well it was worth the try

Studying - Jim Kirk

Requested by anonymous. 

“Jim, stop,” you said. He scoffed and you looked up at him. 


“You know what you’re doing.” You looked back down at your book, but could feel his eyes trailing over you again. You had clearly worn this low cut shirt for a reason, but you really needed to get some studying before hand. In some crazy turn of events, you had actually gotten Jim to come into the library, and you were going to get your worth’s. 

“I can’t look at my girlfriend?”

“Not when she’s trying to study. Come on, you could study, too. We have a huge exam on Tuesday.”

“I told you, I already studied.” Jim always said that, but you never saw him. He also always did incredibly well on his exams. For a while you thought he was cheating, but he promised you he wasn’t.

“Study some more.”

“There are other things I’d like to study,” he said. You rolled your eyes.

“Lame. If you really want to have my attention you’re gonna have to try harder.” He laughed and you fought of the urge to smile with him.

“Come on, we both know you’re bored.”

“It’s not a question of whether or not I’m bored. I need to study, so I am.”

“Fine. I’ll see if I can find anything good in the stacks.”

“What, like porn?” He snorted.

“Hopefully.” He walked away and you watched him for only a second before looking back at your book. You studied for a good six minutes before Jim was back.

“So.” You looked up when it was clear he wasn’t going to say anything more with anything less.


“There’s a corner of the library where people go to fuck.”

“Neat,” you said, looking back down at your book. Jim touched your hand and you looked back up at him.

“Let’s go.”


“Why not?”

“I’m not in the mood.”

“What if I help you study?” You cocked an eyebrow at him and he smirked.


“One hundred percent,” he said, flashing his charming smile.

“Fine. As long as you actually help me.” He smiled even wider and moved to your side of the table. He took the book from you and patted his leg. You looked at him in confusion before he picked up your feet and rested themo n his leg.

“Ready?” he asked. You nodded and listened as Jim started asking you questions. For a while, you were on fire, getting every question right. However, as Jim got further into the book, the less you knew. 

“I’m never going to learn this,” you grumbled, resting your head against your knee. The more you studied, the closer you got to Jim. You legs were now bent, with your feet still on his lap. He had one arm wrapped underneath your legs. 

“Yes you are,” he said, kissing the top of your head. “Come on, I know you know this.” He reread the question and you closed your eyes to try and picture the answer. Jim’s thumb brushed against your skin, and it eased your mind, letting you remember the answer.

“Nice!” Jim said when you answered. 

“Keep going.”

“I will.”

“No, I mean keep touching me.” He cocked his eyebrow this time and you laughed. “It relaxes me.”

“Don’t worry, you don’t have to tell me twice.” You smiled and Jim read the second question, tracing his finger over the piece of skin bared behind your ripped jeans. The answer came to you again and he smiled. “That’s my girl.” 

Over and over, Jim questioned you, and kept his hand on you. And every time, you got the question immediately. When he reached the end of the chapter, you opened your eyes, confused as to why he wasn’t reading anymore.

“We finished the chapter.”

“Well do the review questions at the en-”

“I did.”

“Really?” He nodded and you pulled your feet off of him. You put a hand on the back of his head and pulled him into a passionate kiss. He grinned into it and wrapped his arms around your waist, moving them softly against your shirt. “Thank you,” you said, pulling away for a moment.

“You know you don’t have to thank me like this.” You laughed and stood up, holding out your hand.

“Show me the way.” He smiled and stood up, trailing his hands up your waist as he did. He laced his hand in yours and kissed you quickly before leading you up one flight of stairs, and into the very back of the library. There was a corner of books that stood in the back. The stacks created a tiny, private area. You smiled at Jim and he mimicked it. 

You put your arms around his neck and started kissing him. Jim’s hand were exploring your waist and back. As your kisses started moving down his neck, he began backing you up against the stack of books. You groaned in slight pain and he smiled into your kiss. His hands traveled down to your legs and soon, he picked you up and wrapped your thighs around his waist. 

A second later, he was laying you down on the floor, never removing his lips from yours. He did eventually trail away, copying your kisses down your neck. He moved further, and soon he had to push your top to the side so he could place a few kisses and tugs on your breast. You moaned breathlessly and he smiled again. You put your hands up and he pulled your shirt off fully. 

He continued kissing down your stomach, until he came to the hem of your jeans. He looked up at you and you nodded. He started unbuttoning them and you kicked them off. He continued his kisses as he pushed your underwear to the side. His lips and tongue were cool down there and you moaned more than breathlessly. 

“You aren’t allowed to smile against me,” you said. He did again though and you moaned. He pulled away and started unbuckling his jeans. He was already mostly hard, and only a few strokes were needed to get him all the way there. He pushed inside of you, and you moaned loudly. He put his hand over your mouth and you laughed, nodding.


“Don’t be,” he said into your shoulder as he began pressing into you. You gripped his shoulders, trailing your hands over his back. He was rhythmic as he moved inside of you, and waited until you were both comfortable before picking up his pace. 

Jim continued this sped up movement until he nearly couldn’t, and in the end, he sped up more than he had before, just before finishing. You smiled as you felt his warmth inside of you, and a few moments later you finished, too. He pulled out of you smoothly and placed a kiss to your stomach. 

Since this was a public space, he handed you back your clothing and you both got dressed rather quickly. You remained seated on the floor, and you started making out with Jim. You were tucked in the corner of the shelves, that it took Leonard a moment before he realized it was you two. 

“Jesus!” he said, jumping back in surprise. His yell surprised you, too, and you jumped a little and knocked your head against the shelf.

“Dammit!” you said, holding your head. Jim put his hand over yours and looked at you worriedly.

“Nice job, Bones. You should have announced yourself.”

“You’re the ones hiding the the tiniest corner of the library. What are you even doing here?” Jim looked at you and you shrugged.

“Studying.” Bones rolled his eyes, clearly knowing what this corner was used for. 

“I just need a book.” He grabbed the right one from the shelf and put up his hand to say goodbye. “Go back to your studying.” You laughed and kissed Jim again when he was gone. 

“I think you’re the best study buddy I’ve ever had,” you said.

“Me too,” he said, closing the gap between the two of you again.

josshoskie  asked:

Just a hypothetical. What would you do if, say, another fan of a content creator begins attacking one of the creator's friends, whom you're also a fan of, for no good reason? Just, you know... *cough* hypothetically?

uHHHH this is kind of a confusing question…

like someone whos a fan of a youtuber starts attacking the youtubers friend whos also well known?

in that case I dunno, I just keep to myself, it depends on the situation.  Like is this publicly? is this private convos?  It honestly depends what the person is doing.

but the best way is to ignore haters.  Cause then they will eventually stop. They’re just angry and feel the need to ruin other peoples lives so they’ll try to ruin someone else’s mood.  Its not worth fighting especially since most of these people just don’t wanna hear it you know?

hope that helps haha.

haha oh yeah this sounds TOTALLY hypothetical B)


I’m sorry I’ve not been posting much lately.

I’m having a really hard time with anxiety and have entered an outpatient program to help manage my symptoms. So I’ll be putting most of my effort into trying to get well. Of course, if I come across something worth posting, I will. Because Hello Kitty is good for what ails you.

Be well.

Originally posted by rabinoalbino

phoebzreadz  asked:

Heyy I've read the post you reblogged about cognitive distortion and all the symptoms sound like things that anyone w low self esteem would think from time to time. When does it really become a cause for concern? x

Well, two things here. One, low self esteem is a cognitive distortion in itself and worth trying to combat through cognitive behavioral means. Two, the answer to your question is: when it’s a pattern. If you find yourself thinking these things on a regular basis, try to get to the bottom of why you’re thinking them. A therapist can REALLY help with this, if they’re worth their salt. It might be that you have a hang up about one particular subject or activity that relates back to some trauma in your history, and you may have to address that.

But the thing is, brains work on habits. Thoughts form neural pathways over time. So chances are you’re not just thinking it once and never again. Chances are it’s a pattern, whether large or small. The good news is that you can form new neural pathways by deliberately changing your thoughts. Every time you stop and choose to look at things more objectively (the suggestions in the post are good ones), you are building a new road in your brain for your thoughts to travel on. It might be a little slow. Think of it like building a real road. First it starts off that you’re just driving on no road, and it’s rough and difficult. Next it’s like a country dirt road, still rough but with a clear path. Then it’s a two lane gravel road, then paved, and eventually maybe months down the line, it’s such a habit you can categorize it as a highway. You think the new thoughts by habit, with almost no effort on your part. And you believe them. And you can act much more effectively when you view things through a more realistic lens. If you only need to adjust one part of your behavior to fix something, it’s counterproductive to think you have to fix all of it. So it’s worth learning new thought patterns because it will help you get the results you need to see.

anonymous asked:

Chapter 15 was amazing and well worth the wait!!! Your writing always makes me feel a whole range of emotions along side the characters, I laughed audibly @ the crucified chicken, kai's shenanigans, caroline and the cat & Damon being extra af. I got excited countless times, fluttery chest and all!! Teared up cause of damons panic attack it was painfully relatable but cathartic @ the same time. I'm living for the Bamon development & Bonnie calming him down it was beautiful to see him let her in

Ahhhh, this message makes me so, so, so happy, you have no idea! I always try to approach this fic as a character exploration story, shippy and tropey though it is, so I’m so glad it’s made you feel something for everyone, and that it made you feel such a wide range of emotions! Legit, my biggest gripe with things is when they only stick to one mood, like a hilarious story that never packs any weight or an angsty story that doesn’t even know what humor is, so hearing that this is making you both laugh and cry is amazing, man. And yay for Bamon development - plenty more of that coming around! You’ll see this at the beginning of 16, but Damon is Shook™ when he snaps back into reality and realizes he practically melted into Bonnie, so there’s a bunch of tension to play with there. Especially with Kai in the mix, missing social cues left and right. Anyway, thanks so, so much for the message, and hopefully 16 will be out in a few weeks! (haha.) (ha.)

that kind of love that’s “i was scared until i found you.” that kind of love that’s worth it to try romance again. the “fuck i’ll try cheesy if it just makes you smile” love, the roses and love notes and wine bottles. the twinkle light love, the “let’s go on this romantic date only to spend the whole thing being silly” love, the dancing badly to slow songs love, the “i don’t know how you make me laugh so much but seriously stop it i’m trying to drive” love. the “i trust you love,” calling late at night because a secret just welled up in my throat love, the first person i talk to so i can figure out this decision is you kind of love. the “i was hurt before and had given up but then i found you” love, the incredulous in-awe love, the wonder love, the are you actually real or am i dreaming you love. the “i didn’t believe in soulmates before you” love. that kinda love.


Hot dang…

An incredible orchestrated medley of Undertale songs that resurrected this blog from the dead.  Exquisite arrangement with beautiful playing.  Toby Fox himself tweeted about it on Twitter.  

0:04 - Determination (speech intro)
1:07 - Spear of Justice
2:47 - sans.
3:32 - Papyrus (Bonetrousle)
4:32 - Bergentrückung / Asgore
5:45 - Toriel (Heartache)
6:39 - Asgore (reprise)

I have no words to say except that I love pretty much everything about this, and I highly recommend you give this a try if you like good things.  It’s a little on the longer side.  It is well worth the length.

Also the second half of the song is quite possibly my favorite Undertale performance of all time.  It’s at least top five.


Well… I’d say it was worth the time to make this. 

Also I saw the post about Nathanael being Jewish, (which was during the sketching of this comic), so I tried to change his wording so it could stay true to that. Hopefully saying Happy holidays is slightly better for Nathanael, just know I’m not trying to offend anyone :3

I hope everyone is having a good Holiday season, whether you celebrate Christmas or not, and thank you to everyone who helped me through this semester of school. I’m on my last week, so know I will be drawing a lot once it’s done! Whoohooo!

Oh and the colouring style is inspired by @zhdskanf10 on Twitter


I am Moana of Motunui. 
You will board my boat,
Sail across the sea with me,
And restore the heart of Te Fiti.

This shoot was super fun and pretty impromptu since I went on a Medical Mission with my mum in Palawan and I decided to take advantage of the location and did a shoot as well during our Island Hopping! Hella worth it.

And I know, I haven’t posted in forever, I know, but it’s because I’ve been trying to figure my life out ahaha. Hope y’all forgive me for that! ;-;

Photography by my lovely mum

I forgive you.

you never apologized for everything that you ever put me through and you probably didn’t even notice any of it because people usually don’t notice things they dont care about, and thats what I was to you. I was just another person that existed, I was just another person that made you feel like you were worth something.

All you ever did was make me feel incomplete. I’d look at myself for hours until I could no longer recognize anything in trying to figure out why you don’t love me in the way I put love into you.
And even if you didn’t love me in that way, why couldn’t you at least be a good damn friend.

but you never gave me a thing. and I used to stay up at night trying to convince myself that you cared about me when I knew damn well you never did.
I always knew what I was to you but I tried to ignore it for so long, I convinced myself otherwise because when you know that the person that you love, does not even give a damn about you something inside you shuts off and I couldn’t deal with that and I didn’t want to accept that so I kept trying to see something that was never there.
I think thats what destroyed me in the end, knowing the reality of what we were but trying to look past that and find something that wasn’t there.
I was looking for so long, I got lost and forgot what I was looking for.
and I forgive you.
I forgive you for all of it, I forgive you for the nights I stayed up crying because you chose her. I forgive you for leaving and then coming back just so you could leave all over again. I forgive you for the things that you said when you and i both knew you didn’t mean them. and I forgive you for using me to try and fill the hole that she left in you. I forgive you for using me as a fix for your confidence because throughout everything all I ever saw was how great you are, and all you ever did was feed of that.

and now I forgive myself.
I forgive myself for everything that I put myself through. I forgive myself for letting myself believe that you really were the greatest part of me. I forgive myself for loving you when you weren’t worth a damn thought.

because after stepping away, I see it all so clearly now. After I accepted what I really was to you, everything else made more sense.
I destroyed myself in loving you and for that I am so sorry but when I say I forgive you, I mean I forgive myself, I forgive giving so much of myself to someone that didn’t care how my day was going. I forgive myself for all the hurt I endured.

—  I have to let go, and to do that I need to forgive.
She really likes dogs...

Meeting a phantom dog guarding a library:

DM: Its growls and snarls at you.

Bard: I throw it a ration.

DM: it snarfs it down and growls a little less.

Bard: I throw it another.

DM: it snarfs it down and burps.

Fighter: I hold a ration out in my hand to it.

DM: it snaps at your hand.

Fighter: Is it holding on?

DM: it’s trying to…

Fighter: I hold out my hand still.

DM: Well then thats… 2 points of damage

Fighter: I still hold it out.

DM: that’s another 8 points…

Fighter: Puppyyyyyy…….

DM: that’s 19 points. How long are you gonna lose your fingers?

Fighter: Worth it, I got to pet a dog.

(Later as we backtrack)

Fighter: Is my puppy still there??

DM: No, it’s on the other side of the two secret doors.

Fighter: Can I go through?

DM: (exasperated) I don’t care.

Fighter: I go through!

DM: Fine it eats your arm.

Honestly my favorite character from Zootopia isn’t Judy or Nick, it’s Gideon Grey. Don’t get me wrong, I love both Nick and Judy. But Gideon just stuck in my mind. Despite having very little screentime, like maybe 5 minutes tops, he is very well fleshed out and shows legitimate character growth. He started out as a nasty, temperamental bully who seeks out and antagonizes people who are weaker than him, who he knows he can overpower. And the movie could’ve left it at that, leaving him as nothing more than a childhood obstacle to Judy. But INSTEAD, the movie acknowledges that he wasn’t just an obstacle, he was a living, breathing person who existed outside his narrative function, with his own obstacles he was trying to overcome. The movie also acknowledges that most bullying is a consequence of insecurity and low self-worth. And based off his dialogue, he also probably attended therapy to help deal with these problems. “I had a lot of self-doubt, and it manifested itself in the form of unchecked rage and aggression.” Also, during his first appearance he embodies the very worst of toxic masculinity. Belligerent, smug, and self-absorbed. But as an adult, he’s humble, kind, and apologetic. Plus he’s a baker, which is traditionally not a very masculine attribute. In many ways he’s the antithesis to Nick. Nick starts out as an idealistic youth trying to make the world a better place, and as an adult has evolved into a cynical jackass. Whereas Gideon started out embodying every aspect of foxes that made them seemingly untrustworthy and as an adult has evolved into a contributing member of society. Also it’s my headcanon that he struggles with self-doubt because he’s gay in a traditionally conservative environment. TL;DR Gideon Grey is an amazing character despite having almost no screentime. And also he’s super adorable. 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

Originally posted by tempusfelis

Top Secrets of Straight-A Students by Bullet Journals

1.) They get to class early. Getting to class early gives you time to be prepared and ready to study. Review your notes from the day before, lay out all your supplies (notebook, water bottle, pens, etc). You can also ask the teacher any questions you had about the material.

2.) They get ahead. The second they get an assignment, no matter when it is due, they do it. This is so so helpful. Do NOT procrastinate. You just end up being exhausted and tired. It’s not worth it. You might as well finish once you get it. Life will be so easy, believe me.

3.) They have an organized schedule. They figure out a schedule that works for them. They make sure to include time for extracurriculars, breaks, meal times, etc. Try to map out EVERY SINGLE MINUTE of your day. 

4.) They prepare. They lay out their clothes for the next day, they finish their homework early, they even plan out what they will have for their meals for the next few weeks and what exercises theyt will be doing.

5.) They enjoy learning and want to learn. They aren’t just there because they have to be. They have a strong desire to learn. When you want to learn (even if you fake it) you usually do better on exams and papers.

6.) Everything is organized. Their desk has nothing on it but their Mac, their pens are neatly on the shelf in small cups, they make their beds the second they get out of bed. They have a filing system, so the second they get papers back they put them in the files. When everything of yours has a home it’s a lot easier to study and be productive.

7.) They treat school like their job. They may have other part-time jobs, but they know that school is their main focus, and it should therefore be treated as a job. Not wanting to be fired from your job corresponds with not wanting to fail your classes. They therefore work as hard as they can and try to “impress” the boss.

8.) They give it everything they have. They are dedicated, have goals, and know what they want. They don’t want to “just get through high school/college.” They want to learn, they want to become successful, and most are even aiming for goals such as valedictorian. They won’t accept B’s or C’s. (Please note that while it is very good to have high standards, getting a lower grade once in awhile isn’t that big of a deal!!!)

9.) They keep themselves happy and healthy. They take well deserved breaks (only when everything is done), they have “off” days, they get enough SLEEP and WATER, and they keep themselves fit doing yoga, running, cardio, etc.

10) They don’t mind helping other people. They don’t turn a blind eye to people who need help. Instead they use it as a teaching experience, and help the student through the problem or whatever they need help with. Teaching people is super helpful. I sometimes write on my whiteboard and pretend that I am teaching an imaginary (I’m such a loser but it helps;).

I hope you guys enjoyed this post!  Add your own tips below!

…I hate myself. I feel like an idiot saying it because, blah, blah, teen angst, boo hoo, but I do. I hate myself. Almost all the time. I try not to tell anyone because I don’t want to burden them, but I feel like I’m falling farther and farther away from them. Like the well’s getting deeper and I’m running out of energy to climb it and any minute now, any second, it’s going to stop being worth even trying.
—  The Rest of Us Just Live Here

this is going to sound so stupid but we absolutely, absolutely have to love ourselves right now. I really believe that. despair is one of the most paralyzing forces i can think of, and the ability to love and heal ourselves is connected to our ability to be just as powerful as the people who made this decision tonight. absolutely every second we spend breathing right now is precious and valuable and worth fighting for like I know that’s gay but it’s really true, loving ourselves isn’t the solution but it’s so central to being able to organize, to go out and be visible, to connect and love and see value in other people as well. im trying to learn that too. 

Just because you don’t get along well with someone, or you disagree with someone, or you have differences in opinion that can’t be resolved, doesn’t mean that you’re a bad person. You can’t be best friends with everyone, and shit happens. No one is ever going to get along with everyone. It doesn’t make you a bad person to see a friendship end like this. It just means that you are still learning about who you are and what values you believe are worth defending. Even if it ends badly, try to look on the bright side: everybody learns from these moments. You can walk away with the knowledge that you have learned and that you have a better sense of self because of it.

Friendship is, in my opinion, one of the most difficult relationships to maintain and one of the most difficult things to get over if it ends. When it’s over, it’s hard to accept it because you became friends for a reason; you have good memories with this person that a part of you wants to relive. But you should listen that other part of you that’s saying it’s okay to move on and let it go. It’s okay to give yourself a little space and to let yourself breathe. It’s okay if you need to be on your own for a bit. And it’s perfectly okay to move on even if it was your fault, or if it was theirs, or if it was both or neither or you’re not sure.

This is your life to live and you don’t have to let this hold you back. Keep your head up. Think it through. (You’re not a bad person. Everybody is not for everybody.) Let yourself heal. And move on when you’re ready.


And you don’t know what [Jackie] is doing at Marquette. Or who. Man, she said she wouldn’t do anything. Yeah, but I bet if she did, you’d cry because you love her. You can’t make someone like Hyde do anything. You have to deal with him the way he deals with you. Look, pretend you don’t care what he does, and he’ll come around. Well, I guess it’s worth a try. You know, being with a real man is complicated.