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Mycroft Holmes: All he has is being clever - a character analysis

Those are my thoughts on Mycroft Holmes after season 4. It’s long, but i was thinking about him a lot! As always, @mycrofts-kitchen told me to turn this into a post.

  • All he has is being clever.
  • He’s playing a role: The Ice Man. He pretends there is no heart inside him to cover up that his heart is actually huge and soft. He ignores it, he pushes it back so no one can break it. He saw in his early childhood what caring can do to people, what caring too much did to Sherlock: “Caring is not an advantage.” The only thing he can’t push back is his love for Sherlock: “Your loss would break my heart.” Sherlock’s his pressure point, because he already loved him before he decided to become The Ice Man. Look at his smile when he sees the video of Sherlock hugging him… I’m sure no one hugged him except his little brother. You can read so much from his smile. It’s deeply melancholic.
  • He’s an introvert that needs some love. He said Sherlock was the emotional child, so he has always been an introvert. Not showing that he needs love or human contact. But he did and he still does. It just seems like he accepted for himself that there is no one who can give him love. When he talked about his heart that’s “not much of a target”… that’s just how anyone sees him. That’s what he wants others to believe.
  • He’s lonely. “I’m not lonely” - of course you’d never admit it, Mycroft. It would destroy your role. He’s so intelligent, everyone else seems like goldfish. But he uses it as an excuse for others, to look like he needs no one. But he does… How he knows the lines for this silly movie, that projector - he’s such a melancholic little idiot.
  • He never was number one. And he knows. Not the favourite child. Not the most intelligent child. Even his sister always preferred Sherlock.
  • He never found his place, he was always lost. He hasn’t seen himself as one of the Holmes kids. He was 7 years older and when talking about redbeard… “We never found him” “we made our assumptions” - as if he belonged with his parents and not with his brother and sister. As if he wouldn’t be one of the kids; Always the grown up. But his parents haven’t seen him like this, this wasn’t his place, as well. He never felt like he belongs somewhere. Because no one ever showed him that he can be loved or be someone’s favourite.
  • He always felt responsible because of his intelligence and understanding of things. It was him who took care of Eurus after Uncle Rudy. It’s him that takes care of Sherlock. He became the British government. He feels like it’s his task to shoulder the weight of all of this. At some point he just took this role. The responsible. The adult. The parent. And that’s how he still sees himself. When looking at Sherlock after he shot Magnussen - he saw a little boy.
  • He feels like he deserves getting shot. Because he fucked up. His parents told him he fucked up. Maybe that’s what they do all the time. Because they believe he is The Ice Men and doesn’t care. And he just takes it. He’s Mycroft Holmes and it’s so hard for him to admit he has made mistakes. But he just takes it because he really thinks it’s all his fault. Maybe that’s what he was always taught to think. Parents mostly blame the older ones because they think they should know better.
  • He’s weak. When Sherlock said “He’s not as strong as he thinks he is” - he was so right. And sadly Mycroft is not as strong as he wants to be. Because he is a sensitive idiot who smiles when his idiot brother tells him he was good as lady bracknell. He’s so weak in so many ways. Physically, of course. He always was. As a child he was chubby, maybe his parents told him to lose weight - that’s why he’s so worried about it, even if there’s no reason. Now he’s so skinny - and still weak. Remember when Sherlock pushed him against the wall and Mycroft was all in pain? He’s emotionally weak. He never learned to be good with people. He understands them, of course, in an intellectual way, that’s part of his job. But he doesn’t understand them in a way of own feelings.
  • All he has is being clever! That’s what I thought so many times in TFP. That’s why he always mentions he’s the smart one. The only thing he has is being clever! The only thing he can claim for himself, he can be proud of, he can identify with.
  • He likes to be important. Why did he mention he spoke to the prime minister so many times? Look how he behaves in Buckingham Palace! The thing is - there is a difference between power and importance. You could easily think mycroft likes power - but it’s importance and that’s much deeper and purer. Because he wants to matter for someone, wants to be of value. No one shows him on a personal level. Not his parents, not Sherlock. So he searches it in business life. He became the British Government because - how could he be even more important?
  • And because he’s a complete control freak! But that’s nothing new, we know since Episode 1. The most things he’s doing is to be the one in control.

Many people said he was out of character in TFP. He wasn’t. He just revealed a side we haven’t seen before. We always saw him from the point of view of Sherlock and John. And they only see his role. The untouchable Ice Man. And this role can’t be kept up in the situation they’re in - that’s why he behaves so different, just not logical, even emotional.

  1. He always was in control. In TFP he wasn’t. He knew it was his fault. He’s not like Eurus who has almost no feelings at all. TFP shows what losing control is doing to Mycroft.
  2. “He didn’t vomit when Mary was shot!” When Mary got shot he was The Ice Men, there were so many people from his professional life around - besides, she got shot in the chest, just a little blood. This guy blew his head up with brain all over the wall and stuff?!
  3. “He never had a problem with killing people or letting them die?! People die, that’s what people do?!” He never killed someone with his own hands? Maybe there’s a little difference?! He was always sitting behind his desk, not knowing the people, not seeing them. He never was a field agent.

anonymous asked:

so i took that language quiz (native english speaker here) and did not recognize about a quarter of the words. what's cool to me is that you don't feel the need to flaunt the actual size of your vocab in writing your fics, i feel like you make a huge effort to write to a median level for readers? you'll use the occasional five or ten dollar word, but you'll contextualize it. see under 'really smart person NOT trying to make ppl feel bad about their intelligence'. some writers do and it's awful.

Pretty much any writer who uses their words for asshattery is on my shit-list, too, because there’s no call for it.  Language doesn’t have to be arcane or overwrought to be beautiful.  What I love about my native language is its propensity for lyrical plainness.  Ornamentation, when used sparingly and wisely, makes it shine all the more.  I don’t want to exclude readers if I can help it, especially those for whom English is a second language.

emeraldembers said: This is one of the myriad reasons I adore your writing - because I know you have an extensive vocabulary, but you’ve never used it to make your stories inaccessible, and if I have once in a blue moon happened across a word I didn’t recognise and had to look it up, it’s always been a word that was genuinely worth learning!

While I do not want to alienate my audience, I do want to encourage them to expand their own vocabularies if they wish.  I’m glad to hear this, because I believe having to consult a dictionary once in a while is no bad thing!  I still occasionally have to do it myself.  For my second language, French, I have to do it all the time.  I was near-fluent between the ages of about 14-24, but time and lack of practice have really done me in.  Although I still dream in French a few times a year, which is weirdly disorienting.

imaginedmelody said: I just discovered I have the German vocabulary of an eight-year-old! Hooray for second languages!

Hurrah!  You inspired me to take the French version of that quiz (since French is my second language), and it says I have a vocabulary of 19,580 (Top 7.08%).  I imagine that’s on par with a bookish French teenager?  Maybe a French undergrad?  Hard to say.

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A: Honestly, after everything that’s happened the past few months, I could use a vacation.
K: Let’s do it. Let’s go on a vacation, just the two of us, anywhere you want.
A: Really? Okay. I’ve always wanted to see what the Spirit World’s like.
K: Sounds perfect.

Happy Two Year Anniversary, Korrasami fandom! (Dec 19th) °˖ ✧◝(○ ヮ ○)◜✧˖ °

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For Flint, what is great about the story that we’re telling is that although it’s on this huge canvas, you know, he’s exacting this war on England, he’s trying to emancipate in some way these people. But really is he doing it for altruistic reasons? Is he doing it for honorable reasons? Or is he doing it because it’s really playing out his own psycho-drama and his own slightly sort of demented thing of wanting revenge on England for what they did to him? And I think that’s what’s so satisfying about this. Because, yes it is about pirates, but in the end it’s an incredibly personal story. These characters are very personal and they’re complex and sophisticated and it made it incredibly rewarding for me as an actor to bring that to life.Toby Stephens

It’s 6 am, I have to leave for work in 30 minutes but… I had some sleep and time to think. The Irene thing bothered. Hugely! Like, when I heard that text, my stomach flipped and dropped down to my feet. Because surely not… after all this time they wouldn’t…

And no. They won’t. Irene is doing what she did in ASIB; she makes them open up. She makes them try to talk about what they’re feeling and she succeeded (unknowingly?) this time. John stays. John talks. John cries and allows Sherlock to see it, to hold and comfort him.

We don’t know what Sherlock texts to Irene. We haven’t seen the texts like we did with John (SHERLOCK’S SISTER?! Freudian much?!) and it wouldn’t be the first time Irene mentions John. They could have been talking about John for all we know. Sherlock could be asking for advice?

However… this wasn’t the time. John was forgiving Sherlock, he was coping, grieving. For Sherlock to come out now and tell John the truth, would have been misplaced. This was laying down the groundwork, smoothing the pavement. Garridebs will come in TFP (three Garridebs, three Holmes’), the masks and walls will crumble and all will be laid bare.

It is what it is.

NOT OKAY

Yesterday while walking with two of my friends, we ran across a group protesting President Elect Trump outside the train station. We started to walk around them because we were all in fact Trump supporters. A couple people ran over to us and asked us to join them. We denied politely and started to walk away when one of the offhandedly said “What, you support Trump?” She was laughing like she didn’t believe. My friend, who is a white girl, turned back and said “Yes, I do.”

Big mistake.

What happened next scared me. The protected started screaming back at her people “Trump supporter over here! Trump supporter over here!” That huge group all of a sudden started to move towards us. There was lot of incoherent screaming but the bits and pieces I did hear were things like “Take your white privilege and go fuck yourself you fucking racist!” “Fucking ignorant white people!” “FUCK YOU!” “Get fucking raped and die!”

Then, a couple of the protestors started screaming at me asking how I could be friends with her.

We were already trying to rush into the station because at this point I was afraid they were going to attack her.

This is NOT OKAY.

I’m perfectly fine if you want to peacefully protest.

But you know what this was? BULLYING. RACISM. HATRED.

This from the side that was preaching love. This from the side that says that is what Trump is all about.

What. The. Hell.

You can be racist towards white people. Quit acting like they are a devil because of their skin color.

They didn’t ask to be born white just like you didn’t ask to be born whatever color you are.

My god, I’m so sick of all of y'all.


SPREAD LOVE NOT HATE. QUIT FOCUSING ON GENDER, SKIN COLOR, RELIGION, AND SEXUAL ORIENTATION.

Radicals are what’s the problem these days.

I am bisexual. Do I hate Christians because they disapprove of my lifestyle? NO. True Christians are some of the nicest people I have ever met. They always treat me with respect, and they talk to me like I’m human. The “bad Christians” are the radicals like friggin westboro.

We need to stop generalizing people and judge individuals by their actions, not groups.

Response to That "Decepticons Helping Humans in Rescue Bots" AU thing
  • Nurse Darby: Starscream... what do you have in your hands?
  • [Starscream shows what's behind his back]
  • Human: WAUAUUGHH!!!
  • Nurse Darby: Starscream! Where did you-- put him down! Down!!!
  • [Starscream starts to open his claws so the human drops to the floor]
  • Nurse Darby: Gently...!
  • Starscream: But he's squirming..!
  • Nurse Darby: You heard me!
  • Human: HUAAUUUGH!
  • Starscream: [cringe] I can hear HIM too.
  • [Starscream gently places human on ground, who scrambles away behind June]
  • Human: That... that HUGE freaky robot TRASHED my lawnmower!
  • Starscream: Yehk. Is that what you call it? Looked more like an abomination to me. Doesn't matter, it's scrap now.
  • Nurse Darby: Starscream! Why on Earth did you abduct this man and destroy his lawnmower?
  • Starscream: While I was making my rounds, I saw this human and his machine on a patch of grass. But upon my second pass, he was driving down the road! He couldn't have been going more than 5 miles per hour, however LOCAL speed signs that were CLEARLY posted indicated 25 miles per hour. He was obstructing the flow of traffic, and placing himself and OTHER humans in a potentially hazardous situation! It was so incredibly foolish I just KNEW I had to intervene.
  • Nurse Darby: ... Were you really driving a lawnmower on the road?
  • Human: W-well my next job was only like a mile away!
  • Nurse Darby: That's still a decent amount of time to clog up the road, sir. Normally, if a cop saw you, they would probably give you a ticket. Though I really wouldn't know. Here, let me see that scratch...
  • [Knock Out comes in]
  • Knock Out: Oh. It's YOU. The human in that slow-moving contraption.
  • Nurse Darby: So is this a typical thing for you, or what? I swear. Don't you have a truck you can put that thing in?
  • Human: Well its not like I'd need to any more, cuz HE totalled my mower!
  • Knock Out: Did you really?
  • [Starscream shows what's in his OTHER hand]
  • Knock Out: [whistles] Yeah, I can't fix that.
  • Nurse Darby: [sighs] Starscream, did you REALLY have to destroy it?
  • Starscream: [scoff] When HE didn't heed my warnings to get off the road, I knew I would have to use force--
  • Human: --I always wear ear protection when I mow!
  • Starscream: -- but then, THIS hunk of scrap exploded! Disgusting, green, organic mush rained down upon me, staining my paint, streaking my windows, squishing between even the tiniest of gears...
  • Knock Out: [scandalized gasp]
  • Starscream: It even smeared all over my landing gear... Oh, it'll take a WEEK to get the stuff out of my vents!
  • Knock Out: He's right you know. I'll pencil you in right before tomorrow's 2nd shift.
  • Human: What about my mower?!
  • Nurse Darby: I don't get paid enough for this...

BOI SHE BOUT TO DO IT.

BOI SHE DID IT.

THE ABSOLUTE MADWOMAN.

Can I just say I absolutely love Peridot’s little mumbling here while she’s looking for the cluster.

WHOA WHAT THE FUCK.

That… looks different than our world. A huge chunk of Africa is in America now, there’s a small portrusion in Argentina and well… Russia’s fucking gone.

What happened here?

Okay but since it is obvious Sportacus knows it’s Robbie despite the ridiculous disguises, what if one time Robbie set this huge, elaborate thing to get rid of Sportadork, as always, but this time Sportacus was in amazement at how much time and effort went in to this scheme and let it slip and said, “Wow, Robbie! This is amazing!” And Robbie got super flustered and was making sure nobody heard it and Sportacus just giggled and sassily said, “Oh sorry. I meant, Mr.Rottenton.” (or whatever brillant fake name Robbie thought of) & now I can’t stop seeing this actually happening please someone draw fanart.

What my health teacher had to say about the Stydia kiss scene:

Today in health we were talking about panic disorder and I brought up the Stydia kiss scene and asked her if that was an okay thing that Lydia did.

She looked at me like I was insane and shook her head and basically said that there are many things you can do to try to help someone during a panic attack, but that’s definitely not one of them.

She also said it was doing a huge disservice to people with panic disorders and that the show writer shouldn’t have included that bit as if it’s actually an okay thing to do when someone is in such a state.

abloodneed replied to your post “Ok but can we talk about Magnus cooing at that snake and calling it…”

this is the thing that kills me like either way those are HUGE, that’s why i wrote that thing because just imagine him working on that, perfecting it, putting so much time and energy into it. such a god damn thing

dammit now you’re making me want to know what else he might’ve made, whether as gifts or for himself. and also, when did he discover he could do this? did he grow flowers out of the ground when he was younger by accident? did he realize one day the flower simply never wilted or faded even in the frostbitten winter and it occurred to him what he could do? and then he went and tried it on small things like butterflies and spiders and lizards – eventually a snake.

imagine alec watching magnus one day, unnoticed, and magnus is out on his balcony growing a flower. just the world’s most powerful warlock, growing little pink and purple flowers that glow at night because he thinks it looks pretty. alec would have the softest look on his face.

Lizard learning to Lizard

I saw this cute baby blue tongue in the garden today, and it became readily apparent that the little babbeh did not know how to lizard very well.

Arg! What the fuck are you? You’re fuckin’ huge!

I mean nyeh! I am a scary lizard! Flee in terror huge thing!

Why are you not fleeing in terror? You were supposed to flee in terror.

Well shit now what? Uh, I’m just going to go ahead and run away! That always works.

Oh Shit, how do you turn? How do you turn?

Please, do not look upon my shame.

Okay, I’m hidden now, right? Totally hidden.

I didn’t want him to hurt himself trying to dig into the concrete, so I picked him up and put him back in the garden bed. His reaction was to start biting innocent foliage. The foliage won, I think.

Yeah, yeah you back away, huge scary thing!

Back away or I’ll fuck you up, like this clover! That, I am now stuck in. Well fuck, this ain’t my day.

Ayyy I haven’t posted anything here in a while! I can’t post the whole thing yet, but here’s a closeup of Space Dad’s face. I had the opportunity to do the cover for the @voltroncalendar2017 and I had so much fun with it.

Needless to say, I hit a huge art block after November 8th.I’m pretty sure this got me out of it and I am so grateful.

I can’t wait to see what everyone else did!!

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My mother, for whatever reason.. I’m not sure why she did this, but she made me watch the Tonys one year. She was like, ‘I think you would like this’, and she turned on the Tonys. It was the 1990 Tony Awards. They all did these huge numbers, and I thought ‘that is the coolest thing I’ve ever seen. That’s exactly what I want to do with my life.’
Andrew Rannells

memetic memery

Got tagged by @ryanjjohn and in something similar by @mshenchy.

Nicknames: Show, Coach, Strat, Libcuck 
Star sign: The fault, dear Brutus, lies not in our stars
Height: 5.92674e-17 pc
Time right now: keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping into the future
Last thing googled: converting 6′ to parsecs
Favorite music artists/bands: this is a Dawes appreciation blog
Song stuck in your head: “Somewhere Along The Way”, ibid
Last Movie Watched: Spaceballs
Last TV show watched: the local news with the hottest weather lady
What are you wearing right now: orange shirt, camo pants, plaid boxers
When did you create your blog: about when Obama was first sworn in
Do you have any other blogs: two (nerd and scratchpad) I’ll admit to
Do you get asks regularly: only when I ask, ironically
Why did you choose your URL: We’re huge in Germany
Gender: born with boy parts and that seems right
Hogwarts house: Atreides
Pokémon team: The 2005 World Series Champion Chicago White Sox
Favorite color: you see I’ve forgotten if they’re green or they’re blue
Average hours of sleep: per year? like, fifty?
How many blankets do you sleep with: see previous
Dream job: anything that gets me out of this country forever would do
Followers: more than I can possibly follow back and I feel bad about that.

I really gotta get to work now. You know you want to talk about yourself so just do it.

Bts reaction to their best friend randomly giving them the middle finger

Request: Hi can you do a bts gif reaction of the guys older sister or bff throwing them the middle finger for no reason 😂😂 Thank you

A/N: I’m just gonna do it as best friend for now, but if you want an older sister version then feel free to request this again! This was so fun to make omg xD


Seokjin:

-completely lost as to what he did to deserve it- “B-but, what..?”

Originally posted by hugtae

Yoongi:

-gives you one right back- “You wanna go or…”

Originally posted by vminv

Hoseok:

-was having a normal conversation before you randomly flipped him off- “And then I sa- Y/n what the hell??!”

Originally posted by spearjimint

Namjoon:

-flips you off back- “Who do you think you are, bitch?” mean pet names and such would be a huge thing as being namjoon’s bff tbh so it’s probably normal for you to flip each other off all the time.

Originally posted by hugtae

Jimin:

-astonished- “What the what!?”

Originally posted by jeonmp3

Taehyung:

-over exaggerates the whole situation- “What the heck????? Do you not love me???? What did I do tho????”

Originally posted by yoongichii

Jungkook:

-eyes you up- “Tf you want?”

Originally posted by kpop-whore

-you glare at him- “Sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry”

Originally posted by sugutie


-Admin Yeonie

@ my fellow pals with bad childhoods, did you/do you fantasize about being like… taken in by another family? It always was a huge thing for me, I thought about it all the time and I still occasionally do. I use to go to bed and shut my eyes and pretend I was in my bedroom in another house and then think about what the next day would be like if I belonged to them. It sounds so depressing when I type it out wow 

Reaction: Red Velvet You making them come without touching them

*requested* *gifs not mine, credits to the owners*

Originally posted by bubbleflexe

Irene: 

I feel like Irene would be in a huge denial that you had such effect on her. She would be lying to herself that its been a while since she had some action and that it wouldn´t happen again, only for it to happen much more often.

Originally posted by theseulgis

Seulgi:

“This just proved my theory that you´re a goddess in bed.” 

Originally posted by r-velvets

Wendy: 

Seungwan would be in a huge state of shock. I feel like it would take a her a minute to process what exactly just happened. It was the first time something like that happened to her and she would be absolutely surprised to find out you could do such things to her.

“I have no idea how you did that, but damn.”

Originally posted by joysus-christ

Joy:

“Yah! What even are you?!” 


A/n: Obviously I haven´t included Yeri since she´s still underage. Hope you liked it though, anonie. Thanks for the rather interesting request. Lots of love – G