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“is that your way of comforting me?” “maybe”

this was supposed to be some kind of zombie apocalypse/the walking dead au requested by @sigh–onara but honestly i don’t even know anymore

the only normal member in MX: Changkyun

a beauty that is so surreal,
i myself cannot fathom.
the sparkle in her eyes,
similar to that of a star in the sky.

i’ve never been so sure of something before,
but today i am so sure that i love her.
i want to do anything and everything,
to make her happy.
i want her to smile,
i want her to laugh.
i want her to understand,
that i want her,
in my arms.

—  k.f
To all the shadowhunters fans out there pls read this

I just need to say what I feel and I don’t even care if I get hate from this, its just my opinion. I don’t hate the shadowhunters TV show but I am getting really sick of them constantly shitting on the books. I am a book fan and I find myself avoiding tumblr which is not something I used to do. I dont mind other people’s opinion on the fandom unless it is degrading to the author and the actual series. I hate the drama going on between the book fans and the tv show fans because I cant even enjoy the fandom anymore. I will forever love this series but I cant stop being sad about the mean thing that are being said about the books. Yes they are not perfect, but it is what makes them so human. I know that some of the character’s actions are stupid or wrong but no one is perfect. I am not supporting incest, biphobia or any of that shit. I dont want you(shadowhunters fans) to forget who created this whole world in the first place. Dont dissrespect Cassandra because of the drama and just stop this nonesense. The fandom was already built and pretty big before you came along and all I ask is for a decent attitude towards eachother. I personnaly watch the show for my ships and I am happy that my OTP malec are getting a lot of attention (which gives me LIFE) but I dont like all of the negativity around book Malec. Eventhough Clace is the main ship in the books, and there is not as much Malec, dont be mad at Cassandra for it. Just appreciate that they are canon and that she keeps writing more stuff about them and their family(max and raphael). This series is really close to my heart and I value it a LOT. So I beg you guys to stop being negative and mean. Just leave the drama out and concentrate on loving the story, the ships, the fanfics, the feels and the fact that we are all fangirls/boys that are in love with the whole shadowhunting world.

Thanks for reading and please reblog if you agree with me

I know a lot of you will be mad but I hope the good old book fans will notice this and be thankful.

❤ to TMI TID TDA AND ALL OF THE FANDOM ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

PLSSSSSSSSS READ THIS

Originally posted by samann98

I honestly have no words to describe the last episode. I HAVE NEVER CRIED SO MUCH IN ANY EPISODE OF ANY SHOW. it was beautiful and quite unpredictable and leaves you wanting.  I NEED THE NEXT SEASON. i dont even know what to do with myself anymore. i am crying so hard.

WHY

IS NIC

SO

FREAKING CUTE?!

Like literally, this FUCKING CINNAMON ROLL.

EVEN WHEN HE HAS JUST GOTTEN BACK FROM KILLING PEOPLES HES ALL LIKE “WAIT WHAT ME? KILL PEOPLE? NO, FOR I AM BUT A MERE CINNAMON ROLL.”

Grown up, or just a lil bby, Nic is adorable af. Worick’s cool too. But Nic is BAE.

[Says the person who is cosplaying as Worick in three days.]

Haikyuu!!Halloween AU part..I don´t know… Well this is the version of AliceDaichi in WonderlandSpirit world

Extra:
“Maria, look! Our son has brough home a human!” 

“Just where did we go wrong?”

Ive told myself Ive moved on, past the silly daydreams and the butterflys and past holding on to my phone in case you called. i dont love you anymore.
Im tired of brushing tears out of my hair and washing your scent out of my clothes with the strongest soap I could get my shaky hands on.
Im over that stupid song you used to play in the car when you picked me up. I want to break the radio when I hear it. I tore everything that had to do with you so tell me how am i still thinking of you. You act like you dont even know me anymore, tell me why is it so hard to forget you?
—  S.M // Tell me what you did to forget me so i can forget you

anonymous asked:

i hope you dont mind my question since you are a kdrama blog. but i dont wear a hijab, and dont really plan on doing so in the future, not for fashion or because i think its oppressive (which i dont), i just dont want to. a lot of people have told me its a sin not to wear it and god won't forgive me but i am a practicing muslim and i dont know what to think anymore. sorry for throwing all this on to you.

hi anon, first up - even though i’m a poor attempt at a kdrama blog, this is also my main account and i’ll happily respond to any kind of ask (so long as they’re not crossing the line lols) - so dont be sorry!

this will sound weird because i do wear a hijab, but… i don’t believe that women are required to wear a headscarf in Islam. 

i’m not a scholar or a sheikh, and i haven’t studied Islam in a great deal - so i wouldn’t take my word as law lmao, but its just my personal opinion. 

the only ones who will know what kind of Muslim you are, are yourself and God. So, as far as i’m concerned, if you feel like you’re a practicing Muslim, then you are a practicing Muslim. And no matter what anyone says, that fact won’t change. 

No one has a right to tell people who and who isn’t a good muslim based on interpreted beliefs. If you were committing a crime, or doing something explicitly haraam - then thats a completely different situation. However, with subjects such as the hijab - that is between you and God. And its no one else’s business tbh. 

FUCKING DONE WITH THIS BULLSHIT.
IM DONE TRYING.
WHY IS IT THAT WHEN I TRY TO COMFORT PEOPLE, THEY FEEL WORSE.
THE FUCK AM I DOING WRONG.
AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH?
AM I NOT THE PERSON YOURE SEEKING ATTENTION FROM?
JUST FUCKING TELL ME, BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE.
I GIVE UP TRYING ANYMORE, BECAUSE EVERY TIME I DO, IT DOESNT MATTER, IT HAPPENS AGAIN.
SO WHAT THE FUCK.
THIS ISNT EVEN ABOUT ANON HATE ANYMORE, ITS ABOUT HOW PEOPLE ARE HANDLING IT.
LIKE, WHEN YOURE ACTUALLY UPSET AND SOMEONE STICKS UP FOR YOU AND SUPPORTS YOU, DONT FUCKING SAY YOURE ALONE AND NO ONE SUPPORTS YOU, BECAUSE THATS BULLSHIT.
THE FUCK.

anonymous asked:

Hey this has nothing to do w ana but i really dont know where to go. My mom's cancer came back and we dont think shell make it and everything fucking sucks and i fucking am so angry and sad and none of my friends ever even fucking care and cant relate to my shit and i dont know what to do anymore im so sorry do you know any resources or shit or can you post this to ask your followerd bc i really dont know what to do i really dont know

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Last night i stayed up quite late thinking about it. Ive noticed ive been quite down more recently but now im determined to take the things that have made me feel like that and turn them upside down. Today i feel so happy and so motivated to face each day with a new energy! I woke up this morning and skipped through the house as soon as i woke up and didnt do the thing i usually do after skipping. I usually just stand and give up and wonder why im even doing anything but this time i just felt so happy and like i was ready to face the day no matter what gets thrown at me. I have a great friend who helped me to get here and i dont know what id be today without all the friends ive had, even the ones i dont really talk to anymore. Ive needed every one of both my good and bad experiences to become the person i am today and to have this specific day where i feel so happy and full of life.
Im making this post because i wanna let everyone who reads this know that even when you feel like crap and just wanna give up, theres still the option that you can take to feel amazing. Ive always thought that posts like this that ive seen before just sound really ignorant because it doesnt feel like a choice when youre really depressed but trust me, last night i made the choice im done letting crap happen and make me feel like crap too. Im done letting the day decide how i feel. Im gonna start making each and every single day count. We’re all here for a relatively short time so why shouldnt we all just grab the day by the hand and skip through it making the best of every second of our existence.
Im not saying im never going to feel sad again because i know im going to have my off days but i know that im motivated to limit those days happen as much as i possibly can. I honestly feel so happy today and i cant wait to start tomorrow feeling the same.
I’m so lucky to have the people that are in my life.

like, when i first made my blog, i have no idea why anyone followed me at all but it was slow going, i was nobody

then people started following me because i started drawing goblins

that escalated quickly

then i stopped drawing as often but people kept following me

now im drawing like once a month at best and theres 640 people following me and sometimes i stare at that number which is still increasing slowly and im like

this shitty content is actually appealing to you people? like people used to come for art and now what? y’all like these stupid reblogs? i know nobody’s here for my dullass personal textposts. what am i even doing anymore to entertain yall i dont get it

i mean i appreciate it

on that note, hi to everyone new i havent greeted! it’s been a longass time since i greeted new followers so

Heres to us
  • Heres to the people who have stopped caring.
  • Who have been hurt so many times that they just dont care anymore.
  • They don't care if people dont like them. They dont care if people think thier mean or a jerk for thinking this way.
  • They dont want to care because when you care you get hurt.
  • Repost.

guys im so terrified about school 😭 i havent been for 2 and a half years and… i dont even know what im worried about. i doubt anyone will even talk to me. itll probably be like before and ill just have to keep my head down and be alone all the time. what the hell am i gonna do at lunch?? ugh ugh this is gonna be so horrible and im so fat and i shouldve lost weight before starting and i hate myself and and and i dont wanna go anymore