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*Lost Too Soon* Newt x reader

◘ irlus asked:

Reader miscarries. Newt and she had been trying to have babies but she’s got her fourth miscarriage in a very short time. She is broken and beyond desperate and newt doesnt know how to make herl feel right. (And this is just the begining of the angst rampage)

❤ YOU AND YOUR ANGST. lol This one kills me with the feels.

WARNING: Obviously talks about miscarriages so read at your own risk. By no means do I wish to glorify miscarriages in any way. I know people who have had them and they are devastating. Keep in mind that this is only for creative purposes and in no way an attempt to lessen the severity and pain that happens when someone experiences a miscarriage.

You loved children. Your biggest hope was to one day become a mother and be able to watch your own children grow up and become the people they were meant to be.

You and your husband, Newt, had tried for years to have one but all seemed lost after you had endured three miscarriages. 

You were now in your fourth pregnancy and so far things were going well. Each day you and Newt held high hopes that everything would work out and you’d finally be able to start the family you had long dreamed of.

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Blueprint

I was always so worried
About sharing myself
The real me
Worried that people
Would think I was fake
A fraud
A failure
A mess
Until I realized
That I am none of those things
Because what I imagined perfection to be
Doesn’t exist
There’s no such thing
As a perfect person
There’s no mould
Or formula
To create
The “Right” kind of person
Were are all people
Messed up
Disasters
A bit mad
Looking
Hoping
Dreaming
That we’re alright
That we’re enough
That we’re what we’re supposed to be
And guess what?
We are.
Because there is no such thing
As the right type of person.
That doesn’t exist.
We are all flawed creations
Beautiful in our lost wandering
Walking paths
Trying to reach something unattainable
That we can’t even verbalize
Or visualize.
I am ok
As me
As who I am
Because there is no blueprint
For what a human being
Is supposed to be
We’re Picasso’s paintings
Not robots
We are art
Not machinery
Breathe in the joy of your existence
Let the romantic heartbeats of life
Consume you
Let life live inside of your soul
Paint the Earth
With the colors
Of your masterpiece.

Original Work: KH 10/23/14

"Wait, don't go" -- Fic Prompt Submissions

JANUARY 2014 FIC PROMPT: Veronica says, “Wait, don’t go.”
Logan stops moving towards the door, turns around, and then, DOT DOT DOT.

Yes, we know this was due yesterday. You can blame parkerlees who chose to marathon the first season of Veronica Mars with her IRL friends this weekend instead of writing the notes for nevertothethird’s submission like she was supposed to. (Mea culpa.)

Thanks to all of those who submitted fics to our first monthly fic prompt challenge! Here are all the submissions. Remember, dear readers, feedback and reviews are deep deep love for our fic authors. Even if it’s just a four word comment, let them know what you thought. And, enjoy more fic!

All Along it Was a Fever
Author: ghostcat3000
Pairing: Veronica/Logan
Rating: T
Genre: Romance
Setting: Future (movie)
Spoilers: 3.20, “The Bitch is Back”
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 1,586
Status: Complete
Summary: Veronica says, “Wait, don’t go.” She didn’t even hear herself ask, it was so quiet, easy to miss, but he did. He heard her. 
Notes: Like all of ghostcat’s work, this is lyrical in its prose, and one of the strongest Veronica voices in the fandom. This fic lives insides Veronica’s head (no actual dialogue) and it’s a beautiful place – filled with complicated emotions, deep longing for Neptune and those who live there, and the ever present need to solve the case. Solve the case, the world is better.

Wait, Don’t Go
Author: VictoriaSinclair
Pairing: Veronica/Logan
Rating: G
Genre: Romance
Setting: Future (movie)
Spoilers: 3.20, “The Bitch is Back”, also discusses the spoiler pic that was circulating earlier in the month.
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 1,403
Status: Complete
Summary: What happens after that scene in the trailer when Veronica says “Wait, Don’t Go”? Well, she has some news for Logan …
Notes: Oh man, this fic makes me giddy. It’s sweet, and sexy, and almost a celebration of everything V&L have had to overcome in their relationship to be together.
hollye83’s Notes: I love the dialogue, and the character stuff, but mostly the making out. Yep, I’m shallow like that.

Just the Same as the Last Time
Author: petpluto
Pairing: Veronica/Logan
Rating: T
Genre: Friendship
Setting: Future (movie)
Spoilers: 3.20, “The Bitch is Back”
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 3,759
Status: Complete
Summary: Logan goes to leave, but Veronica has some things to say first. And some Big Lebowski to watch.
Notes: petpluto is adeptly skilled at writing nuance in her Veronica/Logan relationship. There is just as much communicated in the spaces and silences as there is in the dialogue. Perfect explanation of why V had to leave and why she’s back and why that’s okay. Traces of the Veronica and Logan we knew on the series remain, but they’re grown up, and that’s good for everyone involved.

Wait, Don’t Go
Author: elschaaf
Pairing: Veronica/Logan
Rating: T
Genre: Romance, with a hint o’ angst
Setting: Future (movie)
Spoilers: 3.20, “The Bitch is Back”
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 939
Status: Complete
Summary: Veronica and Logan spend the evening talking, but when he makes a simple request she doesn’t seem to be able to fulfill, he tries to leave.
Notes: Less than 1,000 words but really packs a punch in terms of how much ground L&V cover. Interesting Veronica POV and exposition but it never feels heavy handed. Few things are actually said between L&V because of the deep sense that they know the other person better than almost anyone else does.

Another Second Last Chance
Author: nevertothethird
Pairing: Veronica/Logan
Rating: T
Genre: Friendship, Romance
Setting: Future (movie)
Spoilers: 3.20, “The Bitch is Back”
Chapters: 1
Word Count: 3,063
Status: Complete
Summary: Her dad thinks she’s destined for greatness, but there have been plenty of great women and men who weren’t all that good. This man standing in front of her, who is strangely enough wearing a corresponding shade of blue to hers, sees her. He doesn’t see someone unobtainable or destined to be great. He sees Veronica Mars.
Notes: This fic evokes the oft quoted, “nostalgia is like a grammar lesson: you find the present tense and the past perfect” (Owens Lee Pomeroy, no relation to Shelly). Centred on a tense dinner juxtaposed with flashbacks to happier times, nevertothethird skillfully explores the new friendship that is slowly developing between Logan and Veronica, who time has taught to no longer jump in head first. As always, the characterizations are superb, allowing us a sincere look into Veronica’s head as she weighs her own choice to return home against the greatness that is now expected of her. (This has been a note by parkerlees because Suzanne is not that conceited. You’re welcome for not squeeing all over this.)