when i am mad you talk to me

anonymous asked:

Speaking on jinyoung I need to rant?? I guess it's not me being mad but I also am becuase he's so attractive?? Like they're all are but I need to talk about him for a minute cause that boy is so omg. Idk how to explain it but he seems like those really smart people that you see are really smart and therefor look so goddamn good that you just want to study everything to just do SOMETHING like them??????? He's just so wkeherj especially when he dances cause he's just AHH (this made so much sense)

honestly anon????? i feel u,,, he looks like he is the son of the most beautiful couple in the world and they decided to create him in a castle in sweden where there was a library with more than 100k+ books and also where he read 20 of them in one week when he was 5 and finished the whole collection by the age of 13, when he decided to dedicate himself to astronomy, using his grandfather’s telescope to watch the stars every night… he managed to memorize where and when each star would appear and by the age of 15 he won a science international award which stephen hawking himself gave his trophy to him … but then, at 16, he realized he actually wants to sing and went to korea to practice……. but forreal,,, he seems so smart and analytical, its amazing :0

Imagine your favorite character chasing you out into the rain after a huge fight and kissing you passionately and whispering into your ear with a seductive voice, “I’m sorry babe. Let me make it up to you” as they wiggle their eyebrows and drag you inside.

What do the signs mean when they say "Lets Drink"

Aries- I’m fucking bored and I think this may be the only cure for your shitty personality.

Taurus- I’m just trying to relax here. I earned this. If you try to talk me out of it, I will get mad.

Gemini- You say funny things when you’re drunk. Funny you is my favorite type of you. I might record this.

Cancer- I’m going to trick you into watching House Hunters with me and making fun of the hosts on the Cooking Channel.

Leo- I want to dance….and drinking makes that more acceptable for some reason.

Virgo- I am stressed in this situation and I hope to be more fun when drunk

Libra-I want to drink and I’m hoping by saying it out loud that you’ll be polite and pay for them.

Scorpio- I am insecure about some emotional issue I am currently having. I am using this to shield many feels and to avoid complicated situations.

Sagittarius- I want to drink. I do not care if you want to drink or not, I am going to regardless of your answer.

Capricorn- I want to see how fucking stupid you act while drunk and then laugh about later it when you piss me off

Aquarius- Sometimes being drunk makes me think more clearly, or at least it seems like it at the time. I need to get some shit out of my head.

Pisces- I feel like everyone wants to drink, so I’m going to announce it and hope that I’m right.

trans person: Cis People

the cis: You know, that’s really offensive. What’s so wrong about cis people anyways? You don’t see me talking badly about transgendereded, so why do you have to talk badly about us when we have done nothing to you? That’s oppressive. And since we’re talking about this, when did I even say I wanted to be called CIS? That’s your word; not mine. I don’t appreciate your attitude toward us nor do I appreciate your slur your kind have created. I am not cisgender; I’m normal.

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Just between you and me…when he’s alone with me, your dad only talks about you! Though, he always looks mad and isn’t very good at expressing his feelings.

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Every Character I LoveSantana Lopez (Glee)

“I love girls the way that I’m supposed to feel about boys. It’s just something that’s always been inside of me, and I really want to share it with you because I love you so much. I want you to know me. Who I really am. When I’m with Brittany… I finally understand what people are talking about when they talk about love. I’ve tried so hard to push this feeling away, and keep it locked inside… but every day just feels like a war, and I walk around so mad at the world, but I’m really just fighting with myself. I don’t want to fight anymore. I’m just too tired. I have to just be me.”

1) The first boy I loved didn’t just shatter my heart. He shattered every part of me, even my tongue. When I kiss you, you will bleed.

2) Sometimes when I’m driving at night I let go of the wheel and clench my eyes shut and pretend I’m about to die. I’m not leaving, just imagining. I promise I’ll come back soon.

3) Parents tend not to like me. I always accidentally slip a suicidal comment into conversations. Your mother will probably be calling 911 before she’s calling to invite me back.

4) Loving him turned me cold. When I sleep in your bed you will shiver beside me and I’m sorry about the temperature but I’m here with you and thats a big step for me.

5) Sometimes I need to talk at 3 AM and I know you love to sleep but I love you and I’m trying really hard to do it right so please pick up the phone.

—  I know you weren’t mad when I brought a water bottle full of vodka to your family cookout but I figured these were some things you should know before telling me you can handle this
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glee meme → eight characters [3/8]

“I love girls the way that I’m supposed to feel about boys. It’s just something that’s always been inside of me and I really want to share it with you because I love you so much. I want you to know me, who I really am. When I’m with Brittany, I finally understand what people are talking about when they talk about love. I’ve tried so hard to push this feeling away and keep it locked inside, but every day just feels like a war. And I walk around so mad at the world, but I’m really just fighting with myself. I don’t want to fight anymore. I’m just too tired. I have to just be me.” - Santana Lopez

things introverts do that annoy the shit out of extroverts

(even though we’d never tell you because we don’t want to hurt your feelings)

in response to this post 

1. making us feel guilty for having other friends. we can only hang out and watch netflixs with you so much before we get bored. sometimes we want large groups, loud parties, new people, and we hate it when you keep us pigeonholed.
2. always say no when we ask you to hang out, then get mad if we’re busy when you finally want to chill. ???? our lives don’t revolve around your moods. chill.
3. make us feel ashamed for being ourselves. i don’t think before i speak all the time, sometimes i’m loud, whatever. i’m not embarrassed by who i am, and if you are we shouldn’t be hanging out. i don’t make you feel guilty for not always speaking up, don’t make me feel guilty for talking too much.
4. volunteer us to do things without asking. uh, no. we don’t want to call your optometrist for you because phone calls make you nervous. stop treating us like social slaves.
5. passive-aggressiveness. we can’t fix a problem if you won’t tell us what we did wrong in the first place. somehow introverts still haven’t picked up on this tho.
6. typecast us. there are millions of extroverts and every single one of us is different. we’re not all party-obsessed, socially perfect souls who can make friends anywhere. we have anxiety too, sometimes we’re uncomfortable in social spaces, we also want our alone time on occasion as well. we’re not the stereotypes you assigned us. 
7. refusing to come out and party and then getting offended the next day when you see how much fun everyone had on instagram/facebook/tumblr/etc. we TOLD you you’d have fun if you came and YOU decided not to, how is that our fault????
8. being unnecessarily mean to our friends. we get that you don’t generally enjoy meeting new people, that’s fine. but if we stop to talk to a friend and you’re rude to them because you “hate small talk” or some other trivial reason or WORSE immediately talking shit about them after they leave when they did nothing wrong you’ll only upset us.
9. assuming you’re smarter than us. it’s ignorant to assume that people who talk a lot are somehow less intelligent than people who don’t. we just have too many thoughts to keep bottled up, that’s all.

I keep waiting to be treated badly. Does anyone else do this? Literally every day I think, Today is the day when things will change, when I will overstay my emotional welcome, when this person will decide that treating me well is beyond what I deserve. Every nicety, every act of kindness feels like something I need to lock in a vault. It all makes me realize that my threshold for being treated decently was desperately low for like, all of my adult life. I am full of great advice and lofty standards for my friends. Do this, don’t put up with that. When it comes to myself, it’s like, well, you’re garbage so the rules aren’t the same for you. I get mad at myself when I realize this, when I realize how passive I can be, how I try to be invisible in my own life, how I try to not take up space or require anyone else’s attention or energy.
—  Roxane Gay, “The Kale Was Talking Shit to Me
I love talking to you.
It doesn’t matter if it’s 3 AM,
I just love talking to you.
I love talking to you even when I’m mad at you.
That’s why I argue with you, because I just want to say something to you.
I can’t stand not talking to you.
I start to miss you and that’s a terrible feeling for me.
I can’t stand that you’re away from me because then I can’t talk to you the way I want.
I love talking to you because I love to hear your voice.
Texting does not come close to the feeling I get when I hear your voice.
When I hear your voice,
I fall in love all over again.
Your voice just puts a big smile on my face and butterflies in my stomach.
I love talking to you because you know just what to say to make me feel better.
I just love talking to you and I love you.

Do not call trans people by our ‘dead names’. Don’t. Do not do it. Don’t do it as a joke, don’t do it when speaking about the past, don’t do it when speaking in third person, don’t do it when talking to other people about us when we’re not there, don’t do it even if you’ve known us by that name for 50 years, don’t do it even if you’re mad at us or trying to make a point. Don’t even do it to celebrities, not even Republican ones. Do not do it. Do not.
You are telling us, “it doesn’t matter to me that this crushes you, I am ok with holding your pain over your head, your identity isn’t real to me, and I am not your ally.”
And when you do it to one of us you say this to all of us.

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nayarivera Last day on the Glee set! Spending it in a scene with heathermorristv and druiddude. I have been truly blessed to have been on this crazy ride for the past 6 years and will always hold a special place in my heart for everyone that has been on this journey with me and Santana! ❤️

It’s something that’s always been inside of me and I really want to share it with you because I love you so much. I want you to know me, who I really am. When I’m with Brittany, I finally understand what people are talking about when they talk about love. I tried so hard to push this feeling away and keep it locked inside, but everyday just feels like a war. And I walk around so mad at the world, but I’m really just fighting with myself.
I don’t want to fight anymore. I’m just too tired. 
I have to just be me.” -
 Santana Lopez

“See, my boyfriend is so rude to me about [the fandom]. He really gets mad at me when I talk about how much I love One Direction — he is a musician and he has a huge fucking complex about music and how pop music is dumb and it’s just so stupid. I think he is [also] actually very jealous that I think Harry is essentially the hottest dude around. I’m like, ‘LOL, OK, I AM GOING TO BREAK UP WITH YOU FOR HARRY STYLES WHO KNOWS I AM ALIVE AND ALSO WOULDN’T THINK I’M A LOSER.’ He is a really good boyfriend and I do love him but I have no patience for his attitude toward pop music, which I think we can all agree is generally amazing and life-giving.”
— Noosha, 24, Michigan
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This Cosmo article where they actually talk to grown up ladies who are fans and don’t shame or pathologise or act gross to them and they say the most amazing things is literally giving me life right now.

(Noosha from Michigan is my hero)

Come At Me, Bro

From this point forward, I will demand respect.

In every aspect of my life except board games played with friends where I can talk some mad shit, I apologize. I apologize for somebody walking into me, I apologize for not having something ready right away, I apologize for going to the bathroom before you, I apologize for making an awkward joke. “I’m sorry” is what I say if the subway is crowded and my bag hits your knee. “I’m sorry” is my answer for burping, or getting seconds at the dinner table, or clearing my throat, or asking a question.

I am done saying sorry. I will say sorry when I have fucked up horribly. I will say sorry in the instances where, if I was dragged to Judge Judy’s court, I know she would rule that I need to apologize. I will apologize only when I have done something wrong. I will not use sorry as a reflex answer.

Again, I will demand respect.

I know that you don’t REALLY respect me right off the bat. Being a woman is kind of like applying for a job out of college: you need experience to land a job, but it’s hard to get experience if you don’t have a job. What I mean: the world expects women to have a lot of fucking accolades under her belt to get some respect, but it’s hard to get those accolades in the first place when many don’t respect you. There’s always a man for the job is also what I mean.

I know that even though Shakespeare said “though she be but little, she is fierce,” you’re not even thinking of that quote. Instead, I get limp handshakes. The word “sweetheart.” Sympathetic smiles and non-direct eye contact. You won’t even look at me if there is somebody older, more male, more something in the room.  There are many excuses, of course.  It’s my lipstick–as if wearing MAC Rebel which looks fabulous and feels even better–sucks out all the brain cells and capability out of my head. It’s my outfit. It’s whever the arrow lands on the Blame Game wheel. It’s the fact that us girls are always on our periods, always on Twitter, always just begging for Prince Charming to provide them with joint healthcare.

Bullshit. I demand respect.

I will demand respect the way Meryl Streep says she does: quietly, clearly, and authoritatively. I will not shout. I will not sacrifice my personality or preferences. I will just look you directly in the eye if you won’t look in mine.  I will grip your hand harder in a handshake. I will refuse to apologize. I will wear dark lipstick and sharp eyebrows and sharper intellect. I will be the college education I paid for and the books I read. I will not be an adult child, but I will ask for help when I need it. My battle cry will be “more, more, more” and I will take more than that.

Call me a bitch. Do it. I’m a bitch. I’m a bitch because you won’t be able to take it, you won’t be able to handle the authoritative tone and you will use words that you think will knock me down. But they won’t. I will cradle the bitch. I will chew the bitch. I will break the skin, I will see blood, I will revel in the word bitch.  Come on, call me a bitch. Do not underestimate me. I will still get what I want.

I will demand respect, and then one day, I will have it all: every little bit you wouldn’t give me, I will take for myself.

  • Kuroko:I am not talking to you.
  • Akashi:You’re so cute when you’re mad.
  • Kuroko:Do you want a piece of me?!
  • Akashi:I want all of you babe!
  • Kuroko:Unbelievable! *storms out*
  • Akashi:Come back! I absolutely love the tension between us!
  • Mother:What are you going to pout all day?
  • Me:Sorry, I'm just sick of you being mean to me.
  • Mother:Oh and you're not mean to me?
  • Words I wish I had the courage to say:I am sick of your abuse all the fucking time. You yell at me over nothing or when you're mad at someone else, and then you try to justify it rather than apologising. You never let me talk about things I am passionate for. You're allowed to aim rude "sarcastic" comments at me, but heaven for bid I do the same to you. You tell me to "get over" my anxiety, you make fun of me for things I constantly tell you to stop talking about because I want to forget them. You tell super embarrassing moments to your friends and my friends, and you insist I make friends when you don't even have friends of your own. You threaten to kick me out of the house or put me in foster care, you call me names, and no matter how much I tell you I don't like it, you don't stop or apologise or take back what you said. Yes, I'm mean to you. I am so fucking tired of your abuse, but I can't leave because you raised me to be completely dependent on you so you're not lonely.
  • Me:*pouts*

Sorry guys, but here’s another sad Merthur song.

Talking To The Moon

I know you’re somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
I want you back
My neighbors think I’m crazy
But they don’t understand
You’re all I had
You’re all I had

At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself talking to the moon.
Trying to get to you
In hopes you’re on the other side talking to me too.
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Oh…

I’m feeling like I’m famous
The talk of the town
They say I’ve gone mad
Yeah, I’ve gone mad
But they don’t know what I know
Cause when the sun goes down
Someone’s talking back
Yeah, they’re talking back

At night when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself talking to the moon.
Trying to get to you
In hopes you’re on the other side talking to me too.
Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon?
Oh…

Cuz every night I’m talking to the moon Trying to get to you In hopes you’re on the other side talking to me too. Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon? Oh…Mmm…
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I don’t think you can handle someone like me. You see, i’m hard to deal with. I’m like a puzzle, and it will take you forever to fix me. I’m a stubborn, just like a kid, if i don’t really like it or to do it, then no one can force me. I’m not a girly type, i hate wearing skirts or anything that a normal girl is wearing, i am the definition of a very unladylike . I eat like a man, if you’re with me i won’t be ashamed to show this side of me cause that’s the real me. I’m moody, there are days where i won’t talk to you and i just want to get mad at you for no apparent reason. I cry easily, especially when i’m really tired and sometimes i don’t really know why. There are moments in my life that I want to shut the world down and make those people around me absorb the fact that I am not okay, that i just want to disappear. I’ll push you away if i feel like i don’t deserve you but all i want is for you to stay. I’m complicated that you will never understand this side of me. I’m not attractive. I easily get jealous and i can’t control it, i think that’s girl nature. My personality is appalled and disgusted. When people tell me that they actually like me, I don’t know what exactly to feel. Cause it’s really hard to believe that someone can like me. I possessed a lot of negative things and i’m flawed. So tell me, are you still willing to fall in love with me after knowing these side of me? I don’t think so. No one can stand someone like me.