can you do one where josh and the reader are childhood best friends and grow up to be in love with each other?? but both don't know it! thanks love u :)
JOSH DUN IMAGINE
It was sort of inevitable for things to end the way they did. It was easy enough to tell from the start, just by looking at him. Y/N was quite simply the most beautiful human being on the earth, Josh had never had a doubt about it. How could he do anything but fall madly in love with you?
His friends tease him sometimes, Tyler and Mark poke fun at his zealous confessions of passion, because he’s only 18, after all. What does he know about love? But Josh knows all kinds of things that Tyler and Mark do not.
Y/N has been his best friend since before either of them could remember. Even though she was two years behind him in school, they’ve been stuck to each other like glue for years and years until they knew each other better than anyone else knew them. Most days it felt like they knew each other better than they knew themselves.
So Josh is a bit of an authority when it comes to Y/N. He knows exactly how she likes her coffee, and all the words to every song her favorite band sings. He knows why she hates wearing socks, and that her favorite color changes depending on the day of the week. And he knows more than that. He knows all of the things that Y/N is afraid of, and all of the daring adventures that she intends to have, written down on an old scrawly notebook titled “The Bucket List”, and a million other tiny little precious things that Y/N has never told anyone except for Josh.
That’s really what Josh is in love with, in the end. The beautiful little parts of Y/N that are reserved just for him.
The tricky part about it all is that there’s nothing that Josh can do about it . He’s fairly certain that if she felt anything more than friendship towards him, he would know. After all, he knows everything about Y/N, right? It’s pretty obvious to him that she sees him as nothing more than a friend, and Josh is still trying to be okay with that. He doesn’t have any other option. He can’t jeopardize his relationship with his best friend of fourteen years, so he’d rather suffer in silence than admit how completely, hopelessly, head-over-heels he is for the younger girl.
And if he secretly wants to punch every person Y/N ever touches, well, that’s his own business.
You’re like 99.99 percent sure that Josh Dun is the most idiotic person on the entire planet.
Normally that’s not a problem, because it’s Josh’s charming naivety that made you fall in love with the dark haired dork in the first place. He’s always the first to smile, even in the face of horrible situations, and the way that he continues to be excited and fascinated by a world that isn’t fair to him makes you physically, positively melt. No, idiotic Josh is usually nothing but beautiful to you.
But in this particular instance, the fact that Josh is too dumb to see that you’re in love with him drives you absolutely insane.
It’s not like you really expect anything to come of it, because when Josh looks at you with twinkling stars in his eyes, (the one that makes you go weak in the knees), it’s exactly the same charmed expression that he gives everything else. Josh is in love with the world, and you’re just a small part of it, so it’s not like you expect that if Josh knew how in love with him that you were, you both would ride off into the sunset and have a happily ever after or anything. But that doesn’t mean that there isn’t a part of you that wants Josh to know. Even if it made things weird between the two of you, you still wanted Josh to know… the affection drums that loudly in your chest.
But as Jenna has taken the pleasure to tell you at least 100 million times, droning on about a love for your best friend of almost a decade and a half was not such a good idea. So if keeping your mouth shut meant that you got to keep your best friend, well, you supposed that you were going to have to deal with it.
You were smart and mature enough to take steps to resolve the situation. Because this year was their last year. It was their last year together in school. Their last year living next door to each other. Their last year before everything changed, before Josh went off to college- You couldn’t just leave the situation unsettled. Being a high school student in love with your college-aged best friend, however many miles away, just had to be unhealthy, right? So you did the only thing you could think to do; you went out and got yourself a different boyfriend.
It’s probably one of the smartest moves of your entire high school career, you started hanging around the athletes and their group. And soon later, one of them asks you out. The instant you says yes, you’re in. And Michael really is gorgeous and he’s smart and sharp as a whip, and definitely the kind of person that you could fall in love with and not be miserable about it.
Except that you can’t.
You give the relationship a good go, spending a month and a half letting him take you out to movies and shopping and holding his hand and kissing. But the problem is that no matter how many dozens of good qualities he has, he doesn’t have everything that you need. He doesn’t have that one irreplaceable, deal-breaker quality.
He isn’t Josh Dun.
Meanwhile, oblivious Josh is trying to be a champ about it all. He grins enthusiastically with the news of your new relationship and cracks open a beer that he stole from his dad as you tell him. You search his face for a sign that he might be faking his excitement, that he might be even just a little disappointed that you have found a boyfriend, but there is none. Not that you expected there to be, because this is not about anything other than moving on. The goal here is not to make Josh jealous, because that would just be immature.
Josh is absolutely, positively, not at all jealous of any of Y/N’s new boyfriend, Michael, because that would be very juvenile of him.
He wants her to be happy, really, he does. Just because it wasn’t meant to be that Josh would be the one to make her happy doesn’t mean that he wants her to be alone forever. It’s good that she’s putting herself out there and looking for love. Josh sincerely hopes that she finds it. Even if it isn’t with him.
He’s sure the boiling pit of molted lava that appears in his stomach every time he sees her holding hands with that mammoth is just a coincidence.
You feel bad. You really do. At this point, you can’t even really fake it. Or rather you can- you’ve been faking a relationship with a sliver of intention including seeing if Josh would get jealous. But the more time you spent with Michael, the more you actually grow to like him. Like. Not love. He still wasn’t Josh. But it was enough to make your insides squirm with the guilt of leading him on.
“Hell, I’ll date him,” Jenna scoffs. “Michael’s such a babe, Y/N. And he’s sweet and kind. You really need to get over Josh. Accept that he’s just a friend and move on.”
You nod, genuinely absorbing Jenna’s advice. But you smile to yourself, because in that moment, you realize how wrong and unpleasant that sounds. You were in love with Josh. You would always be in love with Josh. And he had to know.
“This is different…” Josh tries to explain to Tyler one afternoon. They’re aimlessly playing video games when the topic of conversation happens to float to Y/N. “She’s different. This whole thing is just… different.”
“I know… but she’s dating Michael man. You gotta move on.”
Josh grips the controller extra hard and focuses his attention back on the TV.
It shouldn’t be this hard to be happy for his friend, and that isn’t fair to Y/N, but it’s different now that she and Michael have been together for so long. He couldn’t just “move on” like Tyler suggested. If it were that easy, he would have done it a long time ago.
Breaking up with Michael was harder than you expected. The way he pleaded and begged to know why burned a hole through your chest. The way he claimed to understand that it just “wasn’t right” made things hurt more. But once it was over and done with, you felt like a weight had been lifted off of your chest. Your next step was to find Josh, wherever that was.
Tyler tells you he’s home, so that’s where you head. No plan other than confusing you undying love. No big deal, right?
Josh is raiding the fridge when he hears a knock at the door. He turns to the sliding glass and is shocked to see Y/N standing, shivering in the cold.
The grape between Harry’s fingers gets crushed. “What’re you doing here?”
“I just came from Michael’s—” her voice does that high-pitched thing that it does when she’s about to disclose something and Josh snaps.
“I don’t want to hear it,” he sneers.
“What?” she says, pretending to be innocent.
“I don’t want to fucking hear it!” he repeats, because it’s the only thing he can think of to say. There are actual tears springing to his eyes and he can feel it. He’s about to become unglued. “You can’t- you don’t just-”
“Josh, you’re not making any sense,” she says, trying to sympathize.
“You can’t date him!” Josh half-shouts, reaching out to grab the counter with his hand.
“Josh,” she says gently, “calm down, it’s okay-”
“It isn’t!” he yells. “It isn’t okay! You can’t date Michael, you just- you can’t!”
“Hey,” she says desperately, palms out before her like she’s soothing a wild animal.
“I’m serious,” Josh says passionately. “you should be-”
He cuts himself off and bites his lip hard, looking away from Y/N with an expression that reads little more than misery. Josh swallows, heart pounding away in his chest all of a sudden.
“When I should be what?” she asks quietly.
“When you should be dating me!” The words burst out of Josh before he can stop them, and they just keep coming. “You’re dating other people, but it should be me who goes on dates with you and me who posts pictures of us kissing and it should be me you talk about to your friends because I just love you, okay?”
And before Y/N can get a word in, Josh is pressed up against her, one hand cradling the back of her neck and the other on her hip, crashing their mouths together in a kiss that’s messy and rough and mostly just in love.
Y/N lets herself go weak under Josh’s touch, lets Josh get out that first desperate rush of pressure before she starts to kiss back. And Y/N doesn’t particularly want to pull back and talk, so she hopes the way she moves her mouth gently back on Josh’s, expresses all of the “I love you, too, idiot” that Y/N wants to fire right back at him.
At some point the kiss should probably die out or at least get less desperate, but before long their hands are scabbling at one another like there’s space between them to eliminate, breathy little groans escaping from the crush of their lips. Y/N hears herself whimper a little, needy, and has to pull back for her dignity’s sake. “Shit.”
Josh grins, his stupid, cheeky little dimple appearing. “Better than Michael’s tongue?”
You blush furiously and try not to imagine whether Josh’s competitive spirit will lead him to prove his tongue’s worth in other arenas as well. “Yeah, well…. Yeah, you’re the best kisser out of anyone….”
“I love you,” he says again. This time looking directly into your eyes. “And I know you’re dating Michael and all that, but… it should be me. And I’m sorry if it’s rude to say that but—“
“Josh, stop,” you interject. “I broke up with him.”
“What?” he sputters.
“Just before I came here… I broke up with Michael.”
“For me?” he asks, in disbelief.
“‘Woah there…’” you say with a sly hint to your tone, “You haven’t even asked me out yet. Don’t get cocky.”
“Will you go out with me, Y/N?”
“Maybe. I’ll think about it,” you smile as you bring your lips together again.