what my emotions are doing rn

anonymous asked:

Rn I'm living on kind of a toxic house for idk how much longer (trying to move out asap) but a lot of things make me anxious/angry/feel all kinds of negative emotions. Could this affect my magic? If so, what can I do to fix that? I can't go anywhere else to do magic and I have to be discreet, my parents are hardcore Christians. I don't want to stop doing witchcraft tho, I really enjoy it even if it doesn't work, it kinda helps me feel better.

It can if you think it will. I assume that’s already a worry in your mind, since you’re asking this question. It’s like how we say doubting your spells can actually help them fail - this is sort of in that vein of thought. If you think it matters, that it will have an impact on your impact, then it can.

A lot of people talk about not needing to be in a calm / positive state when it comes to your spellwork - it really comes down to your frame of mind. Some spells require those emotions to fuel them - mostly curses, but certain spells call for you bring up those things to bind or banish them as well.

So, at that point it’s a matter of letting yourself believe and know that it will not affect your magic, and trying to keep the doubt from your mind. And I know it’s easier said than done, but as long as you keep trying, keep pushing those thoughts, eventually one day it will just be that way (the whole “fake it ‘till you make it” mantra, right?). 

You can still research magic and call yourself a witch, even if you’re taking a break between castings. I mean, it’s been, like, months since I did a “proper” spell, with candles and crystals and herbs and stuff like that. But here I am, still a witch, just focusing on expanding my knowledge at this time. That can be an option if you are willing to wait until you leave the house to do magic, so the negativity won’t impact it. And it makes me feel better too, I feel you.

Otherwise, you have a couple of other options as well.

You can [cast a ward] (tw: gif) around your bedroom - think of it like a layer of thick and potent energy coating your walls, as close to them as possible - so as not to allow any other negativity from the rest of your house in. Here are some more options for warding techniques:

Alternatively, here is this post: [Transmuting Energy: An Alternative to Shielding] (tw: gif as blog header).

From there, [cleanse often] to keep any negativity out of your space, and from you. A discreet cleansing is open up a window and direct the airflow to come in, sweep up any negativity, and bring it back out again. The “light visualization” is also a wonderful way to cleanse a space with no tools. You can also [decontaminate people before they enter your space], an amazing idea brought forward by @stsathyre​.

Self cleansing is also great to help with any negativity you may have picked up in the meantime - you still have to interact with the rest of the house right? Shampoos and body washes can be enchanted simply to help you cleanse as well as clean in your shower. My favorite method of self cleansing is standing out in the rain as it falls - and it’s getting to be better weather (at least where I am), the ideal time for this! 

Discreet practicing comes down to a lot of [energy work], in my opinion - you don’t need any tools, really, just your own body and an understanding of working with energy. I do spells with my intent and tapping debit machines to make them load faster. I also draw down rain by willing it, and some subtle hand gestures. 

Here are some more resources on discreet magic:

* not my choice of title

So. That was a bit of stuff, lol. I hope it can help you or give you some more ideas. Best of luck, anon! :D

anonymous asked:

fee i need autistic reyna pls ud be good at this

i just had a fucking RAGER of a shutdown like the worst one ever and i’m trying to pull myself out of it so really what better of a time than this

  • she uses the exact same communication methods when she’s commanding a crowd as she does in every day conversation. it’s a little offputting and perplexing to everyone else, and she struggles very hard to communicate one on one.
  • she always thought she’d be a terrible leader because she really just doesn’t seem to be very good at talking to people and making people like her, but she’s stunned to find that 1. giving uninterrupted speeches where she gets very passionate about her topic go over quite well in front of a crowd 2. being very Intense and Focused when making a point in front of an audience is perceived as a sign of strength and wisdom, rather than aggressive or a turn off like it is when making small talk
  • her movements seem kind of mechanical or stuttered to most people. the only time her body seems to work the way she needs it to is when she’s fighting.
  • her lending her strength out to other people is genuinely the most selfless and compassionate act she’s capable of making, because it depletes nearly all of her spoons and makes her enormously vulnerable until she has time to recharge
  • she has such a difficult time with sarcasm. she ends up being grateful for her reputation as a super intense and slightly terrifying leader because this is the facade she uses to disguise that she literally cannot understand other people’s senses of humor sometimes.
  • she’s actually a super sweet and sensitive person but she often panics and feels so uncomfortable when other people start making jokes or using heavy sarcasm or excessively dry humor that she doesn’t understand, so she’ll leave the room.
  • it’s really sad and makes her feel sort of helpless because she can’t quite make friends and everyone seems to think she hates them, but she doesn’t realize that she has a resting bitch face and she just really truly genuinely forgets to say basic greetings sometimes.
  • she h h h h aa a a t e s showering, the water pellets feel like they’re attacking her and bar soap is hopelessly dry and starchy feeling and scented shampoos or shower gels feel nice but are so strongly scented that it sends her into sensory hell
  • she is absolutely floating on cloud nine when she discovers the roman baths.
  • sometimes she’ll be doing okay and everything will be cool but she just. needs a second. so she’ll quick find a door to lock herself behind and FLAP FLAP FLAP FLAP FLAP….”phew.” and then go resume whatever she was doing.
  • she has a playlist of instrumental music (her faves are strings) and after a hard day of praetor work, she’ll put her headphones in and slowly rock back and forth to unwind. that’s like her favorite activity to do she could sit like that for hours.
  • she doesn’t really have meltdowns or shutdowns in the traditional sense but she DOES dissociate when she gets like really agitated. it’s a fairly new symptom (or it used to happen rather a bit when she was younger but she seems to have blocked it out, because it stopped when she arrived at camp jupiter and only starts up again once the war is over.) it’s more connected to her emotional state than anything else.
  • she looks very outwardly chill when she’s dissociating and it tends to be the “my body is moving on autopilot but i actually have literally no control of what i’m doing rn and i feel like i’m watching myself from outside my body” kind. if it gets REALLY bad though (like as in she’s very very agitated and emotionally distressed) it’s the “who’s fucking hand is this” kind
  • her dogs act like therapy dogs, really. she’s such a lucky bastard to have them i swear
  • she can usually sense when she’s going nonverbal before it actually happens (Luck y BASTARD) so she’ll start communicating in grunts and one word answers on purpose to like, charge up, or store energy or whatever.
  • she’s really good at keeping several spoons on reserve for important moments. she unfortunately had a lot of time to practice this with a childhood as rough and awful as her’s was.
  • if she says “i don’t want to talk about this” she really fucking means i literally do not—cannot talk about this right now and if you do not drop it i am literally going to fucking lose it. she usually leaves the room before it gets that bad.
  • cc’s spa is such a nice place for her because she can just braid people’s hair for hours and hours and she doesn’t have to talk to them or look at them she can just like use their hair and it feels so stimmy and nice
  • she is a hu m m e r she does a steady monotone hum when she’s happy or content or relaxed. circe’s customers used to gossip about it and she got really embarrassed so she made herself stop, and she doesn’t pick up the habit again until she’s at camp jupiter.
  • jason always thought it was really cute and he wisely never commented on it because he had a feeling it would make her self conscious (he was right). he always felt strangely honored that she felt comfortable enough that she would do it in front of him (even if he didn’t understand that it was a stim, he clearly knew it was something she did when she was happy and relaxed and only when she was alone or alone with him).
  • she was selectively mute (partially nonverbal??? idk what the terminology is for this is actually but It’s A Thing) as a child and so that was how she got diagnosed, because her teachers were always like “um HELLO sir your daughter doesn’t speak to us?? literally ever???” and her dad was like a total deadbeat, so he probably just punished her for it or called her stupid or whatever, but hylla exhausted all her resources researching it and was the best most supportive big sister any autistic kid could ask for.
  • eye contact is super bad in one on one or small scale situations but once again she looks a lot more comfortable in a crowd because she can just stare at everyone’s forehead or scan faces without really seeing
  • she’s super hyperempathetic towards animals!!!! (don’t fucking make me think about scipio!!!!!!! there was no fucking reason he needed to die!!!!!!!!!!!)
  • also animals really like her. this is a helpful skill when meeting lupa, understandably. she’s very good at wolf language, considering she doesn’t use words as her like most primary kind of communication (and sometimes feels like verbal speech is impossible)

fullmetalcupcake  asked:

One day Lance is sad and alone and the mice find him and try to comfort him and Lance, forgetting that the mice are connected to Allura, starts venting to them and the mice just become his friends, his bros, and he can tell them anything. And the mice keep most of what he says private but they do tell Allura that sometimes he gets really sad and when that happens she gathers the other paladins and they all band together to make lance feel better and they just shower him with the love he deserves

im in such an emotional state rn that this literally made me tear up im WEAKENED

i hope next season we get a scene where everyone hugs lance. like a big group hug with lance at the middle let my boy be loved and happy :(

Finished my oil painting final for my class! It’s a gift for my grandpa since he’s always wanted a portrait when I was a kid so I hope he likes it, plus I wanted to do a tribute to both him and my grandmother by incorporating their favorite colors.

anonymous asked:

I just gotta ask you but about the tarot card no 6 is that a bad thing or a good thing? In my opinion it's like 50/50

Yeah, it’s kinda 50/50 atm. I’d wait for the full scans to be released to judge what exactly the reversed 6 will mean to this situation. I’d say the first part fits in well so far as they were both kinda desperate for some releases of the emotional pain they’ve been feeling and locked away. It’s is rushed what they were doing, they both just let their emotions and desires take over (which isn’t necessarily a bad thing though. It’s hard on them for they both have endured so much already.)

Now, the thing with consequences and avoiding responsibility: My interpretation so far would be that due to them having unprotected sex it might lead to pregnancy which is a huge responsibility. The situation they both are in rn doesn’t provide the best circumstances to raise a child and I’m not sure if they’re ready to become parents (although both were shown to be good with kids, but especially on Kaneki’s part, there’s so much on a mental level that he has yet to solve.) Also, the last cover art hints a lot at pregnancy AND Touka loosing the baby. So how will they react if Touka gets pregnant? How will they react if she looses the baby? Will they regret they actions of this day? Will this even break their relationship?
That might be what the reversed 6 is about.

anonymous asked:

i'm really starting to get upset and uncomfortable it feels like a friendship group i've stanned this whole time is entirely a lie, and these do not feel like the girls i've been so fond of for a long time. i don't know what to make of it. sana has always been my favourite of the girl squad and i appreciate what julie is doing in some ways. but i didn't realise i'd have to sacrifice my positive emotions about all the other girls.

i’m just ……….. so highkey uncomfortable rn like what is this Mess™.


there will never be a day when I don’t think of you

Finishing Trollhunters


I’ve been really trying to avoid making a fucking speech cause i don’t want to sound so dramatic and i’ve been delaying this but i just can’t deal with it anymore. i really feel like shit and like most storias i don’t want to talk about this but it has to be done.

I’ve been a fan of history for only a year, but i loved them so much to the point where it actually really hurts, take for this moment where i try to drown myself with my emotion afters hearing the news. 

And im going to be so honest I’m disappointed with how their agency managed them, i felt like it wasn’t fair, but what can we do, what’s done is done. 

I only wish for the members to find their own happiness in what they do and that’s the only thing important to me rn. I’m going to support them disbanded or not.

anonymous asked:

"jealous" was so beautiful. you really do have a way with words; your readers can feel the emotions and feelings that the characters feel. my heart is broken for Namjoon rn, i hope he will get over his loss one day and feel a happiness for the o/c finding her own. i'm so obsessed with your writing, you're so talented! 💕

Honey, let me tell you, this piece of work is anything but pointless! Give yourself some credit. ❤️

Ahh Dee Jealous hit me hard. Beautifully written. I wish guys would be as understanding as Namjoon, but then again he did deceive himself as well which probably hurt even more. I relate to the OC, but so far, I couldn’t bring myself to take that one last step yet. Thanks for surprising us with this little treasure! You are a wonderful writer <3

Thank you! Sometimes you just have to let people go. Happiness isn’t in one person on thing, even if it seems like that at times. I’m sure Namjoon will find his own happiness someday. Thank you for reading!

anonymous asked:

Do you have any headcanons on stydia's emotional tether post canon ? Like do you think they ever share dreams or anything like that?

That’s not my head canon, but you should read Voluntary Apnea by @wellsjahasghost! It’s iconic. 

My tether head canons are twofold: 

  • The tether intertwines their souls, so when they are feeling something very deeply, down to their very souls, they can feel twinges of each other’s emotions. It’s not like “Oh, this is what Lydia’s feeling rn” it’s just that they register something that isn’t their own and are able to identify that it’s there because of the other. 
    • This works with sex, too, so technically their orgasms kinda feed into each other. Noice. Smort. 
    •  (This idea was stolen from a Romione fic called The Prince of Love. I take zero credit for it.) 
  • Lydia’s powers are stronger when she’s close to Stiles. He’s able to stabilize her head so that she has better control, using their tether to gain strength. 
    • This involves taking some energy from him, but Stiles jokes that he doesn’t need it anyways because he’s just gonna lie on the couch like a lump and play video games with Scott.
    • All she needs to do is be near him, but the closer they are the better, so touching, kissing, and having sex actually helps Lydia become more powerful. 

The end:) 

This year.. lol this year is a series of fucked up episodes.  365 days of failing marks and classes and fucking with someones and yosi breaks and looong phone calls of me complaining and being ungrateful about life and missing a lot of parties and drinking alone in my room and half ass work out motivations and unfinished art and longing for some people who are already dead and lonely sleepless nights and not being able to do what I wanna do and missing my judo tournaments and  barbaric fights and feeling worthless and losing important things and depressive games and plans that never happened and drinking sessions where i always get emotional and throw up and dissapointments and bodyshaming.Lol bc I’m depressed and I feel negative about my body like 2016 stressed the fuck out of me I could sure go for a nice glass of death about rn.☹

anonymous asked:

hi daddy!! tbh this is rare for me :( I'm usually the type of person to not be too attached to my emotions, so I'm not emotional but sometimes (rn) I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to.. when I come to them, I feel like they want to change the subject and all that.. I feel like no one is considerate of me :( I'm usually not like this and I don't know where or who to run to.. and it cheers me up a lot.. you're good at advicee, i hope you can help me <3 ily ❤️

You act on your feelings and on what you assume the other might think. We all tend to do that. Fact is, without asking you cannot be sure what another person feels. You said you feel that they change the subject. Tell them that. Say what you feel and listen to their answer. Surround yourself with people who treat you with respect, leave the other ones be. Please talk to them again. I believe it will change something. You are not alone, even if it feels like that. My thoughts are with you ❤️

anonymous asked:

Hey ghost...My ex-friend, Riley probably found a new person to love. And I'm crying really hard because I loved Riley and he is probably dating my friend even tho it been like two weeks since he blocked me. I feel like doing self harm to numb and control myself. But I really don't know what to do... And yea. Is there anything I can do to make it not hurt me even though it hurts me like hell? I'm sorry, im really weak and emotional rn. And good vibes to anyone. I don't want you guys to behurt

soRRY THIS IS SO LATE BUT honestly with stuff like this the only think i know works is time and distraction – ofc other people probably have some better advice than i do, but just distracting yourself and waiting it out is the only thing i know usually works for anyone sdnjbghsdbnj

Thanks @spooniewithtn and Nonnie for catching me up! My mind is blown right now! 

  • I’m sad Kate ended things the way she did
  • I’m FReaKKINGG OuT over my bb Ressler 
  • highly annoyed because I still think that whole Daddy thing is pretty ambiguous. I’m legit so done with that part of the story. 
  • SARAM! IT’S HAPPENING! *insert michael scott gif here*
  • WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK is TK doing rn? I need all the theories, speculations, headcanons, really just any thoughts as to WHAT THE HELL this bb is doing, and could it be possible that my fave spy!Tom is making a comeback? Please Lord and Jo(h)ns, yes
  • I feel an intense need for speculation fic. 
  • ok but seriously now back to ressler how is my precious boy scout going to handle this? please don’t let him pick up any more bad habits, please let him talk through his emotions and fears with his best friend and partner, maybe she could be talking about certain issues that have suddenly come up as well *coughspy!Tomcough* and they bond and they’re there for each other and they get closer and Liz might finally get to call him Donnie and there could just be this constant contrast between Ress and Tom and tptb and Liz will finally see who she deserves to be with and alksdfajklfoeiea

So aside from the ambiguity of the daddy thing, TBL certainly knew how to hook me for the coming season with a Ressler arc sure to come and the possibility of spy!Tom making a return. I also need to know a lot more about Liz’ memory manip from 2 years ago? Did I miss more info about that, or…? Anyway yes, all the Ress and spy!Tom good

So I listened to all of Bastille’s performances on Radio 2 and I need to vent a little because……..they were breathtaking. Especially listening to the cover of Human, but also the stripped back, slower versions of Blame and Good Grief. I can’t believe their harmonies. I can’t believe the soul and power in Dan’s voice. I can’t believe that guitar and bass just perfectly done in a way that compliments the vocals, but also drives the song without being too crazy. I can’t believe the drums making me bop along without quite knowing why. Bastille, you’ll probably never see this, but please never stop doing what you do.