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anonymous asked:

you talked about jungkook's fixation with jimin's booty and jimin's mouth, so i think it's time we talk about his fixation with jimin's chest because i feel like that's a thing too

Oh, it’s definitely a thing, Anon..

Originally posted by yourpinkpill

Originally posted by chimchiminie13

Originally posted by satellite-jeon


..That slow drag of his hand down Jimin’s chest seems… practiced - habitual, even. And the best part is that Jimin seems completely and utterly unfazed by it.

'Meet BTS, the K-Pop Group Loved By Wale and Charlie Puth'

Teen Vogue: How did you feel about landing in the U.S. iTunes Top 10 in February?

Rap Monster: Reaching the top of any music chart is a thrill, but this was a shock. We were on [a strict TV appearance] schedule at that time, so it wasn’t like I could scream or anything (laughs).

Jin: It was ‘Wow. Are you serious? Really?’ It was similar to what I thought when I first heard that Wings charted at 26 on the Billboard 200 last year. How cool is that!

Teen Vogue: For those new to BTS, what song and which video should they check out?

RM: Hmmm, it’s like choosing between your mom and your dad, who do you like better! “Fire” was loved by so many, so that’s the song.

Jin: I’d recommend “Blood Sweat & Tears” because I got the lead role and I kind of lead the whole story of video! And, of course, it’s beautifully designed and choreographed.

V: I, too, think it’s “Blood Sweat & Tears.” It had so many metaphors and I had to make a lot of guesses to understand the relationship between characters. And there’s a scene where I make a strange smile to give you a chill, which I love!

Teen Vogue: Rap Monster, K-Pop groups usually have designated roles for the members and yours is BTS’s leader, but what does that mean to you?

RM: It’s my official role to represent BTS to the world and it’s been a chance for me to mature as a person, but, behind the scenes, I’m just one of seven members and I’m inspired by the others all the time. I get free life lessons from J-Hope and Jimin, sometimes it’s like they’re 10 years older than me.

Teen Vogue: OK, let’s play a little game. You’re now at the mercy of another member describing you.

Jungkook: Jin used to be an ordinary guy in the team, but he’s the mood maker now. He’s the most wicked and funniest of all. No one in BTS is normal though, come to think of it.

Jin: Jungkook’s delicate voice always mesmerizes our ears and that’s definitely his role in BTS.

V: Jimin is a real piece of cuteness, like the youngest in the family.

Jimin: V’s specialty is getting all the attention from others onto him!

J-Hope: Suga is a true caretaker. He’s kind of a hidden leader who takes care of everyone.

Suga: J-Hope’s a real hope-maker. He’s such a ‘hope-generator.’

Teen Vogue: BTS have become highly respected for penning their own tracks. When you’re on tour, do you make time to write?

RM: Mostly we’re in the hotel when we’re not on [our promotional] schedule so I bring all my equipment. I wake up, if I have a rehearsal, I go do that and when I come back to the hotel, I sit down and turn on the laptop, cause I’ve got nothing to do without that!

Teen Vogue: When you’ve got a new demo, such as the rough guide to Wings, do you take it to another member and play it and ask for feedback?

Suga: I usually have as many people listen to it as possible because I think it really helps make it a better track. I always get great feedback from the rest of the band.

RM: Firstly, I take it to (BTS’s executive producer) P.Dogg. If he likes it, he sometimes puts it into the album. I really trust him, he’s got the eye for it.

Teen Vogue: If P.Dogg says no, will you fight for it?

RM: Yeah, of course, I really fight for it! I’m like, ‘Hey, this is the thing I gotta do right now. If you won’t do it, I’ll put it into my mixtape!’ The last one I fought for was ‘Reflection’ — there’s an original version, a whole different song. He didn’t not like it, it just didn’t fit the Wings concept, so I’ll release it myself someday.

Suga: I think I kind of did for my mixtape, because I felt I should as AgustD [my solo moniker], and I’m glad I did.

Teen Vogue: Speaking of mixtapes, J-Hope, we’ve been looking forward to hearing yours. What can you tell us about it?

J-Hope: I’m working on it as we speak and my inspiration really depends on my daily mood swing; sometimes I like to go strong and sometimes I make softer sounds. Since it’s a mixtape, I’m trying to experiment with various genres to test myself.

Teen Vogue: Jungkook, you recently covered Charlie Puth’s “We Don’t Talk Anymore” — you teased it in January but didn’t release it until the end of February. Were you making changes? And will we hear your own songwriting any time soon?

Jungkook: I recorded it several times until I was sure that it felt and sounded perfect. I was more than ready to share it because I knew fans had been waiting, but we had You Never Walk Alone being released and I thought I’d better wait until BTS wraps up the official activities for it. I don’t feel confident about writing any of my own [material] yet, but if I ever write a song, I’d like to work on a very soft and sweet vibe.

Teen Vogue: The bigger an artist gets, the more people will try and bring them down. How does BTS deal with that side of fame?

Jimin: I’m a very positive person and I don’t easily get intimidated by people who try to bring me or BTS down. Besides, my family is always there for me.

RM: These days, I try to take everything as my fate and respond with dignity. I accept it, it’s like a shadow, it’s just there.

J-Hope: I had a firm belief that I was going to be a successful artist, and that led me to what I am. I draw all the strength I need from that belief and try to share my energy with other members as much as I can.

Teen Vogue: Rap Monster, you’ve just released a collaboration with rapper Wale, which came about through a BTS fan helping bring you guys together over Twitter. What can you tell us about working together?

RM: When he suggested the collaboration, that was a real shock. I thought about it, [and was] like, should we do a party song? But I wanted to do something different. The title is “Change” — in America. They’ve got their situations and we’ve got ours in Seoul, the problems are everywhere and the song is like a prayer for change. He talks about the police, and problems he’s faced since he was a child. For me, I talked about Korea, my problems, and about those on Twitter who kill people by keyboards.

Teen Vogue: Let’s do a finishing quickfire round! BTS experiments with a lot of genres, which one has been a challenge?

V: I always find rock difficult.

RM: I’m always ready to be challenged, like, “Wings: Outro,” it was hip-house, that was the first time I’d ever listened to that genre… but I liked it.

Teen Vogue: What do you want do while you’re in America?

RM: I want to go to Barneys and Supreme! I want to see buildings and people on the street, their faces, what they talk about, how they walk. I do that in Korea. I go to somewhere I haven’t been and just watch people and colors, that’s my inspiration.

Jimin: I really want to go on a day trip with the members. Or a picnic to Central Park on a sunny day would be nice.

Could you do (separately if you want) a Monsta-x , Got7 and BTS reaction about you (their girlfriend) jealously asking them who's Kim Chi (Kimchi) because they love it? Thanks again! (She thinks Kimchi is a person!)

Monsta X:

Shownu:

*confused af* wha? …what do you mean I can’t see kimchi anymore? It’s literally everywhere in Korea and very delicious…wait..do you…do you think that kimchi is a woman?

Originally posted by madtwn

Hyungwon:

Never have I ever cheated on you…with anyone…or any food 

Originally posted by kpopidolaegyooo

Minhyuk:

OMG YOU THINK IM CHEATING ON YOU WITH KIMCHI?!?!?! LOL UR SO CUTE!

Originally posted by gifsmonstax

Kihyun:

I-…..I do not know what your issue is? I am just hungry?

Originally posted by kookihyunnie

I.M:

Why are you yelling at me?!?!?!?! DO YOU WANT ME TO SHARE?

Originally posted by kaimikachan

Jooheon:

Ok…but I’ll share! *gets smacked* WHAT IT’S JUST FOOD! WE’VE DONE IT BEFORE!?

Originally posted by kihqun

Wonho:

Ok…but let’s talk about this…You’re telling me…that you are…that you are jealous of some food? Would you rather I eat you?

Originally posted by kihqun


GOT7:

Youngjae:

Baby why are you crying? Do you want some? Kimchi is super popular here so you should try it!

Originally posted by mjbm

Bambam:

BRUH YOU THOUGHT IT WAS A PERSON TOO?!?! I ain’t even mad at you boo

Originally posted by j-miki

Mark:

jAGI PLS! I WONT EVER EAT KIMCHI AGAIN IM SORRY PLS

Originally posted by marktuon

Jinyoung:

*In his mind* bitch where?

Originally posted by younglordswerve

Yugyeom:

*confused and worried* Why are you looking through my messages searching for kimchi? It is in the fridge in the kitchen

Originally posted by merry7

JB:

….

Originally posted by idontgiveasuga

Jackson:

…If it weren’t so cute…I would be mad….

Originally posted by got7-garbage


BTS:

Jin:

Ok…but no? It is food…I like food… I love you but I am hungry so…

Originally posted by jungkookiescookies

Yoongi:

….I am so confused. Here eat some kimchi and quit calling me a stupid lying boob. 

Originally posted by yoongijae

J-Hope:

Uhm? What do you mean I am cheating on you with Korea’s delicacy?

Originally posted by hobioppa

Namjoon:

ok but here is where you are wrong.. *tells the entire history of kimchi*

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

Taehyung:

I-…..Ok I am sorry but….Wha?

Originally posted by jeonthegreat

Jimin:

Baby…Are you jealous of a food dish?

Originally posted by bwipsul

Jungkook:

*jungshook*

Originally posted by baekon-stripss

KARD reddit AMA

Q: are you guys friends with any other kpoop groups?

Jiwoo- gugudan Mimi unnie and Boys24 Doha oppa

Somin- twice Jeongyeon, and seventeens Mingyu and Seungkwan are my school juniors

J.Seph- gfriends Sowon

BM- day6 Jae and ladies code

Q: do you guys lurk/look at social media like Reddit and Twitter often to see what fans are thinking/saying?

Somin- yes we do. I look at instagram hashtags. Thank you for always cheering us on.

Q: 1- which of your songs is your favorite? 2- which is you favorite choreography? 3- what are your thoughts on being a co-ed group? 4- whats a musical style do you want to try in the future?

J.Seph 1- don’t recall

Jiwoo 2- the next song thats coming out…I think that choreography will be really awesome

Somin 3- I’m really happy about it because we’re very much like a family. I feel like we have a really great foundation because we have two oppas.

Q: Just wondering…whats your reaction to this gif?

a/n: gif cred to hwasuga

J.Seph- oh it’s cute!

Q: What were your initial thoughts/reactions after seeing how large your international fanbase was? what are some of your favorite songs at the moment?

J.Seph- at first I was flabbergasted. I never even thought about it. I saw a picture of our fans in Brazil waiting in line to buy our tickets and it was so amazing. I don’t know these people but they know me. So i wanted to see who they were so I zoomed in and looked at their faces. (laughs)

Q: how did you guys come to know of r/kpop? do any of you frequent this sub and are there possibly any other kpop stars out there that do?

Somin- out tour manager unnie set it up for us! It’s our first time here!

Q: 1- were you surprised to receive so much attention internationally with your pre-debut singles? 2- BM and J.Seph: did you expect to receive so many singing lines (like in rumor), and do you get nervous when you have to perform them? 3- do you think that having many international fans will continue to make kards music more diverse (like how rumor had a latin sound)? 4- what are some of you favorite western artists or other genres of music to listen to?

J.Seph- I was nervous and excited. I want to show a good side of me but I’m still lacking so much. I tried really hard to do my best.

Jiwoo- there are so many genres that we want ti try right now. I think we will definitely continue to be more diverse when it comes to our sounds.

Somin- Tinashe, Ariana Grande / Jiwoo- Beyonce, Rihanna, Kehlani, Alexander Jean / J.Seph- Little Mix!

Q: 1- will you be continuing the “hidden” concept after officially debuting? 2- is there a different concept or sound you would like to try in the future? 3- were any of you kpop fans before beginning training? if so, what groups? if not, what made you want to become an idol?

J.Seph 1- we’re not sure how we’re going to come out again, but we want to keep releasing good content.

Somin 2- I want to try R&B…but honestly I want to try everything.

Jiwoo 3- I liked TXVQ sunbaenims and BoA sunbaenim. I wasn’t focused on being an idol but I really wanted to do great music in general.

Q: who eats the most? who makes the most jokes?

Jiwoo and Somin together- J.Seph!!!!!!

Q: how many times does BM dab per day?

BM- at least 20

Q: bm what advice can you give to other tall guys who don’t want to look really awkward? also, in the Oh NaNa with fun video your necklace flipped up and nearly chipped your tooth! do you have any other memorable stories that were a result of dancing too hard?

BM- all dudes. short or tall.. own it and swagg out with you got. haha I almost lost a front tooth that day.

Q: 1- which music show do you most look forward to appearing on? 2- with your big international following, you seem to be doing better than other co-ed groups of the past. what unique challenges do you face in korea being a co-ed group? 3- what country are you looking forward to visiting most on your world tour?

1- Jiwoo- Infinity Challenge! / Somin- Yoo Hee Yeol’s Sketchbook

2- J.Seph- Dubai / Somin- Europe and I really wanted to go to America…actually I want to go everywhere. / Jiwoo- Dubai / BM- Greece and London…Spain…Chile is dope too

Q: for BM: what were your motivations for pursuing a career in kpop having grown up in LA? did you ever doubt whether it was the right choice, for example following your appearance on kpop star, and how were you able to bounce back?

BM- definitely had a lot of times where I felt like I should quit..almost did a lot too but I had a lot of good support around me. #blessed

Q: 1- you guys have great chemistry, how long have the four of you trained as a group? 2- co-ed groups are obviously still rare, how did you all react when you found out that you were going to debut together?

1- J.Seph- 5 years / Somin- with the oppas it’s been 5 years / Jiwoo- I joined 6 months ago!

2- J.Seph- at first when I heard it was a co-ed group I was a bit overwhelmed. I saw Somin from such an early age when she was little, but I never thought  that I would be in a group with her. It felt so strange, but as we started to practice and come together, it became really great.

Q: BM, please rate the english level of the other members!

BM- 1 being baby. 10 being able to communicate comfortably…j.speh 3, somin 3, jiwoo 3. all pretty similar

Q: when you guys/gals were kids, what did you first want to be when you grow up?

BM- I wanted to be a lawyer

Q:  I laughed so much when I saw you dancing “Olha a Onda”, a Brazilian song from the 90s. Knowing that your songs so far evoke latin (and thus Brazilian) beats, is there anything each of you would like to learn about our culture? Foods, drinks, clothing, local music genres, anything?

Jiwoo- I want to learn about the food because I love trying new foods.

Jseph- I heard about Carnival and I really want to go. I also want to learn about samba. 

Q:  BM! Are you close with Ladies’ Code’s Ashley? What are your favorite things about being in this group and what do you feel about the amount of love you’ve been getting from the international fans?

BM-  thats my homegirl fshooooo shoot still super unreal to me.. super humbling and super thankful

Q:  BM: Was it hard to make the decision to move to Korea from USA and become an idol? Did your family support you all the way?

BM- I didnt know squat about the language and culture before i came so yeah it was a hard decision. yeupp one hunnit percent they supported me

Q: many kpop artists are encouraged to learn new languages. What new language would you want to learn and perform in?

Somin : English… (laughs) And French! 

(Jseph says : Bonjour) 

Jiwoo: Chinese and Japanese 

BM: Portuguese

Q:  Regarding your positions as ‘King’ ‘Ace’ etc. were they assigned to you or could you choose which card you wanted to be? Also, can we expect a ‘Queen’ member joining in the future?

Jiwoo - We decided together after a meeting.
Somin - I like the black joker though… I don’t think I would fit the other cards.

Q: BM! What’s your favorite bar in LA?

BM- i came to korea before i turned 21 in LA so i havent been able to turn up too much in my hometown yet :[ send me some suggestions!

Q: when did you start getting interested in music?

Jiwoo - When I was around 8 or 9 I wanted to be a singer. 

Jseph - When I was 7. 

Somin - Probably around junior high.

Q: To BM: Got any workout tips? How did you get so “big” :O

BM- i used to be real hefty. turned all that fat into muscle through dieting.. dieting is 70% workin out is 30%

Q:  What are you all most looking forward to during your tour?

Jiwoo: LA, because I am excited to see Matthew oppa’s family!

Q: BM, do you have any advice for someone who is trying to get and stay in shape?

BM- stay strict and have self discipline one your self diet. workout is a MUST stay active

Q: BM how much can you bench press?? I just started so I can barely do 70 ://

BM- i stopped benching after almost snapping my shoulder. i just do flat bench and incline dumbbell presses now

Q: Would you rather fight a horse-sized duck, or 100 duck-sized horses?

BM: horse sized duck

Jiwoo : 100 duck sized horses… I’m scared of birds

Jseph : Horse sized duck

Somin : Horse sized duck 

List of things kpop idols can't do

• date (“our fans are my girlfriends/boyfriends”)(“don’t cheat on us until our next comeback ;)))”)
• get caught dating
• smoke (drinking is fine tho)
• make eye contact w/ opposite gender
• get within a 3 meter radius w/ opposite gender
• swear
• say personal opinions
• be too loud
• be too quiet
• be themselves in general
• complain about career
• laugh annoyingly
• frown
• look tired
• watch porn
• make human mistakes
• be confident in themselves
• have low self esteem
• look ugly
• get plastic surgery
• be less enthusiastic in front of their fans
• be stupid
• be too smart
• be too fat (48kg+ for girls, 65kg+ for boys)
• be too skinny
• have acne or other obvious skin troubles
• be tan (applies for most korean fans)

“All that the fans wish for idols to be is to be happy”
“But within the range of still satisfying the fans’ desires”

Being an idol doesn’t immediately strip that person of their basic individual rights as a human being. i don’t get how most fans in Korea can’t comprehend this??? This is shit you learn throughout your 12 mandatory years of schooling like wtf what do they teach you in ethics classes in Korea? Fucking calculus?? Smh

Nct 127 visiting their s/o's country

Request: Can i reaction a nct reaction (especially 127) about them dating a foreigner and she asks them for the summer holidays to visit her country?? Thank youuu

A/N: since you didn’t give a specific unit i’ll just do the 127 unit! do request again if you want other members/units hehe

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Taeil:

Would be more fascinated at your house rather than your country tbh. Would also probably stay at home with you for a few days rather than visiting places because he prefers spending time with you alone. But once you start whining and begging him to go visit other places though (your favourite restaurants, places etc.), he’d agree full heartedly and would also probably take many pictures so he can save them as memories.

Originally posted by taeiljaeh

Johnny:

Was probably the one who suggested to go visit, because he’s excited and curious to see the environment you grew up in and he wants to visit new places so he suggested it. Is prepared to spend the whole day out with you just visitinh different places and famous places, and would probably also ask you to do cliche and cringy poses for pictures together with him.

“I heard this place is really wonderful and famous *points to your house*”

“And where did you hear that from?”

“I just knew, because it helped to bring up such a beautiful person *winks*”

“Stop omg-”

Originally posted by pawjohnny

Taeyong:

Would probably jump around excitedly from the moment y'all landed at the airport, and would also ask you to bring him to somewhere with good food. Loves taking random selfies and photos of the both of you, and would also compliment everything about your country like 24/7.

Never fails to tidy up your house and room every morning ever since you brought him there to stay, because he claims that ‘it was too messy’ when everything was in place (at least for you).

Originally posted by taeyongsolo

Yuta:

Like Taeil, but extremely lazy. Both of you probably spent half the vacation hugging and cuddling in your house rather than actually going out to visit places. Mainly because he wants to spend more time with you, and he also wants to use it as an excuse to come back again with you, “because we didn’t get to do much”

But when y'all go out to visit and go sightseeing though, he takes every moment to snao pictures and would also compliment on how beautiful everything is, just like you.

pretend you’re winwin

Originally posted by haechanz

Doyoung:

Really excited over it but doesn’t show it, but would get shocked and amazed by how different everything was there as compared to Korea. Unlike Yuta, he’d be the one dragging you out to bring him around, asking you to show and explain things to him as he loves learning new things. Would probably also try to learn your language and interact with the people there, who’d laugh at his awkward accent every single time.

Originally posted by nctuhohahyes

Jaehyun:

A mix of Doyoung and Taeil tbh, some days he just wants to cuddle with you and spend time alone in your house, and the others, he’d be all excited and hyped up to go visiting your favourite places.

Has a small little to-do list with you and wants to complete every single one before y'all go back, some includes: meet her parents, visit her favourite cafe, go shopping and buy her clothes

Originally posted by l-sj

WinWin:

Is happy and excited over the fact that he’s visiting your country with you, and tries to spend every minute wisely with you. Doesn’t say much as he loves everything that you suggest y'all do, and he’s more than happy that he’s able to spend quality time back at your home country.

“I’m happy that you’re happy”

“Aw babe, love you. Next holidays we’ll go China together alrights?”

“ Of course, love you too”

Originally posted by nctlimit

Mark:

Really excited and happy too, and would also ask you to bring him to your favourites places-which then also becomes his favourites too. Would probably be fascinated and amazed by everything around him too, and takes pictures too, as a form of memory.

Is also very happy being with you and does whatever you call him to do. All he wants is for the both of you is to have a short break since it’s the holidays.

“Oh my goodness, even the chocolate tastes different here”

“Mark… We have that brand back in Canada & Korea too… What do you mean?”

“O-Oh, yeah sorry, my bad *starts giggling*”

Originally posted by ten-ie

Haechan:

Small little excited bun!! Probably looked up on all the places he wanted to visit and already joted it down on a small notebook, including the things he wants to do with you. Once y'all landed, he’d just jump and run around excitedly while holding your hand, exclaiming loudly, “I’m in my girlfriend’s hometown!!! Yay!!!”

Would also try to learn your language, and would purposely make a funny accent so that he can make you laugh. Doesn’t show it but he’s really happy that you’re finally back home, and with him. Would randomly hug you and give you small pecks, “Thank you for bringing me here”

Originally posted by markdon-nct

anonymous asked:

Hey, that guy asking for concert tickets? That's your boyfriend!

… W-wait that can’t be right…(・□・;)He didn’t say anything about that when he was here… (2/7)

Are you daddy’s lady fwiend? pat. 4

Calumxreader

word count: 1,700+

Warnings: Mentions of death, suicide

Hey guys, sorry for the wait. My computer is still being bitchy, i’m using my sister’s right now. I’ll try to update as frequently as possible.

What was he doing here?

I thought he was living in Korea. That’s what he told me when he left.

Had he talked to Calum about me? What if he had?

“You guys know each other?” Calum pulled me closer to him and stood up straighter.

“I told you man, I was her first” Jungkook winked at me and took out a card from his wallet, he put it on the crystal counter on top of me. “Call me” He smirked and turned, leaving without saying another word.

Calum let go of me and grabbed the card, he offered it to me. “Here, have it. We wouldn’t want to keep Joe waiting.” He walked around me and went into the TV room where Kaiden was asleep..

I threw the card in the trash and followed him. “Calum!”

He turned to look at me. “Did you call him yet?” I shook my head.

“I’m not going to call him,”

“No? Why not?” His eyes had gotten significantly darker, no longer the warm chocolate color I had gotten used to.

“Because I don’t want to talk to him. Or about him.”

“Is that why you couldn’t even tell me his name right? Because I vividly remember the night where we talked about this. You said that your first was a sweet guy named Joe. You couldn’t even tell me his name! What else have you lied about?!” He stood in front of me, nose flaring, flushed cheeks and clenched jaw.

“Are you serious? You’re angry because I lied about his name?! Well what about you huh?! All I know about Lenox is her name! I don’t know why she’s not here. For all I know you could have killed her!”  I felt infuriated, but even I knew I had hit a button. Calum looked just about ready to snap at me.

You think I killed her?!” He was breathing heavily, trying hard to control his anger.

“I don’t know Calum! That’s the point! You never bothered to tell me anything about her!”

He chuckled humorlessly. “Turn this around why don’t you!”

“Don’t yell at mommy!” I didn’t even notice Kaiden had woken up and was listening and seeing us fight. I felt guilty, he didn’t have to see us fight, ever. I was going to pick him up but Calum grabbed my arm and pulled me to the tattooing room, locking the door behind us. He pushed me against the wall,, but there was nothing romantic about it. He stood in front of me, keeping me where I was.

Kaiden was knocking on the door. “Open!”

I stared at Calum, afraid of him for the first time.

“Let go of me” He grabbed my wrists and held them above me.

“You think I killed Lenox” It wasn’t a question, but a statement. “You’re right"

 ___

I pulled her to me, hugging her from behind, inhaling her scent. ”let’s go home”. She nodded, reaching behind her to caress my hair, I smirked, knowing the party was far from over for us. It wasn’t often that we had a night without our 1 year old.

It had started as a simple welcome back party for my sister in law, she had just come back from England where she finished her career. My mom had Kaiden for the night and we would pick him up tomorrow morning, or later today I should say, since it was 3 AM.

But the party had been filled with past friends, neighbors, acquaintances and evens strangers. Wild above all. I wanted to drink so badly! But I only had one beer, since I was going to drive.

I threw Lenox over my shoulder, her squeals making my smile and made my way to my car. I put her on the passenger seat and buckle up her seat belt.

“You look hot” She giggled and started sucking on my neck as I buckled her in. I bit my lip.

“So do you” I wanted to give in, but we would be way more comfortable in our bed. So I pulled away, she groaned, and I chuckled as I got behind the wheel.

“Let’s have sex here” She undid her seatbelt and attempted to climb over to my seat to straddle me. I smirked but then realized that we could get caught.

“We’re not far from home babe.” I bucked her in again and started driving. She pouted and after about a minute of me driving she undid her seat belt again and tried to undo my pants. I pushed her hand away, not wanting to risk crashing, but she kept insisting.

“Lenox….”

“What? Don’t you want me to suck you off?”

“Not while I’m driving and we could crash!”

She furrowed her eyebrows and leaned back on her seat. “Fine, if it’s not in the car, then you can forget about me EVER sucking you off again. And if you were thinking about having sex when we get home. FORGET IT. You’re gonna sleep in the guest room alone!”

I was pissed. And as much as I would like to say it wasn’t because of what she said about sex, I couldn’t lie to myself.  So I drove faster, desperate to get home and be away from her, so could cool down.

She was sulking, but her expression turned into a fearful one once she realized how fast I was going.

“Calum slow down!”

I drove past a red light and that’s a truck crashed into us. And then everything went black.

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When I woke up. I was on a hospital bed, my mom crying to my right side and a doctor on my left.

“He’s awake!” My mom cried even harder, with a smile on her face.

“L-Lenox” I needed to see my wife. I needed to know she was okay. I tried to sit up but I had various tubes connected to me. “Where’s Lenox?!” I asked the doctor, desperate.

My mom turned away, wiping her eyes.

“I-I’m sorry. She didn’t survive. The truck crushed her and she died instantly.”

He was lying, he had to be. Lenox couldn’t be dead. We had to talk about our fight! We had to make up!

She wasn’t dead. That would mean I would have to take care of Kaiden by myself.

Kaiden.

He would have to grow up without his mother.

No.

He wouldn’t have to, because Lenox wasn’t dead.

The doctor was just confused.

He must have mistaken her with another Lenox

Lenox Hood wasn’t dead!

I looked at my mom, she was shaking my shoulders, as if I was in sh-

“Help! Somebody help my son! He’s in shock!!”

“Lenox is alive!” I groaned and ripped out all the cables and tubes and got up, holding on the bed for support. I felt pain everywhere, especially my ribs and neck, but I had to see her.

I walked past the nurses, pushed them out of the way. One of them grabbed me and tried to get me to lay down, but I punched him in the face and walked out of the room, ignoring the pain on my ribcage.

Out of nowhere I felt a slight pinch on my arm and then I passed out.

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“Mama”, Kaiden was exhausted  but he wouldn’t fall asleep.

“Just go to sleep please.” I pleaded, but to no avail.

“Mama,” I felt myself tear up, I didn’t want to think about her. We held a funeral for a reason! I shouldn’t have to remember her or feel the ache inside my heart after the funeral!

“Mamaaa!” He started crying, not understanding why Lenox wasn’t here, holding him.

I groaned and out him down on his crib. ”Why can’t you try to forget her?! You keep reminding me of her! STOP!”

“MAMAAAA!”

I started crying myself, no bothering to try to keep it together anymore.

“SHE’S DEAD! I KILED HER! SHE’S NEVER COMING BACK! STOP FUCKING CRYING!!!”

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I held Calum tightly, letting him cry on my shoulder.

“It wasn’t your fault,”

“YES IT WAS! I was speeding! It was me who killed her! I don’t even know how I made it this far. God knows I didn’t want to live”

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I was ready.

I had called my mom and pleaded her to come over.

It would take her at least two hours, she was away at a work convention.

Kaiden wouldn’t have to be alone for too long.

She would take care of him. I just couldn’t.

Every time I looked at him, I saw Lenox’s face staring back at me.

I had feed him one last time and put him on his bedroom floor, surrounded by his favorite toys so he didn’t feel alone while my mom arrived. I’m pretty sure he was asleep.

The apartment was clean, all of the keys and remotes were on the kitchen counter, labeled and ready for the next owner.

I made sure the gun was charged and put my finger on the trigger.

I stood up straight, and pointed the gun at my temple.

I was ready.

I would pulled the trigger very slowly, relishing my last moments alive.

I would finally reunite with my Lenox.

I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

I started to pull the trigger-

“Dada?”

I opened my eyes and saw my son staring at me. Confusion written across his face.

I started crying and threw the gun on the bed. I got on my knees and held my son in my arms. He tried to wipe the tears from my face and I smiled.

“I don’t think I can live without her Kaiden. But I’m gonna try for you bud.”

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I felt so badly. How did I date this person for 10 months and not know about this? I should’ve pay more attention, asked more questions.

“That was my lowest point. And Kaiden saved me, unconsciously, but he saved me. He’s my life. And He’s already mourned a mother. I don’t want him to cry over another one. I need to know you’re in it for the long run. Or if you want to break up, let’s do it right here, right now. I don’t want Kaiden to get used to having you around only to find that you’ll leave without an explanation someday.”

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Hope you guys liked it!

Also, im sorry for taking so long to update.

I’ll give a sneak peak of the next part to the first non-anon person who requests part 5

-nat

My 2017 trip to South Korea

Hello! I went to South Korea from Dec 29-Jan 6 about a week or so! I was so nervous to go even though I’ve seen positive experiences with Black women going, I was still nervous about visiting.

But I won’t talk much but just say my experience was beyond my expectations! I met too many cool people who were genuinely curious about Black people, like how do you do your hair like that? (I had curly/ long natural hair style). How do you stay so fit? How did you learn Korean? How do you say this or that in English? Your lips are so pretty, women would stare at my lips and say how they wish they had lips like mine. People would at times ask to take pictures with us, I was with 2 White girls and 1 Black girl and they were asking my White friends to take the pictures for them, We’re still laughing about that. But it didn’t bother her, she thought it was so nice that they were all over us and giving us a lot of love out of kindness. I had some even tell me they wish they had gorgeous glowing skin like mine instead of being pale, I was so shocked because most of the Korean beauty standards is to have pale skin.

Now I know you all probably wondering about the men right? I was curious about the clubbing scene so we did visit some clubs! Girl when I tell you when we walked up in there me and my other BFF whose Black (the other girls didn’t want to go). It was like in slow motion! Like the movies, a lottttt of staring at us mostly from the men, some of them are so bold! And the other half just stare wanting to come up and talk to us, but they be thirsty too! Some just want to like kiss and dance and some really want you to be his wife, for real! I’ve gotten numbers and I was curious to ask if they wish they had more Black people in Korea and their eyes would get so wide and they would say yes yes yes! Or ask me to move here please so we can hang out aww.

It was a quick trip but I’m hoping we can go back again this year. That’s how much fun we had! If anyone here is planning on going, do it! You’d enjoy it. It’s even prettier in the Spring/Summer time though especially with the food vendors. That’s what I want to do next time.