what i do when im ill

anonymous asked:

So I'm neurotypical and trying to understand the spoon theory, what happens when someone runs out of spoons? What does a rest period entail, how would I write it?

Howdy!

Spoons for physical disability and spoons for mental illness do work a little differently. This’ll be a tutorial on spoons for mental illness.

When you run out of spoons, it’s basically the same as being mentally exhausted. Every person will has their own specific methods to deal with a lack of spoons, so I’ll go into some guidelines and some examples, and hopefully you’ll be able to make your own if you don’t find the perfect fit!

As a general rule, once you start getting low on spoons, the ability to act ‘’normal’’ goes wayyy down. Your characters will probably be less adapt at socializing and reading emotions, bright lights and loud noises will go from minor irritants to Big Problems. Characters who stim might take a break to go stim in the bathroom, or enact a soothing ritual of some kind. They might also isolate themselves so they don’t feel pressured to perform social labour.

You ever hear of someone bursting out into tears over a super minor inconvenience, like the wifi taking to long to connect? This sort of thing is most likely to happen when someone has no spoons left and isn’t processing things properly/ can’t hold back all the built up emotions or reactions anymore.

People who are low on spoons will probably try to stick to task that dont require too much mental engagement, like stimming or folding the laundry, or may nap or go to bed to recover some energy.

A couple of more specific examples include

Overstimulation is when your brain tries to process a bunch of stimuli all at once and glitches out. It’s common with autism, social anxiety, type 1 schizophrenia, ect. Basically you’ve had Too Much!!! To much what?? Talking, socializing, bright lights, noise, ect. You’ve run your brain ragged trying to keep up with stuff.

A rest period for overstimulation is going to involve quiet time like lying in a quiet, dark room for 15 or 20 minutes to let the brain get used to existing again. stimming, performing a soothing ritual, touching soft things or cuddling with a pet is also great!! Especially if you can keep the lights off for a while.

Say the character ran out of spoons because they were performing heavy emotional labour, like working retail or consoling a friend through a crisis? The character in question will likely feel intense exhaustion and lack of motivation to do anything but rest. Actual emotions may be hard to come by, instead replaced with numbness until they rest and recover some spoons

understimulation can also murder your spoon count. It’s basically when you haven’t had enough stimulation or distractions to keep the mind healthy. It’s more common with extroverted characters, but if youve ever seen space shows like voltron or star trek, I’d be worried about characters running into understimulation due to the limited space and people available. It can also happen when a character is isolating themself due to poor mood. Some gentle stimulation like watching youtube videos, or existing in a public space, even if they don’t interact with any strangers would be a good way of working that off

There arent too many resources on this exact subject, but this one is definitely worth a read!

I hope this is helpful! Let me know if there’s something I missed, or if you’d like more info.

@ anon [about what faiza and i are doing]

well, the world isn’t for us, i guess. we too obnoxious whatever we do. we try to educate - y'all attack us. we explain - y'all attack us. we defend ourselves - y'all attack us. so don’t be surprised when we openly ignore you because it is on y'all.

and don’t think i haven’t seen how many whites and other atheists hiding behind anon or behind that like button during this season. this how you protect your fellow women of colour and muslims/jewish ppl in real life? nah bye

tomorrow is gonna be a long day…morning is gonna be more renovation stuff, packing for the trip, and flying North East for the week. I’ll be an hour off but i dont think anyone is going to notice since we stay up very late when we visit family. when we get back we’ll have floors installed again ;;;;; i get to miss all the noise thank god. downside i dont travel well and neither do the alters. ill be up very late tomorrow bc we’re landing at midnight and knowing my grandparents we’ll have dinner and drinks when we land lmao

what im saying is my content is gonna be even more all over the place for a week. ah well hahah

Barry the BearBug

This is the same game with Dary the Dancing Goblin. Our party of a rouge teifling, a warrior half-orc, a wizard dragon, and a cleric human are hiding behind a rock in a cave. Further ahead we see a large bonfire with two goblins and a bearbug, and a wolf.

Me (tiefling): I’m gonna use my thaumagurgy cantrip. I wanna use it to make it sound like the goblins are talking shit.

DM: *nervous laughing* Ok, what do you wanna say?

Me: I close my eyes and concentrate on making the sound appear near the right of the bugbear, and it says “This bugbear is so stupid, I bet his mom was a whore”

DM: Um…ok, you do that and the bugbear starts to get pissed.

DM(as bugbear): WHAT DID YOU SAY ABOUT MY MOM ILL HAVE YOU KNOW SHE’S A VERY GOOD PERSON!!

DM (as Goblin 1): Wha- Barry we didn’t say anything, we were just sitting here!

Me (OOC): I can do this spell up to three times, right?

Me: I use the cantrip again to make it sound like the second Goblin is saying “Stupid piece of shit, I bet she was a piece of trash if she made you”

DM (as bugbear): He whirls around to the second Goblin, “YOU THINK IM STUPID HUH?? Well let’s see how stupid you are when you’re DEAD!!”

Me (OOC): Hey guys, remember when my character stole some Goblin arrows?

DM: Oh no.

Me: I load a goblin arrow into my short bow and hit Barry so it looks like the other Goblin did it. (Successfully rolls)

DM: Okay, so Barry the Bugbear is now enraged and starts smashing the face of the first Goblin. And the other Goblin grabs his weapon and I can’t believe I’m doing this…

He then proceeds to rp the whole fight, which ends with two goblins dead and a damaged bugbear. Our party gets found out by Barry when the half-orc smashes the wolf into pulp.

DM (Barry): YOU KILLED MY DOG!!! I’LL KILL YOU!

Half-orc: Bet that dog looked cuter than your mom.

We then got the bugbear to walk into his own bonfire and easily killed him.

DM: You know this was supposed to be a boss battle?

Me: Not anymore!

so little jeffmads things from hamilton in chicago :

- the first time they see each other they greet with like this secret handshake where instead of shaking they wiggle their fingers against each other (they then proceed to do this every time they go to handshake for the whole act)
- mads is the biggest deadpan hype man ever like his straight face comments in the background of jeffs rap battle
- when jeffs wants to fight hamilton (or literally anyone) mads like physically holding him back and calming him down
- jeffs before doing anything rash looks to mads and waits for his nod of approval before taking action
- when jeffs mike drops and mads like fans it off like its on fire
- casually touching each other all the time in the background
- when mads is coughing into the handkerchief he carries around everywhere and jeffs in the middle of “fight me” mode stops what he’s doing to immeditaly attend to mads
- leaning into each other’s space in room where it happens
- after the second cabinet battle jeffs all upset about gwash saying no and like he turns to mads who gives this like “ill take care of it motion” before sliding all up to gwash
- just all the time looking to each other whenever anyone does anything
- mads is jeffs voice of fucking reason im screaming
- in washington on your side like jeffs looks around for mads before starts singing and he’s off stage and when mads enters with “which i wrote” he does his like arm florish to present that mads has arrived then crosses the stage to drape himself over mads
- them being shifty bastards together like scheming and dancing around at Reynolds pamphlet
- the election and jeffs looking nervous about hamiltons answer and mads like fucking straightens his coat for him to calm him down like
- honestly this was so much i am so weak

im back in jeffmads hell guys be prepared seeing hamilton live has killed me

hunk engineer hc

its canon that hunk is an engineer so…

( @whales-are-gay because you made a post)

  • hunk freaking out about all the altean tech and how the castle is built
    • “THE CASTLE IS A SHIP HOLY SHIT!!!! HOW DOES THAT WORK”
    • hunk running around trying to figure out how the castle ship thing works 
    • trying to do all the math in his head running to grab the nearest pen and piece of paper for the parts he cant do in his head, calculating the thrust and lift and momentum whatever to get the massive ship in the air
  • hunk geeking out the first time voltron is formed because 
    • “it fits perfectly!!! and i know theres magic involved but i was a lion AND NOW IM A LEG? IM A LEG!!!!!”
  • “ItS SO B  eAUT IFU  L!!!”
  • hunk likes to take everything apart and coran screams the first time he sees him do it
    • “HUNK MY BOY WHAT ARE YOU DOING??!? THA- oh!… youre putting it back together and it works ten times better now…huh…”
  • hunk building completely unnecessary and overly complicated things that have no actual use 
    • like he makes this whole contraption that allows the paladins to serve themselves food goo from the kitchen while being in the break room or something. its a whole system
    • “why?” they ask him.
    • “because i can,” he responds
      • shiro, pointing to lance, keith and pidge on the couch:  youre just making them lazier
      • lance: let me enjoy my break room food goo
  • or sometimes he makes small meaningful things like a tiny robot that pidge helped him program that delivers flower to the paladins rooms every morning
    • he just want to give everyone some love
    • he is a sweet boy
  • coran teaches hunk and pidge the ways of the castle
  • hunk is working on something
    • he lays down on the floor and stares at the ceiling with pidge next to him
    • hunk: its not working!!
    • pidge: did you-
    • hunk: yes
    • pidge: what about-
    • hunk: YES!! if i fix this then that breaks if i fix that then something else goes wrong
    • lance brings him blankets and snuggles up with him until hunk has his eureka moment and starts working again
    • lance is sad his cuddle buddy is gone
  • when theyre designing the teludav hunk is shouting out ideas and everyone is like “please slow down!!” 
    • only pidge and coran can follow along and write everything down as fast as they can
  • hunk cries when he sees the final blueprints for the teludav
  • hunk being salty about not being able to stay with the olkari to help build the teludav
    • “why do they get all the fun???…i have to go into a worms gut!!”
  • hunk going insane when he sees the teludav finished
  • UGLY  s O bbING 
  • GENIUS ENGINEER HUNK
this is why hiveswap excites me

When hussie actually fuckin gives it to us, all the big gamers will do lets plays and people will watch and want to go play and you cant fully understand the game and the references in it without reading homestuck first so those people will go and read homestuck. It will become popular again. there will be a whole new generation of fans. theyll go lurk on youtube and find all the broadway karkat songs and we’ll have hundreds of newbies screaming the lyrics to karkalicious at cons. theyll go make their own cosplays and maybe now we can have more than 50 homestuck cosplayers at con meetups. theyll all go through the bucket joke phase. theyll start saying gog and jegus. theyll all swoon and drool over karkat and have fights about whether gamzee and eridan were bad characters or not. theyll all go look for faygo and tab in their local stores. we’ll have a whole new generation of homestucks doing what we used to do and im so excited for the wave of nostalgia for the 2012 homestucks who went through the first wave of it

but what excites me the most is that there will be even more new homestuck artists, fansongs, cosplayers, inside jokes, and more. there will be MORE. ntm theres gonna be new stuff relating to hiveswap too, so twice the new content from fans!! idk this stuff just really excites me because i came in late, april 2015. i missed the time when homestuck was popular. now ill finally get to experience it and it makes me so happy

hiveswap will be the homestuck fandoms resurrection i can feel it. itll be alive and well again :D

So this is an original song I wrote, which tbh was pretty inspired by the Love Square™. I can imagine all sides of the Adrien and Marinette singing this too each other honestly. Sorry if I’m not the best singer !

Baby Mine

Lay with me
Underneath the shade of this tree
And just imagine whatd it be like
To give it all up on a free ride

Lets go out today
Skip the sidewalks in the streets we play
Close our eyes and count to fifty
hold my hand when ya start to miss me

Oh baby mine
Look what you do to me
We’re a messy pair, a little more than weird
And yet I wont stand it if you arent here
Oh baby mine
How could I resist?
When you stare at me,
like Im all there is
Baby Mine x2

Stay the night
We’ll be doing more than pillow fights
Dont make a sound, or we’ll get caught
My Pops’ll decide if thats fun or not

Dont worry babe
Hold onto me we’ll simply sway
Youve got two left feet, and Ive got two more
But that wont stop us on that dance floor

Chorus

And as I see you there
Admit it, we’re quite the pair
Somehow it all works out
And nothing would ever compare

to my baby mine
Look what you do to me
Ill be by your side
When you need me there
If you’ll have me
Baby mine
How could I resist?
I’ll give it all to you, if you tell me this
Baby mine

3

Im finally getting a hang of these two

moodboard based on url

yes thats right im making moodboard aesthetics based on your url. if your url is fandom based perfect, if its not its okay, ill make a moodboard based on what i think of when i see your url or through browsing your blog. 

  • must be following me, this aint free labour (im actually joking i never check who follows me or not so its all up to you)
  • send me an ask with one song, it could be anything, current or not (this wont affect your moodboard i just need song recs)
  • reblog this post, its free advertising for me (im joking i just want a lot of moodboards to do so spread the word)
  • it might take me a little while to do all of them, ill be doing them slowly but i will do all of them

yo so i just tried to kill myself then my roommates when i got out alive from the mental hospital for one week were like ‘we’re evicting you bc your mental illness is too much to handle’ and im SCRAMBLING to find housing, my parents are unsupportive, and i really need help. pls donate to me on paypal emi.serna1@gmail.com or “signal boost”, as it were, bc i really am stuck in an extreme shitpile of stress and idk what to do about it ive been unemployed for like 5 months and now is the time when i really really need help so badly

overreact.

klaus mikaelson x reader 

prompt: seeing another woman all over your boyfriend has you fuming, klaus takes it upon himself to show you who he belongs to. 

warnings: swearing, smut + daddy kink. (loosely edited.)

the champagne glass in your hand felt heavy as you watched on. people around you bustled but you paid them no mind, instead your sight was fixated on the scene in front of you. another mikaelson ball was in attendance and you donned a beautiful gown, even surprising yourself with how well fitting it was - classy and just the right amount of trashy for you to feel like a goddess. 

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I am going to break, some time soon, im not sure when but I do know that my mind is almost saturated in all the shit, when I do I really hope you realise what you have fucking done to me, I hope you finally realise that what you do has consequences

shawolstarlight  asked:

Hey cutie! Could you please do The8 from friends to lovers, if you have time. I love him so much so I would be super happy if you could do this request ❤❤

of course i can!!! and thank you for the other messages you’ve sent me cheering me on,,i have them all saved mwah~~
find woozi (here), wonwoo (here), s.coups (here), dk (here) & joshua (here)

  • you guys became friends after an argument,,,,,,,,,literally,,,,,,,
  • there was only one popsicle in your favorite flavor left at the 7/11 and you most certAINLY weren’t going to give it up to this random,,,tall,,,,,,,skinny boy,,,,,,,,
  • and the8 was glaring daggers back at you because his hand was already on the treat
  • and you’d tried to reason that you’d been in the store longer,,,,,,while the8 explained that his hand touched the popsicle first
  • and you guys could have literally stood there for the next hour,,,,but thankfully fifteen minutes later the manager came by and took the popsicle and dropped in the hands of a kid waiting near the counter
  • and before you or the8 could as much as speak, the kid was already unwrapping it and taking his first bite
  • that episode ended up with you and the8 standing outside if the 7/11,,,,,,,without popsicles,,,,,,,,,pouting simultaneously 
  • you both blamed the other person and left pissed,,,,,,,only to find each other again the next evening in the same 7/11,,,,,,,,
  • and basically this became a habit,,,,,,,you and the8 seeing each other in this grocery store and always getting into a little argument over cereal brands or soda preferences 
  • until it just became playful sarcastic banter and ,,,, you two actually started enjoying seeing each other,,,,,,,to the point where,,,maybe you weren’t 7/11 enemies but you know,,,,,,,,friends
  • and ok so maybe a couple of times you guys even walked home together from the 7/11,,,maybe bought some snacks together from street vendors,,,,,,,,maybe exchanged numbers,,,,,,,,,
  • ok you guys are friends LOL even if sometimes the8 teases you when you ask for bites of his food and he’s like oH are we buddies now??? and you’re like b OY you snapchatted me like an hour ago to invite me to hangout with you yes we’re friends now give me your food-
  • but one day you bump into the8 on a day where you didn’t plan to hangout together but,,,,,,you know he comes over to you and you’re in the supermarket looking confusingly at vegetables and the8 is like ruffling your hair and asking you whats up
  • and you’re like,,,,,,,,,,i have to cook something,,,,,my friends sick and i want to make him soup but,,,,,,,idk,,,,,,,how to do that,,,,,,
  • and the8 raises an eyebrow and is like “him? friend? boyfriend?” and you’re like LOL no,,,,,,,,i wISH,,,,,,but yeah no can you put eggplants into a soup-”
  • but before you can pick up anything, the8 puts his hand over yours and is like “ill help you. no need to ask, i can see the desperation in your face” and you’re like heY DONT make fun of me rn,,, and he just smirks and takes your basket and starts filling it up with all these ingredients as you follow him around
  • and you ask him what this and that is and he’s like don’t worry, i know what im doing. trust me
  • and you don’t know,,,,,,how much you can,,,,,but the8 might be more helpful than a recipe off the internet so when you guys buy everything you invite him over
  • and for a moment,,,,,you don’t catch it,,,,,but the8 clears his throat with nervousness because,,,,well honestly this is his first time over at your place like this,,,,,, but he puts on a cool face and is like ok ok where’s your kitchen
  • and it’s cute,,,,,he makes some comment on how it’s a little messy but he expects it from you and you’re like HEY AGAIN WITH THE TEASING and he just laughs and you’re watching him,,,,,,,prepare everything like some kind of pro
  • and he’s got his sleeves rolled up as he’s dicing vegetables and he looks,,,really handsome and you’re like no no no whaT are you thinking this is the boy who has embarrassing nicknames for you and you get into petty arguments with him,,,,,,,but,,,,,,,,
  • and you look to see his concentrated gaze, how lean but still athletically built he is and you’re like oh ,,,,, oh no
  • and suddenly the8 is like “napkin,,,,can you hand me one,,,im sweating -” and you’re like oH right!!! and you get some from a shelf and come over carefully, dabbing at the sweat above his eyebrows
  • and the8 freezes because,,,,this is the first time you’ve touched him like this,,,,and before you know it your eyes meet and you stop too and ,,,,,,the8 is looking at you,,,,,intensely,,,,,and you can feel your cheeks heat up but you can’t???? look away either???? it’s like a spell is cast over you too
  • and the8′s vision flickers down to your lips than back to your eyes
  • and it’s like a scene out of a movie,,,,he puts down the knife he’s using for chopping and you put down the napkin and he’s suddenly so close,,,close enough for you to feel his breathing on your skin and,,,,,,,,then it’s like this situation calls for only one action,,,,,and when his lips settle on yours,,,,,,,,,,,,
  • it feels like the kitchen and the world has melt away
  • and ,,,,,,,,,, who knew about all this tension,,,,, between you two but also this ,,,,emotional attachment you two had grown and didn’t even know about,,,,,
  • but when the8 pulls back and you’re both staring at each other again you’re like ,,,, stuttering over your words but trying to say you need to hurry up you told your friend you’d come over by 8
  • and the8,,,,,in the most serious tone goes “ill go with you.” and you’re like ??!???? why,,,,,and he’s like “i don’t want you taking care of another man, ill help you out so he knows you’re just being a good friend.”
  • you want to roll your eyes,,,,,but also the words make you feel excited and you poke the8′s back as he’s cooking again and you’re like ,,,,,, “hey,,,,,,,,does that mean you’re the man i can take care of?~~” and he’s like HA i think you’d just make me more si-” but before he finishes he turns to see you pouting again and he pulls you into another hug and is like im joking, of course from now on : only take care of me, and ill only take care of you.” 
Teen Years Headcanons

-Omegas in their late teens going through a phase of “all Alphas are stupid and I’ll be just fine if I never mate with one” and that phase ends the day they come home from school and gush to their Omega parent about an Alpha they just met “he’s way different than the other Alphas, I’m sure of it mom” and the Omega parent just nodding along while their child chatters on

-An Omega trying to hide a relationship from their parents and panicking when they can’t get the Alpha’s scent off of them…only to find out their Omega parent already knew, because mothers know everything, and they help them get the scent off before their Alpha parent gets home. But they do tell their Omega child that they expect to meet the Alpha soon

-An Omega being very introverted and having to be practically dragged from their nest to be made to go out and socialize because “at this rate you’ll never meet a decent Alpha”

-An Alpha in high school who has trouble focusing on school work and is always turning their work in late while their Omega sibling gets straight A’s. They refuse to ask their sibling for help though because they are too proud to admit they need it, their Alpha parent tries to help but they don’t handle it any better and finally their Omega parent just sits down and helps explain it to them

-Alphas struggling a lot with their newfound aggression and getting in trouble a lot with both their school and their parents for getting into fights

-Angsty teenage Alphas dramatically deciding they are too aggressive and temperamental to love someone, and their parents are kind of sympathetic…but they also want to tell the Alpha to suck it up and quit brooding needlessly

-Hormonal Omega teens getting upset a lot so whenever their Alpha parent approaches a room and catches a whiff of angry Omega pheromones they will back up slowly and then send their mate in to deal with it because they don’t want to be yelled at again just for being an Alpha

-Beta teens going through emo phases because “in the grand scheme of things, we don’t matter as much as the other dynamics”

-Omega mothers establishing “family nights” because they miss having all their babies in one place, everybody participates and nobody complains because its very obvious how much the Omega loves it

-Overprotective Alpha parents being worried when their Omega teenager goes out with friends so they pace the living room and repeatedly check out the blinds until they get back, the whole time their mate just sits on the couch watching on in amusement