what am i doing best decisions

  • what she says: I'm fine
  • what she means: Do you know why I hate Undertale? Because it's the best game ever made. The graphics look like they were drawn by a four year old with the talents of Pablo Picasso in his prime - which is what I would have said if I liked the graphics, which I do… not. Narratively, this game is a paragon of interactive storytelling; every decision you make weigh on your conscience, because every connection you make with the characters feels organic. That’s why I am giving this game a 5/5... billion. It fucking suc

They asked me what was something I never wanted to experience, and I tried my best to form an explanation that would make sense outside of my own mind.

Never do I wish to experience the sensation of no longer having control of my life, as if I am looking in on my decisions and my actions from an outside view, unable to do anything about it.
Unable to warn myself to take ten steps back.
Never do I wish to overstep my own personal boundaries and to lose sight of my goals.
After all is said and done at the end of each day, I’m the one living with myself.
Never do I wish to experience a moment where I am living for somebody other than myself, unless it’s an equal division of living for the heart I give to somebody I’ll love for the rest of my life.
Even then I wish to maintain my boundaries.
Never will I wish to lose myself and to get so caught up with the anxiousness of somebody else’s standards.
Never will I wish to feel so lost that I no longer wish to live. Never again.
I wish to find some form of happiness each and every day.
I wish to experience solitude and confidence in my mistakes when I admit them.
Never do I wish to stop being myself.

—  ARH / To My Future, experience life the way you wish to experience it

“You push people away.”
“You noticed?”
“…Why do you do this to yourself?”
“Because you don’t need someone like me.”
“‘Someone like you’? Tell me, who are you, really? Or rather…who do you think you are?”
“A fuck-up, a lost cause…a burden, a bad influence…a death sentence. Take your pick.”
"You’re being a little dramatic here. Don’t give yourself so much credit. What gave you the notion that I would’ve needed you anyway? I’m fine on my own; I’ve been doing it for six years. And what about you? What do you have to show for it?”
“…Crippling anxiety and a lot of bad decisions.”
“You’re a mess, Santi.”
“Of course I am. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I say too much and I scare people off. It’s what I do best.”
“You don’t scare me.”
“I will, though. Because that’s what happens with me.”

ghosst-writer  asked:

My niece is about to start her journey as a trainer, and wants to take one of the Miltanks from my farm as her starter. Do you think that this would be a good idea, or do you think that a Miltank might be a bit too much for a beginning trainer?

I am, admittedly, biased against letting trainers choose whatever of the 700+ out there Pokémon to be their first. In my experience, many (not just kids) have a lot to learn about themselves and their limits before taking on a nice but high-maintenance Pokémon, but there are a few questions to ask before approving or vetoing this decision:

What do her parents think? They know her the best, and understand her strengths and weaknesses, so do they support this plan? Do they have any concerns that need to be addressed? Also, they’re ultimately the ones who will house the Pokémon the majority of the time. Can they do that?

If the previous questions are positively answered, does she have experience with Miltank? Can she adapt to a strong-willed, slow-growing Pokémon? Or would it just be better to wait and “gift” one to her after she has a gym/trial or two under her belt?

Again, I know I’m biased, but starting with a non-starter tends to hurt unprepared trainers, occasionally literally.


Hi guys!

So here’s my situation: I’m gonna be out of a job in a few months (contract is up), and I have been trying unsuccessfully to find a new one for the past six months or so. Currently, I am not doing super well with this. The stress and anxiety, to say nothing of constant and unending rejection, is having a bad impact on me.

I don’t want to end Bleach Lists just because I am depressed. I also can’t write humor when I feel like this. Please give me some more time - I’ll make a decision when I know what I’m doing next.

Best wishes,

Bleach Lists Girl

6 Questions to ask when you’re making a tough decision

1. What option would I choose if I knew I would definitely succeed?

2. What would I do if I didn’t feel scared?

3. Who can I talk to who’s been in my shoes?

4. What are the likely outcomes of each choice and decision?

5. What is the worst thing that could happen; what is the best thing that could happen?

6. Am I making this decision for myself, or am I choosing to please other people?

To the one who loves him next,

If he can’t stop cracking jokes, just laugh along with what he says. You don’t even have to know what he’s saying, it’s probably hilarious anyway.

If he keeps calling you at the ungodly hours at night, pick up the phone. He’s probably stressed but when he hears your voice, it will fade away.

He will make a bunch of childish innuendos about god knows what and you’ll get used to it eventually then you’ll find out ways to add on to them.

This boy might not make the best decisions, but I was one of them so who am I to judge.

He’ll want to go to countless parties and dance and drink; but just make sure to keep a close eye on him or he’ll do something that won’t be good for the both of you.

He has a birth mark on his hand that he absolutely hates, so hold that hand a little tighter.

Don’t get too mad at him if he forgets your birthday or anniversary, he isn’t the brightest bulb in the bunch, but he is yours.

So treat him like a prince and you’ll be his princess; and if he treats you like a game, show him how it’s played.

—  The Girl You Won’t Know // a.a. // t.j.h.g.
From Father to Son Pt. 1

Being a father is difficult. I have only ever wanted the best for my son, Tyler. The problem is, he just won’t listen to me. He defies me every chance he gets. Just like every other 17 year old, he just thinks he knows everything. In fact, we had just had an argument over another one of his foolish decisions and he stormed off to his bedroom. I just don’t know what to do with him anymore. I guess, worst case scenario, he turns 18 in two months…then he won’t be my problem anymore. I was so frustrated, I am just wanted to take a shower and go to bed.

It happened when I was in the shower. I was letting the warm water run down my chest when my vision began to blur. I braced myself against the wall, when I began feeling nauseous. I blinked a few times and then, all of the sudden, I was laying on the floor. Nausea gone. Vision fine. But something was wrong. I was laying on carpet….last I checked, theres no carpet in my shower. When I sat up and looked around, I noticed I was in Tyler’s room. How did I even get here? I could hear the shower still running two rooms over. I was about to head back to my bedroom, but then I caught a glimpse of what I was wearing.

A Nike shirt and jeans? I was wearing exactly what Tyler was wearing, when we were arguing. Why would I be wearing his clothes? They shouldn’t even fit my larger body. I needed to find Tyler. I walked out of the bedroom, then I saw it. I saw my reflection in the hallway mirror. Except, it wasn’t my reflection….it was Tyler’s! I ran back into Tyler’s room and slammed the door shut. Breathing heavily, I started to catch on. I looked down. The reason Tyler’s clothes fit me, is because I was no longer in my larger body. I was in Tyler’s slim athletic body. Holy Shit. How did this even happen?? I had switched bodies with my son. I cautiously put my (his?) hands on the chest I now possessed. It was’t quite as large, but much more firm. And these arms, also firm. I didn’t realize Tyler was in such good shape. I went into his bathroom and looked in the mirror. Damn, I raised a pretty good looking son. I smiled and rubbed my face. Without even thinking, I took of the shirt Tyler was wearing when we swapped. I gotta say, his body is pretty nice. Everything from his shoulders to the v-lines on his hips.

I cupped my pec with my hand, then slid my hand down to my new belly button. So smooth. I always envied guys with smooth chests. Mine was so harry. I went lower and unbuttoned the jeans. Then I stopped. What was I doing?? This is my son! I can’t just strip him. Aren’t there laws against that kind of thing? Then the guilt quickly passed…..technically I am stripping myself….I mean I am currently in control. This is probably some sick dream anyway. I dropped the jeans to the floor. I was wearing a pair of black under armour underwear. I slid my finger across the waistline. Still feeling the guilt I didn’t look right away. But I could see the bulge. A very healthy bulge. I cupped it with my hand. I could feel it getting hard, the moment I touched it. I gave off a brief moan. I forgot what is was like being this young and hormonal. And hearing Tyler’s voice made it more erotic.

I slid my hand in, passing his neatly trimmed pubes, and grabbed ahold of my borrowed dick. It felt amazing. I dropped the underwear, so I could get a better look. How in the hell is his dick bigger than mine?! Not much bigger. But bigger none the less. I slid my finger along the shaft, letting out another moan. I began stroking it. I kept sliding my hand along my new equipment. Going faster and faster, until I blew my load in the bathroom sink. I haven came like that in years! I saw down on the edge of the bath tub. Sweating and panting. Thats when I saw my body in the door way.

“Just moving right in, aren’t you?” I heard my voice say.

“Tyler?!” I shouted. I didn’t even know what to say.

“For future reference, theres lube in the drawer to your left” He said with a smile.

“Tyler, I am so sorry. I don’t know what happened. I just woke up like this, I shouldn’t have touched your-”

“Don’t even worry about it dad. I have jercked off twice already.”

“What?!” I shouted. Then remembered that he caught me with his dick in my hands. “I guess you would have woken up in the shower….How was it?” I asked, while pulling the underwear back on.

“Better than I expected actually. You have a pretty nice tool.” Tyler cupped my former crotch.

“Thanks, your’s is pretty nice too. Wait! Why would you be expecting to jerk off in my body??”

“Because I was the one that switched us. I figured you would have guessed that by now. You seem so hell bent on controlling my life, so I am letting you control it. While I get to be the adult.”

“So you are giving me your body?” I asked.

“Yep, for now at least. So do what you want. Jerk off again, go screw some girls….or guys. Whatever. I am going to go do the same.” With that, he walked out of the room. I was stunned. Why would he give me his youthful body? Then, I stopped caring about the why. I get to do whatever I want! But first I thought, I reached into the drawer next to me and grabbed the lube. I smiled, and pulled my new dick back out.

anonymous asked:

What made you decide to follow Jesus?

I think simply because I realized I couldn’t “do” life on my own. I’ve really struggled with self-harm and destructive thoughts as well as depression and anxiety. God led me through all of that and was the only reason I made it through. Part of me always knew that God was real but I never felt like I could be good enough for His love and grace. When I realized it wasn’t about what I do or what I don’t do, I was able to begin to give up my life to him and it’s been the best decision. I obviously am far from perfect but when I think about life and life choices, I can’t picture a better one than one that is dedicated to Jesus. 

anonymous asked:

Congrats on NYU!!! I am a high school senior anxiously waiting for my decision for NYU. I will be notified on April first, so it's coming soon! I want to hopefully major in English and minor in polisci or graphic design and I want to become a book publisher. Do you think if I do that I'll be able to get into the MS in Publishing program at NYU? I know you're doing the summer program, but I'm just curious what you think I should study to make myself the best candidate possible.

Thank you! Good luck with your application! I did my undergrad in English and I’m currently doing my masters in English and film. Even though all they require is a BA, I do think studying English was really beneficial for publishing. It’s really important to really beef up your resume with relevant experience between now and when you apply for the MS in publishing. I personally worked for my campus newspaper for three years while also writing book reviews and eventually editing articles for an entertainment website. On top of that, make sure you cultivate good relationships with your profs cause they’ll be the ones writing your reference letters. They’re also a good resource for reviewing your personal statements because they’re a lot more familiar with the standards for effective personal statements. I actually got both of my references to edit my personal statement, and they gave me really helpful feedback. Hope this was helpful!

anonymous asked:

as salam aleikum, my friend is ready to revert to islam, we are both in college. i am so proud of her because i have been praying for years that her heart would turn to islam insha’Allah. now she is ready to say her shahada. i am just wondering about hijab, obviously she is required to cover as soon as she reverts, i wear niqab but i figure it would be easier to start her on regular hijab? what do you think?

Wa Alaykum as-Salaam!

Alhamdulillah! I am very happy to hear that your friend is ready to revert. May Allah be pleased with you and grant you the best of this dunya and akhirat for making dua for her and showing the beauty of Islam to her. Ameen.

Ask your friend how her family would react. If her family will not support her decision she might need to take it slow with the hijab in the beginning. This is crucial sister. Some parents can give hard time to revert so it’s important she does not go under heave pressure at the beginning without being strong in faith. Learning and practicing slowly is very essential. We have seen many examples of revert sisters going fast and after some time leaving Islam because of the pressure. Please remember that the Qur'an was completed in 23 years and the ayahs in Maccah times were mostly about Tawheed, Prophethood, and Akhirat. In the first years of Islam most of the Sahabah had to hide their imaan.

She should focus on tawheed first. The next goal should be praying 5 times a day regularly.

Please send me an IM so we discuss in detail how you guys should handle it insha'Allah

And Allah knows best


 I do not condemn Paige, Xavier and Brad for making the explicit videos. They were all consenting adults at the time and had the right to do what they did. Was it the best decision considering the fact that they’re people with large fan bases? Once again, it’s hard to say because although they did have the right to make their own private videos, they were also taking a major risk considering the fact that there are shitty people out there that will do whatever it takes to ruin a person’s reputation and life ESPECIALLY if they’re a celebrity. 

Now, what I am pretty pissed off about is the fact that sexual acts were being done with the NXT Women’s Championship belt. I mean, really? How disrespectful can you get? Even if she intended to keep the videos private, you just don’t do that. What is that saying to all of the women that have worked tremendously hard to hold that title and the women who are currently doing so.

“Yea, this belt means so much to the women’s division of NXT, and we’ve worked so hard for it. By the way, I made sure to honor the title by having someone c** all over it.” 

Like I said, were the three of them wrong for making the videos? No. They’re victims of a crime, and I do feel bad that each of them have to deal with all of this. It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to understand that a person will probably feel really shitty knowing their private photos/videos are being shared all over the internet without their consent. But including a WWE title in this type of behavior was wrong, and if any apology is due, it’s for that. That title has meaning not only to the women who have or are currently competing for it, but to the fans. I don’t want the women I cheer for and applaud for working so hard to hold or have held a title that someone let a man ejaculate all over.

Just saying. 

I hope that you understand why I have chosen to let you go. I’m not saying that it’s going to be permanent or temporary. I just need a break from all of this. This was not an easy decision for me to make. The thing is, I have been thinking about this for awhile. It was all those little things that pilled on top of each other throughout the years we have been friends. I am unhappy, and I need to do what’s best for me. I will still care for you, and I will always treasure the good times we had and learn from the hardships we’ve shared. On the other hand, I don’t benefit from this friendship we’ve built, and I have let you go.
—  Goodbye for now // cxrvisvbel

anonymous asked:

Hi! I'm gay, but I'm afraid to come out. My best friends know everything about my sexuality. But other people and my parents don't know anything because I think they're omophic. What can I do? Please help me. P.s. your blog it's wonderful

Heyyyy thanks for the question!!! I think that it’s your choice to decide when to tell your parents. For me, my parents found out somehow and i said yeah i am. I think that it’s best to tell them when you’re able to live on your own and when you are not dependent on them that way it can show them that you want to do what you want to do. It shows that it’s your life that you should make those decisions not them. Hope this helps!!!

anonymous asked:

I'm 5ft5, and around the weight of 172-173 lbs. I hate my body. I hate my weight. I hate everything about me. I've been throwing up lately after I eat and I've tried starving myself. Now because my mum found out what I was doing, I am trying to be healthy. Any tips?

hi! first of all, i’m so proud of you for trying to eat healthier right now! it’s going to be worth it I swear!

ok so first things first i think you should have a more detailed conversation with your mother if you haven’t already? i’m sure she’ll be accepting of your new healthy eating scheme, and she can help you make better decisions, especially when it comes to food. i think the best way to eat healthy is to, well, buy lots of healthy things! i’m not talking just fruits and veg, there are so many low calorie items around! since you’re still recovering from the purging and starving stages, i think you should buy more liquid-y items, like yoghurts and soups, because you’ll be less likely to throw up, and you’ll also be less likely to give in and binge unhealthily!

in other words, anything healthy is anything low in calories. you obviously have to be careful here, please don’t start counting the calories or RESTRICTING them because that really isn’t healthy, it’ll hurt you and your mother will definitely notice! some exercise in moderation is good too, it can just be walking if you don’t feel up to it! stay safe


(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=at4h5L9Kbpk)

Dr. Loveland is the doctor that diagnosed me. She studies ADHD and ASD, and published a very interesting study on the role of comorbid conditions in ASD that concluded that the presence of ADHD in ASD is a better marker for other comorbid psychiatric conditions (depression, anxiety, etc) than ASD itself is.

I have chosen to treat my comorbid conditions with medication and the result has been extremely awesome for me. I am doing much better than I did without. I currently treat my depression, anxiety, and OCD. I will be treating my ADHD with medication soon, too.

The decision to medicate should always be with your consent, under the guidance of your doctor, according to your medical needs. You should always do what you feel is best for you. For me, that just happens to be medication.

I recommend this video to people who are on or considering psychiatric medication for autism. Treating them can alleviate some of the stress on an autistic, leading to reduced meltdowns and a generally happier life for the autistic, but it will not treat the autism itself.

prudentiae replied to your post: [[MOR] i just wish i could stop stressing myself…

you have every bit of control of the life ( you ) want to lead. your mother, i’m sure, has your best interest at heart, but you’re the one that makes the decision at the end of the day.

Yeah…I just feel so lost. there’s so much i want to do. & that’s terrible ya know? cause how can i do it all? what if i fail? there’s so many what ifs. i’m trying not to cry while typing this. how lame am i?

hello lovelies, hannah here with some bittersweet news. 

as some of you may know, i’m in my final year of university and i’m working on a dissertation that is due in may. i’ve been having trouble with my work load and have been trying to figure out what the best thing i can do to relieve that stress. after a lot of thought, i have decided to step down from the admin team. it sucks since i love helping out here so this certainly isn’t a decision that i wanted to come to but this position needs someone who is more reliable and dedicated and at this moment in time, i am not that person. this isn’t to say i’ll be going anywhere as for now, i have made no concrete decisions as to what to do with my characters so you can still find me on my babies. i just wanted to say thank you to the lovely admin team for having me, you have been so welcoming and i’m so sad to be leaving (not entirely but still) i’m sorry about this and i hope we can work again in future.

that being said, the show must go on and that’s enough rambling from me here. much love, i’ll see you on the flip side. 

Get To Know Me Tag - Music Edition

Get To Know Me Tag - Music Edition

Rules: Using only songs from one artist, answer these ten questions and tag ten people.

I’ve been called the Hell out by both @unnagi & @churinne .. Pfft its ok I love you both ok ~ 

Artist: Hmmm let’s go for ONE OK ROCK 

What’s your gender? American Girls .. ( sadly I aint American but I AM a girl ) 

Describe yourself: 完全感覚Dreamer  ( Perfect Sensation Dreamer) 

How do you feel? Heartache 

If you could go anywhere?  Wherever You Are  

Favorite mode of transportation? One Way Ticket 

Your best friend? Karasu (Crow)

Favorite time of day? Fight the Night

If your life was a TV show?  キミシダイ列車 ( Train of your thoughts ) OR Memories 

Relationship status? Decisions AND Stuck in the Middle 

Your fear? Last Dance 

Hmmm I shall tag~ @jitsuiwawatashiwa @inkbouquet @alloutfujoshi HAVE FUNNN