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Life is Strange Season 2 - CONFIRMED!!

Oh. My. God.

I almost lost hope that I would EVER be able to write a post with THIS kind of headline. A season 2. That all I ever wanted. Thank you so so much!!!

Now what do you guys think will go down in it? I personally think that they are going to make a complete new game with a complete new cast (and maybe setting). The story of season 1 (damn, that wired to say) is told, but I am 110% sure that Dontnod will hind at it or even hide Easter eggs (after all Michel was on the plane with Max, remember?). 

I do hope that they maybe now have the financial resources they need to make the game like they want to (and maybe not leave as many open question as they did with S1, pretty please?)

So what do you guys think will go down in season 2? Fell free to Ask/IM me :) 

-Love, Lena :)

Ostara Serpent Magic Tarot Spread

This spread aims to discover what slumbers within you. Cast in the shape of a serpent uncoiling itself. 

Here’s how my reading for myself went:

1. What is reborn this year? (The Sun) My joy and passion for life is reborn this year. I will be successful in my relationships, my goals, and my life in general if I allow this joy into my life. Good things are coming my way.

2. How do I activate my passion? (Queen of Cups) If am kind, openhearted, and generous with my love towards others, the world will return this energy to me and I will find my passion for life reinvigorated.

3. How can I stimulate my intellect? (Ace of Pentacles) I must continue to work hard at my writing and other intellectual pursuits. If I continue to make an effort, I will be rewarded and therefore encouraged to continue to work hard.

4. What must become conscious? (8 of Swords) I must acknowledge the way in which I let fear rule my life in order to overcome it. Too often I let fear trap me and keep me from going after what I want, and if I am to be open to all the good the world has to offer me, I need to overcome this by acknowledging it and actively working against this tendency.

5. How do I become an active participant in my life? (2 of Swords) I need to take charge, and stop living in denial. I can no longer allow others to tell me who I am or what I am capable of, and I must stop self sabotaging.

6. What does metamorphosis mean to me? (Knight of Cups) Metamorphosis to me means allowing myself to feel all the emotions that come along with change and self discovery fully and without shame. Without being able to feel and then process these feelings, the growth is impossible.

7. What can I uncoil and free? (The Hanged Man) This card seems less like an answer and more like a challenge (not uncommon for this deck, the sass is out of control). In order to set something great within myself free, I need to allow myself to look at life with a fresh perspective, and rethink some ideas I once held as absolute truth.

8. What message does the serpent whisper in my ear? (Ace of Cups) “Love yourself with the same generosity you love others. Life will improve.”

Dance Tip Of The Day!

Number 13 (?)

For the love of God please bring a tennis ball in your dance bag!!!

I know it sounds really weird, trust me I do, but a tennis ball has saved my life many many times

Imagine me, on a Saturday afternoon, I am in class from 8:30am to 2:30pm. Half way through my feet start to hurt. And I mean hurt. I go from ballroom to tap to ballet, I am in pain after those three classes let me tell you something. But you know what? I still have Musical Theatre after that. 

So I take out my motherfucking Tennis ball, put it under my motherfucking foot, and roll the shit out of that motherfucker.

It gets out every single cramp, all your aches, any pain, removes tight muscles, and makes it so that you can walk normally again.

So just, get a tennis ball okay?


anonymous asked:

(2/2) like "well what are we doing?" WE!!!! i couldnt even answer because i was so dumbfounded. im really excited to see him monday cause i get to tell him i passed my senior thesis and im really happy. i also decided that im going to tell him how i feel after graduation, which is most exciting. my whole life right now is just falling into place. i also am going to come back to this school and intern while i get my teaching degree. (this took forever cause i fell asleep mid typing)

2/2 Hey mate! Thanks for sharing!

declanbarr  asked:


blue: what do you do when you’re sad? listen to Gilmore Guys. take long walks. buy individual cake slices from the loblaws by my house and eat them while watching Community. sketch.  what are some things you do when you can’t sleep? deliriously ponder every embarrassing moment of my life. toss. turn. have conversations with the eight other Slytherins in my bed.  what was the best (non-romantic) night you’ve had?  when I was in my early teens, I would have sleepovers with the 6 other girls from my middle school class and we would always sleep over at Elizabeth’s house, which was in the country, and after watching horror movies (that I would no longer be able to touch), we would go roaming through the countryside at 2 AM and howl at the moon and lie down in empty fields and watch the stars and feel both monstrously alive and heartbreakingly small. I remember feeling the kind of scary happiness that has a strong undercurrent of melancholy and knowing that I would never be able to unlearn that feeling. what kind of covers do you have on your bed? they are lots of different kinds of purple and one kind of white. who is the last person you told a secret to? almost certainly Gabriel.  

green: what’s your favorite thing to do outside? go for long walks with podcasts, especially over bridges. do you like camping? I am sure I could learn to. what would you spend $1,000 on? I guess I don’t really understand this question.  If I had $1000 to spend with absolutely no responsibilities or ethical considerations, I would probably spend it on airfare back to Colombia. what’s your job, or what do you want to do as your job? my current job is being a grad student but (here’s a little secret that I’m not sharing with the rest of the world just yet) I just got accepted into midwifery. I think right now, my ideal job would be a midwifery professor/practising midwife/researcher. what’s your favorite article of clothing? I have a scarf that is really my mum’s scarf that matches everything I own and always keeps me the perfect temperature and has seen me through so much.

My depression is hitting pretty hard. I’ve had a lot of thoughts on my mind I can’t shake. I feel like I’m not doing anything with my life. I just had a group of friends graduate and one already has a graduate job, and others are telling me about their plans. I’ve had a couple mention they’re just looking for jobs, but for anything other than food service. And here I am, in a 6-2 repetitive job. I mean, I don’t hate it. But I’m not sure what I’d want to do, where i want to go. And after finishing this pet sitting gig, I feel down and kinda wish I had a pet of my own. I’m noticing friends usually only talk to me if I message them first. I don’t really get invited to anything anymore. It doesn’t help that I keep finding old pictures of myself and getting down on myself for not looking the same, even though I know I was a skinny and unhealthy kid and I shouldn’t be craving the unhealthy body I had and hating the healthier one I have how. I don’t know. I just feel empty, like I’m constantly trying to full myself with different little hobbies or games or whatever, and all I end up doing is tossing aside more things I used to love that I am now bored of.
Sorry, random night rant. Ignore me.

Quarter Life Crisis: Are you going through one?


Who knew there was such a thing as a quarter life crisis? Turns out there is an actual term for those feelings that settle in the pit of your stomach when you finally get around to doing adult things. You know that your heart sunk a little bit when you realized that those bills arriving were addressed to you and not your parents. Or how about that time that you set up your 401 (k)? It totally knocked the wind out of you, right? Maybe it didn’t but it turns out that a lot of people between the ages of 20-30 feel this pressure to be an adult, and this is causing everyone to freak the fuck out!

Somewhere in between graduating from college and setting your priorities straight you may have slipped into a….DUN DUN DUN! Quarter Life Crisis!

I have a feeling that I am currently in the throes of my crisis. Some of the telltale signs that your expressing a quarter life crisis is:

1)   Experiencing a lack of purpose in your life.

I am cant be the only that wakes up in the middle of the night after having a dream where I reenact Driving Miss Daisy with a cat as Morgan Freeman, and suddenly have no idea where I am. I do not mean literally, because obviously I am sleeping in my bed, but I mean figuratively on the road of life. After quitting my job as an investigator I have no idea what I am doing or where to go with my life.

2)   Comparing yourself to others

Now I know that I am not the only one that does this. Sometimes it’s hard not to feel inadequate compared to your friends or acquaintances that just got a promotion, new job, engaged, or who appear to have their life together. Especially since we live in a world that is so connected to social media. We can’t help but be bombarded my pictures, posts, and snaps of only the best in someone’s life.

3)   Everything appears to be too much to handle and you cant make a decision

There are so many tough decisions to be made when you are a grown up. Like, should you be responsible and set a bedtime or stay up all night watching Netflix and browsing Tumblr? Should you splurge on a great outfit or put money in a savings account in case of financial trouble? But more importantly you may have indecision about school programs or where you should live. It may accumulate in having indecision regarding your career or life choices.

There are definitely more signs that let you know that you may be in a quarter life rut, but mostly it is a feeling. It’s that feeling of having a want to do something more with your life but not knowing where to start. It’s the feeling that hits you in the morning when you wake up and you think, “Am I happy with myself and with my life?”

First things first, it’s okay to feel like this because truthfully most people do. Like, this thing wouldn’t have a term if most people where happy with their lives and knew exactly what they wanted to do. Contrary to popular belief you do not need to have all the answers. It can be hard living life without a road map but getting lost and exploring can be fun. Sometimes you start off thinking you should do one thing but realize that something else is more your style.

Secondly, take some time to unplug from the world! Put yourself first and realize that most people on social media only most the very best of their lives. Notice that you are valuable and amazing. Remember that you have things that are worth celebrating and never forget that you have worth. Sometimes we are too worried about other people and not worried about ourselves enough.

Lastly, kick it like Nike and do something! Just do it! Break the cycle of indecision by actually doing something. Explore and discover. Sometimes we get stuck with the “what if” or the “I don’t know” and never really try anything new. The first decisions are the hardest but set that bedtime, save that money, and pick that school program. Let us stop weighing ourselves down with inaction and kick it into gear.

So, even though we may be confused and unsure about life and it’s meaning, that is absolutely okay. We will get through this together!


get to know me: [2/5] favorite male biases - min yoongi

“When people heard that I wanted to make music, they would worry and say it’s not going to work. ‘If you make music, it will ruin your family.’ I’ve heard these things so many times…since middle school. After hearing these things, it gradually built up my worries. My favorite lyrics are ‘What am I doing with my life, this moment won’t ever come again. I’m asking myself again, am I happy right now? The answer is already fixed, I’m happy.’”

“Famous Heartbreaks” Justin Bieber imagine

anonymous asked: “Your both singers and have broken up and you perform a song and it’s about your relationship and get back together after the show??💟”

Warnings: heartbreak

Word Count: 908

Yes I did use Life Is Worth living lol I’m terrible at making up songs


2 months ago

“Justin, you always do this, you stay out until 2 am and come home drunk! I’m sick of it!” I shout, my voice going hoarse from all the screaming.

“Y/N I’m so sick of you always trying to control my life! How about you shut up for once, gosh why am I even with you?! You know what I’m done with you Y/N, get out of my house.” He hollers


“Just go…” His voice was much more calm and sensitive than it was before.

With that I packed all my things and left. My music equipment and everything, he really wanted me gone.


It’s been 2 months since Justin and I broke up, the first month I was a wreck. I didn’t eat for days and didn’t get out of bed until Ariana made me.

“Are you ready to go to the arena?” Chris, my manager smiles.

“Yep! Lets go!” I was mentally screaming, because to be honest, it wouldn’t be the same without Justin in the crowd cheering me on and spoiling me after every show. When we arrived at the arena, I see thousands of screaming fans outside with concert jitters. I notice some fans in the back of the venue waiting for me to come out of my tour bus, they looked about 15 or maybe 16, they were really pretty and I’m positive they’ll be meeting me again considering they have VIP necklaces on. I step out of the bus wanting to pass out from exhaustion, but I try to put on my best “I’m totally not tired AT ALL” face.

“OMG ASDFGHJKL ITS Y/N. YOU ARE MY MOTHER. LOVE ME I WANT TO LOVE YOU! GIVE ME YOUR FACE!” The first girl screeched. I don’t know what was more scarier, the fact that she actually said asdfghjkl or the fact she said to give her my face. The 3 girls huddled like a bunch of football players, probably telling one another to play it cool.

“oh my god Y/N I’m such a huge fan, I will forever ship you and Justin!” The 2nd girl said.

“Shut the fuck up, Emma, they broke up, remember? I’m pretty sure she doesn’t wanna here it.” The tallest girl nudged. Yeah because that really helps.  

I took a couple selfies with them and then walked backstage to the arena. I’ve never been this nervous to perform before. Maybe it’s because I’m singing a song that hasn’t even been released to the public yet, and it’s about Justin and I’s relationship, so I don’t know how that’ll go. It was finally time for me to go on after waiting hours and preparing for what’s about to happen. I heard one of my most recent songs boom in the arena along with thousands of screaming girls and guys, indicating that it was time for me to go on stage. My heel to my sexy leather knee high boots clicked on stage as I felt my heart race with anticipation.

“Hey my loves! Thank you for coming tonight! Are you guys ready!” My voice carried to the top of the arena. Everyone screamed.

“I can’t hear you guys! Are you ready!!??” Another roar of screams, this time louder. I knew they were ready. I played through all the songs that were on the set list, except for one, my “love” song.

“This next song is one I wrote about 2 months ago, that I haven’t released to anyone yet, but now you guys get to hear, enjoy..” I took the deepest breath I could as I strummed my guitar and sang the first verse of the song beautifully.

“Ended up on a crossroad

Try to figure out which way to go

It’s like your stuck on a treadmill running

In the same place.”

As I sang the through all of the hooks and chorus I was approaching the last words, I started to tear up, like really tear up.

“Life is worth living, oh yeah
Life is worth living, so live another day
The meaning of forgiveness
People make mistakes
Only God can judge me
Life is worth living again
Another day
Life is worth living again”

I sang the last part so angelically I even saw a few tears coming from the 2 rows in front. The crowd cheered and hollered until I walked off the stage. As soon as I went in my dressing room I slammed the door and started bawling my eyes out…until I heard a voice that was just to familiar to not forget. It was Justin.

“Wha-what are you doing here?” I sniffle, trying to look tough, but it doesn’t work.

“I was here the whole time, that last song you sang was beautiful, Y/N. Listen, I’m sorry for what happened 2 months ago, I fucked up big time, and I’m sorry. I never once stopped loving you. I wanna give this another tr-” I cut him off  by kissing him hard on the lips, he kisses back.

“Of course we can try again, I love you.”

“I love you too.”

Signs as the things I've heard my mom say

Aries - *sings* I’m making a delightfully white trash dinner

Taurus - there’s a Hemsworth in this movie. Don’t know which one, but does it matter?

Gemini - I hate my job

Cancer - *sarcastically* JUST LOVIN LIFE RIGHT NOW

Leo - *failing at speaking* How was your school? I mean- how’s day? I mean-…

Virgo - *wheezing laughter* *farts* *wheezing laughter gets slightly louder*

Libra - *knocks on my door at 3 am* Hey are you hungry I’m going to get a burger

Scorpio - *after walking a 0.2 mile trail* WE JUST WALKED 2 MILES


Capricorn - the Chewbacca mask lady is who I aspire to be in life

Aquarius - Justin Timberlake did bring sexy back

Pisces - *screaming at the GPS* SAY SOMETHING

This is a spread for the ones who are still in the closet! I created this spread for coming out, but I am sure it can be used for any other similar questions. Good luck! 

1. Current situation: What is my current situation? What do I struggle with? What am I afraid of? What is holding me back?

2. World around you: What will be the reaction that I am going to get? What will people around me think? 

3. Main problem: What will be the main problem I may struggle with after coming out? How can I avoid this problem? 

4. Solution: How can I solve this problem? How will the solution come to me?

5. Positive improvement: What will be a positive improvement in my life after coming out? What positivities will coming out bring to me?

6. General future based on coming out: How will things change? What is waiting for me? Which phases will I go through?

Please don’t take it seriously, I created it for fun and inspiration. I do not take any responsibilities if you use it for yourself -especially to make a decision. I am so sorry if there are any errors because of my english. Thanks to hermitdiviner and butterfly-effect12 for their suggestions about creating a tarot spread! 

Let me know if you try it! My ask is always open for questions and feedback. 

When their girlfriend falls asleep on their shoulder during a plane ride

Awww that’s such a cute request! I will do my best ^_^

Here goes~


Keeps giggling and grinning to himself. Everyone’s shooting him confused and weird glances but that doesn’t bother him, because he’s too happy at that moment.


‘’She’s so cute. Oh my god, what to do.’’

Soon after remembers that he really needs to pee.

‘’Shit. What am I going to do. I really need to go use the toilet. Be a man ChimChim, it’s just … 3 more hours. Oh god. I’m done for.‘’


Is going to take silly pictures with her while she’s asleep and makes various faces.

‘’Excuse me Mister? Could you maybe take some photos for me??’’


Doesn’t know how to act and is too scared too move, because he could wake her up.

Rap Monster

Kept talking for 2 hours, explaining her the meaning of life and only now notices that she fell asleep on his shoulder.

‘’Oh sure, I see how it is. Be that way, it’s not like I care or anything.’’ ugly pouting


Notices that she’s drooling on his jacket



Cuddles with you and falls asleep soon after, both your heads against eachother.

Accepting EXO, BTS and Monsta X reactions!!!^_^

Justin meeting your family for the first time:

Today was finally the day Justin was going to meet my family for the first time. Justin and I have been dating for about 6 months, and now we thought it was time to meet each others families. We didn’t want to meet the families if our relationship wouldn’t be serious, but our relationship is getting really serious, Justin even asked me to move in with him, and that was one of the things we would had discussed tonight. Justin would be over at 6 pm, so I still had an hour to get ready in. Justin and I had used most of the day talking to each other over FaceTime, but about half an hour ago Justin had to go, he wanted to look perfect tonight, and even though I told him he always looked perfect, he didn’t listen to me…
I got out of my comfortable bed and went into my bathroom, but as I got in there my brother Jake stood out there.
“Jake what are you doing out here? This is my bathroom” I whined, Jake is my big brother, so he was a lot taller than me.
“Gabriella is in my bathroom, and I need to get ready too! It’s an important night, I need to make sure Justin is a good boyfriend for you” he explained, I rolled my eyes and went over to him before trying to push him out of my bathroom, but since he is also stronger than me, I of course couldn’t!
“This drop it, I just need to do my hair, and then I’m out of here, it smells like girl in here” he said as he made a face, I groaned and crossed my arms under my chest and waited for him to leave my bathroom. Finally a minute later Jake left my bathroom. I locked the door behind him and stripped out of my clothes, then I went into the shower and showered.
10 minutes later I got out and wrapped a towel around my body. I unlocked the door and went into my bedroom again. I had already found my clothes, and I had decided not to be overdressed, so I would just be wearing a tight, black dress, a pair of black, see-through tights, my low, black converse and some silver jewellery’s.
I had on purpose not washed my hair, because I had made my curls this morning, so they weren’t too new, when Justin would be coming over. So now all I needed to do was my makeup, which was pretty simple, because I never wore much makeup, just some concealer to cover my dark spots, some powder and mascara.
When I finished it was 5.50pm, so Justin would be here any minute. I grabbed my phone and went downstairs, but as I walked downstairs Justin texted me, so I stopped walking and looked at it.
“I’m on my way, and I can’t wait to see you baby :*” he had texted, I awed and texted him back, then I locked my phone and went downstairs. I went into our living room and sat down beside Jake and Gabriella. Luckily Gabriella was also wearing a dress, so I didn’t look like a fool.
“You look beautiful sis” Jake said, I smiled and thanked him as I sat back and looked at my phone.
“So how is he?” Gabriella asked me, I furrowed my eyebrows and locked my phone again.
“How is who?” I asked her, Gabriella playfully rolled her eyes and smiled.
“How is Justin?” she asked him, I giggled and nodded my head as I blushed of embarrassment.
“He is really sweet, and he makes me feel so loved and so… me” I told her, Gabriella awed and folded her hands.
“You’re so in love, it’s so cute” she cooed, I giggled and nodded my head, because it was true, I was falling in love with Justin, and I didn’t even want to deny it, because I knew Justin was falling in love with me too.
“Don’t you think your sister looks in love?” Gabriella asked Jake, Jake scoffed and shrugged his shoulders.
“Come on Jake, you must let me live my own life now, you can’t protect me forever” I teased him; Jake scoffed again and rolled his eyes.
“I’m not protecting you,” he said as he looked away, I chuckled and looked at Gabriella who was also chuckling.  
“Whatever you believe,” I told him, and then I got up from the couch and went out to the kitchen.
“Is there anything I can help with” I asked mom as I smiled at her, mom shook her head and smiled too.
“No, you just got to make sure Justin feels comfortable, when he arrives, and make sure he knows your dad isn’t a mean person, he is just looking out for you” she said, I nodded my head and then the doorbell rang. I hurried out to the hall and opened the front door, and there he was standing in the doorway looking better than ever, he was wearing a grey suit with a black button up shirt and leather shoes.
“Hey baby” I smiled as I bit my lip, Justin nervously smiled, and then he embraced me.
“Aww, you bought my mom flowers?” I asked him as he pulled away, Justin nodded his head and took a deep breath.
“I am overdressed?” he asked me, I just shook my head and kissed his lips.
“No, my brother and my dad are also wearing suits” I told him, Justin let go of a breath and chuckled a little.    
“I don’t think I have even been this nervous” he chuckled; I smiled and grabbed his hand.
“You have no need to be, they will love you,” I told him, and then I kissed his cheek.
“By the way, you look amazing baby” Justin said, I awed and thanked him.
“You do too,” I told him with a smirk, and then I dragged him inside the house. Mom had made her way into the living room, so my family was gathered in there, even my dad…  
“Guys meet Justin” I said to everyone as we made it into the living room. They all stopped talking and stood up, and my dad was the first one to say hello to Justin.
“Justin, this is my dad Y/D/N,” I said as they shook hands.
“Hello Mr. Y/L/N, thank you for having me” Justin said, my dad smiled and nodded my head.
“Don’t call me Mr. Y/L/N, just call me Y/D/N, Justin” he said, Justin smiled and nodded his head, then he said hello to everyone else, and afterwards we went into the dinging room and sat down.
“So Justin, do you have any siblings?” Jake asked Justin as we ate, Justin nodded his head and swallowed the food he had in his mouth.
“I do, I have a little brother named Jaxon, and a little sister named Jazmyn” he explained, Jake nodded his head and looked over at me.
“Then you understand that I need to look out for my sister and make sure she doesn’t fall in love with a total douchebag” Jake continued, Justin nodded his head and smiled.
“I understand, and I will promise you that I’m not a douchebag, I will do everything for your sister, because she deserves everything in this world” Justin sweetly said as he looked my brother directly into the eyes. My brother looked a little skeptical, but even he changed the look on his face into a smile and nodded his head as he looked at me telling me that he had approved Justin. I let go of a breath and smiled at Justin. I kissed his cheek, then I started eating again.
“So Justin, what are you doing right now with your life?” My dad asked Justin, Justin looked down at me with a nervous look on his face; I just nodded my head telling him to tell my dad about his life.
“Well, I am a singer and I have been making music since back in 2009, but the last 2 years I have just been enjoying life, and I have been trying to get my life back on track after a horrible 2013 with a lot of problems” Justin explained, my dad nodded his head and kept chewing on his food.
“What kind of problems?” my dad asked him,
“Well, I thought I was better than everyone else, because I had – still have  - a lot of money, I got arrested, but I really do think that I’m getting better, and that’s because of your daughter” Justin continued, my dad smiled, and so did my mom.
“How has my daughter been helping you?” dad asked him, Justin looked down at me and placed a hand on my thigh.
“She made me wanna continue living my life, she helped me out of a really bad depression by just generally loving me for who I was and for who I am today” Justin said, I smiled and bit down in my lip as I placed my hand on top of Justin’s on my thigh and gave it a squeeze.
“Well, I’m glad she could help you” my mom said, I nodded my head, then I kissed Justin’s cheek, and he started blushing.

After dinner Justin and I went upstairs and into my room. My room wasn’t big, and I didn’t need that much space. But I did have an area in my room with my bed, and a lot of pillows. Justin opened his jacket and laid down on my bed, I lay down too and placed my head on his chest.
“I told you they would love you” I told him; Justin nodded his head and gently started stroking my hair.
“You’re right, and I’m so glad they do” Justin said, I nodded my head and closed my eyes.
“And I can’t believe they will let you move in with me, they were completely fine with it” Justin said, I nodded my head and looked up at him.
“I can’t believe I’m actually going to move in with you” I smiled; Justin smiled too and squeezed me tight. I sat up and crawled on top of Justin, I intertwined our fingers and bended down over him, then I laid my lips on top of his, and we started kissing.
This was a new start on life. I was finally going to live with the love of my life!  

A Day in the Life of a Working, Pumping Mom

A few months ago people were sharing their daily routines, which I found interesting, but I was at home with a newborn so a predictable schedule wasn’t even on the horizon. However, now that things are settled and I’ve been back at work for 2 months (!), I thought I’d share.

5:15-5:45 - Wake up, wash face, do make up, fix hair, brush teeth

5:45-6:30 - Nurse Ellie, change her diaper, get her dressed, kiss her sweet face

6:30-6:40 - Get myself dressed, leave for work

6:40-7:30 - Drive to work

8:30-9:00 - Pump

11:00-11:30 - Pump

2:30-3:00 - Pump

3:30-4:15 - Drive home, pick Ellie up from daycare

4:30-6:30 - Get home, let dogs out, wash bottles, go on a walk or run if possible, get dinner ready

7:00-7:30 - Eric gets Ellie ready for bed, I nurse her right after

7:30-8:45 - Shower, dry hair

8:45-9:30 - Get my breakfast/lunch together, prepare Ellie’s bottles for tomorrow, FREE TIME (for like 10 minutes)

9:30-10:00 - Pump, wash pump parts

10:15-5:15 - SLEEP! OK, who am I kidding… Tumblr, then sleep

Basically my life revolves around feeding Ellie. I know it won’t last forever, but damn it’s tiring. I don’t know what I’d do without my 2 work-from-home days every week. Without those I would never have the time to get anything else done, i.e. housework, laundry, etc. I don’t know how you moms do it who work full-time, 5 days a week in an office. Kudos to you.

This all reminds me… I was thinking back to the first week that Ellie was home. I posted the following:

I literally have no idea how mothers are able to tend to an infant and also go to work. Granted I’m just a few days in, but the thought of it seems impossible.

So just something for your new(er) mommas out there to look forward to. It DOES get easier. Things DO fall into place. Not easily, and certainly not quickly, but they do. Hang in there!

anonymous asked:

How do you deal with fuckboys?

  • no matter what they text u, reply like your favourite character would
  • when he asks u for nudes reply ‘is this some sick joke? my daughter died 4 years ago’ (continue to pretend ur the mom)
  • hide ur own number and call theirs and do nothing, just breathe like darth vader or whisper 'seven days’
  • flirt with them and then at some point go 'boobs? dude i’m a guy’ chances are his balls will shrink into his body and he’s never messaging u again
  • if u encounter one in real life and he tries to flirt with u, dismiss him by holding ur phone to ur ear and saying in an italian accent 'giovanni, i know i’m not supposed to call you during the operation but there’s this guy, he just talked to me. yes of course he saw my face. what am i supposed to do with him? uhuh. ok. got it. wait, do i dump the body before or after that?’
  • method 2: 'yes hello police? i’d like to report public sexual harrassment’
  • method 3: 'entry #1529: there’s another human male that seems to be attracted. little brain activity, weakly developed genitals.’
  • or just scream at him like a banshee until he leaves