what am i even doing hahahaha

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❝ Take care of my brothers? Screw you! They’re the ones who wouldn’t play with me! I didn’t do anything wrong. And what does being the oldest have to do with it?! That pisses me off most of all! We’re sextuplets! We’re all the same age! 

But then again… I am technically the oldest.❞

OKAY SIT DOWN EVERYONE IMMA TELL THE STORY OF TONIGHT (an incidental Hamilton reference) ANYWAYS YEAH

RECENTLY I started watching Thomas Sanders ( @thatsthat24 ) and tonight I was just really stressing out about life because I have this really important thing due in like 3 days and I haven’t even started it ahhhh but let’s not talk about that ANYWAYS I was feeling really anxious and I knew I was about to have an anxiety attack so I tried to think about ways that I could calm myself down and because I had just started watching Thomas my first through went to the character/personification Anxiety and decided - I don’t know /why/ I decided this - to try to make myself look like Anxiety. And it just gets cringier from here on out.

So I ran into my mom’s room and just like tore up the place and just pulled out some eyeshadow/eyeliner/eye makeup stuff whatever you call it and I just ran into the bathroom and shut the door and was just like “I can’t breathe I’m about to have an anxiety attack what a great time to finally figure out how to use makeup.” Now might be a good time to mention I have never done makeup in my entire life. Not on myself, not on others, and I never really thought I would ever actually wear makeup but like whatever . Anyways so I’m just like really new to the world of any sort of makeup related thing but I didn’t have any sort of clothing items that could remind me of Anxiety so I just decided “Okay I’m going to do the eye thing that Anxiety has” and so I just did that. 

Half way through it I realized I was grinning ear to ear and I wasn’t panicking anymore. I have never actually been able to successfully escape an anxiety attack before. I just want to send a thanks to Thomas for making this personification of Anxiety so I could put my own mind into perspective and it gave me the chance to get out of the way of an attack I’ve never been able to avoid before. Also, this me looking cringy as all hell after finally finishing it because I can’t makeup to save my life hahaha :

Thanks again, Thomas! And thanks to @bbg100 for actually getting me into Thomas Sanders (yes I started watching him after you mentioned him). This has actually been something really important to me. : ) To anyone who doesn’t think that YouTubers can help people, I am proof that you are wrong. 

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Okay soooo I cosplayed Izaya and Fem!Izaya at some anime conventions and decided to share some photos of me with you guys :v 

I’m a lame ass cosplayer ( wouldn’t even call myself a cosplayer) and really, not much I could do but it was so much fun tho! AND I even had my very own army of fangirls (and fanboys, lol Izaya magic), it was so so so heartwarming when people came to me for a hug or wanted a picture <333 (not like people react to izaya in drrr HAHAHAHA WHAT A LOSER) 

and I also found some Shizu-chans! it was fun to mess with them for a bit hahaha! 

and also I am a meme okay

I meme everywhere. (what a loser) 

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Ellie Goulding performing @ Victoria’s Secret Fashion Show 

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6 AM

I was gonna make a series of all the Aka members doing their thing at 6 am, but I just got to these hahahaha! Anyway, this is what I think each of them would be doing at 6 am. *in their own respective rooms cough cough* Old art, originally meant to be posted on my Naruto comic blog and end funny, but it didn’t come out funny… So I stopped drawing. It’s really sad, actually.

msamberpriley At #essencefest2015 and I just woke up about an hour ago. I know I look rough hahahaha but I wanted everyone to see how happy I was when I got up lol I am so grateful for the work I go to do here but also for the fun! I haven’t had this much fun in such a long time. I’m such a homebody lol but meeting so many dope ppl and being here with family and friends has made my summer! I even got to see my glee family ☺️ life is what you make it. Even when it’s not perfect, which it never is lol it’s worth it to try and find happiness wherever you can. I’m going to have an inspiring day because I’ve said so and because I’m determined to find it anywhere I know I’ll achieve my goal 💜 I love you guys, even the haters/secret fans. Lol