AU: Suicidal Pendragon Coming to the realization that he cannot be with Merlin, Arthur spirals into a deep depression. He decides that no life is worth living without his true love on his arm. Suicide attempts become his best friend and Merlin is the person who finds him every single time and nurses him back to health. You clot-pole  don’t you leave me..don’t you dare leave me..“ Merlin sobs while clinging onto Arthur’s chest.