you ever??? get disappointed almost when a part of you that u thought was special is actually fairly easily explained????
like…. idk like you do something and ur like “wow i didnt even know i did this i guess its just My Thing” and someones like “that tends to be a symptom of abuse/trauma/psychosis/paranoia/etc” and ur just like…… huh well i thought i was just neat or weird but ok
like its not bad when ppl tell u but its like lifting a curtain and there was so surprise…. it just makes sense