don’t know… I guess I’m cutting out my own happiness to get everyone else happy? I want to eventually write a version of PJ within his own universe and story… and he is more like the version I created within the UT verse. Not exact - but close. Though who knows… I might shove PJ to the side and replace his role with another character. I’m still weighing options.

Cause PJ was the first character I ever put this much time and thought into… my first character that was balanced, well rounded…

And what happens?

…well.

You said it Anon. 

They took it - changed it (initially as an AU but now people think it’s canon) - and I can’t do much about it. Due to school and not much free-time… due to how many don’t know the true creator… and just back talking anyone who is just mentioning it to people who swear by it. 

As an artist and a character designer…

It makes me not want to show designs, characters, and stories ever again online.

Considering if this is how I was treated on the first one… why even take a chance at a second one? If it has brought me so much stress, frustration, and time… why even try it again?

I said I was only going to do fanart so if anyone stole it, it didn’t really matter. 
I think I should have stuck with that thought process. 

In conclusion, there are some major things to take away here. First – that yes, I do not like how it has skewed this far to the point of arguing over a fandom version with the canon. Canon is canon and I get the different AUs – this is too far. Way too far. I am emotionally drained from this – from this whole mess that I have been defending throughout majority of PJ’s lifespan. I will state this – Paper Jam is my character. He is my original character that I created more than a year ago. And the UT AU fandom took my character and warped him to something he is not and all of his original meaning is lost. I do not like to hurt others or make other sad – but I must put my foot fully down. This miscommunication needs to stop. I am tired of repeating things over and over and I have past my breaking point time and time again. I just want people to see PJ how he really is… and I wish that people could be focusing more on the reality of him instead of the alternate that they all claim as truth.

Final words: I still like Undertale – I still like creating characters and having fun – but the Undertale AU fandom is ridiculous now. The Amino UT community is insanity in an app, and there is a lot of stuff that has made many artists and creators to their breaking point and leaving the fandom entirely. Everyone in this fandom needs to take ten steps back and look at what they are doing. Go back to the game. Play it again – watch your favorite let’s player’s videos of it again. 

And just… food for thought… please don’t jump the gun on someone else’s OC’s personality and actions. 

I do not want anyone to experience what I had.

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luigi has a lightning motif but its almost never developed why is that

give me a tinkering luigi @nintendo you cowards

i feel like i’m the only one who genuinely likes black paladin keith


This is honestly the best thing I could do for IR month. I am sorry.

(If anyone wants to draw a far better version than this, please feel free to do so.)

Signs as Crushes
  • Aries: the one who listened to your angry rants.
  • Taurus: the one who laughed really loud and caught you staring.
  • Gemini: the one that's always there for you.
  • Cancer: the one who was super aloof but cute when they weren't looking.
  • Leo: the one who demanded total attention from you without knowing it.
  • Virgo: the one who got all clumsy around you.
  • Libra: the one you stay friends with when things don't work out.
  • Scorpio: the one who always joked about making out with you but never did.
  • Sagittarius: the one who was worth taking risks for.
  • Capricorn: the one who cared about whether or not you studied.
  • Aquarius: the one who changed their mind about you a damn lot.
  • Pisces: the one whose thoughts you could never understand, leaving you mesmerized.

Ok, so in April, someone sent Nif some sad headcanons about a reader/Noct kid, and then I had a blast sending in more sad headcanons about that kid. And now I wrote some of it. This is like the second thing I’ve ever written, and I’m still trying to find a style I like writing in, so it might not be the best in the world (its in Lux’s point of view and past tense). BUT, I liked how it turned out. And, I accidentally didn’t say his full name in the whole one shot! His name is Lux Solis Felix Caelum, because I liked all the names that all us anons suggested, lol. Ok On With The Story!  

@nifwrites  (I said I’d tag you in it if I wrote it.)


It all started when Uncle Gladio had accidentally called me a different name. 

We where all getting ready to watch a movie, as all three of my uncles where headed out in the morning for a hunt that would take a week to travle to. I couldn’t even imagine traveling more the a couple hours. I was making popcorn for everyone, and watching closely, as I’m know for burning food, but hey I was only 7.

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Pride & Envy

A/N: This came out of nowhere ╮( ̄ω ̄;)╭  I had so many other things to write/draw too… Before i knew it, I wrote two bliplets. Stopped myself and upload it before my brain continued lmao
Rated for violence and NSFW scene I suppose. Writing exercise, Yakuza AU. POV effect is important.
Words: 2,159
Ships: DiaRiko & YouMari, but with DiaMari content


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anonymous asked:

For you: I love your blog!!!!! It's so creative how you make shalnark answer questions. LONG LIVE SHALNARK HES NOT DED ❤️ Also your art is so good! I love your style! Btw may I ask what supplies you use for your drawing? For Shalnark: do you like to sleep? Also how long do you normally sleep/ what's the longest you've ever slept for? (I stayed up for 24+hrs yesterday)

//rest of the ask under the read more ~

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I welcomed you with open arms,
You drove a knife right through my heart.
—  All time low - The Next Big Thing

anonymous asked:

any tips for writing?

just do it.

seriously. the self-doubt will never go away. all you can do is practice. and read more. read more, write more. it sounds like work because it is. and don’t compare yourself to other writers. it’s pointless. you’ll end up in a negative spiral and you may never write again. so just write what you want. write the story you want to read. give yourself permission to write badly. it’s fine. write off all the bad until all that’s left is the good enough and then eventually the Good Writing kicks in.

and let people read it. feedback helps you grow as a writer. the negative comments, and the positive comments, and even the silence that follows all mean something. it’s all a matter of deciphering what means what, but that’s for later.

first, you have to write something.

so write something =)

spam me with anonymous asks maybe?

Also…my boss overruled me in this morning’s manager’s meeting. I didn’t see “the strange lady” on the agenda, as I’d sent him a request to put her on it to discuss whether or not we should permanently 86 her, present a permanent trespass notice, and if she shows up afterwards just have her arrested for trespassing.

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Notes on Entering an Apprenticeship under a Non-Corporeal Entity (or any kind of formal agreement)

- Don’t say yes immediately
Sometimes it’s not the best idea to jump in with both feet, especially if you don’t know the entity very well, yes, even if it’s a vetted one. Non-corporeal entities tend to forget (or not understand) that we are physical beings, with physical limitations. They can push us beyond our limits, or ask us to do something that is dangerous due to our surroundings. Take time to get to know the entity, and, more importantly, let the entity get to know you, and your physical world.

- Write it down before you say yes!
Take time to write down exactly what is expected, from both parties! The entity might come to the table with a list of expectations for you, but without a similar list of what they will do in return, it’s not much of a mutually beneficial arrangement… Don’t accept any excuses or vague promises. The entity should be able to name several specific areas where they promise to help you or teach you about.

- Set a time limit on the agreement (or at least a “get out” clause)
Make sure you have some way to end the agreement, either by a time limit or a “get out” clause. You don’t want to end up being stuck in an open-ended agreement if your personal situation changes drastically.

(All these points are from personal experience, written down as I hash out the details of a formal contract for an apprenticeship under the Tailor)

I dunno, I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed and off lately, so I just needed some Bokuto hugs.

Kuroo draws in a shaky breath, his gaze fixed on his hands.  With a sigh, he squeezes his eyes shut and draws his knees to his chest.

He has no reason to be upset.  He’s doing fine in university.  He’s almost the point of being a regular on the volleyball team, even as a first year.  He’s kept in contact with his friends back home, and has met plenty of new ones.

Most days he’s completely fine.

But some days, he’s not.

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anonymous asked:

Onew isn’t the luckiest person, is he? There was something severe almost every year: his teeth injury (Juliette), the mysterious break (Sherlock), neck injury (Everybody), throat surgery, twisted ankle. When things finally started to look promising, he got drunk and did something seriously damaging to his career. I’m like: Hey Universe, this is a really sincere and hardworking guy who just wants to sing, eat and sleep. And maybe be loved if that isn’t too much to ask for. Give him a break!

Sorry for the late reply. I’d like to make a bad joke about how Taemin’s comeback gave me a fever because essentially I fell sick the night his MV dropped, but let’s not go blaming the poor boy now.

But yes, I don’t know what life has against Jinki but they need to cut him a break. Maybe life is just jealous that despite all his little quirky imperfections, he is so loved - and even his imperfections are loved. It makes me mad to think that even before his vocal surgery, many professionals have commented on his techniques mostly saying he supports well and doesn’t strain his voice and yet he is the one who despite doing everything right, have to undergo surgery. Of course I wouldn’t wish it upon anyone else, but why Jinki who have been taking care of his voice all these time?

Once may be an accident - Singing in the Rain Musical
Twice may be a coincidence - Taking Don’t Let Me Go away from him/minho (although Minho did mainly the rap even in the duet version according to them)
Thrice? I’m onto you, unknown forces who are bullying our Jinki 😒

We may just be fans but like this is a genuine guy, who by the people around him is described as humble, respectful, kind, considerate, all the nice descriptions they have for him. Let him be happy, he deserves it especially after having spread joy to thousands, millions around the globe.

Edit: AND TO ADD ON. THE ONE TIME HE DOES SCREW UP THE MEDIA DECIDES TO DO HIM BADLY. HIS NAME WAS NEVER SUPPOSED TO BE OUT. HE WOULD BE DOING ACTIVITIES (AT LEAST COMPLETING THE ONES ALREADY SCHEDULED) RIGHT NOW WERE IT NOT FOR THE DAMNED NEWS PLATFORMS THAT RELEASED HIS NAME BEFORE ANYTHING WAS CONFIRMED. IF THERE IS ANYONE IM UPSET OVER FOR THIS CASE, IT IS DEFINITELY THE MEDIA. YES HE SCREWED UP, BUT NOT TO THE EXTENT THAT HE DESERVED THIS AMOUNT OF BACKLASH.

I like Neymar as a player and person, but damn, his temper and - more importantly - tendency to lash out physically in anger is so childish and foul. Like, what the fuck is this. What the fuck was kicking a ball at Pablo Armero in the Copa America last summer. Grow the fuck up, Neymar. Kids look up to you. And his coaches, are they addressing this? He’s young with the weight of a country on his shoulders; it’s their job to keep him grounded and help him grow as a person.