what a m i doing with my life

Happiness comes from total self-acceptance. I’m genderfluid. I love and accept that about myself. And I’ve designed my whole life around loving all of who I am. Here are some tips:

-Surround yourself with loving people. As time goes by, do everything you can to spend time with good people and minimize time with unloving, unaccepting people – even if those people are related to you.

-Wear what you want. Yes, outward appearance isn’t everything. And, you don’t need to look a certain way. But it’s important to feel a certain way. Your outfits should make you feel alive and confident and totally…you.

-Practice. Practice. Practice. Self-love doesn’t happen overnight. It will take time. So keep at it. Make a little progress every day.


I hate this bush beating!” Thorton laughs. “Stop it! Tell me! Are we doing things because you want to, or because that’s what is expected of us?” At this point Poppy is livid, emotional and upset. Thorton realizes now why Poppy is so upset, it’s because of what he said when he first moved.

“Poppy this has nothing to do with what is expected of us, I love you. That is why I make suggestions. Anything else is just to persuade you, which may be wrong. I just never know what you want. But I do know what I want. It’s not even what I want out of life, it’s what I want with you specifically. Why do you think I was a virgin my entire damn life until we met. I’ve been waiting here the entire time, I’m not beating anyone’s bushes… unless you tell me to.” Poppy laughs at him, and he smiles.

“Why are you always so dumb and goofy.” 

bekittymeow  asked:

Hey there! Though I am not an avid writer, I do love to write. It started with poems, then I started doing scenes with random characters. One stuck with me, so I started writing their story. There was a big change in my life, and I stopped writing for a while. Now I can't. Everytime I try to write, it doesn't feel right. Everything's forced and dull, and I second guess the direction, no matter what it is I'm working​ on. How do I transfer this world I've created out of my head and onto paper?

Originally posted by the-reactiongifs

    I got super excited when I saw your ask because this is actually how I started writing! I had a rut of a few years too, where everything I wrote was dull and didn’t sound as amazing as the story in my head. Sigh. But enough lollygagging, let’s begin.

Keep Writing!

    Okay, I know this sounds silly because your writing sounds dull to you and you don’t like it, but just write. Sometimes the problem isn’t that your writing is dull, rather it’s that you have heard/read it so many times. To a new reader, this idea is fresh and exciting and unique because you came up with it. Even if your writing truly does sound forced and dull (which I highly doubt, by the way), still write out your story and simply edit later. Editing is every writer’s best friend. For now, just get the words on the page. A rough draft is a rough draft for a reason. Also, your writing will grow and change as you write and one day you may read something and realize exactly how amazing it sounds!  Just write and worry about how it sounds later.

    Speaking of your writing changing, you mentioned that you stopping writing for a while and now you can’t write. It may not be that you can’t write, but that simply you are out of practice. Writing is like riding a bicycle.  If you haven’t in a few years, the first few turns of the pedals are wobbly until you find your balance. It is not uncommon to get out of practice of writing, in fact this is why so many authors constantly journal or use daily writing prompts which is similar to how you were writing before. These get the creative juices flowing but also practice the flow of writing. If your style has changed, again, nothing to worry about. This just means you are growing as a writer. Don’t stop simply because it doesn’t sound the same as it did one paragraph earlier. If your plot is changing and taking a different direction, run with it. If you don’t like it, edit later. Sometimes the best moments in writing, are the moments that we didn’t plan out.

    Also, one problem may be that you are too comfortable with your idea which is why it sounds dull when you write it out. If the planning of your world happened in your head, the disconnect is that it was never on paper to start with. Try writing out your ideas in a journal where you can find them easily. Not necessarily all of them, but the main ones to get the creative juices flowing. Sometimes once they are on paper, you can see where you want to make changes to your ideas, giving them a new edge that they didn’t have before.

Writing Friend

     This one is optional, but it helped me get out of my rut so I thought I’d share. :) Okay, so a “writing friend” is a person who you, preferably, know personally and trust enough to have read your work and give you feedback. They are like a beta reader, but a little more personal. For me, my writing friend also writes and she and I exchange work every so often to read and then give feedback on it. This helped me to finish writing my book, even though the first draft was full of mistakes. It was like having unofficial deadlines because she would constantly text “Did you write more yet?” She was encouraging and looked past all the mistakes. Instead, she focused on the characters and how my idea was unique and could grow. Focus on how to grow your story rather than all the mistakes, you the author, see.

     My point is, just write! Your ideas are different and unique because you wrote them. Don’t let them collect cobwebs in a corner of your mind. Put them on a page. Even if no one reads it till you feel it is finished, at least now your idea is in ink. I strongly encourage you to continue writing. This is your story and it’s different from any other.

Happy writing!


anonymous asked:

I'm trying to find a passion or an interest, or something "fun" to keep my mind of tons of anxiety. Do you know something or have a tip on how to find something that keeps your mind off things and feelings that brings out negativity? Or make you see life a bit more positive?

I try to was look at myself from a third person perspective, and try to understand what factors have resulted in making me feel negative or have a negative outlook lately, and how I can change the outcome. A great way to get my mind off of things is to meditate, exercise, talk with my therapist, or hang out with a friend that is a great listener.

In Which Douchie Again Thinks He Gets to Control Bughead's Sex Life
  • Jughead: <comes out of the Southside dark room, has clearly just had sex that Douchie overheard>: Oh hey, man what's up?
  • Douchie: Don't you "what's up" ME!!! I heard you!!!
  • Jughead: Oh, yeah. I guess we need to try and be quieter....
  • Douchie: Betty was a virgin!!!
  • Jughead: Not that it's ANY of your business, but so was I.
  • Douchie: But, but....so loud.....HOW??? Well IDGAF!! I'm gonna go and tell your DAD!!!
  • Jughead: Who do you think gives me pointers on how to up my game and MAKE that happen, dude?

anonymous asked:

I just wanted to thank you for the point of this story. I'm going to 25 in August, and I just discovered what I wanted to do in my life. For a while there i was feeling like I had missed my chance because I'm getting older, but this story has given me the courage to go after my dreams. I can never thank you enough for that.

Me at 21: *terrible breakup with person I thought I was going to marry*
Me at 22: *graduates with a degree in something I don’t want to pursue*
Me at 23: *unemployed and alone*
Me at 24: *unemployed, alone, and depressed*
Me at 25: *gets accepted into grad school*
Me at 26: *doing what I love*

If you think this story isn’t partially written from personal experience, I got news for you, fam.

One of the main reasons this blog exists, and why I've gone so far in outting myself is simply because i am attempting to break drug user stereotypes and help people feel more comfortable with their lives. I never expected for this blog to become so popular worldwide, but now that you all have chosen to make it so, i just want you all to know I'm thankful to every fuckin one of you for supporting my crazy ass and i sincerely hope that my unorthodox methods are actually helping some of you besides just providing you with entertainment or someone to fantasize about or make fun of. We live in a fucked up judgemental society and it sucks,but you know what? idgaf about anyone's judgements towards me and never have and this blog is proof and I'm hoping that by putting my life on display like this inspires some of you to live the kind of life that YOU want without giving a shit what anyone thinks too. Im not doing this for praise or anything like that, tbh i only started the original methed up samurai blog as a place to dump my drug pics, but then i saw an opportunity to use this blog to fulfill a need that i see in society. So if you are thankful to me, please, show me your gratitude by freeing yourself from worrying about the opinions of others and start living in a way that's true to yourselves the same way Ive been incriminating the fuck outta myself here to show you that i have been, no matter how different or bizarre you might think it is. That is the best way you can EVER repay me.

Originally posted by methed-up-samurai-is-a-ghost

  • John HLV: My wife is an assassin she shot my best friend I hate her how have I been played like this I don't deserve this what are the sins I'm paying for
  • John TLD: Mary taught me how to be the man she thought I was
  • Sherlock: But you are good and bra-
  • John: Stop
  • Sherlock: You've always been loy-
  • John: No further
  • Sherlock: You have saved me befo-
  • John: LA LA LA
  • Sherlock: Please listen, there was a time you'd do everything for those you-
  • John: she taught me everything in life

pigeoncultist  asked:

Hey darqx! Your art style really cheers me up somehow, it's very clean sketchy sorta lines but at the same time there's so much detail and it's incredible! Also, how do demon-Izm's eyes work? Does he see kinda panoramic view like is typical of animals with horizontal pupils? Full color? I wish I could talk to you more like I get to talk to Gato and EP but I know there's a huge time zone difference ahah... I have a whole bunch of questions but I don't wanna overwhelm ya!

(´∀`)♡ HHHHHHH i’m yelling cos that is so lovely of you thank you?? You guys liking my art or being happy to see it gives me life like you wouldn’t believe. Also AHAHA yeah timezones are the devil… I s2g everyone i know is in America or thereabouts 90% of the time |D What are you guys all doing over there??!

Yes kinda! Demon!Izm has full colour vision and a bit of a wider “normal” field of view than a human, so his blind spot is further back. For eg if you look straight ahead and hold your hands up parallel with your ears, you cant really see them unless you turn your head slightly or look off to a side. If Izm did that, he’d be able to see his hands in his normal field of view whilst technically still looking straight ahead. It makes it harder for people to sneak up on him :B

anonymous asked:

Young Viktor tickle headcanons? This could be canon or in the reverse au where yuuri is coaching young!vitya!! ❤

Young Victor ! Original, original! I’m not in the train anymore thankgod but I can write some of these quickly before I take my shower and continue my final fantasy adventure.

I’m not that AU’ish of a person so I ‘ll try to do as canon as possible.

- Before our lovely Yuuri steps barges into his life, Victor is totally cool and non-embarrassed with tickling.

- He’s also a little bit weird/goofy kinda person who would just stand there and start giggling or chuckling randomly, and someone be like: what’s wrong? ,, and Victor: ohh nothing, my hair is just tickling me, and the other’s like *SHOT* WHO THE F IS THIS PURE AND BEAUTIFUL HUMAN BEING.

- Casual ticklish happenings other than hair-tickles are for example when he plays with Makkachin and Victor is all playful and laughing.

- He’s fairly and charmingly sensitive but no one really dares to tickle the snot out of this beautiful young figure skater because they look up to him so much and afsohsofihohf /)/////(\

- But then we have coach Yakov who has no problems jabbing the guy’s sides and tickle him whenever Victor gets too distracted during training, pays too much attention to his fans while he has to move on or train (Victor: heyeeeyy! - Yakov: *angrily tickles him and a laughing Victor is forced to move past his fans*) and Victor doesn’t mind at all, ETC. !:3

- Things like a very angry Yakov telling Victor on a very bad practice day “What in the world should I do to have you listen to me !?” ,,cut to beautiful innocent teen Victor: “idk, tickle me?:)))” – are completely normal just saying.

- Victor likes to poke Yakov as well (not very effective though) but their tickly interactions in general are more or less brief and not too rough. No one else really dares to have a tickle fight with him which disappoints the poor guy because he likes the sensation.

- Young Victor is tickle craving just please give this cutie some attention, he needs it and not just from his hair, dog and coach. Poor Victor.

- *some older Vitya because just necessary* Then years later some Yuuri f*cking Katsuki hops in and tickle fights to tears become a thing and at first he is embarrassed and ashamed unlike his past self because he’s older and with the love of his life he’s a bit self conscious with everything he does, until they grow closer and closer and he realizes Yuuri loves him , also when he is tickled past his charming- boundaries and gets very shrieky and hysterical. Yuuri loves him anyway and now tickling is very much fun again.

- When he got acquainted with Yurio he had some one sided tickle fights because he also just likes doing the tickling and be playful, but Yurio just never tickled him back. With Yuuri he also started one-sided until Yuuri grew some tickle-Victor skills (and guts…) and YES this kind of intense tickling was what Victor had been missing in his whole liiiife~

- Only when Yurio sees Yuuri tickle him he’s like fuckyeah Victor is also a person and tickle’able why the f* didn’t I ….! and when Yuri-team-ups against him happen Victor does not complain one bit.

- Both young and old Victor just adoooorez tickles<33 

Balancing Writing & College

Anonymous asked: “I had an idea to a novel 6 months ago and I started writing it immediately. I started writing during my spring semester at college but I came across a problem. Every time I sit down to focus on homework I end up continuing writing the story. I ended up getting inspiration and a great need to write at odd hours when I should be sleeping so I can get up for class. How can one manage college and a story? I don’t know what to do to manage it but my life is kind of being controlled by the story.”

To be honest, you’re probably asking the wrong person. 

During undergrad, I was always very methodical about schoolwork and writing. I didn’t write until my schoolwork for the day was done. I tended to start early - it actually baffles me now, but I used to start homework at 7 am. I’m not creative that early in the morning, but I could read and take notes and memorize Ancient Greek vocabulary - whatever I needed to do. I would decide in advance what homework I would be doing that day and plan it out for the week. That way I wasn’t working all day and then, I’d leave time for writing- usually in the early evening. I didn’t have a full-time job. I was away from family. I had time and the ability to focus. I was lucky.

When I am entirely unhelpful, I like to open up this question to my followers who are so knowledgable and helpful. How do you try to balance writing and college?


I am drawing Blizzcon badges for about 10 of my friends this year, as a gift and thanks for being great people in my life. I’m hoping to open up commissions next time around. Above is the watercolor practice of my draenei shaman and sin'dorei dk and trying to figure out what I want to do to line them and make them stand out. What do you think?

anonymous asked:

How do I not let acne hurt my self esteem? :(

VERY hard to do and I struggled with it (still kind of do honestly) for years. Just remember that it’s just a phase. And if it continues past said “phase” you can go to a dermatologist and that helps out a TON. Got rid of 95% of mine honestly within 4 months. Absolutely stunning and has helped my confidence heaps. On my last 15 days right now. <3 Stay strong and never let it stop you from doing what you love. I didn’t, but if I did I defintiely wouldn’t be where I’m at on YouTube, music, and in my personal life. Love you. <3

I am… astounded.

Originally posted by vernybvitday

Trust me when I say that every day I am honestly baffled at the amount of love and support I get here. Never in my life would I have expected this. Every time I gain a new follower I think ‘What? Why would you want to follow me????’

But guys, I am so so so thankful. A year ago I thought no one would like my stuff and I quit every project I tried to make. The amount of confidence you guys make me feel is through the roof.

I always wanted to make a follower special or something but I have no idea what to do. So for now, I just want to thank you for everything you have done for me. Slowly, I am getting better, I’m starting to really live my life again. Thank you <3

Also, I want to get to know you guys a little better!

I sometimes feel so impersonal here because I keep thinking that maybe you don’t want that kinda stuff on your dash. But, I’m starting to accept that hey, this is my blog! And I’ll take a personal and genuine blog over a bot one any day.

So, if you’d like, you can send me an ask if you have any questions, requests or just to tell me about your day!

Again, from the bottom of my heart, thank you, you’re all awesome :)

  • me: I'm never doing this again
  • anyone: *gives me validation

The Life of a Wrestling Fanatic 
[ Wrestling MOM Special ! ]

Issue #1 - The rewind button…

Hey guys ! I told you I had this idea for a comic and here it is ! Since babygirl is born, it’s hard to find time for myself, imagine finding the time to draw ! I had to reschedule some things on my to-do list (I’m home, who cares if I stink?) LOL

Oh and @stellarollins … this one is dedicated to you ;) Soon, you’ll know what it’s like to be a Wrestling mom. Best of luck to you, I hope everything will be perfect and that you and the baby will both be healthy ♥

@theawkwardfangirlwithavengeance @dylanissodone @lilyartwrestling @srcurbstompedmyheart @gelinas22 @romandeanjeff @crimson-of-the-earth @gamer705 @xshieldsterx

anonymous asked:

help?? i think i have a crush on this girl on my track team and i'm ??¿¿¿ (i've never had a crush on a girl before) what do

train and become the fastest runner so that u can carry her off into the sunset

anonymous asked:

Hi, I'm sorry, I know you have a lot of things right now on your ask box, but I just read the asks about Justin's second tape and how Hannah was also to blame, and I saw a lot of people out there saying things about it. As someone who was raped at a young age and then, later on, saw it happen with two of my closest friends, I feel like I needed to say something. (+) M

The thing about rape is that it always come back to you especially before you try to “move on”. But the thing about trauma, is that is exactly the same. It makes you vulnerable and scared and angry all the time and you don’t know what to do to make it go away, because it won’t go away, not completely. Now, both Justin and Hannah were drunk but Justin was abused his whole life. By his mother and her boyfriends and by Bryce. He was living in this cloud of fear and trauma, Hannah wasn’t (+) M

I know she was scared and on a moment of panic, but she did nothing. She was depressed, that much is obvious and I think that tape should be to herself, because it was the guilt eating her alive. She knew that she should have done something, anything, but she didn’t. She didn’t tell Jess either. She blamed Justin for it and then exposed Jessica, a victim to everyone who listened to the tapes. A rape victim being exposed like that, the repercussions could have been disastrous (+) M

I’m not excusing Justin for being silent and not telling Jess or helping her at the night. I’m just saying that he was the one with reasons to freeze that night. Not only because he was a kid who was abused at home, but also because Bryce manipulated him so much by “saving him”, he knew what Bryce was capable of, he was scared of him. And Hannah blaming him like that, acting like it was his fault, that was cruel. They’re all children but she didn’t have the right to put herself above the rest. M


I just really want to thank you for stopping by and sharing this with us. I haven’t had anyone submit anything to me with experience in such a trauma, and it’s really interesting to see what you think of the situation. I also think there is a lot in this that people can take from it. It is very similar to my perspective of this situation, so I really appreciate the submission. Thank you, thank you, thank you so much

anonymous asked:

Hey Vic. I hope you get over your sickness. I also want to ask you- how do I get over my sadness? I usually watch YouTube and have a hot drink, but that has been making me feel worse ive had this sadness for over a year, and its getting worse now. P.s I'm going to call myself Blue Anon.

Hey sorry for late reply.. was wondering how to respond to this. 

Honestly, I think you (and a lot of people) need to get outside. Go on a walk in a forest/natural landscape - disconnect from the internet and everyone else in your life for a bit. That’s what makes me happy. Connect to the Earth for a time, and connect with yourself. Meditate on what has made you happy in the past. 

Also remember that it’s okay to feel sad. You’ve been happy before, and you’ll be happy again. 

Exercise also helps too - both mentally and physically - the latter because it releases endorphins into your system, and other “happiness” chemicals. 

Listen to music that you love, eat good food, get proper sleep, go outside, and get some exercise. These are all things that have helped me, and I think they’ll make you feel better too :) 


E: How can you just…be okay with it? Ally, can’t you see! I’m no good for you! Even if we ‘worked this out’ I’d have to go to jail and what would you do while I’m there? Please! You deserve so much better!

A: But…I love you, Eugene! I might not support whatever you did then, but I support you! And I’d never just leave you. How would you know what I deserve? You’re not me!

E: That’s true, but I’m me! And I know that it’d kill me to live my whole life knowing you could be so much happier. You don’t know, this is still fresh but at some point you might find yourself doubting my loyality. Things like that aren’t simply erased. Please, darling! I just want you to go before it’s too late. You can still find someone else, someone who can treat you better, without baggage, and preferably without risking any more time anomalies.

A: But Eugene, I don’t care! I don’t care about anyone else as long as I’m with you! Why are you pushing me away!