what was obvious is that they wanted you to think that

You miss the obvious thing

A few days ago everybody went crazy because the episode was leaked and almost everyone was convinced it was fake. We all assumed there was another one.

Now after TFP was aired people are going crazy because it was the real episode. No other episode. The leaked episode was just a sick joke.

BUT I’m convinced that’s exactly what the writes want us to think! We’re going crazy about the leaked episode being the official version and we don’t consider another ‘real’ episode anymore. Not at this very moment because we’re sidetracked.

I think that’s exactly what this is about. They wanted to disappoint us in an almost obvious way so that if the 'real’ final episode airs we’re even happier.


I hope you all understand what I’m trying to tell.

Before anyone said anything - yes, the wheel was NOT the only good part of GMM. I love the show, I love Rhett & Link, and I still think they’re funny as heck.

BUT I can’t help but be sad because, as GMM gets more and more scripted/formulaic, the wheel endings have always (with the obvious exception of Gifticality) been the part where you didn’t know what to expect. We’ve gotten so many great moments namely from wheel endings! Plus, the guys have great acting and improv skills and I’ve always been amazed by the creative way they’ve interpreted the wheel prompts. That’s why I can’t help but miss the improv spots.

On the other hand, they’ve seemed tired by the wheel for months now. Maybe they want to keep that creative energy for more scripted content like Buddy System? One thing is for sure, they no longer enjoy the improvs the wheel made them do. Would I want to watch them do stuff they don’t like? No, we’ve got the Will Its for that, and that’s more than enough. So maybe they’ll be happier that way, they’ll have more creative energy to venture into new projects and create new things. 

If they like it and they’re happier that way, I’ll try to accept it and keep enjoying the show, with or without wheel endings. It won’t make me suddenly stop missing the old wheel and being sad about it, but I think it’s worth trying. And I’m sure I’ll eventually get used to that change too.

P.S. Everyone has the right to express their opinion on the matter, so please don’t try to silence anybody, even if you totally disagree. And please, PLEASE don’t force your opinion on others, even if you think you’re right. Be your mythical best, everyone!

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 In the rules, we didn’t say anything about the bubble roleplaying as we thought it was obvious already- this isn’t a shipping oriented roleplay. We adore character development and we totally love seeing your characters having a other half…but, character development doesn’t  only run around the character you ship yours with or the ones your charcater have a interesting plot with. It involves random characters that they wouldn’t usually interact with because let’s be honest- even in real life we speak with people that we basically have nothing in common with but we do interact with them.
 What we ask is: please, do not bubble roleplay! You might not think you’re doing, but some of the roleplayers are feeling bad. Respond to as many starters as you think you can handle from the tag, send someone a message when you think of dropping the thread with them because it’s a terrible feeling to just be left out and we wouldn’t want anyone to feel bad or not in place here.
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The 100 ways to say I love you challenge —  #1 “Pull over.  Let me drive for awhile.”

post-break up! Namjoon/Jimin; right hand man!namjoon + CEO!jimin


Namjoon used to read Jimin so well. Every little details of the younger male had been crystal clear to him, each giving out obvious signs over what’s going through the other’s head so much that Jimin’s almost like an open book to Namjoon. He used to know it if Jimin’s brewing with anger inside silently. He used to know if Jimin’s hit with jealousy and wouldn’t say a word. He used to know if Jimin’s hurting but tries to hide everything with a smile.


He used to think he knows everything about Jimin until one night the shorter male just moved away from his hold and said “you don’t know me at all”.


Then Namjoon figured that maybe he really didn’t, and ever since that night became a memory that he had desperately wanted to forget all about, but never could. He couldn’t forget about the way Jimin pretended like he wasn’t on the verge of crying, and tried to be strong as he packed his bags and left the apartment even if it’s four in the morning and there was nowhere else he could go.


Namjoon couldn’t forget about how Jimin at least turned back and spared at a glance at him before getting into the cab.


He hadn’t understood the way Jimin was looking at him then. He was sure Jimin still loved him — so fucking much, in fact. Namjoon could see it all in Jimin’s eyes, but then again Jimin was so determined to leave, so much that Namjoon froze in his steps and just watched the other leave. Jimin was supposed to be an open book, someone Namjoon could read so effortlessly but that very night, Namjoon just got convinced by Jimin instead.


“Namjoon, you don’t know me at all.”


He let Jimin convinced him then — accepted that maybe he just couldn’t read Jimin as well as he thought but right now? Namjoon knows Jimin’s literally so close to breaking down. He doesn’t even have to think to be sure of his answer — Jimin’s fingers are trembling as he squeezes down at the steering wheel, and his bottom lip’s quivering so bad that Namjoon knows any seconds from now on, the shorter male might just start crying his heart out (these are all the little signs Namjoon remembered and had never forgotten about).


“Jimin.” Namjoon starts, but Jimin just inhales deeply and intercepts him in the middle of his sentence like he knows what he’s trying to say.


“We’ll be reaching soon.”


Namjoon flickers his sight sideways to the road Jimin’s now driving on, taking in how sparse of traffic the road is even if they are pretty close to the city (it’s not surprisingly considering how it’s already close to midnight) and even if there aren’t a lot of cars at the moment, Namjoon sounds pretty determined when he voices out his decision.


“Pull over. Let me drive for awhile.”


“No.”


“Jimin.”


“I said no.”


“You’re not in any condition to drive right now, just let me.”


“What are you on about? I’m perfectly fine. Just sit tight and—”


I know you, Jimin.” Namjoon doesn’t know why he sounds almost bitter when he spits those words out, almost like he’s trying to prove an accusation wrong and if Jimin knows what he’s on about, he doesn’t behave like he does. He just tightens his grip on the steering wheel, and keeps driving with his jaw clenched tightly. “Don’t even try to lie to me, I know you’re hurting from— “


Jimin grits at his teeth. “Shut up. Don’t you dare think that you know me. You don’t know me at all, remember?”


It’s been years since they broke up and frankly speaking — Jimin had never brought up their break up before. They had always kept things professional when they continued to work in the same company, and one would think it’s going to be awkward considering how Namjoon is Jimin’s right-hand man who he has to keep close to at all times, but it isn’t. Jimin cares about his company way too much to weigh emotions over his career and Namjoon’s glad for that, really. Years had gone by just like that with Namjoon continuing to be his reliable right hand man and a trusted friend — there’s no mentions of their break up. It’s almost like it never happened except Namjoon still remembers every single little thing about it.


“I’m not the person you’re angry at, Jimin. Don’t direct your anger all at me,” Namjoon mutters under his breath as he wills himself to stay calm even if there was a split second he had wanted to ask the other to stop the car so he can head home. But he doesn’t — he can’t leave Jimin alone. Not now. Not ever. “Can you just stop the car and let me drive? You and I both know you shouldn’t be driving in this state — hell, take it that I’m paranoid. I care for my life and what you’re doing here is putting us both in danger, alright? Jimin, just— “


“I can’t,” Jimin cuts in yet again, but this time he sounds so frail all of a sudden that Namjoon feels something squeezing down at his heart. “I’ll start thinking then.”


Fuck.


“Jimin.”


“What have I ever done wrong? Why is he treating me like this?” Jimin chokes as his voice cracks, and Namjoon stays put at where he sits and keeps his stare on Jimin who’s trying so hard to blink back his tears. Jimin still hates to show people that he’s crying but god, he just can’t control it tonight (Namjoon doesn’t blame him, really). “I’ve always…. I did nothing wrong, Namjoon. He told me to not dance and so I didn’t. Asked me to focus in something useful like business so I studied hard for it. Made me shake off my best-friend who’s a ‘bad influence’ and I listed but— fuck, Namjoon. Why is he still not happy with me?”


He wipes away the tears that managed to slip from the corners of Jimin’s eyes.


“Stop the car, Jimin.” He asks again this time round, much more tenderly than before and — Jimin swerves the car to the left, and stops it along the sidewalk, just in time before he cracks even more and really starts crying.


“Namjoon, it hurts.”


“I know.”


“All I did is to love men the way he thinks I’m supposed to love women,” Jimin’s voice shakes as he exhales bitterly. “That’s not fair, that’s not fucking fair that he gets to disown me just like that. I’m still his son, aren’t I? I did everything he wanted me to already so how is it still not enough that he had to do that to me? Fuck, nobody even told me he’s intending to do so. Had to find it out through the fucking papers I— fuck, fuck, fuck. This isn’t fair. He can’t just….”


It’s probably an uncomfortable position to be in, but Namjoon couldn’t care less the moment he sees Jimin burying his face into his hands so he can hide how badly he’s really starting to cry — he unbuckles his seatbelt and leans in so he can drag Jimin nearer for the closest thing to a hug they can have in their positions.


“Cry it out.”


And Jimin does.


He cries, and he cries really loudly as he fists Namjoon’s suit tightly in his grip, dragging Namjoon closer to him for the first time instead of pushing him away and Namjoon unhesitatingly inches nearer, holding Jimin by the back of his head while he murmurs quiet reassurances under his breath that only seem to coax more tears out. Namjoon has seen all the different kind of ways Jimin has been dejected in the past, but never this broken and he’d be lying if he said seeing Jimin cry this bad doesn’t hurt him inside. It pricks, it pricks really bad and Namjoon realizes he’ll still do anything for Jimin as long as he smiles again.


“Jimin, don’t go back to the company. Stay in the car with me a little more. You need more time — you can’t just go back like this. Alright?” Namjoon exhales quietly as he begins to look around at where Jimin has parked his car at to see if there’s any coffee shops or convenience stores that’s still hopefully open at the moment so he can get a drink for Jimin. “I’m not letting you force yourself to be strong with me around you— “


“Stop, Namjoon. Was I not clear?”


Jimin grabs hold of him, tightly before he’s even able to pull away from the hug so he can get out of the car. He doesn’t know why Jimin’s looking at him, so guilt-ridden all of a sudden with tears still running down his cheeks and his eyes so red. All Namjoon knows is he wants to wipe away the tears and kiss them all better—


“You were one of the things I made myself give up back then in order to become the son he always wanted, Namjoon.”

anonymous asked:

If they didn't call you dear, I think you have the right to delete them? You can't force yourself to write something you don't like, it would be worse in the end because it'd frustrate you! If it was me, I wouldn't be offended at least.

That’s what I was thinking. I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings because I accepted the request and it’s my fault for thinking I could write it but I don’t want to keep them and put out something that I don’t feel good about, you know? Like, I want everything I write to at least feel good for me. There have been a couple pieces that I don’t like, that I didn’t have fun writing, and I hate doing those. I feel like it’s obvious to you guys when I’m not really into it and I don’t feel like it’s fair. So, I’m going to try to write what’s in my inbox but I’m not going to push myself to the point of putting out something that I don’t think is good. 

Thank you for letting me know! :)

anonymous asked:

Whenever I see any of my friends retweet popular memes about wanting to die or they tweet that themselves I get SO FREAKING PISSED bc I'll be like NO YOU DONT KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO WANT TO DIE. YOU'RE TRYING TO BE RELATABLE am I a selfish asshole?

i mean with the wanting to die memes it can just be depression or other mental illnesses but sometimes it’s so fucking obvious (neurotypical) people just reblog/retweet some posts/tweets bc they think it’s Funny and they don’t actually know how it feels and it’s just so fucking awful….. + they think my posts about mood swings are funny and “relatable” but then when someone they know actually does experience the awful bpd mood swings they get annoyed and even call them names. they either treat our experiences like a joke or like an inconvenience

And another thing about this photo reel

The immediate reasons to be fucking oBSESSED are obvious but do you know what else really has me emotional about it? 

Yuuri’s confidence. His carefree attitude. He’s totally taking the lead here! Like seeing this is WILD for me, especially knowing this happened BEFORE THE EVENTS of this series. I love this! I can’t get enough of this and I want more (hence my other post lol). LOOK AT HIM. And just take away the obvious perfection of this victuuri content and think about Yuuri as a character. 

Yes, he’s drunk, but listen drinking doesn’t give you qualities and skills you weren’t already capable of. I’m p sure all of them were a little tipsy :p.  All it does it lower your inhibitions and amplify certain aspects of you that already exist. Drunk Yuuri is still Yuuri. THIS IS REALLY YUURI. He didn’t just suddenly learn how to pole dance and break dance and do all these holds. And we’ve seen him pull of his eros sober. It was something all his own and it was so surprising at the time but now? Now it makes perfect sense in the best way. 

I really feel like the Yuuri in these camera roll scenes is significantly real and seeing him so confident and in the spotlight is like WOW. My heart breaks a little because HE DOESN’T REMEMBER. Boy has to know and understand that he captured everyone’s heart that night. He’s a goddamn shooting star. As a character he’s a triumph, a masterpiece. He’s so multifaceted and honestly seeing his journey to this point in his career was already good enough. 

But they didn’t stop there! They were like “Not only is Yuuri a badass now, he was ALWAYS A BADASS. Victor didn’t change him at all. This wasn’t what we thought it was going to be at first AT ALL. It seemed like Victor was spicing up Yuuri’s life and bringing out all these NEW sides of him. ALL LIES. Yuuri was the one spicing up Vitya’s life. EVERYONE’S lives even! Who knows what the atmosphere between all of them was like before this? Like honestly? I bet they were all being super stuffy and formal and not all that chummy like they are now and their closeness now is partially thanks to this cute boy. I love Yuuri so much like :’) Just….I just need a moment. *ahem* 

OKAY but do y’all UNDERSTAND like he was upstaging CHRISTOPHE !!! 

he was DANCE BATTLING YURIO. YURIO you guys. Since when has this kid been a socialite? Letting loose at parties?! WHAT? This is the power of our pork cutlet king

this was ALL before the main events in the series like…I’m dumbfounded right now.

Yuri was so timid and insecure in the first episode. And we just rolled with that. We thought this was about a blossoming skater trying to find his footing again. We thought it was about Victor helping him learn to be confident. 

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But nah. Yuuri had us fucking fooled. This man is a showstopper. This guy captivated the greatest skater on the scene, he completely stole the show. He just hit a rough spot, honestly.  

Imagine if someone tried to tell us Yuuri Katsuki knew how to do pole! Or breakdance! Or would hold his idol Victor in a saucy tango pose? 

We’d all be like HA! Okay~ :p 

We thought Victor was going to be the seductive one. 

Mann the production team must have been laughing at all of us this whole time. They were sitting on this from DAY ONE. 

We got played in the best way. Honestly? Standing ovation. This is how it’s done. Other studios better step up because YOI raised the bar beyond our wildest dreams. 

At Annie’s, after coming out to the crew...

Bitty: Wait, you guys all knew? How?

Shitty: Well, Jack’s crush on you was pretty obvious.

Jack: What

Holster: You were not subtle about it, bro.

Ransom: The looks, the coffee dates, the smiles-

Lardo: THE PICTURES

Holster: OMG you can’t forget the pictures- His whole photography final was a shrine to Bitty!

Ransom: Kinda sad, but in a cute way?

Jack: …

Bitty: …He was obvious? I never noticed! What about my crush on Jack, did y’all see it coming miles away too?

(They all look at each other)

Shitty: …no? Not really? We all thought Jack was pining after you…

Ransom: We were preparing a Captain’s talk about not leading him on, he was having a hard enough time on the NHL…

Bitty: But- I was being SO obvious! I did all that too, the looks and the smiles and- and- and I was being super nice to Jack, feeding him pies and stuff!

Shitty: Bits, my dude. You do that with everybody.

Lardo: We were kinda surprised he managed to land you.

Ransom: You’re so out of his league.

Jack: They’re kinda right.

yoonbum’s point of view

okay, so i decided to write a post for all of you who feel confused about why yoonbum behaves like he behaves

this post will be long but i hope it can help someone to understand yoonbum’s mental state at least. whole post is of course what i think about yoonbum’s motives and this is my opinion - you can disagree with me.

THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS FROM CHAPTER 1 TO CHAPTER 14 

so, first of all - i want to clear one thing that should be obvious to all killing stalking readers

the “relationship” between yoonbum and sangwoo isn’t and can’t be called love. this is a very toxic and sick relationship and sure it is between two males, but it has been shown in a really psychological way and never shown in a romantic or cute way in this comic. the author NEVER idealize any of characters’ actions. you all should know this and keep it in your mind. 


so, let’s move to the main topic of this post - a yoonbum’s point of view

as all of you know, yoonbum lived with his grandparents ever since he was kid. he mentioned it in chapter 5, when he was talking with sangwoo. he then marked that he lives with his uncle now (of course before he break-into sangwoo’s house). after sangwoo’s question about yoonbum’s uncle, he told him that the reason he cut his wrist was beacuse of his uncle and because he felt lonely. yoonbum then didn’t say the thing straightly but in chapter 7 we all can see how his uncle really treats him. 

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and then we can see something like flashback from yoonbum’s past. 

it clearly means that yoonbum was/still is a victim of sexual abusement and the culprit is his own uncle. 

although he hasn’t told about whether his relathionship with his own grandparents was good or bad, i can be almost sure that he has never felt nor understood the meaning of real love in his whole life. because of that he doesn’t know what real love looks like but he had been searching for it desperately. you can also see a weird thoughts with flashbacks from his past when he was trying to break-into sangwoo’s house in chapter 1


as you can see, these flashbacks were from very bad moments in yoonbum’s past - his life has been filled with stressful situations like for example probably misunderstanding with one of the girls from his school or - on the last flashback - probably an attempt of hit yoonbum by his grandfather but his grandmother tries to stop him. 

(flashback from chapter 9 - he was probably bullied in his school age)

and then he met sangwoo - in the second semester of his first year of college (he also mentioned that he entered the college 4 years late, so it can be also caused by his mental state and abusive grandparents/uncle). sangwoo at once impressed yoonbum - in his point of view sangwoo was gentle, emapthic and considerate, so everyone wanted to make friend with him. and since that moment yoonbum had a crush on him. but caused by his distorted view of what love is he even didn’t want to talk to sangwoo - he was maybe not shy, but definitely scared of what will sangwoo do after yoonbum’s conffesion, again - due to his problems since childhood (and also to the whole problem with homophobia in korea). he also knew that he won’t have any chance to be with sangwoo. but before long, when yoonbum was in his army duty, he was being oppressed by his platoon’s fellows. and then, just accdientally sangwoo interrupted this whole bullying. and since that moment he was like savior in yoonbum’s eyes - it is very important to know because it has an influence in yoonbum’s further actions. after that incident yoonbum decided to admiring sangwoo from the distance even more, but he hadn’t seen him since that. he felt miserable and lonely and decided to just forget him little by little. until he accidentally spotted him on the street with some girl. after that the whole thing yoonbum considered as love for sangwoo and his admiration to him hit him really hard, and then he felt like forgetting about sangwoo is no more possible. so this is probably the moment when the whole serious stalking has begun. 

let’s move a little bit further in action - to the moment when yoonbum found a woman in sangwoo’s basement. he didn’t even once think that sangwoo could tied her up and left her in his basement - he might as well thought that sangwoo didn’t know about such a thing. then, after sangwoo hit yoonbum with baseball bat, yoonbum was scared and filled up with confused thoughts. he didn’t recognize sangwoo.

and this was probably the moment when the image of sangwoo which was created by yoonbum’s mind has split up to two different people - one of them was the sangwoo who yoonbum has known to that moment - a gentle, warm, empathic and nice person who helped yoonbum during his army duty, and the other one was the sangwoo who was uknown for yoonbum until then - a brutal, aggressive and ruthless one who looks exactly like sangwoo but isn’t a “real” sangwoo. this is why yoonbum thought of this

then, yoonbum - afraid of dying from the “uknown” sangwoo’s hands - tried to confess his feelings towards “real” sangwoo - he might thought that by this way he could bring the “real” sangwoo back. after that sangwoo touched yoonbum’s forehead in gently-looking way. he then said that he and yoonbum should go up which was something like a singal for yoonbum that the “real” sangwoo was here back again. yoonbum was really happy and relieved but he still couldn’t believe that sangwoo really forgave him. you may notice that after sangwoo’s appearing yoonbum didn’t even once thought about tied up woman who was still near them. he also like forgot about that sangwoo had hit him and want to kill him, even more - he thought that all of these was his fault and nothing was wrong with good side of sangwoo, beacuse it all was done by his bad side. 

you all know what happened next, so let’s move a little bit further again - to the moment when sangwoo was “feeding” yoonbum with porridge. sangwoo asked him how does he feel and yoonbum - probably still believing that the “real” sangwoo may come back - said “i feel good”. sangwoo was disgusted, he called yoonbum a retard and then started kissing him. yoonbum once again utterly forgot about what sangwoo has done to him to that moment and thoguht that the kiss was from “real” sangwoo and is something special. 


okay, so now i want to talk about yoonbum being imprisoned altogether. before that, i want you to get to know with some like a little summary of the book which is an authentic story of natascha kampusch - a girl who had been trapped in some guy house for more than eight years (the book is called “3,096 days”, you can google it for more information). she describes in it what these eight years look like - she was being bullied not only physically but mostly mentally. she says that after some time she got used to being physically abused and imagined that she was watching the whole situation by standing nearby this guy and her body. but she never got used to metnal abuse. natascha was really strong mentally and even when she was kidnapped by age 10 it took that guy some time to break her. then she was trapped in her own mind, she had many, like, many chances to escape, but she couldn’t. her mind was so twisted due to that guy that she couldn’t even think about escaping. it was really horrible for her, she could think only about how to not annoy her oppressor. moreover, even if she didn’t know him before kidnapping, she started to feel something like pity for him after some time. she doesn’t want him to got into trouble because of her and she tried to understand him. 

so i see yoonbum.

moreover, he has been in love even before sangwoo has trapped him, so his sympathy towards him is even more exposed and even more distorted. when the “unknown” sangwoo is with yoonbum, he just tried to not annoy him and do everything by right way so sangwoo won’t have a reason to punish him. in chapter 4 you could also see that yoonbum was thinking about escaping from “unknown” sangwoo (because he is still in love with “real” sangwoo), he was really confused and his mind started to twisting and imagining how would it be if he managed to run away. but even for this not-so-long period of time being impriosoned he couldn’t even tried to escape, he was so scared of what kind of punishment would sangwoo do to him after his obvious failure. (i love how author showed yoonbum’s disability to escape due to his physical and mental state by drawing him in a cage… for real, it was a really good way to show how yoonbum was feeling by then). it is alsow very important to notice that yoonbum was so desperate he tried to poison sangwoo and after realizing that it was impossible he probably tried to kill himself by eating poisoned food.

although yoonbum was aware that sangwoo has his two sides - good and bad, he still ignored almost everything sangwoo had done to him in his bad mood when he changed his side to good one. by then, only some kisses and nice words were enough for yoonbum to forget about sangwoo’s bad side. after incident in end of chapter 5, sangwoo had changed. yoonbum was still aware of his two sides, though, and in chapter 6 he concluded it.

it was probably the time when he still recognized two sides of sangwoo. but after some time his image of sangwoo started to blurring - since that time he didn’t know whether sangwoo had changed and he will be a nice person from then on or this is just an another switch to his good side which won’t last forever. then, more kisses and sangwoo being “gently” towards yoonbum. and after that the image was even more blured and twisted, so was yoonbum’s mind. but when sangwoo left the house in chapter 7, the really strong dose of common sense hit yoonbum and he realized that was probably his only real chance to escape. even though, he started to not recognize what is true and what is his imagination. he had hallucinations and a lot of visions what would happen if sangwoo was there. he utterly lost his sense of time. but during this whole hell, he decided to escape. then, he disobeyed sangwoo for the first time. 

it was like he finally understood that sangwoo has never been any good, even when he is in his “good” side. 

after that, sangwoo turned mad and came back home to punish yoonbum. yoonbum tried to calm sangwoo down by kissing him and proposing him another thing instead of punishment (everyone knows what he meant by “another thing”), but he was still madly frightened of sangwoo. then, it is no longer something like he want to bring “real” sangwoo back, because these sides never really existed, he realized that. after the whole “airplane” thing, yoonbum didn’t longer think that anything will work on sangwoo so he just started saying that this was too much and he remonstrated, even got a little bit angry. but after that he realized that he has no right to order sangwoo around. 

but again, when he was playing cards with that old dude, he felt like he was someone special to sangwoo, because sangwoo was helping him to “win”. even after yoonbum lost, sangwoo still was treating yoonbum like he was something “special”. yet, i don’t have a clue whether yoonbum still thinks that he is someone “special” to sangwoo or that it was just another of sangwoo’s insane actions. 

and in chapter 13 you could see that yoonbum hid in the cupboard underneath the sink. this action also have a two possible motives - one, he didn’t want to get sangwoo any more angry and he thought that even if he wouldn’t hide, sangwoo would make up a story to policeman that it all would look innocent in cop’s eyes, so it was better to hide, and the other motive - yoonbum still believed that he is someone “special” to sangwoo and he still wanted sangwoo to treat him in a “special” way. but then, at the very end of chapter 13, he slipped his hand off sangwoo’s back, which might mean that he believes none of sangwoo’s words anymore. 

in chapter 14 he had an opportunity to escape from sangwoo again. he first started panicking where sangwoo is, but then he realized that he wasn’t literally tied up to anything, so that meant he could escape. even though he could walk, he couldn’t move, so again, it is like mental cage made of scare of sangwoo or scare of he won’t be “special” to sangwoo anymore. as i said before, i still have no clue what his way of thinking is now.

okay, so i think this is almost the end of my so-fucking-long post. i tried to not make it this long, but yet i wanted to explain my point of view, because, yeah, i feel it is really important to understand why yoonbum is or was (because i have a feeling that he has changed) like that - miserable, lonely, and that he at first wasn’t paying much attention to all these bad things sangwoo had done to him until he gave him some kisses and a “good” vibe. so, to all of you who thought that the thing between sangwoo and yoonbum is “love” - no, it never was, it is not, and it will never be. i hope yoonbum finally understands that his meaning of love was utterly wrong and does not exist in a real world. 

i am also going to write a very similar post about sangwoo + his motives of murders, so stay tuned and wait for another post! 

jfc, i hope it makes any sense because english is not my native nor first language, so i have made some mistakes for sure, so sorry for that! 

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It’s not about giving the guests what you think they want. That’s simple. The titillation, horror, elation. They’re parlor tricks. The guests don’t return for the obvious things we do, the garish things. They come back because of the subtleties, the details. They come back because they discover something they imagine no one had ever noticed before. Something they’ve fallen in love with. They’re not looking for a story that tells them who they are. They already know who they are. They’re here because they want a glimpse of who they could be.

Modern Pagan Ways to Worship

I’ve been thinking a lot about the ways I worship the gods, and watching my other Pagan friends to see how different our styles are. I thought I might list some of the ways I’ve noticed. Feel free to add anything you think is worth mentioning!

Learning about the gods: This is always the first thing I tell people to do when they decide to work with a new god. Read the stories we do have about them, even if there’s only one. What are scholars saying about the story/ies? What can we learn from knowing about the culture of the time? Is there any crossover from other cultures and mythologies?

Prayer: The obvious one, but perhaps not one that all Pagans engage in for fear of feeling ‘too Christian.’ Ceiswir Serith has a great guide, “A Book of Pagan Prayer,” if you want to take a look at new ways to pray. 

Offering food/drink: Whether you’re offering a separate meal to the goddesses or sharing a part of your plate, this is a very old tradition. Some gods prefer you partake of the meal, and others don’t. Whatever is best for you, offering a glass of wine or a portion of your lunch to the gods also makes you more conscious of the food you’re ingesting.

Building/maintaining an altar: Another very common one under the Pagan umbrella. We dedicate a space to a deity or deities, and decorate it as a workspace for spells, a welcome mat for the god(s)/ess(es) we worship.

Donning a deities’ associations: If yours is a sea goddess, it is likely she’ll prefer you wearing shells, pearls, or colors that remind her of her home. By contrast, a fire god might like to see you sporting some carnelian or even lava rock. Wearing their colors, crystals/stones, scents, animal representations, symbols (either overt or covert), etc., is a way to remind yourself of them throughout the day.

Writing: Some Pagans keep journals, a Book of Shadows, and blogs to write to and about the gods. If you’re a verbal learner, this can be a great way to figure out your feelings if you’re working through new concepts, or to tell stories about your deities if they like to hear you talk about them.

Art: Other Pagans like to draw, paint, or otherwise decorate parts of their world with a visual representation of their god(s)/ess(es), their associations, or experiences they’ve had with their deity.

Music: Writing a chant, alternative Christmas carol lyrics, or compositions can be a great way to worship! Don’t forget drum circles and jam sessions.

Meditation: One of my personal favorites, guiding yourself (or having them guide you) through a visual meditation to show them more of their world. You can learn a lot about a god this way.

Crafty hobbies: Making jewelery, fetishes, or other gifts for the gods can be a relaxing and informative way to learn about how you see your goddesses compared to how other people do.

Volunteer work: Many goddesses and gods require their followers to flow good energy back into the world, whether that’s by volunteering at a women’s shelter, running a recycling campaign in your neighborhood, or counselling LGBTQ+ youth, this is a rewarding way to prove you can put your money where your mouth is, spiritually speaking.

Academic work: Particularly for knowledge/wisdom deities, this can be a good one for students. Silently dedicating your homework assignments to your gods can boost the quality of the work you turn in–it’s going to someone a little higher than your professor, after all!

Designing sigils and symbols: A lot of people are starting to take up the sigil-making hobby, which is great! Making a unique symbol for your deities lets them know you’re thinking of them, without necessarily letting other people know. Particularly good for people in non-Pagan-friendly households.

if we date… i’ll make a big deal out of you. i’ll tell you everyday how much i think about us and you. i will make it obvious that you are the person i want. i’ll be fucking excited for the day i get to hold you in my arms and tell you that i’m there for real and you’ll believe me. i’ll tell my friends about you more then i probably already am. i’ll be straight up with you and won’t hold back. ill be open with you and this relationship. you’ll be apart of me. show me that you actually want this to work and show some effort and believe me you’ll get it back. what my intentions are with you, I don’t won’t want with anyone else. i’ll make you feel unstoppable when you’re by my side, as anything can happen. and last but not least. i plan to show you what love actually is. not the “i think i’m in love”… the “holy fuck, i am in love” type of love. when you know, i’m sure i’ll know and it’ll be an honour to know i did that for you. i will give you an unforgettable love story.
—  who i am
Until she convinces me otherwise, I assume that her emotional reaction to a situation is disproportionate to my opinion of what level of emotional reaction the situation calls for. Basically, if she’s on eight, I assume the situation is really a six.
— 

Men Just Don’t Trust Women – And It’s A Huge Problem

I cannot think of a man with whom I have ever shared negative feelings who did not make it obvious, however hard he might’ve tried to hide it, that he is going through this mental process.

And yes, if you’re a man reading this and thinking, “Oh no, but she’s told me her negative feelings and I’ve responded by asking her questions about why she feels that way, does she mean me???” Yes, I mean you. I mean all of you. I am calling all of you out for this right now. No, I don’t want to have a private conversation about it, because I’m done with that emotional labor. If this describes you and you’re still in my life as a friend or partner, assume that I have accepted this sort of microinvalidation as the cost of doing business. But my acceptance of reality doesn’t make it any more *acceptable*.

I can’t decide if I want Reinhardt or Reaper to have the Santa skin.

Cuz, I mean, Reinhardt’s the obvious choice here, he’s a big sweet old white-bearded guy who absolutely would and did dress up as Santa for Christmas to surprise Fareeha.

But then there’s so much possibility with Reaper.
His ult-line changing to Ho, ho, ho

A Reaper voiceline with him saying “Let’s sleigh them.”

And emote where Reaper is wearing a pillow underneath his costume for the belly and it falling out.

Pre-game interactions between Reaper and Junkrat where he goes “And what do you want little gi- … little bo- … little individual?”

Interaction between Reaper and Ana. 
“It’s the expression on their little faces that I like.” he says.
Ana thinks for a bit, then answers 
“You mean sort of fear and awe and not knowing whether to laugh or cry or wet their pants?”

When he kills one of the old Overwatch crew his line changes to “Another one off the … naughty list.”
And then he laughs because he’s a dork.

Reinhardt giving Reaper advice pre-game on how to make his performance better:
“Here’s a tip, though. Just ‘ho, ho, ho’ will do. Don’t say, ‘Cower, brief mortals’!”

We all know Alicia was a very famous model and it kinda made me think… if you hang out with someone who knows about make-up, you end up knowing about make-up. You talk to your friends about work, so they know what happened at the office. 

Enter Bob. Hockey-mad Bob who meets Alicia at a party where he’s being introduced to one of her friends and who is just… floored… by this woman. It’s obvious. He’s head over heels before he even knows it - Alicia? Not so much. 

I mean, sure, he’s cute and he’s got a butt that just will not quit, but he’s also clueless about the things she’s interested in. He knows nothing about clothes, designers, photographers - nothing. He wears what he’s told. Jesus - he’s got a mullet. She’s not interested. 

I want Bob being very aware that Alicia is out of his league. He makes an effort. He gets his hair cut into something more fashionable - he thinks he looks a little like Tom Selleck, and suddenly he’s ‘the good looking one’ on the team. He starts to look at what famous pop stars and actors wear. 

Bad Bob is learning that he’s not going to be David Bowie but maybe he can get a suit that’s a little different, right? 

He learns about what's ‘hot’ and not from his sister, his friends girlfriends and wives - he has a few well meaning 80′s disaster fashion moments, but he gets through it. He reads fashion magazines and rolls his eyes at the chirps. He tries to remember who took the photograph. He may have a notebook. Jack gets his dorky nature from somewhere. 

The next time he meets Alicia he’s able to hold a decent conversation about her time in Milan. He knows who she worked with, he’s able to ask about things SHE LIKES.

She’s impressed. And after they’ve been dating a few months, she stays the night. 

Only to find that Bob has converted the bedroom next to his into a walk in closet fit for a queen.

“Well, I just thought… you know…” He shrugs. “You might want to hang some of your things up if you come over.”

So when she’s standing in Jack’s new apartment and sees the state of the art kitchen, the brand new appliances… 

“Who cooks, Bob?”

“Hm?”

“Who does Jack know that cooks?”

“No one.” He says, stretching out on the couch so that his arm falls over her shoulders. “I think that the Bittle kid bakes - remember the cookies?” He kisses her on the cheek because he can. God, she does love this man. “Why?”

“No reason.”

Nostalgia Critic Quotes Starters

You know the deal. Feel free to change pronouns, add names to blanks, etc. There is some profanity in this one.

  • “Why do they always want to do it the hard way?”
  • “What can’t we do with an acre of land?”
  • “We’re talking softly because it’ll upset the souffle?”
  • “You know…like your head!”
  • “You think you’re gonna get away from me, but you’re not, because it’s on.”
  • “I’m sorry, but who thought this would be an exciting idea?”
  • “This is even more exciting than that time I dangled keys in front of my own face!”
  • “DON’T fall to the ground like a bloody corpse.”
  • “Bad is rad and I’m ballistic!”
  • “Oh, come on, it’s obvious. It’s so incredibly obvious.”
  • “It’s junk food, brightly colored junk food for the mind.”
  • “The orthodox levels on this are most un!”
  • “Ah-ba-ba-ba, don’t tell me the problem, I only want to focus on the solution. I see…a banana. Use a banana.”
  • “We are not on the same level as them! WE ARE HEALTHY!”
  • “This looks like a job for flamboyance!”
  • “Yeah! The opposite of what we saw before! The opposite of what we saw before! The opposite of what we saw before!”
  • “Hey! You seem very…two-people-ish!”
  • “Because that’s funny, right? Right? The correct answer is no.”
  • “Punctuation is so wild!”
  • “WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? WHAT? WHAAAAT?”
  • “Clearly, we are dealing with artistic genius here!”
  • “Please get in this evil device which is in no way an evil device. Joke’s on you; it’s an evil device.”
  • “What do kids normally do? They make tofu or something?”
  • “Stop it! Stop it! Stop trying to sound cool!”
  • “All is lost.”
  • “You’re so gosh darn wonderful.”
  • “I’m sorry, ____. I like your place. It’s a nice looking place.”
  • “I don’t care if it’s innocent and cutesy; it’s a piece of shit.”
  • “But I don’t wanna laugh, I wanna get better.”
  • “If its purpose was to bore the living shit out of us, I agree.”
  • “You have to have one before you can lose it.”
  • “Wait a minute, so you’re saying that if I jump aboard the bandwagon before it even becomes a bandwagon, I can be one of the frontrunners of the bandwagon?”
  • “Redundant much, redundant?”
  • “Was I really just a pawn in your lame-ass little punchline?”
  • “Is this actually a popular thing and I just never noticed?”
  • “My God…it’s full of shit.”
  • “Put traffic cones around that apple juice; that shit is lethal!”
  • “What is this, just another day at the store for you?”
  • “Why are you being so blatant with how evil you are?”
  • “Yeah, you know what’s living? Dying.”
  • “No, wait, that’s not living. That’s…that’s fucking dying.”
  • “I remember it so you don’t have to.”
  • “You’re listening to frogs! It’s all a lie!”
  • “I don’t know, it means I’m angry!”
  • “Gee, does it have something to do with ice?”
  • “I just wanna bring love and joy to the world.”
  • “I haven’t been this shocked since I found out the secret to living a long lasting life…was breathing!”
  • “You know, for kids!”
  • “Start off with something innocent and lighthearted and then smash it down into cruel, cruel reality?”
  • “I hear it’s a dictatorship where people disappear.”
  • “Stay back; I think that’s real ketchup.”
  • “That’s so out of the ordinary, I dare call it wacky.”
  • “Get off my wet banana!”
  • “B-B-B-Bullshit!”
  • “Don’t encourage him. You’ll jiggy-jiggy regret it.”
  • “Maybe you could start by getting out of the fucking bed.”
  • “Well, that’s odd. It’s almost…normal.”
  • “Gee, does THAT…SOUND…FAMILIAR?”
  • “If we’re going through with this, I want to be prepared.”
  • “Fucking bubbles!”
  • “Inspire us! Say something stoic!”
  • “Oh, by the way, we have to mail this to fifty or more people or else we get bad luck.”
  • “I would LOVE to play a game with somebody!”
  • “Fuck yeah, sparkle sparkle sparkle!”
  • “If you’ll excuse me, I’m gonna take the occasional break to look at myself in front of the mirror and cry.”
  • “Cause let me tell you, it’s not always easy.”
  • “People may die, but stupidity is forever.”
  • “Stop calling it that!”
  • “So, your argument is…you fucked up, you’re glad you fucked up, and you will continue to fuck up in new and spectacular ways?”
  • “I did not just hear that.”
  • “Time for a game of disappearing brain cells!”
  • “I think he drank the cactus juice or something.”
  • “I thought I had these burned!”
  • “My heart soars every time. The monotone. The absolute lack of any human emotion. The way he doesn’t even refer to her by her name.”
  • “I just remember that it was weird and childish.”
  • “I know that it’s just my opinion, but I’m right.”
  • “I remember it…but I don’t wanna!”

At this point it’s pretty obvious to say that some SJ circles aren’t open to people who have dissenting opinions and they don’t take kindly to it, especially when it’s one of their protected groups saying it. What I’ve seen around here though is that they go to great lengths to try and “convert” those people to think like them. A lot don’t even do it in a reasonable fashion. They always resort to berating them and calling them names. If they’re bold enough they’ll use slurs, although that’s pretty exclusive to the *PoC* who fall under that category from what I’ve noticed. They’ll try to push them into submission by trying to find where it hurts the most. They try their damned hardest to find whatever weakness they can find of that person they’re trying to change (or at least the weaknesses they presume them to have).

The one that I see frequently is the, “You just want *insert majority group*’s approval, but you’ll never get their approval. They don’t care about you and they’ll hate you no matter what you do.”

Ironically at the same time, they won’t hesitate to spew whatever vitriol they can think of towards that person. They’ll call them names, insult their intelligence, and make horrible assumptions about them. Another thing that’s ironic is that they demonstrate that they’re the ones that don’t really care about them because they’ll go as far as to exhibit borderline abusive behavior just so they don’t hold those opinions they hate anymore.

I don’t use the word abusive lightly but I’ve seen this type of stuff play out in real life (although with different issues not relating to SJ) and on here in this exact manner many times and it’s pretty disgusting. What’s sad is a lot of the times the abuser is so convinced as to think that they themselves are the ones who are genuine in their concern for you, when their actions say the opposite.

You can debate all day about making blanket statements where everyone within a majority group hates a certain minority group. But to act like those who show/encourage this manipulative behavior truly care about the people they want to convert is ridiculous. If they did, they wouldn’t have to resort to doing all of this just to get minority groups who disagree with them on their side.

My advice is to distance yourself or even drop toxic people like these if they’re not willing to change. 

This isn’t even exclusive to Tumblr. The, “I’m the only one who cares for you while everyone else wants to harm you. But I’ll insult and manipulate you just to keep you under submission so you stay with me,” abuse tactic happens anywhere.

If you weren’t comfortable with the opinions they held (or behaviors) in the first place then I can guarantee what they’ll do to you will fuck up your self-esteem if you’re the vulnerable type.

Snowbarry stans: Barry is so in love with Caitlin yet he has to be with Iris, so sad😭
Barry:

-you look amazing
-is it that obvious
-As a scientist, I know there is nothing magical about what makes us feel something for someone else. But then I see her smile… Man, that cannot be science
-what other girls?
-I love you Iris.. When we were kids, I loved you, I loved you before I even knew what the word love meant
-Iris and I have these moments and when I’m looking into her eyes, It’s hard to think she doesn’t feel the same way
-I never stopped thinking about you
-all I want is for Iris to be happy
-do it for me, Barry
-Everytime I falter or make a mistake, the thought of you is what picks me up and keeps me going
-Without you, there wouldn’t be the flash
-she’s just not Iris
-we can do this together
-she is Iris, she is to me, no matter what universe I’m in
-right now, we have to help Iris first
-i’m not leaving your side
-all those cars came at us and it was like the whole world froze, you and i were the only two people in the world
-i knew that i could save you
-you’re everything to me and you always have been
-the sound of your voice will always bring me home
-i love you too and i always will
-some people are just meant to be in your life
-it escapes definition
-it’s love because this is what love feels like-ever since the day i met you
-i have everything i’ve ever wanted
-there is no flash without iris west
-i couldn’t do this without you
-you’re my life
Neighbors

Pairing: Seth Rollins/Colby Lopez x Reader

Prompt:  you’re my new neighbor and we’ve never spoken but you saw me shoveling snow all day and i guess it must be pretty obvious how cold i am because you brought me a jacket and made me hot chocolate

A/N: Getting started on Christmas fics :) If you ever want to be tagged in any of my stories for a specific character or just all in general just lmk :)

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