So tell me if I'm crazy. But I was watching some of the magenta carpet interviews bts did a the bbmas and when the lady mentioned them being heartthrobs namjoon didn't know what it meant so he asked. The way he asked without embarrassment or hesitation was really sexy in my opinion..... is that weird? I feel like its really weird...... am I crazy... I think I'm crazy...🙊🙈🙊🙉🙊🙈🙊
Straightforward men are sexy.Men who acknowlege their mistakes are sexy. Men who arent afraid of giving a wrong answer are sexy . Men who put their ego aside to learn stuff are sexy. 👌Namjoon is sexy because he’s all of this :) He doesn’t care as long as he learns something new , and that’s the sexiest thing a man can do
so we've been calling isak out in every fanfiction for not doing landry when in reality even can't smell bech næsheim is the person convicting the crime...🤔 wow when my nana said the angel people are the ones who convict the crimes i didn't think she meant it...
bruhhhh!!! All of my domesticity drabbles have been Isak failing at laundry. And the entire time it was my boy EVEN?!?!
Isak i am sorry i done you wrong. I just imagine him now in my dreams being like ”what’s good, jill?” Your nana is right and we have let isak downnn.
(though does ur nana have anything to say about his tea nonsense smh?)
i’ll be honest & frank & open
i am not who you think i am
i am a fire, a storm, a field of flowers, a calm breeze, a sad kid who lost their balloon
i am a mix of terrible genes & upsetting darkness
i am filled with confusion, even though i confessed to knowing who i am & what i thought i was doing
my last confession is filled with shame & sadness
i am a lost boy/girl/thing in search of someone to tell me who i should be & what i need to be
i was never good at decision making
but i’ll be damned if i let someone else make a wrong decision
i am disgusted with myself on every level of physicality, emotions, & mentality
i am not that little mormon girl i was raised to be
i am not that boy that fell in love with the girl
i am not that person who became reckless & stupid
i am me, only me, with a million labels because i am scared to tell anyone how i truly feel
i’ll be rejected again & again
crying wolf never got me very far
no one trusts me, no one believes me, no one cares
i want to be free from society’s cage around my head
i live in a world where i am scared to voice an opinion
i am ashamed that i care what others think of me
i am sorry for those i have lied to
i am in regret of every action i’ve committed
i am so full of depression, i’m bursting at the seams of my being
soon i will be nothing
& no one can stop me this time–
ah well, I mean, I can’t control how you call me :D but tbh I feel a bit iffy about this senpai thing… For one I don’t speak japanese and am not too sure about the real meaning or culture behind this word… As I see it, this whole senpai thing has become a synonym for like “teach me”/”guide me” within the fandom community. And here’s the thing: I can’t guide you! I’m not here to tell anyone how to do things and what is good or bad. I’m not some impeccable person. I’m a living person, I make mistakes, I have flaws, my ways might be the wrong ones… You can drop by when you feel like you want company or even ask me for advice for something. BUT keep in mind that I can only give suggestions based on things I know. Those can help you or help to give a new view on a thing but these are not some universal truth. They might not even help at all or even be wrong for you. So I’m careful with advices. The same goes for the tips I give on my art tutorial blog. I can show you how I do things or what helped me. This can apply for other too and others might find those things helpful but I can only show you what I know. And as I do know some things about drawing it might not help everyone. And for every way I know how to do a thing there are also many other ways and in the end you need to find what works for you. I can give some suggestions and just show you what I know but I can’t show you what to do and I can’t teach you the truth.
I get when you wanna talk and share things with me. And I’m always here when it comes to fandom things and sharing of/talking about hcs, aus and ideas. I’m also fine when you need to share personal things and need to get it of your chest. But please keep in mind that I most likely can’t help you and also please keep in mind that I’m also a living person with feelings and who cares and that some of your personal problems, especially when I’m not able to help, might overwhelm me.
Sorry, this got a long rant. I just feel that sometimes the whole thing of calling someone senpai can come with problems and the whole putting someone on a pedestal thing…I can’t live up to this.
If you don’t mind I would like you to just call me Amalas :D
i am not angry ;) i am willing to see what they're going to do with O as a leader in hopes that it make sense. My main concern is that they dont forget about B and C's leadership or brush it off because O is now in charge. u know what i mean. they've been developing as leaders since S1. i love developments that have pay offs u know. i hate having a development with no pay offs in the end !
to the anon who thinks the writers will forget abour B & C’s leadership. i mean i could be wrong but B seems to be set up to lead the small group in space, it was heavily implied, with the whole head and heart thing and the baton of jaha that could be implying passing on the leadership to B. as for C well she’s the main, this is her story, i doubt they will forget the 4 seasons they spent developing both of them for leadership.
(when my nonnies start answering my asks. thanks nonny.)
Care to elaborate on your tags re: Harry's music and your worries concerning content vs form? I don't get it. Thanks.
So short version (I’ll try and write a post that explains what I actually mean some time in the future - but I can already feel that this post is going to be long). my concerns about Harry’s music are quite personal. I really value specificity in music and also fun/joy. Harry’s interview further suggested that I probably couldn’t expect much of either of these things from his album. I’d kind of figured that from SOTT and ESNY. I don’t think joy or specificity are where he’s at as a songwriter - and I also think there is a lot about his position that would discourage joy (and even more so) specificity in songs. I find the reasons that he might not be into joy and specificity in songs quite endearing and I have huge sympathy for them. So it doesn’t necessarily change the way I respond to him as a person, but it will change the way I respond to his music. And it does make me sad, for me, that the music he’s putting out won’t be the sort of music that most resonates with me.
The content vs. form thing of his interview is kind of a feature of the form itself. Long celebrity interviews are this dance where the celebrity performs being accessible and intimate, while staying on brand and the journalist writes as if they’re revealing while also maintaining access. To me there were these really jarring juxtapositions to the words Harry was saying and the form of the promo campaign that he was saying it.
So Harry says: “
“Who’s to say that young girls who like pop music – short for popular, right? – have worse musical taste than a 30-year-old hipster guy?” etc in his first in depth print interview with a magazine whose entire mission has been to uphold the supremacy of the 30-year-old hipster guy. This venue and the interviewer were very definitely chosen to signal to those 30-year-old hipster guy that it was OK to like Harry. On top of that Harry carefully and repeatedly uses the word honest - to signal to those readers that his music is better and more authentic now than it was in One Direction when those teenage girls liked him.
Or Harry says: “I feel like they were always thinking, ‘OK, this ride could stop at any point and we’re going to have to be there when it does.’ There was something about playing the album and how happy I was that told them, ‘If all I get is to make this music, I’m content. If I’m never on that big ride again, I’m happy and proud of it.'” While part of an incredibly highly controlled, high-stakes, promo campaign, designed to make him a solo superstar.
Now that’s really normal, that’s kind of a feature of this sort of interview. But the impression I got from to the totality of the interview was not that Harry was not just carefully selling an image, but also quite mixed up about who he wanted to be and how he wanted to relate to people, mystery vs honesty and so on. That this jarring juxtaposition wasn’t just a feature of the form of the celebrity, but also showing how ambivalent and unclear Harry was about all this stuff.
In particular, it made me think of two different statements kind of about being seen. One was Harry’s own, from a year in the making, “I want to be someone who doesn’t care what people think, but I just don’t think I am.” For me, everything about this promo campaign has demonstrated how much both of those things, wanting not to care, but really caring, are still absolutely true for Harry.
And the other was Jodie Foster’s coming out speech - which is a mess, but I’ve always thought a really profound mess:
…be a big coming-out speech tonight because I already did my coming out about a thousand years ago back in the Stone Age, in those very quaint days when a fragile young girl would open up to trusted friends and family and co-workers and then gradually, proudly to everyone who knew her, to everyone she actually met. But now I’m told, apparently, that every celebrity is expected to honor the details of their private life with a press conference, a fragrance and a prime-time reality show. […] But seriously, if you had been a public figure from the time that you were a toddler, if you’d had to fight for a life that felt real and honest and normal against all odds, then maybe you too might value privacy above all else. Privacy.
I will continue to tell stories, to move people by being moved, the greatest job in the world. It’s just that from now on, I may be holding a different talking stick. And maybe it won’t be as sparkly, maybe it won’t open on 3,000 screens, maybe it will be so quiet and delicate that only dogs can hear it whistle. But it will be my writing on the wall. Jodie Foster was here, I still am, and I want to be seen, to be understood deeply and to be not so very lonely.
(transcript here - full speech easily accessible 2013 Golden Globes).
The juxtaposition between the really deeply felt desire for privacy and the just as deeply felt desire to be seen and understood really moved me when I first saw it and I thought she made it really clear that both could be true at the same time. And I think the speech demonstrates that when you’ve been in the public eye as long as Jodie Foster, the two desires are impossibly intertwined.
I got the same desire and contradiction (although obviously not nearly as openly laid out - which is what makes Jodie Foster’s speech extraordinarily) from Harry’s interview.
How could he feel anything else? He’s been exposed, told stories about, hidden and lied about. How could he feel anything but a desire for privacy and a desire to be seen and understood. How could he hope to untangle them, or even know how to act on them at his age?
And that made me very sad for him - because I want him to have it all. I want him to be seen and understood and I want him to have all the privacy and space he needs. And I think either will be very difficult for him to get, let alone both.