what i wish i knew at 13

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my goal for this summer is to become much more focused on posting frequent original content–whether it be masterposts, photos or quotes. but as this seems to be a rather common goal among studyblrs, i thought it would be fun to share a list of 25 original content ideas for your studyblr (that you can steal!).


1. stationery masterpost (list of all of your favorite and most used stationery!)

2. “what to do with your studyblr during summer” post (name some things and content to post on your studyblr to stay active on tumblr over the summer)

3. tutorial (ex: how i take notes, how i design printables, how i stay productive etc.)

4. self-care masterpost (list some ways that you use to calm down, relax and take care of yourself when you’re stressed or feeling down)

5. study playlist (name some of your favorite study tunes *cough* kpop *cough* and perhaps even link to a spotify playlist with the songs added to it!)

6. “how to start a studyblr” (share some of your best tips for newbie studyblrs!)

7. story (share a story that might be motivating, inspiring or helpful for others to hear–it can be anything from how you moved on from a bad grade, a time when you worked hard for something you wanted, or anything else that could be inspiring!)

8. challenge (start up your own challenge! it can be anything pertaining to studyblr! ex: the 30 days of bujo challenge, the summer productivity challenge etc.)

9. studyspo pics (this one is pretty obvious, but it never hurts to post pics of your notes, stationery and whatnot over the summer, even if you’re not actually taking any intensive, rigorous courses over the summer)

10. book recs (since people tend to do a lot of reading over the summer, give your fellow studyblrs a list of your favorite books that you think they should try out!)

11. movie/TV show recs (same with the book recs, but with movies or TV shows instead)

12. quotes (whether you make up some quotes yourself, or take some from the internet, posting inspiration like this on tumblr can be extremely motivating to people who might see it!)

13. “studyblr on a budget” (there seems to be a myth that in order to be a successful studyblr, you need to have fancy, expensive stationery. and that is 100% not true! share some of your tips for budget studyblrs!)

14. “what i wish i had known about/before _____” (ex: what i wish i knew before my first year of uni, what i wish i knew about pre-calc, what i wish i knew before my first job interview etc.)

15. how to prepare for b2s (what are some of your tips for preparing to go back to school? any specific things/steps people should do/follow before heading back?)

16. “how to self-teach _____” (ex: how to teach yourself french, the best resources for learning chinese on your own etc.)

17. “how to be more productive” (share what methods you use to stay more productive! ex: how i use the pomodoro technique to be more productive, how to be more productive when you’re tired etc.)

18. sleep masterpost (it seems like as students, we’re all doomed to be eternally tired! share some tips for getting enough sleep, sleeping well, waking up quickly, and staying awake throughout the day!)

19. apps masterpost (what apps do you regularly use as a student? google drive? evernote? goodnotes? photomath? list all of them in a masterpost!)

20. printables (try your hand at making some printables! to-do lists, monthly/weekly calendars, and test-prep sheets are all great printables to make!)

21. icons (people love free icons! i have a tutorial on how to make your own flat icons right over here.

22. “how to fight boredom over the summer” (share a list of some ways to stay un-bored over the summer!)

23. blog awards (offer a blog awards on your studyblr, and award some of your fave studyblrs!)

24. blog reviews (have people send you asks, and then review their studyblrs and give them kind and honest feedback!)

25. giveaway (if you have the funds and the resources to hold a giveaway, it might be a fun way to connect with more people in the studyblr community! if you can’t afford stationery or something, then try offering a digital prize–like a free icon or logo pack or something!)


welp, that was it! i hope you found this helpful!

xoxo, ainsley

I highly doubt this will reach an audience, I mean I have like no followers. But. I have to try.
In light of 13 Reasons Why coming out on Netflix, I’ve been reminded lately all to well of my own past. And I wish teenage me knew then what I know now. I wish SOMEONE would have told me that there is indeed light at the end of the tunnel.
I am a suicide attempt survivor. Not just once either. I attempted to kill myself SEVEN times, and did not succeed. And for that, I am grateful. Now stick with me, this is a long story.
I was the girl in the back of the classroom that no one liked. I was called parasite. People spread untrue rumors that I was a whore and I was easy (fun fact, I was a virgin until I was 17). I had no friends. I discovered the internet at the young age of 10 (2005 for you young ones that don’t agree 10 is young). And when I was 14 I became the victim of a very cruel internet joke. I met a guy online, or so I thought, his pictures were fake and I didn’t know. I printed them off and put them in my binder at school and proudly bragged of my new boyfriend. The other kids realized “he” was fake before I did, they made fun of me relentlessly, I was devastated. When I was 16, a boy in my class said “If you think Laren should kill herself raise your hand” and all but one person raised their hand. No one thought about how their words would stick to me well into my adult years, no one realized how vividly I would remember all of that, and no one cared. Absolutely no one in that school cared if I lived or died, at least not the kids. My 17th birthday should have been a good memory, I finally had a friend and I had her over that night and it was AMAZING. Until some kids from school had somehow got my number and called that night, I’m thankful that I don’t remember what they said anymore. But it didn’t end there. After a 3 year on and off relationship that was horrible, I was entirely too naive and forgiving but I don’t want to go into it, I moved on. And that, my friends, is where I found the light and all the bad became worth it because of the good. I met the man who is now my husband. It didn’t take long to realize he was my soulmate, you may not believe in those; I didn’t either until I met him. In October of 2015 I found out I was pregnant. I was overjoyed. And nervous, I think that’s a natural side effect of finding out you’re growing a life. I had a rocky pregnancy, but June 9, 2016 my beautiful daughter was brought into this world. That moment that they tell you to wait for? That was mine. That was my blinding happiness, the start of a whole new chapter of my life and for the first time I was able to put my past behind me. Shortly after she was born, I got married to her father. The most loving and dedicated man I have ever met. And I’m happy. I’m finally truly no strings attached happy. All the pain I suffered, all those years I wished for nothing but the end, every single moment that led up to this, was worth it. I sit here and watch my daughter play, and read her a bedtime story and watch her learn and grow and I am SO glad I failed.
Your pain will end. Your life will be bright. Don’t snuff out your flame early, please, just trust that this world is going to be a good place for you very soon. Keep on holding on.

Promt list

1. “Thats my phone”
2. “Why do you have my bra in your hand?”
3. “I don’t feel so good”
4. “You mean everything to me….”
5. “You lost your ring?….”
6. “Great now the fire alarm is going off”
7. “You mean to tell me that you ate all my food?…”
8. “How dare you use me when you knew i loved you….”
9. “Forget it”
10. “Maybe wishes do come true after all
11. “Maybe soulmates are a thing”
12. “Lets go travel the world”
13. “Can we sleep under the stars?”
14. “I saw you sitting alone and thought you would use some company”
15. “Are you seriously horny right now?”
16. “Whats with the cheesy pickup lines?”
17. “Nooo! They belonged together”
18. “Your jealous over my celebrity crush?”
19. “Could i maybe get your number?”
20. “How about a date?”
21. “Netflix?”
22. “Was it really worth it?”
23. “Yeah well now you’ve lost me”
24. “Let me help you goddammit”
25. “Stop being stubborn and come cuddle me”
26. “You drove here at 2 in the morning to come and get cuddles?”
27. “Soooo…..what now?”
28. “I thought you locked the door”
29. “This is going to be the end of me”
30. “You are going to be the death of me”
31. “Your just another player and its game over for us”
32. “You’re seriously a man-child”
33. “I want you. Only you”
34. “Do you belive in love at first sight?”
35. “Im so stupid. I fell for my best friend”
36. “Its cute when you blush”
37. “Back off”
38. “Is there a reason your crawling threw my window?”
39. “Thats a cute laugh. I like it”
40. “Move in with me?”
41. “I guess this is it…”
42. “It wasn’t supposed to happen like this”
43. “You owe me 10 bucks”
44. “Can you bring pizza and beer”
45. “What did that asshole do to you?”
46. “What did you do?”
47. “Ewww thats gross”
48. “Stick that toung out again and i will cut it off”
49. “Im not crying. Theres something in my eye”
50. “Wow. Your stupid”
51. “Did i fucking stutter?”
52. “You should leave”
53. “Dont mind me”
54. “Nice moves love”
55. “What a dumb idea. Im in”
56. “Can someone shoot him?”
57. “Don’t say a word”
58. “Shit, thats hot”
59. “I dont care”
60. “You need to leave”
61. “Fuck off”
62. “NEVER!”
63. “Do you even love me?”
64. “I think i just fell in love”
65. “I cant do this anymore”
66. “You’re so whipped”
67. “Forever?”
68. “I fall in love with you more and more ever day”
69. “Your all i have left”
70. “Care to dance?”
71. “Please. Just dont”
72. “Im sorry”
73. “I said im sorry what more do you want!”
74. “You cant just sit there all day”
75. “You can lock yourself away from everyone else….but please dont push me away”
76. “You can’t banish me!! This is my bed too”
77. “Talk about awkward”
78. “If you die. I’ll kill you”
79. “That dosn’t make sense”
80. “Just smile. I just really need to see you smile right now”
81. “How funny. You think i care”
82. “Tell me what’s happened. Why have we changed”
83. “I don’t even know you anymore.”
84. “Do you really need all that candy?”
85. “Don’t yell at me”
86. “Good thing i didn’t ask for your opinion”
87. “She’s hiding behind the sofa”
89. “He’s respectable. But you know, a little dodgy”
90. “Your too good for this world”
91. “Only if you give me a piggy back ride”
92. “Let’s build a fort”
93. “Wait, you like me?”
94. “Wait….is this a date?”
95. “If i did anything right in my life, it was falling in love with you”
96. “Listen i really dont like you but you hsve a puppy so im going to be over a lot”
97. “I desere an explanation. I desereve an acceptable reason”
98. “You can hate me. You can dislike me. But why cheat on me?”
99. “Your hair is so soft”
100. “I thought it’d be less hurt if i left now. But it turn out i was wrong. I promise ill never leave again”


Suggest who you would like it to be with and what number/s. Stay groovy 😎

Originally posted by winterxblogger

SoCo Summer Challenge!

Probably not the SoCo some of you are thinking of!

Originally posted by somethingjacksmannequin

Below the cut are two freaking hundred prompts from Something Corporate lyrics. Your challenge, should you choose to participate, is to select one or two prompts (pretty sure there are plenty, I clearly have no self-control) and either use them as inspiration for your fic or use them in the dialogue. 

  • Anyone and everyone is welcome to participate! Doesn’t matter if you’re an “established” writer around here, or writing your first fic. 
  • Any and all SPN actors and characters welcome! 
  • Pairings or no pairing; reader insert or OC; please, no ships. 
  • Drabbles/one-shots or new series starts. Please don’t drop this in the middle of a fifty-part series; I want to read as many as I can, and I’m not sure I could catch up at that point! 
  • Sign-ups will be open until the challenge closes. You can write as many fics as you want. As long as they’re in by the deadline, they’ll make the masterlist. 
  • I’ll do my best to read and reblog all of them! If I haven’t reblogged your fic within 48 hours of you posting it, tag me again or send it to me. 
  • All genres are welcome, but please include any and all appropriate warnings. 
  • No word minimum or maximum, but make good use of that Keep Reading feature! 
  • As far as using the lyrics, if you don’t include them in the fic, that’s fine, but make sure we can see how you used them as inspiration. I’d like to see something more creative than just having the song playing in the background – think outside the box, friends!
  • You must send me an ask to enter. I will not respond to or accept entries in any other form, it’s just too hard to keep track of! 
  • Please tag me and #soco summer wc within the first five bottom tags. 
  • Deadline is August 31, 2017, 11:59 PM CST. If you need an extension, just let me know! 
  • If you have any other questions or concerns, please don’t hesitate to ask! I’m happy to provide answers! 

Tags below the prompts for signal boost or possible participation. Have fun everyone! 

Keep reading

telegraph.co.uk
Dan Stevens
Dan Stevens may have been an ‘unruly’ child, but he still played Macbeth at 14.

Dan Stevens may have been an ‘unruly’ child, but he still played Macbeth at 14. Little wonder the doomed hero of Downton Abbey  is now a fully fledged film star. Sally Williams meets Disney’s latest leading man

Having spent three years playing the ill-fated Matthew Crawley, the accidental heir to Downton Abbey, Dan Stevens seemed fixed in the public’s perception as a thoroughly well-bred chap: a purveyor of good manners, good looks and period dramas. He was so suave in his tailcoats and white bow ties that one critic likened his ‘floppy-haired, Oxbridge burnish’ to a young Hugh Grant.


But in recent years Stevens seems to have  done all he can to obscure his fine features.  He dyed his hair black and appeared ravaged  as a heroin trafficker in the thriller A Walk  Among the Tombstones. He wore heavy armour and a melting nose as Sir Lancelot in the comedy  Night at the Museum: Secret of the Tomb.

And in High Maintenance, a cult series about a weed dealer in New York, he was a cross-dressing  stay-at-home dad.  Now he is the Beast in the live-action remake of Disney’s Beauty and the Beast, in which he spends the best part of two hours disguised as a 6ft 10in leonine monster.


The film, about a prince who is transformed into a brute as punishment for his arrogance, is much-anticipated (the trailer alone broke records, with 127.6 million views in its first 24 hours online). Stevens’ startling blue eyes are still apparent – particularly when he is face-to-face with Belle (Emma Watson), whose love he must win to become a prince again – but the rest of him is concealed under bad teeth, demonic horns and a Lycra muscle suit.

I felt pretty monstrous on that gorgeous set. It was incredibly lavish

You  don’t even hear his normal voice (which, as fans  of audiobooks will know, is beautiful – he has narrated over 30 titles, from Agatha Christie to Roald Dahl), because he does something clever with his larynx to make it particularly growly.  It’s all part of a post-Downton period of exploration, he explains: ‘I realised I hadn’t been  challenging myself.’

Bio

We meet at a hotel in London, where he appears in a pork-pie hat and a hipster cardigan. Now 34, he is much leaner than in his Downton days, and his hair is back to its natural chestnut brown. Having moved from London to New York in 2013, he lives among artistic types in Brooklyn with his wife, Susie Harriet, a South African jazz singer, and their three children, Willow, seven, Aubrey, four, and Eden, 10 months.

Stevens is polite, extremely likeable and laughs easily, but what is most striking is his intellect. He won a scholarship to Tonbridge, an independent boarding school; speaks French and German; and studied English literature at the University of Cambridge.

In 2011 he was the quick-witted guest host of an episode of Have  I Got News for You (crammed in while filming Downton; his co-star Hugh Bonneville, who played the Earl of Grantham, declined because  ‘I am only an actor’ and ‘not sharp enough  to compete with the regular panellists’). The  following year he was a judge for the Man Booker Prize, for which he had to read 147 novels.

The move to New York, he says, marked  ‘a different approach to a lot of things. My own personal health was one.’ He swims, does yoga and goes to the gym, and his diet is dairy-free  (he orders black coffee). ‘I didn’t take very  good care of myself when I lived in London,’ he admits. ‘Under three layers of tweed, you can hide a lot of ills.’

He works hard as an actor, researching roles, exploring the psychology of his characters. And during the five-month shoot for Beauty and the Beast at Shepperton Studios, Surrey, he went to the gym every day. Stevens says he needed to strengthen his legs to withstand the punishment of performing on 10in stilts – ‘metal, elevated platforms that were extremely painful and hard to walk in’, he explains. ‘I also developed really good core strength. It helped with the breathing, it helped with the singing.’

Emma was looking gorgeous in this immaculately conceived creation and then I come lumbering in in this grey, Lycra muscle suit

He did the film because the VHS was part of his childhood – he was eight when the animation came out and had ‘a much-watched copy’ – and because the role was exciting. ‘It was a brilliantly intriguing character to tackle. I thought, “Wow, I get to be the Beast!”’  Creating the Beast was exactly the kind of technical exercise Stevens now thrives on.

He talks of how he had to give two different performances – one neck-down and one neck-up. First, he acted out the movements of his character on-set with Watson, wearing the muscle suit and the stilts, which, he admits, could be alienating.

‘I felt pretty monstrous on that gorgeous set. It was incredibly lavish – the ballroom was based on the Palace of Versailles but turned up to 11, excessive opulence, beautifully lit. Emma was looking gorgeous in this immaculately conceived creation – it took something like 10,000 hours of work to make that dress. And then I come lumbering in in this grey, Lycra muscle suit.’

He has only praise for his co-star. ‘It was  fascinating doing the scenes with Emma. I don’t think there’s another actress on the planet  who is more experienced at working with this level of new technology,’ – after the high-scale visual effects of Harry Potter films – ‘and she was totally unfazed.’

Every 10 days or so, he would sit in a booth with his face covered in ultraviolet make-up  and give his second performance, re-enacting the scenes from the previous days in front of  a bank of cameras. This footage was used to create the Beast’s face.

‘It’s never been done before,’ he says proudly.  There was also another reason for taking the role, he adds. ‘Beast is for my children, for my wife, for my family.’

Dan Stevens was born in 1982 in Croydon, to a mother he never knew. At the age  of seven days he was adopted by two schoolteachers. It’s a subject he has rarely discussed publicly. He was later joined by a brother (no blood relation), who was also adopted.

The family lived in Marlborough, Wiltshire, then Chelmsford, Essex, and when Stevens was eight moved to Brecon, in Wales.  He says his parents – ‘warm, lovely, good people’ – were always open about him being adopted.

‘People like to pathologise adoption, but actually there is no conventional way to be brought up. People can have biological parents who are absent for whatever reason during their childhood, and their parenting can be replaced by any number of people. Adoption is just one of many ways that children get nurtured and loved and end up as human beings who are every bit as interesting and whatever as regular children.’

The circumstances of his birth, he admits, do raise a question mark over his acting ability.

‘It’s quite possibly a genetic thing; it’s quite possibly a nurture thing. The parents that raised me weren’t actors, but they loved going to the theatre and they watched television and movies, so  I was raised on a cultural diet of books, of literature, and also of performance, of watching great movies and plays.’

‘Distracting’ is how Stevens describes himself at primary school; that’s what most of his reports said, ‘either because I was bored or because I was just being an idiot’. The solution was to put him on stage. ‘It was almost presented as a punishment that I was going to be in the school play,’ he says. Acting became ‘a vent for something’.

At the age of 13 he won that scholarship to Tonbridge School. ‘My parents, as teachers, knew about that kind of thing, and I wish more people did really, because I was given some incredible opportunities and am very grateful for that. There is a system out there that champions curiosity in kids, and it doesn’t matter if your grandfather went wherever.’

And yet the change was traumatic. ‘These schools are built like castles. They have imposing façades and are run on very  old English principles, and they are all trying  to be echoes of each other.’ Stevens became ‘unruly’ – smoking, getting suspended, going  on demonstrations. But expulsion was averted  by a teacher.

‘My English master, Jonathan Smith, was one of those magical teachers who could  spot a kid in trouble and know the right thing  to say to him,’ he has explained. ‘I owe him a  tremendous amount.’


A novelist, writer and teacher, Smith was head of English at Tonbridge for 17 years. His former pupils include the poet Christopher Reid, who won the 2009 Costa Book Award, and Vikram Seth, author of A Suitable Boy. His son, Ed, is an author and former England cricketer.

Smith and the drama teacher Lawrence Thornbury ‘were this incredible duo, and it was just like an oasis of creativity and a real escape from the rest of it’, Stevens says. ‘They championed what I was good at and recognised where  I needed to be directed towards, and offered guidance. Even if it was just, “You are having  a moment, read this book.”

‘I got very into the Beat poets, William Blake, Seamus Heaney – it was almost like feeding  a curiosity, feeding certain passions. Whatever  it was, it was like, “Oh, there is something more out there. I can get into this.”’

A turning point was being cast as Macbeth when he was 14. What did they see in him?  ‘Precociousness, probably.’ He explains his urge to perform very simply: ‘The most nervous I ever get is when I have to go and be me somewhere.  If I’ve got a nice costume and some lovely lines  to say, I know I’ll be all right.’

Stevens would later use his Downton fame to help make a film adaptation of a book written by Smith. Summer in February is the tale of a real-life love triangle between British artist Alfred Munnings, his friend Gilbert Evans and the woman they both loved, artist Florence Carter-Wood.

The book was first published in 1995, and the film was released in 2013, starring Stevens as Evans and Dominic Cooper as Munnings. Was that a thank you? ‘There are easier ways of saying thank you than trying to make an independent film of somebody’s book, but yes, subconsciously it was. It was a real labour of love.’

Downton seemed to be in every country in the world. There was no rhyme or reason as to why it caught fire as widely as it did. We were all surprised

It was Smith who encouraged Stevens to go to Cambridge, which he loved, meeting like-minded people for the first time and starring in student productions. Many of his friends were alternative comedians – Mark Watson, Tim Key, Stefan Golaszewski – and he started doing  stand-up, even seeing a future on the comedy  circuit.

The theatre director Sir Peter Hall spotted him acting alongside his daughter Rebecca  in an undergraduate production of Macbeth. Six months after graduation, Hall cast them both in a touring production of As You Like It. ‘I wasn’t buying a house off the back of that job, but it felt like a success in that I had always wanted to do professional Shakespeare and learn about verse speaking,’ Stevens says.

He toured England and America and won critical acclaim, being nominated for an Ian Charleson Award in 2004. Success followed success.

In 2006 he starred as Nick Guest in the BBC adaptation of Alan Hollinghurst’s novel The Line of Beauty (‘I have not seen Dan Stevens before but from now on  I will be on the lookout for anything else he appears in,’ wrote one reviewer); and in 2008 he played Edward Ferrars in an adaptation of Jane Austen’s Sense and Sensibility. But it was an audition later that year that changed everything.

Julian Fellowes, the creator of Downton Abbey, has explained, ‘We were looking for a young man who was handsome, of course, but who conveyed a real sense of uprightness. Not an anti-hero but  a real hero – someone who, at the same time, seemed strong and rigorous and interesting.’

When did Stevens realise Downton was a phenomenon? ‘I happened to have been in the States and I flew back to Heathrow, and someone came up to me at the airport who was obsessed with the show, and that was only four episodes in.  I thought, “That hasn’t happened before.”’


Americans were especially fascinated – the series won a Golden Globe in 2012. ‘And it wasn’t just there,’ Stevens says. ‘Downton seemed to be in every country in the world [at its peak it played in 250 territories]. Like in Spain, it become one of the biggest foreign shows there for 20 years. There was seemingly no rhyme or reason as to why it caught fire as widely as it did. We were all surprised. Even Julian.’

It has been five years since he left Downton – or rather didn’t renew his three-year contract. ‘It’s called an option for a reason and I chose not to continue,’ he explains. He remembers his days on-set with nostalgia.

‘The dining room scenes were a torture to shoot, but as a result there was  a kind of gallows humour that we all developed. You are eating all day, increasingly cold peas and congealed gravy, and there are 20 of you sat around a table. We used to play wink murder. Maggie Smith [who played the Dowager Countess] is unbelievably good at wink murder.’

Stevens says the decision not to continue was made with his wife. ‘We’d just had our daughter Willow when I started the show and we thought, “OK, a three-year engagement.”

Then by the end of three years I was ready to try something else.’  Family is at the centre of his life. He was 23 when he met Harriet – they were working at different theatres in Sheffield – and was in the thick of marriage and babies ahead of his contemporaries. He was 26 when Willow was born.

‘If it feels right, it feels right. We fell in love and that was it. 

Three children on and it’s still magical.’  He is a doting father, changing nappies, though he admits he’s ‘not the best’ at getting up in the middle of the night. Harriet has put her career is on hold, he says. ‘But there is still a lot of singing in our house.’

His biggest indulgence is travel. ‘We enjoy taking our kids to see beautiful natural spots. Wherever we are in the world, we always try to find something like that.’

As an actor, Stevens’ ambition is to keep trying new things. Future projects include a portrayal  of Charles Dickens in The Man Who Invented Christmas, a film that charts the creation of  A Christmas Carol; and he is about to start shooting Apostle, a dark thriller about a religious cult.

‘When I left Downton, a lot of people would levy questions like, “What are you doing? What are you going to do?” And I guess the last few years have been about answering those questions in a number of different ways.’

Beauty and the Beast is released on 17 March

Story time:
When I was 4-5 my family went to the lake with my aunt and there was a momma duck and my aunt said “Marie look at that duck and her babies!” So I counted while slapping away in the sand and said “firteen” which was me saying “13” so my aunt goes “what would you do if you had 13 babies?” Now remember I’m like 4.5 and I sighed, weary of the world and tide washing my fucking sand castles away. I keep packing sand in the mold and I turn to her, stare her dead in the eyes, the only sound the faint wish-wash of the water and quacks of ducks and I said, in complete seriousness:
“They gotta go to orphanage.”

My aunt nearly pissed herself laughing and apparently later asked my mom how I knew that word and that’s when she said I couldn’t watch Annie anymore

Bullet Points: The Fog Clears

A Wondrous Place-part 6 (part 1-5 here, here, herehere and here)

Bullet points are encapsulated scene analysis from the top of each act to the bottom. (each act is bookended by a commercial break)

1. When the scene opens Emma is sitting watching Regina and Snow shoot pool with the Vikings. 

Seriously?

I mean I get that she said she wanted to be distracted and didn’t want to talk about Killian leaving but at this point she could get more support in a crowd of strangers than she’s getting from Regina and Snow.

At the risk of repeating myself, the contrast between the Regina/Emma/Snow interactions and the Killian/Jasmine/Ariel interactions is both striking and intentional.

Emma is on her own here. Facing an emotional maelstrom and just trying to hold on. (more on Emma’s state of mind a little farther down)

2. “I tried to write my own story but it just kept coming out with talking animals and canned morals.”

Even though in retrospect we know the bartender wasn’t really Aesop this is a nice little piece of foreshadowing to the troubles of an author coming in the next episode.

Well done!

3. Aesop/Gideon carefully crafts his tale of woe with his relationship to mirror Emma’s and evoke an emotional response from her. He’s manipulating her and in her current emotional state she’s not clear headed enough to see it.

4. So let’s talk for a minute about Emma’s state of mind and how she got there. 

Leroy reported he saw Killian get on the Nautilus. He wasn’t being shanghaied. He wasn’t at the point of a sword. He was alone and appeared to be acting of his own free will. Emma has no reason to disbelieve Leroy and Leroy has no reason to believe the story goes any deeper than what he saw. There’s a whole lot of incomplete information here but none of it is malicious and there’s no reason for anyone to suspect the situation is anything other than what it appears to be.

The Nautilus is not a place of danger for Killian. There’s nothing about his going there that should raise a red flag. In fact, it’s the exact opposite. It is THE place Killian would run if he needed to think and seek the counsel of a friend (Nemo) and the connection of family (Liam 2).

Emma is the one who told him if he wasn’t ready to trust her they needed not to talk for awhile. So in her mind she sees his leaving as him doing exactly what she suggested. Why should she assume there’s anything suspicious about that?

Her packing up his things and moving them to the shed is less about trying to get over him and more about getting some very painful reminders to a place where she doesn’t need to see them constantly.

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anonymous asked:

I never knew that PG-13 movies had an f-bomb limit lol, I mean like you've heard it once you've heard them all, y'know? Regardless, I'm glad Harry gets to say them cause I need more Harry swearing content in my life tbh

I wish the world would just give in and accept the F-word as the Best Word Ever because that’s what it deserves.

Spiderman Imagine Prompts List:

1-“Was that supposed to hurt?”

2-“I never thought it would end like this.”

3-“You’re cute when you’re mad.”

4-“I completely gave up, until I met you.”

5-“If you don’t shut up, I might explode.”

6-“Don’t you DARE drop me!”

7-“If you walk out that door, I won’t be here when you get back.”

8-“Don’t act like you don’t know what you did. You KNEW you were breaking my heart.”

9-“No. I’m not okay.”

10-“I could have saved them…but I didn’t”

11-“He made me smile, a REAL smile, not the fake, carved in one that I’ve learned to perfect.”

12-“Seeing you again hurt, it was torture, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything.”

13-“I love you more than chocolate, and that’s a lot.”

14-“I never thought someone like you was capable of bringing someone so much pain.”

15-“The next time you see me, I’ll be a different person.”

16-“I wish you were as happy as you pretend to be.”

17-“It’s unhealthy for me to keep forgiving you.”

18-“I can’t tell you because I love you.”

19-“Loving you hurts, but it’s worth it.”

20-“You’re so strong. Sometimes I forget that I can hurt you.”

21-“I never wanted you to leave, that was your choice.”

22-“I guess you never took your promises seriously.”

23-“Do you know what it’s like to be afraid of yourself?”

24-“I can’t remember the last time I smiled like that.”

25-“You always had a way of making me forget.”

26-“Sometimes it’s safer to shut people out. You don’t have to worry about getting hurt.”

27-“You know I love you, but I can’t keep going around this merry-go-round you call a relationship.”

28-“I love it when you call me that.”

29-“I thought shutting you out would help, but it just made everything hurt more.”

30-“I know you’re afraid, but so am I. And I can’t make it through without you.”

31-“What did I do to deserve such a cute little muffin like you?”

32-“Will you just lay with me? You help keep away the nightmares.”

33-“I love you is too simple to explain how much I need you.”

34-“I can’t say it, because I’m afraid to fall.”

35-“I knew it hurt you, but it was necessary. If anything happened to you, I would hurt so much more.”

36-“Just seeing you there, peaceful and happy, makes it all worth it

37-“I don’t think I’ll ever understand what I did to deserve you.”

38-“Why are you doing this? Did I do something wrong?”

39-“Don’t say anything else. It will just make everything worse.”

40-“So that’s it then? You’re just walking out?”

41-“I’m doing this for your own good. I can’t risk hurting you again.”

42-“I don’t care about your apologies, I just want you to leave.”

43-“You remind me of a time when everything was simple.”

44-“You’re such a dork. But a cute dork, that I love!”

45-“Don’t say you love me! You don’t even know what love is!”

46-“How do you always manage to piss me off and make me fall more in love with you at the same time?”

47-“I hate how much I love your stupid face!”

48-“Stop saying sweet stuff, it makes me want to hug you, and I’m supposed to be mad!”

49-“Was this always a game to you? Reel me in and then break my heart? Well congratulations, you win.”

50-“You’re all wet! Sorry I pushed you into the pool! Just kidding! It was hilarious!”

51-“Please don’t say goodbye. I hate goodbyes.”

Roses and Violets

Pairing: Louis Tomlinson & Harry Styles (Larry)

Genre: Smut

Word Count: 3000

Warning: Daddy Kink, Underage, Explicit Content 

Summary: Anonymous asked: Can you do one with; top!louis bottom!harry one shot where Harry is pretty innocent but always steals flowers to make flower crowns, from his neighbor louis? And then louis shows him what happens to people who steal? Like really innocent harry and rough/dominant but caring louis with a bit of daddy kink?

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Dear JonBenet,

I have been missing you for six years now, and seeing your face on television and sometimes in the papers, I wish I could talk to you. We had such happy times together – in your pink bedroom, in your garden, all through your house. Although I was a couple of years older than you (your mom being pregnant with Burke when my mom was pregnant with me) I always liked playing with you best. You were funny and smart and liked ice cream as much as I did.

Do you remember how my mom taught us, at the Boulder Salad place, when we were spooning the ice cream into our cones, to tap the cones halfway through to make the ice cream sink so we could get more in? That was the last time we saw each other and it was such a good time. After you were gone, my mother asked if I thought you were missing ice cream. I said right away, “Mom, there’s ice cream in heaven.” I hope I was right.
I sure wish you were with me now that we’re teenagers. True, you wouldn’t be quite 13, but you seemed older than your years. Even when I knew you, you were never just this little kid running around. You always had plans, some project or other, something to do. I was never bored when I was with you. Now we could be going to Pearl Street Mall, two blondes together, and beyond hating the blond jokes. (You never got old enough to hate the blond jokes like I did.)

We could hang out on campus and look at what the college girls wear. When I was the age you’d be now, there was a big production of The Nutcracker. Sometimes I’d go and watch the rehearsals. You would have been one of the dancers, I bet.

I know you loved Christmas and the Pearl Street Mall is so pretty now with all of the lights. There’s another mall to go to now, too, as big as a town itself, with its own streets. I love it when my mom takes me there. You can get everything cool there, like at Abercrombie & Fitch, American Eagle, Polo and Ralph Lauren. At least those are what I like. There’s all of these new styles. You wouldn’t be old enough probably, to start asking your mom if you could have you bellybutton pierced, like I just did. And, of course, she said absolutely not! Maybe you’d say “Yuck!” Me, too, a couple of years ago. But now it seems ok, even cool.
And remember how we’d tease your brother all of the time?
“Let’s go bother Burke,” you’d say. And so we would go in his room where he was playing his Nintendo endlessly and unplug his computer. And then he would say “Heck, I was at the highest level!” And we would run away, go into your bathroom and lock the door, and he would be banging on it and we would be giggling behind it.

I’m so sad that you can’t be here to watch your brother grow up and change. Like my brother Matthew was distant for awhile and how he’s my friend and takes me to his classes at CU sometimes. He’s gong ot be an astrophysicist. I wonder what Burke is doing now.

The last time I saw him we were at Dougie’s house and he was so sad and grieving and hardly could talk from missing you. I wanted to hug him, but I couldn’t.

That last year you had a pink Christmas tree in your room. There were Christmas trees in every room of your house, all with presents under them, and I was tempted to be jealous because in our house we had only one Christmas tree for everybody.

But I didn’t really feel like being jealous because you always shared everything. If there was one cookie left, you would split it and give the biggest half to me. I really loved you for being kind and generous always.
You would have been such a good friends to me now in this kind of difficult time of learning to drive and all of that.
Maybe you would have been wanting to go to Boulder High like I do. I’d be telling you about all of these neat classes, like my catering class. We learned to make snickerdoodles at first and then we learned how to make Thanksgiving dinner. And the team sports. I did softball starting last summer and now I’m on the swim team.

You would be great at team sports becaue you always got along with everybody. You would still be too young for boyfriends (and wouldn’t need them!) and we would talk about sthat stuff. I miss you. You were so funny and always thought of things to do that might tick off the parents.

You would really love the Harry Potter books because they are full of magic. The Harry Potter movies are good, too. And maybe you’d like Eminem’s rap music and the movie 8 Mile. And concerts at Chataugua (a local park) And quieter things, like walks at Chataugua at sunrise with the dogs. Some things don’t change, like the Boulder Christmas Star, which has been lit for several weeks now, high on the hill that we could see from both our houses. Maybe you are looking at it now from above at least our eyes can meet there.

I know you loved your life and I loved your life too. And knowing how much you loved yours, I must love mine the more. I will always be thinking of you and hoping you have ice cream in heaven. I know you are an angel there and someday I will be with you.

The clouds will be pink like the walls of your room and we will be laughing together and looking forward, and back, and not missing each other anymore.

Love forever,
Your friend, Lindsey

anonymous asked:

i don't know why but recently i've been very interested as to where specifically B is from since i love him so much, and i dedicated this night to investigate. around a year ago, i discovered either on ur blog or somewhere else that some ppl think he is hispanic of some sort? so i kind of wanted to do some digging as to what specific country/ies he could be from but i don't really know what to do. so imma just drop this here and see if u or anyone else has any ideas? i lov u& ur art btw❤️

Oh anon, alas, I wish I knew!! The only real info outside of the LABB book itself (and correct me if I’m wrong, guys) is B’s confirmed death in a sidenote of Volume 13 so…. everything else is just happy headcanon and speculation. 

This is semi-awful (?) but a good majority of the fandom (myself included, as my life goal throughout most of middle/high school was to become a cop/criminal profiler lmaooo I was a fool…….. see silence of the lambs once as an eight year old and you’re convinced you’re going to be an FBI agent smh) is and has consistently been interested in true crime and I’ve seen a good number of people draw potential visual similarities between Beyond and Richard Ramirez, what with the cheekbones/hair/etc. I’m not in the “serial killer” fandom by any means and I find it absolutely revolting when people glorify the actions of somebody who raped/murdered & ruined the lives of not only their victims but the loved ones of those they hurt; however I can understand and appreciate the aesthetic comparisons. Their double initials: BB and RR, the fact that the killings took place in California, Ramirez was charged with 13 counts of murder and died of B-cell Lymphoma (lol), etc etc… anyway, as far as I’m aware of, that’s where the speculation of his ethnicity derives from too (?????). But I really only follow one, maybe two, B-centric blogs soooo… I’m not the most up-to-date person on this topic lol. If any other bloggers have info to contribute please comment on this or hit up my inbox??

(PS. Love you too, thank you for the message dear!!! xoxoxo Lots of hugs!)

i’m every woman - a mix celebrating female artists of the 60s, 70s & 80s → [ listen ]

01. donna summer - she works hard for the money | 02. amii stewart - knock on wood | 03. chaka khan - i’m every woman | 04. etta james - something’s got a hold on me | 05. janet jackson - nasty | 06. the pointer sisters - jump (for my love) | 07. patrice rushen - hang it up | 08. diana ross - upside down | 09. tina turner - we don’t need another hero | 10. joyce sims - come into my life | 11. aretha franklin - respect | 12. cheryl lynn - got to be real | 13. dionne warwick - i say a little prayer | 14. whitney houston - i wanna dance with somebody | 15. gloria gaynor - i will survive | 16. shannon - let the music play | 17. sister sledge - lost in music | 18. chaka khan - ain’t nobody | 19. anita ward - ring my bell | 20. donna summer - hot stuff | 21. diana ross & the supremes - stop! in the name of love | 22. pointer sisters - i’m so excited | 23. irene cara - what a feeling | 24. tina turner - what’s love got to do with it | 25. the supremes - can’t hurry love | 26. nina simone - i wish i knew how it would feel to be free

Tagged by the adorable, @nanf1c

Answer 20 questions and tag followers you want to know better.

1.) Name - Brittany
2.) Nickname - Britt, B
3.) Zodiac - Aquarius
4.) Height - 5′5
5.) Ethnicity - I wish I knew for sure what my roots are…Irish and German I’ve been told, but caucasian.
6.) Orientation -Straight
7.) Favorite fruit -Raspberries, Strawberries, Watermelon (soooo, all the red ones!)
8.) Favorite season -Summer, says the sunshine and warmth addict.
9.) Favorite book -Literally love so many books that I can’t pick a favorite
10.) Favorite scent - Citrus
11.) Favorite color - Teal
12.) Favorite animal -birds or dogs
13.) Favorite beverage - coffee
14.) Fav hours to sleep - 10 I think, but it doesn’t happen often.
15.) Favorite fictional character - Alec Lightwood and Magnus Bane. I refuse to choose.
16.) Blanket number -One specific one
17.) Follower number - 261 :) 
18.) Blog created at - april of last year I think

19.) Fun factoid - I want to travel A LOT, and im trying to get my shit together so that I can afford to do that. But I know that want to settle someplace near a beach where it’s mostly warm and sunny because winters literally depress me where I live. Life is too short to live forever in a place that makes you miserable 60% of the time, if you can change it.

20.) Favorite flower- Peonies

Tagging the new ones so that I can learn about you. Please don’t feel obligated though! Just for fun :)

@rosewolfbaine, @hail-andfarewell, @ukuleles-eyeliner, @mypatronusismalec, @blissfullybane

1. Your voice saying, “you’ve always been amazing.”

2. My voice telling you, “I’d loved you for thirteen years. I never stopped. I never got you out of my head. You never left my heart.”

3. You with your hand on my neck asking, “Is this a dream or is it real? Touch me, is it real?”

4. You in the early morning at my parents house with your hand on my knee. Your eyes on my mouth. You saying, “come here.”

5. My voice saying, “would you come and sleep with me?” Your voice, “baby, yes.”

6. You in the dim kitchen lighting, your voice saying, “You’re impossible to leave. You make it so hard. Here, kiss me again.”

7. Your voice saying, "It’s all so easy with you. I can’t believe I waited this long. I’m so glad I never have to wait again.”

8. My voice in your messages, “hey, call me back. Hope you’re doing okay.”

9. Your voice telling me, "Come over. I’ll make you dinner. I’ll kiss you until you can’t breathe.”
10. My voice saying, “I want to do everything on earth with you.”
11. Your voice, “just stay. Sleep with me. Just stay.”
12. My voice saying, “I always knew I’d end up doing crazy shit with you.”
13. Your voice saying my name, mouth wide and laughing with all the stars.

14. My voice whispering, “Hey– I wish I knew what happened. Wish you would have told me. Wish you’d just come back. Take care of yourself. Goodbye.
—  a series of things I want to forget but won’t. (via @brizzlewritesthings)
random twitter bios

1. No matter how “busy” a person is, if they care they will always find time for you

2. I am jealous of everybody who is with you when I’m not with you

Being single sucks when you know exactly who you want

“Be strong.” - Easy to say, hard to do

5. I’m sorry for being annoying when I want to talk, needy because I miss you, emotional when I care & insecure because I’m afraid to lose you

6. If she texts you, text her back. Just because she’s yours at the moment, doesn’t mean she still will be in the future. Treat her right

7. I know everything happens for a reason. But sometimes I wish I knew what that reason was

8. No girlfriend wants another girl tweeting about her man, talking to him, texting him, thinking about him, looking at him. No one!

9. If I get mad at you, That means I still care. Worry when I don’t get mad

10. Don’t make time for people who don’t make time for you

11. Know her, trust her, love her, respect her, honor her, support her, want her, appreciate her

12.  I wanna tell you how I feel, but I don’t wanna get rejected

13. Don’t beg for anyone to stay in your life. If they want to be a part of your life, they will stay

14. When you’re happy you enjoy the music but when you’re sad, you understand the lyrics

15. If I die, dont cry for me. Because I was once alive and you didn’t care about me

16. Being single is better than being in the wrong relationship

17. A boyfriend shouldn’t just be a boyfriend. He should also be your best friend

18. Sometimes people don’t notice the things we do for them until we stop doing them

19. I still care, I’m just done showing it

20. Once you’ve had your heart broken, you’re just more cautious about things

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Simon Lewis Deserves Better

Simon has been kidnapped and murdered by vampires, and then forced to adapt to their lifestyle. 

He gets blamed for the decisions he’s made, even though it’s completely understandable why he’s actually made them. And he’s shown signs that he never felt at home in Hotel DeMort and it goes unnoticed/ignored in the fandom. (Of course, I’m only talking about show!Simon)


  • The Kidnapping:

Simon was terrified of Raphael, not knowing whether he’d harm or kill him. You can see how “fidgeting” and anxious Simon was during that scene.

[Simon: If your goal was to scare the crap out of me, mission accomplished!]
[Raphael: There’s no way out. You’re a hostage, so accept it. Simon: I’m a hostage? That means you won’t kill me, yeah?]

Yes, by the end of it, Simon was grateful to Raphael for releasing him to the Shadowhunters, but he would have never went back to hotel DeMort if it weren’t for Camille.

Raphael does “admit” to Simon’s kidnapping.

When Clary blames Raphael for kidnapping Simon,he doesn’t reply with “I was under orders!” or “this wasn’t my fault!” he says, “I never meant for this to happen.” Meaning he does take responsibility for the kidnapping, but not the murder (which is obvious, of course).

Ep 8 

[Isabelle: The vampires breached the Accords. Killing Simon is grounds for war.
Raphael: The vampires were not behind this. Just Camille. She attacked Simon on her own.
Jace: And how do we know you’re telling the truth?
Raphael: I could have gotten rid of him, but instead I brought him here. I don’t want trouble with the Shadowhunters.
Isabelle: Smart decision.
Raphael: I warned the mundane to stay away… but Camille gave him a taste of her own blood, and like an addict… he came back wanting more.
Clary: The only reason Simon ever tasted Camille’s blood is because of you. You kidnapped him! You drug him to Hotel DuMort. You… You delivered him to Camille!
Raphael: I never meant for this to happen.]

Raphael returned Simon, not because he cared about him, but because he cared about his clan. He relied on the Shadowhunters and the Clave to protect them if Valentine tried to take over. This decision was to benefit the vampires, not out of pity for Simon.

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