Ted Bundy made life very difficult for his stepfather. Johnnie Bundy tried his hardest to bond with the young boy, but he was aloof to him and refused to be seen with him. Bundy claimed he was “mortified” by his stepfather’s rusty old car, and that he thought of him as a nobody. As he got older, he suddenly refused to call him dad. He then resorted to calling him “father” and eventually “John”. According to close friends, the two of them were very similar, despite their defiance to one another. Johnnie had an incredibly short temper and would whack Ted for his sarcastic or rude remarks. Ted would do the same to other children, getting angry over the smallest of things. Ted’s hatred toward the man his mother loved is probably out of jealousy: When they moved in together, the young Bundy was made to sleep in his own bedroom, away from his mother. He was also bitter over not knowing his biological father. When friends assured Ted that Johnnie wasn’t so bad and that he should appreciate him more, he snarled: “Well, at least you’re not a bastard.”
I feel really good among group of my friends and try to be good friend, but sometimes i am low on esteem, down or just feeling annoying. I worry they will ignore me, get annoyed and get mad at me for not being positive. And sometimes i feel like that group of would do better without me. Any advice since you probably have experience because of the Ainz Ooal Gown guilt?