So I keep thinking about Aaron potentially going to prison….and I keep having these thoughts about how Robert would cope with Aaron inside (I touched on this a little bit here), and something @godamnarmsrace said got me thinking about a moment between Robert and Chas.
I imagine Aaron has been inside for a while, maybe a few weeks, maybe a month. And he’s struggling to cope. He feels sad and lonely and he’s scared and self-loathing, desperate to come home soon.
And I picture Robert visiting him, as he always does, as much as he’s allowed. And one time he visits on a particularly bad day for Aaron, and Aaron can’t pretend he’s doing “okay” anymore. I can imagine Aaron getting a little tearful, and finally being brutally honest about how much he hates it inside.
And Robert hates it too. It absolutely breaks his heart to see his husband in such a state, but Robert knows he has to be strong. That’s the role Robert has played from the moment Aaron got sent down; he knows he needs to be strong and positive. He’ll almost make out that Aaron being inside isn’t too much of a big deal, because he’ll be home soon. And he’ll always do his best to keep Aaron’s spirits up, to tell him about how things are going with the Mill, making sure he’s being really positive and giving Aaron a lot to look forward to when he eventually comes home.
But inside Robert is breaking. He feels absolutely broken and devastated that he can’t magic Aaron out of prison and make everything okay. But he keeps that brave face on, to the point where he even gets a little smile out of Aaron by the end of their visit, but as soon as Robert turns his back on Aaron to leave, his face falls, and he is once again crushed to have to leave Aaron alone like that.
I found our conversations from 5 months ago
The ones from 6am
The ones where we didn’t actually fall asleep until everyone else woke up
The ones where you’d actually communicate with me
The ones where you’d tell me everything that was on your mind
The ones where you’d ask what was wrong because I didn’t seem happy
The ones where you were actually happy
The ones where I was actually happy.
Was I not enough for you?
Did you get bored of me?
Tell me what happened, please. Because I’m dying to hear
I want to go back to the way we were
What did I do till 6am today? I learned to play Magic the Gathering from @eternal-nova and @princess-brotato not pictured is Stephen’s head, though you can see his arms and legs 😄 I might have developed a new obsession.
Wow, i wish i could wake up that early :o what did you do? I mean, to wake up at 6am (sorry aah i just want to talk to u cause youre so cute and make me feel calm sorry aahhh)
im really naturally a morning person, i woke up early since i was a little child (i am really not an afternoon person,, i get so sleepy and unfocused then).. i have an alarm set but i can’t sleep in anyway, i’ve slept through my alarm before but only by 20 minutes usually.. if i could i’d go to bed at 9pm and wake at 5am. i love being awake when no one else is and going running super early in the morning when it still feels fresh and cold from night time. (its okie ! its fun :3c )