Kai Parker x Reader
word count : 4 036
summary : Kai is trapped at the Armoury when he gets a surprise visitor.
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“No. Damon, let go of me!” she raised her voice, elbowing the vampire who didn’t even flinch. “I am going to see him and its not up for discussion. He has to know and I have to at least say goodbye to him before you decide to send him away or worse – kill him again.”
Y/N took a step towards the cells when Damon flashed before her. “You are not going.”
“Yes. I am.“ she said more determined. “You are not going to rob our chance to see each other again.”
“He is a psychopath !”
“Just because you all see him like this, doesn’t mean I do or that I ever will! We’ve all done awful things. You can’t judge him for something he did and not hold everyone else by the same standard.” she tried to fight her way through the vampire who tried to push her away. “Damon, move or I swear to God –”
Kai got up, rubbing his sweaty palms on his jeans before roughly running his fingers through his hair. He could hear her footsteps nearing, then it sounded as if she fell and next she broke into a run. There might be at least one upside to being locked up in a cell at the Armoury –he was going to see her again. He missed her and every little thing about her so much. He missed how her nose crinkled when she told a lie, how she ran her fingers through her hair when she was nervous and her smile – her smile with the unbelievable ability to make the darkest moments brighter. Most of all he missed having her in his arms, kissing her, falling asleep and waking up next to her. Not that he’d get to do any of those things seeing how he had just heard her say she was there to say goodbye to him.
After coming back he had tried so many times to find her but each attempt had ended up in failure.Later on had even asked Damon, but the vampire had been so vague in his answer, Kai had almost convinced himself having her in his life had been a dream. That hearing her say ‘I love you’ had been a trick his mind had played on him. That loving her had been just the empathy he had gained from Luke but now he was sure it had all been real. He had never been more sure about anything else – he loved her and he wasn’t going to let go of her. Not that easily.
About a minute passed before Y/N showed up on the other side of the large glass, holding a key card in her hand. Her expression was guarded but her eyes lit up instantly when she saw him. He could hear her heart racing faster than a hummingbirds’ wings and knew it had nothing to do with the fact she had been running. A smile tugged at the corners of his mouth. His girl had been so impatient she had actually ran towards him.
"Hi.“ smiled Kai nervously, taking a step towards the glass. A sigh left his lips realising she hadn’t changed a bit. His girl looked exactly the same, perhaps even hotter than the last time he had seen her and his breath got caught in his throat instantly. For someone who usually didn’t stop talking, he felt absolutely tongue tied in that moment. “Woawh, you look absolutely stunning.”
Y/N glanced at her clothes – ripped in the knees black jeans with paint stains from her art classes earlier and a black/white sleeveless t-shirt, her hair was definitely a mess and her eyes were puffy from all the sad/happy tears she had probably shed since finding out he was back. “You must’ve really missed me to think this is stunning.” she laughed under her breath.
"You always look stunning.“ he smiled, glancing at his shoes for a moment. “D-did you miss me ?”
"I did.“ she ran her fingers through her hair. “More than you can imagine, but -”
"Ahh, there is a but.“ his expression darkened. “That’s not good, is it ?”
Y/N shook her head, glancing at her shoes for a moment before looking at him. “I came to say goodbye.”
"Are you going to say goodbye through the glass ? Cuz that would hurt a lot more than dying and being in Hell ever did.“ he said, unable to hide the notes of hurt in his voice. “Can’t I get at least one last chance to hold you in my arms ?”
Y/N smiled at him, swiped the key card she had been playing with in her hands for the past few minutes and walked inside, the door closing shut behind her. Instantly Kai pulled her in his arms taking in her familiar scent while her arms wrapped around him, holding him tighter by the second. Seeing her say she had come to say goodbye it became clear to him that was not the real reason why she had gone to see him.
"God, I missed having you in my arms.“ he whispered, finally feeling complete again after all the literal Hell he had been through and everything felt absolutely perfect until the moment she pulled away, or at least tried to. “No, no. Don’t – not yet.” his grip around her tightened. “Four years. I haven’t held you in my arms for four years. There is no way I am ever letting you go now.”
"Kai –“ she pushed him away, placed her hands on his shoulders and took a a few steps away from him. “I told you –”
"D-don’t say it. Y/N, please. I can’t be without you in my life.” he took a step towards her, and another until he was standing so close to her she could feel his breath on her face. “I know I screwed up, repeatedly, and then got myself killed. I know I broke your heart but I can change. I will change –”
"Kai, don’t –“ she pushed him an arms length away, feeling his heart racing in his chest. His smoky blue eyes looked so blue in that moment it made her knees go weak and she forced her gaze away. “Don’t make this any harder than it needs to be.” she said, feeling her eyes sting with tears. “I – I came to say goodbye.”
Kai took a small step towards her, brushing his palm against her cheek and almost instantly she leaned in towards it.
"I hurt you. I know.” he said softly. “I linked your best friends growing up together and made it so you won’t ever see Elena again just to get back at Bon Bon for hurting my… feelings. I acted on an impulse not realising I will lose you … and my head, literally, afterwards.” he held onto her wrist and placed her hand on his cheek while slowly backing her against the large cell-glass. “Losing you, not having you in my arms – that was the real Hell and the only way I will ever feel truly alive again is having you by my side. Even as a friend, however painful that is. Just please –”
"Kai, I told you. I came to say goodbye.” she said quietly, avoiding his gaze. “I can’t be your friend or love you anymore. I don’t. You have to let me go. It’s for the best.”
"No. No, you are lying.” he shook his head slightly, seeing her crinkle her nose. “You came for me. I heard the way you spoke. You still feel something for me, other ways you wouldn’t be here.”
"It’s the truth. I know it is.” he rested his forehead on hers, their fingers intertwining together. “It’s in your eyes. I can hear it in your heartbeat, feel it in your body language. You still love me.”
“I don’t.” she looked at her shoes.
“Look me in the eyes and tell me this.”
Kai braced his hand on the glass, feeling the magic coming from the surface and sighed. It would be so easy for him to siphon it and get himself free. Her friends obviously hadn’t had a clue how all the magical artefacts had fuelled the walls and every single nook and cranny of the Armoury with magic. He could siphon it all, wrap his arms around her and whoosh them away somewhere they can’t be overheard and can begin their eternity together just like they had always wanted. Perhaps she was acting like this and saying all those things because she knew her friends were listening in, but he didn’t intend on giving up that easily. Not after everything they had been through.
"Give me one more chance.” he lifted her chin up, forcing her to look at him, lovingly gazing in her eyes. “I will be good, for you. I promise. I promise, I will try. I love you. I never stopped.”
Y/N snorted. Kai looked at her confused watching her morph into Seline right before his eyes. Instantly he took a step back. A tornado of emotions swirled in his mind in the span of seconds – mostly anger and pain.
“Owhh, did you really think she was here? Look how pathetic you’ve become.Love ?”
"You.” he whooshed himself towards her and slammed her in the glass, wrapping his hand around her neck. “Where is she? What have you done to her?”
"She’s fine, sort of. Taking a magical nap upstairs.” smirked the siren. “You made a deal with Cade. No sentimental attachments. Did you really think you can hide her existence from him ?”
Kai tried to strangle the siren, suddenly realising Seline had been in his head the entire time. The siren lifted her hand, waving her fingers at him through the large glass.
"If you touch her, I swear I will kill you.”
"You can’t.” stated the siren. “I am immortal.”
"Damon !!!” shouted Kai, listening in on their conversation upstairs. How hadn’t he noticed the voices from above earlier? Had the siren been really that deep in his mind he hadn’t figured it out sooner? Or maybe he had let the thought his girl was standing before him distract him from everything else. “YOU HAVE TO WAKE HER UP !!!”
"They can’t wake her. No one can.” said the siren. “Your girl won’t make it until the end of the day with that thing eating at her brain and even if by some spectacular miracle she does, she won’t be the same.”
Kai felt all air being sucked out of his lungs. Out of everyone he had met in his entire life Y/N had been the first to truly believe in him, care for him and love him so much she had tried to stand in Damon’s way the night of the wedding. The bravest human in Mystic Falls willing to sacrifice her own life to save the man she loved. And he was willing to do the same for her. He knew he had to save her or at least try to, otherwise he would never be able to live with himself.
"They might not be able to but I can.“ said Kai with determination and closed his eyes, placing his hand on the glass, siphoning its magic away. He tried to focus on what was happening upstairs while the siren started singing, trying to get him to stop which only confirmed his suspicions – he could wake her up. Every time the siren’s voice tried to strip him if his free will he got lost in all the happy memories he had – each of them involving Y/N until the siren’s voice started to dissolve. Kai used magic to choke Seline and stop her from singing. The glass shattered and alarms started to sound all through the Armoury along with flashing red lights. Caroline flashed downstairs glancing between Seline laying on the ground and Kai, who only glanced at her and whooshed himself upstairs in a second.
"Don’t –” he said raising his hands in defence seeing everyone’s shocked expressions. “– don’t kill me. You might not give a damn about me, but we all care about her.” he pointed at Y/N laying unconscious on the sofa.
Bonnie stared daggers at him while Stefan and Damon glanced at each other and the vampire chased after Kai, who whooshed himself to Y/N’s side in a split second. He knelt down next to her and quickly put on a boundary spell around them so no one tries to separate him from her.
"It’s going to be okay.” said Kai softly, kissing her forehead while gently stroking her hair. “I will get you back. You and I – we have unfinished business. I have a lot to make up for. We have so many things to do together, remember ?”
"Step away from her, twirp.” said Damon but Stefan held him back.
"Bonnie has been trying to wake her for almost half an hour.” said his brother. “Let him try.”
"Have you lost your damn mind ?! What if –”
"Her mind is drowning.” said Bonnie, “ I can’t break through whatever Seline did to her. She is dying. We can’t let her die !”
Kai clenched his jaw. “We can argue about it later. Seline is downstairs. I suggest you go deal with that while I wake Y/N up before she –” he swallowed hard. No, he wouldn’t even dare think it let alone say it. No, he was going to get her back.
A moment later he closed his eyes and entered her sub-conscience.
Kai took a step through the doorway, recognising the place instantly – the barn, after he had shattered the glass windows and had killed himself. Worse, just before Damon killed him. As if from a distance he heard his own voice ‘That’s it ? He just left you ? The whole point was that this would torture him for a while. I mean, you’d think he’d at least flip a coin. Heads he picks you, tails he picks –” followed by a piercing scream. Her scream. Kai ran towards her, right past Bonnie who was being healed by Damon, and knelt on the ground next to her. Y/N was standing barely a few feet away from his headless body. Her hands hugged her knees, blood covered her dress and her gaze was locked straight ahead, drifting from time to time towards his dead body. Tears streamed down her cheeks and she kept muttering something to herself which sounded a lot like ‘This is not real. It’s not real. You are not dead. You can’t be dead.‘
“Y/N ?“ he gently rubbed her shoulder. "I am here. I am here, I’m not dead. Well, I am but I am not. It’s complicated, I guess."
Y/N looked up confused, looking straight at him but her gaze was so unfocused it didn’t even appear she could see him. Her hands shot for her head and she screamed in pain, repeating the same words over and over. He took her hand and gently kissed her knuckles while she looked around and right through him. "N-no. S-stop it. I can’t – please make it stop.”
“Stop ? Stop what ?” he asked, hearing his own voice again. Kai looked up and saw himself, looking around confused just as Damon had left. Then Y/N showed up almost 5 seconds before Damon did. She tried to stand in the vampire’s way but Damon pushed her away and she fell on the ground, her scream piercing the air while the eldest Salvatore raised his hand and swiftly beheaded him again. It took Kai a split second to realise Seline had trapped Y/N on a repeating loop of the most painful memory in her life.
“Listen to me. Hey, Y/N –” he cupped her face. “This is not real. I am here with you. Look at me.”
“No. No, you are dead.” she sobbed, holding her head in her hands while the memory played on repeat. “Y-you died.”
“I’m not dead, trouble.” he brushed his palm against her cheek. “I’m back. Seline trapped you in your own mind. Hey, look at me.”
He tried to get her attention but it didn’t seem she could even see him. It was almost as if a part of her mind had shut down and he tried and tried to figure out what to do to get her to snap out of it. He gripped her wrists and did the first thing that popped into his head. He kissed her.
At first her lips didn’t respond to the kiss and she continued to trash against him. Then she stopped and returned the kiss, their lips moving against each other like they had thousands of times before. Slowly he pulled away, gazing into her eyes.
“K-Kai ?” she said, shock and surprise flashing on her face in the span of seconds. “OH my God !”
“Ahh, there she is.” grinned Kai, instantly pulling her in his arms. “You scared me to death ! Y/N –” he cupped her face. “– tell me what happened so I can wake you up. What did Seline did to you ? Did she say something ?”
“Seline ?” she asked confused. “W-wake me up ? What are you talking about ? H-how are we here ?”
“We are in your head. You came to the Armoury to .. say goodbye and Seline, the siren you know the tall dark haired one, did something to you. You um –” he glanced at their fingers intertwined together. “You will die unless I wake you up.”
“I – I don’t know what she did.” she wiped away tears from her cheeks and took a deep breath. “I was – I was walking down to the cells to see you and get you out. Someone jumped me and smacked my head against the wall. Next thing I know – I was here. Watching you die again… and again. I – Kai. Kai, I have to tell you something.”
“Whatever it is, it will have to wait.” he swallowed hard, noticing how the lights around them flickered synchronised with her heart beat and were slowly starting to die down. “You can say goodbye after I save you.”
“Goodbye ?” she questioned. “No. I didn’t come to say goodbye. No, I came for you, to tell you –”
“You – you came for me ?” he smiled and she nodded. “Whatever it is, you can tell me later because you are not dying today. I will not let that happen.” he said determined. He looked around and closed his eyes, muttering a spell after spell holding her in his arms tighter than ever as if doing so would protect her from whatever it is coming next. Y/N cupped his face with one hand and pressed her lips against his. Instantly he returned the kiss before pushing her away slightly gazing in her eyes. There was nothing more he hated in this world than seeing her eyes filled with tears. Except maybe realising the spell he had tried hadn’t worked and they were still trapped there. He felt as if his heart was being ripped out of his chest watching the lights around them starting to die down, but refused to even let the thought inside his mind.
“There might not be later.” she said quietly. “Listen to me, if I don’t make it… W-when I’m gone –”
“No.” he shook his head feeling water start to pool in his eyes. “Don’t say that. You will be alright. I will get you out. This is not a goodbye.”
“No. It’s not.” she smiled. “Kai, you have to tell Caroline I told you about Peter. He looks so much like you, by the way. Actual mischief in human form.”
“What?” asked Kai confused, remembering how she had told her friends that ‘he has to know’.
Y/N smiled through tears at him. “I found out I was pregnant after the wedding. You have a son.”
“What ?” he smiled at her, trying to picture their child in his mind. “I have a son ? Oh my God –” he grinned, smashing his lips against hers. He wondered if their child will love him, if maybe he was a siphoner like his dad or not. Either way Kai knew he’d love him and will do whatever it takes to protect him. And try his best to be the best father in the world.
“MOMMY !” called out a child’s voice.
Kai opened his eyes, looking around confused when a small boy who could’ve been his twin if they were back in the 70’s ran past him. His lips curled into a smile recognising the boy as his son and quickly he got up, realising his girl wasn’t in his arms anymore. She was standing a few metres away from him, catching their son as he ran into her arms. Y/N lifted up the little boy in her arms and motioned for Kai to follow them as they walked through the cemetery, sun rays seeping through the trees. He shortened the distance between them in an instant. Y/N sat on one of the small stone benches, let Peter’s feet on the ground and Kai watched as the little boy sat on the ground before them next to a tomb stone, smiling wider than ever at his parents while playing with a small blue car toy in his hands.
“That’s him ?” smiled Kai, his gaze drifting between his son and the girl he loved the most. Y/N nodded. “He is perfect.”
“He will need you.” she said, taking Kai’s hand while they watched their son make the toy car float in the air, following Peter’s eye movements until the car bumped into the grave stone. That’s when he noticed the name engraved on the tomb stone – his name, Malachai ‘Kai’ Parker. Why wasn’t he surprised she had taken the time to bury him ? How many nights and/or days she had spent here alone, crying ? “Whatever happens… if I make it or not. Promise me you will be there for him.”
“Nothing is going to happen. I will wake you up or put you in a magical coma until I find a spell to wake you and –”
“I am not losing you. I can’t lose you. I just got you back.”
Kai sighed. “Always. I promise.” he said feeling more determined than ever to wake her up. “I love you, trouble.”
Y/N cupped his face with one hand, gazing into his eyes. “I love you too.”
He rested his forehead on hers and started chanting again, all his heightened emotions fuelling his magic powers and he continued muttering a spell after spell until the ground shook and suddenly he woke up in the real world.
“What happened ?” asked Damon. “Did it work ?”
Kai looked around, startled, listening to her weak heartbeat. His girl had come to get him, not to say goodbye. She had come to tell him he had a family, that after all this time he had people who love him unconditionally. She still loved him and now –
“Answer me, twirp !” He lightly shook his head, looking at her for almost a whole minute before her eyes fluttered open and she gasped for air. A collective sigh of relief sounded in the Armoury. Caroline and Bonnie smiled through tears, while Stefan rubbed his fiance’s shoulders and Damon grinned at Y/N.
“Welcome back.” said Stefan smiling. Y/N smiled back looking around at everyone and then at Kai as if seeing him for the first time.
“I thought I lost you !” he said softly, smiling through tears while cupping her face before pulling her in his arms. “I never would’ve forgiven myself if something had happened to you. A-are you okay ?”
Y/N lightly pushed him away, glancing between him and her friends with confusion in her eyes.
“Y/N ?” said Kai smiling nervously. “I’m back, I’m alive.”
“S-sorry.” she smiled nervously. “W-who are you?”