what is intimacy

  • Dazai: So how did you get into a car accident?
  • Atsushi: Well, we were driving and there was a deer in the road that Akutagawa didn't notice. So, I said 'Akutagawa, deer!'
  • Akutagawa: ...
  • Atsushi: And you want to tell Dazai-san what your responce was?
  • Akutagawa: ...
  • Akutagawa: (sighs)
  • Akutagawa: 'Yes honey?'
  • <p> <b>a random person :</b> platonic relationships are beautiful<p/><b>another person :</b> romantic relationships are beautiful<p/><b>me, an intellectual :</b> both are. both can co-exist at the same time. it's fine if people ship it platonically OR romantically. best friends to lovers is completely valid and vice versa.<p/></p>


I just…I can’t get over the Johnlock hug and I’ve realized why. That’s how I would normally touch my boyfriend, my INTIMATE partner. There was nothing platonic about that hug and it was just so tender and loving. They nailed it from the way Sherlock hesitated to the way John ever so gently scooted closer. That was in no way a casual thing between “bros”. Remember, once you open your heart up you can’t ever close it again, and that was Sherlock opening up to John. That was a confession.


giles/jenny + touching

anonymous asked:

I find it hilarious that Paul's dad and Mimi were both protective of 'their boys' and disliked John and Paul.

it’s almost like…… they suspected… that their “friendship”… meant something… quite deep.. and real.. and almost.. gay….. interesting…

In any peer relationship there are going to be choices you make together, things you have to agree on, like what kind of relationship it is, what level and kinds of intimacy you want to share together, etc. And both of you are going to have to be honest about your needs and boundaries.

In a dating/romantic/sexual relationship, monogamy (or not) is one of those things that you have to talk about and decide on together - just like how much time you want to spend together or whether you’ll have sex, etc. That’s part of forming that relationship, the communication about what you each want and need from the relationship.

And yeah, there will sometimes be conflicting preferences or needs that make an agreement impossible to reach. If that happens, if you can’t agree about the fundamental questions about what your relationship will be like, maybe you can’t be in that relationship.

And that sucks, I know, but you have to have that conversation and you have to be honest about your needs and priorities, and if yours lined up with theirs before but somewhere along the way they started to conflict - you have to talk about that too. You can’t just break the agreement without telling them, or try to pressure someone into a type of relationship they don’t want.

Sometimes it doesn’t work out. But it’s better to acknowledge that than to manipulate someone, or lie about what kind of relationship you’re in and deny the other person the chance to make informed choices.

Can I just say one thing I really love is that all signs in canon point to Kara being some kind of ace? Like her two encounters with any sexual activity were her being grossed out, she lights up more at food than she does the idea of dating, and when she finally gets the guy she wanted she realizes what she thought she wanted based on all those rom coms she loves maybe isn’t actually what she wants. That feeling intimacy is supposed to give her just isn’t happening. And while it’s very much the writers doing a terrible job of handling the relationship, it does provide more fuel to an ace Kara.

The second someone starts getting close to me

I’m just like:

Originally posted by montypythonfan

I want to paint you in blue
Dust you in silver
And kiss the stars from your lips

We can bury ourselves in crystals
Just to see the world glow
But I swear, it will never look like heaven

Not the way you do
Moaning in the bloom of midnight
Howling at the moon

You’ve got me licking up constellations
And I have an appetite
For the way you tremble

—  The World Lights You Up Just Right.
When abuse/incest survivors think their parents are/were good.

One of the hardest things for non-survivors to understand is the way that survivors of abuse defend their abusers. A common question I get asked is “How could you possibly think your parents were GOOD?”

To non-survivors, my situation looks simple. A father who plays pornographic video games with his seven-year-old daughter is a bad father. A mother who isolates her daughter from social support and starts physically punishing her and grooming her toward heterosexuality after she comes out as gay is an abusive mother. Parents who let cult members into the house and create cover stories to excuse ritual abuse don’t deserve sympathy when their adult children go no-contact.

Here’s the problem. People aren’t just born with an innate understanding of what love, intimacy, trust, goodness, and understanding are. Those things are supposed to be learned during infancy when a child is helpless but learns to trust that an adult will take care of them. Children who are abused by their primary caregivers have what is supposed to be their very first loving relationship marred with abuse. If the “care” a child received at their most vulnerable was infrequent, unreliable, or affected by shaming (ie: parents being disgusted with their baby/constantly angry at their baby for crying), then the baby never has anything positive to measure future relationships against or even to measure the parents’ behavior against. If the parents say “we love you more than anyone else in the world,” the child is going to believe that is true. If the parents say “other children get more love than you do because you’re worse than other children/more annoying than other children/less attractive than other children/less lovable than other children/etc.” then the child will believe that as well.

Unlearning that kind of message, especially when the child started learning it in infancy, is not as simple as hearing “you didn’t deserve it” and then going “oh wow, that’s such a revelation! My life is fixed now, thank you so much!” Sure, survivors need to be reminded that they deserved more love and care than they got, but asking a survivor to implicitly understand that on a deep, core level just because you say it to them sometimes is asking a bit much.

Infants actually need to emotionally attach to someone in their lives in a secure manner. This means that even if a parent is rejecting, sadistic, or otherwise abusive, the infant will still try to attach to this person. The child *needs* love from that person to avoid being left with literally nothing.

This is part of why abuse survivors often date abusers when they get older. They desperately need someone they can connect with, and abusers are more likely to offer instant relief than good partners. Good partners will want to gradually get to know the survivor and let intimacy develop naturally. Abusers will push for immediate trust and intimacy, which initially feels like fresh air to a survivor who lacks it from other sources. Beyond that, stigma against people with mental health issues and traumatic backgrounds can make good partners reluctant to give abuse survivors a chance. This can mean that abusers are much easier to form bonds with than “good people” are.

In addition to manipulating attachment needs (deliberately or unintentionally), abusive parents are rarely abusive 100% of the time. Some abusers financially support their survivors to keep them dependent, and other abusers will buy expensive “just because” gifts for their children, which leaves their children feeling indebted. Some abusers say “I love you; you’re wonderful” on odd numbered days or exhibit “good” behavior just some of the time, leaving survivors thinking that the abuse is just their parent reacting to stress or some passing problem that can be eventually overcome. Many survivors think they can figure out a rhyme or reason behind the “good days” and “bad days” to ensure that only good days happen from now on. That’s rarely actually possible, so survivors suffer.

Survivors aren’t dumb for believing their abusers are good or right. Those are common beliefs that can take a lot of work to overcome.