when i don't it feels like something is missing

Hospital Starters
  • [ Requested by Anon about a week ago. Warnings for blood, suicidal thoughts, and medical stuff. Thanks! : ]
  • "Hey, you're awake!"
  • "Where am I?"
  • "You hit your head. There was so much blood that I got scared."
  • "Don't try to get up. You're safe here."
  • "I hate this place..."
  • "How could you do this to yourself?"
  • "The world didn't give me a choice, and now, I'm suffering even more!"
  • "You really came..."
  • "I told you I would be here when you woke up."
  • "How many tests did they do on you?"
  • "If I wasn't drugged up, I could tell you the names of every test they do in this place."
  • "When are they going to let you leave?"
  • "They said that I'll be here for a few days. Maybe a week."
  • "What happened to you? You have so many things sticking out of you."
  • "That's what happens when you're dying."
  • "It's probably time to change those bandages..."
  • "You aren't in pain, are you?"
  • "You were in an accident. You almost didn't make it."
  • "That would explain why I feel terrible."
  • "I thought you were dead..."
  • "I'm not dead, am I?"
  • "I didn't know it was this bad..."
  • "I may not live much longer..."
  • "I'm dying..."
  • "You can't die! There has to be something they can do!"
  • "I'm too far gone for any surgery to fix me."
  • "I want you to know that I'll miss you most."
  • "Don't say that! I don't like it when you talk like this..."
  • "I just want it to happen so I don't have to think about it all the time."
  • "I wanted to say goodbye to you one more time."
  • "If you don't get some sleep, I'm going to hit this button and tell a nurse you're bothering me."
  • "Don't abuse that call button!"
  • "You know that button only works every five seconds, right?"
  • "Maybe if I push it hard enough, more will come out."
  • "I get to come home today."
  • "Did you fill out the release forms yet?"
  • "They hooked me up with a bunch of prescriptions. I'm gonna be high as a kite."
how I see the signs and what I want them to know
  • (side note - View of a Virgo rising, Leo sun in the 12th, Libra moon in 2nd, mercury Cancer in 11th, venus Leo in 12th, mars Leo in 11th)
  • Aries: was once my best friend, she made literally everything in my life brighter and always helped me to just enjoy things and stop worrying all the time. Also great hugs. Just simply has that energy, wherever it may be - physically, mentally, staying up until you binge watched that show, giving you their last money so you can get yourself something to eat before you starve to death, always down for a talk and a walk even if they had a packed schedule. Please don't miss out on times when you just have to take a day off to get your beautiful and strong energy back. I care about your health so please don't forget to eat properly and don't miss out on that quality time if needed.
  • Taurus: a girl from my drama class and my little sisters moon sign, I am just so in love with your sense for aesthetic. Total sunshines. I feel like I can always rely on you, super compassionate and knows how to make you feel comfortable when youre not. I love that when you have a goal in your mind, you will give your everything to achieve that! Also so humble but like I want you so desperately to know how beautiful I think you are!! I enjoy your company a lot. Please don't be afraid of changes, I know that's such a mainstream thing to write for Taurus but I really do believe that maybe sometimes you need to be reminded that life can also begin at the end of your comfort zone.
  • Gemini: a guy and a girl from biology class, I am literally stunned at how much these people know. Eloquent fluffballs. I could listen to you spreading knowledge 24/7, make great jokes in my opinion and just kind of knows... everyone?? Get along with so many people, can be very chill but also full of energy when they're talking about things they are interested in. Also fun-fact kings and queens. Please remind yourself to stay loyal to your true friends, you may know many people with whom you get along with so well and for sure everyone is intersting in their own way, but it's very possible to feel lonely in a crowd. Your closest friends will always get you out of that and help you, I promise.
  • Cancer: a close friend of mine, literally the most caring person I've ever met. Actual comedians. I don't know I just straight up fell in love with your humour. All the Cancers I know have or had some extreme physical problems going on, please get well soon if you read this and you're also not feeling well. Mentally on the next level, strong and kind of unbreakable. Don't hide their feelings because they just know that when you bottle up your feelings it's never going to end well. They just get you and will be there for you no matter what. Please take care of yourself just as well as you do with your friends and family, you are a true blessing and it's definitely okay to rant or cry or just let it all out.
  • Leo: my english teacher and a guy I used to be close with, very often completely misunderstood and taken for granted, which can lead to unhealthy behaviour. Will make you feel great after a plain shit day. I strive to be this talented at just expressing myself or being confident, even if you just want the world to think you are confident when you're actually not. Cuddly queens and kings. Better not hurt their pride because it took them a lot of time to actually get to that level and in a world where people hate on you for loving yourself, to them it feels like, despite all their work, they are not worth of loving themselves. Please don't forget that although sometimes it's hard to look in the mirror and like what you see, there are caring and warm-hearted people who love you just the way you are.
  • Virgo: a girl in my class I simply adore, I always annoy you with my endless compliments. Kind of just in love with these down-to-earth and sweet people. Either super chill or worried a lot, I wish I could just hug you until you feel less stressed. Smol but strong beans you can learn a lot from. So reliable, I actually hate doing group projects and always want to do everything myself but since you share that opinion we created something I was really proud of and now we always do them together. Please remember that passion is something you shouldn't be ashamed of, you simply don't have to be because it's something you love and your needs are valid. Also dreaming big, it's possible, especially for you so why not?
  • Libra: a girl I recently got to know and am already completely amazed by, literal social butterflies who sometimes only know in hindsight how much they enjoyed the company of someone because they adapt so easily and it's rare to find someone where you can just simply be yourself. Love how they view life and that they make me want to talk more. Very open and you never feel excluded because they just know how to include everyone. Please don't forget to remind yourself who you truly are and not to lose yourself in another person, because there really is only one you no matter how good you are at adapting to literally every social situation, you are amazing and I want you to be comfortable as well.
  • Scorpio: my dad and my ex boyfriend's mom, two very caring peole in their own way. I always love how sharp their sarcasm can be. Can comfort extremely well when they want to. So many secrets and things to know about them that I can lose myself in them wanting to explore whats actually behind their shell. Teaches you life lessons. Please don't forget that humans aren't flawless and that's completely okay. You don't have to hold onto old grudges, communication is key and talking about these things, confronting these people who did you wrong will help you grow as a person.
  • Sagittarius: an old friend of mine, very cute people who get interested in so many things and they are so versatile and adventurous I absolutely love their lively nature. Memes™. Total dorks you can fall for in a second. Are actually the best partners to just talk to about anything because they will be interested and share their opinion with you. Please remind yourself that cutting off people can be a very wise decision and you don't have to keep up with everyones shit if that's just not what you're in for.
  • Capricorn: I am literally so attracted to these people it's unreal, although I kind of always think that they don't like me...... anyways, my bigger twin sisters are caps and they are humble souls who really had to fight for a lot in life sadly. So proud of you. Keep up with the hard work, you really deserve everything. So realistic and pure I have heart eyes. Supportive and extremely loyal. Will stand up for you if you need it. Straight face™ but still manages to make even the most serious people laugh. Please remind yourself to not overdo it with the work, take a day off to relax and let yourself go maybe, even if it's hard - with the right people you don't ever have to be afraid of being yourself.
  • Aquarius: my ex boyfriend whom I had a crush on for like 4 years, teached me great life lessons. Will always have a weakness for aquas, they just attract me so much, how much of a fluffy dork can you be tbh? Capacity of acceptance is incredible. So much fun to be with. Are kind of just good at everything? You can talk to them about anything, it won't feel weird, they won't question it and just talk to you about that topic. So friendly, an underrated trait in my opinion, just complete and simple friendliness you enjoy to the fullest. Please remind yourself to let people not only see your amazing shell but also your stunning core, there are people who love to talk about the same things you love and nothing about you is weird, you are special and I absolutely love it.
  • Pisces: a very sweet guy I've been texting with for the past months, very open minded and also have that sensitivity I strive to have. Very inspirational smol puppy. Actual daydreamers™, may be late to school but love deeply and would never neglect your love. Kind of hate almost everything that's planned out? (I'm sorry I just love to plan things out) will hug you no matter what. Does not fear to dream big, is very talented at artsy stuff in my opinion. Please don't forget that even if it seems hard, and yes our school system is kind of very bad,we get to have that education and your dreams will be reality if you work hard enough to achieve them. You have so much potential, please don't ever waste it.
I miss the feeling I got when you held my hand, when you smiled at me when I was walking towards you. I miss that feeling I got when I said something and you looked at me like you were in love. Oh my I miss the way you looked at me and how you held eye contact when we had nothing to say. And how you moved to see me when I was crying. Your hand was always so warm and comforting. But do not mistake this for me missing you. I could never miss a monster.
—  I do not miss you, just the feeling from when I was with you.

the-jade-goblin  asked:

OK so I feel like I'm missing something when it comes to Reyes bc like... I don't see what's so great about him? Maybe it's because I've only just met him in-game but I really don't click with him. IDK. Can you help by telling me what you love about him the most? I want to love him like everyone else does. More importantly, how is his romance and should I romance him with my Scott?

I had to think about this, but I think if you haven’t experienced his romance yet, then you’re not going to get it … because I watched his romance on Youtube prior to romancing him and was super skeptical. But then I met him and started flirting, and wow … it’s just such a wonderful relationship. They’re fun, they’re passionate, and they fall in love under a really intense set of circumstances that Reyes never intended.

The way that Ryder and Reyes flirt with each other is amazing. His relationship is unique because it’s super fast and intense - and it isn’t spread over a long period of the game like the other romances are. So you get everything in one quick go. You get to see him warm up to you and realise that you are flirting and you do like him, you get to have these incredible moments with him where he lets you inside you and see the genuine man behind the flirt. He’s more than just this shallow man with a cute accent - he cares about Kadara port and the people. He gives money to the slum doctor so he can treat the poor for free. He wants to return the local angara to positions of power and work properly with their people. He is clever and sassy and completely unlike any other romance in the game.

It’s very hard to explain, but his romance has some incredible moments. Watching the sunset with him when you tell him that he’s someone to you is my favourite. It’s a mixture of the way Reyes looks at Ryder, touches their faces and kisses them with this little smile that just melts my heart. And then you have the whole bad boy aspect of his character - he is more than he seems, and if you stick with his character and lock his romance in, it’s a faithful relationship with a very powerful man on Kadara.

I could wax lyrical about him for ages. I like his confidence, his flirting, the way he comes across as being really tough but has this incredible vulnerable side. I like the way he genuinely cares about your Ryder when you get involved with him and the simple explanation he has for not telling you the truth about his identity - I liked the way you looked and me and I didn’t want that to change. He wants to be someone and he loves that he’s someone in Ryder’s eyes.

I like that his first date with you is such a mess and that he makes up for it by slow dancing with you to jazz. I like that you get so many kisses with him, and little touches, and small intense moments of anger and lust and, yes, sex in a cave (though it fades to black!).

I don’t mind if people reblog to add on things that they love about Reyes. He isn’t a perfect character, but he’s perfect for my Ryder. Sirius adores him, and I have a hard time keeping away from him in each game I play.

TL;DR: His romance is amazing and yes, you should romance him with Scott!

pastelphanime  asked:

what i find interesting is louises response to him? for one thing she hardly ever tweets him but like the question she asked is like one a fan would ask to be noticed? she knows something we don't and trying to act casual to cover it up. when people try to act casual they nearly aways overcompensate and louise is defiantly over compensating for something... dan and phil are getting married in the bahamas #confirmed

appaz swimming with pigs is an actual thing in the bahamas but i still have a tingling feeling that there is something vital i’m missing here

there are some scenes in sunny that sometimes when i watch them i get the feeling that dennis thinks mac is gonna talk about his feelings for him but he never does and dennis goes “oh, okay” but maybe i’m imagining things, i don’t even know anymore

Random ‘Trollhunters’ Question

Does anyone know why it is that Barbara doesn’t seem to feel any pain or other adverse effects when Strickler goes to the dentist in episode 22, even though their souls were intertwined by that point?  Like, do the rules of the binding spell only apply when Strickler is being attacked by an enemy or something?  Or was it because Strickler may have been numbed up with novocaine that she didn’t receive any of the pain?  Or am I missing something?

anonymous asked:

You ever feel childish or something when you're ace? Like when you're younger people say "you'll understand when you're older" and you still don't understand? Like you missed the boat?? Because I feel like that. And I hope I'm not alone.

I am a child, I´m only like 20 like a big child and I like things that are for children. Tho I´ve never connected them to being ace tbh? And you didn´t miss the boat man, you just got onto a different one. Please don´t feel childish for being ace, you´re never to young to know who you are. You´re valid and loved and not childish. And anyone who makes you feel childish for being ace is gonna get a cake smashed in their faces by me!

- Paula

'I Think You Think Too Much Of Me' lyrics sentence starters
  • "This is just another sad song."
  • "I've been thinking that, when we thought the world would break us, that we weren't wrong."
  • "I'm so sorry I can't find the time."
  • "I've been thinking 'bout how I'd react if you were me and I was ghosted out."
  • "I know I should try more, but I've been so caught in my own small shit."
  • "I can't see past the nothing around me."
  • "I've been trying really fucking hard not to try so hard."
  • "I've nowhere left to go."
  • "If I told you how this story ends, would you change a step you take?"
  • "If I could relive all of my days, I'd live them all the same."
  • "I'm scared of all that I don't know."
  • "I want it all, but all of it ain't gold."
  • "I'm learning what I should've long before."
  • "All we are is a light into the darkness."
  • "All we are is time that's counting down."
  • "It's wrong and we ain't been right for years."
  • "Let go, give these ghosts a new home."
  • "Let's bury our past and our fears."
  • "I should've seen it long before."
  • "This is my life; I will not run in circles."
  • "Love means nothing to me."
  • "Love means nothing to me 'cause I don't know what it is."
  • "I'm just dying to be all that I've been dreaming of."
  • "I'm still learning."
  • "I just feel so tired."
  • "You ain't you when you're like this."
  • "This ain't you and you know it."
  • "You don't know how to let go."
  • "Who said this must be all or nothing?"
  • "No, I can't tell you nothing."
  • "I'm a fucking mess sometimes."
  • "I could always be whatever you wanted, but not what you needed."
  • "I'm a fucking mess sometimes and I'll say what I don't mean."
  • "All these feelings don't mean shit to me."
  • "It's all just chemicals anyway."
  • "Make all this just go away and find another heart to break."
  • "I had nothing for you; I can't love."
  • "I can't love when I can't even love myself."
  • "I'm addicted to hurting."
  • "I'm a fucking mess sometimes, but still, I could always be whatever you wanted."
  • "I could always be whatever you wanted, but not what you needed, especially when you been needing me."
  • "Lying’s the only rush I need."
  • "I should've listened last night, girl."
  • "This is beyond belief."
  • "We keep falling for the lure of liquid confidence."
  • "If all we have is time, then we'll be alright."
  • "It's not much but it's better than nothing."
  • "We're running on fumes but we'll make it through the night."
  • "It's not love but it's better than dreaming."
  • "I just need time."
  • "We only hang in evenings."
  • "All these dreams and all these plans we shared under the moonlight."
  • "I just don't know if you'll feel right when I leave in the morning."
  • "Should've told you goodbye."
  • "We're both covered in sand
  • "I don't know just what I'm missing."
  • "They tell me I've got something more
  • "You could be loved."
  • "I just wanna live like the ones before."
  • "Maybe I could save the world or end it."
  • "Maybe they'll remember me when I'm gone; that's all I could ever want."
  • "So I got ten minutes to be all or nothing."
  • "I owe you nothing."
  • "I own my luck."
  • "You'll never be alone again."
  • "I don't think you understand me or what I fear."
  • "I don't want to lie to myself."
  • "I'm more than all the mistakes I've outrun."
  • "I'm only here for a minute."
  • "I don't care what you say."
  • "I can be my own kind of rock and roll."
  • "I don't really care if you say you don't fuck with me."
  • "I can say what the fuck I want cause it's down to me."
  • "I got love for you even if you are doubting me."
  • "I wonder how it feels to burn out young."
  • "I just wanna die before my heart fails from heartbreak or cocktails."
  • "Maybe you'll cry once you know I'm gone."
  • "I ain't scared of living."
  • "Does it get easier?"
  • "What are we breathing for if we ain't living?"
  • "I'll know the day I die, I lived through heaven and that I gave it hell."
  • "If it hurt, oh well; at least that's living."
  • "I'm not worried about you."
  • "I can’t find it in myself to wanna lie to keep this thing from going down."
  • "That girl took my heart and I ain't want it back."
  • "You say it meant nothing."
  • "I shoulda kept my silence."
  • "I guess I’m too attached to my own pride to let you know."
  • "All these words meant nothing."
  • "I've always been this heartless."
  • "We’re just having sex, I would never call it love."
  • "I think I’m catching feelings."
  • "Remember why you said this was the last time."
  • "I don’t know how to forget you."
  • "That girl took my heart."
  • "She's in love with the concept."
  • "We're in love, we just don't know it yet."
  • "How am I supposed to see the magic, 'cause I don't believe in it no more."
  • "It's easier if she thinks she won."
  • "I don't think I love you no more."
  • "You never seem to call me lately."
  • "I don't think you know me at all."
  • "I never thought I'd have to say this."
  • "I don't love you and I never did."
  • "Look at us, burning down in flames for kicks."
  • "So much for trying to keep this moving slow."
  • "I don't believe in her no more."
  • "I remember how we talked shit like we knew what we wanted."
  • "I'm no liar and I never hid anything."
  • "You should've seen it coming to this."
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I am so obsessed with this I don’t even have words. Bongyoung Park and Lia Kim are both such amazing choreographers and when they do dances together it is like something beyond this world. The intense emotions I feel from watching this just… UGH! If you love dance and you aren’t following 1MILLION Dance Studio then please re-evaluate yourself because you are missing OUT.

super-skid-deactivated20170623  asked:

Can you help me because I feel like I missed something: is Oliver a fan name for Yellow Google or is it from Mark? I keep seeing it around and don't know where it came from lol

I happen to know where that’s from.
Apperently when Mark was sending little teasers for the google skit he accidently put ‘Google Oliver’ instead of ‘Googleplier’ which he quickly changed but someone saw it and called him out on it.
He took this as a joke and said google was doing a ‘Oliver update’ and then showed a picture of the yellow google saying that ‘he did look like an oliver’
So that’s where Oliver gets his nickname because Mark did a spelling error

anonymous asked:

Do you know if it is common for ppl with bpd to have problems saying “I“, “me“ or their own name ? I find it hard to introduce myself. It sounds strange to say my name or what I feel and why. It's so confusing like who is me? Who is I? Am I one? Am I two or more? When I say I, I don't feel complete. There is something missing, but I cant name it. Like one me when I am me , but one me when I dissociate and I'm on autopilot. Sorry if it is too confusing ;-; Can anyone explain?

I get what you mean! I find it hard to realise that “lucy” is me, like I know it’s my name but I just don’t see myself with that name as well. I always feel like I exist just a bit outside of my body so there’s my body with “lucy” and then there’s me like “lol who tf am I”. You’re definitely not alone, I do think this is common tbh!

anonymous asked:

those aren't from 2x12. Alec has a repetitive wardrobe and that is magnus' home robe. like pajamas but more posh because he's magnus bane.

I HOPE, ANON. I HOPE. When they said we’re going to get a morning scene, I expected established relationship/completely inlove!Malec, not Malec before the wedding. Although I also want to see what happened between Magnus making cocktails for both of them, and him saying “I know you feel what I feel Alec”(because there’s definitely something THERE that we missed), I am hoping that those morning photos are actually from the night after their huge talk; Alec spent the night because he can’t just leave Magnus after hearing ALL THE THINGS HE REVEALED and he is wearing different clothes than the night before because HE HAS CLOTHES IN MAGNUS’ LOFT. 

Oshea Jackson Jr - iTunes Q&A
  • Question: What's your favorite song?
  • O'shea: The Perfect Beat by Afrika Bambatta
  • Q: What's the scariest movie you've ever seen?
  • O'shea: I don't get scared by movies, really. But I'm easily disturbed. When I first saw 'Hills Have Eyes', I couldn't get some images out of my head. Still actually
  • Q: What's your favorite movie starring your dad?
  • O'shea: All about the benjamins. Super Suuuuper underrated
  • Q: What's your favorite Ice Cube song?
  • O'shea: Natural Born Killaz
  • Q: Whe do you think you'll finish screenwriting at USC?
  • O'shea: When I feel like my writing is missing something. I'll know it's time to sharpen back up and get to my cinematic roots.
  • Q: When can we expect music from you?
  • O'shea: Ingratiate I would love to do music. I still snap over instruments to myself. But they might typecast ya mans if I put certain type record. For now I'm focused on my craft as an actor but my older brother and I have started a producing team.
  • Q: Why haven't you used your snap?
  • O'shea: Everytime I'm on any social media I'm just thinking. "Why am I not on instagram?"
  • Q: What is your favorite part in SOC?
  • O'shea: Smashing Bryan Turners office. We've all wanted to break things with a bat before.
  • Q: What do you like to do in your free time?
  • O'shea: Crush my enemies. Not really. But I'm a real Nerd and I am completely unapologetic. When I gotta unwind it's video game time.
  • Q: Why didn’t you release the video for ‘Ain’t No Place’? Was it because of being typecast?
  • O'shea: Yes. With the movie having buzz around the Academy I didn't want any possibility of the song affecting the film. And I didn't want it to look like I'm Ice Cube part 2 out here. lol.
  • Q: Were you nervous about trying out for the movie?
  • O'shea: I was extremely nervous. I had to audition for two years and when you've never been through the process. You don't know what could've made you or boke you during that little time you had auditioning. If I didn't take the role. The world woulda killed me. If I didn't win the role. The world woulda killed me. And I was it was as movie. The world woulda killed me. At the end of the day, nothing was gonna sop me from immortalizing my dad in film. A lot of people ain't want me to get the part. Be he did and that's all I needed.
  • Q: Celeb crush?
  • O'shea: She's taken already. Don't wanna start waves.
  • Q: Did you practice some of the songs with your father or did you learn on your own?
  • O'shea: The performance and studio scenes in SOC are me in my element. What I'm used to doing. So when I was there it's like, wait y'all want me to rap my DAD's songs? I BEEN DOIN THIS.
  • Q: Were any of the scenes hard to do?
  • O'shea: More cowbell #SNLjoke
  • Q: Actors you look up to?
  • O'shea: Denzel and Leo
  • Q: Did you re-record some of Cube's verses or lip sync?
  • O'shea: We recorded the whole album, fam
  • Q: Marvel or DC?
  • O'shea: If you gotta ask. Somethin must be wrong.
  • Q: Do you like your fathers older movies?
  • O'shea: of course. People don't appreciate what a great film Players Club is.
  • Q: Do you ever feel pressure to surpass all that your father has accomplished?
  • O'shea: I've felt it since I was in the 5th grade. (The pressure) it doesn't come from him. All of it comes from me because I don't want to feed into the narrative of talent skips a generation or the whole "was born on 3rd base, and thought he hit a triple." Aspect. I'm so appreciative of my blessings and the only way to ensure my own legacy is to perfect my craft.
  • Q: Worst movie you've ever seen?
  • O'shea: Movie 43
  • Q: Best compliment you've ever heard?
  • O'shea: When I hear that I inspire someone. Being a celebrity is cute and all but it's smoke and mirrors. I understand that this all can be taken away in an instant. FAME is a jellyfish. Yeah it's beautiful but don't you dare get wrapped up in it. So while I do have a platform, the best thing i can do is to encourage or inspire. If not i'm just being selfish.
  • Q: Are you going to see Kobe play his very last game?
  • O'shea: Yeah I'll be the guy crying uncontrollably being escorted by security
  • Q: Would you take a role in a Tyler Perry movie?
  • O'shea: Is it about a single parent overcoming obstacles while still maintaining their strong christian values?
  • Q: What artist would we be surprised you listen to?
  • O'shea: I love Imagine Dragons and F.U.N.
  • Q: How was it growing up as ice cubes son?
  • O'shea: It has it's perks of course. But kind of annoying until you grow up lol. I have to put people through so many trials in order for you to be considered my friend. You don't know people's motives. My friend Tanner was my very first friend EVER. Met in kindergarten. Just said 'hey I'm Shea lets be friends.' After that.....Everyone else know me as ice cubes son. But my friends. Call me Shea. And it's 5 of them. You just grow up thinking different being ice cubes son.
  • Q: Would you want your kids to follow in your footsteps?
  • O'shea: If it was their choice by all means. My parents allowed us to find our own paths. But give everything your best effort because if you don't, then why are you doing it?
  • Q: What advice would you give your younger self?
  • O'shea: learn how to dunk
  • Q: Fave Rappers?
  • O'shea: Dwayne Michael Carter and Sean Anderson
  • Q: Which Ice Cube verse is your fave?
  • O'shea: "G-d damn I'm glad y'all set it off....."
  • Q: What's your fave app?
  • O'shea: ESPN Radio
  • Q: Will you answer me on day? :(
  • O'shea: "Maybe one Day..." - Drake
  • Q: Do you like Justin Biebers new album?
  • O'shea: I would be lying if I said Justin Bieber didn't have a few tracks on that thang
  • Q: Do you think education is necessary?
  • O'shea: I definitely feel that education is important. But I also feel the mind will not process information it feels it doesn't need. Find what interests you and educate.
  • Q: Growing up, what was the biggest problem you faced?
  • O'shea: Keepin the snakes out the grass.
  • Q: What type of films would you develop as a screenwriter? Is there certain topics that you're passionate about?
  • O'shea: I'm into smart comedies. And movies that don't give a lot away so you're not in the theater tryna guess things before they happen. You kinda just take the films scene by scene like life. If I could write a modern day Big Lebowski, I would be happy as an accomplished writer.
  • Q: Your thoughts about ride along 2?
  • O'shea: needs more me
  • Q: Any difference between before SOC and after?
  • O'shea: I'm a lot meaner and nicer at the same time
  • Q: Any tv shows you want to be part of?
  • O'shea: I would love to be apart of Better Call Saul
  • Q: Favorite place to relax?
  • O'shea: In a woman's presence. #CasonovaAnswer
  • Q: Rihanna or Beyonce?
  • O'shea: Beyoncé whole personality reminds me of my mom. I've never been attracted to her because I see too much of my mom.
  • Q: If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
  • O'shea: For everything to go my way at that moment.
  • Q: Favorite hip hop song of all time?
  • O'shea: Y.O.U. by Redman/Methodman
  • Q: Do you like Hockey? What's your favorite team?
  • O'shea: GO KINGS GO. GO KINGS GO.
  • Q: Do you know how to cook?
  • O'Shea: Only if the BasedGod is okay with it
  • Q: New or Old School?
  • O'shea: 90's. It had more Ice Cube and Dr Dre.
  • Q: Favorite historical figure?
  • O'shea: Mark Twain
  • Q: Dream starting 5 for NBA Basketball?
  • O'shea: Magic Johnson, Kobe Bryant, James Worthy, Kareem-Abdul Jabbar and Shaq
  • Q: What's your favorite word to say?
  • O'shea: It's a cuss word.
  • Q: Star Wars or Harry Potter?
  • O'shea: This can't be a real question.
  • Q: How many Yeezys you got?
  • O'shea: 3. 2 Nikes first editions
  • Q: Would SOC be better if Jason had Eazy with him?
  • O'shea: The fact that he didn't have Eazy is why I would've nominated him
  • Q: If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?
  • O'shea: I'd make everyone more understanding. We'd be fine.
  • Q: Was wondering if you'd like both (Harry Potter/Star Wars)?
  • O'shea: Definitely like both. But give me the force over Magic. #RIPSeverus
  • Q: If you could speak another language what would it be?
  • O'shea: German and Spanish
  • Q: Are you worried that people will only ever see you as your dad's son and not you as yourself?
  • O'shea: Of course. But then I look at people like Kobe, Steph Curry, The Rock...they took their family legacy to new heights. That's my goal.
  • Q: Do you have any tattoo's? if so what do they mean?
  • O'shea: the Roman numeral for 24. XXiV. And before the Kobe talk starts. 24 has always been my number. It's my birthday. 2/24. It just always feels so complete. And my life changed at 24. It's only right
  • Q: Boyz n the hood or Barber Shop?
  • O'shea: Boyz n the hood had a message.
  • Q: Why learn Spanish and German?
  • O'shea: both are used in a vast variate of regions. May come in handy if ever abroad
  • Q: Do you still workout?
  • O'shea: Yeah dude. Still am. But decisions were made and now I'm makin work. #BooHoo
  • Q: What motivates you?
  • O'shea: My family.
  • Q: How are you handling all this attention you're getting?
  • O'shea: in my room ignoring most of it
  • Q: What is the most like you, chocolate or gummy bears?
  • O'shea: Hardest thing I ever had to do
  • Q: Fave Dragon Ball Z Character?
  • O'shea: Kakarot
  • Q: What do you fear most?
  • O'shea: Not being happy is my biggest fear
  • Q: Any advice for aspiring actors?
  • O'shea: Ask yourself why did you start acting. If it's to be famous. You will lose.
  • Q: Favorite disney movie?
  • O'shea: Lion King
  • Q: Do you find it hard to trust people?
  • O'shea: my whole life I couldn't trust anyone.
  • Q: Favorite cartoon to watch growing up?
  • O'shea: Dragon Ball Z or Ed Edd n Eddy
  • Q: How did you deal with people that were only your friend because of your dad?
  • O'shea: I don't deal with them. Bad energy.
  • Q: If you were an animal what would you be?
  • O'shea: Orca. Biggest and strongest in the ocean. And I'm a genius!? In pods running from 12-30 of the homies deep!?
  • Q: What's your type of woman?
  • O'shea: Sexy kind.
  • Q: Number one pick up line?
  • O'shea: You know how much a polar bear weighs? Enough to break the ice. O'shea Jackson, nice to meet you.
  • Q: Do you like apples?
  • O'shea: I got her number....
  • Q: Advice you would give to aspiring actors?
  • O'shea: Be an actor first. And a star 3rd.
  • And the last question, deserves it's own post...That's all folks.
Sounds Good Feels Good sentence starters
  • "I wanna be in the game."
  • "I wanna know, know your middle name."
  • "Right now you're killing the game."
  • "Everybody's gonna go big tonight."
  • "Drive this car through the drive-thru please."
  • "My girlfriend’s bitchin’ 'cause I always sleep in."
  • "She’s kinda hot though."
  • "My shrink is telling me I got crazy dreams."
  • "You’ve got a shot though."
  • "They say we’re losers and we’re alright with that."
  • "We are the leaders of the not-coming-back’s."
  • "We are the kings and the queens of the new broken scene."
  • "Sometimes I’m feeling like I’m going insane."
  • "It's not the end of the world, yeah, we've all been there before."
  • "We don't have to live this way."
  • "We can all get some."
  • "We can't afford to give up."
  • "Situation - no motivation."
  • "I know I'm out of line."
  • "Destination - permanent vacation."
  • "I know I'm an under-achiever."
  • "We're all so proud."
  • "We're the voice of the new generation."
  • "Everybody’s got their demons."
  • "I’m the one who ends up leaving."
  • "Now that I’m broken, now that you know it..."
  • "I’ve got a jet black heart and there’s a hurricane underneath it, trying to keep us apart."
  • "I’m holding on for dear life."
  • "There’s no way that we could rewind."
  • "Maybe there’s nothing after midnight that could make you stay."
  • "The blood in my veins is made up of mistakes."
  • "Let’s forget who we are."
  • "I’ve got a jet black heart."
  • "This is not who I'm supposed to be."
  • "I tried to deceive, tried to win you desperately, now I'm lost in this swirling sea of your sorry eyes."
  • "I will fight to fix up and get things right."
  • "I can't change the world but maybe I'll change your mind."
  • "The ghost of survivor's guilt can be so unkind."
  • "Broken boy meets broken girl."
  • "Maybe this time two wrongs make it right."
  • "We'll safety pin the pieces of our broken hearts back together."
  • "Raise ourselves and a middle finger 'cause they all think we're twisted."
  • "I don't wanna say goodbye to another night and watch you walk away."
  • "I don't wanna waste it, don't wanna waste tonight."
  • "I just need another hit; you're the thing that I can't quit."
  • "I want to be the one you remember."
  • "I want to feel your love like the weather; all over me."
  • "You make it sound so sweet when you lie to me."
  • "Young love, close the chapter, there's no ever after."
  • "Fell fast, ended faster."
  • "How'd we drift so far away from where we left off yesterday?"
  • "All I see is good times disappearing and I'm trying to hold on."
  • "I'm not leaving."
  • "You say you wanna, but do you wanna run away?"
  • "Where you going? Always running."
  • "Look at me in the eye; is anyone there at all?"
  • "Does it have to be this tragedy?"
  • "Why don't you just reach out and make it clear to me?"
  • "They would yell, they would scream, they were fighting it out."
  • "Holding onto a dream while she watches these walls fall down."
  • "Hey mom, hey dad; when did this end? When did you lose your happiness?"
  • "I'm here alone inside of this broken home."
  • "I'm stuck in between a nightmare and lost dreams."
  • "I'm over all the small talk."
  • "I won't waste another day wishing this would fade away."
  • "No one sees me."
  • "I was already missing before the night I left, just me and my shadow and all of my regrets."
  • "Who am I when I don't know myself?"
  • "Wasted days, dreaming of the times I know I can't get back."
  • "Most of my life, I sat on my hands, I don't make a sound."
  • "I've something to prove, nothing to lose."
  • "All of this time, I questioned myself."
  • "Make believe worlds make us all feel alive."
  • "I can still taste you like it was yesterday."
  • "You were more than I deserved."
  • "I wanna get back to where we started."
  • "You know, we had it right."
  • "I swear that it's still haunting me."
  • "I guess I was running from something."
  • "I was running back to you."
  • "If you can love me again, I could let go of everything."
  • "The darkest night never felt so bright with you by my side."
  • "Love me like you did; I'll give you anything."
  • "Carry on, let the good times roll."
  • "You know it's gonna get better."
  • "I got one foot in the golden life, one foot in the gutter."
  • "So close to the other side, so far from the wonder."
  • "Carry on, outlast the ignorance."
  • "I'm chasing your sick little heart."
  • "Would a last kiss leave me wanting more?"
  • "I'm trapped under your spell."
  • "I'm twisted back up in the madness, repeating history."
  • "Promise me, you'll never let me leave."
  • "Damned if I do, damned if I don’t."
  • "I've always wondered where you've been."
  • "Tell me if you wanted it at all."
  • "I got a long term plan with short term fixes."

might be an unpopular opinion but i’m seriously tired of in love john murphy. almost miss the children-strangler

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I wrote these words a while ago. it’s just that today I reversed some noise and wailed until i had a thing?

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See this is why once I stop talking to someone I delete any conversation we may have had cause next thing I know I find an old screen shot and I get all nostalgic and start to miss them and I’m like uh nO IM MEANT TO BE PASSED THIS

onsereverra  asked:

Apologies if this is something you've talked about in the past and I've missed it, but would you be willing to talk a little bit about being single? I'm not in a relationship and don't foresee entering into one anytime soon, and some days I'm totally comfortable with that, but some days I can't help but wonder if I'm missing out, even though I feel like that's not right for me right now. I would love to hear your thoughts on being okay with being single when a relationship feels like the default

I’ve been sitting on this one for awhile, but today I’m in a comfy pajama-wearing hockey-watching beer-drinking rewrite-working kind of mood so I’ll take a stab at it.

There’s a big difference between being alone and being lonely, and the Venn diagram where they intersect is different for everybody. You can be surrounded by people and in a committed relationship and be crushingly lonely, but you can also be alone and not lonely at all.

I am single. I have always been single. I have never been in a long-term relationship. I don’t know why this is, I mean I think I’m fairly awesome and reasonably attractive. Between you, me and the lamppost, I could have had a relationship a number of times if I wanted it, but my standards are probably unrealistic. It’s just the way I’m wired that I FAR prefer being single to being in a relationship that isn’t up to my standards but I’m in just to avoid being single. I have never in my life felt a drive to be coupled, or felt distress because I didn’t have it. So perhaps I’m not the best person to ask, because I really have never felt like I was missing anything. I don’t know if that’s a result of the way I was raised, or just an accident of my personality.

A lot of it probably has to do with the fact that the people around me have never made me feel like being in a relationship WAS the default. My family have NEVER given me the “so when are you going to get a partner” talk, or wondered when I was going to “settle down” or asked for grandkids or implied that I was somehow lacking because I was single. I never got that pressure from them. They have always valued me and the life I’ve made for myself on its own merits. (Part of me wonders if they never thought I COULD have a relationship since I’ve been fat my whole life, so they set about valuing other things about me just assuming that nobody would ever want me, but that’s another discussion)

My father once told me that he admired that I’m so comfortable in my own company. I think that’s a big part of it. I have worked hard to make the inside of my own head an interesting place to live, and myself a rewarding person to hang out with, since I am the person I spend the most time with. 

I have days when I think I’d like to have a partner, someone to share things with. I have other days when I think I wouldn’t want to up-end my entire routine and my life the way I have it. Nothing is without downsides in life. In general, I love my life.

But I definitely sometimes think…why has nobody ever loved me? Why do other people get to have that, but I don’t? Do I not deserve it? Am I just unlovable and hopelessly unattractive? Part of it, I’m perfectly aware, is that I don’t put myself out there for it very much. I might not be an easy person to start a relationship with. I’ve had a lot of first dates that I thought went great and then I never heard from them again. I shrug it off, mostly.

Mostly.

It’s important for all of us, I think, to separate ourselves from the idea that we are not enough by ourselves. I require nobody to complete me, I am a complete person in my own right. I have a lot to offer, but I don’t need a partner to be the recipient. I am not alone in life and I can honestly say that I very rarely feel lonely (if ever). I value myself, my own company, and I don’t let not having a partner keep me from doing anything I want to do.

I’m honestly not sure right now how well I’d deal with having someone constantly in my life all the time, or sharing my living space. I’m so set in my ways at this point. But if I were to meet someone who was worth making those changes, I’d do it. But if I don’t…it’s okay.