what was your voice like

there are things I wonder
late at night when the world is dark
and where I rest my head is silent


I wonder where you are
if you’re happy
and I find myself wishing that you were beside me


and it’s been what feels like eons since I heard your voice say my name
since my heartbeat sounding anything but you
since I didn’t ache deep in my bones over what I should’ve said


and I wonder
why I’m so empty 
if I’ve always been this lost, this confused, this hollow


because I remember what it felt when you touched me
how alive I was
and how dead I feel today

—  Unfinished Stories #918 by Abby S
How Dan and Phil probably broke up #34
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Random headcanon meme!

: What does your muse’s voice sound like? Is it light? High pitched? Scratchy? Deep? 

✍ : What is your muse’s handwriting like? Is it neat? Sloppy? Fancy?

☕ : Does your muse prefer coffee or tea?

⌚ : Is your muse good with keeping on schedule for meetings, appointments, or events, or are they always late? Or, are they always a bit early?

♿ : Has your muse had any injuries in the past?

☺ : What is your muse’s smile like? Do they smile often?

⚡ : How does your muse feel about storms? Are they afraid of them, or do they calm them?

⚠ : How does your muse react to possibly dangerous situations? Do they face them head-on, or do they plan out their actions first?

☃  : What is your muse’s favorite season? What about their least favorite season, if they have one? 

☂  : Does your muse like rain?

☼ : Does your muse like daytime or nighttime more?

🏨  : How well does your muse sleep?

: What are your muse’s thoughts on love? If they are not in a relationship, do they believe that they will ever find a perfect someone for them?

☘ : Does your muse believe in luck? How about fate?

⚯ : Does your muse have good eyesight? If not, what is it like? Are they nearsighted or farsighted? Or both? Do they use glasses? Or do they prefer contacts?

👓 : If your muse wears glasses, what are their glasses frames like?

♨ : Does your muse have good table manners? How do they feel about bad table manners?

❀ : What is your muse’s opinion about flower crowns?

♬ : Does your muse sing well? Regardless of whether they sing well or not, do they enjoy singing?

📐 : Is your muse good at math? Do they like it, or do they hate it?

♞ : What is your muse’s favorite animal?

εїз : How does your muse feel about bugs and insects?

📱 : Does your muse prefer calling or texting?

☆ : Of the sun, stars, and the moon, which is your muse’s favorite?

ツ : Does your muse prefer lots of friends, or just a few close ones?

✝ : Is your muse religious?

Fun, but specific OC questions
  • 1. What's their full name? If they're an alien and their name is in their native planet's language, have you thought about what it means?
  • 2. Say your OC made a playlist on Spotify. What bands would be on that playlist? Any specific genres?
  • 3. What kind of video games would they play? Any specific titles?
  • 4. What would their favorite cartoons be, and why? What would their favorite characters be?
  • 5. What's their favorite type of weather? Do they like to do anything specific on days when the weather is how they like it?
  • 6. If they're a fan of Hot Chocolate, Tea, or Coffee, how do they like either of those drinks prepared?
  • 7. What kind of animals would they like as a pet? What names would they give their pets if they got any? If they already have pet's what are their names?
  • 8. How does your OC keep track of time? Do they have a planner? A calendar?
  • 9. How do they write? Do they write in cursive? How do they dot their i's and j's? Do they have specific ways that they write certain letters?
  • 10. What's their favorite time of day?
  • 11. What kinds of foods and drinks do they like? Do they like certain foods to be fried? Do they prefer certain foods to be prepared hot/cold?
  • 12. If they were an actual character in an animated film or TV series, who would they be voiced by? Do they have a certain accent that the person would need to perfect?
  • 13. If you are an artist, and if your OC can draw as well, could you replicate what their artstyle looks like? Or, if you can't, could you describe it?
  • 14. If your OC owned a Tumblr blog, what kind of content would they post?
  • 15. How do they type? Do they use emojis? Do abbreviate and shorten words?
  • 16. If your OC was a film director, what kind of movies would they make?
  • 17. If your OC was a musical artist, what genres would they do?
  • 18. What type of singing voice does your OC have?
  • 19. Does your OC like to collect things? What kind of things do they collect?
  • 20. Was your OC inspired by anything? Another character? A person?
Loose thoughts by Jayalvarrez

I’m usually pretty closed off to sharing any thoughts or feelings but whatever, fuck it maybe I can make someone feel something, these are just thoughts and feelings of MY opinions that I pulled from my list of notes scribbled down in different moments.. I’ve always said it before I barely show 5% of who I really am on social media.. Thank you to everyone who supports me.. I couldn’t live my life like this without you.

Confidence

Confidence is natural, arrogance is forced.

Never think your to smart that you can’t still be the student, wisest people die still learning and improving.

Focus on your own ideas and directions, don’t let others & your mentors tell you everything and influence everything because even the most helping hand has biased ideas and thoughts

Trust your past self on ideas and thoughts it’s the same person you got you to where you are in this moment

You have to believe yourself and convenice your self to feel powerful about what you say, hearing your own voice has a certain ring to it like no one else’s.

Use yourself for everything you are, you truly are amazing and unqiue be loud about it but be humble & do with love.
You are undefinable, You have no single label or group you belong to.. and your mind isn’t even slightly opened yet.

Being honest with yourself saves you in the long run always.

Never be insecure of your creativity.

Don’t live a life based only around how you look, Spending time on your mind and soul is everything..
Determining your self worth off your looks will leave you empty & with short burst of satisfaction.

Remember where you started from and where you are going, You use to dream of the things you have now.. even though this life style becomes casual never forget what got you to this exact moment.


Girls & Sex

My brain is built more like a female than a males, It’s giving me an emotional reach to deeply understand and open up to any feelings or thoughts of any human being. Being soft & loving is being strong.

If she doesn’t want it as much as or more then me I have no interest, sex is mental and eye contact can give you more then anything, giving love is more then expecting all the other persons attention and actions , unless it’s feeding the soul, passionate with a twisted mind it’s a waste of time.. treat every touch on her body like it’s art. 15 second feelings are nice but a feeling in your mind for hours after is even better.


Gorgeous girls and body’s are easy, gorgeous minds and souls are hard. A girl with a beautiful body doesn’t always make for a beautiful girl.

Remember there’s always far better things ahead then anything left behind.

Being sweet & loving to girls will never not be cool, but regardless of gender actions get reactions.

Energy is EVERYTHING.

Never worry about a good looking guy stealing your girl you better worry about that guy who emotionally gets your girl more & makes your girl laugh more 😉.

Getting under a girls skin with just my eyes and words as a connection makes it taste so much better (literally) than relying on physical looks or surface substance to entertain my mind.

I think few people are really built for relationships, I think technology will save us all.

It doesn’t matter how it looks and feels to anyone else it’s how it looks and feels to us.

Don’t let chasing pussy control your life or distract your big plan.

Being physically beautiful is nice but let it be nothing more then the gates to the soul.


Human Relations

i’ve got more personalities then the people i’ve met all together in my entire life combined, I don’t expect people to understand me, more likely expect them to judge me then to ever care to think past clueless first thoughts.

Take everyone with a grain of salt and a open mind, people don’t come with directions.

Peoples opinion of you is their truth, it’s not necessarily your truth or could be even close with to right at all.

The way you talk about the people you hate is a transparency of your own self esteem.

Don’t worry about trusting people, just don’t trust their emotions. Most people can’t understand them self how could they truly trust and understand you, & that’s fine.

Study psychology and history it will give you understanding and every answer you need, the world evolves but human emotions never will, people really aren’t that complex at base.

Don’t fight back into negativity and childishness insecurity, it only makes things worst.

If you want to hurt someone do it mentally, actions are short lived.

If you constantly blame other people for your problems take a look in your own soul.

make peace with your past so it doesn’t ruin your future

Standing up for someone who can’t stand up for them self is the coolest thing you can ever do.

To truly love someone is accepting someone for every thing they come as.

World & thoughts


Language is a forum of communication not always a measure of intelligence, At times I’ve had deeper conversations with just my eyes and touch then I have with words. You could be the most understanding person on the verbal side, but without a emotional understanding you may never be able to communicate with some people.

You don’t need to be any skin tone or ethnicity to practice and enjoy any cultural feelings, every human on this planet bleeds the same blood chances are you ain’t that special.

your not meant to be accepted or fit in, if you were you’d probably not of left that old life.

You can’t blame any one person or culture for anything, this planet is more diverse then you could ever process, Don’t get mad at a person for believing or acting a certain way even if it seems wrong or foolish in your eyes.

Being a good person won’t always benefit you, but there’s some emotional satisfaction in helping others.

You can’t fight science wether you like it or not, it holds the answers to all your fears and to all your questions, It’s a depressing beautiful thing.

Just because the Mass of people believe something is right or wrong doesn’t mean it’s either right or wrong, Most people go off emotions not logic, 1st world go figure.

I feel most alive in moments I don’t feel human. It’s all I really care to live for at times, these split seconds that my mind gives me these chemicals is all I crave at times.

ART HAS NO MASTER OR CRITIC JUST DIFFERENT OPINIONS.


I stand by no perfection and i’m a complete psychopath, I’ve been told i’m crazy outta my mind but attest it keeps me from going insane.. Anything said above can change in the moment & a mind with rules & barriers is limited, a wise & witty mind is what I work towards 😉 I'f any words can make you feel or relate it was worth me sharing! If I annoy and get under your skin for being..well just who I am.. I hope it hurts 👁

Love - @jayalvarrez

@jayalvarrez

Some OC questions
  • 1. Your first OC ever?
  • 2. Do you have a personal favourite among your OCs?
  • 3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else?
  • 4. A character you rarely talk about?
  • 5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?
  • 6. Two OCs of yours that look alike despite not being related?
  • 7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories?
  • 8. Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here!
  • 9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?
  • 10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design?
  • 11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a "sunshine"?
  • 12. Name an OC that isn't yours but who you like a lot
  • 13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?
  • 14. Introduce an OC with a tragic backstory
  • 15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?
  • 16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)?
  • 17. Any OC OTPs?
  • 18. Any OC crackships?
  • 19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)
  • 20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?
  • 21. Your most artistic OC
  • 22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how?
  • 23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like?
  • 24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why?
  • 25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)
  • 26. Have you ever had to change your OC's design or something else about them against your will?
  • 27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song?
  • 28. Your most dangerous OC?
  • 29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they're going?
  • 30. Which one of your OCs would most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection?
  • 31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)
  • 32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why?
  • 33. Your shyest OC?
  • 34. Do you have any twin characters?
  • 35. Any sibling characters?
  • 36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)?
  • 37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human
  • 38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer?
  • 39. Introduce any character you want
  • 40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!
  • 41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)
  • 42. Which one of your OCs would be the most interested in Greek gods?
  • 43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It's time to confess
  • 44. Something you like about your OCs in general
  • 45. A character you no longer use?
  • 46. Has anyone ever told you that you treat your OCs badly?
  • 47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child?
  • 48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure
  • 49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes
  • 50. Give me the good ol' OC talk here. Talk about anything you want
  • If you want, you can tag your ask answers with #yetanotherOCmeme so I can check them out too `v´9

I’m forgetting what your voice sounds like.
I wish you’d call me,
So I can remember how soothing it was.

I’m forgetting what your touch feels like.
I wish you’d caress me,
So I can remember how calming it was.

I’m forgetting what your body smells like.
I wish you’d hug me,
So I can remember how fragrant it was.

I’m forgetting what your smile looks like.
I wish you’d see me,
So I can remember how beautiful it was.

I’m forgetting what your lips taste like.
I wish you’d kiss me,
So I can remember how sweet it was.

I’m forgetting what it was like to be loved by you.
I wish you would come back to me,
So I can remember how it feels to be happy again.

—  Have You Forgotten Me?
Scratching the Itch

Square Filled- Friends to lovers

Rating- Explicit

Tags- Alpha!Dean x Omega!reader, smut,

Word Count- 2300ish

A/N: For @spnabobingo. Hope you enjoy! XOXO


Hunting’s a total blast until you hit your heat. In between each cycle, you only know how much fun it is to catch a case, to get on the road and feel the rumble of Dean’s car beneath you, all open windows and loud music. The fights are always rough, but in the way that makes you feel strong, in a way that makes your muscles ache with anticipation just to think about it. And of course, there’s the feeling of knowing that you saved someone, that you stopped one small little evil and left the world a little better for it.

But then your heat hits, and you remember. Hunting is not ideal for an Omega.

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pull yourself together district leader

Throat

Originally posted by bovaria

Summary: Bucky can’t quite control himself when it comes to you, and he’s not about to change that.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

A/N:  i’m disgusting dude :/

WARNINGS: 18+!, dirty talk, masturbation, gagging, spanking, SLIGHT voyeurism, in general it’s nasty and i’m sorry. also! no condom is used in this but that don’t mean you can go around shoving ya dix and fajitas and whatnot anywhere ya want without protection. keep it safe.

Wordcount: 5,400 (no self control? i think so.)


Bucky Barnes was the kind of man to keep things bottled up. He was the kind of man that clutched his fists tight, kept his mouth shut, and dealt with things in his own time. More often than not, his methods of coping with situations gone wrong usually remained orthodox and controlled. He would sit and write until his mind could write no more and it was easier to breathe. Until he could face his team, face you, and function properly.

You were never an easy team member. Stubborn, scrappy in principles and always looking to give him a wild rush. He could almost say he hated working with you. He hated how you were always questioning orders, even if you often had a point, and how he could never concentrate with you around. Bucky Barnes hated the way you made him feel.

Like he wanted to grab a hold of your hair and smash his lips to yours. Like he couldn’t wait to tell you just how crazy you really drove him.

So it was hard, living with you. Often times, he scorned himself for choosing to reside in your second bedroom rather than in Steve’s apartment. He had been given a choice, and Bucky just couldn’t shut down your offer. He wanted to be closer to you, he wanted the rush in his veins when he was around you. It was different from the Avengers compound. There, he wasn’t alone with you. The team was there.

But here…here, he had you to himself.

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OK, but please consider Trans Spiderman

- That scene in “Civil War” where Peter insists on being called “Spiderman”; not “Spiderling”, or “The Human Spider” (like Tony teased), but “SpiderMAN”

- Tony knows immediately, but doesn’t let Peter know that he knows. Just every once in a while, when Peter finds that he’s low on cash for new binders or hormone treatments, he’ll look in his account and find that a good sum of money has been transferred to him from the Stark account

- Also Tony is more than willing to provide the money needed when or if Peter decides to get top surgery

- Happy is clueless at first. He knows that the new kid is hiding something, but he doesn’t know what exactly. Once Happy confronts Peter about it and Peter tells him Happy is immediately supportive and he instantly sends out a mass email to everyone in Stark industries saying that anyone disrespecting Peter’s gender (or really anyone’s for that matter) will be immediately fired, and he insists on escorting Peter to any Pride marches that he decides to take part in, and he basically vows to go toe-to-toe with anyone who is transphobic towards his spider godson

- Aunt May of course knows (she was one of the first people Peter came out to), and she is more than happy to help her nephew with anything he needs to feel more at home with his gender. Needless to say the night he came home asking her for help with getting ready for homecoming her mind was instantly running a mile a minute with “Oh my god this is it this is the day my little boy is becoming a man oh my god he’s come so far I need to do whatever I can to make sure this night goes perfect I’ll tell him how to slow dance and I’ll get him a corsage for his date and oh shit he’s gonna want to wear a tie with his suit fuck I don’t know how to do a windsor knot Youtube help me”

- Bruh, that scene where Peter is interrogating that one guy and the dude is like “What’s wrong with your voice? I know what a girl sounds like”, and Peter immediately gets upset, yelling “I’M NOT A GIRL I’M A BOY!”


Please feel free to add on with anymore supporting evidence or headcanons

it’s summer again and my hair has reached my waist
i’ve stopped pretending that i don’t miss you
and i’ve stopped trying to convince myself that you miss me too
did you know my father started drinking again?
did you know that my parents are fighting again?
did you know i couldn’t get up this morning?
i’ve tried to ignore your side of the bed but it’s not warm anymore
i can’t remember what your voice sounded like
and i’ve forgotten what it’s like to hold your hand
you know, most nights i look at the sky and try to remind myself that we’re under the same moon
but then again, most nights i go back inside and cry myself to sleep
i’m trying to remind myself that time will help me forget you
that a bottle of vodka and some diet coke will turn me into my father
that people leave and they don’t come back and you can’t do anything to fix it because it can’t be fixed
i’m trying to act like being your friend doesn’t hurt
like it doesn’t tear me to pieces
like i don’t wish i could call you baby and fall asleep to the sound of your voice
—  you set a fire in my heart five months ago and i’ve been trying to put it out
Aisles [m]

Aisle Three

Summary: Jungkook was your best friend. You held onto his secrets. And he knew all of yours. Except for one. One that would change your friendship forever. You were in love with him.

Pairing: Reader x Jungkook

Genre: bestfriend!au, college!au, angst, smut

Word Count: 5,802

Originally posted by sugutie

Aisle One Aisle Two Aisle Three

Surprisingly, it was easy for you to lie yourself and to everyone around you. Flashing a smile anytime someone around you asked you how you were doing. The layers of concealer under your eyelids hiding more than the lack of sleep. You tried to keep yourself busying, burying yourself under piles of books and notes to occupy your mind with anything but Jungkook and how he wrinkled his nose when he smiled.

 In a very strange way you found solace in the amount of schoolwork that was piling up in the pages of your planner. Exams, research papers, and presentations were keeping you out of the house and inside the walls of the library. You were regretting your schedule for this semester, but with the MCAT looming you couldn’t afford to take any risks. Medical school was the light at the end of the tunnel, and not even a bunny toothed boy was enough to keep you distracted.

 Hoseok however, had a problem with the fact that you should probably start paying rent to the librarian. He missed you, constantly sending you reminders to eat and drink water during the hours you were studying. You had regretted the night you told him that you hadn’t eaten since 7 in the morning and 45 minutes later a freckled teenager came into the library with the largest bag of Chinese takeout you had ever seen. And your name was scribbled on the front.

Y/N 9:35 PM: Hobi, I appreciate the thought but can you please stop sending me food while I am in the library.

Hoseok 9: 47 PM: I’ll stop sending you food when you actually sleep in your bed, for once

Sighing, you throw your phone back down on the table. He had a point. You hadn’t slept underneath sheets in weeks. By the time you got home from school you were too tired to make it your bedroom. Every morning waking up regretting the fact that you had decided to buy the lumpiest couch known to man. You knew that this wouldn’t last. That eventually you wouldn’t be able to hide behind the excuses of academics to avoid having a life. You were going to burn out.

But two days later you found yourself in the same position.

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Love is constant forgiveness. And it sure has been a hard week for a lot of folks. My heart has been hurting because of the choices of my country’s new leadership. In all that I haven’t much felt like picking up my camera. Sometimes you gotta rest and figure out what your voice is gonna sound like. And this morning my encouragement to you is to call your representatives, let them know what you think. You matter and it helps.

In the mean time I’m gonna keep celebrating these silly little moments that make me smile. I’m gonna go explore all corners I’ve never seen. And I’m gonna keep aiming to better live out that love is constant forgiveness.