what are its hopes and dreams

For the first time in months I felt so distant from you.

You’re sitting right beside me, but there’s this feeling in my heart I can’t construe .

I can’t feel you.

You have nothing to say to me and I have nothing to say to you.


My head is spinning, my throat is closing, its getting harder to breathe.

I close my eyes and open them hoping this is just a bad dream.

Hoping that we can go back to our pristine reality.


I know I ruined your night…

I know how you hate having to fight

I know no matter what you will always be right

& I know sometimes you and I have a different sight

But now I feel we no longer see eye to eye

Lacking communication and compromise

Caught up by the world I didn’t recognize

Our relationship was slowly approaching its demise

The thought of losing you makes me feel paralyzed

I assumed the worst and I sincerely apologized

Baby I just can’t picture you not right by my side

I love you now as I will love you to the end of time

I have grown so fond of you and your pantomime

You are effortlessly ravishing and far beyond sublime


I’m sorry I can’t satisfy all your needs

And I’m sorry I lack the stability to be the woman of your dreams

I’m trying my best, but I’m still not conciliating

You deserve infinite eminence and fidelity

I just want the best for you, and I thought that was me

But I feel more like a stone that’s tied to your feet


I’m sorry I disappoint you and persistently let you down

I want so badly to be the one to share your crown

You are a king in need of a queen and I struggle to hold my ground

I’m sorry I couldn’t be enough for you it was much too profound

But I know one thing for sure and it’s as crazy as it sounds

You are the only person that can utterly suppress my frown

That’s why I won’t stop trying until I turn this around


I need you in my life, you are the epitome of jubilation

There is no need for an argument or contemplation

Wherever you shall go I will follow with exhilaration

I haven’t told you this before, Call it a revelation

I talked to God about you for many years, no exaggeration

I described to him the characteristics of a man created from my imagination

A man with divinity, devotion and dedication.

A man who is worthy of my adoration.

A man who can handle my frustration and inclination.

A man who can give me his full concentration.

A man who isn’t reluctant to verbalization and proficient with communication.

A man who can be honest about his commiserations and meticulous toward my perturbation.

A man who will provide consolation and consistently assure me of his admiration.

A man who extols my visualizations and appreciates my intellectual conversations.

A man like you falls incomparably in this categorization.

You abruptly walked into my world with no rumination

I took a chance on you with some hesitation

The beginning inflicted some trials and tribulations

But we worked it out with confrontation and vindication.


The timing wasn’t providential & sure as hell wasn’t intended

But something in my heart felt so conflicted

You started to consume my thoughts and I was contradicted


I started to crave you like I was becoming unhinged you were my new obsession and I was so content

i fortuitously fell in love with my best friend.


No matter a fight, or a bad day just know that I’m not ever going away. Yeah I’m going to give you some space because sometimes that’s what situations entail, but I’m never giving up on us because my love for you will always prevail.


I’m trying..

—Diverged Endearment (@tastemy—rainbow)

You know what breaks my heart? Kids who were always told that they were too smart and used to be overachievers but now they have depression and anxiety and other mental illnesses and can’t recover because the bar was always too high for them and they just sit and suffer silently watching everyone else get on with life while trying to be what they used to and trying not to commit suicide but they can’t talk about it because “You’re smart you’re gonna figure it out yourself ” .
Nothing is more disappointing than knowing that no one will help you as you sink deeper and deeper into darkness and believing that all your high hopes and dreams will remain dreams forever.
I feel you kids. You are not alone .

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“Maybe I failed this time, but… I’m not giving up. I’ll show them I’ve got what it takes to make the hero course, and I’ll become a greater hero than all of you!
| ★ Shinsou Hitoshi ★ | Happy Birthday to my lovely Aseel bby! @genosus (ノ≧∀≦)ノ♪♬

To anyone who ever said Dream Daddy was pandering to yaoi fangirls: you have no idea how wrong your statement is. This game is so charming and genuine and as someone who’s apart of the LGBT community, a game like this means the world to me. The development team put their heart and soul into this game and they worked their hardest to make it into what it is now. You should be ashamed for even thinking that this game wasn’t genuine. I applaud the Dream Daddy devs for giving us this game, and honestly I hope it inspires more games like it.

You know what I find ironic?


People say first impressions are everything


I learned this my first year of high school


And then again every single day after


Because people are always judging, always assuming


And apparently, you always have to be the best possible you


What I learned in the nine years beforehand


The greatest contradiction to ever be said


Don’t judge a book by its cover, inside is what counts


Maybe they want to give us this false hope that it’s okay to mess up


And when we’ve reached the age our hope is highest


They rip the idea out of our heads and laugh


Because the world’s not as lovely as they made it seem


And they love to see us lose all our dreams


Because theirs are all dead too

IM GETTING REALLY PISSED OFF

These interviewers are treating BTS like they’re nothing. Asking them if they’ll release an English album, asking irrelevant questions about their love lives. It isn’t okay.


Not one interviewer has asked about the UNICEF campaign


Not one interviewer has talked about anything relevant to BTS if you really think about it.


“What’s your favourite American food?”

“Do you have girlfriends?”

“Will you make a whole album in English?”


The fucking disrespect these interviewers have shown to our boys is not okay and I, an ARMY who isn’t okay with this at all, is demanding an apology from those who did this.


One interviewer even had the fucking nerve to do this


This reply basically sums up how I feel about this ignorance

Namjoon was very clearly annoyed and upset throughout this interview and I hope other ARMYs will stand with me for an apology from these people. They have shown disrespect not only to BTS but their fans, their managers, their staff, their families and generally the kpop community for the lack of understanding and the lack of willingness to learn to understand what kpop is really about. It’s not about making it big and switching to English albums or talking about love life, its about working hard, achieving dreams and providing entertainment.


These past few interviews have disgusted me and I’m not putting up with it.

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Mark is happy where he is and enjoys what he likes best: rapping!

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Tiffany, Sooyoung, & Seohyun x Cinderella 

“Have faith in your dreams and someday,
Your rainbow will come smiling through.
No matter how your heart is grieving,
If you keep on believing,
The dream that you wish will come true.”

Low Spoon Spirit Work/Companion Tips

12 Spirit Work Tips for people with low spoons, or just anyone who doesn’t have as much energy at the moment.

Tip #1 -Look at the stars with them

I really love to look at the stars with my companions. It is amazing after a hectic or stressful day to just sit outside and think about nothing with my spirit family.

Tip #2 -Watch Tv

Seriously just sit down, and decide on a show together. Ro is a huge fan of Peaky Blinders on Netflix, so I always try to watch at least an episode of it when I can with him.

Tip #3 -Find a YouTuber they enjoy

Ro is a big fan of beauty gurus and Archie likes to watch horse videos with me. Hyl seems to like when I binge watch music videos. There is something for every companion on youtube.

Tip #4 -Hum to music together

I love to sing but sometimes I don’t have enough energy to. I usually just hum while laying down if I can’t sing right then.

Tip #5 -Write a story with your spirit companion as a character.

I’m currently working on a story with both Archie and Ro in it and Hyl is gonna make an appearance in one of my other story’s. For me writing is super relaxing and low energy.

Tip #6 - Draw a Doodle of them

I doodle anyways so just channeling a little energy into what my companions might look as a doodle isn’t a huge thing. (This is a bit more high energy and is only for when I feel a little better than normal.)

Tip #7 -Cuddle them

My all time freaking favorite. This is the lowest of all the energy things. Its also pretty self explanatory.

Tip #8 - READ BOOKS!!!

Can you tell I like reading with my companions? Hyl and I bond over reading literally every day.  

Tip #9 -Write a letter

Pour out your feelings, hopes and dreams in this letter and then show it to them. Also one can try channeling with their companion to receive a letter from the companion.

Tip #10 -Write a poem

If you are an artistic person or like writing poems this one is for you people that are blessed with an awesome vocabulary. Also you could write one line of the poem and they can write the next line.

Tip #11 -Play Hot&Cold

Try to feel their energy and use how your body responds as a way to detect them when they are nearby. It is super easy to turn this into a fun and entertaining game.

Tip #12 -Twenty Questions

Use a twenty questions app to learn things about them that you might not ask them yourself.

Sorry if this post seemed a little lackluster. I really had to push myself to finish it… Low spoon problems. Anyways I hope someone finds this helpful. Thanks for reading.

Its midnight and I need to fucking talk about Damien from Dream Daddy.

Before the game came out, I was on that bandwagon of people who were like “lol goth dad what a goofy goober”, I totally didn’t take Damien as a serious character and honestly was considering not even playing his route, or at least playing it last.

But when the game came out and news spread that Damien was trans, I knew I had to play his route first - primarily to see how the game creators treated a trans character. I was hoping to be impressed by the representation, but never dreamed of actually liking the character.

But low and behold by the end of the first date I was smitten. Why, you maybe thinking? Well kids buckle up.

The game goes about Damien very well. They casually show that he is a trans man through natural dialogue, making it very matter of fact. This is so refreshing for in my experience, people are very blunt and notably uncomfortable when explaining that someone is trans - either just straight up saying it and things becoming awkward, or saying it and having transphobic but “light-hearted” jokes follow. Both these reactions highlight how uncomfortable the presumably cis people in the conversation are, thusly making it weird or out of place that the trans person is trans.

BUT NOT IN DREAM DADDY OH YEAH

By being casual about, and not have any characters whisper about it or seem uncomfortable, it shows how comfortable the cast is with trans people and how accepted Damien is as a trans man! And to even have his son be comfortable and use the correct name a pronouns, as well as recognize that Damien’s life has been rough? Iconic.

Another note about Damien is I love that the cul-da-sac clan seems to just accept how passionate about Victorian era culture he is. They may say he is a little eccentric, but they still invite him to parties and obviously value him as a friend!! Its so refreshing for the “weird” character to just be accepted.

And I really like that they made Damien, the eccentric character, trans because as a trans and queer man myself, I have used passion behind hobbies to occupy myself. Being trans in our society isn’t exactly easy and it sounds like Damien had a rough go of it. So for him to find happiness in something, such as Victorian culture, makes sense because its a way to distract himself from the negatives. I can honestly say that my passions have saved me really dark times, and its apparent to me that Damien’s passions have saved before as well.

Its also so great that (SPOILER) on his third date its revealed that there are more sides to him then just his main passion. Often in games and media, the eccentric character is never really given a character or enough development - they are purely the one sided, flat, eccentric character. But for a character to succeed they have to be like real people, and real people are multifaceted. Allowing Damien to have strong passion, but also other hobbies and routines was really amazing.

I just super fucking appreciate this character. He has touched my heart so deeply and represents so many things that I am and that I want in media. I can’t thank the game creators enough for this beautiful character.

  • Doomfist: "I sustained massive emotional and physical trauma at an extremely young age due to events related to the Omnic Crisis."
  • Roadhog & Junkrat: *ears perk up*
  • Doomfist: "So I then engaged in some not so savory activities because all my hopes and dreams and possibilities for a good life were wrenched from me without my consent"
  • Roadhog & Junkrat: *eyes go wide*
  • Doomfist: "Therefore my moral character is rather hard to decipher because such massive trauma causes rather extreme Ego Death and it's impossible to say what I would have been like had I not undergone such horrors."
  • Roadhog & Junkrat: *clinging to Doomfist's legs, nodding rapidly, trying not to cry*

ᴛᴀɴɢʟᴇᴅ sᴇɴᴛᴇɴᴄᴇ ᴍᴇᴍᴇ
      sᴇɴᴅ ᴏɴᴇ ( ᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ) ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ᴍᴜsᴇ!


  • ❝ This is the story of how I died. ❞
  • ❝ That’s when people usually start to look for a miracle. ❞
  • ❝ And for that one moment, everything was perfect. ❞
  • ❝ Why can’t I go outside? ❞
  • ❝ The outside world is a dangerous place filled with horrible, selfish people. You must stay here where you’re safe. ❞
  • ❝ All the things we’ve seen and its only eight in the morning. ❞
  • ❝ Stop taking everything so seriously. ❞
  • ❝ Stop with the mumbling, you know how I feel about the mumbling. ❞
  • ❝ I distinctly remember your birthday was last year. ❞
  • ❝ That’s the funny thing about birthdays, they’re kind of an annual thing. ❞
  • ❝ I can’t believe that after all we’ve been through together, you don’t trust me. ❞
  • ❝ Okay, okay, okay…I’ve got a person in my closet. ❞
  • ❝ I do hate leaving you after an argument, especially when I’ve done absolutely nothing wrong. ❞
  • ❝ You are not leaving this tower! Ever! ❞
  • ❝ Ugh, great. Now I’m the bad guy. ❞
  • ❝ I’ll be back in three days time. I love you very much, dear. ❞
  • ❝ I know why you’re here and I’m not afraid of you. ❞
  • ❝ The only thing I want to do with your hair is to get out of it. ❞
  • ❝ Who are you, and how did you find me? ❞
  • ❝ I know not who you are nor how I came to find you, but may I just say…hi. How ya doin’? ❞
  • ❝ I was being chased, I saw a tower, I climbed it. End of story. ❞
  • ❝ I have made the decision to trust you. ❞
  • ❝ Tomorrow evening they will light the night sky with these lanterns. ❞
  • ❝ When I promise something, I never ever break that promise. ❞
  • ❝ I didn’t want to have to do this but you leave me no choice. ❞
  • ❝ Well that’s okay, what she doesn’t know won’t kill her. ❞
  • ❝ I’m a despicable human being. ❞
  • ❝ You know I can’t help but notice you seem a little at war with yourself here. ❞
  • ❝ This is part of growing up. ❞
  • ❝ Stay calm. It can probably smell fear. ❞
  • ❝ Haven’t any of you ever had a dream? ❞
  • ❝ Go. Live your dream. ❞
  • ❝ Someone get me a glass, ‘cause I just found me a tall drink of water. ❞ 
  • ❝ Let’s just assume for the moment that everyone in here doesn’t like me. ❞
  • ❝ I have got to get me one of these. ❞
  • ❝ I was going to offer you something worth one thousand crowns, would have made you rich beyond belief. ❞
  • ❝ A gift like that, well, it has to be protected. ❞
  • ❝ You can’t tell anyone about this, okay? It could ruin my reputation. ❞
  • ❝ Well a fake reputation is all a man has. ❞
  • ❝ Why would he/she like you, come on now really. ❞
  • ❝ Look at you! Do you think that he/she’s impressed? ❞
  • ❝ I just listened to the sound of complete and utter betrayal and followed that. ❞
  • ❝ All good things to those who wait. ❞
  • ❝ Well I hope you came to apologize. ❞ 
  • ❝ I need you not to get him arrested. ❞
  • ❝ What if its not everything I dreamed it would be? ❞
  • ❝ And what if it is? What do I do then? ❞
  • ❝ You get to go find a new dream. ❞
  • ❝ I’m not scared anymore. ❞
  • ❝ We want him/her instead. ❞
  • ❝ The world is dark and selfish and cruel. If it finds even the slightest ray of sunshine, it destroys it. ❞
  • ❝ I’m the lost princess. ❞
  • ❝ I’ve spent my entire life hiding from people who would use me for my power. ❞
  • ❝ But I should have been hiding from you. ❞
  • ❝ Where will you go? He/She won’t be there for you. ❞
  • ❝ That criminal is to be hanged for his crimes. ❞
  • ❝ You want me to be the bad guy? Fine. Now I’m the bad guy. ❞
  • ❝ Let’s see how fast you can run. ❞
  • ❝ We’re going where no one will ever find you again. ❞
  • ❝Our secret will die with him. ❞
  • ❝ I will never stop trying to get away from you. ❞
  • ❝ I can’t let you die. ❞
  • ❝ But if you do this, then you will die. ❞
  • ❝ You were my new dream. ❞
  • ❝ Did I ever tell you I got a thing for brunettes? ❞
  • ❝ After years and years of asking, and asking, and asking, I finally said yes. ❞
15 things I wish I’d known before starting my studyblr:

1. 

You have no idea what you’re getting yourself into.

2.

You didn’t know there was such a thing as branded stationery, but heck, there’s a thriving market out there. 

3.

LOOK AT ALL THE APPS. THE ADVICE. The resources! Be wary: sometimes simple is best.

4. 

People are going to share their dreams, fears,  doubts, hopes, ambitions and “oh my fuck what the fuck is happening moments” with you. You’re going to learn so much from people you’ve never met; who live half a world away. You’ll learn that exam stress is universal, as are feelings of inadequacy and loneliness and anxiousness. A whole new world will open up to you, one message at a time.

5. 

People will take your photos, re upload them, use them without credit. They’re going to delete your captions. It’ll piss you off. Its downright disrespectful. You’ll want to leave. Platitudes like ‘the internet is a free space’ will not dull the swell of anger. But don’t let a few fools ruin a good thing. Remember all the messages of support, the funny tags on the reblogs, the kindness oh god the kindness.

6. 

Stand up for yourself. Whether it be your study methods, your study philosophy or your style. Be firm, but respectful.

7. 

Sometimes you’ll wake up to messages which will make you cry. You’ve never wanted to move mountains before, you never thought you could have such a visceral reaction to someone else’s problems  - but in that moment you’ll want to cross international borders and give someone a hug. Oceans be damned. 

8. 

You’re no hero. You can’t help everyone, and your advice may be useful to some and useless to others. That’s ok. Find your own support network within this huge ass community and make it a positive experience for yourself.

9. 

Tumblr’s text formatting is a nightmare.

10. 

Be vulnerable. Writing about your personal experiences will be cathartic. Giving advice will be cathartic. In guiding others you will be guiding yourself. In doing so, you’ll need to be brutally honest about your own failures, your own doubts and misgivings. You will feel vulnerable, a twisted form of quid pro quo you’re not sure you love. Share your stories of success, your stories of failure so that others will step forward and share theirs. Cheer at other’s success; lend a shoulder to cry on when they don’t. Reach out and start a dialogue. 

11. 

Taking a photo will not dull the pain, or tears. You will still have bad days.

12. 

People won’t believe that you use natural lighting. They evidently haven’t spent Summer in Australia before.

13. 

The number of notes or reblogs your posts have does not reflect the impact that they have on a person’s life. Who the fuck cares about reblogs when you’re sitting in the exam hall the next morning. 

14. 

There’s going to be a pointless debate about 'aesthetic’ vs 'effective studying’ which will make you groan and smack your forehead against the closest wall. And then you’re going to remember livejournal. And then you’re going to feel old.

15. 

You’re going to meet people who are kind, lovely, whose opinions differ from yours - and that’s ok. There are going to be people you’ll be able to have long 3am conversations with, whose music library you’ll want to freaking raid, and others whose tags will always brighten your day. There’s going to be people who consistently pop up on your activity feed, shadowing your every move and you’re not sure how to express your appreciation but trust me, they’ll know.


+ You started this project in a midnight ramble not expecting anything out of it. You’re going to be in for one hell of a ride. There is no reason to be afraid.

With love,

fuckstudy.

So, NCT babies was making an IG live while eating Pepero, and then, after 2613875990484728 years Smrookies post a picture of them with Pepero.

Coincidence, I dont think 😏😏

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oh god im sorry i stalked your blogs for references for like 2 hours 

@drawinggheys @raythrill @objectionable-code @terror-in-the-dream @bocitena @juuria @halpdevon @lauwurens 

so uh… how do i words , uhm… a lot of you dont know me– hell i think only three people here know who i am, but i really really like your art (and art styles) and i look up to all of you a lot, and i look for inspiration from you guys almost every day so uhm… oh my god everyone is just so beautiful, the style, the colors, the line density, the face shapes– I COULD KEEP GOING ON AND ON REALLY—- but i cant because this post is long enough as it is

there’s so many more people i want to add and thank for being such a wonderful sources of awe and inspiration but my shoulder is killing me and its currently an ungodly hour of the wee mornings so i ask for pardon

ah– anyway, bottom line, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING AN INSPIRATION keep doing what you’re doing and i hope you continue to grow and be happier with your art every new day that comes your way!

-Celi <3

P.S. btw if you’re uncomfortable with me putting up your style there please message me and i’ll take it down im sorry;;;;;

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character posters = ♥ william owen herondale

We live and breathe words. It was books that made me feel that perhaps I was not completely alone. They could be honest with me, and I with them. Reading your words, what you wrote, how you were lonely sometimes and afraid, but always brave; the way you saw the world, its colors and textures and sounds, I felt—I felt the way you thought, hoped, felt, dreamt. I felt I was dreaming and thinking and feeling with you. I dreamed what you dreamed, wanted what you wanted—and then I realized that truly I just wanted you.

Bittersweet reunion rp starters(Warning:death mentions and angst)
  • •"It's been awhile..."
  • •"Long time,no see..."
  • •"How long was I gone?"
  • •"Do you have any idea how long you were/I was gone?!"
  • •"You've/I've been gone for so goddamn long and the only thing you have to say is HEY?!"
  • •"I've missed you."
  • •"Did you miss me?"
  • •"Why are you here?"
  • •"Did you miss me like I've missed you?"
  • •"Why did you come back?"
  • •"Why did you leave?"
  • •"You're the reason why I've returned..."
  • •"Where have you been all this time?"
  • •"I thought you were dead!"
  • •"But you're here and that's all that matters"
  • •"I'm so glad that you're here"
  • •"You owe me an explanation."
  • •"So...what's new?"
  • •"Things have changed since the last time we saw each other..."
  • •"You're not leaving me again,are you?"
  • •"Will we ever meet again?"
  • •"Don't do this again!Please..."
  • •"I'll never abandon you again..."
  • •"You/I shouldn't have come back"
  • •"You/I shouldn't have left"
  • •"I brought you a gift.I hope you like it"
  • •"I'm so sorry for disappearing so suddenly"
  • •"I told you I would come back!"
  • •"Thank god I've returned in time to save you!"
  • •"[insert name here]?Is that you?"
  • •"Are you real?This must be a dream"
  • •"It's been so long since we've talked like this"
  • •"I have no good reason for excusing myself.I'm sorry"
  • •"I left because I...I.."
  • •"Let's sit down somewhere comfy.Tell me all the juicy gossip that I've missed!"
  • •"I have so much to fill you in.."
  • •"Things were much better before you/I left..."
  • •"You know that legendary dog Hachiko?I'm just like him.At least my patience paid off..."
  • •"I've/You've changed..."
  • •"So,how's it going with [enter convention topic here]?"
  • •"I see that nothing has changed while I was gone"
  • •"Nothing ever changes here"
  • •"Suprise bitch!Bet you thought you'd seen the last of me."
  • •"Well...I've waited here like I promised"
  • •"I thought I would never see you again"
  • •"So,what do you want to talk about?"
  • •"You didn't even try to look for me!"
  • •"You left me to die!"
  • •"I/You left because of [insert person/reason here]!"
  • •"I wasn't able to tell you at the time"
  • •"You/I could've at least said goodbye."
  • •"How dare show yourself here after all this time?!"
  • •"Next time,take me with you,ok?"