what's happening i dont like change

i have literally no sense of time beyond a couple days, either forwards or backwards

something happened a week ago? sure, but it feels the same to me as if it was three weeks ago, or three days. something else happened? ok, but i cant tell you if it came before the other thing, or after, or even on the same day

& if something is more than a week in the future, it just doesnt exist. i cant plan for it. i cant remember any plans people tell me about it. i cant prepare for anything beyond the horizon

its never had too much of an impact on me, but im scared of whatll happen if im a suspect for a crime

‘what were you doing 8pm last friday?’ something, im sure. maybe nothing. honestly i feel like ive only existed this second. ‘you told us this sequence of events before, but now youve changed the order. are you lying?’ i mean im not trying to deceive you but theres a 90% chance that anything i tell you is a false memory. isnt there someone else you can ask? if i try to give you the story again, itll be different again

A bride to spring, a mate to night. 

(Tumblr messed up the quality, for a change, so I had to add the borders to post the full drawing, but please also click it for hd :D)

yesterdays jam

here it is, the it crowd au that no-one asked for. cheers @jiilys and @bantasticbeasts for being legends


Remus Lupin to Lily Evans: so

Lily Evans: so

Remus Lupin: first day

Lily Evans: ya

Remus Lupin: scary

Lily Evans: mmhmm

Remus Lupin: dont be scared

Lily Evans: im not really

Remus Lupin: u should be

Lily Evans: actually now that you mention it i am kind of scared

Remus Lupin: WELL DONT BE

Lily Evans: MAKE UP UR MIND

Lily Evans: god

Lily Evans: its like having a conversation with my anxiety

Remus Lupin: dont make me fire you on your first day here

Lily Evans: pls dont

Remus Lupin: i wont

Remus Lupin: so

Remus Lupin: im putting you in i.t

Remus Lupin: bc u said on ur cv that u have a lot of experience with computers

Lily Evans: u didnt


Remus Lupin to Lily Evans: do u actually /have/ any experience with computers??

Lily Evans: emails?? n stuff

Remus Lupin: “”””emails?? n stuff”””””??

Lily Evans: ya

Lily Evans: sending emails

Lily Evans: receiving emails

Lily Evans: deleting emails

Lily Evans: i could go on

Remus Lupin: do

Lily Evans: the web

Lily Evans: using the mouse

Lily Evans: mice

Lily Evans: using mice

Lily Evans: clicking

Lily Evans: double clicking

Lily Evans: the computer screen ofc

Remus Lupin: ofc

Lily Evans: the keyboard

Lily Evans: the bit that goes on the floor

Remus Lupin: do u mean the hard drive??

Lily Evans: correct

Remus Lupin: well

Remus Lupin: u certainly seem to kno ur stuff

Lily Evans: shut up

Remus Lupin: come on lil,,,they need a new manager

Lily Evans: dont

Remus Lupin: just take the job lil

Lily Evans: ok


Lily Evans to Remus Lupin: so,,,,the people ill be working with what r they like

Remus Lupin: quite literally the worst idiots i have ever met

Lily Evans: excellent


Marlene McKinnon to James Potter: jim

James Potter: have u tried turning it off and on again

Marlene McKinnon: um

James Potter: nice talking to you mckinnon


James Potter to Sirius Black: hey can u answer the phone

Sirius Black: i could but i dont want to

James Potter: and u wonder why no-one ever comes down here

Sirius Black: probably got something to do with that 3 day old coffee stain down ur shirt

James Potter: I TOLD U ALL MY OTHER SHIRTS ARE IN THE WASH


Mary MacDonald to Sirius Black: can u help me

Sirius Black: what with

Mary MacDonald: my computers not working

Sirius Black: have u tried turning it off and on again

Mary MacDonald: yea

Sirius Black: u kno the button on the side

Mary MacDonald: yea

Sirius Black: is it glowing??

Mary MacDonald:

Sirius Black: u need to turn it on mare

Mary MacDonald: ok hang on

Mary MacDonald: how do i do that

Sirius Black: ?? the button turns it on

Mary MacDonald:

Sirius Black: ?? u do kno how a button works dont u

Sirius Black: and if u say on clothes i am going to come up there and personally murder you

Mary MacDonald: I’d like to see you try


Andromeda Black to James Potter: Hey James.

James Potter: andy!!

Andromeda Black: Don’t call me that.

James Potter: sorry

Andromeda Black: It’s OK.

Andromeda Black: I’m having some trouble with my computer.

James Potter: wouldnt u rather talk to ur cousin abt this

Andromeda Black: I could, but I don’t want to.

James Potter: u two r more alike than u know

Andromeda Black: Shut up.

James Potter: absolutely

James Potter: so what seems to be the problem

Andromeda Black: It’s not working.

James Potter: i see

James Potter: have u tried forcing an unexpected reboot??

Andromeda Black: No, let me try.

Andromeda Black: How will that help?

James Potter: well

James Potter: the driver hooks the function by patching the system call table

James Potter: and its not safe to unload it unless another thread’s abt to jump in there and do its stuff

James Potter: and u don’t want to end up in the middle of invalid memory

James Potter: hello

James Potter: andy

James Potter: uve gone havent u


James Potter to Sirius Black: i think i just managed to successfully piss of your cousin again

Sirius Black: what else is knew


Sirius Black to Mary MacDonald: u couldnt handle all this

Mary MacDonald: i could take u any day of the week black

Sirius Black: is that so

Mary MacDonald: yes

Sirius Black: really

Mary MacDonald: stop it

Sirius Black: wow

Mary MacDonald: shut up

Sirius Black: why dont u come down here and make me

Mary MacDonald: what happened to ‘you couldn’t handle all this’

Sirius Black: u think im afraid of you??

Mary MacDonald: yes

Mary MacDonald: my brand new louboutins came in the mail next week and i know exactly the right place to stick them

Sirius Black: IM NOT AFRAID OF YOU

Sirius Black: U CAN COME DOWN HERE ANY TIME AND ILL BE WAITING FOR YOU


Sirius Black to James Potter: that told her

James Potter: can u stop fighting with mary all the time ur clogging the chat rooms


Sirius Black to James Potter: honestly its about time u got back

Sirius Black: its been all ruddy go here

James Potter: really

James Potter: how many jobs have you had

Sirius Black: one


James Potter to Sirius Black: what was the job

Sirius Black: girl on fifth

James Potter: did u hit it off

Sirius Black: define “”””hit it of”””””

James Potter: did she continue to talk to u once u’d fixed her computer

Sirius Black: she gave me her number

James Potter: r u gonna call her

Sirius Black: ?? no

James Potter: so ur just gonna toss it away

James Potter: like yesterday’s jam

Sirius Black: p much yeah

Sirius Black: and i told u to stop using that analogy

Sirius Black: jam lasts for ages


Lily Evans to Remus Lupin: u have unisex toilets??

Remus Lupin: yea

Remus Lupin: for non-binary pals

Remus Lupin: and for people having affairs

Lily Evans: i see


Lily Evans to Remus Lupin: the view up here is amazing

Remus Lupin: yep

Remus Lupin: have u found the elevators yet

Lily Evans: um

Lily Evans: yea

Lily Evans: which floor am i on

Remus Lupin: ur all the way down in the basement

Lily Evans: wait what

Lily Evans: remus

Lily Evans: ur joking arent u

Lily Evans: remus

Lily Evans: remus

Lily Evans: i know ur getting these


Lily Evans to Remus Lupin: remus

Lily Evans: the lift gets stuck halfway down

Lily Evans: and the hallway is full of maintenance stuff

Lily Evans: its disgusting

Lily Evans: i think i saw a rat


Lily Evans to Remus Lupin: ITS EVEN WORSE DOWN HERE

Lily Evans: IM READING A MAGAZINE FROM 1994

Lily Evans: WHAT HAS THE WORLD COME TO


James Potter to Sirius Black: theres a girl outside

Sirius Black: who is she

James Potter: i have no idea

James Potter: i cant go out there sirius

James Potter: i havent washed this shirt in three days and i forgot to put on deodorant this morning

James Potter: i havent even flossed

Sirius Black: who even flosses these days

James Potter: i do

Sirius Black: right

Sirius Black: bc ur a twat

James Potter: a twat who doesnt have gingivitis

Sirius Black: shut up

James Potter: u shut up

James Potter: one of us has to go out there

Sirius Black: u do it


Marlene McKinnon to Lily Evans: everything going ok??

Lily Evans: legit they both just walked out

Lily Evans: one of them was talkin abt tolstoy

Lily Evans: the other one was like “””james shut up u’ve literally never read a book in my life”””

Marlene McKinnon: thats sirius

Marlene McKinnon: he’s my favourite

Lily Evans: then james tried to lean on his chair and slipped over

Lily Evans: he stood up and he was like “”””plenty of people come down here to visit””””

Lily Evans: sirius was like “”””who, jim??? who comes down here???? what people????””””””

Lily Evans: james threw something at him and sirius was like “””””why are you giving me the secret signal to shut up????”””””

Lily Evans: then james was like “””what can we do you for??””””

Marlene McKinnon: cringe

Lily Evans: so i told them

Lily Evans: and bolted

Marlene McKinnon: what r u doing now

Lily Evans: im hiding in my office

Marlene McKinnon: smooth


James Potter to Sirius Black: I AM THE HEAD OF THIS DEPARTMENT

Sirius Black: i thought i was

James Potter: WELL ITS ONE OF US

James Potter: ITS CERTAINLY NOT HER

James Potter: IM GOING TO GO SORT THIS OUT


James Potter to Lily Evans: i dont mean to be rude or anything but i was not informed of any changes happening to this department

Lily Evans: did they not tell you about me??

James Potter: no sir

James Potter: and for what its worth we dont need you down here

James Potter: were perfectly capable of taking care of ourselves

Lily Evans: sure

Lily Evans: you do realise you’re wearing a shirt with a coffee stain down it that looks like hasn’t been washed in weeks


James Potter to Sirius Black: IM SORRY BUT IM NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH THAT WOMAN

Sirius Black: as opposed to all the other women ur able to charm over effortlessly

James Potter: im never speaking to you again

Sirius Black: dw ill deal with her


Sirius Black to Lily Evans: sounds like ur having a v important conversation there

Lily Evans: i am

Sirius Black: also

Sirius Black: just a thought

Sirius Black: do you want me to connect up your phone??

Lily Evans: bitch


Sirius Black to James Potter: she just kicked me out of her office

James Potter: serves u right

Sirius Black: u dont even know what i did

James Potter: dont have to


Sirius Black to James Potter: so basically i went in and she was “””””pretending”””””” to talk to remus

James Potter: really??

Sirius Black: really

James Potter: shes a little bit weird

Sirius Black: i just saw you spraying yourself with cold water bc u said u had “”””””a hot ear””””””

James Potter: ITS A PART OF THAT SPORTING INJURY I GOT LAST SUMMER WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME


James Potter: i cant believe she didnt even get excited when she saw the original zx 81 we have in the doorway

Sirius Black:

Sirius Black: yea, that WAS weird

Sirius Black: totally uncalled for

Sirius Black: its almost as if she doesnt know anything about computers

Sirius Black: james??

Sirius Black: james???

Sirius Black: uve dropped ur phone havent u


Lily Evans to Sirius Black: why is he screaming

Sirius Black: i told him u didnt know anything about computers and he spilt his tea all over himself

Lily Evans: jesus

Sirius Black: yea

Sirius Black: thats why he always makes two cups of tea

Lily Evans: just in case he accidentally drops the first one??

Sirius Black: yea

Lily Evans: wow


James Potter to Sirius Black: she has to go

Sirius Black: why

James Potter: heres the plan

Sirius Black: ooh ooh hang on let me sit down first

Sirius Black: ok go

James Potter: so well go in

Sirius Black: when

James Potter: in like a minute

Sirius Black: will that be enough time for me to get to know the plan??

James Potter: yknow i shouldnt have used the world plan

James Potter: ive clearly got u overexcited

Sirius Black: would “”””scheme””””” be a better word

Sirius Black: actually no thats just as exciting

James Potter: look all i was gonna say was is that we go in, i make up a load of bullocks about computers and well see if she picks up on it

Sirius Black: yea i can see why u didnt want to use the word plan

James Potter: just let me do the talking

Sirius Black: r u sure thats a good idea

James Potter: shut up


James Potter to Sirius Black: we need to get this right

James Potter: we cannot go there in half-cocked


Lily Evans to Marlene McKinnon: i can hear them outside the door

Lily Evans: theyr just,,,,gigglin


James Potter to Sirius Black: i think that went well

Sirius Black: she was pretending to send an email to lupin and you asked her if she wanted you to connect her up to the matrix

James Potter: genius

Sirius Black: and she looked at you and was like “””””u just made all that up””””

Sirius Black: then u lost ur shit and start screaming at her

Sirius Black: at which point she stood up and starting screaming at you

Sirius Black: and u stormed out

Sirius Black: what part of that screams “”””that went well””””??


Sirius Black to Lily Evans: hey do u want me to connect up your computer??

Lily Evans: fuck off


Lily Evans to EVANS KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT COMPUTERS: i cant believe ur going to tell on me

Lily Evans: ur like a pair of horrible old men

Sirius Black: what did she say

James Potter: she said were like a pair of “”””horrible old men””””

Sirius Black: SHE DIDNT


Remus Lupin to horrible old men ft lily evans: so what did u want to tell me

James Potter: well, its like this

Remus Lupin: im so proud of u guys

Remus Lupin: my i.t team

Remus Lupin: team players

Remus Lupin: every single one of you

Remus Lupin: theres no room for people who can’t act as a team in my team

Remus Lupin: u know what happens to people who cant act as a team in my team??

James Potter: what

Remus Lupin: i get security to escort them from the building

Remus Lupin: and if the security team cant escort them from the building as a team, then i fire them too

Remus Lupin: then i call recruitment and get them to look for a security team that can work as a team

Remus Lupin: then i warn them that they may have to escort the current security team from the building

Sirius Black: does this happen often to you then

Remus Lupin: anyway

Remus Lupin: what did u want to tell me

James Potter: well its just not working out

Lily Evans: HAHAHAHAHAHA

Lily Evans: hes joking

Remus Lupin: what do u mean,,,,”””not working out””””??

Lily Evans: ITS NOTHING

Lily Evans: WE ARE GETTING ON A LIKE A BIG HOUSE ON FIRE

Remus Lupin: then why did u text me

James Potter: um

Sirius Black: we installed a voice activation system on your computer

Sirius Black: it might take a while to get the pitch right but but nonetheless

Sirius Black: go ahead

Remus Lupin: wow

Remus Lupin: how exciting

Lily Evans: thats all then

Lily Evans: talk to you later


James Potter to nice save sirius: WHAT GOOD R U

James Potter: U OBVIOUSLY DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT COMPUTERS

Lily Evans: no,,,,but i can learn

Lily Evans: for example sirius,,,,,u can walk me thru what ur doing right now

Sirius Black: ;)))))))) id be delighted

Sirius Black: im just working on a very simple piece of programming software

Lily Evans: on seconds thoughts i am very busy and have better things to be doing with my time thanks bye


Mary MacDonald to Sirius Black: i hope ur ready for me bitch


Lily Evans to Sirius Black: hows your arm

Sirius Black: i never knew louboutins could hurt that much

Lily Evans: yeah

Lily Evans: imagine

Lily Evans: if i hadnt stepped in and asked her out to lunch u’d be nothing more than a pile of fabulous hair right now

Sirius Black: i owe you one evans

Lily Evans: damn right u do


Remus Lupin to FUCKHEADS GALORE: i just spent the last five hours screaming at my computer for nothing

Remus Lupin: do any of u have anything to say for yourselves

Lily Evans: have u tried turning it off and on again??

Ok Baras’ plan would never have worked because I just read the codex and it says no matter who the vessel is, be it a young woman or an old man, the Voice sounds the same. And some of the Dark Council members have spoken to the Voice sooooooooo….

Baras: Hey guys, I’m the new Emperor’s Voice!

Marr: Baras, we know it’s you.

Baras, trying to make his voice sound more gruffHeeyyyyy guyyyyssss, it’s really me, the Emperor’s Voice!

Ravage: No, see, I’ve spoken with the Voice and that voice doesn’t make me want to shove my own cock through my skull the way yours does.

Marr: Whoa! What the fuck, Ravage?

Baras: I WILL NOT BE SPOKEN TO LIKE THIS! I DEMAND OBEDIENCE! ‘TIS I! YOUR EMPEROR!

Ravage: See?

Nox: Shit, let me kill him. Two Darths in one day. I bet that’d be a new record!

Mortis: NO YOU WILL FUCKING NOT, NOX! I JUST HAD THIS ROOM CLEANED!

Marr: Actually, the Emperor killed like thousands of Sith Lords simultaneously back in the day.

Nox: Impressive!

Mortis: Dammit. I see a spot was missed. What the hell is that? Is that….part of Thanaton’s ear?!

Baras: I WILL NOT BE DENIED!! 

Vowrawn: *collapsed on the floor, dying of laughter*

Ravage: If Baras doesn’t die in the next 15 seconds, y'all are gonna see something beyond horrific; my dick going through my own eye socket.

Marr: Please, somebody do something!!!

Nox: I’d pay to see that, Ravage.

Wrath: I’ll handle this.

Baras: NOoOOooOOOOOOOoOOOO!

Mortis, walking over to the “Days Since Our Last Nonsense” board to change it to zero seeing it already says zero: Just once I’d like this number higher than 1.

Nox: This was fun! I’m glad I joined the Council. Thanks, guys.

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hi im thiscrush. i go by the names zei/zura/lyra and i got involved in a  callout earlier and was falsely accused of helping people send rape threats here http://parvo.tumblr.com/post/157768836224/psacallout-on-tumblr-users-116-tentacleds-and 

i have never met op or anyone else on the callout before. all the proof i have atm is under cut.  please reblog if you can.

EDIT: someone had been pretending to be me. op has removed me from the callout

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Combeferre who knows when Enjolras needs advice but also knows when Enjolras just needs a hug and to be left alone.

Combeferre who doesn’t understand his friends’ body dysphoria when first faced with it so spends a whole day reading up and researching so he can be as kind and helpful to them as possible.

Combeferre who doesn’t like to fight but when Courfeyrac got called a poof in a bar the guy was against a wall so quick… Courfeyrac eased him away but he was endlessly smug.

Combeferre who has tattoo sleeves of the universe on one arm and flowers on the other arm because, though he finds endless beauty in space and longs for it every day, he doesn’t want to forget the beauty of what is right on the ground with him. 

Combeferre who worked up a watertight legal argument so Jehan could change their pronouns on their work documents.

Combeferre who is constantly low key aware of how long Enjolras has been wearing his binder in case he forgets (it happens… hes a busy dude).

Combeferre who is helpful and caring as well as fiercely protective of his friends. 

every damn time louis and harry suddenly start throwing hints at us publicly i always think, “i wonder whats going to happen that they have to reassure us that nothing has changed” they have been doing the same obvious patterns for years now, even using rbb too but recently louis did it heavily in january, the symbolic tshirts, “home home home”, going mia for harrys birthday, etc. then one of the past demons came back in feb. and harry dressed like rbb and got papped with a little rainbow pin, the louis tweet, the very obvious mia week, etc. and now this article im just … they always do this and they dont have to but they do and im always so grateful for it, it makes me wonder if louis birthday tweet was all him the same with harrys louis tweet, they are both something else.

anonymous asked:

Do tend to be more vocal during sex/orgasm or are you quiet the whole time? Just curious 🤔

Back when I was first coming up as a Dom I was also studying religion and philosophy. Matter of fact, I have a minor in religious study. 

One of the things that came out of all that was looking into the ways of transcendental meditation, the tantra, and other various forms of spiritual pleasures mixed in with the physical. 

So… whats a man to do? but lock himself inside of an empty room for 4 days and stare at the walls while crawling into the deep crevices of his mind and his soul. 

What emerged from that experience was something so incredibly fascinating that its hard to understand for many.

When I engage in intimacy… its not just a touch and go, kiss and lick and sweat it out kind of thing. Its a full body, emotional, physical and spiritual experience. One in which I become completely immersed not only with my entire body but also with my soul.

A soul that seeks to fully devour and consume what its after.. and translates such through my hands.. my mouth.. my hips… my muscles.. my everything. Words spew like a fountain… grunts.. and moans… deep laughs and growls.. all surface to create an environment within the environment that not only captures the physicality of the experience, but the mind and the emotions as well.

A deep spiritual animal comes out… prowling for satisfaction. It hungers to taste and feel… to examine… to touch.. grab.. pinch.. grope… it seeks to completely become enveloped in the soul of which is receiving its pleasure, and intertwine itself as though it were merging into one flesh. 

The animal takes over and soon reality seems to fade and depart from the scene. What was once simple kissing… light touching.. becomes a complete immersion of ecstasy and absolute bliss. 

I talk… a lot. I tell you every single thing that I am going to do, am doing, and I also make sure you know how much you love it. I growl and grunt… and hum… and make you know how much I love it. I take my time, I do it right… and my main goal is making sure that you walk away from the experience forever changed. My hands dont stop until every inch of you has been touched.. my mouth doesnt stop until youve told me you cant give any more.. and then I make you give again. And when i take over with my waist… my hands, mouth, words, sounds, and entire body dont stop.

And when I am ready.. my entire being is expressed into my release and it becomes uncontrollable. Like a wild beast finally let out of its cage…. 

Hours go by… and your left laying there wondering what just happened, and how. Because it usually becomes one of the most intense highs you’ve ever had. Its a full body experience… its an amazing experience. 

I take intimacy incredibly serious.

and its always more for her… than it is for me.

I Don’t Love You Anymore Pt. 4

My brain is going a million thoughts a second as I swipe the screen, “Y/N! I’ve called you three times! What’s wrong? Are you okay?” she bombards. “Relax, I’m fine. Actually I’m not fine, I just ran into Ashton and Calum,” I breathe out and rub my temples. “Oh my goodness. I’m heading over to your apartment now,” she says and I can hear her jiggling keys. “I’ll buy the beer,” I say. “And I’ll get the Ben & Jerry’s” she replies and we both hang up; this is gonna be a long night.

You can find pt. 3 right here –> I Don’t Love You Anymore Pt. 3


“So…what happened again?,” y/b/f/n asks as she swallows two big spoonfuls of ice cream and finishes her third beer. “I’ve already told you twice,“ I say as I roll my eyes; I love her to death but she can be a real pain sometimes. “Yeah but I learn something different after each time you tell me,” she says, but she really means, “I’m not paying attention.” “Please, y/n last time,” she begs and her words are starting to slur as she reaches for another beer. “No. You’re done,” I snap and take the cold bottle from her hand. This is what I mean, she’s a pain. I’m the one who just went through what felt like life’s worse case scenario, I should be getting drunk, not her. “Awww y/n but I’m not even tipsy,” she says. “I thought you were coming over here to help me figure out what to do with Calum and Ashton, not get drunk,” I say looking down as she ignores me and goes on babbling about some nonsense. This has been a crappy day and all I wanted was my best friend to make me feel better by talking about what happened, her saying a funny joke, or consoling by saying, “I’m out of their league” or “They don’t deserve you” hell, suggest we go out, anything besides what she’s doing now. I open my phone to block out her noise and I notice my Twitter has a million notifications, I open the app to see #Calum&Y/NOfficiallyOverParty trending. My heart beats faster as I read the first tweets: (g/n = girl’s name)


“I’m so happy for Calum. He deserved much more than y/n. #Calum&g/n”

“Calum & g/n are so cute together. I ship them.”

“Calum’s new girlfriend is so much prettier than y/n.”


I throw my phone across the room as tears roll down my face. I literally just seen him 3 hours ago and he didn’t bother to tell me he moved on. No, of course Calum wanted to frick with my emotions and make me believe there was still something there when he already had a new girlfriend. “Y/n what’s wrong?” y/b/f/n asks suddenly sobered up. “He has a girlfriend,” I say looking at her. “Oh sweetie,” she says, immediately knowing who I was referring to, as she pulls me into a tight hug. I cry into her shoulder for a few more minutes before she says, “Sweetie, he is not worth your tears, you already wasted so much on him, don’t waste anymore. Save them for when you’re watching Les Miserables or Lion King,” she jokes making me chuckle. I stop crying and wipe my face on the sleeve of my pajama shirt, “I just wish he had told me. I’d rather hear it from him than Twitter,” I add. “Forget him! There are so many other guys out there, which reminds me why I was calling you,” she says wiping some smeared mascara off my face. “Yes, please tell me why you kept calling,” I say while taking a heaping spoon of cold cream into my hot mouth.

“So guess who asked Niall, who asked Luke, who asked me if you were seeing anyone…” she perks up and jumps to sit on her knees, her eyes all big and excited, now that’s the y/b/f/n I know. “You and Luke?” I question as I raise my eyebrow at her, suddenly their relationship taking my interest. “Don’t change the subject,” she warns and I wiggle my eyebrows at her. “We’ll talk about that later. Now come on, y/n, guess!” she squeals as she gently shoves my shoulder. Oh no, another boy I can’t even deal with the two frickers right now, how can I add another to the pot? I stutter, “I-I’m n-not really interested in–

“Come on, y/n. Honestly, you need to move on. It’s obvious that Calum acted that way in the store because he was jealous seeing you and Ashton that close. Remember how adamant he was about you and Ash and how you could never be alone together; it just brought back memories. And yes Ashton is a good candidate but you already dated Calum. Y/n you can’t mess up their bromance. Both I and the fandom will murder you,” she says seriously. She’s right, it’s been six weeks and I should move on, Calum already has and I can’t break up Cashton. “Well, I guess it wouldn’t hurt to go on one date,” I breathe out, finally giving in after weeks of her begging. “Yay!” she squeals, “So, who asked about me?” I ask curiously, “Shawn,” she sings as she grabs my shoulders in a death grip while giving me the biggest smile. “Mendes? He’s like 2 years younger than me,” I groan as I rub my temples. “So?” she asks. “So? Y/b/f/n he’s a child,” I exclaim, how am I supposed to get over two daddies (lol) with a boy. “Y/n, you’re 21 and he’s 19, what’s wrong with that? Plus he’s fine as hell and I know you like him! I saw you eye-fucking him when he was at the 1D release party,” she says as she reaches for the ice cream again. “I wasn’t eye-fricking him!” I gasp as I snatch the ice cream from her. “Okay, so what was this?” she asks as she looks at me with sexy eyes and starts biting and licking her lips. I burst out laughing at my best friend “eye-fricking” me, “Okay, I did not look like that!” I say. “Oh honey, you were worse. But he was doing it too,” she says taking the ice cream back. “He was?” I ask, not believing the girl. “Totally babe,” she says winking at me. “He is cute,” I admit. “He’s having a party tomorrow night and you’re going,” she says as gets off the couch pulling me with her. “Where are we going?” I ask, “To pick out your outfit. We gotta make you desirable,” she says as she turns around to face me. “Oh I don’t know. A simple outfit will be fine,” I tell her as I turn around to sit back on the couch. “Luke told me that he and the guys were gonna go, meaning Calum and Ashton are bound to make an appearance,” she smirks at me. “We better figure out how I’ll do my hair too,” I say popping off the couch and leading the way to the bedroom as she follows me laughing. “And you better be ready to spill the deets on you and Lukey,” I tell her as she stops laughing making me laugh at her.


A/N: Hello beautifuls, I know this is well overdue but so much has been happening right now. I have been offered new jobs and positions at my school and that’s been taking up all of my time. I’m sorry that this is so late but please still tell me what y’all think. I feel like the more I write the more the plot will change, is that bad? Talk to me! Part 5 is coming soon!!!!!!!!

Part 5 —> /i-dont-love-you-anymore-pt-5

Life in Color Masterlist

Summary: Modern AU. An artist in every sense of the word, Bucky sees color in everything, vibrant as they fill his world with magic. What happens when the colors fade?

Pairing: Bucky x Reader


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Can I also take a second on this wonderful #thicksetthursday to talk about a body type that is never talked about? thanks.

STRAWBERRY BODY TYPES

A part of the reason i’ve hated my body for so long is that I don’t quite fit in with common “thick” or “curvy” body cliches. Because from the waist down I am fairly small. I have no butt, and my thighs, while big, aren’t that large. However, all my weight goes to my breasts and stomach. This, is what we call a strawberry body type. Other traits that can come with this body type are broad shoulders or weight gain on the upper back. 

for example:

(image source)

the “curvy” body types people glorify are generally hourglass, pear, and on occasion even orange. But I grew up hating myself because my large breasts and my general large upper body. I could never describe why I didn’t feel comfortable in either “thin” or “big” labels. It was because the only strawberry body types I saw were my family and maybe, on a rare occasion, some random lady in the store. In my mind, I labeled anyone that looked like me as a freak, a fat, weird, freak who NEEDED a serious breast reduction in order to be pretty.

now that I’ve had that reduction, I’ve realized how stupid I was. Because no amount of plastic surgery can change your overall body shape. AND THAT’S OK!!!!!!!!!! All body types are beautiful, if you choose to adjust your body to make it the way you feel it needs to be, then that’s fine too. I still have dysphoria about my body; I still dont feel like this body is correct or mine and I want to work on it. and guess what, thats ok!!!!!!! Its a work in progress and change will not happen overnight

ok rant over back to fandoms

anonymous asked:

Hiiii!!! i have to ask something that has been worrying me for days now: do you think touka will die? or that she will suffer a drastic change (like, for example, casca from berserk) ? i dont know what hurts the most.. i'm just so worried.. i feel like crying.. help my soul i know that touka is someone really important to kaneki's character, and that she helps him grow, but do you think ishida would do something like that? AAAH I'M SCARED TT A TT

(Man I really need to read Berserk)

I don’t think a drastic change is coming to Touka since it wouldn’t really fit any arc parallels. As for death - well, it ain’t impossible anon, but I still don’t think it will happen. 

It might be that like Kaneki dies and Touka is left behind at the end of the first manga, Touka dies and Kaneki is left behind at the end of this manga. That’s a possibility for a parallel, and the ring Kaneki got this chapter serves as a potential device for Kaneki to remember Touka by after she is gone. Because I don’t want to be accused of wishful thinking, I acknowledge the possibility of this outcome. If Ishida is more nihilistic than I anticipated and :re is in fact about the impossibility of breaking the cycle of tragedy, this could be the way things go.

However.

Because Touka seems to be aware of her own deathflags, I think that we can expect a curveball from Ishida and be hit by a different death in the family. Because of various pieces of foreshadowing, such as the rotten womb poem, the artwork of a person with characteristics of both Kaneki and Touka, and the unprotected sex in 125, I think the real death we can expect is of their child. In fact it’s Touka’s awareness of her vulnerability (esp when/if she finds out she’s preggo) that’s going to keep her alive, although it will be her choice for action that will ultimately result in the child’s death.

Since Kaneki’s had his Sun phase now, what remains is Judgement and The World. Will Kaneki really be able to continue into The World phase if his Sun is extinguished? The loss of a child will be hard, but would the loss of Touka now of all times even be bearable?

Finally, I don’t think :re is about an endless cycle. I don’t see what would be the point in writing it in the first place if that was the case - I would think the original series would be tragedy enough. Touka and Kaneki have already successfully fulfilled the failed missions of their parallels Yoshimura and Eto, proving that the cycle can be broken. And, as is the tagline of :re:

That sounds like a call for hope if I ever saw one. Say it’s only referring to Haise’s dreamworld if you like, but it remains at the tagline for the start of the whole series, and ought to be reflected in the entire thing, just like how “Melancholy becomes this mysterious man of the new age” defined the entirety of the first manga. And the last two stages of the Fool’s Journey are ones of triumph, not failure. Ishida has always championed faith in front of the gaping void. At the end of the first manga, Touka seemingly hopelessly has faith in Kaneki returning to Anteiku, but, come :re, that’s just what happened. 

That’s why I think :re is about hope. Maybe that just means Kaneki will survive, but I think, for something resembling a happier ending, Touka has to be there too. So don’t cry just yet anon, I think we should have faith just like she always did.

You are my baby, and always will be. You won’t know what that means until you have a child of your own, but I tell you now, anyway—you’ll always be as much a part of me as when you shared my body and I felt you move inside. Always.

I can look at you, asleep, and think of all the nights I tucked you in, coming in the dark to listen to your breathing, lay my hand on you and feel your chest rise and fall, knowing that no matter what happens, everything is right with the world because you are alive.

All the names I’ve called you through the years—my chick, my pumpkin, precious dove, darling, sweetheart, dinky, smudge…I know why the Jews and Muslims have nine hundred names for God; one small word is not enough for love.

Voyager

anonymous asked:

LETS TALK ABOUT JIKOOK !!! Okay, so you mentioned 2014-2015 Jimin started to give up and just put some distance with Jungkook.. what exactly was he doing that made it so obvious ?? Sorry, I wasn't in the fandom around that time and I haven't really seen much videos/gifs. Except that video on youtube about how bts was playing that game in the practice room during i need u/dope era and jimin wouldn't look at jungkook like aT ALL.

Oh man here we are. The time has come. I’m actually answering this ask. Strap in y’all.

So anon, I don’t feel like Jimin made it painfully obvious that he was putting distance between him and Jungkook, but I definitely think his behavior (aka undying love) towards him became much more subtle when he realized that not only did Jungkook react strongly to Jimin’s attention, but the fans were reacting as well.

I’d say roughly pre Danger era we had a lot of in your face Jungkookie love coming from Jimin

Originally posted by blockbaptan

It used to be a lot of this

And all of this

Originally posted by ment4lbre4kdown

You can also check out this gifset

http://soekjins.tumblr.com/post/91799296917/jimins-hopeless-crush-on-jungkook

But then it seemed like Jimin relaxed a little. I mean he still doted on Jungkook. But it was more like hyung-dongsaeng rather than boy who has an obvious crush

Originally posted by vmiin

He started to let Jungkook come to him

Originally posted by jikookized

Originally posted by jikookized

Originally posted by jikookized

I do remember that video in the practice room where people were speculating that Jimin was mad at Kookie, but if they really were having a disagreement then I’m sure it was just something small, between close friends, rather than a romantic fight. 

I think what is a little more telltale is the difference in the two when Jimin is asked about his love of Jungkook. Pre INU era Jimin and Jungkook reacted like this

Whereas during INU era after Jimin had calmed down with his affection, this was their reaction to a similar question

Like look at the difference here. Jimin is less forward with his feelings, and much more reserved, but Kookie is over there doing God knows what with his face. Almost challenging Jimin. What has happened here….

It’s like Kookie stopped being as shy and he’s trying to let Jimin know he doesnt mind the attention he used to give him

And after this it’s just a slow build of Jungkook being more and more affectionate towards Jimin, and Jimin getting back to showering Jungkook with attention and honestly they both have never looked happier

Originally posted by omgrandompage7

Originally posted by poppytint

Originally posted by jayfatuasian

Originally posted by jikookized

While I dont think that their relationship has completely changed (they still have a bit of a push and pull) its all a lot more fun now, and they seem to be on equal footing with a mutual understanding. It makes me think that maybe they actually sat down and talked about their relationship and how each of them felt to get to the comfortable place they are in now ~whispers~ in love ~end whispers~

Originally posted by alphabetgirlsx


gif credit: @jikookiejar @jung-koook @soekjins

unfortunatelackofaliens  asked:

insecure/clingy victor makes my life 500% better because it makes him so much more realistic and knowing his character, he'd be the clingiest, most worried about losing the other. like, yuuri gets to the point where he's like "okay this is happening this is f i n e. posters? what posters? he's my husband not my celebrity crush" but they've been married for years and victor's like "I LOVE YOU NEVER LEAVE I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU PLEASE I N E E D I DONT DESERVE YOUR LOVE BUT NEVER LEAVE"

Awwww dang you’re right :/ The beautiful thing about their relationship is that they brought out the best in each other without even necessarily realizing what was happening. But if Victor were to slow down and think about that I think he’d realize just how much Yuuri changed his life and how much he wants/needs to stay with him.

I could picture him spilling all of this to Yuuri one night in bed and Yuuri understanding completely because he can relate Victor’s depression to his own anxiety. Then Yuuri is careful to never threaten to leave him/to never take a domestic fight too far and to reassure him that he’ll stay with him forever. But this still does make Victor clingy in a healthy way and Yuuri is happy to cling right back to him <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

I THOUGHT THE PHANDOM CHANGED BUT CLEARLY YOU PEOPLE HAVENT SO YES IM RANTING NOW!!

I don’t care what you think of Cat. I don’t care how long you’ve been in the phandom or how much you care about Dan and Phil. And I DEFINITELY don’t care how much you ship Phan. Under NO CIRCUMSTANCE IS THIS OK. CAT HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT NICE AND UNDERSTANDING TO THE PHANDOM AND YOU STILL SEEM TO FEEL THE NEED TO TREAT HER LIKE GARBAGE. PHAN ISN’T REAL, I DONT CARE HOW MUCH YOU WANT IT TO BE REAL, ITS NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN SO DEAL WITH IT. And this girl had the NERVE to put a link to her tumblr where she went on and on with how she didn’t like Cat and how she acted all “Top shit” just because she hangs out with D&P like HELLO?!? DAN AND PHIL ARE HER FRIENDS YOU DIP. She doesn’t act “Top shit” she is just being nice. Think what you want to think about her but when you speak to her (Online or in person) You better be damn respectful to her and show her that we as a community accept and respect EVERYONE. Period. If I was in her shoes i would have went off on this bitch but guess what? Cat didn’t, and you want to know why?! Because Cat is a grown woman and she thankfully understands that there are some pretty disrespectful people in this community but she is willing to deal with it.

I’m so ashamed and you all should be ashamed too. We are a community so we work together. If one person does something like this, it affects ALL of us. I don’t EVER want this to happen again to ANYONE. We are a community of love, NOT HATE!!