were you LONELY

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The Infernal Devices Appreciation WeekDay Two Favorite Ship: — Will and Tessa

You and I, Tess, we’re alike. We live and breathe words. It was books that kept me from taking my own life after I thought I could never love anyone, never be loved by anyone again. It was books that made me feel that perhaps I was not completely alone. They could be honest with me, and I with them. Reading your words, what you wrote, how you were lonely sometimes and afraid, but always brave, the way you saw the world, its colors and textures and sounds, I felt - I felt the way you thought, hoped, felt, dreamed. I felt I was dreaming and thinking and feeling with you. I dreamed what you dreamed, wanted what you wanted - and then I realized that truly I just wanted you. The girl behind the scrawled letters. I loved you from the moment I read them. I love you still. Tessa had begun to tremble. This was what she had always wanted someone to say. What she had always, in the darkest corner of her heart, wanted Will to say.

She’s the betta half of the two

It’s fucking pathetic that after so long, I still would do anything for you to want me again.
You will never learn how to love me right. I know that now. I know that. I have realized that you can give a person five thousand chances but they will still let you down every time, it is in some peoples nature to hurt others. It is in your nature to hurt. It is in my nature to forgive. I am not going to sit here and take it anymore. I am not going to continue to let you use your hands to fix other people while you’re breaking me. I was there for you, I remember when you were lonely. I was the only person who stuck around. Now, you are surrounded by people and you don’t need me anymore. I was the only person in the entire world that would have done anything for you. I am leaving now, I am exiting your life as quietly as I can, and I am making sure not to slam the back door too loudly. One day, you will realize I am missing and you will try to fill my spot with so many other people, but trust me, that spot will always be empty. I am just so tired of loving a person who only loves me when it’s convenient.
—  December 13th, 2015
I just miss your presence in my life. You were the lone rose in my garden, you were that ray of sun that peaks through the clouds after a thunderstorm, you had the ability to calm me with your smile, and hold me in your eyes. I miss those bright sky Blue eyes, but I miss the beautiful soul who looks through them more. Since you’ve been away my days have turned gray, my nights are sleepless, and when I do finally get to sleep I’m tormented by my own head and the reality of what happened.
—  my ex to me
Me Every Day
  • A family member: I remember-
  • Me: THINKING, ARE WE OUT OF THE WOODS YET
  • A friend: Hey,h-
  • Me: HEY HEY HEY JUST THINK WHILE YOU'VE BEEN GETTING DOWN AND OUT ABOUT THE LIARS AND THE DIRTY DIRTY CHEATS OF THE WORLD, YOU COULD'VE BEEN GETTING DOWN TO THIS SICK BEAT
  • Ice skating teacher: The air's kinda cold, don't you thin-
  • Me: THE AIR WAS COLD, BUT SOMETHING BOUT IT FELT LIKE HOME SOMEHOW AND I . . .
  • Mom: You never-
  • Me: DID GIVE A DAMN THING HONEY BUT I CRIED, CRIED FOR YOU
  • Kindergarten teacher: Once upon a time-
  • Me: A FEW MISTAKE AGO, I WAS IN YOUR SIGHTS, YOU GOT ME ALONE
  • Everyone: We're not friends anymore. You never listen and-
  • Me: I'M ALONE, ON MY OWN, AND THAT'S ALL I KNOW.
Commitment has always been scary for me. The thought of devoting myself to one person seemed impossible. I get bored too easily for that. But with you it was different. I could spend eternity listening to your voice, your laugh, and all your stupid little jokes.
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I didn’t catch Diggle’s response to this in the first watching because I was laughing so hard at Oliver stating the obvious. 

But I sort of love how Diggle doesn’t bother to try to talk Oliver out of it, just explains the reasoning. And the reasoning isn’t “because you liked her” it was “because you were lonely af after wifey left you and trying to fill the void.”

That’s my Diggle. First Mate of the S.S. Olicity.