what i am willing to do

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What we take for granted about our sense of self, everything we see, everything we remember, is nothing more than a construct of the mind.

January told me that just because a new year starts doesn’t mean a new me has to start.


February showed me that I am worthy of being loved.


March exposed me and all my worries and insecurities, and made me stronger by beating me down.


April taught me that sometimes other people see parts of yourself better than you do, but they may not always see the dark parts.


May spread me so thinly that I felt as if I were a drop of rain trying to cover an entire sidewalk.


June set me up; sometimes people are terrible, terrible creatures, and they’re willing to twist things however they need to in order to get what they want.


July presented me with an opportunity to prove that moving on doesn’t mean letting go.


August allowed me to rebuild parts of myself I thought I had lost.


September erased me; once again I would be a blank slate, and that haunted me for days.


October held me up for the world to see; I was now a part of something bigger than myself, something bigger that could make a difference.


November terrified me, showed me that out of sight did not mean out of mind, told me I was still in love even though I tried so hard to let go.


December let me know that just because the year is coming to an end doesn’t mean I have to as well.

anonymous asked:

Religious people have no home in your fandom, do they? I constantly feel ostracized by you fans for being Mormon. But I'm still a fan of yours. Where is my safe place within this fandom?

Considering I myself am religious, and have consciously made an effort to never make fun of a religion, I’m not sure what you might be referring to. It is possible to have a faith in a higher power and still be open to everyone and how they identify and/or live their life. As long as you, yourself, are open, accepting, willing to learn of other people’s experiences, and not judge others, I see no reason why others that follow me wouldn’t be just as accepting of you as well.

i was terrified of doing this in undergrad, and now that i’m asked to write them fairly often, i am fondly exasperated when my students don’t know how to ask for them. obviously there’s no single way, but here’s the way i usually do it.

THE FIRST EMAIL

  • should be short & should mainly be asking whether they’re willing to write you the letter
  • should provide only the basics - what the professor absolutely needs to know.
    • the position you’re applying for
    • when the letter would be due
    • optional: if you’re afraid they won’t remember you, a quick line identifying yourself & your relation to them
  • i like to provide an “out,” in case they don’t want to or are unable to write the letter

SAMPLE
Dear Professor X,
I’m applying for a job as an English tutor at the University Student Resource Center, and was wondering if you’d be willing to write me a letter of recommendation for the position. [optional identification: I really enjoyed taking English 300 with you in Winter 2016, and I’m hoping to develop and pass on those skills to other students through this job.] The letter would be due by September 1st - I know you’re very busy, so I completely understand if you’re not able to write one. 
All best,
Your Name

THE SECOND EMAIL

  • they said yes!! amazing.
  • this one can provide a little more information – a link to the job posting, if there is one, or you can write a quick summary of the position, plus a sentence or two about why you’re excited/interested in the job.
  • also tell them where to send the letter!! 
    • directly to the recruiter for the job
    • to you, to add to your application packet
    • upload to an online LoR service or to an application website
  • 99% of the time folks are fine with receiving electronic copies, but if they need to mail a hard copy, let them know up front.

SAMPLE:
Dear Professor X,
Thank you so much! I really appreciate it. Here’s the link to the job listing; the letter should be sent as a .pdf file to the email address at the bottom of the page, anytime before 9/1. Thanks again – I’m hoping that this job will provide me with some teaching experience and the opportunity to work on my own writing. Please let me know if you need any more information!
Best, 
Your Name

WHEN TO SEND A FOLLOW-UP

  • these stress me out real bad but here’s the deal: most professors have a very shaky relationship to deadlines (especially when they have half a dozen more important ones than your piddly LoR). 
  • the upshot: do not be afraid to nudge them. 
  • often they need the nudge and are appreciative of it.
  • when that nudge happens is up to you and how much room you’ve given them before the deadline, and it’ll look different depending on your relationship with that professor.

GRAD SCHOOL LETTERS

  • i offered to send my professors essays that i had written for their classes, especially if i had taken those classes more than a year before asking them to write the letter, just so they could refamiliarize themselves with my work. you can also offer to send them your writing sample, if you haven’t already asked them to look it over for you.
  • honestly i’d recommend asking for these in person bc it’ll give you a chance to talk to them about their grad school experience and your own hopes & aspirations, which will help them write a more personal, fleshed-out letter.
  • one important note: if this letter is intended for use in grad school applications, do not stress out if it’s a little late. most programs do not care, and pretty much all of them accept late letters without a problem. your professor’s ability to meet deadlines does not reflect on you, and professors are intimately familiar with running late on LoRs. they really honestly don’t care. as long as it gets there before too long, you’ll be fine.
  • thank-yous are up to you! keep in mind that many departments have policies about gift-giving. i did give thank-yous to my three major letter writers, but they were handwritten cards & homemade cookies, nothing store-bought or expensive.

do you know in the darkest hour part 2 when lancelot and merlin went back to the knights and arthur but lancelot walked in first solely to give arthur a panic attack that merlin was dead, only to have merlin walked up five seconds later?? what assholes. what honest to god jerks. i love it. they literally planned that out. they stood outside that ruined castle, about to walk in together, but then one of them was like “wait wait wait, hang on. dude. i got an idea. everyone will go crazy.” and i am willing to bet all the money i have on this earth that it was lancelot’s idea

When a man asks you about an ideal arrangement:

Well, good question. My ideal arrangement is where we are both comfortable with each other. You get a bit of what you want  and I get a bit of what I want. You get to be with a sexy, romantic, vibrant, mature, and (sexual girl) who’s also charismatic, and intelligent, etc and I get to be with a man who is willing to provide financial need in my life. I want to feel like a queen and a man who can invest in me is a keeper in my book. I am open to intimacy eventually. I am happy with per meet or monthly allowances. I do like cash though. I am happy per meet when we are platonic, and then when intimacy is involve and you see my sexual side, I am happy for a monthly allowance (of course money raised). I have been doing this for a good amount of time to know what I want. Per meet, I am totally comfortable of minimum _____. I would like to know if you are willing to let me see other men because if so, then monthly will just be doubled but if not monthly will be around ____. (Remember the more you invest in me, the more luxurious I can be for you and the more “prettier” I can be ;).

  • What she says: I'm fine.
  • What she means: Logan Huntzberger stood up to his family in Season 5 because he wanted to be with Rory and they'd only been dating for a week. He stormed out of the house because they said Rory couldn't marry into their family. He then proceeded to date Rory for three years. They lived together and he proposed to her. Later, he also decided to walk away from the family business and get a career of his own. Logan was willing and able to do all of that 10 years ago. Why would he care what his family thinks about who is marrying now? He's 34 years old. And when we left him in Season 7, he had cut off all ties with his family. It doesn't follow that the man who loved Rory enough to give her anything she wanted wouldn't leave Odette to be with her because of the Huntzberger dynasty. How does that make sense? And why wouldn't Rory, who never had a problem asking Logan for what she wanted, say something? She asked him out. She told him she couldn't do casual dating anymore. She's always pushed to make their relationship what she wanted it to be, and she's somehow lost that ability at age 32? Why have both of these characters regressed so dramatically from where they were more than 10 years ago? And if it was going to be written that way, why do we have no insight into their thoughts and motivations? Why don't we know why Logan won't stand up to his family? Why don't we know why he's working for his father again? Why don't we know why Rory won't ask him to leave Odette? Did ASP forget how to write these characters? Could she really not suck it up and watch Season 7 so the characterization was consistent?

All right I got like five requests to tell the story of the Shakespeare Mansplainer, so: 

Today I went to the bookstore to buy the Arden edition of ’Tis Pity She’s a Whore because I need it for one of my term papers. But I looked at my punchcard and realized buying it would get me a free book, and because I’m standing right there in the drama section I start browsing around. Enter the Mansplainer. Now, I can only assume that this guy saw me flip through a few books and put them back and decided I didn’t know what I was doing. Mansplainer to the rescue. Up he swaggers. Now, this guy is average-looking but so am I, so at first when he says, “Oh, are you looking for some Shakespeare?” I’m willing to entertain the possibility that he might be worth flirting with or at least talking to, but he literally doesn’t give me enough time to even answer the question before he says, “You know–” And this is like, the most fatal phrase in a dude’s vocabulary, because as soon as he says it odds are 90 to one he’s about to start telling you what he thinks you don’t know. So I shut my mouth. I shut my mouth and I stand there and smile and nod like I’m in utter awe of all his manly wisdom while he proceeds to tell me every wrong “fact” he learned about Shakespeare in secondary school. For those of you who don’t know me, here’s what makes this hilarious: I’m getting a master’s degree in Shakespeare. I’ve been a Shakespearean actor for ten years. I’ve written a fucking book about Shakespeare. I know more about Shakespeare than this guy knows about breathing.

Anyway, for two, maybe three minutes I let him go on about how the balcony scene in Romeo and Juliet is actually a sonnet and they were both like thirteen because that’s how young people got married in England in the 1700s and so on and so on. (All of this is wrong, by the way.) Towards the end he starts to flounder, because he was clearly expecting me to jump in and start cooing like a fucking pigeon about how romantic it all is or whatever the Great Mansplainer expects a woman to do when he dazzles her with his dizzying intellect. He finally finishes with a showstopping, “So, yeah.” And this is my cue. So I say, “Actually,” and then proceed to correct literally everything he said while I beam at him like the fucking sun because I want to watch his ego shrivel up like a fucking raisin. And it does. By the time I’m done (which only takes half the time because if women take up more than 25% of a conversation men think they’re dominating it and I’m 100% certain his little Mansplainbrain would just explode under the stress) he’s physically taken two steps away from me and is looking toward the door like he’s grappling with some intense fight-or-flight instinct. So I stop and smile again and because I just can’t resist I wave my staff pass and say, “Sorry, I need to go now, I have to be at the Globe in twenty minutes.”

And that is the story of the time a guy tried to mansplain Shakespeare to me and I will cherish the look on his face until the day I die.

sana literally has the biggest heart and is so so so caring. she’s the type of person who sees people, she notices things, even the smallest details, she knows when something might be wrong. she has that sixth sense because she’s so genuinely caring and loving. she wants the people she cares about to be okay and well. and she’s grown to care about isak. she wants to make sure he’s doing okay because she understood in the past few weeks that some things were going on in his life. she doesn’t know exactly what, she doesn’t know about everything, but still, she understood, felt, that isak might need support. and with her asking him if everything is okay, she’s letting him know she’s here, she’s willing to be here and i am so so so glad isak has someone like sana by his side 

Let me put it this way:

I don’t, nor have I ever, or will I ever, follow the three fold law or anything similar, but even if I did, and even if cursing Nazis came back at me to ruin my life? I don’t care. 

I would gladly take what ever consequences the universe has for me if it means stopping a Nazi. 

And to any and all of you who suggest that I shouldn’t curse a Nazi based on the fact that it might come back around to me, you obviously have a clear lack of understanding of who I am as a person.

People have sacrificed their lives to stop these scum from spreading, so you can damn well bet I’m willing to sacrifice my “good standing” with cosmic justice to curse one of these mother fuckers. 

This is of course assuming the universe somehow considers it a bad thing to curse a Nazi in the first place. 

You fluffy bunny bullshitters always forget the “do what you will” part of the rede when it’s convenient for you. 

Canon vs Fanon
  • Canon Maka: Easily frustrated but very intelligent and feisty. She cares a lot about her friends and tried to be the strongest person in every group
  • Fanon Maka: Overly intelligent, can't make mistakes. Also, her entire motivation has to do with her fluctuating cup size
  • Canon Soul: I care a lot about my friends, even if I tease them and always make sure Maka is safe
  • Fanon Soul: I aM a pARTY AnimAL heeeey
  • Canon Black⭐star: Arrogant but strong. Starts out annoying but develops into a trust worthy man.
  • Fanon Black⭐star: Can only speak in screams
  • Canon Tsubaki: Shy and sweet. Very emotional and overall the support
  • Fanon Tsubaki: boobs
  • Canon Kidd: Challenged by mental illness at times. Very order driven and a strong personality. Seeks the truth and attempts to do what's right, even when he must defy basic morals
  • Fanon Kidd: MY OCD IS MY PERSONALITY
  • Canon Liz: Her top priority is her younger sister. She's willing to do anything for her and a lot for Kidd, even if she doesn't want to admit it.
  • Canon Patty: Ditzy and light hearted. Sweet and loving but threatening when she needs to be. Childish but skillful
  • Fanon Liz and Patty: A single entity. Accessories for Kidd. Not even really their own people
  • Canon Crona: Emotional and physical abuse led to an emotionally unstable teen. Unpredictable with fluctuating morals. Very physically strong, but mentally weak
  • Fanon Crona: LET'S PLAY GUESS THE GENDER

my favorite clone wars episodes are the ones where Padme is like “Bail! I need you to come with me on a very important mission for the Galactic Senate!” and Bail is like “Yes of course, Padme. I am always willing to assist my fellow senators in diplomatic missions” and then she hands gives him a gun is like “Cool, meet me at the docks at 1:30am. tell no one. wear quiet shoes and dark clothes”

poor Bail, I swear this woman tried so hard to kill him

karis-the-fangirl  asked:

'Oh no I'm suddenly responsible for this small creature/baby' au?

hahaha this clearly happens to Finn and Rey all the time. They both have hearts that account for ninety per cent of their bodyweight; they are starved for love, and yet only what to give it out – they were hurt and hurt and hurt and their response was not I am in pain thus everyone else should be but I am in pain and no one else should be ever again. Finn helped Slip up every time he fell; Rey was willing to risk starvation rather than trade an innocent droid in for scrap. And so these two orphan angels will take in strays of any species or form. 

So, do you remember that post which theorises that human beings are best known for having really messy pack-bonding instincts that get absolutely everywhere and lead to them forming attachments to dangerous predators, inanimate objects and droids with knives typed to them? I believe that wholeheartedly. Poe epitomizes it completely: he will make friends with everything and everyone. Finn & Rey, on the other hand, will take it to An Entirely New Level. Because they will see anything – absolutely anything – that is Small and Vulnerable and announce that Yes this is Their Child now and They Will Care For It. 

what do you mean Poe why can I not keep this small and helpless rathtar look its mummy is dead and I must care for it and Poe is trying not to have hysterics as a three-foot baby rathtar curls around Finn’s shoulder, nuzzling at his nape and making soft cooing vocalisations that translate, roughly, to new mummy strange mummy soft mummy. And when they find Stormtroopers being prepared for training Rey just scoops up five astonished toddlers in her arms, catches the rest behind her with her with the Force (they trail and bounce and giggle in delight) and announces that these are her little ones now yes she is a parent

Poe manages to get the children into Resistance Daycare (hey, there are a lot of working parents in the Resistance, and of course they have proper facilities) but Rey still visits them every day. And he gets Finn to agree that Cuddles (the rathtar, who is now six foot and growing) should not sleep on the bed. But he can’t do anything about the three puppies Finn brings back from a mission (snuggling, cuddly things named Bodhi, Baze and Chirrut.) And he doesn’t want to, to be honest, because they are so god damn cute. And Rey comes back from a mission to a scrap-yard moon with two broken-down droids, patches them up. “Look at my darlings,” she says, “they are so Good and Cute and we shall make sure that they will always have friends.” (Luke looks at this girl, this strange desert girl who does not a family, mending droids like she’s been born to it, giving them names – Evie and Wallie if anyone is interested – with her bright eyes, and sparkling Force presence, and he thinks that she is very familiar, very familiar indeed.)

When They First Met Chuuya
  • Dazai: Go on Chuuya you can do it
  • Chuuya: [Sigh] I appreciate it but look what were dealing with!!!
  • Dazai: Chuuya..
  • Chuuya: We got to draw a line
  • Dazai: CHuuya!
  • Chuuya: You got to draw a FUCKING line in the sand
  • Dazai: CHUuya !!
  • Chuuya: You have to wake up in the morning and say what am I willing to deal with
  • Dazai: CHUUYA!!!!
  • Chuuya: NOT FUCKING THIS [Points at Lovecraft]
  • Sun: I am telling you Yang. Blake's dad is terrifying. The Man can kill you by squeezing your head with one hand. One hand!
  • Yang: Sun. Please. I got this. *She insured her friend patting his back and holding her cybernetic arm up.* After all, I'm willing to lose an army for Blake. I'll do the same with my life to be with her for the rest of it.
  • Sun: Fine but don't say I didn't warn you.
  • ~Later~
  • Ghira: So Miss Xiao-Long, You wish to date my daughter.
  • Yang: Please, call me Yang. And yep. Though really I already am dating her. I just know Blake would feel better if you and Mrs. Belladonna approved.
  • Ghira: *raising an eyebrow* And what exactly makes you think I will approve of you dating my little girl? Because you lost an arm for her?
  • Yang: Nope. My arm I lost to protect her. *waving her metal hand* I know you will approve of me and Blake being together because I promise I will always be there for her, keep her happy no matter what, Protect her, care for her, and make such she knows that she is 'purrect' in every way.
  • Ghira: ... Did you just make a cat pun?
  • Yang: That I did. It's kinda how I flirt with my kitty cat.
  • Ghira: *eye twitching* Your... Kitty cat?
  • Yang: Hehe, yeah. Blake loves it surprisingly. I thought she may be Furryous about. Though I love it way she is feisty.
  • Ghira: *slams her hands on the table* AND WHAT EXACTLY DOES THAT MEAN!?
  • Yang: *smiles* Oh you know. Determined, strong willed, willing to do whatever it takes to get what she wants. Plus, She is REALLY good with a ribbon and rope. *Ghira gritted his teeth as he was about to growl out a threat when Yang Spoke again* Not to mention strong. Did she ever tell you about the time she swung me into a mech that I punched into pieces? Or our first round in the Vinyl tournament? Man, She is pretty amazing. Haha, but after seeing you I see where she gets it from.
  • Ghira: *Ghira blinked as his anger disappeared* Oh... Oh Why yes. My little girl does take after me quite a bit. Of course her mother as well.
  • Yang: Oh I've noticed. Blake and your wife's kitty ears are sooooo cute and soft to the touch.
  • Ghira: I know right! HAHAHA! Kali will never admit this but she loves it when I scratch her ears when we snuggle.
  • Yang: Oh my god Blake too! When we are cuddling as we watch a movie or when reading she always loves it when I scratch her ears.
  • *After that Ghira and Yang began to talk happy about their adorable loves*
  • Ghira: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Oh I like you Miss, I mean Yang.
  • ~Meanwhile, outside the room~
  • Sun: *Eavesdropping as his jaw drops and whispers* ARE YOU KIDDING ME!?
  • Kali: Well to be fine. She and Blake are already dating. *whispered from behind him* I just wish they could have bonded over something else. *shaking her with embarrassment*
  • Blake: WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING!? *Blake shouted causing her mom and Sun to jump.*

One of my pet peeves in reading erotica, (particularity professional, I’m willing to forgive fanfic some things) it’s the inauthenticity of the physical mechanics involved. Like I get what you’re trying to say “bent over backwards” but unless you’re a contortionist, that isn’t very likely and neither is the multiple hands thing where seemingly everyday Chad goes from having two hands to a terrifying innumerable amount.

And I know I am not alone in this because I get so many messages asking me how to real “better” sex scenes and when I talk about including communication and the inclusion of safe sex (use lube, for god sake use LUBE, spit is not a good substitute and water most certainly is not) invariably people say “no, how how do you write those scenes, how do you make it more natural and fluid” and, like, I want you all to know, it’s not spur of the moment, it doesn’t come naturally to me to write certain actions, I have to sit down and think about them in terms of what is feasibly physically possible. And if I can’t wrap my head around the dynamics I want for it, well, ETD puts up with a lot of my shit lmao

DESPAIR FOR YOUR MEMORIES IS LOOKING FOR TEAM MEMBERS!

Title up to change, but tl;dr I’m writing a dating sim where you play as Junko Enoshima attempting to bring the 78th class to despair.

It’s a monstrously big project and even though I already have a route done and am working on the next ones, I need some extra help to bring it to fruition. I am willing to pay people for their work, either an upfront fee or a cut of potential earnings once it’s done, but keep in mind that I really don’t have much. I’m doing a massive share of the work and I’m not getting paid. What’s needed:

  • Programmer - I’ve been doing my best to build the game in Ren’Py, but unfortunately I’m over my head. I’m looking for someone that can implement some python into the game to ensure that the routes happen in the order they’re supposed to with a few extra twists. If you choose to keep the game’s programming in Ren’Py, I can continue doing basic programming, but if you have a platform you’re more comfortable in and I can’t figure it out, I’ll have to just send you raw scripts.
  • Secondary artist - I’d like to potentially attach a small fee to downloading the game once it’s finished considering the amount of labor involved, so for that reason I’m hoping to have it feature completely original art. I have an artist onboard already, but I’d like to lessen the load on him as there’s a lot to do. Specifically, I need someone to do backgrounds. So far there’s only two, but my main artist isn’t comfortable enough with them.
  • Character experts - Do you think you know more about a SDR2 character than anyone? Talk to me. I know many of the characters pretty well, but it’s always helpful to have an expert onboard to consult with as I write. This is not a paid position, but you will feature prominently in the game’s credits.
  • Anyone else? - If this project sounds like it’s up your alley but I haven’t listed something you can do, contact me anyway. Maybe we can work something out, I’d love to see what you can do.

Lastly, if you think this is a worthwhile project but don’t want to help, please please signal boost! The more eyes that see it the more likely it’ll be seen by someone that can help make this happen.

Honestly, I am so done with the goddamned dr fandom. People work hard for you, making translations, compilation posts, trying to be active, and you pay them like this? By sending hate messages? How the fuck do you expect this fandom to grow as a good place where people are willing to work on any more stuff if they get this kind of awful feedback?

People in the dr fandom need to stop being this disrespectful, and they need to do it soon. Because, if they don’t, you know what’ll happen? People will stop working on stuff. “What’s the point, after all, if we don’t get positive results from doing so? There’s no use in working for these people who don’t appreciate me.”

And then, you would send these bloggers who work their ass out to bring you translations and masterlists, what, hate for not working?? I’ve already seen it happen before, and this just needs to stop.

anonymous asked:

you're an EMT! wow! would you mind telling us what that's like?

I don’t mind talking about some parts! I think anyone who works in emergency medical services knows that there are something things you only share with other EMS people. That being said, I’m an EMT so I don’t do a lot of trauma! 

Here’s what I am willing to share!

  • My current partner is obsessed with the Little Drummer Boy song and won’t stop playing it. It’s been many moons. Someone save me.
  • I’m currently at a new job so I get hazed a bit, which, since it’s not sexist, I tolerate with grace. 
  • (I am not a tolerant person, vengeance will be mine.)
  • In this field you have to be able to sit quietly for long periods of time or else you will murder your partner. You guys are stuck together in an ambulance for hours at a time, waiting for a call, and that’s a bad place to fight.
  • (VENGEANCE!)
  • Dispatch is scary and you should be nice to dispatch, they control your life.
  • Nurses do not like us, which is fair. They get insane case loads and here we are hauling in a dude who doesn’t know how to clean his medical stuff properly. Again.
  • I am currently sitting in an ambulance. My partner is eating cheese fries from some abominable Chicago restaurant (I’m from California, In-n-out is the only way). It is 10 in the morning.
  • Getting insurance information is the worst part of my job. 
  • If you don’t know what you’re doing/have never done something before, you have two options. One is to tell your partner that you’re inexperienced OUT OF EARSHOT of the patient, and let them take lead. Two is to poker face that shit out and get it done.
  • The above does not apply to medical equipment you are not familiar with. Bad things happen when you operate equipment without SOMEONE telling you how it works.
  • One time a patient straight up punched me in the head and I was…strangely pleased?
  • One time a patient got into the ambulance with a dixie cup full of spaghetti which she ate with her hands.
  • EMTs, for the most part, don’t judge. We really don’t care what happened to make a trip to the hospital necessary, just, like, tell us?
  • One time an older man had us take him to the hospital (we’re non-emergency so you have to call the company not 911) and a doctor yelled at me because I didn’t put the man on a backboard. He didn’t tell me he was experiencing back pain. 
  • I see a lot of dialysis patients. A lot. Frequent flyers are either your best friend or your worst enemy.
  • Spaghetti lady is my ARCH ENEMY
  • I oddly get a lot of people apologizing for their hygiene/smell. The people who apologize never smell that bad, trust me.
  • If your partner doesn’t know how man L/min for oxygen flow, DO NOT LET THEM TAKE POINT WITH THE PATIENT
  • Driving in Chicago sucks balls, why is this city a labyrinth of ice and one way streets.

I have a lot more (and I guess I didn’t really answer the question lol), but these are what I can think of right now! Thanks for the ask :)