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Among the myths of the postwar period was that of the apolitical woman. […] Female fascists – in Nazi Party headquarters in Kiev, in military and SS and police headquarters in Minsk, and in gated villas in Lublin – were not simply doing “women’s work.” As long as German women are consigned to another sphere or their political influence is minimized, half the population of a genocidal society is […] “endowed with innocence of the crimes of the modern state,” and they are placed “outside of history itself.” […]  

A third of the female population, thirteen million women, were actively engaged in a Nazi Party organization, and female membership in the Nazi Party increased steadily until the end of the war.  Just as the agency of women in history is underappreciated, here too […] the agency of women in the Third Reich has not been fully elaborated and explained.  Vast numbers of ordinary German women were not victims, and routine forms of female participation in the Holocaust have not yet been disclosed. […] 

The consensus in Holocaust and genocide studies is that the systems that make mass murder possible would not function without the broad participation of society, and yet nearly all histories of the Holocaust leave out half of those who populated that society, as if women’s history happens somewhere else. It is an illogical approach and puzzling omission.

Tomorrow was your birthday. Jax and you hadn’t dated long so you weren’t sure he would even remember, but deep down you hoped he did. You didn’t have any family here. You moved for a job. You weren’t close to anyone in your family anyway. So you didn’t expect cards and presents being sent your way.
Getting up early you drove to the salon Gemma told you about and decided on getting a new look. You weren’t sure about trusting Gemma at first. I mean you were the women who started dating her son and spending time with his boys. To be honest she scared you a little. Wendy had told you to stick your ground with her or she would walk all over you, but the funny thing was you never had to. She told you one night over dinner while you two were cleaning up. That Jax and the boys hadn’t seemed this happy in a long time.
Telling the stylist that you wanted a new look you trusted her opinion and leaned back for a relaxing visit.

“I got everything planned for tomorrow night.” Gemma said walking into the clubhouse
“How is she suppose to know when to get here.” Lyla asked walking out of the back
“Jax is suppose to pick her up and bring her here. He’s going to pretend he has forgotten her birthday and they are just coming here to hang out.” Gemma said putting her purse on the bar.
“She’s going to be so pissed that he forgot.” Lyla said laughing
“He will make it up to her, but I have to go finish some paperwork. Meet me here tomorrow and we can get the others to help us to decorate.”
“Sounds good. See you tomorrow.”

Walking out of the salon you couldn’t believe how good you felt. She had done a great job on your hair. The sun was out and the highlights from your hair was brighter then ever. Taking out your phone you text Jax to see if he wanted to meet for lunch.

Jax’s
I’m done getting my hair cut. Want to meet for lunch?

Walking over to the little restaurant that was next to the salon. You walked into get a table. Even if Jax didn’t want to meet for lunch a girl still need to eat.

“How many?”
“I’m not sure. It may be me or could be around six.” You didn’t know if he would come alone or with someone of the guys
“I’ll give you a booth and we can move if needed.”
“That sounds great.” You said following her to the seat.

Y/N “Would love to but got some club business. Dinner tonight?”

Looking down at your phone with a smile then feeling it leave as you read the text.

Jax’s
Sounds good.

“My name is Stacy and I’ll be your waitress today? What can I get you to drink?” The prettiest women came up to take your order. You wanted to hate her but she was just to sweet.

“I’m going to get this to go. I don’t want to eat by myself.” You said ordering

“You don’t have to leave. We won’t kick you out.” She said smiling at you.

“I appreciate that Stacy but I’ll think I’ll head on home.”

“I’ll be right back with your order.”

While you waited for your food to come. You looked out the window getting lost in a day dream. It was a beautiful day out for February. It had been so raining a lot and to actually she the sun was a blessing. Your mind went to Jax and seeing him tonight. If the boys stayed at Gemma’s tonight then maybe Jax could stay at your place and then when you woke up you wouldn’t be alone on your birthday.

“Here’s you food and it’s on the house.” She said smiling at you.
“What? Really?”
“I always try to pay it forward and you seemed so sad. I really hopes this makes your day better.”
“Thank you.” Getting up you left her a tip on the table.
If only everyone was as nice as she was.

Walking outside and getting to your car. You had just unlocked the door when you looked up and couldn’t believe what you saw. Getting out of Wendy’s car was her and Jax. They were laughing and talking like he had no worries in the world. You watched as Jax opened the door for Wendy touching her lower back as she walked inside. All you saw was red. You couldn’t believe this. Throwing your food into the seat. You slammed the door getting in and pulled out. Between the tears and driving to fast you weren’t sure how you even got home.


“Why did you want me to come with you?” Wendy asked as you two walked into the store.
“Just wanted a women’s opinion.” He said walking over to the jewelry counter.
“I thought you could her name tattooed on you?”
“I did but want to get her something else. What do you think about this?” He said pointing to the locket.
“Mr. Teller we just finished the necklace. Would you like to see it?”
Taking the necklace from the man he opened it. On one side was engraved the day he asked you to be his old lady and the other side had both of your initials.
“Think she will like it?”
“When in the hell did you come so damn romantic Jax?” Wendy said taking the necklace from him.


Pulling into the drive way you just got more pissed at him and pissed at yourself for thinking he would be faithful. Maybe you didn’t fit in the whole mold of a bikers old lady but you thought he really liked you. You where in love with him and he thinks your stupid enough to cheat on. That’s when your phone started to ring.
“Hello.”
“Babe what’s wrong?”
“Babe, I’m just peachy.”
Jax knew you were pissed but couldn’t figure out why.
“I’ll be over soon. Then we can get dinner.”
“That’s not a good idea. But why don’t you have dinner with Wendy.” With that you thru the phone.
He couldn’t figure out what you said that. He didn’t bother to think you had saw them. You weren’t even around there or where you.
Picking up the phone to call you again.
“Leave me alone Jax.” You said hanging up again and this time you threw your phone across the room.

Wanting this day to be over you went to take a shower. While you were taking a shower Jax showed up but you didn’t answer and he didn’t want to push it. Tomorrow was your surprise party and he would have to talk to you before then if possible. He wasn’t sure what it was about you that made him feel like this. He was a badass biker but you had him running around like a teenage boy. Knocking on the door again a little harder this time. Getting out of the shower and wrapping a towel around you. You hurried to the door. Looking thru the peep hole you saw Jax standing there.
“What the hell Jax. I said to leave me alone.”
“You’re upset and I don’t like that. What’s wrong?”
“Did you and Wendy have a good afternoon on club business?” You asked wanting to get sick thinking about it
“It’s not what you think?”
“Then why lie to me about anything?”
“Can we talk inside Y/N?” Jax said as he stood on your porch
“Not tonight. Go home Jax.” You said turning out the light
Sitting down on the floor with the towel still wrapped around you. You cried and when you heard his bike take off you cried even more. You weren’t sure how long you stayed there. You didn’t move till your heard you clock hit midnight.
“Happy Birthday loser.” You said softly
Getting up you walked into your bedroom and put on the first shirt you could fine. As soon as you slipped it over your head you could smell him on the shirt. Falling on the bed that you had shared so many nights together you cried yourself to sleep.

You could hear your phone ringing over and over again. Getting up and trying to remember where you threw it. You finally found it behind the plant in the corner of the room.
“Hello.”
“Hey babe. I need a favor?” Gemma said
“Of course you do? What can I help you with?” You figured no one would remember your birthday so might as well stay busy.
“Can you come over and get the boys?”
“Why can’t Jax or Wendy get them?
“Jax is out with Chibs and Juice taking care of something and I don’t want Wendy’s help.”
“Sure Gemma I’ll be there soon.”
“Thanks doll.”

What the hell is wrong with me. I’m mad at Jax and then agree to spend time with the boys. I am so stupid and continue to ask for heartbreak. You thought to yourself as you pulled on some jeans and a t-shirt. Grabbing a jacket you headed over to the club.

“Okay everyone she should be here soon.” Gemma said turning toward everyone
Jax had his gift in his pocket. He would give it to you when the time was right. First he had to make sure you two were okay and explain why he lied to you.
Everyone was laughing and getting a bear when Tig walked in saying you just pulled up.
“Everyone hide.” Jax yelled over the noise
Getting out of your car. You locked the door then headed inside the club. Opening the door you thought you could hear people whispering but it was so dark you couldn’t see anything.
Not wanting to walk in on anyone in the middle of something you didn’t want to see you yelled.
“Hello.”
“Surprise!!!” Everyone yelled
You screamed and held your chest.
“My God.”
“Happy Birthday babe.” Jax said coming up and hugging you.
“I can’t believe you guys remembered and did this.” You said hugging him back.
“If you could have seen your face.” Tig said coming up to you.
“Well I could hear whispering so I was worried what I was going to walk into.” You said laughing.
“Happy birthday princess.” Tig said moving Jax out of the way and giving you a hug.
“Thanks Tig.”
Walking more Into the club house you stopped to talk to everyone. People told you happy birthday and have you hugs. Gemma was the last to hug you as you walked over to the cake.
Sitting on the table was a three tier cake in Teal icing.
“Happy Birthday Babe.”
“This is so awesome. I love it.” You said hugging her
“You like the cake?”
“It’s beautiful.”

Jax watched you as he leaned on the bar drinking a beer. You looked over your shoulder and smiled at him. He smiled back then walked over to you.
“Mom we will be right back.” He said taking your hand
“Hurry back for we can have cake.”
“My mom seems to like you.” He said as you walked to his dorm
“I’m not sure if I should be scared or happy.” You said laughing.
He closed the door behind you and all of a sudden you got really nervous. You had forgotten for a moment that you were mad at him.
“Think maybe I can explain yesterday?”
“Yeah. I mean I’m here and everything.” You said smiling at him.
“You have a beautiful smile.” He said walking closer to you and touching the side of your face.
God you wanted to kiss him. One night with out him and you are acting like you haven’t had a glass of water for a week. Trying to get a grip you walked over and had a seat on the bed.
“I just needed her opinion on something. It was a gift for you. I got you two actually.” He said putting his cut on the chair then pulling off his shirt.
You started to say something when he turned around and you saw your name tattooed on his chest. Getting up you walked up to him and traced your finger across your name.
“Jax.”
“I love you.” He had never said that to you before this day.
“I love you too.” You said leaning up and kissing the tattoo
Looking up at Jax. He kissed you with so much passion. Your knees started to feel numb. The feeling off wanting him was to much to handle. Putting your arms around his neck. He walked you to the bed. You felt your knees touch the bed and you fell back with him going with you. That’s when the box feel out of his jeans.
“What’s this?” You asked reaching for it.
“It’s your other gift?”
Moving from under him you opened the box. Not sure what was actually in the box.
“It’s beautiful.”
“Open it?”
Taking the necklace out of the box. You opened it and put a hand over your mouth.
“I didn’t know you where this romantic.” You said laughing while you cried
“Wendy asked the same thing when I showed her.” He said taking it from you and putting it on you.
Standing up and walking to the mirror you looked at the necklace. Seeing Jax in the mirror behind you. You took of your shirt still watching him. Then unhooking your bra. You moved to your pants. Turning around and only having your necklace on.
“How does it look on me?” You said walking over to him
Smiling at you he reached for your hand and pulled you on to the bed.
“It looks perfect..” he said getting up and taking off his pants and then climbing on the bed with you.
“I think we are both going to enjoy this birthday.” He said leaning down to kiss your neck.
Moaning as he kissed you.
“Let me thank you for the gifts.” You said with a smirk on your face
With that Jax was on the bed and pulling you on top of him.
“You’re in control babe.” He said holding on to your waist
“I think I like my birthday again.” You said kissing him again.

anonymous asked:

Awhile ago you mentioned you were reading quite a bit, would you mind listing the books you've been reading?

yeah definitely! idk how to put it under the cut on an ask, so sorry if this gets long, but here are the books i have finished since january 1st:

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  2. Baranowski, Shelley. Nazi Empire: German Colonialism and Imperialism from Bismarck to Hitler. Cambridge University Press, 2010.
  3. Beinart, Peter. The Crisis of Zionism. Picador, 2013.
  4. Biale, David. Eros and the Jews: From Biblical Israel to Contemporary America. University of California Press, 1997.
  5. Boyarin, Daniel. Unheroic Conduct: The Rise of Heterosexuality and the Invention of the Jewish Man. University of California Press, 1997.
  6. Brossat, Alain, and Sylvia Klingberg. Revolutionary Yiddishland: A History of Jewish Radicalism. Verso, 2016.
  7. Buber, Martin. A Land of Two Peoples: Martin Buber on Jews and Arabs. University of Chicago Press, 2005.
  8. Budnitskii, Oleg. Russian Jews Between the Reds and the Whites, 1917-1920. University of Pennsylvania Press, 2011.
  9. Cohen, Hillel. Year Zero of the Arab-Israeli Conflict: 1929. Brandeis, 2015.
  10. Cohen, Jack J. Democratizing Judaism. Academic Studies Press, 2010.
  11. David-Fox, Michael, Peter Holquist, and Alexander M. Martin, ed. Fascination and Enmity: Russia and Germany as Entangled Histories, 1914–1945. University of Pittsburgh Press, 2012.
  12. Dekel-Chen, Jonathan L. Farming the Red Land: Jewish Agricultural Colonization and Local Soviet Power, 1924–1941. Yale University Press, 2005.
  13. Deutscher, Isaac. The Prophet Armed: Trotsky 1879-1921. Verso, 2015.
  14. Deutscher, Isaac. The Prophet Outcast: Trotsky 1929-1940. Verso, 2015.
  15. Deutscher, Isaac. The Prophet Unarmed: Trotsky 1921-1929. Verso, 2015.
  16. Dupont, Monsieur. Nihilist Communism. Online.
  17. Ferguson, Niall. Paper and Iron: Hamburg Business and German Politics in the Era of Inflation, 1897-1927. Cambridge University Press, 1995.
  18. Fitzpatrick, Sheila, and Michael Geyer, ed. Beyond Totalitarianism: Stalinism and Nazism Compared. Cambridge University Press, 2008.
  19. Fitzpatrick, Sheila. Everyday Stalinism: Ordinary Life in Extraordinary Times: Soviet Russia in the 1930s. Oxford University Press, 2000.
  20. Fitzpatrick, Sheila, Alexander Rabinowitch, and Richard Stites, ed. Russia in the Era of NEP: Explorations in Soviet Society and Culture. Indiana University Press, 1991.
  21. Fitzpatrick, Sheila. The Russian Revolution. Oxford University Press, 2008.
  22. Gessen, Masha. Where the Jews Aren’t: The Sad and Absurd Story of Birobidzhan, Russia’s Jewish Autonomous Region. Schocken, 2016.
  23. Gitelman, Zvi. A Century of Ambivalence: The Jews of Russia and the Soviet Union, 1881 to the Present. Indiana University Press, 2001.
  24. Gitelman, Zvi. Jewish Nationality and Soviet Politics: The Jewish Sections of the CPSU, 1917-1930. Princeton University Press, 2015.
  25. Gorny, Yosef. Zionism and the Arabs, 1882-1948: A Study of Ideology. Clarendon Press, 1987.
  26. Gross, Jan. Neighbors: The Destruction of the Jewish Community in Jedwabne, Poland. Penguin Books, 2002.
  27. von Hagen, Mark. Soldiers in the Proletarian Dictatorship: The Red Army and the Soviet Socialist State, 1917-1930. Cornell University Press, 1993.
  28. Halpern, Ben, and Jehuda Reinharz. Zionism and the Creation of a New Society. Oxford University Press, 1998.
  29. Heller, Joseph. The Stern Gang: Ideology, Politics and Terror, 1940-1949. Routledge, 2015.
  30. Hertzberg, Arthur, ed. The Zionist Idea: A Historical Analysis and Reader. The Jewish Publication Society, 1997.
  31. Hirsch, Francine. Empire of Nations: Ethnographic Knowledge and the Making of the Soviet Union. Cornell University Press, 2005.
  32. Hochschild, Adam. King Leopold’s Ghost: A Story of Greed, Terror, and Heroism in Colonial Africa. Houghton Mifflin, 1999.
  33. Kaplan, Eran. The Jewish Radical Right: Revisionist Zionism and Its Ideological Legacy. University of Wisconsin Press, 2005.
  34. Kaplan, Mordecai M. The Future of the American Jew. Reconstructionist Press, 1981.
  35. Karp, Matthew. This Vast Southern Empire: Slaveholders at the Helm of American Foreign Policy. Harvard University Press, 2016.
  36. Kershaw, Ian, and Moshe Lewin, ed. Stalinism and Nazism: Dictatorships in Comparison. Cambridge University Press, 1997.
  37. Khalidi, Rashid. Palestinian Identity: The Construction of Modern National Consciousness. Columbia University Press, 2009.
  38. Kieser, Hans-Lukas, and Dominik J. Schaller, ed. Der Völkermord an den Armeniern und die Shoah. Chronos Verlag, 2002.
  39. Kimmerling, Baruch. The Invention and Decline of Israeliness: State, Society, and the Military. University of California Press, 2005.
  40. Kotkin, Stephen. Magnetic Mountain: Stalinism as a Civilization. University of California Press, 1997.
  41. Kotkin, Stephen. Stalin: Paradoxes of Power, 1878-1928. Penguin Books, 2015.
  42. Laqeuer, Walter. A History of Zionism: From the French Revolution to the Establishment of the State of Israel. Schocken, 2003.
  43. Liulevicius, Vejas G. The German Myth of the East: 1800 to the Present. Oxford University Press, 2010.
  44. Lockman, Zachary. Comrades and Enemies: Arab and Jewish Workers in Palestine, 1906-1948. University of California Press, 1996.
  45. Lower, Wendy. Hitler’s Furies: German Women in the Nazi Killing Fields. Mariner Books, 2014.
  46. Lower, Wendy. Nazi Empire-Building and the Holocaust in Ukraine. University of North Carolina Press, 2006.
  47. Mandel, David. The Petrograd Workers and the Fall of the Old Regime: From the February Revolution to the July Days, 1917. Palgrave Macmillan, 1983.
  48. Mandel, David. The Petrograd Workers and the Soviet Seizure of Power. Palgrave Macmillan, 1984.
  49. Martin, Terry. The Affirmative Action Empire: Nations and Nationalism in the Soviet Union, 1923–1939. Cornell University Press, 2001.
  50. Mazower, Mark. Hitler’s Empire: How the Nazis Ruled Europe. Penguin Books, 2009.
  51. McMeekin, Sean. The Berlin-Baghdad Express: The Ottoman Empire and Germany’s Bid for World Power. Belknap Press, 2012.
  52. Mieville, China. October: The Story of the Russian Revolution. Verso, 2017.
  53. Morris, Benny. 1948: A History of the First Arab-Israeli War. Yale University Press, 2008.
  54. Morris, Benny. The Birth of the Palestinian Refugee Problem, 1947-1949. Cambridge University Press, 1989.
  55. Morris, Benny. Righteous Victims: A History of the Zionist-Arab Conflict, 1881-2001. Vintage, 2001.
  56. Moss, Kenneth B. Jewish Renaissance in the Russian Revolution. Harvard University Press, 2009.
  57. Neumann, Boaz. Land and Desire in Early Zionism. Brandeis, 2011.
  58. Nietzsche, Friedrich. Basic Writings of Nietzsche. Modern Library, 200.
  59. Nur, Ofer N. Eros and Tragedy: Jewish Male Fantasies and the Masculine Revolution of Zionism. Academic Studies Press, 2014.
  60. Pappe, Ilan. A History of Modern Palestine: One Land, Two Peoples. Cambridge University Press, 2006.
  61. Petrovsky-Shtern, Yohanan. The Golden Age Shtetl: A New History of Jewish Life in East Europe. Princeton University Press, 2014.
  62. Pinkus, Benjamin. The Jews of the Soviet Union: The History of a National Minority. Cambridge University Press, 1990.
  63. Rabinowitch, Alexander. The Bolsheviks Come to Power: The Revolution of 1917 in Petrograd. Haymarket Books, 2017.
  64. Rabinowitch, Alexander. The Bolsheviks in Power: The First Year of Soviet Rule in Petrograd. Indiana University Press, 2008.
  65. Rabinowitch, Alexander. Prelude to Revolution: The Petrograd Bolsheviks and the July 1917 Uprising. Indiana University Press, 1991.
  66. Reynolds, Michael A. Shattering Empires: The Clash and Collapse of the Ottoman and Russian Empires, 1908-1918. Cambridge University Press, 2011.
  67. Rubenstein, Sondra M. The Communist Movement in Palestine and Israel, 1919-1984. Westview Press, 1985.
  68. Saposnik, Arieh B. Becoming Hebrew: The Creation of a Jewish National Culture in Ottoman Palestine. Oxford University Press, 2008.
  69. Schopenhauer, Arthur. The Essential Schopenhauer: Key Selections from The World As Will and Representation and Other Writings. Harper Perennial, 2010.
  70. Schulman, Faye. A Partisan’s Memoir: Woman of the Holocaust. Second Story Press, 1995.
  71. Scult, Mel. The Radical American Judaism of Mordecai M. Kaplan. Indiana University Press, 2015.
  72. Segev, Tom. One Palestine, Complete: Jews and Arabs Under the British Mandate. Picador, 2001.
  73. Shafir, Gershon. Land, Labor and the Origins of the Israeli-Palestinian Conflict, 1882-1914. University of California Press, 1996.
  74. Shapira, Anita. Land and Power: The Zionist Resort to Force, 1881-1948. Stanford University Press, 1999.
  75. Shapiro, Yonathan. The Formative Years of the Israeli Labour Party: The Organization of Power, 1919-1930. Sage Publications, 1976.
  76. Shapiro, Yonathan. The Road to Power: Herut Party in Israel. SUNY Press, 1991.
  77. Shavit, Ari. My Promised Land: The Triumph and Tragedy of Israel. Spiegel & Grau, 2015.
  78. Shavit, Yaacov. Jabotinsky and the Revisionist Movement, 1925-1948. Routledge, 1988.
  79. Shindler, Colin. The Land Beyond Promise: Israel, Likud and the Zionist Dream. I.B. Tauris, 2002.
  80. Shindler, Colin. The Triumph of Military Zionism: Nationalism and the Origins of the Israeli Right. I.B. Tauris, 2009.
  81. Shneer, David. Yiddish and the Creation of Soviet Jewish Culture: 1918-1930. Cambridge University Press, 2009.
  82. Shlaim, Avi. The Iron Wall: Israel and the Arab World. W. W. Norton & Company, 2014.
  83. Shternshis, Anna. Soviet and Kosher: Jewish Popular Culture in the Soviet Union, 1923-1939. Indiana University Press, 2006.
  84. Smith, S.A. Red Petrograd: Revolution in the Factories, 1917-1918. Haymarket Books, 2017.
  85. Snyder, Timothy. Black Earth: The Holocaust as History and Warning. Tim Duggan Books, 2015.
  86. Snyder, Timothy. Bloodlands: Europe Between Hitler and Stalin. Basic Books, 2012.
  87. Stalin, Josef. Marxism and the National and Colonial Question. Online.
  88. Stanislawski, Michael. Zionism and the Fin de Siècle: Cosmopolitanism and Nationalism from Nordau to Jabotinsky. University of California Press, 2001.
  89. Sternhell, Ze'ev. The Founding Myths of Israel: Nationalism, Socialism, and the Making of the Jewish State. Princeton University Press, 1997.
  90. Suny, Ronald G. The Baku Commune, 1917-1918: Class and Nationality in the Russian Revolution. Princeton University Press, 1972.
  91. Suny, Ronald G., and Lewis H. Siegelbaum, ed. Making Workers Soviet: Power, Culture, and Identity. Cornell University Press, 1994.
  92. Suny, Ronald G., Diane P. Koenker, and William G. Rosenberg, ed. Party, State, and Society in the Russian Civil War: Explorations in Social History. Indiana University Press, 1989.
  93. Suny, Ronald G., Fatma M. Gocek, and Norman M. Naimark, ed. A Question of Genocide: Armenians and Turks at the End of the Ottoman Empire. Oxford University Press, 2011.
  94. Suny, Ronald G., and Terry Martin, ed. A State of Nations: Empire and Nation-making in the Age of Lenin and Stalin. Oxford University Press, 2001.
  95. Suny, Ronald G. “They Can Live in the Desert but Nowhere Else”: A History of the Armenian Genocide. Princeton University Press, 2015.
  96. Troen, S. Ilan. Imagining Zion: Dreams, Designs, and Realities in a Century of Jewish Settlement. Yale University Press, 2003.
  97. Troen, S. Ilan, and Maoz Azaryahu, ed. Tel-Aviv, the First Century: Visions, Designs, Actualities. Indiana University Press, 2011.
  98. Ullrich, Volker. Hitler: Ascent, 1889-1939. Knopf, 2016.
  99. Veidlinger, Jeffrey. In the Shadow of the Shtetl: Small-Town Jewish Life in Soviet Ukraine. Indiana University Press, 2013.
  100. Weiner, Amir, ed. Landscaping the Human Garden: Twentieth-Century Population Management in a Comparative Framework. Stanford University Press, 2003.
  101. Weiner, Amir. Making Sense of War: The Second World War and the Fate of the Bolshevik Revolution. Princeton University Press, 2002.

Written for Darling Pan Week. For the Arrows Theme. 

Written as a companion piece for April’s absolutely wonderful drawing (it should be in the tag very close to this post and if you have never seen April’s art, you should definitely click on the link and go drown in awesomeness)

This is NSFW

Very nsfw. Children, look away. 

if you could only see the beast you’ve made of me
i held it in but now it seems you’ve set it running free (x)

-          You’re not very good at this.

-          Well, maybe I should imagine that’s you. It might give me motivation.

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Amortentia

Prompt: magic made them do it 

She slides her fingers down the thin neck of the bottle and watches as the purple liquid inside oscillates. She is helping Tink look for poppy seeds, which aids sleep, which has in turn progressed into a perusal of the numerous bottles of potions that the fallen fairy has accumulated over the years.

“What is it?”

“Oh that’s a love potion,” she explains after a brief glance and then goes back to rummaging through a trunk. “It doesn’t work, one of the ingredients is pixie dust and well, you know…”

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The Pines and the Birches

Wendy takes Mabel swinging birches.

So I was about halfway through writing this when it occurred to me to see whether Oregon actually has birches. It does not, apart from some isolated areas on the East side. So here are your options: a) Gravity Falls is magic and part of that magic is that there are a lot of birch trees there. b) This is an au where everything is the same as canon except there are birch trees in Oregon. c) This is set in selkie au, it just features zero discussion of selkies.

Just … let me have my self-indulgent tree metaphors. They’re important.


“Heeeeeey, Wendy!”

Wendy lowered the latest issue of Avoiding Eye Contact Monthly. She regretted it as soon as she saw Mabel grinning at her over the counter, holding out a spread of the gaudiest, glitteriest nail polish Wendy had ever seen.

“Wanna do each other’s nails and talk about boys!?” she asked hopefully.

Wendy glanced around her for an avenue of distraction or escape. “I thought you had Candy and Grenda for that?”

Mabel slouched down, her head disappearing below the counter until only her hands and their sparkly neon contents remained.

“They can’t come over today. Candy’s mom got freaked out that she broke her glasses when we were fighting the unicorns, and Grenda got so excited she ripped the door off her house so she has to stay home and fix it.”

Wendy chuckled. “She and my Dad would get along like a house on fire. And I mean that in the metaphorical and literal sense.”

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Nothing ever lasts forever Everybody wants to rule the world

Hum. Okay. I had a plot bunny.

This features Dark Wendy, I guess. I never write Dark Wendy. This is a first. This really isn’t fluffy. 

Basically Wendy is trying to take down Peter Pan. Yeah. 

Nothing ever lasts forever Everybody wants to rule the world (x)

-        I want to take it from him.

The Shadow’s eyes shine like silvery stars in the dark, as the spirit of Neverland looks upon this young, delicate flower of a girl who dares to think about overthrowing Pan. Wendy Darling, broken but not vanquished, stares at the creature, a determined curl to her rosy mouth. She lifts her chin proudly. 

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I had seen many Nazi documents before, while comfortably ensconced in the microfilm reading room of the U.S. National Archives in Washington, D.C. But now, seated in the buildings that had been occupied by the Germans, I discovered something besides the rawness of the material I was sifting through. To my surprise, I also found the names of young German women who were active in the region as Hitler’s empire-builders. They appeared on innocuous, bureaucratic lists of kindergarten teachers. With these leads in hand, I returned to the archives in the United States and Germany and started to look more systematically for documentation about German women who were sent east, and specifically about those who witnessed and perpetrated the Holocaust. The files began to grow, and stories started to take shape.
Researching postwar investigative records, I realized that hundreds of women had been called to testify as witnesses and that many were very forthcoming, since prosecutors were more interested in the heinous crimes of their male colleagues and husbands than in those of women. Many of the women remained callous and cavalier in their recounting of what they had seen and experienced. One former kindergarten teacher in Ukraine mentioned “that Jewish thing during the war.” She and her female colleagues had been briefed as they crossed the border from Germany into the eastern occupied zones in 1942. She remembered that a Nazi official in a “gold-brownish uniform” had reassured them that they should not be afraid when they heard gunfire— it was “just that a few Jews were being shot.”
If the shooting of Jews was considered no cause for alarm during the war, then how did women respond when they actually arrived at their posts? Did they turn away, or did they want to see or do more?


Excerpted from Hitler’s Furies by Wendy Lower, Longlisted for the 2013 National Book Award for Nonfiction. Copyright © 2013 by Wendy Lower. Reprinted by permission of Houghton Mifflin Harcourt Publishing Company. All rights reserved. Photographs courtesy of the U.S. National Archives and Records Administration.

What helped me to continue writing—apart from the ethical imperative to find some truth and meaning in the injustices that I uncovered—was the fact that there are many people today who complain that they are tired of hearing about the Holocaust, simply wish that the history would go away, and assume that we know all there is to know. But we are still uncovering millions of pages and hundreds of thousands of life stories of people who have no voice today and who would be forgotten if not for the work of the scholars in this field. We are still piecing together that puzzle of what happened and trying to understand why.
—  Interview with Wendy Lower, author of Hitler’s Furies: German Women in the Nazi Killing Fields, 2013 National Book Award Finalist, Nonfiction