“Your Bracelet,“ she said. "Acheronta movebo.’ It doesn’t mean ‘Thus
always to tyrants.’ That’s 'sic semper tyrannis.’ This is from Virgil.
'Flectere si nequeo superos, Acheronta movebo.’ If I cannot move Heaven,
I will raise Hell.”
“You know what you realize as you grow up, not everything is how is ‘supposed to be’. Like a lot of people believe you can fall in love at a coffee shop. You get middle aged soccer moms in too tight yoga pants, eleven year olds on IPhones and people who act presumptuous. People think everyone who drives a motorcycle is cool and suave, but I prefer a Motorcycle over a car and I can barely walk straight to save my life. Life is all about twists and turns.”
So, last night I had another date with the Taiwanese guy. I got to learn a lot about him and he did with me. One of our topics we talked about were insecurities. He told me about his past relationships that were a lot of “sad” experiences and I told him about my past whatever you wanna call them and how they were “bad” experiences. The common theme of our discussion last night was insecurities. So, I asked him what is his biggest insecurity with me. He said he had two. A man has never expressed or shown insecurities towards me so I was very shocked to learn how he felt. One of his insecurities is that he believes I have such a colorful life, traveled the world, seen so much, adventurous and always looking for something new and exciting. He says that I am very cultured, and because of this he feels that I may find him very boring because all he is doing now is a PhD and I could find someone more like me who travels and shares similar life experiences. Which then led to his next insecurity, which was influenced by his ex-girlfriends but he felt that he may not be attractive enough, or good enough, and that I would always look for a man who may be better than him and then lose interest in him once I found someone who was better than him.
I completely understand where he is coming from. I come off as a very confident woman but I have so many insecurities that I hide well. He doesn’t know that I don’t see myself the way he sees me. I don’t believe I can find a good man. I believe I can find a man I am attracted to superficially, but in the end that man would always be bad for me. I didn’t tell him this though, because I am ashamed of my past choices of men.
But, I also told him my insecurities I have towards him. I told him I am afraid that I cannot stimulate his mind and he will become bored of me. He is a very intelligent man. He’s always thinking and analyzing and using theories. I guess that’s what happens when you spend all your time doing research on economic theory. But, I told him that because his future is in Academia and he his goal is to become a professor, I feel that I would not be compatible with him because I don’t share the same level of intelligence as him. I am still finding out what I want in life and what my career goals are, where he knows his. I feel that I am not good enough for him because of his educational goals. I didn’t bring up my self-image insecurities yet. I think this is a topic for later, but it is something I have dealt with my whole life. I am not ready to talk about my body image to him yet though.
Anyways, He told me that he doesn’t consider these thoughts when he is dating someone. He said that my insecurities is the first time anyone has ever brought it up. He has assured me that what he likes about me is my confidence.
I am really happy we both opened up about our insecurities. We both said that we would work on these and make each other feel more secure. We both agreed that we would like to see each other again and continue going on dates and see where it will lead to. I won’t see him for another two weeks because he will be preparing for a big presentation. But, I will take these two weeks and reflect on other things I value and want in a healthy relationship. Who knows if this will lead to one, but it’s good to think about that.
i made a Poth fusion/child (whatever you wanna call him either is fine) named Comet! He has a pick ax sort of weapon one side is like a two sided scythe and the other is a paint brush.
He is very conflicted when it comes to physical contact on one hand he wants to hug and snuggle but because he doesn’t want to hurt anyone (because he possesses Goths powers) he doesnt but he really wants to.
hes all in all a happy and fun person but very emotional not on purpose of course and he somehow is only able to get paint on his shirt and not anywhere else on his clothes
instead of glitches he has stars that become glitches when he’s upset
well, that was a VERY unexpected twist! i honestly thought carl or wayne or whatever you wanna call him was going to kill her but nOPE! i hated seeing rayna so scared and hurt. it hurt me so bad that she was like “i wanna go home” “i need to go home” and then she never made it home 😭😭 but i honestly think she’s gonna make it, why write another car crash in just to change the ending?? there are a million other ways to kill off a character.
i really loved this episode apart from the ending, maddie wasn’t being a total brat this time and i loved that we got so much of rayna/daphne. i really want more of that kind of scenes if we get more of rayna.
scarlett was… well, fuck… idek, this whole scunnar thing is kind of boring now, its always this push and pull relationship and i just don’t get it.
juliette was great and i love that the choir decided that they wanted to do this with her because i can see she’s really passionate about this. i don’t get this whole avery thing though… like what’s going on with them???
I NEED TO KNOW DEACON’S NAME!! i also really want to know the whole story behind why he uses deacon instead of his real name…
i am still really upset because of this episode and i’ve cried so many times because of it today so i really don’t wanna make it much longer or weight too much into it so that’s it for this week’s review and tell me what you think, anything you want to add or anything you disagree with? (please respect my opinion!)
Here we have Sam Cipher! or Septic Cipher, whatever you wanna call him! I spent a long time adjusting this so I really hope @therealjacksepticeye likes it! It was originally gunna be a halloween trick or treat but then I watched Gravity Falls and was like ‘omg’