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Truth:
I gained 20lbs in 6 months.
I’m over 20% body fat.
I have cellulite and a pretty decent belly pooch.
Clothes don’t fit right.
I’m uncomfortable in my skin 75% of the time.
My legs are so pale that they could blind you in the sunlight.
I have stretch marks EVERYWHERE.
My stretch marks are also bright purple.

I really hate my body. It’s something I’ve always dealt with, but lately I’ve been trying more and more to appreciate the little things, like:

My eyebrows are amazing.
The color of my eyes change and that’s beautiful.
I LOVE the freckles on my face and body.
Hell, I wish I had more freckles.
I have a beautiful smile.
My tattoos are Fucking awesome and badass.
I can rock a pixie cut pretty well.
My nose piercing works really well on my face.
My legs allow me to walk all around the city.
My arms allow me to carry ALL the groceries.
My stomach holds all my favorite foods inside.

It’s so easy to zone in and focus on all the things you hate about yourself; it’s so easy and so detrimental. Take those negative thoughts, acknowledge them, and counteract them. Weigh those thoughts down with positive affirmations and suddenly life is a little bit sweeter, the sun shines a little bit brighter, and you become a little bit happier.

Staying positive and moving forward ✌🏻

(Also these pasty-cellulite-thunder-thighs got me through a 202lb back squat last night so hell. fucking. yes.)

Only Us (Part Thirteen)

Pairing: Peter Parker (Tom Holland) x Reader

Summary:  What happens when the reader saves Spiderman…while he’s saving you? (things have changed but fuck it I’m still using this summary cuz idk)

Word Count: 1464

Warning(s): Swearing

Additional Notes: If you would like to be tagged for every part of this series let me know by commenting or something else idk. Also there is only gonna be a few more parts to this series. 

Part 1  Part 2  Part 3  Part 4  Part 5  Part 6  Part 7  Part 8  Part 9  Part 10  Part 11  Part 12


“Peter.” A woman’s voice said before I felt someone move next to me. “Peter Parker.” I opened my eyes as someone jerked underneath me.

“Uh—hey May.” I heard Peter’s voice. My eyes opened and I yawned my hand traveling up the cloth of Peter’s shirt. I turned on the couch realizing Peter and I had fallen asleep on the couch…again. I looked up to see a women I recognized as May standing above us a smile on her face. Peter moved slightly causing me to fall of the couch.

“Ow.” I groaned as my head hit the ground.

“Shit sorry Y/N.” Peter said looking down at me. He helped me up as I blushed.

“So is someone going to tell me what’s going on?” May crossed her arms.

“Sorry.” Peter blushed as I sat next to him on the couch rubbing the back of my head. “Uh May this is Y/N, you remember her—uh and Y/N this is my Aunt May.”

“I know who she is Peter.” May chuckled. “You never stop talking about her.” I blushed looking over at Peter who turned bright red. “My question is why she’s here, why you two were sleeping on the couch and why there is a bruise on her cheek.”

“Uh—” Peter blushed. “Well she—she’s my girlfriend.”

“Really!” May’s face brightened looking between us. “Oh that is just adorable.” I blushed looking at Peter who had gone bright red.

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Dan Stevens On Proving Mark Ruffalo Wrong With ‘Beauty And The Beast’
Mark Ruffalo told Dan Stevens that 'Beauty and the Beast' would be impossible.

Dan Stevens Wants To Prove Mark Ruffalo Wrong With ‘Beauty And The Beast’

Dan Stevens is having a productive 2017 so far. Not only does he play the lead on Legion – an X-Men spinoff that is one of the oddest superhero properties to come along in some time – he’s also the co-lead in this week’s sure-to-be-blockbuster, Beauty and the Beast. Now, we don’t see a lot of Stevens in Beauty and the Beast as we normally see him, but that’s him as The Beast, using motion capture technology while wearing stilts.

The live action Beauty and the Beast tells the familiar story of The Beast – a cursed prince who can only break the curse by finding true love in his now Beast form – and Belle (Emma Watson), a young woman who trades her freedom for that of her father (Kevin Kline) after The Beast imprisons him for stealing flowers. (It’s a lot more romantic than this description made it sound.)

Ahead, Stevens discusses the lack of encouragement he received from Mark Ruffalo after telling Ruffalo he’d be playing The Beast using motion capture technology. (“Lack of encouragement,” might be an understatement as Ruffalo, who has used motion capture himself to play The Hulk, called it “impossible.”) And now Stevens would like to take The Hulk to see Beauty and the Beast so Stevens can show Ruffalo how it all went.

How are you?

I’m doing all right. You are from Uproxx?

I am. And you’re from Beauty and the Beast.

I am. Among many other things, yes I am.

You’re playing the co-lead in this huge Disney movie, but we only see your face for a few minutes…

Well, actually, it is really my face for the whole movie.

Right, they used motion capture technology.

You know, the technology they ended up using, it was my face driving that digital mesh. And on the surface of it you would think, Oh, actually, I’m only in it for 10 minutes. But once I got my head around the technology, which initially was terrifying for everybody concerned because it’s never been used this extensively before. I couldn’t have made the movie if I had sat there for five months going, “This is never going to work.” You know, I had to believe – and everybody had to believe. And I had a great chat with Andy Serkis, who’s explored this technology but he’s never used it quite this way for any of his characters. I spoke to Mark Ruffalo, who had done something similar for Hulk, but not exactly the same – and he told me it would be impossible, which was frankly a spur.

Mark Ruffalo is not being very encouraging.

I know. So, if nothing else, I feel like I really want to take him to see the movie and see what he thinks.

And you were on stilts.

On stilts, yeah. The sort of layers and levels of challenges with this film were pretty infinite. And that was something, really, that both Andy and Mark were very, very helpful in kind of explaining that once you do wrap your head around it, it’s just the same as any other acting exercise. It’ll seem a bit odd, but after a while you’ll grow to love it. And I think it sounds like Mark had a pretty similar journey with Hulk where initially, there’s this kind of “What the hell” moment and then you realize just how fun this can be.

Beneath the technology and the character’s ferociousness, The Beast is kind of a sad sack.

But I think that’s the misconception right there in your question, really, that somehow all this technology would somehow erode any humanity. And I think actually now, what’s happening is that fantasy is getting pretty real. And especially with the beast, where he is not a beast. You know, to quote the beast, he’s not a beast, he’s a man who’s been cursed and turned into a beast. And there is still that humanity shining out through the eyes. It’s certainly the cornerstone of the Jean Cocteau version. You know, these very human, soulful eyes – Jean Marais’ eyes staring out mournfully. It felt incredibly futuristic every time I would go into this facility, and then to sort of step onto an 18th century French set and fuse those two things.

after my exam today i wanted to let out my stress on the piano (this poor guy has endured a lot of my angry banging) by playing the easiest possible fma piano piece i could find that didn’t bore me so i found this

have my quickly memorized performance ray of light (5th ending of fmab) and ignore my ridiculous rushing and lack of dynamics because i was mad

“I don’t look feminine!”

Hear that? It’s the sound of every crossdresser that has ever existed… probably…

OK, so it’s a bit of an exaggeration, but it’s something I’ve heard hundreds of times over and over from a whole plethora of crossdressers.

So… how do we fix this? Well it’s quite simple really. We don’t. Or more accurately, there’s nothing to fix.

That probably sounds as clear as mud, but hear me out and answer these questions to yourself:

  • Do many other crossdressers you see online look feminine?
  • Do you look feminine?

Chances are, you’ve answered ‘Yes’ (or at least ‘mostly’) to the first answer and ‘No’ to the second. So why is it that all these other crossdressers know how to look like the genuine article and your stuck here looking like your -very-manly-looking sister? What secrets aren’t they sharing?

It’s because they don’t think they look feminine either. And they’re probably asking the same questions of you.

The simple matter is, we’re all far too used to our own faces, and it’s not until you get to full on drag queen make-up can you actually alter your physical appearance. Think about any girl you’ve seen both with and without makeup; yeah they definitely look different, but you would recognise them all the same. The same goes for you.

Here’s an example of me:

You’d say I look quite feminine in this picture yes? Because I wouldn’t.

Does that mean you’re wrong? Or am I wrong? Well, neither really. But I know my face, in fact I know it quite well, and no amount of makeup is going to make me forget what I look like. 

Every single one of you will have the same issue, and there’s no solution for it because to find a solution you need to have a problem in the first place.

You might not think you look feminine. You might think you look like yourself with pink lipstick or softer skin or bigger eyelashes. You might think you’re looking at yourself except now you’re in a dress. You’re also the only one thinking any of these thoughts.

Don’t believe me? Go ask someone’s opinion! If you see another crossdresser and think they look feminine, tell them! I guarantee they’ll say the same back to you. And they’ll be telling the truth.

TL;DR - Stop whinging. You’re all beautiful and you only think you don’t look female because you’re so used to your own face.

I really hope this helps boost the confidence of some of you beauties out there! Stay strong, look gorgeous and don’t forget to share the love!

- Jessica Blaise x x