what am i doing with my life idk but i'm tagging this

anonymous asked:

I was salty about the changes in art styles in su until I read the tags in that post you reblogged. Thank you for educating me that they are VISUAL INTERPRETATIONS of the characters, rather than INACCURATE DRAWINGS of the characters. As an artist, I would feel awful if a lot of people criticized my art because they want it to look a different way than I had portrayed it. Sorry for being ignorant before. Yall work hard, and do an amazing job with the art on the show tbh

thanks! i mean i don’t work on the show, but i am pretty tired that nobody considers that boarders all have their own style and draw the characters in that style pretty darn consistently. i know who does “chibi steven”, who gives lapis what hair, and who makes peridot taller than others. none of that is a big deal to me - that’s how they interpret the characters, and there is no “on-model” version. it’s just your favorite vs least favorite boarder. 

it’s an annoying discussion, because it always turns into double standards: giving earlier seasons a free pass, comparing completely different boarders, or comparing it to shows that aren’t storyboard-driven. none of that is fair to me. i’ve even seen people - friends - get hate because they *gasp* had the audacity to show that “hey, this is kind of a thing with storyboard-driven shows, it’s not some scandalous, new ~crossing the line of animation quality :’( </3 ~ that su is doing”. 

people are allowed to not like ~inconsistency, even if intentional. i don’t care. but if animation “quality” matters that much to them, even when everything is intentional, even when each storyboarder is consistent in their own style, then, yknow… ok. keep raging on for another year, i hope it’s fun. 

i don’t say “get a life” often, but… geez. if they’re so focused on the fandom they either A) let a rage-bandwagon define how they feel B) focus all that time on something they legitimately hate, then… idk. i just feel bad for them. i’m not gonna answer asks about this topic anymore, though, whether positive or negative, cause here’s the thing: once you decide it is, every show is bad. literally anything can be accused of being shit, because this standard that you’ve decided is the “standard of quality” is defined by you. anyone can draw a line in the sand - i’ve done that with shows too. i just want people to be honest with themselves, on whether going out of their way to “prove” something su has always done - intentionally - suddenly makes it bad now is worth it or not. or whether they’re getting any enjoyment out of this at all. 

even underneath the waves, i’ll be holding on to you

aftg zombie au, “i want to go back for you”. warning: very long
basically, what would happen if neil and andrew were separated during an apocalypic situation.


The news says it first.

The world is ending and everything has gone to shit.

Nowhere is safe and nothing is okay anymore.

Nothing was ever okay, but they make it sound new, like this is something nobody expected to happen. Not here, never here.

It started with a virus. It was like the flu in every other way; the fever that kept people bedridden for days, the sickness and the headaches. It was like the flu in every other way but one: it slowly ate away at people’s insides, made living people into nothing but hollow hosts. Nobody would have expected a kindergarten teacher from the West to lash out her students but it was even worse when she bit one, and then he bit his mother three weeks later and she bit her boss. Like that, the vicious cycle continued. Everywhere there was panic, there was a disaster, there was death.

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HEYY LOVELY PEOPLE!! So I got to 600 followers overnight (it. was. rad) and I’ve been thinking about doing a follow forever for a while, so I’m doing one bc ily!!💕💕💕

I was going to do a regular boring follow forever, but earlier today Liz posted one (kinda) and I decided to steal her idea (don’t worry, she’s cool with it, I think) so lets begin…

@siriusblsck, ILY SO MUCH!! and you were probably one of my first followers lmao, and I love talking to you and every time I get a snap I’m hoping it’s from you, and sometimes it is, bc we do talk a lot, but sometimes it isn’t and it’s kind of a bummer bc I just wanna talk to you forever bc ily (did I already mention that ily enough? no? oh well…), you are definitely one of my bffs, if not my bestestest friend (yes I made up a word for you bc you’re awesome) also we like pretty much the same stuff, and you’ve come here and literally stood like 10 steps from my grandma’s house (STILL. FREAKED. OUT. ABOUT. THAT.) and we’re like the same person only different bc we have so much stuff in common!! (the 5 siblings thing still freaks me out too tbh) so yeah, you are awesome and ily and idk what my life would’ve been (would be) if we hadn’t talked about bridges that one time (past Ana is a life saver!!)

@fjrebolt AGHNBDKHJE ILY SO MUCH NAT!! you are like perfection in a little cute person, also you’re super funny and I wanna play cards against humanity with you again!! and everything you make is awesome and you like me (lmao I’m so lame) and I honestly don’t know what to say about you bc you’re just awesome!! OMG!! I LOVE YOUR VOICE!! (I know you hate that I’m so obsessive about this, but I want your accent bc it’s so adorable!!! XD) you make me want to just go where you are and just like, be with you, and maybe do nothing and just be… 

@foreverjily ok, ily and you’re like as random as I am and it sucks that time zones exist bc I wanna talk to you forever but when I get back from school its really late there and when its not I’m either at school or asleep!! + we always talk about random shit and I love it, we literally just had an honest conversation about the weather, the fucking weather!! I honestly think today’s conversation is the longest we’ve had, and thats sad bc I WANT TO TALK TO YOU MOOOORE!!! also I love how whenever we talk we end up talking about something completely different than what we started with (thanks again past Ana for talking to someone about bridges BRIDGES. ARE. COOL.)

@dailyprophet HANNAH!! when I first started my blog you were my idol (not that you aren’t now tbh), your blog is just perfection (just like you) and you gave me great advice to make mine better and ily!! also you are super cute and fun and just perfect!! 

@alrightevains SELEN!! ily and i love that we ship the same ships and I hate that you don’t have a cat even though you really want one!! idk, I just really like talking to you, you are awesome and ily

ok, I think I’ll stop writing about people bc it’s getting a bit repetitive, but here goes everyone else I follow, mutuals are in italics and mutuals I love the most but didn’t write above (even the once I did too lol) bc I didn’t want everything to be too repetitive are bolded

a-d

@acciosirius@aeryastark@aliciavspinnet @alydae @angelinajohnson @asktheboywholived @captofthesswolfstar @cedricdiggory @cho-chang @dailyprophet @delacor@dementvr @dracomalfoyl @drary @dumbleshook

e-h

@episkcyy @expelumos @fjrebolt @fleurdelaccvr @fleurdelacovr @foreverjily @ginnys @glnnyweaslcy @gxnnyweasley @hagridsrubeus @hcgwarts@hclenaravenclaw@herrmione@hjppogriff@hosgmeade@howlingremus

i-l

@jamespottersbutt @jamespottrr @jamespottuh @jesperfaehey @jilylicious @jilys @kingscross @littlescamandcr @lockhart-imagines @lordstark @lovely-remus @lumosinlove @lumox @lunalocegood

m-p

@maisiewilliaims @marcusflintwood @merlinssbeard @missprongs @mollyprewett @mxrcusflint @narcissxblack @narcsisa @nargles @newtonartemiscamandcr @ofjamesandlily @oliverswood @opuggno @padampatil @parqinson @pcctters @pctter @percivalsgravess @pickettboetruckle @potthr @praisemalfoy @puveblood

q-z

@quidditchplayer @ravnclaws @regulusblqck @regulusblxack @rgulusblxck @ri-ddikulus @rubeushagriid @rvenaravenclaw @rvnclawss @scamander-the-salamander @scamandernevt @scvrhead @shriekingshxck @siriusblsck @siriuslestrange @slytherin-pansexual-pride @snapslikethis @softeremus @space-marauder @tardisly @theboyswithasparebitofparchment @tonksnymphdora @vernondursley @weascleys @weosley@xxdrxco-mxlfoyxx

ILY ALL SM!! AND I WANT TO MAKE ALL THE ITALICED PEOPLE BOLDED PEOPLE!! CAN WE PLEASE DO THIS?!! JUST TALK TO ME!! I’M SUPER AWKWARD AND THE WORST AT TALKING TO PEOPLE, BUT I’M ALSO REALLY EASY TO TALK TO LMAO

if I missed someone please let me know!!

also if you think I should do something else to celebrate 600 besides this just send it to me on anon or smth

learngeo  asked:

Hey! Just saw your DBT spread and I was wandering if you'd have some more and would be willing to show them? I've been thinking about good ways to incorporate DBT in my bullet journal but am not sure how. Yours look lovely! I hope you have a good day!!

(i’m gonna post this if that’s okay???)

hey! thank you so much!!! <33 that was actually the very first DBT spread i’d done, as the ones before were printed sheets that my therapist gave me (which imo were so ugly LOL sorry @ my therapist)

i’ve still been using the same layout for my mood/action entries, just more neat so if u want a better/closer look this is a better pic

(this isn’t even as neat as it should be rip)

those are all just moods/actions that i personally struggle with most. at my clinic, everyone’s DBT entries are customized to keep track of their personal struggles, so if you do plan on making DBT entries (if u don’t have one/made one already) then i highly suggest asking ur therapist to help u customize one or making one for urself even. 

this was the original layout for my diary card in case u were wondering what the hell any of that means LOL

in addition to this though i wanted to have some personal things i wanted to keep track of, like sleep, medication, hygiene, and whether i’d actually filled out the diary card LOL so this is the tracker page that i use

believe it or not, i actually used a ruler while drawing those lines smh i have such shaky hands LOL

so yeah, this is kind of basically what i do to make it a little less boring to fill out my dbt entries. 

i hope this helped!!!!

How to Hand out a Resume

Updated version of my previous guide.

  • Always ask to speak to the manager or the person currently in charge (i.e. the assistant manager or the team leader.) The manager is the one hiring; they’re the one you want to impress. In some highly competitive retails, some sales associates will throw away your resume before it even gets to the boss(es). 
  • If you’re being accompanied by a friend or a family member, ask them to wait outside while you hand out your resume. Do not let them enter in the shop with you. Do not let them stand beside you as you speak with the manager/the person in charge. It’s unprofessional!
  • If you’re handing out resumes with a friend, do not apply at one place at the same time. Take turns instead.
  • I don’t know if it’s only a personal pet and peeve, but I utterly hate when people’s first question is “Hello, are you currently hiring?” It makes it as if you’re only interested in the workplace if they’re hiring. Maybe currently they are not, but in a few weeks they will? Maybe someone will suddenly quit and they’ll have to dig in old resumes?  
  • “Hello, may I speak with the manager or the person currently in charge? It’s for an application.”
  • “Hello, my name is ___.” Insert handshake here. “I am looking for a part-time/full-time job and I’d like to apply here. Here’s my resume.”
  • Know what you want. I’ve witnessed so many people answer “I don’t know” to the questions they were asked. 
  • On that note: Always be ready to answer some basic questions. Prepare the answers before you go, it helps looking confident. The most common questions are: 
    • How many hours do you want? What are your availability?
    • Which position are you aiming for? 
    • Why are you applying here? (to which you can easily answer: “It’s near home”, “It fits my interests”, “I’ve heard some good stories about working here”, etc. Do not lie though. Be truthful.)
    • Do you have any experience in that particular field? (if no, “No, but I want to learn”. If yes, “Yes, I have worked here and here”.)
  • Smile. I swear to God, the only reason I have my current job is because my manager was “charmed by my smile” (to put you in context, they just had hired someone and they weren’t looking for anyone else.)
  • Put one ounce of extra care in your appearance when handing out resumes. Tie your hair if you need to, do not apply in your school uniform, put your bestest clothes and look genuine. Also, please remove your shades when speaking to the employees…
  • Do not look in hurry. I know handing out resumes can be stressful and anxiety makes you want to get the Hell out of here as soon as possible. But trust me, even if you look like a earthquake of cracked nerves and stress, you’ll do good if what you say is good.
Something just like this

I LOVE this song and I wanted to write about it for a long time so here it is.

LogicxPrince (tagged as Logince)

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“I want something just like this”

Sometimes, Logic found himself laying on his bedroom, reading a book about champions and knights and princes and super heroes. At the same time, he liked to listen to a song that talked exactly about that, about risks that would be taken if one fell in love with any of those categories of people. And honestly, being a person that hates taking risks almost as much as Anxiety, he found it hard to let go and just imagine what his life would be like if he had a lover with all those attributes.

But one day, he had been tired, working on a project for at least two days straight with less than five hours of sleep, so when he got to his room, all he could do was put on the song ‘Something just like this’ and close his eyes, trying and failing to get some well deserved sleep.

Because of his failed attempt, he decided to open his eyes and stare at the starry sky over his bed, smiling at the brightness of the galaxies, the mystery of the nebulas. He loved that their rooms could be anything inside Thomas’ mind, because sometimes it was the only place where he could truly relax.

And that day, thinking he was alone, he imagined in the end of the sky a castle. A space castle. And from there, a constellation prince came closer, reaching out for him, trying to take him by the hand and failing because he was sky and Logic was earth. They could never unite.

And then, someone opened the door, and both the prince and Logic looked down to see the actual Prince staring at them, confused and obviously admired.

Logic had forgotten the door open. Shit.

“R-Roman!” Logic said, his room suddenly losing all its beautiful attributes and becoming, well, his usual room with grey walls and white ceiling and wood floor. “What are you doing here? Don’t you know how to knock?”

“I did, but you didn’t answer” he said, walking inside and smiling at Logic. “That was beautiful. Who was he?”

“He? He who?” Logic asked, looking away, but Prince chuckled, closing the door before rushing to sit next to Logic.

“The prince in the skies” the royal said, smiling. “Is he your lover? The one person that you love?” He asked, excited, and Logic frowned, laying down and curling up with his back to Prince.

“I don’t love anyone. I don’t know what you’re talking about Roman” he mumbled, closing his eyes. He was tired, and he didn’t want to discuss the subject. He really didn’t. But Prince was different from the others. He had no sense of personal space.

“Come on Logan” he said, taking the teacher’s hand. “I know that’s not true! Tell me who it was! Is it someone or is it just an imaginary lover?”

“More latter” Logic mumbled, and then slowly turned back around, staring at their joined hands. “Stop touching me”

“Alright” Prince said, letting go from him and grinning. “Now tell me. Tell me everything”

“Ugh…” Logic groaned, rubbing his eyes and sitting up. “Do you know the song 'Something just like this’?” Prince nodded. “Well, it really speaks to me… For some reason. You know, I read so many fiction books, from Aristoteles’ scholar texts to Fifty Shades of Grey, and yet nothing, nothing comes close to my passion for Princes and Knights, like the ones from King Arthur and those tales from the Dark Ages, or even Robin Hood. It’s so weird that someone like me has such… Interest in people like them, driven only by their courage and beliefs” he said, sighing and looking at Prince. “I don’t know…”

“I understand” Prince said, smiling softly at Logic. “I honestly never thought I would have a crush in such a strict and smart teacher” he continued, smile becoming a smirk, and Logic’s tired mind took at least a minute to understand what those words meant. And when he did, he blushed lightly and looked up at Prince again.

“That’s not what I meant” he said, weakly, but Prince shrugged, holding his hand again.

“Well, I’m the closest you will get” he said, tangling their fingers and making the teacher blush deeper. “I can be your knight, if you want”

“Roman, what are you d-” Logic tried, but soon the royal was leaning in and pressing their lips together and Logic took two seconds to melt, his free hand going up to Prince’s hair, pulling him closer and kissing back in the most excited way.

And even though Roman was no real knight, Logan had to admit:

It was better than any of his dreams.

anonymous asked:

hi arc can i ask a question that seems a bit silly even as i write it? how do you keep being so brave about your fanwork? i used to post a lot of fic when i was younger before all the like holier than thou purity politics stuff happened. but the purity politics stuff sort of... made me scared to interact with fandom? like i want to write and post the fics i have ideas for but i'm SCARED and i don't really know how to?? stop being scared i guess? idk i can't really get my thoughts down now sorry

(scared anon) i just guess i was wondering if you had any advice on like pushing past that fear and just doing fanwork without being scared of how people might react?

Oh, honey.

Christ, lemme think about it….

1. I flat out do not follow any “main” tags. In RT, I never followed #ragehappy. In Borderlands, I never followed #rhack or anything. In HS, I don’t follow any ship tag. So I literally do not see most negativity. This is helpful because people like being dicks in tags and to put their shitty vagueblogging in there, but are often too fucking cowardly to come at you personally.

90% of the time, my awareness that people resent me for having “””impure””” popular fics comes from friends giving me a heads up that someone is talking shit. And when they do, I block that person.

2. Relevant to the above: It took me a long time to understand that people resent my fics being popular, not their actual subject matter. It’s a jealousy thing. I have written some filth that never got really popular, and no one gave a shit. It’s only when I start getting a lot of comments and kudos that suddenly I’m the Great Satan. Keeping in mind that bitches be jealous super helps.

Most recent example: people didn’t start to talk shit about ASAFAF until I started to see fanart based on the story. C’mon.

3. I genuinely believe in the diversity of stories we tell. Like, gushing gold is a great example of a fic I deeply enjoyed writing and sharing, but that I also knew was not for everyone. But it was for some people.

When you are writing a subject matter that you are passionate about, understand that other people are going to be passionate about it too. There are people who need difficult or uncomfortable stories told to affirm they aren’t alone, to help work through rare subject matter, to just enjoy in a world that doesn’t offer them much media.

No story is for everyone, but every story is for someone. Take pride in that.

4. No, really. Block people. Block anyone who makes you uncomfortable, and never look back.

I know it’s apparently a Thing, to block someone, then check in on them? I don’t do this. Once someone is blocked, they no longer exist in my universe.

5. Avoid younger fans. This obviously applies to older fen like me, but broadly speaking, this purity politics culture comes from younger fans attacking older fans, and a lack of understanding that Fandom is a place for a wide group of people with disparate experiences and interests.

Not all young fans are part of that, obviously, but… if someone young enjoys my stuff, I’m glad. I hope they like it. But I avoid deep discussion and interaction and attempts to befriend me, because I am 27 years old and write porn on the internet and shouldn’t be talking to young folks. If anyone doesn’t understand the logic of that, for my protection and for theirs, that is genuinely not my problem and I’m sure they’ll figure it out later.

Boundaries: they are important for adults as much as kids. Enforce them.

6. …

A lot of it is that I’ve been in fandom for over half my life now. I’ve seen a lot of shit. I’ve been through a lot of shit. (Anyone remember that pissant who tried to report me to the government because I told them to stop harassing me after +6 months of bullshit? lol) I’ve had great fandom experiences and I’ve had ones I would love to hit Undo on.

There are amazing people in fandom and there are fucking hilariously awful shitheads in fandom. The majority of people are decent, and they enjoy what I do, and if you start making content and sharing it, you will find people who enjoy what you do. There are people who follow me who shoot me out of the blue supportive Asks on bad days, who read my fic even when they don’t know the source material, who encouraged me to write my book and then bought the damn thing.

The purity police are scary, abusive fuckers. But they are not the majority, and the less you interact with them, the less they can affect you. They want an opponent, they want someone to fight so they can play victim, they want to be the Valiant Warrior Of Purity.

Ignore ‘em. Make them take their boring pedantic morality play elsewhere.

ETA: 7. Don’t fight the purity police and don’t try to convince them or win them over. It literally never works. These are people who are in a bad place and you cannot move them from that place. Only they can, when they grow the fuck up. Don’t do it. You will not win, you will expend energy on people who gobble it up to fuel their shitstirring and vagueblogging, and they will just know they can successfully antagonize you.

Take that annoyance and frustration. Channel it into writing more rad shit. 

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I hope this helps at all, anon. Remember, also, that the AO3 is your friend, and you can keep your tumblr and your AO3 a little bit separated. That can help.

Dearest Dean,

I’ve chosen to write you this letter instead of telling you myself. You always thought it was more meaningful to have things in writing. So you could keep it and look back on it with a fond memory. Also I don’t think I could get through all I have to say without tearing up.

I know it’s been a long time since we’ve seen one another. Believe me, I know. And for that I’m sorry. Every day I think about you. About the last time we saw each other. What you asked of me and… I’ve been giving it a lot thought.

I love you. I miss you. So much and I can’t bare to be this far away from you when I could be holding you in my arms at night. What I’d give to lay my head on your chest and feel you sing. Feel your chest vibrate with the low rumble of your voice I’ll never be able to hear.

There’s been times in my life where I thought about giving up. I had an awful childhood and an even worse young adulthood. Then you came along and things changed. Sometimes it’s been too much for me to handle by myself but when I’m with you, I feel like I don’t have to worry about my past. You know my demons and yet still want to be with me.

You still want to marry me.

It’s strange. Marriage used to be abhorrent to me and with good reason. I didn’t have the best relationship role models growing up. Now though… Now though I couldn’t think of anything I’d rather do more. Than to marry you. To be your husband. To grow old with you. And even though I won’t be able to hear your beautiful voice say those vows I’ll know you’ll mean them. Because that’s who you are. And I know you.

These two months apart have been pure torture and I miss you so much. I miss how you furrow your brow just slightly when you try to focus on something. I miss the little pout you make when things don’t go your way. I especially miss the way you mouth the words to your hands forming words I can’t hear. You’re so special to me, my love. And I’m sorry it’s taken so long for me to come around. I love you and I will for eternity.

So I’m here… If you’ll have me.

All you have to do is reach out and accept this ring. Spend this Christmas with me planning our wedding.

I love you with all that I am, my being. Please, say yes.

Love Cas,
The man (probably already in tears) kneeing before you

SO, I reached 300+ followers a time ago and I was shook ( did you all come through my mirror when I wasn’t looking or? ).  I can’t believe it but to be honest, this is not about how many followers I have but about saying “THANK YOU”  to some people that make writing here one of the most amazing experiences ever and are basically the reason why I am here, my true motivation besides my everlasting love for this Soprano that conquered my life completely and this story that breaks my heart in the best way possible. Great blogs that I simply love having on my dash, people that are so talented that make me speechless every time I read anything they write, and those who I consider now my friends, some all of those things combined because you are all so amazing that I can’t put into words. People that I love talking to and annoying the hell out ( sorry not sorry ). So yes, this is a thank you. A very sappy thank you by the way but it is not my fault that you all make me so damn emotional. I wish I could tag and write about every single one of you, but that would be the longest (ye boi) crying text ever.

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anonymous asked:

So I've been looking at the tumblr lifting community's posts for awhile now and I'm obsessed and amazed; I've never lifted before but I really want to it looks so fun and I want free cute shit, but I'm so so scared!! How do I get over that and what/where would you recommend lifting for my very first time ever? Any tips or advice? I worship y'all 🙏🏼

oooookay lil nugget here we go.

first off - its okay to be scared. its actually better if you keep a little piece of you thats always scared, no matter if you’re experienced or a beginner. thats something that helps you keep track of what’s going on around you and helps you not get caught. when you get cocky or over confident, thats when trouble starts.

i cannot stress how important it is to start small.
start small.
start sosososososo small.
smol

like a lipgloss from walmart or one plain shirt from old navy. maybe a lil pack of beads from hobby lobby. whatever you do, do it small.

this lowers the chance of you getting caught, and the chance of you freaking out more.

do this a couple times. lil thing here, lil thing there. this builds confidence. the more confident you are with yourself, the more likely you are to start pulling in bigger hauls.

be patient. dont rush anything. this is by no means a competition. this whole process of confidence-gaining takes weeks, maybe months for some people.

and another thing - the majority of us on here that are pulling in a shit ton of stuff? we’ve been doing this for years. ive been lifting for 3/almost 4 years now. do not feel like you have to hurry and catch up to us.

secondly -do your homework. read through people’s tip pages on here. read about hooks, magnets, detachers, keys, all the different types of security tags, concealment methods, horror stories - ANYTHING. everything will be helpful down the road. read up on how other people got caught so you dont make the same mistakes. read up on how that girl managed to bag 3 naked palettes and 15 Kat Von D liquid lipsticks. learn about cam placement and how JCP Sephora is a place to stay away from. learn SA behavior and how to tell if they are being nice or plain sus. Learn how to tell if a bag is going to be a good lifting partner or if its going to be a hassle getting things inside. get familiar with every aspect of this community. follow as many people as you can. get inspiration from everyone. learn this life. live it. breathe it.

thirdly - try and pair up with an experienced buddy. i have found this to be so helpful. you get to see first hand how they do what they do. you get to see them in action, and learn their methods. however, know that going out with more than 2 other people is sure to get you noticed and tailed. keep the lil lifting group to either a pair or 3 people. make sure you can trust them. make sure you know them.

STORES:
Old Navy: they dont tag anything other than heavy coats and sweaters, some dresses, jeans, and in the summer some shorts. i re-vamped my whole wardrobe this summer courtesy of ON, but ive seen on here that they’ve started source tagging…. which makes me sad. so double check before you out anything into your bag.
Hobby Lobby: there are like 7 cams per store all focused on the cashiers. go crazy. get your much needed art supplies. this is a great store for beginners - and other lifters who love crafting.
Cotton On: nothing, and i mean NOTHING is tagged. idk why, but these hoes never tag anything and it makes me wonder what they’re even doing. i got christmas gifts for my brothers here this year, so i highly recommend this store. super easy.
Dillard’s: do not let the large size of the store intimidate you - this place is heaven. sometimes you’ll get lucky and somethings been left off the rack and untagged. sometimes theres that teally cute wallet that you’ve wanted for a while and it doesnt have a single tag on it. go for it. conceal in the dressing rooms. trust me. formal dresses? no tags. (from what ive seen, and ive been to 3 Dillard’s in 2 different cities.) their desinger jewelrythat they keep down there? go for it. none of its source tagged or anything. i walked out once with 5 pairs of mate spade earrings and 2 wallets worth the 100 each. just pay attention to your surroundings and you’ll do just fine.

TIPS:
- in the winter its cold as dicks, so wear sweaters. utilize these babies for all they’re worth. 1. sleeves are great for concealing small items like jewelry and lipsticks. 2. “i am so hot from all this shopping, is it okay if i have one of your bags to carry my sweater in? i would really appreciate it” (note: this only works with really nice SAs. some will be bitches and shut you down. you might have to try a couple of stores before you get one. and now you have a free shopping bag!) 3. put your purse in the crook of your elbow and drape your sweater over it. this helps conceal how big your purse is to begin with and hide how much its increased in size when you’re walking out. 4. idk they’re warm and fuzzy. they make me happy.
- boots: stick things in there in case you forgot your purse or something. you can stick small things like jewelry and face masks down in there, its great.
- go through your mom’s closet. or your aunt’s. grandmother’s. rich best friend, i dont care. more often than not, they have a couple of extra shopping bags from stores they’ve been too. my mom has Bath and Body Works for days, along with a couple of Coach bags and Ralph Lauren. these shopper bags can be used in the same way as a purse for hiding things in them. hide them in yoir bag on the way into a mall, and then in the bathroom, take out your lifted clothing and stuff one of the bags. that way, when you walk into other stores, the SAs think you’ve bought things from other stores. be careful and know the layout of the mall you’re in though, because if you’re carrying around an Urban Outfitters bag and theres no UO, then you’ve gone and fucked yourself.
- be cautious, be wary, and not get greedy. get in, get out, and live to lift another day.

hope you’ll find some use for all this nonsense, good luck on starting your hobby of lifting and i hope to see some beautiful hauls from you guys!

taekook fic rec #3

PLEASE feel free to recommend me any of your favorite BTS fanfics (any ship), because I will read them. Also, please let me know if you liked any of the stories I recommend!

IMPORTANT: All of the fics I rec will be on a scale of 8 to 10. (8- really good, happy I read it.  9- amazing, I loved it! 10- perfect, one of my favorites. [*]= top fave)

Enjoy and happy reading~


  1. Hit and Run

Summary: Jimin and Jungkook have been the top hitmen duo in Seoul since the day they picked up their first revolvers and shot a man without a second look back. But when they cross paths with a skilled hacker by the name of Kim Taehyung, things start to change up a little.

AU: Hitmen 

Rated: M

Length: 4 chps, 27.3k words

Warnings: Some violence and language  

My Review: Wow….I am so pleasantly surprised. I enjoyed this SO MUCH. The characterization was so on point along with the plot, romance, humor,…. everything. I never thought I would read a hitmen!AU for some reason and yet here I am today. It’s one of my top favorites. 

My Rating: 10/10 

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anonymous asked:

I agree with the critical post you reblogged but i dont get what you mean by their pasts are being obliterated? The virignal coding of emma?

This took a while, but I really wanted to think about it, and it’s still messy and vague, so be ye warned. To be honest, this reply got backspaced a load of different times because you got me really considering the depths of why I feel this way.

My immediate answer was that what I see (in this whole 6B arc especially) is Killian Jones, previously defined by his previous role of command, the things he holds sentimental and dear, his visual cues, and his familial ties having all that tucked away or dismissed in favour of neutralising his threatening (in many ways) past and defining his happy ending as becoming Emma 2.0: Storybrooke deputy.

With Emma, it’s less striking, because it’s Killian that’s assimilating to her world, but it’s there, too, but more subtly? Emma whose points of pride are her ability to find people and to read people having those things neutralised to allow for plot to move forward in a suitably dramatic fashion (see: not reading Killian at all and not looking for him when he was missing)?

That rankles me, but that’s not really an answer, I don’t think. Why does that rankle me? Why do I feel so bone-deep that these things that I see being swallowed by the narration are something that the characters hold as dear as I do? Maybe they’re OK letting these things go as they evolve into their new lives happily ever after?

But that’s the thing. That’s the reason why. I just posted this bit earlier because it kind of hit me like a ton of bricks: the reason why the “happy ending” we’re getting for these characters feels strange and ill-fitting to me, is because I’m trying to define their happy endings by what I’ve actually seen them happy about on the show, not just what makes them not sad/stressed/angry, and I’m not seeing those very, very, few things reflected at all in what we’re getting.

I think one of the problem this show has, is that it doesn’t really do a great job of establishing sources of joy for its main characters. Supporting characters are often given a passion that exists as the key to solving a dilemma: Merida has her archery, Ariel has her collections, and even though she’s more than a bit role, Belle has her books. Hell, Henry has his music, movies and writing, and Regina has her horses. We’ve seen these characters light up like Christmas trees when talking about these things. I can picture Ariel as a museum curator in a heartbeat because I know that tending a collection is something that makes her little merheart sing (free AU prompt! Omg come on that would be adorable!)

So what is it for Emma and Killian? When do we see them excited and happy about things? When do they describe their pleasure?

Not fucking much, tbh.

(haha my long winded ass continues below the cut!)

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anonymous asked:

Anon again—if gender is a social construct, then how can one be transgender or cis? I wasn't calling trans ppl sexist, I just mean the idea that gender is integral to ppl at all is sexist bc that implies m/w are different naturally, which they're not. When I say I just am my gender, I mean that not bc I innately feel it, but bc it's what I've been told my entire life? If I were a dude tomorrow I'd be freaked bc it's different than what I usually see down there, not bc I'm a dude? Idk...?

I promise you, I have NO intention of hurting feelings or triggering people. If you don’t want anymore of my asks, I understand, I can ask someone else bc I don’t want to upset you. I’m not questioning/disputing the validity of how trans ppl feel, I’m curious as to what “being a girl/boy/nb” means. Let me know if I need to stop, there are other ppl I can ask if you’d rather me not ask you two.

Gender is a social construct, so, in essence, gender is what you make it. Gender can be something that you never really think much about nor care about, or gender can be very important to you. Just because a person is trans doesn’t imply that their gender is integral to them. Many people don’t view it as a major aspect of who they are. But even if gender was integral to someone, perhaps a person who questioned for a long time and finally realized what their gender was, I don’t see how that is sexist. You need to take into account that there is a large nonbinary transgender community, and therefore it isn’t fair to make assumptions about the trans community based on the binary. Essentially trans people (those closeted as kids) were told their entire childhood that they are a gender that they feel is wrong. It’s great for you that you we’re called “little girl” and “miss” when you were little but for afab trans kids that makes us cringe. It just feels wrong. We know in our beings that this gender that has been pressed upon us is not who we are.

You aren’t hurting my feelings or triggering me (though I do encourage followers to chime in if they need me to tag these threads for triggers), on the contrary I enjoy that you are curious as to what the trans community experiences, and I hope that reading my and others thoughts on the topic helps to expand your knowledge. 

Followers feel free to reblog with your opinions!

- Casper

  • What she says: I'm fine
  • What she means: Why was Klavier Gavin's backstory and character never explored in-game? He had so much room to be developed as a character. His relationship with Kristoph was only touched upon for a few moments, through actions and not words. If Klavier had spoken about Kristoph and his home life with him at least ONCE; the ending would have been much more powerful. Although it is not likely that Klavier would come right out and say this, seeing as his emotional walls are built up higher than Mount Everest and he uses humor and dazzling smiles to brush away serious topics (not as though capcom made that 100% clear through actual development, it was left up to fans to analyze his character as I am doing right now); they could have easily have Apollo become concerned for him and percieve the truth. Seriously, they had a lawyer who's whole schtick was being a human lie detector and a rival prosecutor who is constantly fake to hide his emotions, and they didn't go that route even once? It would have done wonders for their relationship and later interactions. Like, idk, one theory why they didn't do this is because they realized how fucking gay they made miles and phoenix in the trilogy and they didn't want to do the same thing with klavier and apollo but that clearly isn't the case seeing as they introduced him with klavier saying that he's "never felt this way with a man" + his constant not-subtle flirting throughout the game afterwards. Back to the point, literally every other prosecutor and their relationship with the main defense attorney (for the sake of not spoiling some of the lesser-played games, I will only cover the trilogy) was by far superiorly developed. Miles and phoenix do not need an explanation, Franziska (although, she is a character who I personally believe needs more attention and development unrelated to her father. I recognize the impact manfred had on her is incredibly large, im just pissed b/c wow shocking a female character who's development is largely revolving around a man what a surprise. However, that is a topic for another day) had a clear desire to take revenge on phoenix for her father (though later we would find out that that wasn't completely the case) and the events of jfa were the start of her realization that perfection is not everything (though she has still not gotten there yet). In addition, she was further developed in both of the investigations games. Godot (ugh) was given a very personal backstory, and despite the fact that he was a sexist character (Klavier falls in this category too, due to his 'fraulein' comments but honestly??? this germanyaboo probably doesn't even know what he's actually saying) who LITERALLY murdered someone, we are constantly thrown lines such as "a lawyer doesn't cry until it's all over" because capcom wants us to feel sorry for him. However, the tear-fuel for klavier we get is one short conversation between him and kristoph (which, I will admit, made me cry... but that's probably due to my immense love for this character). Which is okay in itself I suppose, however, it is a relationship we know??? barely anything about??????? Yes, we know it was clearly not a good one, thanks capcom for the immense detail. When I first played apollo justice i thought "Okay, I guess this is fine, I mean they surely develop him more in the sequel, right?"; but I was sadly disappointed because 1. apollo justice never got a sequel (what the FUCK) and 2. klavier's appearence in dual destinies CLEARLY was simply to get us to "shut up" about him not ever getting any attention, and he didnt really do anything of strong importance. Klavier gavin had so much potential as a character and capcom fucking blew it. Now, though I love these jokes as much as the next person, I get to see klavier being summed up as "the gay fake german piano guy lol"; occasionally finding one or two fanfictions of him being an actual person. There are so many things capcom could have done with him and i am thoroughly disappointed. And another thing, what the FUCK is up with his dd voice acto

anonymous asked:

This is a weird question to ask but fuck it, ive been feeling things. Am I still bisexual if I feel a more sexual attraction to girls but yet a more romantic attraction to boys? Like seriously the thought of having sex with boys weirds me out but if a girl was looking for a relationship idk what I would do? I'm so confused help

Okay well your romantic and sexual attraction can definitely be separate and it can be super complicated so if you feel like the way you experience that attraction can fit under the bi umbrella then you go for it. It’s definitely possible to be romantically attracted without being sexually attracted. However I feel it’s necessary to add that a lot of girls can feel like this before coming to terms with being a lesbian. You could possibly be experiencing compulsory heterosexuality and some internalised homophobia. Often when a girl is experiencing compulsory het she feels weird about being sexual with the opposite gender but being romantic isn’t bad because you’re sort of expecting that your whole life and romantic relationships can be pretty similar to friendships. And some girls often think they are asexual heteroromantic before later coming to terms with being a lesbian. The reason there’s so much confusion is because often the thought of being romantically attracted to a girl feels wrong or you can’t imagine it and a lot of times that’s just because it’s different than the images you’ve been shown your whole life, whereas the sexual attraction is easier to recognise because it’s more physical

That being said I don’t want to push you towards the lesbian label because that’s something you have to reflect on and figure out for yourself and it’s definitely possible to be heteroromantic homosexual and identify as bi or to experience attraction to both genders differently but in my personal experience the feelings you described are really common in someone experiencing compulsory heterosexuality. I hope this information is helpful and that you figure things out and it gets less confusing come talk to me anytime you need ily

anonymous asked:

idk why that is but i do not get the feeling that you are really grateful for your readers? like yes you thank compliments but you don't do anything at all to express ur gratitude and i think it's sad especially because you're such a good writer...you may disagree and i know that your life outside of tumblr is probably busy as well but the least you could do is write a proper thank you message to all your followers once you hit a milestone..i'm not saying ur a bad person 1-2

2-2 i just wish you would interact more with ur followers (yeah ur answering questions, but doin an ask game once in a while is not a big deal i believe) or doin polls for anything so that also your readers can decide what they would like to see. i am aware that you are a great writer but we all want some sort of recognition and your readers provide it, and i think we all would love to get to know the writer behind the stories more… i hope this didn’t come across rude or anything

I am going to straight out say that I am a bit baffled that you felt inclined to send this to me, and personally, it did feel a bit rude because of the way that you put it. When my readers come to me with questions about their personal lives or for advice on their writing and such, I answer them to the best of my ability and try to help out as much as I can. I even have a post dedicated to tips and advice that I have given to my readers. If I find an ask game that intrigues me and I have the time to actually partake in doing it, I will reblog it and answer the messages that I receive based on it without any hesitation. If you search through my #blabvory tag, you can see all of the lovely interactions that I have with my readers on a near daily basis. But after past experiences, I am not comfortable with delving deep into my personal self and exposing that on here, so please do respect that.

I understand that when I hit a milestone, I could do an appreciation post like I have done here. Though I generally hit milestones months apart, and I am never really checking my follower count in the meantime so I tend to realise after a few weeks of hitting the next thousand milestone that I have, in fact, reached another milestone. I adore my readers so freaking much, I cannot begin to tell you how much I love and appreciate every single one of them, and they really do know that. I know that I am very bad at expressing gratitude and such because that is generally just part of my nature and I am not a talkative person in the slightest, yet all of my wonderful readers hopefully know that I am exceptionally thankful for the love and support that they provide.

If you are searching for proof of my gratitude, it is shown in me posting my stories for my readers to peruse. I am sorry to be blunt, but I am not really here to always play ask games and indulge everyone on who I am because the main purpose of this blog is to share my writing. I do try to play ask games and interact when I have the time (because yes, like you said, I am very busy outside of my blog) but that can also be very consuming of my writing time, which then leads to me receiving messages from a minority of readers asking me when I am going to update the stories that I have not had the time to work on, as I have been occupying my personal time by playing an ask game on my blog. Trust me when I say that I feel extremely guilty when I have not posted anything in a while, or when I have failed to meet my estimated posting date of a story, since I genuinely view posting these stories as my main display of saying “thank you” to my readers for sticking with me this whole time.

I apologise if this is not what you are here for, but that is the truth. I would like to say that I will try my best when it comes to improving my expressions of gratitude, though I personally believe I am doing enough already in the time that I have available and I am very sorry that it is not up to your standards.

I run
And my shadow doesn’t follow.
I can’t even ask why
It’s so far behind me
And in a thousand different memories

I find it lurking behind the couch my dad was passed out on in the middle of the night
When I’m 3 years old and creeping down the stairs because I stayed up for him
Waiting for him to come home from work so I could run into his arms
But I guess he was too busy cuddling his bottle of whiskey to cuddle with me.

It blends in with the dark atmosphere and thumping music of that party I went to when I was 15
Those moments when I thought I was experiencing real life
Because while my friends were shooting up in the living room
I was losing my virginity to a boy whose name I wouldn’t remember in the morning.

It lies in the background when my stepbrother touched me
And I wish I could’ve screamed at it “Why aren’t you doing anything? Why aren’t you stopping it?”
But at 4 years old, I didn’t
Because how was I supposed to scream anything while my mouth was full of him?
So I stayed quiet, like the good little girl I was.

It stands outside when we had sex for the first time
It was in your car, outside my best friend’s house
And I should’ve been more open about how bad I wanted you
And it looks in on us and applauds
Because even though you finished in five minutes
It was still the first time I’d ever really felt alive
And like maybe I was wanted too.

It dives deep into the ocean, in places I wish I could get to but can never truly reach
After I’ve filled my head with more drugs and try to convince myself that I’m okay and happy-
That I’m strong enough on my own
That I don’t need anyone and I never will
But it pops back up to say “No you stupid slut, you’re drowning just like me.”

And so you ask me why I run
But how am I supposed to stay?
Because even though my shadow won’t follow me,
it’s still a part of me
And how am I supposed to move on
If part of me keeps moving backwards?

—  b.w.

lana-del-wishiwashi-deactivated  asked:

Psst, I'm in mighty need of some of your Parental!RoyEd Headcanons.

*cracks knuckles* AWRIGHTY THEN SIT DOWN AND TAKE NOTES
((actually on that point I’m taking psych this year and may need to bounce some things offa you dearie. also i am now a research subject for my prof bc she’s really interested in prosopagnosia))

((and bc I am 97% sure @sofiakkuma is indirectly responsible for this ask, I’m gonna go ahead and tag her bc the frog outside my window is insisting that’s the polite thing to do))

1. Ok so you know how Ed just kinda gave up, that time fighting Scar? I understand the circumstances were… extreme, to say the least, but something always struck me as weird about the scene. Ed was in shock over his injuries, the loss of his lil sis, etc, but he clearly still had his reasoning skills when he offered to trade his life for his brothers. So, a. he should have realized that Scar was only after State Alchemists and since Al was no longer a threat, the Ishvalan should leave him alone, and b. ED IS THE ONE POWERING THE TRANSMUTATION CIRCLE KEEPING AL’S SOUL BOUND. He might now know he’s keeping his brother alive, but he sure as heck suspects. So why take the risk instead of get up and fight/run?
I think Mustang and prob everyone else picks up on there being a serious problem Ed’s not talking about when the kid doesn’t react to the “teasing” (it wasn’t teasing, in the scenario. they might’ve thought it was, but i’ve been bullied often enough to recognize Ed taking their mocking personally.) But the jab about Ed crying in pain made me realize that was the issue.
So thinking back on the fight: the kid must be covered in bruises, it looked like he messed up his ankle at one point, his automail ports must be killing him in the storm, he prob has shrapnel wounds from all the exploding crap (and these can be as bad as if not worse than bullet wounds, given the right circumstances), and the way he was breathing and holding himself at times made me wonder if he had hurt his ribs. Also he’s prob inhaled so much rain. ON TOP OF THAT, I considered his automail arm - the first EXPLOOOODE attack that didn’t work? Yeah, unless the metal just absorbed all that energy and released it w/out traveling up to Ed’s body (something which my engineer & physicist friends assured me was VERY unlikely), the kid is in a world of pain.
But even ignoring potential severe burns/internal bleeding, when his arm IS destroyed, did you notice how he landed on it? I’m told hitting the stub of an amputated limb is agony beyond words, and if there were metal shards embedded in it?? AND, the wires hanging out? That get ground into the cobblestone? I can’t be certain, but what if they are the wires enmeshed with his flesh & blood body’s nerves? I feel like throwing up just thinking about it jfc sometimes I hate my medical knowledge.
SO YEAH, now imagine Roy and Riza hunting down some automail expert, asking some questions, and realizing just what Scar had done to their kids. I like to think Roy sat down with Ed and apologized for taunting him. He also gives a rundown of his new automail knowledge to the crew, so in the future they know how to spot when Ed’s automail is causing him pain.
Also whenever Scar is mentioned in front of the Hawk & Flame, their righteous wrath and hate is like a palpable aura that sends everyone else running. It’s probably a good thing he didn’t show his face for a while after that fight, bc two very powerful, very vengeful parents would’ve left him a bullet-ridden pile of ash before the Ishvalan could even start to redeem himself.

2. OK that last one got a bit long, whoops. But you remember how Roy taunted Scar away from Ed (where the man had the kid pinned and defenseless), and Scar nearly got him bc rain? The colonel is a chess master and tactical genius. There is NO WAY he forgot it was raining, and his alchemy wouldn’t work. He was just desperately trying to get the crazy mass-murderer away from his kids.

3. And then when Riza saved him by kicking his legs out, her movement was so smooth, and I bet you Al later asked her how often she had needed to do that in the past. The rest of the office cringed in baffled terror at her laughter.

4. Ed and Roy are super young for their positions, and it’s inevitable that others will take issue with that. So the two have an unspoken agreement: whenever Roy becomes aware of people not taking his kid seriously, he’ll approach Ed somewhere with plenty of witnesses (mess hall or whatever idk) with some impossibly hard alchemeic/tactical/etc problems and bc Ed just loves solving things (I wanna see how long it would take him to solve a rubix cube) he’ll dive right in and the two will just brainstorm up a hurricane of vast & varied knowledge, unorthodox methods, and potential solutions. People who see this usually stop challenging Ed’s authority.
And when people try to challenge ROY while Ed’s around, the kid will subtly play up on his crazy, destructive, borderline rebellious behavior. Then he will go report to Mustang while the offending officers are around, and he just plays polite & respectful subordinate. This terrifies everyone who doesn’t know what’s going on (read: anyone not in Mustang’s Squad), because the uncontrollable hurricane of teenage wrath and determination??? willfully submitting to someone??!?!?!??! Honestly a number of people bow to Mustang’s authority only bc they believe him to be the Ed-Whisperer or some crap. The whole Squad finds this hysterical.

5. Ok so that last gif here ? A few adorable points there. Given the sheer noise level I doubt the click of a safety being switched off was what really tipped them off. I always felt Roy just ~sensed~ a threat, maybe the eyes staring at the back of his head. Since Ed is staring directly at him, he can tell the instant Roy’s posture changes- and it also lets him zero in on the threat, apparently in his peripherals, bc his glare at Mr-I-Forgot-his-Name and shift into a defensive stance is WAY too deliberate. But neither Roy nor Ed reacts beyond that bc Roy saw Ed’s directive movement and they both know Riza will have locked onto her target before she even turned bc of it. Just, just the level of trust here left me a gibbering mess screeching at my fma buddies bc trust is my platonic kink.
(also the way Ed tensed when he realized his idiot father was in danger? I’ve been told it matches the stance I take when I go into “there-is-potential-danger-and-I-am-ready-to-tackle-friend-outta-harm’s-way” mode. I laughed for five minutes)

6. When Ed & Winry use the wings to get down into the valley, you just know Roy’s standing there in panicked terror ready to manipulate the air streams if they start to run into trouble.

7. But can you imagine the train ride home after the SSoM debacle? Like the brothers trying to explain everything to their parents/commanding officers (Winry had to go to the other cart for this bc classified)?? And the adults are a mix of “YOU DID W H A T” and “YOU FOUGHT W H O” and “I DON’T KNOW HOW YOU SURVIVED THAT BUT THANK GOD YOU LIVED BC I AM GOING TO KILL YOU MYSELF”

8. Speaking of fighting dangerous ppl, chances are Roy was around for the Slicer Brother case. So when he learns about criminal souls being bound to suits of armor (through Barry the Chopper most likely), he hunts down his boys and gives an impromptu rundown of criminals that would be most likely to have been used in the soul-binding experiments. And when he reaches the Slice Bros, Ed’s just, ‘yeeaaaaaaaah, they’re dead’ . And Roy just slowly stares at him, and Ed panics like ‘it wasn’t ME, I tried to save them!’ and Al’s all ‘BROTHER WHY THEY NEARLY KILLED YOU’
And that’s when Roy flips out like 'YOU *FOUGHT* THEM WTF WAS THIS AT THE LAB WHY WASN’T I INFORMED HOW ARE YOU ALIVE WTFFFFF>’ and Ed just snorts a glares at him 'why do you THINK I was in the hospital, Colonel Idiot’ and Roy needs to take a few minutes to calm down bc he had read the report of his kid’s injuries and Mustang had thought it had been a human-vs-human fight. The thought of his non-armored kid fighting for his life against a tireless, almost invulnerable, experienced, sadistic murderer (he had also read the Slice Bros’ case files. he knew how they liked to play with their prey)??? Ed’s lucky the colonel let him out of his sight after that.

9. You know Mustang and his boys have study sessions in the library, and bc the two flesh humans are comfortable and relaxed there the insomniac and the boy-sleeping-for-two often fall asleep surrounded by the books. Al takes photos as blackmail.

boyfriend!woozi: first fight

- mingyu was giving you a piggyback ride and y’all were parading around the practice rooms singing dumb nursery rhymes at the top of ur lungs
- and woozi was already having a bad enough day as it was but seeing you with mingyu just set him off
- he came to find you because he knew spending time with you would uplift his mood at least a little but no, you were with mingyu
- and he felt as if you were neglecting him at a time he really needed you
- so when mingyu finally put you down, woozi growled out a “we’re leaving now.” he grabbed your wrist and pulled you out of the room,,,
- and it was the first time he had ever been rough when touching you.
- he dragged you to the company parking lot, tightening his grip as you neared the location of his parked car, and practically shoved you into the passenger seat
- woozi always listens to his cds in the car, or at least the radio, but the car ride was absolutely silent; all you could hear was his heavy breathing
- before you knew it, you were parked in front of ur apartment building
- woozi just leaned his forehead on the steering wheel, sighed, and ran his hand through his hair, his fringe messing up as a result
- at this point, you still didn’t really know why he was acting the way he was, so–
- you: um, jihoon? are you ok..?
- him: god why are you so dense, of cOURSe i’m not okay.
- you were a little hurt but you let it slide bc “it’s probably just the stress from work getting to him”
- you: do you wanna talk about it?
- him: if i wanted to talk about it, i wouldn’t go to you because we don’t seem to go to each other for things anymore.
- you: wait what are you talking about…
- him: yOU SPEND SO MUCH tIMe with the other members that sometimes i wonder why you’re dating me and not one of them
- you: hold on, is this about today? about me hanging out with mingyu??
- him: “hanging out”… ha ha ok whatever makes u feel better
- you: woozi, mingyu is someone im very close to so of course we’re going to—
- him: well if you like mingyu so much then why don’t you go date him instead??
- that comment honestly just felt like a stab in the chest to you bc… how could he ever think…? how could he ever doubt the love you have for him? ?
- you flung open the car door and sprinted to your apartment building as quickly as humanly possible, before woozi even realised what he said and what impact those words would have had on you
- but when he finally did realise, it was too late
- and he began to beat himself up about it
- “how could you ever say something like that to them? even if you were having a bad day, you had no right to say that to the loVE OF UR LIFE.”
- he had to go to coups to ask for help, and woozi hATES asking for help
- coups was just like… you fucked up. bad. you need to go apologise right now. go. now.
- and woozi was fREAKiNg OUT, he had all these thoughts that you were gonna break up with him, you were never gonna speak to him again, you were going to go date mingyu instead like he told u to ….
- anyway so it was like freaking 2AM or something and he rocked up at ur apartment with his guitar and a handwritten letter that was three pages long, and started to give himself a pep talk to get all ready to serenade u with a mushy song he wrote bc he’d rather lose his pride than lose you
- but when he knocked on the door and got no answer after 15 mins… he fell to his knees and finally realised just how badly he screwed up
- idk why the possibility of u being asleep never crossed his mind but anyway
- he just leaned his head on your door and kept whispering ur name…
- and the the door swung open
- and he was like wtf
- “they didn’t lock, let alone close, the door?? man, how irresponsible can they get”
- he went in though and found you lying in bed,,, with tear streaked cheeks
- and his heart broke into two bc he knew that it was him that caused you to be like this
- he climbed into bed next to you even though he kNEW he shouldn’t have but in that moment he just needed to be close to u
- swept the hair out of ur face and stroked ur cheeks, wiping away your tears
- you unconsciously inched closer to him in ur sleep and he just thought… i really don’t deserve you
- so he went and slept on your couch lol
- the next morning you wake up and feel all gross bc ur hair’s all messed up and ur face is all sticky from dried tears and it’s just ew,,,
- “wait a sec. is that jihoon’s guitar?? what the heck, did he come during the night ???”
- so you go and investigate in ur apartment and u almost get a heart attack bc hES ON UR COUCH HOW DID HE GET IN
- he’s clutching a piece of paper and ur like jihoon… what even- are you writing lyrics in ur sleep??
- you read it and it says, “dear y/n, you know how bad i am with words so i decided to write down my thoughts instead of straight out saying them to you…”
- before you start to read any further, he murmurs your name in his half conscious state
- “y/n, i’m so sorry… forgive me.. please, you’re my everything”
- this is unfair he’s even cuter in his sleep
- you wrap your arms around his waist and squeeze tight, before kissing his cheek and snuggling into his chest
- “it’s okay, i would never leave you for mingyu”
- he pulls you in closer and you both fall asleep in each others arms on ur little apartment couch