sorry, i gonna have to come back to this moment because it was such a good moment
bakugou is an angry mess. anger’s a secondary emotion; it’s a defensive reaction to another emotion, e.g. you feel angry because you are hurt, you feel unsafe, etc. bakugou feels angry because he has guilt and self loathing in spades, and anger is the only way he knows how to process it.
this panel could be seen as bakugou’s typical bakugou-ness – a la “i don’t need your help” / “i want to (have to) be perfect and i have to do that on my own, you absolute cannot and are not allowed to help me” – but this time it feels different. the context is different. this isn’t bakugou trying to achieve everything on his own; this is bakugou feeling like everything is his fault.
getting kidnapped. all might’s fall. chaos descending on society. his friends nearly being expelled. if he had just been stronger, then none of this would have happened. bakugou’s always been a proud little shit who thought he was better than everyone else, and yet here is all the incontrovertible proof that he is a total failure. that kind of thinking so easily leads to self-hatred, and here bakugou has been marinating in it for days.
and at that point, when you hate yourself that much – when all you can see in yourself are all the failings, all the bad things, all the ways in which you weren’t good enough and thus the scum of the earth – when you get to that point, someone genuinely caring about you feels like a slap to the face.
it feels like knocking all the breath out of you. it feels like adding salt to your wounds. bakugou isn’t just being frustrated with izuku here. he’s hurt. how can izuku ask if he’s okay? how can izuku still care?
bakugou’s in such a terrible mental state that he can’t accept any help right now. at least, nothing but a way to vent his feelings and punish himself at the same time.
i mean, just look at bakugou’s expression here, the way his snarl almost seems like a grin: izuku has just landed a good solid hit on his face, and he’s not even mad about it. he’s getting exactly what he wants.
throughout the series bakugou has expressed himself almost exclusively through attacks (verbal or physical) or by destroying things. it may be the only way he really knows how to give voice to his emotions. izuku shows talent and power during the quirk apprehension test? attack. todoroki doesn’t fight him full power? attack. bakugou is a failure? …
attack himself – or find someone who will do it for him.
i’ve always thought he had something of a self-destructive streak, and here it fucking is.
Scorpius knows exactly who Albus is when they meet in the train carriage. He’s known for years that Harry Potter had a son his age who would probably be in his class at school. He knows that that kid is called Al. He’s seen pictures of him in the paper, of course he has.
Scorpius doesn’t even dare to dream of becoming friends with Harry Potter’s son. He imagines going to Hogwarts and having friends like Harry did, but he doesn’t think for a second that Al would give him any attention. Al is a Potter, and Scorpius is a Malfoy. Gryffindor and Slytherin, most likely, they’ll never even interact.
And then Scorpius is on the Hogwarts express and he hears the carriage door open, and he sees that stunningly familiar Potter face. The green eyes and messy black hair, and his heart stops for a second and he doesn’t know what to do. And Al has no idea who he is, clearly, because he asks to come in. So Scorpius goes out of his way to give Al every opportunity to leave, but he doesn’t. He stays. And he stays. And he stays.
And Scorpius pretends he’s just any other person. Asks what he wants to be called (Albus), offers him sweets, talks to him about Rose. Albus says he’s staying for Scorpius’s sweets, not for him, but still Scorpius has never been happier, and then Albus laughs at the steam coming from his ears as he eats Pepper Imps, and by the end of the train ride they’ve become friends.
That night when they’re lying in beds next to each other in the Slytherin dorm Scorpius can still hardly comprehend it. He’s living in a dream. Not even a dream, because he didn’t dare dream this. This is pure and utter fantasy, the wildest possible reality, and it’s his reality.
*Eminem plays in the background* Guess who’s back
No, let’s get serious. Where do I even start …? First of all I wanna let @murderous-manipulative-angel know that of course I accept her apology. We’re all happy about peace, and I’m very glad that we’ll have alil more of it now. We unblocked each other. We talked to each other. That’s a good thing.
I also wanna apology myself for all this truely emberessing bullshit I’ve wrote. I’m so fucking sorry that I’ve spammed all your dash with me being whiny over life … I’m usually not a person who talk about personal stuff publicly. The last weeks sucked and I took a break to calm myself a lil. After this I was coming here and what happened just felted like a slap in the face. But I shouldn’t had reacted like this, I should’ve reacted calm and eloquent like 24 years old humans should react in situations like this. But wait, that’s the point: We’re all humans. So it’s completely normal and okay to get overwhelmed sometimes, or to get angry. It’s not good to swallow everything, sometimes it just need to be burst out. Just not in a way like I did XD Let’s face it: There will always be hate out there, no matter in which form. But there’s also SO MUCH LOVE. I forgot about that a few days ago, but some angels remembered me that it exists and how it feels. @monroeisabadass for example, my darling, who was there for me all the time, listened to me, and made me smile again.@harleyrotten, @jokers-dream-car, @mrjandmrshq, @harlzquinzel, @clowns-of-gotham, @donnajosee, @ma-ph, @joker-x-harley@rottenqvinzel, @doublebubblediscoquinn, @jsupers, and so, so many other ppl who had wrote me such heart-warming stuff that I seriously had a few tears rolling down my face.
There are a lot of messages in my inbox that make me feel so happy! I just think it’s better to not post them, ‘cause I don’t wanna let those events have a kinda comeback … I apology to all the sweet anons and everyone who took an actual part of their life time to send me so much love and positivity, this means so damn fucking much to me. I’m sure you all understand why I’m not gonna post your messages, BUT please know that they reached not only my inbox but also my heart!!NO I’m NOT gonna cry again!!
This is not really important, but my favourite singer once called his twitter account HateWillNotWin, after Trump made it … XD We shouldn’t let hate win and take over our fandoms. These are lil communitys where we escape to enjoy the stuff we love, ‘cause all of us have enough problems to deal with in the life outside tumblr. I’ll always fight against hate, but I won’t fight hate with hate. This would just keep this endless loop of hate.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you all know that I’m better and I’m back! ♥♥♥
Same! They are best Brotp (and also Jaime/Bart is a good brotp too!). I’m constantly like “Dang I wish there was more art”, and remembering that I can just draw it myself, buuuut then I would have to draw it myself. :^ (
i want you to smash the idea in your mind that there are “important people” and then, there’s you. that there are worthy people, special people, and then, on the other hand, there’s you. nothing is further from the truth. you are important. you are just as important as anyone else, and you’re the hero of your story– as heroic and amazing as your favorite heroes from your favorite stories. you’re the protag. this is your epic quest. this is your Test. and, believe me when i tell you, you’re doing so, so well