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saudade (n.);; a deep emotional state of nostalgic and profound longing to be near again to an absent something, or someone that one loves.

I have woken up so happy and in love this morning all because of Johnny and getting to see Captain Jack for the first time on the big screen. I just completely adore him and feel like I fell in love all over again and also feel like a new depphead again at the same time, realising and discovering all these things about this man that make him amazing 💘

I made people cry
Do my homework
And climb 7 flights of stairs to get the lunch I wanted
I never did anything to harm them
I don’t know why they did what I said
Some said I was a bully
Some said I was charming

That was until 7th grade
I shifted schools then

And
Then
I became someone who helped
Everyone
All the time
I became empathetic
I became kind
I wasn’t a bully
But I didn’t have my charm anymore either

What happened?
My friends from my previous school asked me totally stunned.

I think it was little bit of karma but majorly hormones and stepping out of the life which was privileged and safe.

Sometimes I want to go back
Because then I never cried
Then I was never hurt
Then I never felt anything
I knew the price of everything but the value of not a single thing.