what i love about their relationship is that there was never any secret agenda

A Study in Hypocrisy #1

Or why the Avengers’ relationship to Tony was unhealthy at best, Steve isn’t fit to be a leader, and why I’m Team Iron Man to the end.


While the Civil War dispute between Tony and Steve might have started because of the Accords, it very quickly turned personal for Steve. He put each and every one of his “teammates” in danger for the sake of one man (more about that later), and even though I love Bucky and everything (I really do!), Steve was extremely dumb about the entire situation. In fact, I don’t think he could have gone about it in the worst way. 

He could have gone to “rescue” Bucky in disguise—God knows that, with his serum and brute force, he certainly could have done exactly what he ended up doing— but he went instead with the American flag all over himself. He didn’t stop to consider the implications, the possible consequences or bulldozing into a foreign country and engaging in a car chase in the middle of a populated city. He didn’t even stop to consider that there was no guarantee at all that Bucky was innocent. 

He could have, you know, talked to Tony. Tony, who has the political experience and the material means and influence to get Bucky the best help there is. Tony, who’s been playing this game for so long, who knows how to get what he wants, who to go to, how to formulate things. Tony, who would have been his most precious ally. 

And he was. Before he found out about his betrayal. Tony negotiated so hard to make sure no one would get hurt. After the Berlin disaster, he managed to get the UN (that’s 117 countries!) to agree to make the past 24 hours legal and to get Bucky to a facility where he would get the best help for his triggers, help that of course Tony himself would be paying for, because let’s be real, the Avengers are funded by Tony at this point, which is yet another thing that doesn’t sit well with me, but I’ll come back to it. 

Back to why Steve isn’t fit to be a leader: the essence of a leader is that they are supposed to do just that. Lead. But to do that, they need to be fair and treat their men equally. They need to be able to put aside their personal feelings and look at situations objectively. Because their duty is to protect their men and have their back, just like they will have his. 

A leader leads, sure. But they must know when to listen, too, and defer to somebody with greater expertise than themselves. In that case, Tony obviously knows better than he does, if only because he read the damn papers. That’s also something that doesn’t sit well with me regarding the rest of Team Cap. Not one of them paused to read the Accords. Hell, Scott had no clue what the hell was going on. He heard “jump,” and he did.

Yet, here comes Steve, putting the lives of not two, not three, but five (six, if you count Sharon) people at risk, all for one man. He drags in Clint and Scott with no regards to their families and personal situations, and all the while keeps information to himself. Do you think Sam knows that he could have avoided prison and exile? Do you think any of them know about Tony’s deal? Do you think Scott actually knew what was going on? Hell no! Because Steve is calculating enough that he won’t lose manpower to such a pesky thing as compromise. 

How about Steve’s constant habit of putting the blame on Tony’s shoulders? “You did that when you signed”? What the fuck is wrong with you? You’re the one who keeps refusing to compromise! 

Steve never treated Tony as an equal. In fact, none of them did. (Again, more on that later.) But the thing is that when it came to a life-altering secret that affected both his teammate and “friend,” and his childhood friend, Steve decided that it was his right to keep that information from both parties, which. 

NO. Being “friends”—and I use the term loosely—with Howard doesn’t give Steve the right to such a decision. This is a traumatic event for Tony, something that affects personally and directly. He had a right to know. And as it has been demonstrated in previous movies that his capacity for forgiveness is immense, he would have had the time to process the information and the Siberia disaster never would have happened. 

Furthermore and finally, Steve Rogers was never actually a captain. The title was just for show, a tool for propaganda when he was sent on a tour to sell war bills. All of his training comes from that short bootcamp for potential serum candidates, nothing more. He’s not actually part of the army, or a ranked officer. The only reason they let him keep the title was because he’d been lucky enough to bring back the 107th when he disobeyed orders, and then proved useful enough to both war efforts and morale. 

Steve Rogers is not a leader. A leader treats everyone equally and gives respect before expecting it. A leader does not keep secrets from his men to serve his own agenda. A leader does not leave a man behind in a freezing, deserted landscape with no way of calling for help. 

If anything, Tony’s the leader of the Avengers. Why? Ask yourselves the following questions: 

  • Who feeds the Avengers? 
  • Who houses the Avengers? 
  • Who clothes the Avengers?
  • Who arms the Avengers? 
  • Who handles their PR? 
  • Who pays for the destruction they leave behind?
  • On the battlefield, who has a global view of everything that’s going on? 
  • Who is so smart that they can predict and analyze battle scenarios, and adapt to the unexpected in a flash? 
  • Who’s considerate enough to leave their former teammate to his retirement because he’s just that, retired with his family?
  • Who cares about everyone equally and would give everything to protect them all? Who goes above and beyond to provide them with everything they need? 
  • Who has the political experience required to handle their supervisors and foreign policy?

That’s right. Tony Stark. 

Not Steve Rogers. 


Part 2.1: Natasha | Part 2.2: Steve | Part 2.3: Thor

anonymous asked:

tell us why perfect by ed sheeran is about phan

perfect is easily one of the most romantic ballads since thinking out loud and ed has even said that he views it an outperformance in comparison to thinking out loud, which is interesting in this context considering how relevant thinking out loud is to everyone who remembers what happened at the 2015 brit awards. it was quite an iconic moment and it’s something people still talk about, so it’s especially intriguing that the song perfect is directly connected to it and treated as somewhat of a sequel

it also happens to describe dan and phil’s history together from past to present very accurately

honestly, i don’t listen to ed sheeran’s music regularly and although the lyrics aren’t the deepest or the most unconventional, i’ve been itching to write down some thoughts

[listen to the song here to set the mood]

[Verse 1]

I found a love for me

Darling, just dive right in and follow my lead

Well, I found a girl, beautiful and sweet

Oh, I never knew you were the someone waiting for me

we’ll start right off with the first four lines in verse 1, which i believe are being sung from phil’s perspective (however, the perspectives are subjective and can change throughout the song) these lyrics mirror the start of dan and phil’s relationship. phil was generally more mature when him and dan first started talking, age wise and experience wise. phil could’ve technically been considered an adult while dan was still very young and inexperienced, hence why “Darling, just dive right in and follow my lead” is so fitting here. dan and phil were both very quick to love and didn’t think so much about the consequences of their decision to trust each other so quickly. phil quite literally invited dan to dive right in and follow his lead, professionally and personally. the last line can be used to describe just how unexpected it must’ve been for phil when dan came along. early on, dan’s main priority was waiting. waiting for phil’s responses on twitter. waiting for phil’s dm’s. waiting for phil’s texts. waiting for those 5 hour skype calls with phil. waiting to meet phil. only until later on did phil realize that dan was the someone for him

‘Cause we were just kids when we fell in love

Not knowing what it was

I will not give you up this time

But darling, just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own

And in your eyes, you’re holding mine

in the second half of verse 1, the first two lines once again touch on dan and phil’s maturity levels when they first met, referring to them as kids. they behaved as kids would, acting silly and goofy with each other and relishing in each other’s youth, savoring the honeymoon stage as much as they could. but with being a kid comes immaturity, and that side of them showed through some of their reckless behavior. they treaded on thin ice while not knowing what was beneath it as boundaries or limits really didn’t exist for them in the early days of their relationship


Baby, I’m dancing in the dark with you between my arms

Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song

When you said you looked a mess, I whispered underneath my breath

But you heard it, darling, you look perfect tonight

this is where the tenses change and the song switches its focus on what is happening in the present, unlike the two verses in the song which seem to be reminiscing on the early days of a relationship. the first two lines of the chorus describe the bond that dan and phil have now and the moments that they share together. dancing in the dark in each other’s arms and listening to their favorite song implies that it could be a song that holds a special meaning for both of them specifically or a song that they are both able to connect to and enjoy together as best friends/lovers/etc because it reminds them of each other. the plural pronoun choice in that second line is accurate considering dan and phil share pretty much everything

[Verse 2]

Well I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know

She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I’ll share her home

I found a love, to carry more than just my secrets

To carry love, to carry children of our own

the second line in this verse is probably the most important lines because the song directs its focus away from the present and jumps directly backwards into the past, treating the chorus almost like it was was a mere glimpse into the future. dan and phil quite literally shared each other’s dreams back in 2009, phil was a youtuber and dan was an aspiring one. and although they had no idea whether or not youtube would’ve become as massive of a platform as it is now, dan and phil still shared a lot of goals and also supported each other’s individual goals that the other might not have shared with them. so yes, technically they were still sharing each other’s dreams merely through mutual support regardless of whether or not both of them had those same exact dreams in mind. “I hope that someday I’ll share her home” is such a meaningful lyric because dan and phil never had any idea that they would’ve ever had the opportunity to move in with each other and change millions of people’s lives together. all they could hold onto at the time was hope. but that hope was so worth holding onto because now they’ve been sharing each other’s home for over 7 years, literally and metaphorically

the last two lines are pretty self explanatory. dan and phil know more about each other than anyone else does and some of the things that they feel comfortable sharing with each other are things that they wouldn’t feel comfortable sharing with anyone else. aside from secrets, they carry each other’s love, and even though they can’t literally “carry children,” they have created a family together. the meaning of family in this context is subjective, whether you want to consider it a family solely between the two of them or the family that they’ve made with their audience

We are still kids, but we’re so in love

Fighting against all odds

I know we’ll be alright this time

Darling, just hold my hand

Be my girl, I’ll be your man

I see my future in your eyes

once again there’s another tense shift. the lyrics are insinuating that the present relationship still has much room for growth but has remained very genuine, which is also true in dan and phil’s case because they are visibly growing with each day that passes. they are growing professionally and personally and the amount of that growth, even just recently, has been astronomical. they see their futures intertwined and they truly are so in love

as for that second line, read it and really let it sink in… “Fighting against all odds.” if dan and phil have done anything in their goddamn lives, it’s fighting all goddamn odds. the odds of phil’s replies to dan on twitter leading to dm’s, the odds of those dm’s leading to 5 hour skype calls, the odds of those skype calls eventually leading dan to buy a train ticket to piccadilly station and actually meet up with this man whom he had met online, the odds of them taking the biggest risk of their professional lives and moving in together in the heart of london so they could pursue a radio show that they had no idea would either pay off or go down in flames, the odds of them actually creating this life together, helping each other through their sudden rise to fame? the odds of them actually having the opportunity to create such a unique community and change people’s lives for the better? what dan and phil have is not what society would deem conventional, but they have beat every normative agenda out there and have literally defied all odds. there were so many potential setbacks… there were so many things that could’ve gone wrong… but they didn’t.

[Chorus 2]

Baby, I’m dancing in the dark, with you between my arms

Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song

When I saw you in that dress, looking so beautiful

I don’t deserve this, darling, you look perfect tonight

[Chorus 3]

Baby, I’m dancing in the dark, with you between my arms

Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song

I have faith in what I see

Now I know I have met an angel in person

And she looks perfect

I don’t deserve this

You look perfect tonight

these last two choruses are very similar to chorus 1 with a few minor lyrical changes

chorus 3 is a lot more confident and hopeful of the future, much like dan and phil seem to be at this current point in time. the view that they have of their future seems to be filled with such good things, like moving and adopting a dog and whatever other “life things” they might have in mind. but i think the most important thing to consider here is that their futures are so tightly bound to each other, and they have nothing but tremendous faith in each other. whatever their futures may hold, it holds them together

now end this analysis with a visual of dan and phil curled up together in phil’s bed, reminiscing on how all of this happened and just how lucky they are to have ended up in this current moment with each other

i’m not saying anything but… perfect is the perfect song for them

Tsukiyama and Furuta: Two Moons Heading Towards an Eclipse

If you flip this number down it’s…. absolutely nothing. If you flip and reverse it, ie what would happen if you were to place it in a mirror than you get a backwards nineteen. If you just flip it it looks sort of like a 16 in the wrong order. If you take the numbers as individual, an upside down six can be the lovers in reverse while an upside down 1 could represent Hide as he was just mentioned in the last chapter. They could also not even be numbers but representative of a moth’s wings instead. They could also be moths wings as depicted at the beginning of the chapter. 

They could also just be a pun on the word orgasm [x] with japanese numbers. My point is things can have many possible interpretations so try not to refute the assertions I make in this post with ‘that’s a nineteen’ or ‘that’s representative of the sun’.  Anyway, continuing forward read under the cut for the explanation and yes I actually do get to Tsukiyama. 

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Jon the player? Jon the deceiver?

There has been a lot of discussion about the ‘Undercover Lover theory’ on the Jonsa tag and I want to add to this discussion and give some of my thoughts on it. Many people have said that ‘Undercover lover theory’ would make Jon a very mean person and that this would not fit to a ‘hero’. I think to really judge what Jon is doing we must look at his agenda, his knowledge and his likely plans. Please note, that for the sake of the argument, I take the Undercover lover theory to be true.

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Every Me And Every You - Thirty Eight

“Why are you ignoring Reid?”

You’d been back at work for a week and Spencer was due back in tomorrow. Emily had cornered you in the break area.

“I’m not.”

You weren’t. Not exactly.

You’d been cancelling his calls, yes. But you’d been responding to his messages. Albeit, with very short answers and only occasionally. Since that last night and the conversation you’d overheard the following morning, you just didn’t want to talk to him.

His words had hurt you, but you also blamed yourself for letting yourself get too involved.

You should have never got into this with him, but you had and you knew now that you’d made there biggest mistake ever. You’d let feelings develop, quite accidentally, feelings you hadn’t even realised were there until that fucking kiss.

The feeling of his lips on yours had set your body and mind on fire, even more so than the smack of his hand on your bottom. And the sex, well the sex was totally different . It had been completely ‘vanilla’, nothing kinky about it at all. The soft touches, the adoring looks, the long kisses. Everything about it had screamed that it wasn’t just fucking.

He’d be the one to say at the start of this that that was all this was, experimentation. And you’d accepted that, happily. Yet he was the one acting more and more like a boyfriend; staying with you when you’d been on your period, calling you in his time of need, introducing you to and leaving you with his mother.

And you’d explicitly said that kissing would confuse things and that it was out of bounds. So when he tilted your chin and gently placed his lips on to yours…..

It wasn’t like you’d been wanting him too, or had had a hidden agenda all along. But when he’d kissed you, it had made you realise that perhaps, just maybe, you did like him as more than a fuck buddy.

And when his words to his mom had felt like a punch in the stomach, you realised that you’d actually grown to like him as a LOT more than a fuck buddy.

Fucking fuck.

This wasn’t going to end well, you could feel it. You’d have to see him tomorrow. Something you weren’t looking forward to at all.

“Y/N, he called me. You’ve not answered any of his calls and he says you’re being weird in your messages. You know it must be bad for him to ask me, considering he wasn’t terribly pleased that I know about you two. What’s wrong, has something happened?”

“No, nothings wrong. We’re fine. I’ve not been ignoring him.”

“I really hate that you’ve started lying to me, ya know. When did that start to happen?” She looked sad and you felt bad, but still annoyed.

“Probably right around the time you started profiling me. Which we swore we’d never do to each other.” You shot back, busying yourself by pulling a bottle of water from the fridge.

“I’m not… I’m not profiling you, Y/N. I swear it. He sent me a screenshot of one of the texts he’d sent you and your reply. You’re being short with him. What happened, what did he do?”

“Em….I can’t tell you. He’s essentially asking you to spy on me and report back.”

“Maybe. But I won’t. If you’ve got something you want to tell me, then I won’t say anything to him.”

You sighed, maybe it would be good to tell her.

“Promise?” you asked her.

“Of course. Promise.”

“He kissed me.”

“Alright…. And?”

She didn’t know. She didn’t know you didn’t do that with each other.

“We swore when we started screwing around that we wouldn’t kiss. That us NOT doing that would differentiate this from an actual relationship.”

She nodded, getting it.

“So he kissed you, that’s good right? You both like each other, anyone can see that. What’s the issue?”

“That’s what I thought. I thought that maybe we did both like each other and that just maybe, what we were doing would turn out to be more than just a friends with benefits type thing. Until I heard him tell his mom that it wasn’t like that, and that he couldn’t be in a relationship with me, that he’d never want to be.”

Her jaw dropped, not believing that the kind and sweet friend she had could say that.

“He really said that. After everything you’d done for him?”

You nodded sadly. “Yep. I obviously made a huge mistake and misjudged the situation terribly. And now I feel stupid. For even letting myself think that there was more there. It didn’t even cross my mind until he fucking kissed me. So stupid. So, so stupid.”

She hugged you quickly.

“You’re not stupid, Y/N. He is. I can’t believe he’d say that.”

“Well he did. He doesn’t know I heard though. And I don’t really want to tell him that I heard him saying he didn’t want me. I mean what the fuck is wrong with me?”

“Sweetie, there’s nothing wrong with you at all. You’re one of the most amazing people I’ve ever met. That boy must have had a bump on his head. I mean I know he’s going through some stuff with his dad right now, but still. What an idiot.”

“Yep…. So that’s why I’m being a bit short with him. And he’s back tomorrow. Emily, I don’t know that I can stand to be in the same room as him.”

You wanted to cry. You didn’t get like this over guys. Love em and leave em. Fuck em, if they rejected you, plenty more fish in the sea.

But this was a friend. A close friend who you’d trusted with secrets, a friend who had told you over and over how beautiful and how great you were. Someone you’d never thought would hurt you. But who had.

“Please don’t say anything to anyone Emily. Or him, either.”

“I won’t. But you know you’re gonna have to be normal around him when you’re here. The others will pick up on it so quickly if you’re not.”

You knew. Which is why you’d requested some paperwork from HR. Paperwork that you were carrying around with you, ready to fill in and hand in at any given moment.

“I know.”


What the hell?

You’d fallen asleep on your couch when you’d got home from work.

Nap confusion was the worst.


Alright, chill.

You checked your watch. 10pm.

You hauled yourself up and sleepily lurched to the door, checking the peephole.


It was Reid.

“Open the door Y/N.”

Fine. Whatever. Maybe seeing him now would be better than tomorrow.

Your took off the chain and unlocked the door.

“What?” you greeted him flatly.

“Why are you being weird with me?” He demanded to know, putting his hand on the door frame. His bag was on the on the floor by him, his clothes rumpled. He’d come straight from the airport.

“You tell me. Why I am being weird with you, Reid? That’s the million dollar question apparently. One that Emily came to ask for you earlier today. Thanks for that by the way.” You could almost feel the drops of sarcasm dripping from your voice, Spencer looking somewhat taken aback.

“Just tell me what I did wrong okay? Was it the kiss? I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to kiss you.”

No, of course he didn’t. He probably didn’t even want to do that either.

“So why the fuck did you then?”

“So it is about that then? You’re ignoring me because I kissed you?”

Not exactly but whatever. You shrugged.

“Alright, I’m sorry I kissed you. Although you could have asked me to stop. I don’t really understand why you’re being so pissy about it. It was just a kiss.”

Just kick me a little harder Spencer, just a little bit more, please.

“You knew I didn’t want that. So why did you do it?”


“Why did you kiss me Spencer? It was off limits.”

He looked confused now. And annoyed.

“You’re asking me why I kissed you? And you’re ignoring me because of it. I don’t get it.”

“No. Just leave please.” You went to shut the door but he put his hand out, stopping you.

“No. I don’t get what I’ve done wrong here.”

“I’ve told you. You kissed me and you shouldn’t have.”

“Then you shouldn’t have kissed me back.”

“Why did you do it? Why did you do it in the first place?” You wanted him to tell you it was because he wanted you. And what you’d overheard was just him trying to get his mom off his back.

He closed his eyes for a moment, exasperated.

“I don’t know why, alright. I don’t know. I’m sorry. It was only a kiss though, it didn’t mean anything Y/N.”


His eyes flew open. “I can’t believe you’re being like this over something so small and trivial. After everything I’ve been through over the past few weeks, and you’re not talking to me because I made a mistake and fucking kissed you? What happened to being my friend and being there for me?” He sounded angry now.

“Oh I tried to be there Spencer. I flew two and half thousand miles to be there for you, not that you asked me to or wanted me there. But not that you could have told me that outright.”

“What the hell are you on about now? Of course I wanted you there.”

“That’s not what you told your mother, Spencer. I heard you tell her that you hadn’t wanted me to come, among other things.”

His eyes narrowed at you. “So you were eavesdropping on a private conversation and heard something you didn’t like. I can’t even remember what I said to my Mom, Y/N. She was badgering me about you and what we were to each other and I just wanted her to leave it alone. What did I say? What did I say that’s causing you to act like a total bitch to me.”

“Spencer, just leave.”

“No. Tell me what I said. It was clearly something offensive. Tell me.”

“That you didn’t want me! That you never would!”

His mouth opened and then closed again slowly, repeating the movement.

You carried on.

“Look, I know that this was just meant to be about sex, an experimentation. But you kissed me, you held me, hell Spencer; that last night we were together was totally different. And I’m sorry, but I fucking felt something else. And that terrified me. But you told your mom that I was nothing to you, that we’d never be anything more than friends. That you could never be in a relationship with me and you’d never want to. And that I shouldn’t have come. So I figured if I’m nothing to you, then I’ll BE nothing to you.”

His eyes searched your face, his mouth still trying to form words.

“Y/N… I….. I…. ”

You waited.

“I….. ”

“Say something Spencer.”

“I can’t…. I don’t know what to.”

How about I’m sorry. I’m an idiot? That it meant something?

“Just leave.”

This time when you went to close the door, he let you.

One more (Pt.2)

Genre: Angst

Pairing: Yoongi X reader

Fandom: BTS

Request: Could you do one where y/n is dealing with alcohol/drug addiction and one night Yoongi (or bts reaction) accidentally finds out ?

Warnings: Alcohol abuse

Pt.1 // Pt.3 // Pt.4 // Pt.5 // Pt.6

Originally posted by berry852

Your eyes snapped open to the sound of the coffee machine maker going off. With a groan you turn on your side, already having a killer headache, but as you turn you notice Jin in the mirror. He was standing in the kitchen tending to his coffee. Now the epiphany finally hit you when you realize you were at the boys dorm instead of home but you had no idea why. As you try to sit up you feel someone’s arm across your lap and you find your boyfriend’s head leaning on the couch while the rest of his body still remained on the floor. Why was he sleeping there?

Yoongi shifts in his sleep, being the light sleeper that he was, and finally winces to look up at you.

“Y/N?” He groaned.

You reach out. placing a hand on his head to stroke his hair.

“Sorry…I didn’t know you were down there.” You explained, trying to apologize for waking him.

Out of nowhere you see his expression change as he starts to remember the events of last night. You couldn’t place the type of emotion he was giving off though. 

“How are you feeling? I should have just got in that cab with you last night.”

You feel confused by the question. Was there a certain way you were supposed to be feeling? Cab? Oh, shit. You must have been drinking again and that’s why you can’t remember much from last night. This was a side of you that you chose to never show to Yoongi. It was embarrassing and something you never wanted to have to explain. Whatever you must have done must have been awful because his expression wasn’t very good. You try to recall the events the best you could.

“I-I have a small headache and i’m thirsty but um, I don’t really remember last night to be honest with you. I just remember going to that dinner party for you guys. So, I don’t really know what cab you’re talking about.”

Yoongi sighed. “You can’t even remember that much? It was still somewhat early but I guess you were pretty far off by then.”

“Y/N, I think we need to talk.”

Here it was. The talk you had dreaded but knew it would come sooner or later. He was breaking up with you for being the cheap drunk you knew you were. 

“No! Yoongi, I don’t know what I did last night but I swear I’m going to fix it! it’s not as easy as you think-”

Yoongi sat there with pity in his eyes as he watched you beg for him to stay with you. 

“I’m not leaving you…I meant we need to talk about your problem.”

Jin’s ears perked up at the conversation but when he heard you shout he just ducked out of the room, dragging Jungkook with him to avoid becoming in the middle of it. Jin was always the one cleaning up everyone’s mess in the house and this was on fight he didn’t want to mediate. 

You got up from the couch. “Why?”

Before he could answer you spoke up again.

“This isn’t something I wanted to talk about with you. I already know it’s a problem.”

“Why not? I think I have a right to know about my girlfriend!” He scolded.

“Well it isn’t your problem! That’s why I didn’t involve you in the first place! It’s just going to get between everything and ruin it…please I just really don’t want to have this fight with you..”

Yoongi frowned, feeling as if the conversation was getting nowhere. There was no way he was willing to drop something this big and important about you and pass it off like you were okay. How was he supposed to act like everything is fine when you’ve been struggling alone this whole time?

“If you don’t want it to be my problem then don’t embarrass me by having my friends drag you off some guy and bring you here completely wasted!” 

As soon as the words slipped from his mouth he knew he fucked up, especially when your expression changed right in front of him. You grabbed your jacket off of the couch, trying to leave.

“I’m so fucking sorry that I embarrassed you, Min Yoongi.” You sarcastically spat, headed to the door.

He got up off the floor, running behind you. 

“Wait I didn’t mean that Y/N-….I just want to help you. I don’t want you going through this alone!”

“Maybe I don’t want help from someone who finds my addiction embarrassing.”

You muttered, slamming the door in his face. Taehyung stood on the stairs letting out a long,lone whistle. He was waiting for the fight to be over before he came down to get food.

“That’s rough.”

Yoongi ignored Taehyung, walking past him to go to his room. He already knew he was bad this words but he didn’t realize just how bad until this fight. As soon as he left he was already bombarding your phone with calls and texts. Not so much because he wanted you to forgive him but he was worried you’d go straight back to drinking. The thought started to consume him and he couldn’t stay pouting in his room any longer, rushing to Namjoon and Jungkook’s room.

“Where did you find her last night?” He asked as he burst through the door. 

Namjoon looks up at him, seeing the desperate look on his face. 

“Why? Isn’t she down there?”

“Just please answer me right now!” He yelled.

Jungkook’s eyes widened, never hearing Yoongi raise his voice at Namjoon. Namjoon also had a surprised look on his face but easily told him the bar he found you near last night. Yoongi rushed out of the room after putting the address into his phone, leaving the house. He quickly called a cab near their dorm and he headed straight downtown. 

He was always the over-protective type but when something like this happened it sent him into overdrive. He felt like the stupidest person on earth for letting you go for the second time. Pulling out his phone he called you once more but still got your voicemail. The bars downtown were all closed since it was so early in the morning. The whole argument made him forget what time it really was. He spent all morning rushing around town trying to make sure you weren’t at any of them or one of the restaurants near your place trying to sneak a drink. Every place he went into, there was no sign of you place after place.

His last resort was to head to your house and just apologize. Yoongi knew there was no way you’d end up opening the door for him after what he said but he was sure to at least try once. He slowly got out of the cab, walking up to your front door. As soon as his hand came out of his pocket and moved up to the door his phone went off. He yanked it out, checking the ID and as soon as he read your name he answered it.

“Y/N I’m sorry okay? Babe, please just listen to me really quick before you say anything. I really didn’t mean that your problem was embarrassing! Nothing you could do would ever embarrass me! Even those times when we’d go out and you’d kiss my cheek in public or swing our hands together when we held hands and I said that we should stop because it was embarrassing. I love that about you. Seriously. I never meant any of that! If you don’t want to talk about it that’s fine but I need to know when you’re not okay. It’s my fault I didn’t see any of this….I should have paid attention more….I should have listened more…and dammit I should have loved you more. I love you so much and even if I don’t say it enough I do, okay? Please just let me help you. I can’t live with you being miserable alone. I just want you to be better so you can be happy. Wherever you are right now, I’ll be there as fast as I can so can you just tell me where you are? We don’t have to talk about it anymore- I just need to see you.”

Yoongi held the phone, desperately waiting for a response. He got even more worried when he heard you sniffling on the other end. You sat in your living room, already being able to see his figure behind your front door. You already knew he was right there but you couldn’t get yourself to stand up. You needed to fix this problem for the both of you. You never wanted to be the one to bring him down and hearing the unevenness in his voice was enough to  make your heart sink even worse.

“……I think we should break up.” You finally let out. 

Yoongi instantly felt his own tears already streaming down his cheeks with a lump in his throat. 

“Y/N don’t-”

You hung up on him, covering your mouth so you wouldn’t cry loud enough for him to know you were home. Yoongi stood there in silence, still holding the phone up to his ear. The choice you made was grave to your relationship but you didn’t assume he was the type to get into a new relationship right away and if you were able to get clean you could be with him with no problem. That was the idea anyway.

Yoongi eventually hauled a cab once more to finally just head back to the dorm. He found Namjoon staring back at him as he walked in through the front door, expressionless.

“H-hey I think I should tell you something about Y/N. I’m gonna tell you this but you can’t tell the others about it.”

Yoongi held his hand up, not even looking interested.

“She broke up with me….” he mumbled. 

Namjoon sat there in shock. 

“She what?! You two have been dating forever!”

Yoongi shrugged. “I really fucked it up…I even begged her but she didn’t budge. I’m going back to bed…”

Namjoon watched as the older one slowly climbed the stairs up to his room looking as depressed as he’d ever seen him. He couldn’t help but feel like he was to blame. You did confess to him that you were almost clean before hiding his secret and if he would have just never went through with it the two of you would still be together. His own crime was burning a hole in his mind and if Yoongi wasn’t going to listen he’d have to go to someone else for help. Now he had his own agenda to fix things between the both of you but god knows how much worse this situation could get.

Fabulous Olicity Fanfic Friday - September 15th, 2017

Happy Friday! So this is my attempt to both thank awesome fanfic writers for their amazing work and offer my recommendations to anyone who is interested. Here are the fantastic fanfic stories I read this week! They are posted in the order I read them.

It Was Always You multi-chapter by @laurabelle2930 - Felicity Smoak has been having these odd and somewhat intense dreams since she was only 8 years old. She thought she’d made him up…that she’d created this man in order to fill the hole her father had left in her heart. Now the dreams are just getting worse…and even more intense than before. Felicity Smoak is in love with the man in her dreams but he’s not real so it can never be until she meets Oliver Queen. http://archiveofourown.org/works/4964938/chapters/11401630

Two Weeks Notice multi-chapter by @sprstarinfrance - After being summoned away from her best friends wedding for non-existent emergency Felicity Smoak has decided that she’s finally a hundred percent done with her job as Oliver Queen’s assistant. Oliver, however, isn’t ready for her to be out of his life, although he isn’t quite sure why he’s so desperate. (Loosely based on the film). http://archiveofourown.org/works/6089751/chapters/13958313

Blue Eye Angel: Malfunction by @tdgal1 - Oliver learns about pop culture. http://archiveofourown.org/works/11069859/chapters/27251436

If Loving You Is Wrong (I Don’t Want To Be Right) multi-chapter by @smkkbert - They live in a society where the Ministry for Procreation decides who you get to marry. Once you get the letter with the contact details of your partner, you are supposed to marry within few months. Sexual relationships with any other partner are forbidden, even before you receive the contact details. Everyone who disobeys that law will be punished brutally.  Oliver and Nyssa have come to terms with that. Although they are married, Nyssa can secretly be with Sara, and Oliver can do whatever he wants to do. When Oliver decides to make changes, he falls madly in love with Felicity. Therefore, his life takes a pleasant turn because although they cannot publicly be together, at least they can be in secret. Things soon get complicated, though, when Felicity receives a letter that shall change her life. http://archiveofourown.org/works/11847900/chapters/26747613

Favorite Uncle by @felicityollies - Oliver and Felicity’s first time babysitting baby Sara. Oliver’s a little scared. http://felicityollies.tumblr.com/post/165155978367/favorite-uncle

Muscle Fetish by itwasred - Felicity discovers her obsession with Oliver’s muscles. And then explores that obsession. http://archiveofourown.org/works/9978542/chapters/22288733

Queen of the Castle multi-chapter by finaljoy - Felicity agreed to marry Oliver as a marriage-business merger between Smoak Solutions and Queen Consolidated. What she did not agree to, however, was to marry into the Bratva. Things get complicated when they both start working their own agendas and the other refuses to back down. But that’s okay. They both always enjoyed a challenge. http://archiveofourown.org/works/9508151/chapters/21507890

Dobbleganger multi-chapter by @felicityollies - How does one react when their evil lookalike from another earth pops up and with their significant other? Not well. http://archiveofourown.org/works/8015125/chapters/18348478

Time for a Story multi-chapter by @smkkbert - This fic shows Olicity and their life as a (married) couple with family. Although Olicity (and their kids) are the protagonists, other characters of Arrow and Flash make appearances. YOU NEED THIS STORY IN YOUR LIFE. http://archiveofourown.org/works/3912157/chapters/8757172

Married at 25 multi-chapter by @bowienarrow - By law, all people must be married by the age of 25. After her mother arranges her one, Felicity is now Mrs.Queen, and has to deal with the changes in her life. http://archiveofourown.org/works/10331945/chapters/22838777

Take My Hand (Take My Lead) multi-chapter by @bokayjunkie - Oliver isn’t angry at the fact that someone got the drop on him during a routine patrol. He’s more angry that his captor, a tiny goth pixie who babbles a mile a minute, has got him wanting to smile and feel all sorts of emotions inside. http://archiveofourown.org/works/10385373/chapters/22936461

Trust Me multi-chapter by @felicityollies - When a prostitute meets the perfect client, she has to remind herself that there’s no room for getting close to someone in her line of work. http://archiveofourown.org/works/8487226/chapters/22503983

A Lot Like Love multi-chapter by @spaztronautwriter - After a chance meeting, Oliver and Felicity spend the next 8 years trying to put their lives together (mostly successfully), falling in and out of love (mostly with other people) and finding their way back to each other (repeatedly). (Based on the movie A Lot Like Love.) http://archiveofourown.org/works/12053214/chapters/27294123

(Don’t) Let Me Go multi-chapter by @emmilynestill - Felicity told him to let her go, but even when Oliver tried, it didn’t seem to be something he was capable of. In the end, there would be nothing in the world Felicity was more grateful for. Weaving in and out of the final four episodes of Season 5 and beyond, follow Oliver and Felicity’s emotional journey back to one another, one step at a time. http://archiveofourown.org/works/11591223/chapters/26051715

How Far I’ll Go multi-chapter by BrookeScott - In the 5 years they’ve known each other, Oliver and Felicity have tackled every challenge thrown their way. While on the mission to end Promethesus’ terror, nothing could prepare them for what’s in store when Sara makes an unexpected visit to Star City bringing with her something that could make or break their relationship once and for all. Olicity. Lots of fluff, some angst. Mostly written for therapeutic reasons… kinda “my version” of the second half of season 5. Currently only 1 chapter to this story but it’s SO SO AWESOME!! http://archiveofourown.org/works/10345074/chapters/22862040

Wrap The Dark Around Me multi-chapter by @jsq - When the specter of Oliver’s past becomes a very real threat to the people of Star City, the boundaries of Oliver and Felicity’s partnership are tested. http://archiveofourown.org/works/7898737/chapters/18043180

You Made Me Fall Again (My Friend) multi-chapter by @overwatchandarrow - They were best friends in college, until tragedy forced Felicity away from her dream and away from Oliver. Eight years later they meet again, and everything’s changed. Except their feelings. http://archiveofourown.org/works/10072802/chapters/22444550

My Last Chance multi-chapter by aflores5235 - What would have happened in 3x07 if Oliver would have gotten to Palmer Tech before Ray and Felicity kissed? What goes through their heads when all the feelings are out on the line? How would this change things? http://archiveofourown.org/works/10153673/chapters/22557824

Family Outing multi-chapter by @geneshaven -  Things go wrong when the team goes on a family camping trip. Part 8 - https://geneshaven.tumblr.com/post/165278262039/family-outing

A Day Off by @geneshaven - Oliver and Felicity have a day off together but things don’t go quite as planned https://geneshaven.tumblr.com/post/165313343159/a-day-off

Queen of Hearts multi-chapter by @anthfan - Felicity finds herself pregnant, but she and Oliver don’t remember how it happened. http://archiveofourown.org/works/1017726/chapters/2023415

Bite Me by @wherethereissmoak - Oliver must deal with the consequences of a bite me comment https://wherethereissmoak.tumblr.com/post/165345787007/bite-me

A Sister’s Gotta Do What a Sister’s Gotta Do by @wherethereissmoak - Thea needs Oliver to propose now. https://wherethereissmoak.tumblr.com/post/165349297442/so-here-is-my-sentence-prompt-its-so-sparkly

Facing the Music by @wherethereissmoak - Oliver and Felicity make a decision that angers their friends and family https://wherethereissmoak.tumblr.com/post/165351963832/what-were-you-thinking

World’s Best Vigilante Contest by @wherethereissmoak - Team Arrow compete for who get catch the most criminals in one night https://wherethereissmoak.tumblr.com/post/165356443992/barry-cause-felicitys-shirt-to-go-on-fire-again

Bringing Home the Bacon by @wherethereissmoak - Oliver and Felicity plot ways to make more money after Oliver loses Queen Consolidated. https://wherethereissmoak.tumblr.com/post/165354589012/writing-prompt-that-is-quite-possibly-the-most

Just Once More by @wherethereissmoak - Oliver brings Felicity to the hospital after the limo shooting aka the one where Julie rips my heart out! https://wherethereissmoak.tumblr.com/post/165352655297/dont-go-or-dont-leave-me-felicity-didnt

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Phone Calls ~ A Baekhyun One Shot

A Byun Baekhyun one shot 

Requested by anonie

Genre: Angst, romance

Member: Byun Baekhyun

Summary: (of this one shot) When you and Baekhyun’s relationship is exposed to the public, he is forced to make a difficult choice. Choose you or his career. What happens when he chooses his career instead of you?

“Shh, come this way.” you quietly whisper through the phone to Baekhyun. 

“Where’s, ‘this way?’” he asks. 

“Second floor, first door on your right.” 

“On my way.” he says and ends the phone call. 

Baekhyun has been clingy lately, constantly calling and texting you while you were at work, despite him being busier than you were. You were just a simple person with a simple office job with your own cubicle in a large corporation building. You didn’t do much during the day; answering calls as your boss’s personal assistant, while fiddling with the cord of the telephone counting down minutes until it was break or the end of your shift. From setting up meetings to buying lunch for your boss, you didn’t do much compared to Baekhyun. Yet he always seemed to take his time out of the day to call you a least twice a day, where he would complain about practice or complain that you weren’t there watching him practice.

“I’m right outside love.” he says, gently knocking on your office door. Eagerly getting up to open the door, you’re met with his chest as he envelops you into a hug right there between the hallway and your mini office. 

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Arrow 5x17 “Kapiushon” Review: Journey To the Dark Side

This episode of Arrow is by far the darkest episode of Arrow we’ve ever seen. It’s darker than Shado vs. Sara or Moira vs. Thea. Darker than even during the Al Sah Him time. I think that we have absolutely reached the crushing rock bottom in the journey of Oliver Queen. And thank God because I’m really not sure we could survive going any further down this dark rabbit hole.

Stephen Amell was utterly fantastic in this episode. The raw emotion in his scenes with Josh Segerra—who was equally amazing—were painful to sit through. Yet Amell also managed to balance this with the flashback scenes where we saw Oliver reaching his darkest point in his five years of hell. Somehow even juxtaposed with each other I was able to still feel so bad for Oliver in the present day. Amell did A+ work and should be commended for it.

Oliver Queen and Adrian Chase (plus OTA/Olicity)

It’s a cold open of torture as Adrian holds Oliver’s head under water for 145 seconds because that’s how long Jason Clayborne took to drown. As Oliver is drowning—like he was in the pilot episode—he flashes back to the people that he killed in season 1. This is day six of torture for Oliver.

Physically, Oliver is holding up relatively fine, if a bit tired. Mentally, he seemed to be doing okay in that first scene too. So far Chase had only been physically torturing Oliver. Oliver knows how to take pain. That’s not going to break Oliver. In fact, he seemed kind of bored when he told Chase, “If that’s what you’re going to do to me you’ll need to come up with something better than whatever this is,” in regards to Chase telling Oliver he took the name Prometheus because he took away power from the Gods. Chase told him he had something better.

Originally posted by torturezone

And he did. He broke Oliver when he stopped trying to physically torture him and went back to mentally attacking him. He poked at all of Oliver’s greatest fears—that he ruins everything he touches. But still as Chase was dancing around this he wanted Oliver to confess a secret. The secret. Oliver didn’t know what it was that Chase wanted from him and thus he couldn’t stop the psychological torture.

Chase starts his psychological attack by hanging pictures of people the people that Oliver killed. Oliver argues that these people were bad and had victims of their own. Chase argues they also had spouses and children too. I see both sides of the argument here. Did Oliver need to kill to get justice in season 1? No; we know that and we knew that then. But at that time that’s what he’d been conditioned to believe was the only way to see real justice done. An eye-for-an-eye kind of thing. And Chase is correct—he’s an example of it—that bad people also have people in their lives that aren’t bad and would miss them if they were gone.

Harry Potter reference. Draco Malfoy loved his parents but they were still Death Eaters. Lucius and Narcissa Malfoy may have been parents who (sometimes) loved their son but they also still chose to be Death Eaters. People are all complicated. It’s as I’ve said—what like 99 times now?—we all have light and dark in us but it’s what we choose to do that matters. Jason Clayborne had good things in his life; he apparently had a close relationship with his shithead of a son. A son, by the way, born out of an affair if I recall because he has been called his “illegitimate” son. So that’s hardly honorable. Then there is all his criminal activity. No one forced Clayborne to partake in all of that but he chose to. He chose not to think about the people that he would be hurting.

The difference is that Oliver made the chose to change his ways. And that matters. If the bad counts than the good has to count too.

When Oliver brings up Adrian’s hypocrisy because Chase murdered his own wife to further his agenda against Oliver, it’s important to note that Adrian couldn’t fight against that. He chose to ignore it. Because he murdered a woman who was innocent and there was no defense against that. Doris Chase wasn’t a woman with a criminal history; for all intents and purposes, she seemed like a loving wife to a man who played her and then murdered her.

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Good LGBTQIA+ Books

// I know people sometimes have a difficult time finding good LGBT+ representation in YA or other genres, so here’s a list of my current favorites (that are written pretty realistically/aren’t complete garbage). Please let me know if you have any other favorites and feel free to add to the list! Also, please let me know if I have the wrong terms/am using the wrong language. 

YA Fiction

Anything Could Happen- Will Walton

o   “Tretch lives in a very small town where everybody’s in everybody else’s business. Which makes it hard for him to be in love with his straight best friend. For his part, Matt is completely oblivious to the way Tretch feels – and Tretch can’t tell whether that makes it better or worse.”

o   Blurb makes this sound super cheesy— it is sorta cheesy, but also good representation with gay teen Tretch.

More Happy Than Not- Adam Silvera

o   “In the months after his father’s suicide, it’s been tough for 16-year-old Aaron Soto to find happiness again–but he’s still gunning for it. With the support of his girlfriend Genevieve and his overworked mom, he’s slowly remembering what that might feel like. But Aaron can’t deny the happiness Thomas brings or how Thomas makes him feel safe from himself, despite the tensions their friendship is stirring with his girlfriend and friends. Since Aaron can’t stay away from Thomas or turn off his newfound feelings for him, he considers turning to the Leteo Institute’s revolutionary memory-alteration procedure to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he truly is.”

o   Silvera is a KILLER writer. Very emotionally hard-hitting. I haven’t read many characters who are struggling with bisexuality, so I thought this was interesting. Also by Silvera: History is All You Left Me

Magnus Chase Series- Rick Riordan

o   “Magnus Chase has always been a troubled kid. Since his mother’s mysterious death, he’s lived alone on the streets of Boston, surviving by his wits, keeping one step ahead of the police and the truant officers.One day, he’s tracked down by a man he’s never met—a man his mother claimed was dangerous. The man tells him an impossible secret: Magnus is the son of a Norse god.To prevent Ragnarok, Magnus must search the Nine Worlds for a weapon that has been lost for thousands of years.”

o   Not only does this have Hearthstone (who is deaf), but also Alex Fierro, who is gender-fluid. Currently I believe Alex is going by the pronoun “he” (if I remember correctly). He and Magnus become friends, and a lot of the dialogue/information about gender-fluidity is done realistically, and doesn’t feel forced at all. IT’S JUST SUPER GOOD OKAY

I’ll Give You the Sun- Jandy Nelson

o   “Jude and her twin brother, Noah, are incredibly close. At thirteen, isolated Noah draws constantly and is falling in love with the charismatic boy next door, while daredevil Jude cliff-dives and wears red-red lipstick and does the talking for both of them. But three years later, Jude and Noah are barely speaking. Something has happened to wreck the twins in different and dramatic ways. The early years are Noah’s story to tell. The later years are Jude’s. What the twins don’t realize is that they each have only half the story, and if they could just find their way back to one another, they’d have a chance to remake their world.”

o   This was my top pick for 2016! Stunning. Made me cry. (Noah is GAY!!!!)

None of the Above- I. W. Gregorio

o   “When Kristin Lattimer is voted homecoming queen, it seems like another piece of her ideal life has fallen into place. She’s a champion hurdler with a full scholarship to college and she’s madly in love with her boyfriend. In fact, she’s decided that she’s ready to take things to the next level with him. But Kristin’s first time isn’t the perfect moment she’s planned—something is very wrong. A visit to the doctor reveals the truth: Kristin is intersex, which means that though she outwardly looks like a girl, she has male chromosomes, not to mention boy “parts."”

o   Not the best contemporary I’ve ever read, and the romance is a bit awkward, but this book is important in that it has a main character who is intersex— I’ve never seen this on the page before.

Symptoms of Being Human- Jeff Garvin

o   “Riley Cavanaugh is many things: Punk rock. Snarky. Rebellious. And gender fluid. Some days Riley identifies as a boy, and others as a girl. The thing is…Riley isn’t exactly out yet. And between starting a new school and having a congressman father running for reelection in uber-conservative Orange County, the pressure—media and otherwise—is building up in Riley’s so-called “normal” life. In the advice of a therapist, Riley starts an anonymous blog to vent those pent-up feelings and tell the truth of what it’s REALLY like to be a gender fluid teenager. But just as Riley’s starting to settle in at school—even developing feelings for a mysterious outcast—the blog goes viral, and an unnamed commenter discovers Riley’s real identity, threatening exposure.”

o   Again, a dramatic read, but an important addition to YA.

Simon Vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda- Beck Albertelli

o   “Sixteen-year-old and not-so-openly gay Simon Spier prefers to save his drama for the school musical. But when an email falls into the wrong hands, his secret is at risk of being thrust into the spotlight. Now Simon is actually being blackmailed: if he doesn’t play wingman for class clown Martin, his sexual identity will become everyone’s business. Worse, the privacy of Blue, the pen name of the boy he’s been emailing, will be compromised. Now, change-averse Simon has to find a way to step out of his comfort zone before he’s pushed out—without alienating his friends, compromising himself, or fumbling a shot at happiness with the most confusing, adorable guy he’s never met.”

o   I just remember this being really funny.

If I Was Your Girl- Meredith Russo

o    I hate the blurb for this, so: Amanda is the main character, a teenage girl. She has a crush on this guy named Grant. It’s pretty basic, actually, until we learn that Amanda is trans. So it’s very important.

We Are the Ants- Shaun David Hutchinson

o   “Henry knows that his mom is struggling to keep the family together, and coping by chain-smoking cigarettes. He knows that his older brother is a college dropout with a pregnant girlfriend. He knows that he is slowly losing his grandmother to Alzheimer’s. And he knows that his boyfriend committed suicide last year. What Henry doesn’t know is why the aliens chose to abduct him when he was thirteen, and he doesn’t know why they continue to steal him from his bed and take him aboard their ship. He doesn’t know why the world is going to end or why the aliens have offered him the opportunity to avert the impending disaster by pressing a big red button. But they have. And they’ve only given him 144 days to make up his mind.”

o   Another good example of gay representation- the alien thing is just weird, though.

Middle-Grade Fiction

Gracefully Grayson- Amy Polonsky

o   “Alone at home, twelve-year-old Grayson Sender glows, immersed in beautiful thoughts and dreams. But at school, Grayson grasps at shadows, determined to fly under the radar. Because Grayson has been holding onto a secret for what seems like forever: “he” is a girl on the inside, stuck in the wrong gender’s body. Strengthened by an unexpected friendship and a caring teacher who gives her a chance to step into the spotlight, Grayson might finally have the tools to let her inner light shine.”

o   One of the first books I read about a transgender person. Grayson is so sweet, and this is such a touching book.

Star-Crossed- Barbara Dee

o   “Mattie, a star student and passionate reader, is delighted when her English teacher announces the eighth grade will be staging Romeo and Juliet. And she is even more excited when, after a series of events, she finds herself playing Romeo, opposite Gemma Braithwaite’s Juliet. Gemma, the new girl at school, is brilliant, pretty, outgoing—and, if all that wasn’t enough: British. As the cast prepares for opening night, Mattie finds herself growing increasingly attracted to Gemma and confused, since, just days before, she had found herself crushing on a boy named Elijah. Is it possible to have a crush on both boys AND girls? If that wasn’t enough to deal with, things backstage at the production are starting to rival any Shakespearean drama! In this sweet and funny look at the complicated nature of middle school romance, Mattie learns how to be the lead player in her own life.”

o   Do middle-school girls have many books with girls their age that are bisexual???? I think not!!!! This is beautiful!!!!!

Christianity & LGBTQIA+ Books 

God and the Gay Christian: The Biblical Case in Support of Same-Sex Relationships- Matthew Vines   (probs the best one)

Bible, Gender, Sexuality: Reframing the Church’s Debate on Same-Sex Relationships- James Brownson

Torn: Rescuing the Gospel from the Gays-vs.-Christians Debate- Justin Lee

The Bible and the Transgender Experience: How Scripture Supports Gender Variance- Linda Tatro Herzer

Unfair: Christians and the LGBT Question- John Shore


The Night We First Met


The soft voice interrupted the sound of dull, continuous pop-sizzling of the fireworks that went on overhead, and Nyx turned to see his wife approaching, her ivory gown swishing around her feet like moonlit sea foam in the semi-light of Tenebrae’s summer evening.

Her ravishing sight took him aback for a full couple seconds before he caught himself staring. He quickly stood to attention and snapped off a crisp salute by way of covering the unprofessional slip. “All clear on the roof, My Queen.”

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LIW Review: Lovely Little Losers

Much as I love NMTD as my favorite adaptation of my favorite Shakespeare play, LBD for introducing me to the genre and the genre to the world, and so many other literary-inspired webseries for so many reasons, Lovely Little Losers will always be my favorite. 

The premise is simple: Benedick, Balthazar, and Pedro (now going by Peter) from Nothing Much To Do are going to university in Wellington and living in a flat together with the lovely and awkward Freddie Kingston. Freddie and Ben decide to impose some order on the flat with a set of absurd flat rules that everyone has to follow, including a curfew, vegetarianism (and vegan Fridays), Ben getting to film everything, imposed flat bonding in the form of challenges, and the worst rule of all, no romantic relationships, aka no shenanigans. 

The series is loosely based on Shakespeare’s Love’s Labour’s Lost, but in reality there are only about five episodes that have anything to do with the plot of the original play. Apart from those moments, the inspiration mostly just creates the premise and the names of certain characters.

Plot overview:

Freddie, Benedick, Peter, and Balthazar sign a bunch of ridiculous flat rules that at first seem like a good idea and quickly spiral out of control. Then Beatrice and Meg decide to road trip to Wellington, where, due to The Rules, they end of sleeping in a tent in the back garden along with Kit, another friend of the flat. It’s hard to say more about the actual plot without spoilers, since it’s barely revealed what’s been going on until almost the end (starting around “SARDINES” and going until “FEATHERS”), so I’ll move on to my other categories.


All actual episodes are posted on the Lovely Little Losers YouTube channel, with Ben as the main (unreliable) narrator, Meg as secondary (mostly reliable) narrator, and other characters (such as Beatrice and Peter) occasionally filming/uploading videos as well. Fifteen videos are devoted to “Balth in a Bath,” which was all filmed on the same day in February but is uploaded sporadically throughout the year. There are also between fourteen and seventeen song videos, depending on how you define “song” (more on that later). There are also a few extras on other YouTube channels that, while not technically part of the story, help illuminate things considerably (the channel I’m referring to here is Zoos Job, though there are also two videos on the Nothing Much To Do channel).

How to watch LoLiLo:

This is ordinarily not one of my categories, but in this case it is very necessary. You MUST read the video descriptions, and also check the comments section, to have ANY idea what’s really going on here, and even then most of it’s going to be subtext. You can watch the series either in the order it was intended to be watched in or in chronological order (which ruins a little of the mystery but averts a Zoos Job marathon later on. Links to both playlists are below). Keep in mind that Benedick is the narrator of nearly the whole thing, and that he is editing the content to fit his own agenda – the one @beatriceeagle calls “Project Birdy-Fingers.” This means that two-thirds of the love stories in LoLiLo are almost entirely hidden from the viewers and once again need to be read through subtext. 


Off the charts dedicated. This series has a much more experimental style than NMTD – several episodes use more than one camera angle, nearly every episodes has multiple characters in it, and is frequently filmed over multiple days and edited into non-chronological order – but there is still always a reason for the camera to be there and always a reason, in-universe, for it to have been edited and uploaded the way it was. This dedication to realism made things that much more difficult for The Candle Wasters, but it also adds hugely to the value of the series.


As I mentioned above, many, many episodes of LLL are actually songs. The series has been referred to by many people as a “secret musical” because of this. 11 songs are almost entirely character development. “A Merry Note” was written by Shakespeare and was mostly The Candle Wasters being clever and making us think our ship had sailed. “Heaven in Her Lips” is a cute love song. “Stay” is secretly plot, though the lyrics also assist in understanding “one foot on sea one on shore one in the boiling hot lava,” which is the real first episode of LoLiLo. Then we get to the question of whether certain other videos are songs. “Berry Nice,” while a Balth in a Bath episode, is clearly a song. But what about “Beatrice and Ballads,” which is essentially the reprise of “Beatrice, You’re Vivacious”? What about “A Sonnet,” which, although not a song, is the inverse of “An Ode” and should therefore be included for the sake of symmetry? Of course, the numbers don’t matter, because the songs are amazing. The songs themselves were mainly written by Reuben Hudson, Elsie Bollinger, and Maude Morris, with some help from other writers, and are performed mostly by Reuben Hudson and Mouce Young, with help from most of the rest of the cast.


Very strong. Several characters are not white at all (Kit and Jaquie), and race just generally is a non-issue. LGBT representation is also great, especially for a pre-2016 webseries: Peter is now openly bisexual, Balthazar actually uses the word “gay” to describe himself, Paige and Chelsey are a lesbian couple who have basically the only functional relationship in the whole series, and the sexuality of several other characters (Kit, Freddie, Costa, Vegan Fred), is never defined, though I headcanon them all as bi. Though there are no disabled characters, there are extensive explorations of mental health issues, though as usual for The Candle Wasters, this is largely in subtext. Also, people actually talk about money in this and have realistic issues with money, which is a nice change from every other webseries I’ve seen.

Film quality:

Fantabulous, especially since The Candle Wasters had an actual budget for this series.  As mentioned before, there are even episodes shot with multiple cameras THAT ACTUALLY WORK. Yay for realism and quality combined is all I can say.

My three favorite things about Lovely Little Losers:

1) My two favorite episodes, “RUSSIANFUDGE” and “ACCOSTED”

2) Balth in a Bath, because Balth in a Bath is perfect and innocent and lovely and actually includes a lot of exposition and character/relationship development that doesn’t exist anywhere else.

3) The fact that I keep getting more out of it on every rewatch – and I have now seen this thing in full ten times, though it’s been more like twenty for some episodes (”TEA,” “RUSSIANFUDGE”), and I have no idea how many times I’ve watched/listened to some of the songs.

Difficult things about Lovely Little Losers:

On first viewing it can be almost impossible to understand what’s going on almost all the time, and it can be easy to skip things because the series seems largely plotless. Do not give up hope! There is indeed a plot, but you have to hunt for it. If you finish the series and still feel confused or dissatisfied, I recommend a rewatch and @beatriceeagle and @marydebenham ‘s LLL rewatch metas, which have been invaluable for many the confused/dissatisfied viewer. It can also be frustrating that certain things (like apologies) are never said on camera, but we can blame realism for that. 

All I can say is, despite its surface flaws, LoLiLo is not only my favorite webseries but also only of my favorite pieces of literature of all time. There’s so much here, in character, in content, and in theme, and I could talk about it for ages more than I already have. Although on first viewing I had no idea what to make of it, I now give LLL a solid and glowing 5/5 stars.


Benedick Hobbes – Jake McGregor @jakeasaurus–rex

Peter Donaldson – Caleb Wells @letslipthedogsofwar 

Freddie Kingston – Bonnie Simmonds @bonniesimmonds

Balthazar Jones – Reuben Hudson @reubenhudson

Meg Winter – Jessica Stansfield

Beatrice Duke – Harriett Maire @harriettstella

Kitso Harper – Phodiso Dintwe

Paige Moth – Mouce Young

Chelsey Long – Bronwyn Ensor

Rosa Jones – Ella McLeod

Hero Duke – Pearl Kennedy

Jaquie Manders – Kalisha Wasasala

Costa McClure – Robbie Nicol (Aka White Man Behind a Desk, now part of The Candle Wasters)

John Donaldson – Geroge Maunsell

Vegan Fred Boyet – Daniel McBride (aka Sheep, Dog & Wolf)

Dogberry – David Hannah

Claudio – Matthew J. Smith

Leo Duke – Alex McDonald

Ursula – Tina Pan

Zeb – Jim Mitford-Taylor

Kelsi Forrester – Calum Gittins

Julia – Mirabai Pease

Violet – Hannah Mitford-Taylor

Maria – Hannah Geddis

Created by The Candle Wasters @thecandlewasters

More complete social media links for the cast and crew are available from people who aren’t me :) 

Running time:

Approximately ten hours. 

Time frame:

December 24, 2014-December 25, 2015

Watch it in the original order here:


Or in chronological (Zoos Job) order here:


Or in upload order as a slideshow here:


jukesboxblues  asked:

consider: a marvin and whizzer political power couple au,,,i dunno how everyone else comes into this buuut

lowkey, a Hou/se of Car/ds AU has been on my to-do list for awhile now, sooo I have been secretly in love with this concept for a very long time.

  • Charlotte is def the president of the United States. The first African American woman ever in history, and she’s also a lesbian in a committed relationship to boot. Her election was a huge surprise, and the media is weirdly desperate to see her fail. She’s passionate and driven for her cause of the betterment of the American people, but this tunnel vision and blind idealism can lead to certain people taking advantage of her position of power and desperation to get things done.
  • Cordelia is Charlotte’s doting wife. She doesn’t know much about politics but she knows how to tell liars and cheats from saints and and is a scarily good judge of character. Cordelia keeps close to Charlotte’s side and protects her as fiercely as she can. She’s also not scared to get her hands a little dirty if it is for the good of her president.
  • Marvin is Vice President, though he was not on the ticket when Charlotte had gotten elected. (Obv this makes more sense on how he did this if you’ve watched House of Cards since Frank Under/wood pulled the same feat off) but to make things simple, let’s just say that Marvin is a very, very good talker and - like Cordelia - isn’t afraid to get his hands dirty. So, he got this position through deceit and unsavory exploitation.
  • Marvin was known as the “whip” in Congress, the person that everyone came to when they needed something done and had something to offer in return. He’s a democrat from New York, and he lived a privileged life, sure. He’s had his eye on the presidency for awhile, but since he’s grown fond of Charlotte, he’s torn on going through with his original plan of stealing the presidency or waiting his turn. He doesn’t know if he should gamble away his life-long ambition or gamble away his opportunity for genuine friendship and later love with a particular journalist but we’ll get to him later.
  • Charlotte has been forced to trust Marvin in clutch times since he’s always pulled through for her, but Cordelia is not so naive. She likes Marvin, sure, but she knows there’s something that he’s hiding, that he’s pulling the strings behind the scenes to achieve some personal agenda. Cordelia keeps Marvin close and watches him, waiting for a slip up.
  • Mendel is Marvin’s private psychiatrist and has been for years and years and years. Mendel knows Marvin by body and soul, and he knows Marvin’s plan to climb the political ladder. Mendel has always been one to stay on the side-lines, to not ask questions but to listen, to never intervene. But then he fell in love with Marvin’s ex-wife, Trina, and now he wonders just what will make him unethical and what will make him a hero.
  • Trina is Marvin’s ex-wife but has since thrown herself into charity work (via maintaining her own multi-million dollar charity organization) after the divorce. Marvin is still a permanent fixture in her life, still trying to control her even after he humiliated and divorced her. She hears through Mendel the grapevine that Marvin is vying for the presidency, hell-bent on doing anything to get what he wants. And she couldn’t imagine anything worse…
  • Mendel and Trina decide to play dirty for once - for the good of the people (and each other’s happiness). They start anonymously tipping off a desperate, nobody, hungry-for-fame journalist - Whizzer Brown. Not with information (bc that would be hearsay and Marvin would immediately know the source to be Mendel) but with opportunity and direction - telling Whizzer to get close to Marvin, to run stories for Marvin, to play along with Marvin, to get Marvin to trust him enough to give incriminating evidence against himself.
  • Whizzer Brown has been underestimated, underutilized, and underappreciated in his line of work. He cares as much about projecting meaning into the world through his stories as he does affording dinner and a roof over his head (the former of which he isn’t doing at all, and the latter of which he won’t be able to do much longer if he keeps writing dry fluff pieces that no one reads). When he keeps getting anonymous tips about this new hot-shot (Marvin is his name - someone in politics, apparently) who has secrets that the whole world will want to know, Whizzer doesn’t question it as much as he should. He memorizes Marvin’s schedule (given to him by the anon) and makes a plan, resolves to play this man’s game, and readies to expose him and get all the money and fame that he had promised himself years ago.
  • And Marvin is puzzled and amused by this smart-mouthed, willing, pretty journalist. Marvin is initially relieved to have someone wedged in the media, who he can feed stories to and tear down his enemies. He doesn’t realize the fact that by trusting Whizzer among doing other things with Whizzer, he’s essentially loading the gun aimed straight at him.
  • Of course Marvin and Whizzer start breaching any semblance of a “professional” relationship. Of course Marvin - being so, so lonely and so, so desperate for love - would fall in love with Whizzer. Of course Whizzer realizes this straight away.
  • Of course Whizzer grows to love Marvin too.
  • Of course Whizzer realizes that maybe that helpful anon has their own agenda by pushing him to betray Marvin. Of course Whizzer is still tempted. But heyyy, would Whizzer rather have short-lived fame for taking down a nameless man trying to trick his way into the presidency (he’d get a mere footnote in the history textbooks - if that) OR would Whizzer benefit more by having the arm and ear and bed of the future president himself???
  • Now here’s the dilemma: 
        • Charlotte and Cordelia knows that someone is trying to swindle them, has been picking off priorly loyal Congressmen and turning them and the media against Charlotte. They just don’t know who yet.
        • Mendel and Trina want a perfect life together, away from Marvin’s influence and control and suffocating presence in their lives. They want Marvin with as little power as possible. They want to take him down.
        • Marvin wants the presidency - desperately. He’s been weaving this web for years and years and years. Marvin is ambitious, but is that a fatal flaw or driving quality? Will it lift him up or bury him?
        • Whizzer wants fame and power. And he’s willing to play both sides (Marvin’s, and Trina and Mendel’s) until it’s revealed which one will get him all that he so desires and deserves.

This got really really dark and I think I def want to write this now. Def keeping this for reference. But like, would this be interesting to read?? 

The Last One | 11

Reader x Yoongi

Summary: BigHit Entertainment was supposed to be the start of your producing career, and when Bang Si-Hyuk assigns you to work with the popular group BTS, things don’t go according to plan because of the hot-headed, perfectionist: Min Yoongi.
Rating (Overall): NC-17
Status: On-Going

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You woke up the next day early, as usual. The curtains had been left stretched out, the sun greeting you as you opened your eyes. You checked your phone for the time, only to realize it was seven. Getting up from bed, you noticed Rin still sound asleep on the air mattress next to you. Without trying to cause any noise, you quietly tried to get out of bed, only to create a loud creaking noise as you rolled off.

“You’re up early.” Rin yawned, scratching his messy bed-head. He squinted at you and rubbed his eyes to clear them up.

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you up.” You gave a sheepish smile.

“Too late now.” He chuckled, and got up from his position. Grabbing his sheets and blanket, he began folding them, “Back to Seoul now.”

“You sound disappointed.” You chuckled, making your bed.

“Sort of. I just forgot how stress-relieving this trip was. Now I have to go back to the source of my madness.”

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Death Sucks

Requested by an anon

Summary: How Batmom reacted to each of her family members dying/faking their death/being seriously injured.

Warning(s): Death, Angst, Depression, Grieving, etc.

//I tried to generalize how they died, just because of all the different arcs.

Bruce: It almost seemed surreal, the big, bad, bat was dead. The worst part was that you could barely grieve. Everyone else needed you to keep yourself together - they needed you to push them out on parole night after night after it happened. Especially Dick. Finally, you broke down when you saw your son in the bat suit instead of your husband.

Dick: Dick knew out of all people you would not be able to keep the secret if he told you he was still alive. So to you he was dead. Your one and only sunshiny, happy baby ripped from your hands. He was the only one who tried so desperately to keep everyone’s hopes up. And he had such a way with the rest of his siblings - now the manor just felt cold without him.

Barbra: (we’re just going to ignore Bruce and Babs relationship in The Killing Joke, m’kay?) Knowing Barbra was hurt was nerve racking, especially since you couldn’t be next to her side like a mother. You had to pretend you were simply concerned for the girl your eldest struck a fancy to without suggesting anything more. Hospital visits were either once a week or at night so suspicions wouldn’t be raised and it was so hard seeing her obvious resentment at her physical state.

Jason: Jason’s death was the first you ever had to deal with. Never before had you had to deal with death that much, and never with someone so young and so close to you. Bruce’s mental state after Jason’s death didn’t help anything either. He was home less, getting stitched up more and you knew exactly why. You watched the news. Batman was getting more aggressive, so criminals weren’t afraid to get more aggressive in return. And the moment you believed you were finally mostly coping with it - he shows up alive.

Tim: Though not as forward as Dick, Tim was a ray of sunshine like no other. He had to work hard for everything he wanted and it paid off. His smarts were unparalleled and you knew one day being that smart would get him into trouble.  The most pain came after his death, after finding out all the prestigious honors that were bestowed upon him - that he would never be able to brag about. But even if he lived you knew he wouldn’t have told you about half of them. Why was it that your Tim viewed the biggest life accomplishments as simple milestones? He gets a prestigious award and compares it to brushing his teeth in the morning. And that’s what hurt the most, knowing you were harboring a world genius and instead of making renowned discoveries he was fighting crime - and now dead.

Stephanie: You stood in shadow’s of Stephanie’s hospital room, listening as she questioned her importance to the crime-fighting agenda - her importance to Bruce. Tears silently flowed down your cheeks, regretting not showing her more often just how important she was to this world. She always seemed so happy and so cocky and even though you tried your best to give her love it wasn’t enough. It made you go home and try even harder with all the rest of your children, making it your life mission to make sure each and every one of them knew how important they were.

Damian: Damian’s death was worst on Bruce - this time he saw his own flesh and blood being brutally murdered before him. You were afraid Bruce would slip back into how he acted after Jason died but 10x worse this time. So you kept yourself composed, pulling a Batman if you will, just so you could gauge Bruce’s emotional and mental state. But you let everyone else see how much it tore you apart. Now habitually you woke up at the ungodly hours of the morning without a small boy encouraging you that you’d get more done in the day this way.

//I’m not aware of any situation like these concerning Cass(coincidence? I think not) But if I’m wrong let me know!

What If I Told You...

that your ship not being canon isn’t the sole reason why the ending was terrible?

because, and this is controversial as hell but I’ll say it it anyway:

SasuKarin would be in the same situation as SasuSaku (Sasuke traveling and leaving their kid behind to provide a terrible plot for said kid to obtain the Sharingan)

NaruSaku would be in the same situation as NaruHina (Naruto staying at work and Sakura being cool with it because she has the same blind nationalism as he does)

SasuNaru would be the same as it is now, with literally no progression in their relationship and Naruto’s needs meaning more than Sasuke’s, because fuck what Sasuke wants.

Try to put any other ship you can think of and my argument still stands. Your favorite ship won’t make a better ending.

The ending was terrible because of how Konoha’s ideals refused to change. We were led to believe since the Zabuza arc that Naruto would bring revolutionary ideas to change the world for the better. His “ideas,” however, solely consisted of befriending people in power so they could work together to be oppressive, not against each other. He never had his beliefs challenged. He was always right. By the end of the series, Konoha is stuck in the same mindset as it always was.

Changing the ships won’t fix the fact that the Hyuuga practice(d) genetic slavery without being checked. It won’t fix how the truth about the Uchiha Massacre is still a dirty little secret (the so-called “Matriarch” doesn’t even know about it). It won’t fix how the small villages and nations have absolutely nothing to do with the alliance between the Five Great Nations, but that’s okay cause they don’t matter. It won’t fix religious extremists like Jashinists who experiment on people (Hidan) and murder others as sacrifices, and Kishimoto spent so little time on this group that we don’t even know if they did so willingly. It won’t fix the fact that there is an entire village of Orochimaru’s experiments, separated from their loved ones, and still under his control because why punish the guy that kidnaps children for science (Hey, if Danzo approved of it once then it must not be so bad!) It won’t fix how Karin and people with abilities similar to Karin can be used and abused for the benefit of ninjas yet no word of it is mentioned ever again. It won’t fix how the entire Land of Eddies was wiped out yet their people were seemingly scattered across the world with no support, even though Konoha ninja flaunt their symbol upon their backs (interestingly, the only living Uzumaki we know about are the ones being kept around for selfish reasons: Nagato being given the Rinnegan to help further Madara’s agenda, Mito, Kushina and Naruto having to become Jinchuuriki with Kushina even saying she didn’t want to do it, Karin and her mother held against their will). It won’t fix how mental institutions and therapy only need to exist for children, not adults, because according to Sakura the adults that just went through war are totally fine, and her traumatized husband is totally fine.

Ship what you want, I don’t care. But do not act like your ship has the magical ability to fix everything fucked up about the ending. It doesn’t, Kishimoto does. And as we’ve all seen, he has no intention of fixing anything.

Are some canon ships actually terrible and would be better off as something else? Yes, they are, I won’t front. But changing who ends up with who will not address most of the shit I listed above. I’ll say it again incase someone misses my point: SHIP. WHAT. YOU. WANTas longasit'snotabusive But this isn’t a romance manga and was never meant to be one. Your ship being canon isn’t going to do much when the themes of the show mean so much more than that.

(just write fanfiction tbh that’s always great, pure and makes everyone happy)

edit: To quickly add on to this: I said twice that people can ship what they want but I have a feeling someone is going to try and argue why they like their ship to me as if that’s what the post means. It isn’t. It’s not “these ships are just as bad” it’s “these ships will produce the same result for the ending anyway so who cares.” There are totally some pairings that definitely shouldn’t have happened but getting rid of them won’t help much with the shitshow that is the Naruto ending in its entirety. Romance was never a focal point of Naruto and Kishimoto never meant it to be.

Dear followers, dear fellow Destiel lovers,

I know I haven’t posted a rec list in forever and I’m deeply sorry. HOWEVER, I am now posting a super duppper epic fic rec list, including ALL the fics I’ve bookmarked during this semester. (They are listed in chonological order)

I only bookmark things that make me squeel with joy or squirm because I’m just SO turned on.  Sooooooo.. get yourself ready, make some tea, or hot chocolate, pour some wine..and enjoy these beautiful fics ;)

You Were Something I Never Expected Title: Do What Feels Good

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 13k
Summary: Castiel learns to love alone time in the shower. And then he learns to share.

Title: Enemy Mine

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: Demon!Dean wants to team up with an angel of the Lord.

Title: He Saw it in a Film Once

Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 5k

Summary:Dean, who may or may not have left a knife on his person, is nervous about being caught with contraband by the smoking hot TSA agent, so he demands a private pat down. Thing is, the TSA agent doesn’t know the proper procedure to give a private pat down. Except for what he saw in that film once…orWhere Dean needs a pat down and Cas doesn’t know what to do so he bases it off a porno.

Title: What was Lost Still Leaves its Mark

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5k
Summary:Demon Dean captures Castiel and forces him to play out a few of his fantasies. Cas soon finds himself willing because Dean still retains many of the good qualities of his human life. It starts out with dubious consent but consent is given early on. There is a confrontation where Dean makes Cas strip. If you love Dean’s panty kink this figures prominently. This is from Cas’ POV and gets romantic and hopeful toward the end. Castiel is powered down but not sick and has human drives like sex and sleep. Dean dominates him but is not cruel and does not hurt him. This was written a while before the season 10 premiere and is canon compliant up to the season 9 finale.

Title: Watch Over You

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 1k
Summary:“I didn’t know this what you meant when you said you’d watch over me,” Dean jokes lightly.(“I guess I could get used to it,” he whispers.)

Title: Closer

Rating: Explicit

Word Count: 3k

Summary:Dean was the best secretary Castiel ever had. Now if only he could get the man to stop turning into a stuttering, stumbling mess every time Castiel talked to him.

Title: The Beast You’ve made of me

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 11k
Summary: Cas finds Dean bound to the headboard of a motel room, where the corpse of an incubus that suspiciously resembles the angel lies on the floor. They take off, but Dean refuses to talk about what happened. Incubi toxin pumps through his veins while Cas spends the drive reconsidering their relationship. The toxin takes its’ hold as Dean begins to panic and Cas beseeches him to pull over.

Title: Like only a best friend could

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 22k
Summary: The awesome thing about high school is that you can be a little bit gay without being all the way gay.

Title: Hush

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 105k
Summary:He’d heard all he needed to know about Dr. Novak, really. Straight-laced academic, prioritizes punctuality, favours the smartest students; it doesn’t bode well for Dean.

Title: Honeydew

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4k
Summary:Dean Winchester is a girl who is used to disappointment, so her crush on Castiel should be no exception.
Fem!Dean x fem!Cas.
AKA: Girl on girl smut.

Title: 18 and Life

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: Dean Winchester has just been tossed into jail for doing something dumb. Which is pretty much his M.O. but this time, his actions have real consequences.
Castiel Krushnic is his new cellmate with his own agenda that Dean isn’t really privy to until it’s too late.

Title: I know what you like

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4kCastiel agrees to help Gabriel out by being a production assistant at his porn company. However, when porn star Dean Winchester comes onto him on set, who is Cas to say no, especially when Dean seems to know all the things that turn Cas on most?

Title: Treasured

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 1k
Summary:  Castiel is a towering dragon capable of tearing asunder entire kingdoms, but for his treasured human, he shifts form and becomes all the things Dean could ever want. Anything Castiel can’t become, he acquires, showering Dean in riches and finery unlike any other. He tends to every one of Dean’s needs, including the less innocent and more primal urges that arise between them.

Title: Dean and Cas make a Porno

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary:Porn stars Dean and Castiel get their first chance to work with each other. “I’ve seen your work, Angel. Very nice.” “Call me Cas.” “Dean.” Smut

Title: One Does Not Simply Ship Destiel

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 30k
Summary: Sam is finally starting to figure out why Dean and Cas are so intense around each other. It makes sense, really. Granted, nothing is going to come of the longing glances and secret pining unless somebody does something. Sam takes it upon himself to do that something. Buy as it turns out, getting Dean and Cas together is more difficult than he imagines.

Title: There’s Nowhere I’d Rather Be Than Here With You

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5k
Summary: Dean’s had a long day at work, so what better way for him and Cas to celebrate their two year anniversary of their marriage proposal than some lazy sex at home on their couch in their living room. Though, that wasn’t the only thing going on in the den…

Title: A Case for Evolution

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 9k
Summary: Somehow an easy-going plumber and an awkward anthropologist can find a way to meet right in the middle.

Title: The Registy

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 1k
Summary: In an alternate universe where soulmates have matching marks, Dean is having zero luck finding his. Luckily, The Registry exists to help people just like him. This is the story of the day he met his match.

Title: Change

Rating: Not Rated
Word Count: 3k
Summary: When Dean was younger, he had a friend called Cas.

Title: Roots

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 37k
Summary: “After the apocalypse, Dean, Sam and Castiel settle into a gentler life, and Dean starts to make peace with the things that plagued him before 2009. Tentatively, carefully, he starts getting better.
But something lives in the woods, in the house; something calls to him in his dreams that crosses the lines between waking and sleep. Whilst trying to reconcile himself with himself, Dean finds himself wondering if the things he’s managed to build are really slipping away, or if the whole thing is just in his head.”

Title: Special Relativity

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 66k
Summary: Dean Winchester is one of the best Time Jumpers the Agency has. When the mysterious, never seen Director sends him to 2008 with only a name and a death date, Dean has one month to find his target and complete this solo mission. Finding the target was easy enough, Castiel Angelus ran right into him. Now if he could just keep Castiel alive until the death date without damaging the time line, Dean will complete this mission.

Title: Five Times Sam almost Caught Them (and one time he did)

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 5k
Summary: Sam and Cas are roommates. Dean is a selfish jerk who can’t clean up after himself or listen to anyone. Especially when Sam said “don’t try to screw my roommate, Dean.” Cas is so frigid Sam didn’t even think it would be an issue. Clearly he underestimated them both.

Title: Own a Bee Hive with You

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences

Word Count: 1k
Summary:Dean takes Cas out on a not-date and things get merry.

Title: The Demon’s Progress

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 5k
Summary: Dean is embracing the more fun aspects of this whole demon thing. Now he and Cas are at each others’ throats and Sam is sick of it.

Title: Day 7 – Morning!Sex : “Freckles”

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary: A lazy sunday morning in the life of Dean and Cas.

Title: 32 Seconds

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 11k
Summary: Castiel wakes up, but he knows he’s still in the wrong place.

Title: Making Breakfast

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 11k
Summary: The lazy morning after Sam and Jessica’s drunken engagement celebration. Everyone’s crashed at Dean and Cas’s house so it’s up to the hosts to make breakfast for everyone. (Really just an excuse for shameless kitchen fluff with a bit of smut thrown in for fun.)

Title: The Tighter the Ropes, the Closer We Are

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 6k
Summary: Five. He wanted five rounds. Dean had started to tremble again from the anticipation as Castiel explained it to him. There would be four denials before he would be allowed to come. Four times he would have to go through the settings of their favorite vibrator without release. There were ten small buttons on the small remote control, each with a number beside it, each designed to take Dean apart gradually, at the pace determined by whoever held it.

Title: Ink Stains

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 15k
Summary: Dean stops at the dilapidated exotic pet store and ends up taking home more than he bargained for.

Title: Chasing Normal

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 17k
Summary: Dean reevaluates his definition of an ‘apple pie life’ and what that means for him, personally.

Title: Some People Would Call This Romantic

Rating: General Audiences
Word Count: 5k
Summary: Castiel enjoys sunsets, long walks on the beach, and Dean.

Title: A Broken Man & The Dawn

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 45k
Summary: After his brother dies in a car accident, Jensen is left to take care of his newborn nephew - and he’s in over his head. Also, he has the feeling that the guy who just moved into the apartment next door hates him because of the crying baby that keeps him up all night. As it turns out, Misha not only has that set of mesmerizing blue eyes, but also a lot of intuition when it comes to fussing, cranky babies.

Title: In my Life

Rating: General Audiences
Word Count: 1k
Summary: Dean Winchester wriggles his chubby, bare toes in the cool grass, little hands fisting his green blanket cape as he stands next to his mother. At four years-old, he’s no stranger to grown up things. He knows all about love and paper money and sharing.That’s why he’s asked Cas to marry him.

Title: The Doctor Will See You Now

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 7k
Summary: Dean has a medical kink. Castiel is more than happy to oblige. Starring Castiel as the slightly unorthodox Dr. Novak who enjoys prescribing enforced chastity and daily tease and denial sessions, and Dean as his needy, submissive patient who will do anything for a chance to come.

Title: “The Novikov Self-Consistency Principle”

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 8k
Summary: Dr Jacob Glaser, astrophysicist and truth-seeker, has two unexpected visitors – one from several years in the past and the other from several years in the future. Copernicus never had to deal with this sort of crap.

Title: What You Paid For

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 29k
Summary: Castiel is an omega whose body has begun to reject suppressants after twelve years of continuous use. Faced with a hysterectomy or using an alpha service, he chooses the latter as much as he loathes the thought.

Title: Backup Generator

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: After a last minute change of plans, Cas comes home from a business conference in the middle of the night. Extremely tired, Dean encourages him to sleep in the car on the way home. But apparently after a short nap, Cas has much more energy than Dean presumed.

Title: When The Need Strikes

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 1k
Summary: Sometimes it doesn’t matter where you are, you just have to go for it.

Title: The Summer of Cas’ Discontent (Or: How Cas Got a Hot Lawn Boy & Lost His Mind)

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 29k
Summary: Cas is a well-off book editor who just wants someone to do his lawn work and landscaping. He gets more than he bargained for in the hunky 19 year old Dean Winchester and suddenly Cas is having trouble concentrating on much of anything else during a record heat wave.It’s going to be a long, hot summer.

Title: Hoarding Instincts

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 6k
Summary: In which Dean finds a homeless dragon at Starbucks and takes him home with him.

Title: When The Tension Breaks

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 2k
Summary: Cas and Dean need to do less intense staring and more stupid giggling.

Title: Giving You What You Need

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 6k
Summary: It had taken a long time to track Dean down, but now that Castiel was facing him, he wasn’t sure what to say.Sam was locking Crowley up in the trunk of the car, and Castiel was, momentarily, alone with Dean.He said the first thing that came to mind, “We can fix this.” His voice more strained than he’d prefer.“Who said it needs fixing?” Dean turned up the corner of his lip, smirking as he walked closer.

Title: First Risen

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary: Kieren awakens to a thumping sound, the sensation of touch, and his first erection in almost six years. Naturally, he panics.

Title: Your Eyes Look Like Coming Home

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 16k
Summary: Dean and Cas are two single men with pasts of heart ache and disappointment, neither believing that he is ready to enter a new relationship. But then Fate comes knocking, determined to prove them wrong, and creates a year of moments through which Dean and Cas meet and fall in love. In which there is a one-night stand that really isn’t a one-night stand, a field trip, baking, and a couple of guys who are just trying to figure it all out.

Title: Smells Like Roses

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 54k
Summary: Dean’s life is beautiful. He wants for nothing, has the pleasure of his family and friends, and is desperately, irrevocably in love with his husband. Everything is perfect, just as it should be.Then he wakes up.

Title: The Best Years of Our Lives, My Ass

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 111k
Summary: AU after Season 8, episode 6, “Southern Comfort.” Dean goes to sleep in a motel room in Texarkana, and he wakes up 17 years old, in his childhood bedroom in Lawrence, Kansas, 1996. He has no idea how he got there, why his parents are still alive, why his brother is an adorable freshman with no memory of his adult life, and why the only ally he has in this place is the angel he left behind in Purgatory – somehow also 17 years old. They have to get out, that’s the important thing. Only, falling in love with his angel wasn’t a part of the plan….

Title: Uninvited But Deeply Craved

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 74k
Summary: At 35 Castiel Novak is a successful professor, firmly established both in the academic world and a sought after voice in many recent gender debates. After a failed marriage he spent almost 15 years striving to get somewhere in life and there simply had never been time or an interest for romance. Not having a partner wasn’t something that ever bothered Castiel, but he can no longer shake the feeling of something lacking in his life. He decides that maybe it is time to have a child of his own. What he doesn’t want though is the hassle of a relationship. Egged on by his mischievous cousin he publishes a personal ad in a newspaper, looking for a young man to help him out.

Title: You Were Something I Never Expected

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 52k
Summary: Winchester familiars were extremely powerful and sought after, but Dean had always swore up and down that he would never be bound to a witch. Everything changes when he meets Castiel. Injured in his familiar form, Dean gets taken in by an out of touch witch. A whirlwind surrounds them as the shit storm that is Dean’s life begins to catch up with him, but there is no doubt in his mind that they will make it out in the end.

Title: There’s Only One Sure Thing That I Know

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 20k
Summary: Dean doesn’t even get halfway through explaining before Bobby starts laughing. When he lets himself think about it for more than five seconds, Dean can almost see Bobby’s point: he’s faced down demons, witches, vampires, werewolves, ghosts, angels, andSatan himself and now he’s been defeated by the God damn Midwest.

Title: Second Take

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 6k
Summary: "Jensen had been dreading this since the moment he read through the script.Destiel or DeanCas or whatever the fans called it nowadays was actually happening.He was going to have to kiss Misha fucking Collins.“***Wherein Destiel becomes canon, and Jensen and Misha face the consequences of their first kiss.

Title: Never Have I Ever

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 79k
Summary: When Jo drags Dean along to a game of "never have I ever” with her friends, he finds himself getting caught up in a lot more than just a game.

“Never have I ever hung out with such an asshole,” Dean countered, positively shocked at his own sass. Cas smirked again.“Oh, are we hanging out now?”

Title: A Practice In Improvisation

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 16k
Summary: "Castiel decides the best way to go about this is simply to be direct. So he looks straight at Dean and asks him “Dean, how can I be sure that I have sufficient prowess in varying forms of sexual activity?” Castiel might be an angel again but he hasn’t forgotten certain human curiosities. Which can be inconvenient. Until Dean offers to help him “practice.” Destiel. Season 9.

Title: Intimite Spaces

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 8k
Summary: Dean and Castiel are finally on their third date, and Castiel knows what is expected of them to do. Namely, each other. But the problem is: as much as Castiel loves his boyfriend, he has no interest in becoming sexually intimate with him.

Title: Convergence

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 270k
Summary: Dean’s pretty content with his life. He has his family and a really awesome group of friends. He has a son he would die for in a heartbeat. What more could he possibly want? Well, that’s going to change when a certain blue eyed angel comes into their lives.

Title: Heat

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 10k
Summary: When Dean - beautiful, strong, and next in line for Chief of the Earth Clan Dean - presents as an extremely rare male omega, he’s devastated. He’d trained all his life to inherit his father’s leadership role, but now due to old traditions he must choose between the right to bear and raise his own children or lead the clan. Beyond that, heats for unmated omegas are dangerous and often deadly, so he must choose a mate before his next heat. Castiel, in love with Dean since they were both little dragonlings, fights for the chance to fill that dire need.

Title: The Path of Fireflies

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 60k
Summary: After his humanity is restored, Dean wakes up in bed with Castiel, a wedding ring, and no memory of the past twelve years.

Title: What to expect when you didn’t expect anything

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 46k
Summary:Dean’s life had not been easy, but now he had started transition, was back in school and even had gotten himself a boyfriend he thought the hard part was over. Then a doctor told him he was pregnant.

Title: The Way You Do

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 3k
Summary: Without preamble, Cas blows a breath right over Dean’s lips and then raises his eyebrows, as if to say ‘see, nothing special, just air over skin, and the dice are stupid.’"I said if you do it right,” Dean says flatly. “And that was not right.”

Title: Heat Wave

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 40k
Summary: There’s an old cabin in the woods, a worn and weathered thing, tucked away from prying eyes and unwanted responsibility. Officially, it’s the Novak family’s summer vacation home, but for a few days during the summer after graduation, Cas and Dean make it their own, spending their days dozing and swimming and hunting for snipes. The heat is relentless, the mosquitoes even more so, and it’s the perfect place for Dean to settle into a niche he never thought he could fit.

Title: I’ll take that as a yes

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 14k
Summary: Dean’s a nude art model at KU and has loans to pay off before graduation. Castiel’s a photographer looking to finish his photography exhibition with a kinky hobby and a lifetime supply of hemp rope.

Title: Can’t Fight This Feeling Anymore

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 52k
Summary: Attempting to help Castiel embrace his newfound humanity, Dean embarks on a mission to finally get his friend laid. Plot derails quickly and some shenanigans and awkward sexual tension ensue.

Title: Shared Skies

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 10k
Summary: As the Southern Kingdom takes action to conquer the Four Kingdoms, it is up the Dean of Winchester, Alpha Prince of the West, to return order to the kingdoms. Is marriage to the Omega Prince of the North enough to stop on coming war, or will unknown forces bring about the end of peace between the four nations forever?

Title: Weddings Are Boring

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 9k
Summary: Dean meets Castiel at a friend’s wedding reception, and his boring-as-hell night turns out to be better than expected.

Title: Future Plans and Other Dumb Ideas

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 23k
Summary: Dean and Cas, college juniors, are quietly and deeply in love. With no worries bigger than passing their exams, their future together looks bright. Dean’s status as ChildBearer-Positive isn’t something either of them worries about; he’s on birth-control and they’re both conscientiously safe and sensible. One night of drunken celebration, however, proves that accidents can happen to anyone. After’s Cas’s casual revelation that he doesn’t want kids, a panic-stricken Dean hides the truth from himself as much as Castiel. An action that threatens his health and their relationship.

Title: Bottom Night

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary: Castiel is forced to use a female vessel until his usual one heals; Dean is a bit of a whiny guy because he misses having a cock up his ass… How does Cas handle this situation? Strap-Ons.

Title: Behind the Mask

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5k
Summary: Castiel isn’t exactly sure how Anna convinced him to come to this party. He hasn’t really been one for frat parties since he was a freshman. He adjusts his plastic devil horns and sips his drink until a bare arm slings heavy around his shoulder, prosthetic feathers jammed up against his side. “Guess we’re sticking together tonight,” the angel says with a beaming grin, and Castiel is falling.

Title: Kiss With a Fist

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: Cas decorates the bunker. It doesn’t go well. Until it does.

Title: Unintended

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 83k
Summary: Castiel is a successful defense attorney beginning to doubt the integrity of the work he does. After winning a date with a firefighter named Dean at a charity auction, Cas decides that he needs to make a change in his life. He just has one more case to take care of, but his involvement has devastating consequences.

Title: Somethin’ About Wild Horses

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 11k
Summary: “Guys, please,” Gabriel says. “This video has been requested literally thousands of times, by both of your fans. All of our viewers know how much you two hate each other, and everyone wants to know how that will affect a scene. Personally, I think you could both learn a thing or two from one another. You’re gonna have to put the bad vibes on hold for, like, three days, okay? Just until we finish shooting the scene. And then, if you still wanna rip each other’s throats out, I’ll film that, too.”

Title: Unknown Quantities

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 9k
Summary: No one ever tells Dean anything.(or: Dean Winchester and the not-relationship crisis of 2014)

Title: Sleepless in Lawrence, Kansas

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 50k
Summary: “Um, yes, hi. My name is Sam and I’m calling from Lawrence, Kansas.”A new voice… Castiel loved new voices. They always had new stories to tell.“Kansas… well, it’s not really midnight down there, is it? What keeps you up?” he asked.“I’m worried about my brother, Dean.”

Title: Operation Queer Things Up

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 14k
Summary: When Castiel is forced to return to her homophobic family’s home for her brother Michael’s wedding, her best friend and roommate Deanna offers to go with her as her pretend girlfriend to shield Cass from her mother’s attempts to set her up with a man. Which is totally selfless on Deanna’s part, of course. Because she is totally and completely straight and not at all in love with her best friend. Right?

Title: The Red Dragon

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 8k
Summary: Castiel lived on top of a Chinese restaurant. One day a deep rumbling voice drifted from the vents from downstairs, prompting Castiel to consume a copious amount of Chinese food just to find out who that voice belonged to.

Title: Butterbeer And Broomsticks

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 7k
Summary: Dean, Flying Instructor extraordinaire at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, has fallen head over heels for Castiel Novak, the criminally gorgeous Herbology professor. It’s definitely the most hideous man crush to ever grace the hallowed castle, and for Merlin’s sake Dean hopes that he’ll be able to bloody do something about it one of these days.

Title: All Worked Up

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 1k
Summary: Castiel’s tongue; Dean’s ass. No, seriously, that’s the whole story.

Title: That Summer

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 17k
Summary: Ten years ago Dean spent the summer working on Castiel Novak’s farm to earn some extra money. That was the most memorable three months of his life, and now that he has an opportunity to go back to that small town, he’s hopeful that he’ll meet Castiel again and maybe see if the old flame can be rekindled.

Title: Who Said You Could Waltz Off with my Heart?

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 24k
Summary: Dean isn’t excited when Lisa informs him they’re taking dance lessons for their upcoming wedding. Little does he know that everything in his life is about to change.

Title: The Cool Kids

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 24k

Summary: "He thought being dragged round the country most of his life was the worst. But growing up the way Cas did sounded like the real hell.“Dean and Sam lived a nomadic life thanks to their father who put his quest for vengeance in front of his children. Finally able to settle in with their Uncle Bobby, the boys can attempt to achieve some normalcy. What the boys didn’t expect was to be dumped into a town in the middle of nowhere where everyone knows everyone and being more "worldly” keeps you from being one of the cool kids.

Title: Dean Is Not a Brony

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 30k
Summary: There’s only one table left at the cafe, and Dean really really wants it, despite the guy that’s already heading for it.Wherein Dean makes an ass of himself to get the table, Cas is gracious, there’s a dog with an unfortunate name, and these two dorks figure out a relationship.

Title: Beautiful Loser

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 30k
Summary: Dean is an alpha, married to a beta. They have a good comfortable life that Dean loves, until a man pulls into Dean’s work and turns his world inside out.

Title: Castiel Gets a Lap Dance

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 3k
Summary: Castiel has been planning his sister’s bachelorette party for months. He’s ready to enjoy the evening from a comfortable distance. That is, until a freckled Adonis is suddenly straddling his lap.

Title: What Was Missing

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 6k
Summary: Castiel asks Dean a question that leads first to a long-overdue conversation about sex vs. love, then to some realizations on both their parts about the nature of their own relationship.(In which Dean and Cas talk about feelings, then stop talking to each other for a while, and finally, uh, talk with their bodies. Because fanfiction.)

Title: Funny Peculiar

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5k
Summary: Castiel holds the mic to his mouth and says, in a rough, sly voice that hits all of Dean’s buttons and then some, 'I look like a fucking nerd, don’t I.’
It’s such a bald statement of fact, it gets a laugh. Castiel’s lips curve upwards, and without quite meaning to, Dean leans forward to listen.
'I mean that literally, by way: I look like a fucking nerd, like a nerd who fucks. What! Don’t laugh at that, you judgemental prick,’ he says, grinning so there’s no sting in it as he points the mic at a chuckling guy in the front row, 'you think a guy in sweater vest can’t get some cock if he wants it? I’ll have you know, I had one whole boyfriend in high school. Yeah. I was hot property. You wanna talk about band geeks getting it on in high school, forget that American Pie flute insertion bullshit; ask a fucking gay hornist where he gets his embouchure.’

Title: Dancing in the Dark

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 70k
Summary: Technically, Pamela had introduced them. It was a bit of a twisting of the facts to look at it that way, but it was how Cas always told the story. Explaining what had actually happened usually led to a list of questions he preferred not to answer, that list growing longer depending on who was doing the asking, and it was just easier to say that Pam had been the catalyst. Generally, he left it at that. Dean, on the other hand, thought the real story was much more interesting.

Title: Cocoa

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary: " So yeah. Castiel is perfect. With him, Dean can see how stupidly mundane things like, putting frosting on cookies, wrapping gifts, Hell even buying those gifts. It feels awesome, because being with Cas’ always makes him feel lighter, happier. Right now he’s sprinkling glitter all over a christmas card he’ll give aunt Ellen for christmas, and even if it pains him to say so, he feels completely okay with the idea of spending the week-end playing with stickers and ribbons.“

Title: Long Time Coming

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 5k
Summary: He still has his towel wrapped around his hips, and just happens to look over to the mirror, frowning in confusion as he notes the way his belly kind of squishes up a little bit, forming a slight roll that he can’t remember having before. He straightens back up, and the roll immediately stretches back out until it’s all just normal looking skin. Without thinking, he turns sideways and pokes at the little pooch that seems to have taken up residence.

Title: In the Deep Midwinter

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 13k
Summary: Dean wrenched open the door to the cabin and stopped dead in his tracks. Sam had explained the situation to him on the phone, so Dean had known it was going to be bad, but this … this was pretty bad. The angel was naked to the waist. He wasn’t struggling and he was sort of breathing, and that was where the good news ended.Hunter AU. If there’s one thing a good hunter knows, it’s to stay away from angels.

Title: Traffic Jam

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5k
Summary: When Cas got stuck in the snow-induced traffic jam from hell, he never could have guessed he’d be in the warm heaven that was Dean’s bed by the end of the day. Yet, here he was.

Title: Rebecca - French Toast (written by my beautiful friend <3)

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 7k
Summary:People are going missing. The bodies that show back up are labeled as animal attacks by the local papers. But there’s something off about it.
Rebecca is on the case, and ends up needing a temporary partner.

Title: Finger Foods

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 7k
Summary: deanhugchester: I want fics about Dean and Cas eating each other’s food.

Title: Santa Baby

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary: Sequel to "Perks of Working in a Costume Store”. Cas asks Dean to come over, and it’s not what he was expecting. He’s not complaining, though.

Title: A Study of Anatomy

Rating: Mature
Word Count: 6k
Summary: Cas only wanted to study for his midterms.

Title: Cherry Lips (Go Baby Go)

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5k
Summary: A gratuitous smut fest featuring Cas in lingerie and other traditionally feminine clothing, and Dean fucking loves it.

Title: The 10th Day of Christmas: “I Don’t Want a Lot for Solstice”

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 23k
Summary: The tree catching on fire, Dean would maintain to the end of his days, had clearly been started by the squirrels. Or outlet overload, or outdated breaker boxes; possibly a frayed extension cord, or maybe a malfunctioning string of fairy lights. Not to mention Kevin Tran.It most definitely had not been caused by him and Cas.•In which Dean drives out to Palo Alto to stay with Sam over winter break, and meets Sam’s new co-op housemates, including comparative literature PhD candidate, fundamentalist cult survivor, and practicing witch Castiel Milton—which would all be confusing enough, if Cas weren’t also unfairly gorgeous, especially in cowboy boots.

Title: Big Hands, I Know You’re the One

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary: Me: You have the wrong number.
(785) 555-4217: SAM don’t b like this. In done with your ducking games man
Me: I assure you, I am not Sam.***Wherein Dean Winchester accidentally sends some drunken New Years texts to a dude named Castiel.

Title: The Blood of the Covenant

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 10k
Summary: In the candlelight, Dean remembers how he came to be a vampire’s consort.

Title: Every Color in the World

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 135k
Summary: Dean Winchester wasn’t a hipster. He just really really liked thrift shops.(Or)Once again the new kid in school, Dean is immediately noticed by the hipster crowd, who like his quirky clothes and bizarre personality. He’s not interested….until he catches sight of the blue-eyed stranger he’d met at a tag sale the day before.

Title: Puzzle Piece

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 571
Summary: In a world where your soulmate’s first words are imprinted on your forearm at birth, sometimes life can be confusing.Luckily for Dean, it’s not very hard to distinguish who his soulmate is.

Title: Snow Place Like Home (But My Home Is With You)

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 48k
Summary: It’s Christmas Eve, and Dean, Sam and Castiel are snowed into a small town with a big festive spirit. They splurge on a fancy room in a B&B – hey, they deserve a treat. There’s a tiny plastic tree and a working TV, so they could perhaps overlook the lack of hot water and Dean having to bunk with Sam. Sleeping arrangements soon reach a happier equilibrium: Dean’s just cuddling Cas to keep him warm, he swears – the tingly feeling means nothing! Christmas Day arrives, and Cas still doesn’t have a gift for Dean. Dean doesn’t know what to give Cas, either. Sam has a few ideas, but will the other two truly understand what he means?

Title: Against, Into, Under

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: "Oh, uh,“ he said. "Yeah. I’m Castiel. Cas, if you like.”“Cas,” Dean drawled. “I do like.” He stuck out his hand. Cas raised an eyebrow, but he reached out to shake. “I’m Dean Winchester.”“I’m aware,” Cas said dryly. “You’ve something of a reputation.”“I’m aware,” Dean agreed with a bright grin. “So which parts have you heard, good or bad?"Cas shrugged. "Some of both, I suppose.”

Title: Pine Fresh

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 2k
Summary: Castiel is stuck in the rain, depleted of his powers, and needs a bit of comforting. A hot shower is just the thing.

Title: Pink Panties

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: After Cas shows an interest in the Rhonda Hurley Incident, Dean allows Cas to experience the kink with him.

Title: Nowhere Else

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 10k
Summary: Between Cas’ lost grace, and Dean’s accidental confession to Sam, it’s been the same overbearing concern - that Dean really,really does not need - for weeks. He can focus on Cas and do his job at the same time. This is not the first case the two of them will work together, it’s not even the first case Cas has worked as a human. It may be the first case the two of them have worked alone since the whole 'I’m in love with Cas’ fiasco, but Dean’s a professional, he knows what he’s doing. They’ll be fine. Cas will be fine.

Title: A Little Patience

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 290k
Summary: It sometimes feels a little wrong thinking debauched things about a guy who could very well be one of Sammy’s teachers. But then those wrong feelings go up in smoke when the downright sinful fantasies kick in just from thinking the word ‘teacher’. Those are always pretty darn amazing and Dean has a very vivid imagination.

Title: Guest Bed

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 6k
Summary: Dean needs a place to stay to avoid listening to his brother have sex all night, so he crashes with Gabriel. Things get awkward when he ends up having to share a bed with Cas, and then suddenly, it’s a whole lot less awkward.

Title: Paper Hearts

Rating: General Audiences
Word Count: 1k
Summary: It’s the Thursday before Valentine’s Day, and Dean is putting paper hearts up around the school for his school’s Gay-Straight Alliance club. He and Cas are the only two left in the hallway. Fluff ensues.

Title: #ThankYouSammy

Rating: Teen and Up Audiences
Word Count: 10k
Summary: @honeybeeinatrenchcoat:
First official date with Dean! Sam made spaghetti bolognese! I don’t eat, but Dean does :-P #ValentinesDay2015 #ThankYouSam

Title: The Word

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: The horrible thing was, Cas had figured it out as soon as the word had come out of his mouth, startling Dean and stuttering the conversation to a halt.

Title: Race You

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4k
Summary: There was another car sitting under the red light. Dean had seen probably less than ten other cars on the road since leaving the city limits behind. It was a wide blocky gold car, a Lincoln Continental, and as Dean pulled up next to it he could feel his teeth rattle from the way too loud rap music blaring out of the open windows. Glancing over, there was a guy with messy dark hair in a white button down shirt sitting in the car looking forward. He had on a tie, his sleeves rolled up to the elbow, one tan forearm hanging out the window.The music changed to a new song, someone screaming “Turn down for what”. The hell was that phrase even supposed to mean. It made literally no sense. Dean scowled and cranked up his own music, Metallica’s “King Nothing” screeching out into the night to clash with this dude’s rap music.

Title: Buy Me a Drink First

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 57k
Summary: Dean wasn’t sure how he got roped into being Jo’s “bodyguard” for her bachelorette party. Maybe it had something to do with being promised a wild night of drinking? And he could do wild nights of drinking. But he hadn’t taken into account that bars in Chicago didn’t close until 4 or 5am, and Chicago was their destination. He also didn’t take into account shots of ‘Kinky’ at 7pm, monitoring nearly a dozen bridesmaids, and accidentally starting cat fights at a gay bar. Oh, and then there was a tall, dark and mouthy Russian named Castiel, or something, at the end of the night. Awesome.

Title: Oh, the Fun to be Had at a High School Reunion

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4k
Summary: Castiel Novak attends his 10-year class reunion only to run into Dean Winchester, who apparently still remembers him even though they never spoke in the few classes they had together.

Title: Harbor in the Tempest

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 20k
Summary: Ever since Dean bought Turner’s Tavern, he’s kept his doors open every night - rain, snow, whatever. After all, you never know when someone’s gonna stumble in needing shelter, right? Well, tonight, it’s a soaking wet, trench-coated stranger. Who also happens to be incredibly hot.

Title: It Only Leads to Trouble

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 3k
Summary: The door slammed, signaling Cas’ arrival. Dean smirked from his place on the living room couch, feeling more than a little pleased with himself. Looked like his plan to rile Cas up had worked perfectly.He jumped as Cas suddenly appeared in front of him. Cas looked pissed, glowering down at Dean, and for one moment Dean was sure that he was about to either punch him or pin him down to the couch and fuck his brains out.

Title: The Morning After

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4k
Summary: Dean blurts out some choice words during his and Cas’ first time.Sam and Cas have to deal with the fall out.

Title: First Comes Marriage

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 9k
Summary: In which Dean is crown prince of Winchester, and a political marriage is arranged.

Title: OH! Darling!

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 6k
Summary: Now that Castiel has fallen, Dean wants to let him know how much he cares about him. And if it takes two or three (or eight) tries to get it right, then so be it. Or, the seven times Dean tried to tell Cas he loves him and the one time he actually got it right.

Title: Hunting a Dragon

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 56k
Summary: Dean is hunting a creature no one has seen since the Old World. Even in those stories they were fables. Now he believes he’s found one in Castiel Novak. When he takes Castiel’s hospitality, his wine and food, the world loses as much meaning and his fragile grip on reality begins to slip.

Title: New Kitten

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 5k
Summary: A package Castiel ordered as a surprise for Dean arrives, and they have fun trying it out for the first time.

Title: Layover

Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 4k
Summary: Human/No Monsters AU. Dean and Cas, New Year’s Eve, and the dreaded holiday flight.

sooooo here it is guys! I hope you have fun with this. I will be posting another fic rec soon and there will be a new system. 

PS: Feel free to request specific rec lists :)

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Everything Wrong With Twilight: Forever Dawn

When writing, one of the most important things that a person must do is plan out what is going to happen. Of course, for many writers, these plans are sometimes forced to change. 

For instance, in Harry Potter, Rowling originally had the entire ending chapter written out, so that she knew where the seven books were going to be heading. However, somewhere around between the fourth and fifth books, Rowling realized that she’d written an epic plot hole, which caused much of the fifth book to be writing around it, and during the final books, everything had to change from plans.

Gravity Falls originally had the Cipher wheel as nothing more than a sort of decorative thing, but when Alex Hirsh saw the work, effort, and thought that people were going to in order to decode the thing, he eventually integrated it into the finale, even if it didn’t change anything in the end.

Lord of the Rings went through so many changes that the original plot ideas are almost unrecognizable. It’s one of the reasons that when people say that Jackson was building off of some notes on the Hobbit that Tolkien had been writing out for a rewrite, it doesn’t necessarily mean that they would have found their way into the rewrite, if there ever was one.

Plans change. That’s something that all writers have to understand. When you force a story to follow your original vision, you have major, major, problems.

And that was something that Meyer ended up doing.

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