For the first time in months I felt so distant from you.
You’re sitting right beside me, but there’s this feeling in my heart I can’t construe .
I can’t feel you.
You have nothing to say to me and I have nothing to say to you.
My head is spinning, my throat is closing, its getting harder to breathe.
I close my eyes and open them hoping this is just a bad dream.
Hoping that we can go back to our pristine reality.
I know I ruined your night…
I know how you hate having to fight
I know no matter what you will always be right
& I know sometimes you and I have a different sight
But now I feel we no longer see eye to eye
Lacking communication and compromise
Caught up by the world I didn’t recognize
Our relationship was slowly approaching its demise
The thought of losing you makes me feel paralyzed
I assumed the worst and I sincerely apologized
Baby I just can’t picture you not right by my side
I love you now as I will love you to the end of time
I have grown so fond of you and your pantomime
You are effortlessly ravishing and far beyond sublime
I’m sorry I can’t satisfy all your needs
And I’m sorry I lack the stability to be the woman of your dreams
I’m trying my best, but I’m still not conciliating
You deserve infinite eminence and fidelity
I just want the best for you, and I thought that was me
But I feel more like a stone that’s tied to your feet
I’m sorry I disappoint you and persistently let you down
I want so badly to be the one to share your crown
You are a king in need of a queen and I struggle to hold my ground
I’m sorry I couldn’t be enough for you it was much too profound
But I know one thing for sure and it’s as crazy as it sounds
You are the only person that can utterly suppress my frown
That’s why I won’t stop trying until I turn this around
I need you in my life, you are the epitome of jubilation
There is no need for an argument or contemplation
Wherever you shall go I will follow with exhilaration
I haven’t told you this before, Call it a revelation
I talked to God about you for many years, no exaggeration
I described to him the characteristics of a man created from my imagination
A man with divinity, devotion and dedication.
A man who is worthy of my adoration.
A man who can handle my frustration and inclination.
A man who can give me his full concentration.
A man who isn’t reluctant to verbalization and proficient with communication.
A man who can be honest about his commiserations and meticulous toward my perturbation.
A man who will provide consolation and consistently assure me of his admiration.
A man who extols my visualizations and appreciates my intellectual conversations.
A man like you falls incomparably in this categorization.
You abruptly walked into my world with no rumination
I took a chance on you with some hesitation
The beginning inflicted some trials and tribulations
But we worked it out with confrontation and vindication.
The timing wasn’t providential & sure as hell wasn’t intended
But something in my heart felt so conflicted
You started to consume my thoughts and I was contradicted
I started to crave you like I was becoming unhinged you were my new obsession and I was so content
i fortuitously fell in love with my best friend.
No matter a fight, or a bad day just know that I’m not ever going away. Yeah I’m going to give you some space because sometimes that’s what situations entail, but I’m never giving up on us because my love for you will always prevail.
—Diverged Endearment (@tastemy—rainbow)